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mintjeru · 2 years

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The symptoms you’re describing sounds a whole lot like burn out, which happens to the best of us when we push ourselves too long and hard past our limits. It definitely would seem easier to rely on external statistics (likes and reblogs/retweets) to determine the value of your work when you can’t see it yourself, but this is definitely something that can make you feel worse when the numbers don’t hit your expected target. Regardless of the size of your audience, it’s not unreasonable to want or desire for interaction and positive feedback for work you’ve put time and effort into producing, especially when you’ve done so with more limited resources (time/energy etc) than you had access to before. While it’s not a sure-fire way to cure burnout, taking a break and getting enough rest as well as allowing yourself some breathing space can help. Take care of yourself! Love your work—but don’t burn yourself down to the ground! There’s only one like and one reblog that I can give 😢 even if I want to give more…

hey anon! first, thank you for taking the time to write and send this in 🥺 second, it's a bit of a late reply bc i started crying while reading this for the first time and had to come back to it later ajdsdjfsjdf ;;;

you're probably right, i think it is burnout. i've been telling myself otherwise for months now bc i've been worried that the frequency of my posts has set myself up for others to expect something of me + not making art to share would be letting my followers down. but that's also locked me in a cycle of feeling guilty for either not drawing or making something that has no love behind it. logically, i know that taking a break would help, but i'm apparently not the best at allowing myself to take it easy 😅 still, i'll take your words to heart.

ty again for this, and i promise your one like and reblog is enough! i'm thankful that you leave notes on my posts and immensely grateful that you would even consider giving more <3

#no bc why did i think it was a good idea to scroll through posts about b.ts enlistment after my first read through #all that did was make me cry harder sdfsjds though i guess that goes to show how long i've been unconsciously worried about this #regarding the thing about posting and getting attention #that's definitely correct and it feels weird to admit bc it's extrinsic motivation #i obviously draw for my own happiness and it's been that way my entire life #but ever since i started sharing my art on social media i've been exposed to external validation from strangers #the main reason i started this blog was to challenge myself and see if people aside from irl friends/family actually think my art is good #and i secretly hoped i could make some friends along the way bc. it was a very lonely point in my life #so ig you're right it isn't Bad to want others to acknowledge your hard work #it's definitely just a different experience that i'm constantly in the process of accepting #but ty again anon i'm giving you a hug rn #or if you don't like hugs then i am shaking your hand or smth #if you're one of the ppl that consistently leaves notes on my posts then i'm sure i recognize your username when it pops up in my notifs #and even if you aren't one of them i still appreciate the notes and ofc this ask #anyway i hope you're having a nice day!#letter

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