#also ben’s ACTING!! just the micro expressions and just everything about this scene

[herestoburiedsecrets]

The way that the Captain’s almost-coming-out scene has such a chokehold on my emotions

[flyawayrachel]

Okay, so obviously I saw Dear Evan Hansen and now I'm going to tell you all about it, because several people have asked. So the show started at 7, but we went down the the theatre at about 5:30. We waited around until the security came and started forming the line. They opened the doors and sent us inside, so we could stand in line again. It was a little weird, but we were first in line so it was okay. Eventually a guy opened the door and let us in, and my sister and I just sprinted up the stairs. We got to our seats and sat down, and we were the first people in there and it was pretty weird to see the theatre completly empty. We went to buy merch, but the lady at the merch cart couldn't get the lock undone. She was pretty young and really sweet. My sister actually opened the lock for her xD. It was pretty funny. We saved the merch stand. Then obviously we waited for a while for the show to start and I was just shaking the whole time. Eventually the "silent your cellphones" thing went off and my sister grabbed my hand and we saw Ben come out and obviously then the show started and I was shaking and my sister and I were crushing each other's hands the entire time and I was just completely enthralled with this show. I made some notes during intermission about the first act: So at the beginning when Connor gets up and leaves the table, he doesn't have a backpack like he did in the boot. Maybe the chair falling was a problem. Also, why don't I have a professional recording of Mike Faist saying "FUCK YOU" Connor's face when Cynthia says he's not high XD. Oh Michael. "Am I not laughing hard enough for you?" Was like almost seductive? 😄 And then Jared looked legitimately terrified and almost tripped over Evan trying to get away. I know other people talk about this a lot but hot damn when Mike goes "I rub my nipples and start moaning with delight" is quite possibly the funniest thing I've ever seen. It's hard to focus on all three boys at once but 👌 Will like leaped onto the stage when he went "HOLY SHIT" and it was adorable. So during Requiem, all three Murphys are holding paper and Cynthia just holds it, Larry folds it up and puts it in his pocket, and Zoe crumples it up. Idk I just liked that a lot. So you can see some of Connor's room via projection and there is a no smoking sign and a hand giving you the finger on the wall. We also have matching Camelback water bottles. Ben crying on the floor was just...omg he was just. I could go on for hours about Ben I'm not even kidding every bit of praise for this boy is deserved one hundred percent. Ben and Laura's riffs in If I Could Tell Her. Like it was a riffing party y'all. Cynthia sobbing into Connor's pillow during Requiem had me shookethened Mike nearly ran into the screen during Sincerely Me when get goes "WELL ANYWAY!!" BEN'S SEAT WAS SUPER POOFED in the scene with For Forever. Like the other three chairs were normal but Evan's had a GIANT pillow on it. I'm surprised they didn't have to mop the floor between acts. Y'all talk about Fankhauser's spit but damn Platt. I never once doubted Michael Park's talent, but...but like words can not describe how insanely talented this man is. When he sings 💜💚💜💚 That was just the first act. I have a lot of feelings about the second as well, obviously Ben SLAYED Words Fail and Rachel was just 😍😭😍😭😍 but also: Props to Will and Kristolyn for carrying those background vocals. Like 500/10. Damn. Connor standing there during Words Fail was heartbreaking The Murphys during Words Fail were heartbreaking People laughed randomly during To Break In A Glove and it wasn't even at funny bits?! The "Let's throw a kegger" scene was so funny y'all have no idea. The second half is a little blurry b/c I didn't immediately write everything down but those are the parts I really remember well. Overall: Connor is a bouncy boy. He bounces a lot. And his hair is so floofed. So pretty too. XD Jared's laughs make my life. Cleared my skin. Ben Platt is just...I can't. Give the boy a Tony. Also Give Mike a Tony. Please. His micro expressions and just the little things he does make his Connor believable at the beginning, and make Not-Connor a very interesting character to observe. Also give Michael Park some awards please. Like damn. Rachel Bay Jones is not only the sweetest person alive she is also a ridiculously talented woman and I feel bettered as a person for having seen her. Jennifer Laura Thompson has the ability to make me feel everything Cynthia felt and I'm just shook. I HAVEN'T TALKED ABOUT LAURA DREYFUSS YET. OMG I am so blessed rn. I've never been a big Zoe fan until tonight. She made me understand every bit of that character and things I've felt like are missing make a lot more sense now. And her face during Words Fail was just killing me. Every bit of her performance was amazing. Kristolyn Lloyd deserves SO MUCH MORE than she gets. I love her and want to hug her. Will. FREAkING. Roland. We all know I am the #1 Will Roland fan, and tonight just made it a thousand times worst. Like he is such a great actor and It's so disappointing that he doesn't get appreciated like he should. He is so much more than the Jokes Boy™. I would die for him. We made a solid five seconds of eye contact during the end of You Will Be Found. The whole You Will Roland Be Found thing is true. I was found by Will Roland. Okay, so after the show we headed straight to the stagedoor(obviously after curtain call, which I already made a comment about earlier)and right as we got there Michael Lee Brown was walking away and I said "Hi Michael!" And he turned and waved as he walked away from the theatre. He is a beautiful boy. We waited for a bit before Michael Park came out. We were right by the door, and Michael went all the way to the other end and came back. I already posted about what he said to us, but it was really sweet that he took the time to talk to us and acknowledge our attire. Then it started raining. We waited around for a bit in the rain, chatting with the girl that stood next to us. She had been seeing a lot of shows and was telling us about meeting some other Broadway stars. She was very nice. We then heard some screaming across the street and I was like "IS IT COREY!" and it was Corey!! So we ran across(my show was untied and I almost slipped on the wet street) the street to the Jacob's and stood there waiting for him. My youngest sister saved our spot since she didn't know who Corey was. She also kept my Playbill. As we waited for Corey Rachel came out, but like we met Corey, and talked for a second and then got back right as Rachel got to our spot so it all worked out. Like I said, Corey was really sweet and got excited to sign my Newsies bag and then took pictures with my sister and I. We were standing at the opening for min to leave (Laura and Corey both had cars waiting for them) so he walked around the cars with us and told us to be careful crossing the street. Then Rachel was really nice again. She was telling us about how it's a lot of work doing 8 shows a week, but it's very rewarding and she is glad to do it. A few minutes later they informed us that no one else was coming out so we headed back to our hotel, it was still raining, so I wasn't surprised that they didn't come out. Sorry this is so long but I can't put a cut because I'm on mobile.