#a lil lore note i never mentioned before: tauvane was once dedicated to halone and wanted to become a nun to get away from her family

[sealrock]

Who do they most regret meeting?

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answering for tauvane

30. Who do they most regret meeting?

instead of one person, tauvane actually regrets meeting two people, and they both had major impacts on her life

first was count zeumont, an undercover heretic and the man who essentially ruined her life by getting her addicted to dragon blood. what started as disinterest became something bigger for tauvane in her youth. something about him was vaguely exciting to her

while she knew the consequences of getting involved with a man like zeumont, someone above her station in social status and wealth, on top of her obligations to the convent she devoted herself to, she continued pursuing him as he did her. he took advantage of her naivete, her lack of self-esteem, and her desire to be loved. in the end she turned out to be something she's always hated, a monster

the second person was achille's father, a man named takami. takami was a simple man with nothing to his name and an obscured past, just his family of pirates on the ruby sea. tauvane was a stranger to the ruby sea who was injured and needed help. tauvane didn't mean to get attached to him, their relationship was nothing more than casual. but takami was the first person she met that made her feel human, someone who was genuinely cared for and valued

in a short moment tauvane imagined a life with him, a life with the confederacy and starting over fresh. she thought she could leave her traumas behind in ishgard, but they were like a shadow constantly at her back. and when the effects of her dragon blood addiction started becoming visible, she feared his reaction and dreaded the thought of being abandoned again, so she abandoned him—but not quite. she regrets meeting takami for multiple reasons; she believes that she took advantage of someone who deserved better. but by leaving she robbed a father of meeting his son, and a son who never knew his father

ty for the ask @crowdsourcedloner!