#also idk why but on phone looks great but on my iPad the quality sucks ass 💀

[yeshihellodani]

Sorry I had to

[pencerism]

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Guzma saves Pencer!!

...from a spider.

this scenario happens so much, and every time guzma hears pencer screaming, he believes he is genuinely hurt, so he comes rushing in to help his boyfriend. to see him screaming over a tiny spider.

...also im trying to make my posts look more pretty, if it wasn't obvious enough. lol. AND im gonna be tagging my yumeshipping posts with #guzpen and #shedinjashipping (which is their ship name) !!

also i...i dont know why the thumbnails for my art are very low quality. this happens on twitter, too. i use procreate, send the pic to my private discord, and download it on my phone. that might be why. idk. ill try posting my art directly from my ipad next time, it might help?...

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below is a vent and explanation as to why i don't finish my art that often. dont read if you don't want to see it please!! its very long!!!!!

ive been really unmotivated. i can't finish art anymore. my 6-2 job is really tiring. and my mental health isn't that great. art isn't really...fun, anymore. and its scaring me. im scared ill completely discard my favorite hobby. i got an ipad thinking it would help. it really just. doesnt.

my mental health is my top priority. i don't know if i really want to be the type of artist to finish my work. its extremely hard for me. it doesn't look like it, but that asriel drawing i did took...hours. it took hours. and im not proud of that fact. and seeing my art get virtually no attention just. sucks, yknow? im on twitter trying to make mutuals and post my yumeship art but it's all ignored. most of the time i am ignored. none of my posts get likes, and im not even overexaggerating. it fucking sucks, all of it does. i get so jealous so easily.

i want to post art often, but if my art is taking hours upon hours to finish, that just won't happen. i can only see myself finishing my art on weekends. even then, im not sure about it. ive quickly come to realize that my job has taken over my life. that, mixed with my severe depression, anxiety, and adhd...just doesn't bode well for me.

i have pretty bad adhd and it gets extremely hard to focus on one drawing. i have so many drawing ideas during my boring ass job, but when i get home, i just wanna sleep. i want to desperately continue improving my art and drawing multiple things a day, but it's just hard. im forcing myself to draw every day, but fuck id be lying if i said its easy.

...so, im probably not going to be actually finishing art for a bit. i want to continue to draw my yumeship. i want to continue developing on my yumeship. and i want to finish art of my yumeship. i haven't done that in a long time. most of it has just been sketches. and im having extremely mixed emotions on whether i want that or not. i love sketching, but finishing my art just feels like a fucking chore. idk what to do.