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betratyal · 5 years

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the first clear thought in years: I REFUSE TO DIE.

JACOB BATALON? No, that’s actually PETER PETTIGREW from the MARAUDERS ERA. You know, the child of AMBROSIA PETTIGREW and ALISTER MCALISTER? Only 20 years old, this GRYFFINDOR alumni works as a DISH WASHER and is sided with HIMSELF. HE/THEY identifies as AGENDER and is a HALFBLOOD who is known to be CUNNING, HUMOROUS and ALLOCENTRIC but also OBSESSIVE, PASSIVE and COWARDLY.

LINKS – pinboard, stats, app. CHARACTER PARALLELS – winston bishop ( new girl ), sid jenkins ( skins ), charles boyle ( b99 ), edmund pevensie ( narnia ), eric forman ( that 70s show ), bunny corcoran ( the secret history ) AESTHETIC – ketchup stains on band shirts, an incomprehensible minute long string of curses, tracing the veins in your wrist, the smell of breakfast and fresh coffee, card tricks at three in the morning, freddie mercury impersonations, lying on the floor of the kitchen staring a the ceiling for three hours, trembling hands holding a joint, a guilty grin. HEADS UP – this intro contains mentions of bullying, death, mental illness (eating disorders (bed & bulimia) and depression and anxiety), self destructive tendencies and weed. ive trigger warned each bullet point where it comes up.

history ( 1960 - 1978 )

peter was born to ambrosia pettigrew, a halfblooded scottish-filipino witch. his father -- a muggle -- was not in the picture and hadn’t been ever since he’d learned of ambrosia’s pregnancy; he would sent her money every now and then, in the first years of peter’s life, but was never in the picture. ( and that was for the best, thought ambrosia; she didn’t love him, and he was a muggle, but still --- she was heartbroken and wished that she could give more to her son ).

peter grew up living with his mother in a small flat in glasgow. his grandparents lived nearby, and he spent a lot of time with them. peter learned how to be alone from a young age, with his mother working a lot and he himself lacking friends and peers to waste the days with --- as a child, he delved into fictional worlds ( superhero comics, roald dahl novels, animated tv shows ) and found friends there.

bullying tw / went to muggle elementary as well, but never felt at home there. he was the odd one out: his clothes didn’t fit well, his nervous habits were annoying to his classmates, his words were too clumsy and his eyes too shifty. he didn’t mind not having friends ( or so he thought, until he did have them ) but he did mind being picked on and teased. end of tw

death tw / his grandmother died when he was seven and it was devastating; peter’s family was so small and compact, his social world so limited, that it had a huge impact. his relationship with his grandfather did grow much stronger through it. end of tw

and then peter finally went to hogwarts! and peter made friends for the FIRST TIME. and he found a second home! ah, my god --- peter was so happy, he was really so hyped and in awe of his life and his friends. it all felt a bit surreal; especially because he looked up to james and sirius and remus so much --- james, mainly, but all of them were so amazing, and he was so amazed that they liked him, too.

peter always loved heroes. he loves comic books and people who save the day and get the girl and do it all. i think he kind of … projected that onto james and sirius especially? did not know how to do this friendship thing as an 11 year old tbh, was a mess, was blinded by their amazingness damn, and thus kind of hero worshipped them, didn’t see their flaws and faults.

re: peter being a gryffindor; peter admires heroism and bravery and chivalry, and it’s your values that get you sorted some place. and he always did try to be brave, and he WAS in a lot of moments, because he became a damn animagus for his bud! i mean! he was not a hatstall btw — i choose to ignore that stupid bit of post canon. it took a while for the hat, sure, but no more than two minutes.

peter was a pretty bad student, to be honest. not because he was stupid, but because he’s just not build for school. deadlines? exams? homework? no thank you --- those were both sources of stress and horribly tedious things and peter was much too occupied with shenanigans and having fun. peter learned better in different settings: he got very good at certain charms because they allowed him to be lazy ( hello, accio! ) and was able to put his mind to becoming an animagus because there was a necessity and a proper motivation, and became better at potions because of all the hangover potions he brew.

becoming an animagus for remus was ! important ! to peter ! he did it for remus, not because of peer pressure, or anything else — he did it because it was right, and his friend deserved it and ! he did it, too, because he could. sure, his transfig grades may have been more than poor, but the kid did have some skill. he just needed motivation, which mcgonagall didn’t give (bc. she scared him.) and this situation? motivated the hell out of him.

peter would be lying if he said he wasn’t taken a bit aback when he learned about remus’ lycanthropy — not because he was scared of him, to be honest, but he was just ? shocked ? he was more scared for remus, and so sad? so fucking sad for him? : ( he cried

he also loved spending his time at hogwarts playing games; from muggle card games to chess to gobstones. collected chocolate frogs Very Seriously as well, and still does tbh.

weed & anxiety tw / peter started smoking pot in the summer between his fourth and fifth year, and never really stopped. it made him slack more at school, but also eased his anxiety, which had started to develop in his fourth year. as months passed, peter became more and more of a stoner, which made him both more relaxed and funnier, but also … a whole of a lot lazier. end of weed tw

peter had always been a bit … fidgety, easily on edge, a bit nervous, but he’d never really known anxiety until around fourteen years old. his insecurities grew, as he started comparing himself more to his friends and finding nothing but things he lacked in comparison to them, and questions as to why they put up with him. end of anxiety tw

so his schooldays mostly looked like … doing nothing, playing games, having fun with his mates, getting high, forgetting his homework, stressing about homework, and somewhere, in a tiny corner of his being, worrying about the war. whenever those worries started coming up, though, he was able to push them away, because the war was not yet there, not for him at least. there was graduation to worry about first, and once that was done, then he could worry about the war.

post graduation - now ( 1978 - 1980 )

peter joins the order along with his friends, because it was what was right. peter believes in their cause, hates the death eaters, hates discrimination and racism and terrorism --- of course he fucking does, and so he joins, even though he feels incompetent. i have written a lot about this in his app too, which is linked above!

he starts working as a dishwasher in muggle glasgow, preferring a bit of a break from the wizarding world every now and then. peter’s not unambitious, per se, but he doesn’t have enough faith in himself to try and pursue a career ( and besides, what’s the point in the midst of a war? ). plus, peter doesnt need any more stress on his plate, and dish washing is laidback and at least kind of fun.

depression & weed & eating disorder (bed/bulimia) tw | peter feels useless in the order, though. he seems to lack the skills, the guts, the everything that the people around him have. before, their heroics mightve inspired him; now they just make him feel like a shitty person, like a burden. peter starts secluding himself a little, hiding in his mother’s home. he smokes more pot. he sometimes goes almost week without seeing someone besides his mum and his coworkers. he watches too much telly and reads comics and drowns in fictional worlds and he becomes depressed. he sinks into it without noticing and can’t come back from it. his eating habits ( which have always bordered on unhealthy ) turn worse; peter binges, and then restricts, falls into a cycle. it’s the only routine he has.

when he’s around his friends, he lives up a little. he cracks jokes and wants to play games and laughs and feels a bit more alive, but he always craves his time on his own. that’s his new way to feel safe: to stick to his newly found routine, hidden in his room, away from reality. | end of tw

the idea to join the death eaters comes out of fear. peter feels like the order is losing, and feels like death is inevitable. i dont know how true this is, but the fact is that the death eaters are ruthless and that his life is on the line because of his position. i wrote a Lot about this in his app too, so if u want a more comprehensive explanation i’d def read it here, its the second hc!

he joins, because he thinks it will give him a saver position. play both sides, play for the winning side --- he’s always had a bit of an opportunistic streak, which definitely helps sway his decision. in the end he’s just afraid of dying, and that’s why he joins; he’s twenty, his life has hardly started --- he doesn’t want to die, no cause is worth that, none at all. ( he should have just ran )

he joins in may 1978, for timeline reasons, so he’s been a death eater for only a few months. it’s been a lot different than he imagined ----- peter thought he’d blend in the background quietly, that he’d have to do shitty jobs ( which is true ) and that he’d be left alone. he underestimated it, because well --- he was desperate when he joined, and he didn’t think about the consequences, and he didn’t think about how voldemort’s cruelty wasn’t just reserved for his enemies but for his followers, too. there’s no stepping out of line with the death eaters; mistakes are not treated lightly and peter --- afraid, a bit of a bumbling idiot, learns this quite soon.

his function is mostly just to be a spy; relay information and share plans, name members, etcetera. he’s not very active because he’s a spy, but i imagine that he is present at the bigger meetings. AND FML HE’S GOOD AT IT! he’s good at lying and sneaking and being a sly bastard --- he used those skills for pranks, once. now he uses it to betray his fellow prankers : D

peter, at that point, hates himself. he’s always had a bit of self loathing, but it’s gained the upper hand now and he’s drowning in it; it does allow for him to ignore his conscience, though, for him to ignore the reality and just stew in his negativity. he’s got a woe is me mentality, for sure, and he’s so god damn passive about his situation.

timeclash reaction.

peter’s reaction to the timeclash was ... a lot. i wrote about it in his app, so if u want to read my whole ass rambling, i rec that. but tldr: he’s shocked, at what he becomes. the peter he is now is a traitor, yes, but he’s not yet the person who ends up betraying james and lily and harry, who frames sirius --- and it’s ground shattering to find out that he’s on the road to become such a person.

self destructiveness, weed, alcohol tw / his self loathing grows more. peter wasn’t doing very well before, but the timeclash makes something snap inside him --- he abandons his needs, punishes himself in small ways, loses sight of himself. he drinks and smokes too much. he’s so scared of himself. he’s in hiding, when he first finds out, scared of his friends and the death eaters and the order members and the people from the future who have met a worse version of him end of tws

part of peter is also like “i havent done any of these things yet, i know i am not the BEST person but i am still . not That Bad! stop being mad for something i havent done yet!”

around this time, he’s realising that he can either keep hiding, that he can completely destroy himself and all the ties he has, or he can take this opportunity to change his course. to not become the person all these people from the future know, to change change change, to make up for the wrongs he has committed and the wrongs he will commit if he keeps on going the way he is --- and that’s where he’s at now.

on another hand, he definitely watched all the star wars movies that came out over the past 50 yrs and hates kylo ren and cried when han died!!! he is in awe of the mcu movies but also thinks they did the comics dirty. i wish someone would introduce him to video games bc he would cry from happiness.

personality & details

OKAY onto the fun stuff, that was way too depressing and peter is usually a comedic icon

peter parker is his favourite superhero just because … they share a first name and because peter parker is a bit of an underdog too and peter is just like! amazing! he named his owl parker.

he hates cats. used to love them — he was allowed to take the cat from home with him to hogwarts when he was eleven, but he brought him back home after an unfortunate incident where his cat nearly ate him while he was in his animagus form. “sorry ma, i don’t love him any more. here. have him.”

peter is actually a solid cook. this is because he learned to make some basic food when he was still a kid, first with his grandma, and later on his own. he liked doing it for his mother and he was. .. good at it? peter is also just passionate about food and finds comfort in cooking. breakfast food and baked goods are Prime Food Categories.

he is asexual af, panromantic. has kissed both guys and gals and nb pals but did not like it??? confused. does not understand sexuality and all that jazz but tries not to think abt it because like! he’s got enough stress! doesnt need to think abt this!

peter is also agender, but i think he’s a lot less aware about this, because it’s confusing and so he just tries not to think about it. he does feel okay with he/him pronouns, but just doesn’t feel connected at all to being a boy/man

peter has abandonment issues because his dad, well, never even bothered to be there. not even for a second. he’s just constantly scared that people will leave and it’s funny, because he will probably end up abandoning all of his loved ones KDJFHSDF.

peter is quite non confrontational but also not … meek? he just avoids it, either by physically staying out of people’s way or by dismissing most of the things said and getting out of there. a Passive Kid.

he’s such a fucking dork i swear to god. but he’s funny! peter is really funny. i deeply believe in this. he makes great puns and is able to just come out of nowhere and make a comment that just. hits the nail right on its head.

peter curses a lot and has a scottish accent and sometimes he will have a minute long cursing session that no one rly understands.

#quantum intro #this is . long ig

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aparecium-hq · 3 years

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Welcome to Aparecium, Kimmy! You have been accepted for Rose Weasley. You bring a very unique approach to Rose, and we’re looking forward to see how this new, less reserved version of Rose you’ve created in the wake of her life changes interacts with her cousins especially. Check out the new member checklist, and jump right in.

First choice character: Rose Weasley

What drew you to them? The kind character who has enough and goes through hell for everyone and then sort of snaps is a trope that i like

Character Basics

Birthday (Age): October 5th, 2006 (21)

Gender (Pronouns): Female (She/Her)

Sexuality: Bisexual

Blood Status: Halfblood

Hogwarts House/School: Ravenclaw

Occupation: Professional Quidditch Player

Faceclaim: Samantha Logan

Any requested changes? I chose a different fc just because I was feeling her more for the character. Like her resources seem to fit more of what I was going for. Also, I kind of made Rose a little more impulsive than what her teaser suggested, though I do definitely think she played her life like a game of chess in the before. Before her heart was broken and she made the impulsive decision to choose herself.

Biography:

Popularity had always been her double edged sword. When Rose was growing up, she was loved by her peers for being the kind one. She had never been the pretty one, the charming one, or the most well-spoken – she was kind and she was smart and there was no room for anything else. However, some would say she was also the fun one. She was always up to whatever amusement the students had conjured despite her role as both prefect and head girl. She had even been known to cover up some of the most legendary parties from authority figures. Yes, Rose had always been the kind of girl that people loved but the tabloids hated.

As a child, the tabloids somehow always found a way to make her look bad, even before she was old enough to go to hogwarts. When she was nine years old she looked more boy than girl, her dark curls shorter than even Hugo’s; Witch Weekly called her Ronald Weasley Jr., at thirteen with her hair past her shoulders, they crucified her for having a rat’s nest for hair. At fourteen when puberty started and her skin erupted with acne, a particularly rude journalist used her picture as an example of what skin shouldn’t look like. when she turned fifteen and mastered beauty charms, for a few months witch weekly had nothing but praise for her appearance. It wasn’t until a few months later during Christmas that they falsely accused her of getting work done. She knows that the media will always find something to pick at, but she’s become more than a little obsessed with looking good. Beauty has become her armor and her reflection as comforting as a good game of quidditch.

She didn’t play for her house team. In fact, she was all set to take an internship for the Wizengamot. She had more NEWTS than necessary (a side effect of being highly competitive and the one sided competition she had with her mother) and no real passion for academics. She loathed revising, and she didn’t want to sit down and read a book ever again (unless it was a trashy novel). Quidditch was always just a weekend stress reliever, a game she liked to play to escape from revisions and the only thing she wanted to do during holidays. And yet, it surprised them all when she impulsively took a sick day from her internship to attend tryouts. The row she had with her mother when she told them she was leaving her job at the ministry was legendary. However, when Hermione saw how happy her daughter was, she took advantage of her complimentary season pass and made it to almost every single game. Her father still hasn’t forgiven her for refusing to play for the Chudley Canons, but he’s almost (if not more so) supportive than her mother.

In some ways the decision to break free from her pattern of choosing the safe predictable way, was her breaking point. It was a conscious decision to actively stop being the perfect child, to stop being the shoulder to lean on. She had always been the kind one but it was a result of people-pleasing and always doing the right thing no matter how much it cost her. After all, she had chosen her best friend and what should have been a clear, safe choice for a partner only ended in heartbreak. The realization that even the most predictable of choices could end up in flames allowed her to abandon the notion that she had any control whatsoever.

Her decision to be true to herself and stop being a pushover has led to some backlash. She’s lost many friends over the years, yet for each friend she loses she feels lighter. It’s one less person with expectations, one less person to please. She’s still working on balance. On how to be kind to herself without being an asshole to everyone else, but she’s happy with who she has left in her corner. They’re the people she wants around when the inevitable happens and Magical Integration reveals itself to be far more dangerous than what the public has been led to believe.

Character Questionnaire

How does your character feel about their family?

Rose loves her immediate family. She does. She would fight anyone and everyone who wrongs her parents or her brother. But she’s always had a strained relationship with her mother. In the early years she did her best to become her, but there were some fundamental differences to their personalities – namely that Rose loathed academics and her mother loved them. Her father may be her favorite person. And Hugo, well he’s her little brother and while they may not always get along, he’s the one person she wouldn’t turn away if he needs someone to lean on.

What does your character value in a friendship?

Rose values giving as good as you get. For so many years her friendships had been one sided. It was always her doing the heavy lifting, but now all she wants is someone who will lift her up just as much as she does them. Though recently, Rose hasn’t been doing a lot of lifting and it’s only fair that she doesn’t have that many friends in her corner anymore.

How would a stranger who has just met your character describe them?

Beautiful with the tiniest bit of trying too hard. A stranger would not know them as a brilliant quidditch player, they would only see who she is on the surface. A beautiful girl whose face is marred by a constant scowl. Some strangers may find the urge to tell her to smile, but they would be met with a middle finger in the air.

Para Sample

Rose doesn’t cry. Or at least she didn’t use to. Crying was reserved for special occasions – her favorite quidditch team winning the world cup, weddings, and funerals. So crying in the middle of Diagon Alley as it poured buckets on her was a rarity and a tabloid scandal waiting to happen. But she was finding that she just didn’t have the energy to care anymore. Everything in her life was beginning to feel like a lie – a facade. Her internship at the Wizengamot, her now dead relationship with Scorpius, and the betrayal of feeling as if her cousin Albus must have known even before she did and refused to tell her. She thinks that last one might have hurt the most.

She had always valued her relationships, always took care to be exactly just what the other person needed. Not that it had done her any good in the end. The thought made her cry harder, body wracked with tears as she stood from the bench and saw her reflection in the store window – red rimmed eyes with hair flattened onto the sides of her face. She looked just as messy as she felt.

Rose might have looked sad, but what she was feeling wasn’t sadness. It was anger. She felt it bubbling up inside her and flowing out through her tear ducts. She was shaking with it. And it took all of her power not to scream in the middle of a family-friendly location. She needed to get home – take her perfect little apartment and cut up anything that might have belonged to her now ex-boyfriend and perhaps make a small bonfire. She had promised to remain friends, but how could they? She had done everything right. Everything.

She apparates home and instead of setting fire to everything that reminded her of him she makes a call to her office. “I can’t come in today,” she says as she hurriedly stuffs her quidditch kit into a bag. “I don’t feel well,” she says as she takes her broom and takes the portkey that’s been haunting her for days and activates it.

She makes it to the quidditch pitch and unlike in London it isn’t raining here. It’s bright and sunny and the crisp air allows her to breath again. She lines up with the rest of the quidditch hopefuls feeling better than she has since the morning. She isn’t quite smiling, but her tears have ceased. She wants this. Needs this. She’s done being what other people need. It was time to get what she needed.

#apareciumacceptance #rose weasley rp #rp #harry potter rp #lsrp

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