#adora is messed up af in this au

[parts-of-spop]

In which the Portal changes things a bit...

Part 10/? AU in which Catra switched with another version of herself when she pulled the lever and it has some unexpected consequences… The main one being that Adora isn’t so nice… until she is. But the fight isn’t over... and Adora is struggling... A lot...

Adora holds Glimmer's wary gaze for a long moment in which Catra can feel herself start to sweat with her building anxiety, her fur sticking to her skin. Gross. She scratches at the damp and itchy fur on the back of her neck. Then Adora is striding forward, shoulders squared and head held high and she doesn't blink as the princess squad tense around her warily, eyes on Glimmer the entire time. She plants herself in front of her... then sinks to a knee, bowing her head and pressing the knuckles of her right fist to the ground, her other hand resting on her knee. "I humbly offer my complete and unconditional surrender to you, Queen Glimmer... I will willingly concede to any punishment you see fit," She says, voice steady and calm and acceptant. Catra grimaces, eyes flicking to Glimmer, panicked and pleading. Don't hurt her. She's hurting enough. Glimmer, for her part, looks bewildered. "I... I'm not going to punish you, Adora," She says haltingly, glancing to Catra with a small reassuring smile. Adora tenses, her head lifting slowly to look up at the Queen. "I... I don't understand, your highness. I have... I have committed atrocities to your people. You are well within your right to... to have me locked away for the rest of my life, to have me tortured until death or even immediately executed!" She rambles frantically and Catra inches nearer slowly, pained at the broken plea in her voice. Punish me for this, it says, I deserve to be punished. Glimmer looks a mix of disturbed and completely horrified. A quick glance around the room shows the sentiment is shared even with the tougher eggs to crack. "We... We don't do that here, Adora... We're not going to hurt you," Glimmer says with a gentle shake of her head and Adora is shaking. She doesn't understand. She can't understand this kindness. "I... I haven't earned your mercy!" She protests, her voice cracking and then Catra is sinking down beside her and she flinches a tad on reflex only to relax immediately when she realises who it is. "Adora... you don't have to earn it," Catra murmurs gently and she raises a hand to stroke the back of her finger down Adora's cheek, tracing the scar there. "Nobody's gonna hurt you..." "I-... I did terrible things. Things I can't take back. It's not right for me to just-" "Adora," Glimmer interjects and she looks up hastily; fearful but so accepting of an impending hurt. Glimmer bobs down in front of her on the balls of her feet, leaning on her staff. Then she smiles sadly. "I am the Queen... and when I say we aren't going to punish you, I mean it. Nobody in this room wants to see you suffering, Adora..." She says, voice firm but warm and Catra finds herself internally reeling at how messed up it was for her to hate her. She doesn't have a mean bone in her body. "You've been hurting a long time... haven't you?" She adds, softly questioning as her head tilts slightly with her inquiry and Adora swallows hard. "I... I was punished... for my failures. It was just-" "Adora..." Glimmer interrupt again, not unkind but pleading and Adora falters, lips moving soundlessly for a moment. "Shadow Weaver, she-... I disappointed her. I wasn't strong enough and... and I kept making stupid mistakes..." She trails off and then her head is hanging in shame, her eyes clenching shut, fingers so tight around her own knee that her knuckles turn white. Catra stares at her, mute with horror as she realises just what made Adora turn out so broken. She suffered the same abuse I did... She took it all... Maybe worse judging by the scars. "Adora you... you never said," Catra whispers shakily and Adora's jaw clenches. "I had to protect you. It kept you safe… that was all I cared about," She replies firmly and Catra has the sudden urge to throw up. No wonder she has a complex... Shit. "Adora, that's..." She trails off before she can say it but Adora hears it anyway. Crazy. She goes rigid with tension and Catra immediately wishes she could take it back as Adora growls at her, blue eyes flashing to look at her. "Crazy?" She grumbles

through her teeth and Catra winces. "That's because I am fucking crazy! Do you know how many times over the years I've snapped and someone has called me that?! Do you have any idea for how long the only thing keeping me somewhat sane was you?!" Catra hastily waves Glimmer back from intervening when Adora abruptly grabs her by the front of her shirt, pulling her closer roughly to sneer into her face. But Catra isn't worried; she knows Adora is just frustrated and scared and that she feels cornered when surrounded by all these people she was fighting just a few days ago. Besides that, Adora's words are tearing her heart to pieces. Man, she could smack her other self across the face for being so blind to everything... for letting Adora hurt so much and doing nothing. "Hey... Hey easy, I don't think you're crazy..." Catra breathes gently, resting her hand over the one fisted in her shirt as Adora heaves with ragged breaths, eyes wild and a little unhinged to be sure but Catra would never call her crazy. She meant the situation was crazy, never Adora... She's just hurt. She's just damaged. Adora looks down at their hands then slowly slackens the grip, her face softening. "I... I didn't mean to- I grabbed you, I'm sorry. I know you hate that," She says, voice shaky with guilt and grief and before Catra can say anything to soothe her, she's already fussing over her, smoothing out the creases and mumbling apologies. "I'd never hurt you. Never never never. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry..." She rambles frantically and Catra takes her trembling hands, stilling them against her and wide, frightened eyes dart up to her face. Catra smiles as soothingly as possible. "It's okay... I wasn't worried..." She says calmly and Adora stares at her mutely. "Do I look scared to you?" Catra adds urgently and after a long, long moment, Adora shakes her head minutely then carefully lifts Catra's hands up to her face, holding them to her cheeks. She shudders and her eyes close as a shaky sigh escapes her. "Sorry..." She mumbles barely audibly, unable to help herself and Catra leans in to rest her forehead to that of the blonde, purring softly to soothe her. She could really do with this not happening as a giant display but Adora needs her so pride be damned, she's gonna expose herself as a massive sap. Fuck it, right? Might as well commit. "It's alright, sweetheart... You're okay," She says softly and Adora immediately sags in relief. That's about when Catra notices the room has gone bizarrely quiet and she realises with no small trace of relief that there only appears to be one person lingering in the room with them, possibly just as a precaution. "Did... Did I just fuck it all up?" Adora asks hesitantly. "No, honey, you're fine. They left to give us space." "All of them?" Adora quips tentatively and Catra glances around without pulling away from the touch and eyes Glimmer by the doorway holding some sort of silent vigil, her focus locked on the door. "Just Glimmer left," Catra replies quietly and Adora winces. "Is she mad?" She presses warily. "Nobody's mad, Adora," Catra says, a sad sigh in her voice. Clearly Adora's issues won't be eased any time soon. "Sorry..." "Stop apologising, you're killing me here, you dummy," Catra murmurs and after a beat, Adora squeezes the hands she's still holding. "Okay." It sounds weak but it's the best Catra is gonna get from her right now and it'll have to be enough.

[curiousscientistkae]

oh yeah since I have new peeps here is a rundown of myshe ra kiddos +finally adding some i never talked about. Ages are just to show gaps between kids, they are not "canon". Under the cut stuff. I uh....ramble

Glimmadora:

Harper-20, eldest daughter/child. Born Feb 1st. She/Her, Demi-Bi. Heir to Brightmoon, gets called 'AJ' (Adora Jr) a lot by Glimmer since she looks and acts a lot like Adora. Has shoulder length two toned blonde hair (top half light like She-ra, bottom darker like Adora) with sparkles at the edns, sparkling purple eyes shaped like Adora's, tan skin like Glimmer, glasses, sometimes wears a hearing aid in her right ear. Has cream/purple wing markings on her back that later will turn into feathery cream wings with purple tips.

Sound based powers (cause my brain was like light and sound) but still can create light stuff they just make sounds also. Also can turn invisible. Being unable to control the powers as a toddler, she lost her hearing in her right ear. Everyone in the family knows sign language.

Smart af, witty, as the eldest of all the kids can be protective to a fault, anxious, wants to not fuck up and be a great queen. Will overwork herself and is a perfectionist, though can be forgetful. Is a great shoulder to lean on/be listened to.

Grows to 6' (she got them angella genes (who is alive in this au, not micah) and athletic build like Adora. Named to match the 'er' at Glimmer's name, her sound powers, and the Lyra constellation. Glimmer was the one to have her.

Mira-13, youngest daughter eldest twin. Born July 9th. She/Her, Lesbian, about 5 mins older than Micah. Powerless Princess. Got her great aunt and grandpa's hair color, pale skin (same as Adora), ice blue eyes shaped like Adora's, freckles on face. Usually has hair in ponytail held up by that butterfly pin from princess prom. Also almost always has a red cloak around her. Called 'Mimi'

Born with no magic and not connected to the moonstone (long story short in my au, First Ones cannot use magic without help or it will kill them. Mira got the most FO genes thus she cannot use magic. Whole ass idea i need to explore). Tries to make up for it with fighting skills. While she doesn't show it a lot, she hates the fact she is powerless and will not grow wings either.

Clever, rebellious, loves to explore. Can have a temper to her, wears her heart on her sleeve. Natural born leader. Butts heads with her mothers the most and has run away a few times (once for a very very long time heh). At the end of the day, she doesn't want to be in the shadow of anyone/wants to make her own mark.

Grows to 5'6", chubby build like Glimmer. Named to match the 'ra' in Adora's name and the 'Mi' in Micah's name. OG she was going to have healing powers before I got rid of that so it was also sort for Miracles. 'Mira' is a star, one that is an actual shooting star. Adora was the one to have her

Micah-13, youngest child only son. Born July 9th. He/Him and They/Them. Demi-Boy. Bi, about 5 mins younger than Mira. Has spell powers. Messy, chin length dark purple hair (the same shade as the bottom half of Glimmer's hair), sky blue eyes with sparkles and shaped like Glimmer's, freckles on face. Light tan skin (between his sisters). Has purple wing markings on back and later will get purple feathered wings. Called MJ (Micah Jr) or Mickey

Like his grandfather, great aunt, and Ma before him, he can use spells. Struggles with it but eventually learns he is best at defensive ones. They look up to many of the guards in the castle and wants to be one when he grows up.

Quiet, soft spoken, nervous boy. Def keeps his twin sister from doing something totally stupid. Trusting, sometimes too much, can hold grudges if wronged badly. Tries to see the best in others. Named to honor his grandfather, they want to live up to them and be a great sorcerer

Grows to 5'11, more avg/a bit stocky build. Named to match the 'Mi' with Mira and as Micah is dead in this still (i made them a long time ago) after him. Adora was the one to have them.

Scorpia's Kid

Onca-13, only child of Scorpia. Born May 4th. They/Them. Non-binary Pan. Magicat/Scorpion. OG a scorptra kid but Catra no longer with Scorpia. Has medium length snow white hair, usually in a small pony tail, light brown skin, amber eyes (only iris has the color not the whole eye). Cat fangs and white cat tail. Has those scorpion shouler pads and venom their fangs (not as strong as their mother's) and blue blood. No fur. Called 'Onc' or by Scorpia her 'Lil' Kitling'

Has electrical powers like Scorpia. Venom will only make the part they bite numb, does not fully knock anyone out. Is quick on their feet.

Laid back, quick to adapt, resting bitch face, can be a little lazy, sometimes acts without thinking, and easily distracted. Before growth spurt, they were small and grew a hatred of being seen as always needing help. Just a gentle giant really.

Grows to 6'3, strong build like Scorpia. Named after the latin species name of the Jaguar.

(i so need to work and the following kids more rip)

Bowfuma

Robin-18, eldest son/child of Bow and Perfuma. Born March 20th, He/Him. Gay. Dark brown skin, dark brown, short hair, dark brown eyes. Wears glasses. Has plant powers. Called Robby. Heir to Plumeria.

Plant powers are a WIP kind of, might be like Perfuma or a little dif but is connected to the Runestone. Knows some archery but prefers a crossbow.

Self assured, he knows who he is and what he wants to do, fair-takes both sides of an argument into account. Is the least likely to cause shit. Can be messy and hates when his things are moved. Procrastinator.

Grows to 6', lean build. Named after both Robin Hood, the archer, and the bird

Eliza-16, only daughter. Born Sept 15th, She/Her, Aro/Ace. Dark brown skin, dark brown hair in two braids, dark brown eyes, freckles. Needs glasses but wears contacts. Powers allows her to talk to animals. Called 'Liza'.

Also connected to the runestone, Eliza and talk to animals. She actually started to talk to them before speaking to her parents. When she talks to them, to others it sounds like she is making the animal sounds.

Passionate and loves animals. While her cousin Mira puts her energy into trouble, she puts it into being outside and building things or helping her mom and dad. Hates being stuck inside. Can be whimsical. Loves to be challenged and doesn't back down from stuff, even when maybe she should. Can be a bit dense.

Grows to 5'8", lean build. Named after Eliza Thornberry.

Ash-15, youngest of their siblings. Born Nov 23rd. He/She/They genderfluid. No real label-uses queer. Medium brown skin, medium length, wavy blonde hair, dark brown eyes. Freckles. Has no powers but does not mind it at all.

Unlike his younger cousin, Mira, Ash does not care they do not have powers or are not next in line for the thorn. They are happy to just learn from their father or others. Kind of a jack of all trades.

Has a big heart and a love for all life. Once she is set on something, she sees it through to the end. Very observant of the world and what goes on in it. Can be impatient and doesn’t always take things seriously. Jokes way to often. Free-spirit

Grows to 5'10", thin build like his mom. Named after the type of tree which you could use to make a bow.

Seamista

Newt-18, oldest and only son of Sea Hawk and Mermista. Born Dec 11th, Trans Man He/Him, Pan ace. Dark brown skin, dark brown eyes, short blue hair. Has no runestone powers but can still turn into a merman when in the water.

Newt was next in line for the throne but stepped down, not liking the idea of being a king. He likes to spend time at the beach, swimming, and enjoying being in the sun. Usually keeps his sisters from killing each other.

Hard worker, does not usually slack off, does hate being in the spotlight. Humble. Good at reading emotions. Can lose track of time easily. Has his mother's dry sense of humor. Will faint at the sight of blood

Grows to 5'7", build like Sea Hawk. Named for the salamander that is associate with fire. And with it being an amphibian and transitioning from one stage to another, kind of works there also.

Sandra-15, oldest daughter. Born Mar 7th, She/Her, Pan. Medium brown skin, brown eyes, dark long brown curly hair. Has water based powers (still a WIP whoops). Can turn into a mermaid when in the water.

After her brother stepped down, she is now the heir to her kingdom. Still working a bit on her powers but is connected to the runestone. FIGHTS with her sister all the time.

Very much a girly girl, loves pink, skirts, sparkles, all that jazz. Takes her role as princess seriously. Dutiful and punctual. Hates messes, likes things to be neat. Does not like things randomly being dropped on her.

Grows to 5'8", Mermista's body build. Nickname is Sandy and is called that the most. Named cause yeah....sandy.

Yamuna-12, youngest child/daughter. Born Apr 13th, She/Her, Greyromo/sexual Lesbian. Long blue hair though will dye it many colors, usually orange, light brown skin, brown eyes. Water powers. Cannot fully turn into a mermaid when in the water, just gets webbing and gills.

She can control the temperature of the water around her, freezing it or boiling it at will. Is a great sailor

Pure Sea Hawk child, pretty much his clone. Wild, hyper, will set shit on fire. Takes pride in everything she does. Will blurt out things without thinking and can be pushy. Doesn't like to be told to do things. Zero filter.

Grows to 5'2", small body build. Named after one of the largest rivers in India.

(these guys are VERY WIP so not much to them)

Ada-Entrapta child, on the younger end. Adopted, trans woman, het. Does love robots and what not, helps their mom out a lot. Probably can run on little sleep and still be fine. Name was given to me by my good friend Dorku named after Ada Lovelace, a mathematician and first computer programmer. Very close with Onca

Luka and Felix-Catra's sons, adopted. Both magicats. Catra moves away from everyone and wouldnt really come into focus until much much later when Mira runs off. Luka and Felix idk ages yet but are only a year apart in age. Luka means light (he is one of Catra's lights now) and Felix is a cartoon cat. Would become close friends with Mira later on

(im too lazy to proof lmao and free to ask questions or change stuff up lmao god)