#also if any of said exes see this fuck off idc abt u anymore im allowed to talk abt stuff like this | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

ablednt · 11 months

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Being a systeen in an adult system while also being the host is such an experience because like yeah there's the obvious "I have to act the body's age most of the time bc singlets don't know how to interact with systeens" thing but like you'll end up playing therapist for your headmates toxic girlfriends who tell you to call them mom like ok points for accuracy but ma'am I am 15 and I do not want to bear the brunt of your relationship problems. You know this all of our dynamics hinged around the fact a systeen was frontstuck why are you talking shit about me and putting all this pressure on me I am internally a child come on

#vent #i guess?#also if any of said exes see this fuck off idc abt u anymore im allowed to talk abt stuff like this #but like it was actually insane how much they stressed my being a systeen and acted supportive #only to freak the fuck out when they decided their gf sucked and instead of breaking up with her and gauging our reaction #they gave the whole system 'the silent treatment' for months and the shit talked me to friends bc I was 'too nice to be genuine'#and 'guilt tripping them' by repeatedly reassuring them that their boundaries are important and getting anxious around them #like just POV you tell a teenager to call you mom and talk about being family but then you have beef with one singular adult headmate #and you're like mmmmm i will focus all of this on the teenager I think #like god I thought I had a space I could be myself and not worry in but no turns out im too vulnerable lmao #so it's like well now I'm definitely not opening up to people abt the reality of being emotionally and mentally stuck at 15

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