#also smth you can express smth you can do to prove it beyond just saying words

[daz4i]

how to stop thinking any good thing someone says to you (like compliments or being proud of you or other positive expressions such as these) is a lie just to be polite or bc they're biased and thus can't judge you work and your being objectively bc they love you. asking for a friend

[screeching-bunny]

Helloooo my fave yandere!character writer! I hope your having a wonderful day! Can i request yandere!jock with male!reader and he finds the reader crying bc someone was bullying them or said smth mean or smth like that? Ik he would be pissed but i was thinking something along the lines of this:

*Reader explains what happens*

*Yandere!Jock absolutely pissed and turns to go beat the shit out of them*

Then the reader would grab is arm to stop him and say smthing like: “wait!…please…..please just….stay with me….please?” Like EEEEEEE I LOVE YANDERE!JOCK SMMMM AND IMA PASS OUT IF YOU DO THIS! OKAY THANKS BYE

(Also plz ignore if your requests are closed rn)

Yandere! Jock x Male Reader

Asks 2

Warnings: Obsessive Behavior, Yandere Thoughts, Bad Writing, Stalking, Reader is specifically going to be Male in this post!!!

Asks 1

Yandere! Jock liked looking at you whether it be intention or not his eyes were almost always on you. He loved looking at every expression you made throughout your day to day life and practically memorized every fine detail on your face. So it was no surprise that he was instantly alerted when he saw a hint of sadness appear on your face when you came in for your afternoon class. Like a little leach he started attaching himself towards you with a concerned look on his face to find out what had happened to his little darling but alas his attempts reamied futile as you refused to give him an answer that he accepted.

“I’m just tired and just didn’t get that much sleep last night.”

Tired his ass. Yandere! Jock knew for a fact that you fell asleep early last night while watching an animal documentary. How does he know this? Well, he was stalking I mean watching over you last night. Anyways the sentence “The giant horse cock weighs over eight pounds” was still fresh in his mind but that's not the point! The point is something or someone made you upset! This is honestly so absolutely unacceptable!! When class finishes he ends up cornering you to try and figure out what has happened to you. Soon you start to give in and tell him the exact reason as to why with tears bawling out of your eyes.

When he finds out the reason he is beyond pissed. A bunch of npc bullies had the audacity to go and bully you! There is nothing he wants to do then skin those losers alive for making you cry like this. How fucking dare they. Yandere! Jock immediately decides that at that moment, he would go on a manhunt. He genuinely believes that it’d be a good riddance, no way in hell is someone going to miss them. As he tries to get up, he is immediately stopped by you as you grab ahold of his arm.

“Please stay, I don’t want to be alone right now.”

Holy shit! That sentence damn near put him in a coma. He just can’t believe how adorable you are. With that, he decides right away to bring you to his home in order to comfort you. The rest of the day is spent with just the two of you guys together while watching Netflix and ordering out to eat. All of his plans that he had before were canceled in favor of being by your side. He does his best to make you happy and laugh as much as possible. That smiling face of yours suits you better than a teary eyed expression. Although he can’t do it now, he vows to absolutely destroy the lives of your bullies. The mental and physical wellbeing of yourself matter more than anything in the world to him. Anything that causes harm to you he quickly deals with even if it means people. All that he wants is that you’ll be safe in his arms and by his side whenever he wakes up.

He makes it a point to prove the words of you tormentors were false and does his best to undo their claims. He’d be so appalled by the whole situation and just can’t wrap around his head at how someone could be mean to you. Like just look at you! You’re literally perfect what the hell were they smoking when they decided to verbally assault you. Yandere! Jock would be so overbearing and clingy towards you. Wherever you went he was close behind you. You’re going grocery shopping? Cool he’s right by your side. You gotta go to class? He’s right by you. Even if he doesn’t have the class he’s still coming. Showering? Move over and make room, he wants to shower as well. Is totally the type to throw a fit when you say no which causes you to relent and let him follow you.

In a few weeks after this incident there were missing people reports all over town of local college students. The same ones who coincidentally were vicious towards you. Everytime Yandere! Jock walks past these posters, he has a hidden smug look on his face. Justifies it by saying that he’s doing it in the name of love and that those people were the spawns of Satan. Besides, they're not even dead yet. They’re just trapped in a cabin in some random woods that only he has access to. Content with himself he spends his days by your side and pledging to himself that he’d never let anyone bother you ever again.

[19possums-blog]

On tianshan relationship and their fandom, i guess ?

hello there @nightfayre !! Im the 5asks anon lol (the one abt the last chapter of tianshan). I wanted to thank you for your answer and continue to rant in your askbox but i figured it was so long that mb it would crash ur box lmao, so I... kind of created a blog..... hm. well theres no bad reasons to create an account is there lol ?? (also is there no way to send a long ask ?? why is it so limited :(( )

So once again thank you for anwser, and what an answer ! You raised many points i didnt think about and that was very interesting. I knew i would be glad to hear your thoughts ! the rest under a read more coz i think its going to be looong lol

(( To do a sort of disclaimer : I despise fandom discourse and im more of the mentality “let ppl enjoy what they want as long as it dont hurt real life ppl”, and “dont like dont interact”. So everything im going to say is not an attack against anyone, but just a way of prolonging a manhwa that i like. Most of all, i want to emphasize that at the end of the day, its just a manhwa : it doesnt justify being mean or aggressive towards other real life ppl. If you find yourself raging while reading fandom wank, just stop reading, block, and go outside a little. My way of enjoying the manhwa is to be analytical, to criticize (positively and negatively) and to look at the material source as well as the fandom in itself ; if its (understandably lol) not your definition of fun, this post may not be for you !))

Ur totally right in saying that the hardest thing is separate morality, reality and fiction. I hope my asks didn't come across as a 'u shouldnt like tianshan bc its not morally good'. There is a lot of puritan push back on tumblr lately, and im totally against it. Everyone is free to like/ship what they want ; reading only ‘morally good’ literature wont prevent you to become a nasty person - i would argue itd be the exact opposite, as your spirit wont be trained to think critically or to evaluate a situation (and every situations is always grey) by your own means. Also, its important to separate fantasies/what you like to read and who you are/what you do. To be embarrassingly honest, and like many people, one of my sexual fantasy is rape ; but in my real life, im in a queer anarchist collective that actively fights against rape culture and defends rape victims. That is why i dont have a problem with SheLI/Mo shippers (or even HeCheng/SheLi shippers) even if its not my cup of tea, but i would have a problem if in real life (irl) ppl would say to irl Mo that irl SL is good for him (or if they wouldnt find it wrong that a irl 30yo Cheng is involved wt an irl 15yo Li). I digress.

But then again this confusion about fiction/reality/morality is at the core of the tianshan fandom -and many fandoms. I dont know about you, but i grossly see 3 types of ‘trends’ depending on how ppl interact with the source material  :

1.The ones who think you cant like something while being critical of it. I love 19 days but I think there are flaws in it, beyond tianshan dynamic (like how OX handles the transition between funny and dramatic moments –I think its badly done). It doesn’t mean I personally hate OX and wish harm to their family oc. Worse than this, the ones who, because they dont like certain things in 19 days, feel free to harass OX on their social media.  Here its a confusion between fiction and reality and a lack of critical thinking.

2. the ones that loves Tianshan because they think it fits the trope “Dark, handsome, tortured violent boy who is violent towards fragile, sweet, pure cute boy because he loves him” and the typically associated trope “the pure boy will change the violent boy by the pureness of his heart”. Aka the most common yaoi trope. Again, if it pleases people to see Tianshan like this, good for them and i hope they have a nice time reading 19 days. Lets face it, I love really bad yaoi and books. Its just not how i see tianshan at all, but to each their own. I just have a problem when these ppl insist that its an ok behavior to have in real life and say things like “possessiveness is a proof of love” uncritically (hint : it isnt). For me, its the difference between enjoying fast food (thats okay), and wanting to force everyone to eat fast food and to find it pleasurable (not okay).

3. the ones that think what you like in literature defines who you are, and so in order to be a “good person” you have to only like “morally good litterature” -there are the ones I personally find the more interesting bc they can ask good questions. But alas, in most cases its just puritanism badly disguised and currently they are in all fandoms. Lets not delve into the issue of this statement : what is ‘morally good’ ? who are in the authority to proclaim what is good ? how can you recognize what is ‘morally good’ if you dont see what is ‘morally not good’ ? is it literature’s responsibility to educate its audience ? do literature have to point out “watch out audience what just happened is not okay” as if we were brainless children ? whats more important : what you like reading or what you do irl ? .... Okay i totally delve into this lmao. Here its a confusion between fiction and morality and a rejection of critical thinking : we could say its like when the Catholics prohibited women from reading bc it would pervert them and think of the children).

Returning to the specifics of what we've been talking about  : so in this last case, you (generic ‘you’) think that you are a good person ; so you have to read morally good literature. So in this case, fandom isnt just a harmless hobby, but a proof of how you are morally good, imagine the stakes ! But alas, you happen to like 19 days and most specifically tianshan. You said (@nightfayre​ ) that you judge Tianshan unhealthy as they are now, and i wholeheartedly agree with you, so im not going to discuss why since you already explained it so well. So, what happens when you like a morally not good ship, but you think liking morally dubious things makes you a bad person ? You bent over backwards to explain that, in fact, this ship is morally good, to protect your integrity. And thats why, in 19days fandom since the last chapter (and its the same thing with every chapter where flaws of HT are revealed!), there are many posts going around “hm, in fact, what He Tian did is good ! i know it can seems like hes a violent asshole who dont respect MGS because he punches him, threatens him, and dont listen to him, but hm.... in fact its because he’s nice...” and then they do mental gymnastics to justify what is, obviously, not morally justifiable. And i find its a pity because, my guy, my buddy, nobody is going to throw you tomatoes if you like a morally dubious character, and also bc nothin is morally good ! everybody does what they think is the best in ‘problematic situations’ ! and thats what make life interesting ! and so, 19 days interesting ! The flaws of HT (and MGS) are what drawn ppl to his character, bc it makes him real, its makes him contradictory, we can project ourselves in him, and we can see a complicated character with awesome latent potential. And yes, treating someone like a territory bc you care about them is a flaw lol. (on this subject : i saw ppl saying that its protectiveness and not possession : if you protect someone like you would protect a territory, then its not a healthy protection. you deal with a human whose agency you must respect, contrary to a territory).

MGS and HT are the product of what happen to them in their early childhood and then their adolescence. Like you said, they grow up in a violent, twisted world, where being emotionally distant is the norm. I would even say that they are expected to conform to the standards of (toxic) masculinity : channel all your emotions into anger, caring is being weak and feminine, prove your worth by your physical strength, be in control in all ur relationship, etc. I would say thats why Mo is so hostile towards HT : HT challenges his masculinity, by seducing him (everyone know that the biggest fear of macho men like HT and Mo is being considered gay -_-) and being stronger than him. Lets face it, Mo has kind of a homophobic issue, like all the boys. Between JY who tells HT its disgusting being told hes handsome by a man (at the beginning of the manhwa, i hope by now he had grown out of it), or Mo who tells HT he isnt happy that a guy is on his bed or who desperately wants to prove his heterosexuality by saying he likes all cute girls to his baldy friend... HT is more nuanced, but at the end, when he ‘seduces’ Mo, its always predatory. He doesnt let himself being vulnerable and he aggressively touches Mo even without his consent. For me, its a way of proving his domination, not his interest (and when i say that, i dont mean that HT is not genuinely interested in Mo -just that his actions dont translate this). ZZX is the only one who seems to have a healthy relationship with his masculinity lol, but then hes the healthy one in all aspects (thats why i dont like his character and am not invested in zhanyi, even if irl i would love to be his friend).

With all that being said, oc HT wont know how to adequately express genuine concern and interest in Mo ! This sort of social interactions is not something you just know, its smth you learn. And in HT and Mo’s cases, nobody was there to teach them -we could even say that ppl in their life made them unlearn caring behaviors. So HT does what he does best : he fights and forces, and is surprised when Mo thinks (obviously) HT is evil. And also, like you said, Mo will never be (at least how he is now) a driving force in their relationships bc he will always run away from bonding with ppl. So here we are, HT being the only driving force in their relationship, the same HT who only knows violence. No wonder that their relationship is like this...

As it is, i feel like tianshan is kind of in an impasse right now. One or the other is going to have to evolve if we want to see their relationships changing. Either HT learns how to care without being violent (seems complicated if Mo doesnt challenges him, bc HT isnt going to realize this without feedback since its how he has always functioned), or, more likely, Mo is going to be honest with him and tell him that his behavior is hurting him. Though more probable, I dont see it happening anytime soon : for one, Mo isnt capable of seeing when he is hurting emotionally and what is hurting him ; and also, bc Mo doesnt know any other language than violence, not unlike HT. I think its smth most of the fandom ignore, how violence is smth that HT and MGS both have in common, and how if HT wasnt violent, MGS certainly wouldnt consider him at all.

Anw im excited to see where OX is going with all this ! Like you said, the forced kiss was pivotal to their relationship, so im kind of hoping it would be the same here ! I just hope they wont... do like usual and just put a funny chapter and ignore this latest development.....

OMG i wrote soo much and there is so much i still want to say.... i think im going to do a second post... sorry about the spam lmao

( @nightfayre : i dont know how this site works yet, is @ you alright ? will it show you my post in your notif or should i send an ask ?  bc i want you to see my answer, but i dont want you to feel pressurized to respond or interact or anything !! above all dont feel pressurized, i was sad last night when you wrote ‘im sorry to not answer more quicly’ bc you should answer at your own rhythm or not answer ! your blog is a hobby, not an obligation, so dont feel bad to not do more when yo already do much !! )

[louder-than-love]

1-100 pls 🙈

HOLY FUCKING SHIT I DIDNT EXPECT THIS but thanks for all the interest though lmao :D

1 - Who was the last person you texted?

if tumblr messages count then it was my sweet friend @way-beyond-wildest-imaginations :)

2 - When is your birthday?

10th of October

3 - Who do you want to be with right now?

a friend

4 - What sports do you play?

N O N E BECAUSE I’M L A Z Y

5 - Who is the first person in your contacts?

a friend called Ahsen

6 - What is your favorite song as of the moment?

Sappy by Nirvana or Wo die wilden Maden graben by Casper

7 - If you were stranded on an island, who do you wish to be with?

someone who can help me get out of there as fast as possible

8 - What do you feel right now?

joy because I’m finally listening to the new Foo Fighters album and it’s amazing

9 - What chocolate is your favorite?

milk chocolate

10 - How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have?

0,00

11 - Why did you create a Tumblr account?

end of January 2017, I don’t know the exact date right now sorry

12 - Who is your favorite blogger?

well, @rearviewmirror10 @rock-basstard @coolbuttmetal @wellwelldroogieboy post some quality stuff so I’d say they are my favourite bloggers? idk though

13 - Where do you want to be right now?

at a concert

14 - What do you want to be in the future?

happy and satisfied with myself :)

15 - When was the last time you cried? Why?

like 1 minute ago because Dave Grohl is perfect (yes I’m an ultimate fangirl)

16 - Are you happy?

sometimes more, sometimes less

17 - Who do you miss?

being thin lmao

18 - If you were given a chance, would you like to have a different life?

why not

19 - What was the best thing you were given?

my grandma bought me a so called “Lira”, which is a Turkish coin made out of gold and many Albanian girls get some of them when they get married, anyways she bought one for me before she died so I can wear it on a necklace or smth if I should ever get married and this is just one of the most precious things I ever received from someone.

20 - Who was the last person who called you?

my father’s friend haha

21 - What is your favorite dish?

pizza, lasagna, those Asian noodles... there’s a lot of stuff

22 - Who is your bestfriend?

on tumblr? @rearviewmirror10 @inside-a-break @wellwelldroogieboy @iowainc @way-beyond-wildest-imaginations they’re all really cool people and I like them a lot and it’s a pity that they’re all living like 1898873249874832km away from me

23 - What is your biggest regret?

I basically wasted my whole youth and I experienced like almost nothing and I feel like I’m going to regret this a lot later

24 - Have you ever cheated on your partner?

which partner?

25 - Who do you spend crazy moments with?

my brother

26 - Name someone pretty

Stone Gossard

27 - Who was the last person you hugged?

I don’t remember, probably my friend

28 - What kind of music do you listen to?

mostly rock, metal and grunge. But also some hip-hop/rap idk I like a lot of stuff but that’s like what I listen to the most

29 - Are you over your past?

I think so?

30 - Who is the last person in your contacts?

my neighbour called Vivian

31 - What kind of person do you want to date?

someone who is nice and humourous, with a good heart and a kind soul, someone who I feel comfortable around and most importantly: someone who likes me back  (good joke huh)

32 - Do you have troubles sleeping at night?

most of the time

33 - From whom was the last text message you received?

my father

34 - What do you prefer, jeans or skirt?

JEANS hell no I don’t wear skirts

35 - How’s your heart?

idk? my physical heart ist fine I hope?

36 - Did you ever have a girlfriend/boyfriend whose name starts with a “J”?

no

37 - Do you like someone as of the moment?

I like Josh Klinghoffer :)

38 - What would you want to say to your latest ex-boyfriend/ex-girlfriend?

i never had one

39 - Do you have any phobias?

not that I know

40 - Did you try to change for a person?

yes

41 - What’s the nicest thing have you given to someone?

Well, a few friends and I bought a concert ticket for a friend for her 18th birthday earlier this year and she really really enjoyed it so that was probably it? But idk, I’m that type of person who rather gives smaller gifts

42 - Would you go back to your previous relationship?

never have been in one so

43 - Are you in a good or bad mood?

In a neutral one tending towards happy because the new Foo Fighters album is so good

44 - Name someone you can’t live without.

my brother, I don’t know what I would do without him, life wouldn’t be the slightest bit enjoyable without him (I know this is cringey but it’s true)

45 - Describe your dream date.

watching tv shows, eating pizza and listening to music together? I’m not that much of a fancy person

46 - Describe your dream wedding

it would be perfect if John Frusciante was performing there and it would be even more perfect if I was marrying him lmaoooooo

47 - How many roses did you receive last Valentine’s?

0,00

48 - Have you ever been kissed?

romantically? no. I’ve only had those little kisses you do with friends, nothing special

49 - How long is your longest relationship?

never been in one

50 - Do you regret your past?

some aspects of it

51 - Can you do something stupid for someone else?

yes

52 - Have you ever cried over someone?

yes

53 - Do you have a grudge against anyone?

no I don’t really hold grudges

54 - Are you a crybaby?

sometimes

55 - Do people praise you for your looks?

people only praise my shit hair and my flannel shirts because everything else on me is ugly

56 - Did you fall for someone you shouldn’t?

yes

57 - Have you ever done something bad but you don’t regret?

yes

58 - Do you like getting hurt?

who the hell likes to get hurt lmao?

59 - Does anyone hate you?

probably

60 - Did you slap anyone whose name starts with an “R”?

no, I don’t slap people because violence doesn’t lead to anything

61 - What hair color do you prefer?

all of them, I’d like to have black or red hair though

62 - If you can change anything about yourself, what is it?

my appearance, my demotivation, my low self-esteem, I also wish I was less of a hypocrite because I tend to hide a lot of shit to not hurt anyone. I also wish I could be able to express what I honestly think of a situation/people/anything else without being afraid to do so, that shit only leads to a lot of bottled up anger and it sucks

63 - Do you love someone as of the moment?

I love John Frusciante and Chris Cornell an Eddie Vedder

64 - Have you ever thought of killing yourself?

who hasn’t?

65 - Do you have issues with somebody in your school?

I’m not at school anymore heheh

66 - Can you live without internet?

NO like my whole social life is taking place on the internet at the moment

67 - What’s the song that remind you of your special someone?

Porch by Pearl Jam would remind me of my special someone IF I HAD ONE

68 - Are you good at holding back your tears?

depends but not really

69 - Are you a crybaby?

sometimes

70 - Have you ever experienced being hysterical?

yes many many times

71 - Are you a KPOP fan?

no

72 - Do you study hard?

not at all

73 - Have you ever sacrificed something important to you for someone you love?

not yet but I would do this at any time

74 - Did you ever had a kiss under the moonlight?

I wish

75 - Have you ever ridden a boat?

yes

76 - Did you have an accident last year?

luckily no

77 - What kind of person are you?

a person who is obsessed with music I guess

78 - Have you ever thought of killing someone?

yeah but I would NEVER do it

79 - Have you ever been jealous?

yeah

80 - How can you prove your love to someone?

by trusting them fully because I can’t trust anyone fully lmao

81 - What are you thinking right now?

“stop oversharing your stupid shit on tumblr bitch no one cares”

82 - Who is the 6th person in your contacts?

my cousin Ajlin

83 - Do you have any memories you want to erase?

yeah

84 - Have you been hurt so bad that you can’t find words to explain how you feel?

i don’t know

85 - Did you ever badmouth someone?

many many times

86 - Have you ever had an argument with someone?

not really because I give in too fast in order to avoid conflicts

87 - Do you have trust issues?

kind of

88 - Are you broken-hearted?

not really

89 - Who’s the person who first comes to your mind when someone mentions “love”?

Courtney Love because Love is her last name and I wish it was mine too

90 - Do you think all the pain is worth it?

no

91 - Do you believe in the phrase “If it’s meant to be, it will be”?

when I have an optimistic moment, then I do

92 - Who do you want to marry?

John Frusciante

93 - Do you believe in destiny?

not really

94 - Have you ever thought “I already found my soulmate”?

yeah but I’m probably not right

95 - How do you look right now?

shitty as always lmao, but if you mean outfit then: I’m wearing a white baseball shirt with long grey sleeves and blue skinny jeans

96 - Do you believe that first true love never dies?

not sure...

97 - Have you found your true love?

does John Frusciante count?

98 - What should you be doing right now?

sleeping

99 - Name one of your ex-boyfriends/ex-girlfriends.

Doesn’t Exist

100 - Did you ever feel like you’re not good enough?

yes