#also :’) mabel falling asleep next to him was sooo

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sorry charles babygirl but oliver knows how obsessed you are with him

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Mabel is Bi Headcanon

She started questioning her sexuality sometime during her boy crazy phase

She brushed it off as her hormones acting up and all that jazz

Until she couldn't keep her eyes off of the new (female) lifeguard at the pool one day post-boy crazy phase

Mabel didn't know what to think

She was afraid to tell Dipper in fear of him judging her

I mean, she makes fun of her brother all the time, who's to say he won't use her sexuality as an opportunity to get back at her, right?

She pretended to have another boy crazy phase as an attempt to push away those feelings

The more she pushed them away, the more she realized she wasn't as fully attracted to guys as she thought

She began getting all fidgety whenever a girl was within a 10-foot radius of her

One time when she and Dipper were helping Soos out in the gift shop, a girl around their age approached Mabel asking if there was another t-shirt in her size

Mabel froze on the spot

The girl tried asking if she was okay, but Mabel turned into a babbly mess and was unable to answer

The girl grew uncomfortable and walked away

Dipper saw the whole thing

Dipper: "Haha, you acted like I normally do whenever a pretty girl talks to me.”

Mabel, internally: Oh boy...

She was afraid of what this meant

She knew everyone in Gravity Falls was very supportive

But what about back at home?

The kids at school picked on Dipper simply for having a unique birthmark

Imagine what they would do if they found out that Mabel wasn't totally straight

Mabel couldn't sleep one night due to her overthinking the possible scenarios of telling her friends and family about her dilemma

"What would Dipper say?" "What if he tells Stan?" "What if he tells Mom and Dad?" "Would they disown me?" "What would Candy and Grenda say?" "Oh god" "I can't lose Candy and Grenda, they're my people!" "And what about Waddles?!"

She became overwhelmed and realized she needed to get this off her chest

Dipper was already off the table

And she was afraid Stan would be disappointed in her

And everyone else she knew was asleep

Except for one

Ford heard his niece coming before she burst through the elevator door, breathing heavily and tears streaking down her face

He ended up holding her while he walked around the basement, telling her soothing things and stroking her hair while she tried to steady her breathing

All while saying things like "they're gonna hate me!" and "they'll think I'm a freak!"

Once Mabel calmed down, she quietly asked her great uncle "What if I'm not entirely into boys?"

Ford dreaded a question like that

It's not that he didn't want to answer, he just hasn't been in this dimension for 30 years

He didn't know how much sexuality and gender identity had evolved since the 80s, and he never found the time to do research on it since he came back

He was just worried he wouldn't be able to guide his niece

He asked Mabel to elaborate and the story came pouring out

How she began looking at girls differently, how she acted like her brother whenever he was around pretty girls, and her fears of not being accepted by her family

Ford (who was thankful that he knew enough about the subject to be able to provide Mabel with solid advice) began by saying it's perfectly natural for her to question her sexuality

This started a whole conversation of Ford and Mabel exploring her possible sexuality

Ford then explained bisexuality

"But how come I like guys so much if I'm bi? Does this mean I might actually be straight?"

"No, you just have a larger preference for guys. Bisexuality is almost never 50/50. Some people think they're straight or gay because they like one gender so much they can forget they like another one as well."

"What if people don't react well when I tell them I'm bi after making it very clear that I was straight for the past few years?"

"You don't owe anyone an explanation. Your sexuality is your business and no one else's, okay?"

"But what if I'm not actually bi? What if I really am just confused?"

"There's no rush to figure out your sexuality now. You have your whole life ahead of you, sweetie. And you don't have to be so quick to label yourself. When you finally find the label that suits you, you'll know."

Ford also revealed that he, too, had struggled with his sexuality before ultimately concluding that he identifies as aromantic

Mabel is not surprised whatsoever

By the end of their talk, it’s past midnight and Mabel is more relieved than she’s ever been before

Ford is honored that Mabel trusted him enough to go to him for guidance for such a personal topic

He’s also happy that he got to spend more bonding time with his niece since he typically spends most of his time with either Dipper or Stan

Ford is about to send Mabel to bed when she confesses that she’s still a bit anxious that the rest of her family won’t accept her

Ford reassures her that they will before carrying Mable to her room himself

After tucking her in and turning to leave, Mabel whispers “Thanks for letting me talk to you Grunkle Ford”

Ford smiles and kisses his great-niece goodnight

The next morning, Mabel goes straight to Ford’s room just as he’s waking up to tell him she stayed up all night thinking about the things he taught her

She thinks she’s bi and she wants to tell Dipper and Stan

Ford is beyond proud of her (although he tells her to wait a few days just in case she isn’t quite sure yet)

Mabel comes out to Dipper and Stan as bisexual a few days later

Dipper is 100% supportive of his sister

Stan needed some explaining (he knew that bisexuality was a thing, he just didn’t realize there was a fancy name for it) but her supports her nonetheless

“Eh, as long as you’re happy and the person you’re with treats you right, I don’t care who you bring home. And as long as you wait until you’re at least 30 to bring said person home.”

Mabel said no promises

Bonus:

The Pines family was at Greasy's Diner to celebrate Mabel's coming to terms with her sexuality

They were getting ready to leave when Dipper and Mabel left to use the bathroom, leaving Stan and Ford alone at their table

Stan piped up saying that it was "interesting how easy it seems to be to figure this sorta stuff out these days"

Ford agrees but is unsure where this is going

Stan continues saying how if teens are struggling with something personal, the internet (and people on the internet going through the same) is right there to help them

"Heh, too bad we didn't have those things when we were teenagers huh Sixer?"

Ford is confused and Stan is suddenly tense and awkward

He explains he's never felt that kind of attraction towards anyone

He was always interested in getting a girlfriend, but he never really intended on going beyond kissing/possibly making out

Ford's eyes lit up and he immediately exclaimed: "WE'RE BOTH ACE SPECS!"

"WE'RE BOTH A-WHATS?!"

Ford explained that there was a spectrum that included different sexualities regarding the lack of sexual/romantic attraction

(for the record, Ford took time to do more research since his conversation with Mabel so he's pretty much an expert on sexuality and gender identity now)

He asks Stan how long he's felt this way

Stan says since high school

Ford asks why he didn't tell him

Stan reveals that he assumed he wasn't done with puberty yet/he didn't want Ford to think that there's something wrong with him

He also didn't want to disappoint their father "more than he already had"

Ford says that he would've accepted him no matter what

"Besides, if Dad ever did find out, he would've been disappointed in the both of us."

"Huh?"

"Like I said before, we're both on the Ace Spectrum. Only instead of lacking sexual attraction like you, I lack romantic attraction."

"Sooo what does that make the two of us?"

"Well, by the looks of it, it seems that you're some form of asexual and I'm aromantic."

"Some form of it??"

"Well, yes. You see, asexual can serve as an umbrella term. There's also gray asexual, demisexual-"

Stan thinks he's going to have a stroke

Ford promises him that they'll look more into it tomorrow

**Please be aware that I am not bisexual/asexual/aromantic so if I got something wrong PLEASE tell me and I'll correct it**

Hope you enjoyed! (If anyone makes a short fic out of this pls be sure to tag me (I want to write one myself, but I don't think I have time))

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Nano 14

Hello everyone,

I missed another day yesterday. I am trying not to let it defeat me. I have to try to get back on the horse and write for at least the rest of the month.

Thursday sucked a lot. As you will remember from my previous posts, my boss, Nakamura, reported my assistant manager, Randy, for making up data. I let Nakamura know that it was hard for me to go to Randy for QC issues because I don’t trust his judgment. It was just a little aside. I thought it was relevant information to the fact that he was making up data.

WOWOWOWOWOWOWOWO did that not turn out great for me.

So Nakamura said he talked to the COO about this. They agreed that we need to restore the chain of command, and he was going to let Randy know I didn’t respect his opinion in the hopes that Randy will try harder. I told him to PLEASE not do this as Randy has power over me and this won’t end well. He said he will grab a translator and we will talk more about it. Julie in HR, would have been a great intermediate to discuss this, BUT she was on a trip to the east coast.  She had to attend a job fair and help recruit people. Instead of HR, Nakamura grabs the production manager to translate. I like Roy. He’s a great guy, but he is not good with people. His real name is Takumi, but most of the Japanese pick English sounding names to help with customer relations, so we call him Roy. I told Nakamura, through Roy, PLEASE don’t tell Randy I don’t trust his opinion. I will go through the chain of command. I got screwed once by Randy’s bad advice. He advised on a ginger teriyaki sauce which had the viscosity collapse. He said it should be OK, and it was not. Ever since then, I stopped going to Randy. If he wants me to respect the chain of command, then I will ALWAYS go to Randy and I will just let the chips fall where they may. I told Nakamura all this through Roy. I also told all this to Julie in an E-mail.

That killed my mood for the week. I couldn’t look at Randy without the anxiety that he knew what I said about him. This is the EXACT reason I was afraid of getting in between my managers. I chose a side and now I am paying for it. I could have just played dumb and I would have been happier.

I got very stressed out on Thursday. I went to my friend Akiko’s house again to help out with her new born. She was the woman having trouble because her husband was on a business trip. I watched the baby while she showered, did laundry and dishes. She said she would have to hold the baby while doing all these chores because she could leave him alone. He cried a lot in my hands. He kept trying to crawl away. He has like two months of motor development, but he used all of it to try to get away from me. She apologies, but I didn’t care. He has only seen like two people, Kosuke and his mom. He was calm when I fed him, and other than that I just let him cry. I tried to make it better, but he wasn’t having any of it. I was only able to stay for an hour and a half because Alia needed help.

Alia called me because she locked herself out of her car. I didn’t get a chance to finish my Japanese homework. I did half of it during lunch and I was starting it at Akiko’s when Alia called. I left to go get Alia and her spare key, and during the drive I was debating even going to class. I HATE this class. The students are SOOO disruptive, and I get SO much second hand embarrassment that it give me a head ache and a bunch of stress.

I had this inner dilemma while driving. I don’t think I should quit something because it’s stressful. I want to be the kind of person who can handle a lot and take on a lot, so I don’t want to quit because it’s too stressful. I tried to convince myself that I could handle it and I should challenge myself. Don’t get my wrong, if some is actually TOO stressful then I’ll quit, but I was sure it wasn’t that bad. On the other hand, I hate this class so much that I am not learning anything. I have such distain that I don’t retain anything. I need to recognize when I am wasting my time. I might be able to learn more on my own without this class. I could try again next semester and maybe I’d have a better class and environment to learn.

I decided not to go. I decided that I will take at least this day to decide what to do. If I feel better Tuesday then I’ll go back. So instead I spent the rest of the night with Alia, at least that what I thought. I got home and started watching youtube videos. Alia asked me to empty the dish washer then to come to the living room and keep her company while she washes dishes. I did that, but I don’t remember anything after that. As soon as I got comfortable, I fell asleep on the couch. I remember Alia tired to wake me up, but I didn’t want to get up. I woke up about two hours later, around 11:30pm. I went to bed and didn’t do my Nano for that night.

Today I wasn’t excited about work. I mean it’s work, but I usually have a positive attitude about it. I am usually excited about proving I can do a good job and I try to challenge myself. The whole Randy thing just got me down. I dragged my feet though the day, but I picked myself up after lunch.  

Alia said we should go out tonight. She got a lot of sleep and we haven’t felt this good on a Friday in a while. I messaged some friends to see if they wanted to come too. Everyone said no. I think I asked seven or eight people ): . it’s OK. I know everyone is busy and have a lot of responsibilities. We went to get pizza, went to four bars, and ended with Karaoke. I sung, “Everyone wants to rule the world.” I know the lyrics well because of the NSP cover. It was a fun night. I’m going to meet some friends tomorrow to make tempura and ramen. Should be fun.

That’s what I’ve been doing. I’ve been feeling anxious due to this whole Randy vs Nakamura thing. My Japanese class is causing my stress, and the more time I spend decompressing the more I fall behind on my projects. I still need to plan and make changes to my DnD campaign for Monday. I want to keep up with these Nano’s and I want to get into shape. I also want to try to put more time into my friendships. I feel like I’ve been lacking lately, and I need to challenge myself to do more. We’ll see, I dunno.

I’ve been getting back into Gravity Falls. I’m not actually watching the show, but I’ve been watching fan videos and comics. The show gets me a lot more emotional than it did back when I was watching it. I saw a comic about Pacifica Northwest running away from home and it got me teary eyed? Which is weird. It’s one of those situations where I had an emotional response without realizing why. The scene where Mabel feels like Stan betrayed her also gets me. Not too sure why either. I got really into Stanly and Stanford’s relationship too. I think I liked it more after seeing the new Thor movie. I saw a post that mentioned how quick Thor was to forgive Loki and work with him. It defended that idea because they were brothers who grew up together. The post suggested that because they used to be so close it was easy for them to fall back into the supportive brother role. I mention this because seeing Stanford and Stanly repair their friendship always got me too. I am a sucker for siblings coming together. I don’t know if this says anything about me. Meh.

I do this a lot though. I come back to old shows I used to watch and consume a bunch of fan made content I missed. I did this with Undertale last year. I used to cry about Sans a lot. I’m trash I just keep it under wraps well.

If I had to take a guess as to why the Pacifica thing got me emotional, I’d say it had to do with the way I see myself leaving home. I was so happy to be out of my home town. I don’t like my parents. I am confident that if I stayed with them I would have got dragged down. My mom and dad are supportive of me and I’m grateful I still love them, but I cannot live with them. My dad has a lot of anger issues, conservative views, and he was abusive. My mom was very neglectful, leached off my grandmother (stole from her a lot), and enable’s her boyfriends to ruin my grandmother’s home. They are both heavy drug users. I am SO happy I got out of there. I wouldn’t have gotten out if it wasn’t for my first girlfriend Jessica. I think the Pacifica thing makes me said because her parents were kind of shit too, and it makes me really happy to see her get out of that situation. I dunno this is kinda a stretch, but I’m just trying to rationalize a feeling.

Anyhoo, It’s getting late and I have a lunch at my friend’s house tomorrow. Goodnight everyone.