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So im gonna start going by Riley

Been thinking it over for a couple weeks and it feels right. Like I've never been a fan of my legal name. Its never felt like me. Also my synesthesia gives some words a texture and for some reason Olivia has an AWFUL texture. And its almost physically painful to say it out loud and it always has been. Hearing other people say it isn't as bad but it still makes my ears tingle a bit so its not pleasant. Olive doesn't have the same feel so I was alright using that for a while but its still never felt like me.

And I tried to think of a new name for myself as a kid but I still thought I was supposed to be a girl back then so I was trying to come up with girls names and none of those ever felt right either.

But Riley's more gender neutral. And ive always liked the name Riley. Ive never wanted kids but I always thought that if I had a kid I'd name them Riley. And then I was trying to think of a new name for myself again and I was like "....I have absolutely no interest in having kids. Why don't I just...name myself Riley."

Like why save it for a kid thats not likely to ever exist, right?

#rileys also nice to say #very smooth texture #any word that starts with the sound ri feels smooth #and words ending in ly also feel smooth #so riley feels extra smooth #also nicer to write in cursive #i hate writing olivia in cursive so much #the transition from v to i looks bad #almost went by sophie for awhile in highschool cuz i had two separate teachers call me sophie on accident #and my mom almost named me sophie #sophie is VERY nice to write in cursive #very loopy word #feels soft #still not me tho #idk how to describe the texture that olivia has but saying it makes me feel like my brains being stabbed #its something about the sound of iv followed by ia #i almost went with james but then i said it with my last name and uhhhhhh #lets just say a certain author thats written so many books its become a bit of a meme also has that name and it didnt feel right enough #to risk people thinking i named myself after him

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