#also uni and work are okay babe!! im enjoying work but uni is KILLING me so that's also why i've been so absent đ
RID HELLO MY LOVE đ«¶đ«¶đ«¶
im so sorry for disappearing again âčïž my dad had a health scare and if you know me, you know that i drop everything for that man no matter what âŒïž ive been so MIA from tumblr, i feel so so bad!!
but on a lighter note, i do think im back for a bit now đ i vaguely scrolled through your blog to catch up and o my gee i have a lot of reading to do (i cant wait to reenter my cmi world đ„șđ„ș)
i do want to say tho... i am truly sorry for continuously disappearing. âčïž the lack of support from my end, combined with a bunch of other tumblr users leaving, mustve been very difficult as a creator. i also saw mentions of you wanting to discontinue your stories... however whether or not im actively reading each chapter, im always looking forward to it. đcmi, as well as you in general, has truly helped me in such dark times... its a place of comfort â€ïž even though i may not actively wait for the chapters, i do count down the days in which i can sit down and read my babies story (they are literally my children no one can tell me otherwise) đ„ș
whatever decision you make on them, i will support you, however i am #teamcontinuecmi đ
ALSO I SAW THERES A NEW C&F ONESHOT COMING SOON?? HOW EXCITING!!!!
i hope you are doing well, i would love love love some updates on uni and work since i have been absent for so long đ«¶
- wife from war anon đââïž
oh gosh, babe đ you don't have to feel bad at all!!! i've been not been extremely active either, and i feel like everyone else's been feeling the same :') i'm ngl, i definitely missed you â thought about you p much before you sent this ask. but i always, always tell you to put yourself first and take your time. i hope your dad's okay!!
ahh, yes, it's been rough on tumblr and yeah i did have a couple thoughts about discontinuing cmi/leaving tumblr in general bc things feel mmh changed? those thoughts aren't rare, and very scary. but it's also hard leaving behind people like you and characters like them, because i've grown to love them like actual people and you like my rl friends. i'm so so happy you find comfort in them, my blog and me, it's all i ever want :( tyt with catching up, i can't wait to hear what you think!!
AND YES c&f oneshot coming soon!! praying for time and motivation though lmao!! love you and hope you're okay đ€
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Red. [1]
Red (n.)
Red could signify the color of love, passion, determination, and strength. Red could also signify blood, fire, war, desire and energy. Red is an emotionally intense color.
Title: Red
Words:Â 4.7k
AU: Yandere/Obssessive relationshipÂ
Characters: Jungkook x Reader. Hoseok x Reader. OT7.
Warnings: 17+ explicit language, angst!angst!angst!, slight implications of smut, some fluff and soft moments (super fucking sappy), noona kink (if you squint reaaaaally hard), yandere/obsessive relationship (this isnt a healthy relationship and i dont promote any of this), mentions of killing, hallucinations, has very descriptive angst!!
Summary: âAfter the things that happened, you decided to start anew. Everything was how you thought it would be; it was simple but perfectâuntil you saw your name on a black envelope. Out of curiosity, you opened it; and now, you wish you didnât.â
LIST FOR RED
CHAPTER 1
You held your phone to your ear using your shoulder. You huffed as you tried to multi-task being on the phone, walking to class and carrying a shoulder bag, laptop, books and a cup of coffee in your arms. âCan you please just do it? I have to head back to Jiminâs because he left his wallet.â
â____, as much as I love you, I will not go to your brotherâs house without you. You know the look he gives me for being with you alreadyâ and you want me to go there to drop off your boxes for you.â You chuckled as he rambled and emphasized on the task you requested him to do.
âBabe, thatâs just how he looks at everyone, okay? And plus, youâre bigger than him. I remember having a man for a boyfriend not a baby.â you giggle as you teased him.
âFor fucks sake, ____, Your brother is a fucking cop. He looks like he hates me and he is a licensed official who can put me behind bars for, I donât know, laughing at you when you do some stupid shitâ You laugh at this because you know youâre one hell of a klutz.
âIâll give you a blowjob if you do itâ You whispered into the phone, nonchalantly. As expected, there is a small pause until you heard a groan.
âFine, Iâll do it. You owe me big time, baby girl.â
You ended the call and texted your brother saying that Jungkook is heading over to drop off your things for your parents.
â
Bro
[12:34] Y/N: yoon
[12:34] Y/N: Jk is heading over there to bring my stuff
[12:35] Y/N: u home right?
[12:37] Bro: Nah
[12:37] Bro: not home work called but Mina is home she shuld be awake
[12:38] Y/N: Mkay ill tell him
[12:40] Bro: đđ»
â
JeonâĄ
[12:45] Y/N: Hes not home but Mina is
[12:47] JeonâĄ: Ok yessssss
[12:47] JeonâĄ: but im still expecting something đ
[12:47] Y/N: fck outta here jeon and do what u gotta do
[12:47] JeonâĄ: Damn ok live u
[12:47] JeonâĄ: love*** â„ïžâ„ïž
[12:48] Y/N: đ„° love you 2
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You shoved your phone in your bag and walked to the library. The weather was really nice. it complimented how you were dressed up for today.
Thank God, it was just for today.
Your Art Club meeting is really gonna screw you up. You really hope you ace this meeting since you stayed up all night making the power point. Youâre also drowning yourself in caffeine and hoping it doesnât spill on your new blouse. The branded shirt costed you more than your monthly grocery; and itâs not like you find it a hassle to be stylish but itâs definitely something different. Itâs way different than the go-to vans and a pair of jeans with the Uniâs hoodie. Oh how you wished thatâs what you were wearing right now.
After the meeting, you walked up the steps and opened the door to the Universityâs library. You were greeted by Namjoon, who was on his way out.
âHey, ____. What brings you here? It isnât Thursday today, is it?â He asked you casually while checking his Gold Casio watch. Namjoon is used to your frequent visits to the library. After working in the library for 4 out of 5 years of his Uni life, heâs accustomed to seeing you on the same desk, at the second floor, by the window. Sometimes, youâre caught doing homework, checking out Literature books or books of Art History, or probably just reading a comic book or webtoon that Jungkook told you about.
âOh no, Itâs Tuesday but I just needed to catch up with some workâ accidentally bumping your elbow to the door causing you to almost drop your books but luckily, Namjoonâs instincts were fast. You quietly thanked him. âI got math to doâ
âWell then,â He turned and waved âMs. Ryu is expecting me. Good luck with mathâ
âAlrightie, see yaâ
You walked to your usual spot and placed your laptop on the desk. You opened it and typed in the password. You grinned at the screensaver.
Oh god, it never fails to make you smile.
It was a screenshotted picture of Jungkook with ice cream of his face on your second date. It was a funny memory if you recall what happened.
âStopppp, youâre going too hard. I might fly upâ You said giggling and holding on the seesaw like it meant your life depended on it. Technically, it kind of did.
âOkay okay, iâm sorryâ he said laughing at how you looked.
Both of you continued using the seesaw while casually talking about nonsense like what if aliens came and decided to rule Earth or if there was a zombie apocalypse, what you would do.
âNow that I think about it, I would find it weird that thereâs two grown adults using a seesaw and eating ice creamâ BUT CUTEâ saying it with emphasis.
âYour right, itâs not something you see everydayâ He shrugged and laughed and went back to lick his ice cream.
âYeah, you donât see muscle pig tatted good looking e-boy eating ice cream while using a seesaw, everydayâ You teasingly said.
âWhat was that?â He said looking at you. You knew that he heard because his ears were starting to turn red but it didnât stop his lips altering to a smile hearing the compliment. It was probably even boosting his ego hearing that the girl he likes called him good looking. He knew that and he always, mentally, thanked his parents and the Man above for mixing his genes well.
âHuh?â biting your lip, smiling and trying not to laugh âOh nothingâ shaking your head. You took out your phone to take a snapchat video of him holding onto the seesaw with his ice cream cone on the other hand.
He urged you to repeat it, not because of what you said, but because of how the blush crept up your face as you said it. He noticed how red your cheeks has gotten and how you adorable it is to see you this flustered.
âSay itâ he whined, exaggerating the act knowing that he was being recorded. He bounced a little hard on the seesaw which caused you to jump a little. He smirked at your shocked look.
âHmm, You wanna play that game huh?â Still taking a video, you playfully copied what he did to you which caused him to jump a little forward and the ice cream on his hand, now on the ground. His chin and mouth covered in with the dessert and his black shirt having evidence of the incident. Â
âAwwww Jungkook, Iâm sorryâ You cooed and pouting at him. You couldnât help but giggle at the sight in front of you as you walked towards him, zooming into his face. He had a fake pout and a slight smile. Putting your phone at the back of your pocket, you took the napkin from around your cone and started to wipe his chin.
âIâm so sowwyyyâ
He stared at you mischievously. You glanced into his eyes and continued to wipe his chin. He pulled your wrist down and held the sides of your face and gave you a peck on the lips. You gasp at the sudden kiss but also the feeling of the sticky sugar treat around your mouth.
âItâs okay, now weâre evenâ He said laughing at you, with the little pout on your face.
You smile at the memory. It reminds you how lucky you got when meeting Jungkook because not only is he caring, smart and loving, he can also be a dickhead who doesnât take peopleâs shit. The duality, right? But hey, with the exception of your brother, Yoongi. He kind of isnât ashamed to admit to you that your brother is quite intimidating and, sometimes, scare him. Youâre pretty sure your brother also enjoys seeing Jungkook shit his pants whenever he sees him. His career choice, of being a police officer just adds up to the thrill of it. Although, Jungkook could be a bit younger than you, it doesnât stop Yoongi from being protective of you. But thatâs only if he is judging based on façade. Besides, heâs known Jungkook for long enough to know that heâs a keeper.
The loud sound of a book falling by the computer area brought you back to reality. You sighed and took out your math handout and begin on working out the problems.
âNow back to this shit.â You muttered. You didnât mind doing your assignments and homework but what really irked you is that your professor never collects it. It was just the usual. He gives out assignments, expects you to do them and then pop quiz at the end of the month.
Taking a break, you leaned back into the chair and took a sip of the ice coffee you brought. You looked around while stretching and cracked your joints. It sent you a wave of relief throughout your body after solving, for God knows how long, algebra equations. You checked your phone and realized youâve been sitting down, doing your work for 47 mins.
You stared out the window enjoying the scenery of the field and the schoolâs garden. What caught your eye is a group walking to the parking lot, but in this group you saw someone who thought would be familiar. You tilted your head trying to identify this person. It made you move closer to the window and you sat there with your chin on your hand, squinting your eyes for better focus. It was as if you were burning holes into this personâs back. Ironically, It was like he felt the heat behind him and he turned around. He turned around to face who could be his friends. Seeing his face, it sent chills down your spine. Blinking and shaking your head, thinking that you could be hallucinating or day-dreaming. You looked up again and couldnât make out who they were because their friends were blocking the one who you wanted to see. Your mind became blank once again and you looked at your ice coffee.
âI really shouldnât be drinking you, youâre starting to make me see thingsâ you thought.
You thought that it could be the coffee. Itâs already your 4th cup for the day. Although, at this rate, you donât know if your body is immune to it because you still feel sluggish as you did this morning. You hold your head with both hands, elbows on the table, feeling a slight headache. Itâs like feeling all your brain cells dying because of the caffeine overdose. You decided to shake it off and continue doing your work.
You were startled when the chair in front of you and beside you was pulled open and there sat Jimin and Taehyung. Your hands placed on your chest, you swore you that you just let out a loud shriek causing people to look at your direction.
âWhat the fuâ donât just randomly do that you shitheadsâ You whisper-yelled. You try to recover from the sudden appearance of the playful couple.
âWe saw you here, hope you donât mind we come and join you on your little study seshâ
âNot at allâ You said âOh yeah, here,â You searched in your bag for the thick leather wallet and handed it to him âGood thing you cameâ
"Thought you would be in class?â You asked while he shoves his wallet at the back of his pocket
âWell we finished early, Mr. Xing said heâs gonna call off for the dayâ
âYeah, Poor man, been coughing all day and couldnât sound out a syllableâ
âWhatâs up, ____. Looking like you were shitting bricks before we gave you reason to shit bricks. What is that?â He came closer to check the assignment I was doing and to his dismay, it was math.
âOou, well, that explains, but you good?â
âYeah, head hurts and was thinking âbout some thingsâ you mumbled.
âWell, you gotta stop overthinking, it gives you wrinkles. âN you know what they say about wrinkles~ theyâre a sign of old age~â
âWow, Thanks Taeâ You rolled your eyes, chuckling at the two. You stayed in the library with Jimin and Taehyung talking and doing assignments and projects.
Now, you are found in Jiminâs car, releasing stress by singing your souls out to 2000s R&B. You insisted that you walk but, of course, he didnât take no for an answer.
You were born in Daegu but your family moved to Seoul when you and Yoongi were very young. A few years ago, you decided to move in with your brother and his wife. Despite being born in the area, you felt out of place until you met Jimin and Taehyung. They were your the first set of friends that you met when you moved to Daegu. It was an easy friendship because not only that they attended DAU, Daegu Arts University, you three have the same Art History class. Youâre not gonna lie but you might have had the slightest crush on Jimin during first year of Uniâthat was until you find out the two were together. Hey, it didnât hurt though, the two were like soulmates.
Checking your phone, you saw time was only 4:27 PM. You sighed realizing that youâll have the apartment to yourself until Jungkook comes home, from his shift at the tattoo parlour, later tonight.
He was already working there when you met him. He moved away from Busan to pursue his dream in music. He asked his parents if he could move to Daegu and attend DAU. Of course, it took a toll on his parents but they let him do what he wanted. The best thing they could do was support their son on his dream; He aced a job at a tattoo parlour and he has little shows at the bars downtown, all while he was studying. He realized that it gave him satisfaction and he, secretly, took a break from schoolâwhich now, it led to him being a full-time worker at the well-known tattoo parlour. He finds that itâs nothing different if he would have finished; seeing that he didnât need to be a college graduate to get his job. Despite those circumstances, his creativity and love for Art and Music gets him paid; and thatâs what matters to him and youâthat heâs happy.
âAlright,â You shut the door and tapped on the trunk âthanks boys, see you tomorrow?â
âYeah, bye, _____. Sleep well tonight, You look too sleep deprivedâ
âI will, drive safe, text me when youâre homeâ
You walked up the stairs and reached your apartment. You entered the code of the doorâs lock and the door makes sound, signaling you that the doors open. You entered, taking off your shoes and hanging your coat on the coat rack. Walking towards the living room, you put your bag on the ground next to the counter which separates the living room and kitchen. Plopping down on the couch, you sighed in relief of the feeling being home and laying at the soft surface. You focused on listening to the humming of the air conditioner and then you felt your eyelids becoming heavy with every tick of the clock. Â
You were awoken by the smell of food and it made you realize how hungry you were; smelling the food definitely made your stomach growl that you felt the strong vibrations. You sat up and looked around and adjusted your vision to the light. You turned around and saw Jungkookâs back. You stood up and quickly stretched and walked towards him. As you approached him, he turned around and noticed your sleepy figure about to engulf him, which was intended to be a back hug.
âHi sleepyâ He says. He placed the spoon and tupperware on the counter, hugged you back in return and left a kiss on your temple. You hummed and just hugged him tighter. Inhaling his scent of body soap and aftershave.
âMina gave me some food when I went over there; She said you should try it and gave us a lot of itâ You hummed in response.
âWhat is it?â Your voice husky from sleeping
âItâs a chicken stew. Câmon, get ready weâll have dinner in a few, Iâm already making riceâ
âI wanna stay like this stillâ Your hold became tighter and he just rubbed your back. Your hunger was replaced by the feeling of ease and comfort in his embrace. You moved your face from his chest and faced him with your eyes closed and smiled at him.
âDonât forget your little promise, baby.â He said while placing kisses all over your face. His hands sliding up and down your back and moved to grope your ass, giving it a little slap. Your eyes opened and fake disappointment washed over you.
âI really thought it was going to be a sweet moment, Jeon. You really had-â He cut you with a peck on the lips.â-to say that.â He chuckled.
âCâmon, Noona, I can be really sweet.â You rolled your eyes at him.
âOh my god, youâre really fucking lucky Iâm a sub or else, i would have-â You cut yourself off and you smirked at him.
âHm, feisty now, isnât she?â You remove yourself from him and grab a cup to drink a glass of water.
âIâm sorry, JK. Iâm exhausted today. I promise, on date night, okay?â
âSomething happened today? I saw how busted you look on the couch when I came homeâ didnât wanna wake you until I finished heating up the foodâ Now it was his turn to hug you first. He sat on the stool and pulled you by your shirt and wrapped his arms around your waist. He stared at you with his doe eyes until you finished drinking and placing the glass on the counter.
âJust a club meeting but I didnât sleep last night. I had to finish the powerpoint and afterwards, I went to the library to finish off somethinâ. Jimin and Tae was with me though, no worries. They dropped me home too so.â You sighed and look at him.
âThat was the meeting you were talking about right? How was it? Howâd it go?â He asked
âRemember the man I told you about?â He hummed in response âWell, he seemed really impressed with my presentation and the art display we made and he spoke about visiting again,â You began playing with the long strands of his fluffy, wavy hair âHe said that heâll think about doing a workshop, all expenses paid, for learning art techniques and maybe even visiting the national museumâ
âIâm proud of you, ____. I know you worked hard for that. You know, being the Co-President of the Art Club.â He gushes as he rubbed circle with his thumb on your waist.
âOh myâ stop, let me get changedâ You tapped his chest and leaned forward to peck his nose.Â
You walked out the kitchen and headed to the bedroom and stripped to your underwear. You grabbed a towel heading to the bathroom for a quick shower. You gargled with some mouthwash and change into some boy shorts and Jungkookâs oversized sweatshirt. Â
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â____, the tableâs ready!â
âComing, coming!â
You skipped to the kitchen and sat on the high stool opposite of Jungkookâs. You both ate dinner and shoving the last chunk of carrot into your mouth, you stacked the dishes and placed them in the sink.
âAre you scheduled to play tonight?â You asked turned your head to him as you washed the utensils.
âYeah, Hyung said to meet at the subway. Iâll probably head out at around 30 35 mins from now?â He said questioningly, turning to look at the wall clock. It was currently 7:50 PM.
âYup, in 30 mins or soâ oh and please donât wait up for me again. Am not sure when Iâm coming but Iâll come home before it hits 1, okay?â He informs you while he removes his top and heads to the bathroom.
A little story of Jungkook and Seokjinâs relationship, Seokjin is Jungkookâs good friend who helped him move to Daegu. Jungkook and Seokjin were pretty much like roommates before you came into the picture. Besides being roommates, the pair were performers at the local bar.
Thatâs also how you met Jungkook. You saw him and Seokjin performing a ballad when you were with your group of friends. Eunbi, your close friend and also Seokjinâs girlfriend, introduced you to them that same night. You thought he was very attractiveâlike duh, who wouldnât? You both talked and got to know some things about each other and it led to both of you exchanging numbers, texting often, meeting up for coffee or lunch. Several months later, thatâs when he decided to ask you to make it official. You would visit their apartment often; it can be whenever they practiced ballads and their self-composed songs or you guys decide to have a movie night with Seokjin and Eunbi. For others, it may sound like the relationship was rushed for deciding to live together 1 year and 3 months into the relationship. It didnât feel wrong thoughâas cliche as it sounds. You felt that this new start was something just like you imagined it would be.
You were snapped out of your thoughts when Jungkook bent down to grab his bag that was next to you and to kiss your forehead.
âIâm heading out.â He slings the big black backpack on and walked towards the door. He stood by the front of the door struggling to put on his sneakers. âSleep early my loveâ he sang stretching out each syllable. You giggled at the soft curse he did when he nearly stumbled over the slippers behind him.
âTake care,â You turned your head to look at him and to surprise you noticed his outfit. Â âOh my.. Please tell me you have a light shirt in your bag. You really gotta stop wearing all black. Itâs too dark outside kook. Trust me, Iâll really buy you some twinkle toesâ You said worriedly, remembering the incident that almost happened a few days ago. Stupid driver + Late night + Boyfriend in dark clothing + Walking = Not a good combination.
âDonât worry, _____. Look, I got the shoes with the light reflectors. Itâs not twinkle toes but itâs somethingâ He smugly said with hands on his hips. You couldnât help but laugh at him.
âOkay, love you, text me if anything. Go sleep early for real, itâs an orderâ
âLove you tooâ You said sending him a flying kiss, to which he pretended to catch and smack on his cheek before he closed the door.
You decided to get ready for bed. You turned off the lights in the living room, kitchen and the mini hallway. You walked in the bathroom to do your skin care and brush your teeth. You walked in the bedroom while using your phone, checking for updates on your social media. Peeling the covers open, you laid down and tucked yourself in. You set an early alarm for the next day and put your phone down. You stared at the wall, deep in thought. You were reminded of the familiar face you saw when you were at the library. Yes, itâs been almost roughly 5 years but sometimes you canât help but remember the painful memories. It was still vivid to you. You rubbed your face with your hands.
âI canât believe you would do something like that. Do you not trust me?â
â___, What the fuck are you talking about? I trust you! Why are yo-â You scoffed.
âWhat do you mean, what the fuck Iâm talking about, you know damn well what the fuck Iâm talking about.â You turned to face him.
â____.â He calmly looks at you and held your arm but you pulled away.
âWhy the fuck would you send threats to my classmate? I told you we were just doing a project and itâs not like we were alone⊠I donât even know him that well for you to accuse me of somethingâ
âI didnât even accuse you of anything, ___. Stop saying shit right now.â He rolled his eyes and turned away from you. You looked at him is disbelief.
âSo texting someone like âhey, im ___âs boyfriend, and i need you to back tf away from her. I see the way you look at herâ blah blah blah and âif not, i know where you live and i swear ill torture tf outta youâ is not a threat? Youâre already accusing me and someone else for doing something we didnât doâ He noticed your rage and turned around and walked towards you.
â___, Itâs not like that, i prom-â You cut him off
âAnd you pulled a knife on himâŠâ You say softly.
âW-what? H-how⊠What are you saying right now, ___. You sound stupidâ There was a pregnant pause until you couldnât hold back a hiccup. Your tears running down your face.
âI saw you. In the parking lot. After you dropped me off, I was gonna run after you when I saw that I left my bottle behind and there you wereâŠâ You looked up at him with glossy eyes
âThere was my fucking boyfriend with a knife on my classmaââ You jokingly said, with enthusiasm, as you turned around waving your arms towards your boyfriend as if you were talking to an audience. You nervously chuckled at the situation. You were in disbelief that you couldnât even finish your sentence. You choked back the sob. Â
That night was when you realized your boyfriend was fucking crazy. He was out of his mind. It was just like what those movies would talk about when the lead character has a girlfriend and sheâs literally crazy; doing anything to get his attention. Except it was the opposite, it was him and definitely not you. What scares you the most is that, it happened, not twice, but more than 5 times. Itâs not like how the movie depicts it to be anymore. Itâs reality and much more scarier than that. He doesnât know but you know heâs the one who stares at you from across the room of where you sat. You know, that heâs the reason why some people donât talk to you the way they used to. It was all because of him your life started to feel like a living hell.
You shook the memories away. You checked your phone. 9:39 PM.
âThatâs the pastâ You muttered to yourself.
âThatâs way in the past, ___. Youâre here now, Almost 5 years. Youâre just hallucinating this againâ You sighed. You reached to the nightstand and drank some water. You opened the voice recording app on your phone and clicked on the file that Jungkook made.
He knows about your story. He knows about everything. He knows why you moved and why you decided to change your life; and you loved how supportive he was of it. You canât stress enough how thankful you are to be with someone like Jungkook.
File: a_lullaby_for_my_someone.mp3
âHi, _____â His clear voice filling the quiet room â,I know you arenât sleeping right nowâand that explains why you turned to this recording, Ha. Anyways, Thatâs why I made this very special lullaby for you. Hereâs my rendition to our songâŠâ
And thatâs when he started strumming the guitar.
Put your head on my shoulder
Hold me in your arms, baby
You placed your phone on his side of the bed and hugged a pillow. Finally adjusting your sleeping position, you closed your eyes and your previous thoughts were pushed aside as you focus on your boyfriendâs singing
Squeeze me oh so tight
Show me that you love me too
Your breathing becoming slower and free from panic
Put your lips next to mine, dear
Wonât you kiss me once, baby
Just a kiss goodnight, maybe
You and I will fall in love
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Hello Loves đ! IM BACK OMG ! So Iâve been trying to get rid of my writing block for months now and apparently my writing block has come out of tumblr and is now on wattpad so Iâll probably not be updating on there for a while ( sorry neve)! I hope you enjoy this story and if possible please go check out my wattpad @wckdseb and give my stories some love ! Love you guys eternally! Also happy birthday to the love of my life Sebastian, youâve helped me through the days I thought I should give up so I thank you more than I can ever explain.
-L âïž
Summary : people say long distance relationships are hard, you would definitely agree, and after your boyfriend of 10 years cheats on you, you are left wondering if that crush on your team member Bucky was actually just your subconscious telling you where your heart actually belongs.
Note: This is a product of months of writing block, my ex cheating on me, and the amazing song Cardi b Thru your Phone
Pairings: Bucky x Reader, avengers x reader
Warnings: I havenât written in ages this is shit! angst, a lottttt of swearing, cheating ass dicks, fluff, mentions of sex/sexual activities
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people say long distance relationships are hard, you would definitely agree. You have been with you boyfriend Daniel, âDanâ, ever since you were both just silly seventeen-year-olds begging to leave high school together as soon as possible so your adventures could begin but now, that adventure was coming to an abrupt end.
Throughout your nearly 10 year on and off relationship youâve both been told âyour not experiencing the worldâ, âhow do you know you truly love each otherâ and â sheâll/heâll cheat on you when youâre not around.â And many more horrible things but you two didnât let that stop your love.
That didnât mean you two didnât end it sometimes , their was that 3 year break for uni (minus the drunken hookups) so you too could discover yourself, their was the 2 years you did work experience at a marine biology research lab, where he ended up becoming a security guard without even knowing you worked there and that was where you gained your powers and were being helped by you boss so you couldnât just leave. Donât forget their was all the blind dates you were set up on which every time turned out to be him, so it just felt like you could never escape each other so the relationship carried on, but now, 4 years later, itâs even more complicated.
After a freak accident in you lab one night you were âblessedâ with the ability to control the element of water, that wasnât in the description of your marine biology degree though, your boss whose wife was born with a similar gift offered to help you and later was the one who introduced you to the one and only nick fury after your powers needed a more professional approach.
So here you are now, 10 years later from once being seventeen, sat around a marble table surrounded by a team of superheroâs eating spaghetti like six-year-olds and everything seemed good, but not for long.
Last week was your high school best friend Jennyâs birthday party but sadly you were too busy with a mission to go, so instead of the 15 hours plane ride straight after a 3 day mission in Russia your other best friend Neveah sent videos and photos of parts of the night so you could see what you were missing. As everyone talked and laughed you placed your phone in you hand with a on EarPod in one ear smiling at all you high school friends dancing and smiling at the camera saying stupid jokes about you throughout, your laughs soon caught the attention of the team who ended up watching your drunk friends with you laughing along, but the laughter was soon cut short by Sam yelling,
âwhat the fuck is he doing!â He screams angrily as he grabs your phone pausing the video and zooming in, Bucky and Wanda had gone over to look at what he was yelling at and soon Wandas eyes turned ruby red and Buckys fists clenched
âIâm going to fucking kill him.â His voice turned cold and his eyes swirling with rage.
While everyone was trying to calm the three down you managed to get your phone back and your eyes raced across the screen only to be greeted by your boyfriend making out with Jenny, your best friend. Suddenly everything in your life went silent and you lost all ability to function, your body fell back into your chair and the glass of water in your other hand smashed against the tiled floor, you hastily scurried up to your feet and pushed your way through the teams bodies, you began hurrying into the corridor to your bedroom, faint shouts of your name were blocked out by what you think were your tears as your wooden door slammed shut and your body slid down it .
âMiss (y/l/n), youâre in distress, shall I get help.â F.R.I.D.A.Yâs voice broke the tear-filled air.
âNo...no F.R.I.D.A.Y donât le- donât let anybody in, please.â Your voice no longer cheerful but now breaking and blocked by tears and as you hand shook your now tear stained cheeks glowed in the screen light and your weak fingers scrolled through your contacts to find that dicks name.
You lifted yourself of the ground and placed yourself on the bed as your phone dialled, your friends waited outside the door, Bucky angrily pacing down the corridor as his anger boiled up inside, while everyone just waited to hear him pick up, and well, he did.
âHey (y/n) ! I just got back from a shift you alri-âDanâs cheerful voice was soon cut off by a loud sob.
âHo- how could you.â Pain and hurt was all Bucky and everyone else could hear in your voice as they sat in the corridor snooping into the conversation like teens, wanting to make sure that asshole didnât hurt you even more.
âBabe wha-â Bucky scoffed at his nickname, you always hated being called that but you put up with it for him.
âDonât fucking call me that.â You snapped back at him.
âOkay okay, (y/n) I just need you to calm down I think you having another anxiety attack.â He pleaded with innocence, nearly causing Nat to jump on a plane to snap his neck.
âIâm not having an anxiety attack you dickshit! This is just the effects of finding out your boyfriend of TEN FUCKING YEARS HAS BEEN NECKING ON WITH YOUR BEST FRIENDâ you screamed down the phone as the speaker button flickered white in the darkness, all the pain in your heart begin pouring out like a waterfall.
âBabe...I um...Iâ Lost for words was all anybody would describe what was happening right and it wasnât good.
âSo now youâre lost for words? Bet youâve been saying a lot of nice shit to Jenny havenât you? Oh wait your tongue has been too busy down her fucking throat.â Tony couldnât help silently chuckle at his gals response, heâd taught her well when it comes to dealing with assholes.
âItâs not like that, you donât understand.â He pleaded, wanting her just to breathe and let him explain.
âThen fucking explain it to me Daniel! Enlighten me with your amazing knowledge.â Sarcasm dripping towards the end of your sentence as you began sorting through your wardrobe and throwing all his hoodies and gifts he gave you onto the floor so that every trace of him was no longer in your life.
â i know I know I just donât know where to begin.â Dans head was full of confusion on how you found out but that wasnât a good enough reason.
âWhere to begin ? Maybe begin by telling me if this was a one time thing or have you been fucking my best friend since we were seventeen.â Your heart was rapidly beating with fear and anxiety as you wondered if your whole relationship had been one massive coverup and lie, you wanted to sound scary and intimidating but every time you spoke your voice just turned into a sob of tears.
âItâs been going on for nearly 4 yearsâ and thatâs when your heart fully broke and the team sat out side all look at each other in shock at disgust.
â4 years, 4 bloody years.â You whispered as you hastily grabbed and sat in your chair, looking out at the New York skyline as the room began to spin.
âSo youâre telling me that you, Daniel River Fucking Brown was cheating on me with my best friend when I was kidnapped by FUCKING HYDRA!â You voice was more filled with sadness than anything as you hand slammed into your table knocking over the picture frame of you too at prom, the whole team heard the shatter of glass and Bucky was so tempted to go in there and wrap in his arms until this nightmare ended.
The memories of the beginning of those four years hurt more then anything due to the fact after the first couple months you joined the avengers your powers had increased beyond belief, you could now control all the elements and were commonly known by the world as Gardien du Ciel or Sky Guardian and it caused you to became a high priority for hydra, and soon you became their prisoner for nearly a year after they took you while you were on your way to visit Dan for your anniversary.
âYes, yes I am.â His voice was soft and quite now, like he was embarrassed or something.
âAfter you were taken I was messed up, I was already struggling without you by my side while you were in New York but now you could never come back due to Hydra And i was struggling to liveâ the whole team brewed with anger as he tried to play victim without even knowing that they already knew the whole truth.
âOne night a couple of months after you were taken I got into really bad place, and Jenny came round when she thought something was wrong because I missed work. We ended up talking for hours everyday for weeks and one night one thing lead to another and itâs been happening ever since, she just wanted to comfort me.â He hastily finished explaining like he just wanted this conversation to be over because he couldnât be bother to keep lying.
âBullshit.â Was all you responded with
âWhat.â He questioned with slight anger
âItâs a bullshit excuse, thatâs what that is, the whole time i was taken I know you did jack shit, you never called my team when I missed are anniversary dinner, Tony had to call you to tell you I was missing and he was on the other side of the world! My friends told me how you went partying every Saturday like usual, they told me you never came to the searches and light ceremonies they held, you did fucking nothing Daniel! The people I was captured by showed me the news reports and you were never there Daniel! You never were, and Iâm tired of pretending like it didnât hurt!â You could hear your heart breaking through every word as the flashbacks of those 11 months tortured your brain.
âI just couldnât deal with it.â Was all he responded with
âAnd you think I could ? You think I was doing just fine getting tortured and abused? Because I wasnât !â This whole event finally made you realise that you havenât even been in love with this asshole these pass 4 years and you were tired of faking it.
âI know (y/n) I know !â His voice full of anger now like you were the one in the wrong
âHow the fuck would you know? You didnât even see me in hospital after I was rescued? Bucky was the first one there and was by my side every night through the coma and after while you where partying and fucking Jenny!â Your heart flutter at the memories of hearing his voice everyday until you woke up from that coma and he smiled at the fact you remembered he was even there.
âOh god donât bring Bucky Into this.â He groaned with disrespect
âWhat on earth is that suppose to mean.â You snapped back with disgust
âYou know what I mean (y/n), the whole time youâve been at that tower Iâve seen and heard the way you felt about himâ Dans voice was laced in hate with every word he spoke while the team all seemed to look a Bucky with âwe all already knewâ looks while his face was full of shock.
âDaniel we talked about this last time I was in London, I told you about me feelings for bucky because I wanted their to be trust in are relationship, but I guess you donât know what trust is, and i think these past 4 years of me growing to love that man was my heart and subconscious telling me that I donât love your stupid ass at all and I just need my best friend and the man Iâm Truly in love with as the guy by my side not the guy who I fucked at prom and only lasted five fucking seconds.â And with that final comment your hung up, falling back into the bed you just cried yourself asleep, not knowing that your team had just heard the whole thing, including Bucky hearing your confession of liking him.
Pt 2 coming tomorrow đđ
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Responses to {Part 26} I Wonât Stop You // Jeon Jungkook, Vampire!AU Asks~
Please âKeep Readingâ to find my response to your ask ^^ As always, I have copied and pasted all asks into this post in regards to last nightâs chapter to avoid clogging up peopleâs dashboards and to avoid spoilers for those who may still wish to read the chapter. Thank you ^^
(I have also included asks that I received in the hours before IWSY was posted ^^)
Anonymous said: I was having a really horrible day. And that's when I realized IWSY is getting updated tonight and it hasn't been as bad as a day as expected!^^ Â On a side note, do you like 2PM? I just wanted to see possibly. If you do, what is your favorite song? Thank you for being so awesome! đđ
Iâm sorry you are having a really horrible day *hugs* but I hope IWSY can make you smile a little bit! And yes, I like 2PM, but is it bad to say that my fav song was 10 our of 10? LOLOL I still listen to it occasionally :3
Anonymous said: can't wait for the new iwsy chapter :)))
Yay I hope you enjoy it!!
@hemhings said: I won't be able to read I Won't Stop You tonight because I'm on nightshift, I'm so upset about this!đđđš
Awww babe Iâm sorry youâre working nightshift! :( that really sucks ugh :( but donât worry my love, Jungkook will still be here for you when you get home!! :3
@ktaegyo said: okay i just had my first part of final exams today and I fucked it up but then I stumbled upon your story and read all 25 chapters at one go lmao. bless you, thank you for making me feel better. I love you
Iâm sure you didnât fuck it up my love, Iâm sure you did the best you can do! *hugs* but Iâm really happy that IWSY made you feel a little better, and I love you too :D
@fangirlunnie said: IWSY can have hundreds of chapters and I wouldn't get tired of it đđ»đđ»đđ»đđ»
Oh god I donât think it will have hundreds of chapters xD But it is turning out to be quite long! I never expected the story to take my to all these different places and ideas xD But thank you so much beautiful :3
@adoppelna14 said: Every Tuesday I have this strange urge to tell you that I am waiting for the new Chapter of IWSYđ and it's no joke. A lot of times I look at the date and I'm like, Oh no it's not Tuesday yet. And every Tuesday morning it's like, why can't it be night already?đđ
Please never lose this strange urge because I really love seeing people get excited (cos I get excited too!!) hehe ^^ I really hope youâll enjoy this one ahhhh c:
Anonymous said: Bc i live in the Netherlands i have to wait till 10:30 bc the time is 1 hour behind, but still I always stay awake for IWSY and I always go to sleep after i read it bc Tuesday is the longest school day i have whaha
Awh bless you thatâs so late for you Iâm sorry! :( But I hope that tonightâs chapter will be a good one :3
Anonymous said: iwsy is literally the highlight of my day... no lie. my university classes have already stopped for the summer so i have nothing to do today.. and iwsy hasnt come out yet.... so all i did was nap. i woke up, checked the time in the uk, went back to sleep, and checked the time again. you got yourself a dedicated reader here!!!!
Youâre literally so cute Iâm screaming xD But Iâm so jealous that youâre already finished Uni for the summer! I really hope you like tonightâs chapter :3 thank you so much for reading IWSY!!
Anonymous said: IWSY has reached its final ark right? I'm so exited for the last chapters. ^0^
Maybe, maybe not! Youâll just have to wait! :D
@warriorinhealing said: Can I just say I'm literally sitting at the edGE OF MY BED just waITING for IWSY to update đ© this story is so good and my friend got me into this and I don't regret(okay kinda of bc my emotions are played a lot in this story) and I jUST !!! đđ© I don't ship chim and tae but this story makes me wonder if I should and I love yoongi but this story makes me waNNA FITE HIM SO HARD and I want him to cATCH MY H A N DSS !!! and you just write so good đ sorry that this is long, I'm vvv emotional
Ahh youâre so cute thank you so much! Iâm really happy that you got into IWSY and that youâre enjoying it :3 Tbh i ship tae with everyone lmao heâs so loveable and full of affection ^^ I hope youâll enjoy tonightâs chapter my love!! thank you so much :3
Anonymous said: First of all, i'm going to calmly say that you are a wonderful writer and that new chapter is no joke. I also want to say something else. Pardon my french, but: Â WHAT THE FUCK? Â I almost started sobbing.... But its fine... Ill just wait another seven days to see what happens. Â [I've never cried from fanfiction before so this was a nice surprise. Thank you for being such a great writer and continuously uploading IWSY. Just thank you~đ]
Hehe :3 thank you so much for saying that ahh~ iâm so happy you read it and liked? it! lolol :3 thank you so much dear!
Anonymous said: fuck.
same tbh
Anonymous said: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
YES
@jauntyjin said: IF U KILLED JIMIN ILL BE SO SAD
WHERE DOES IT SAY JIMIN DIED
@talkmemeytome said: Omg im ACTUALLY crying at iwsy youre such a great writer oh gosh
aaaaaaaaah thank you so much yay!!
Anonymous said: I AM SHOOKETH. OH MAN. THAT WAS SO GOOD. YOU'RE PLAYING WITH MY HEART STRINGS. JESUS
Youâre so welcome hehe~ thank you very much!
@mysr3 said: Sara!!! Am so MAD at U rn!! That Yoongi bite not supposed 2b on Y/N ahhđwhat!!! Am so upset Omg! Ok I know u r the queen of Cliff hanging but this is just the most painful one I ever had! Glare hard at u girl! Nice chapter! My emotions r all over the place again thx to u! Can u spare us n give us reassurance that everything will b okay! Plzz I need this! My tears keep on falling TT Thank you! I Love U n Ur Blogâ€ïžâ€ïžâ€ïž but should I continue LOVIN U after this hmm đ€ Hav a good Day Sara! â€ïž Ps I like how u portrayed Y/N to b kind of bad ass this time! But Jimin!!!! Why~
Itâs okay~ everyoneâs mad at me :( Donât cry! Keep reading! hehe :) And Y/N has always been bad ass ^^ But she definitely went overboard and couldnât control her anger in this chapter I think^^ thank you so much for reading my love!
Anonymous said: đŻđđąđđ”đ±  âbasically how i felt while reading this chapter haha BUT DAMN NOW I REALLY NEED TO KNOW HOW THIS WILL TURN OUT I NEED NEXT WEEK TO ARRIVE (but also no because it'll be one week less to my finals) can't wait for updates!!! Hope you have a great week đ
Next week isnât that far away! and same I feel you i have so many tests and finals and assignments that I feel like crying forever lolol thank you so much for reading my love!
@ayedemi said: i'm crying istg, i need more of IWSY, i'm in London with school next week and i will miss it bc they don't know for sure if we have wifi ): but i wanna say ILY byeee â„ïž
Ooooh I will also be in London next week! *shifty eyes* hehe but I hope youâll enjoy IWSY if/when you get a chance to read it :D
Anonymous said: I know I just forgave you for playing with my heart but now I'm afraid I'm gonna have to take it back becaUSEWHYDIDUKILLJIMIN?!WHYDIDYOUKILLTHEMOSTPRECIOUSTHINGINMYLIFEHUH?!HEWASJUSTAYOUNGVAMIREANDYOUJUSTWERELIKETIMETORUINTHEFUNSORRYMATE?!IFONLYICOULDKEEPMYSTUPIDMOUTHSHUTANDNOWJIMINISDEAD!!!IMSUPPOSEDTOWRITEAPAPERTHATSDUE T O M O R R O W AFTERREADINGTHIS?!THISISTOOMUCHFUDGINGANGSTFORMYPOORFLUFFYHEART?!IHAVEMORETOSAYBUTIMRUNNINGOUTOFCHARACTERSSOILLENDWITHTHIS-IH8USOMUCHRIGHTNOW!HMPH- Vampnip anon
Question; where in the chapter did it say Jimin died *confused face*
Anonymous said: ... .... ..... ...... I Hate  You So Much Right Now HOW.COULD.YOU.DO.THAT.TO.ME Is it sad that I don't actually care about my character I'm just really sad about jimin đ
no Jimin donât dieeeee!
@ohheyitsebonyrose said: Omgg Sara!!!! That chapter I'm actually crying! T-T you're such an amazing writer! It's my 18th Birthday tomorrow (well for me; April 13th) and I go see Got7 next week I'm so excited!!!
Happy Birthday to you my love! I hope you have an amazing 18th birthday AND OMG YAY YOUâLL HAVE AN AMAZING TIME! Iâm also seeing GOT7 again in May and June and I canât wait sdfghjk theyâre literally the only thing that is stopping me from drowning myself somewhere lol. Thank you so much for reading IWSY my dear, it means a lot to me :D
@sundaymorningblues14 said: I have never felt this amount of anxiety over a fan fiction. But I made it through, and even though my poor heart is beating way too fast right now, I am happy I didn't stop reading it.. Thanks Sara x
I am glad you didnât stop reading ^^ because everything will turn out just fine!! Thank you so much my love, and I hope you have a wonderful week~
Anonymous said: DUDE THAT CHAPTER I'M ACTUALLY CRYING REAL TEARS RIGHT NOW THIS ISN'T A DRILL HOLY SHIT DUDE I CAN'T TAKE IT I JUST
This is not a drill - this is a real emergency
@im-that-chesire-jax said: OH MY FUCKING GOD IM IN TEARSSSSS
*hands you a tissue* because same
Anonymous said: THAT ENDING! NO! I AM ACTUALLY IN TEARS,, holy crap you're so good at writing i admire you! also! how many chapters are left?
Thank you so much my love! Youâre so kind to me :D And I have no idea, Iâm sorry!
Anonymous said: NO GOD PLEASE NO. YOONGI DID NOT DO THAT. THIS STORYLINE IS SO CRUEL.
The world is a cruel place my friend
@animeimmortal said: DO YOU MIND WHY DID YOU DECIDE TO KILL JIMIN AND LIKE WHAT WAS THAT ENDING. MY SON IS DYING RIGHT NOW WHAT HAVE YOU DONE LIKE WHAT IS THIS I Don't know what I was expecting tbh bUT IT WASNT THAT THou I was expecting a fight to break out and the detailed descriptions? Amazing I love reading them they make the whole thing seem so real you're so tale ted aNYwAY MY SON IS DYING THERE OMG WHYTYYYYY â€â€â€
Where does it say Jimin died? :o hehe thank you for liking the detailed descriptions and iâm really happy it seemed real to you ^^ NO JIMIN DONâT DIEEEEE! Thank you so much dear ^^
@jeonjungkooksshi said: You're an amazing writer! IWSY IS AMAZINGGGGG and the latest chapter... ughhh too much for my weak heart! LOOKING FORWARD TO NEXT WEEK!! <3
*blushes* thank you so much my love c: that means so much to me!
@the-golden-jhope said: I WANNA FUCKING DIE YOU CANNOT END IWSY LIKE THAT IM CRYING OH MY GOD I CANT WAIT A WEEK
1. Donât die pls - 2. I just did~ hehe THANK YOU for reading :D
Anonymous said: OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IWSY PT 26 WAS SO SPICY!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN UNNIE!!! fuck i hate cliff hangers but, in this case it's totally understandable. omo, my hearteu my hearteu. Unnie, do us all a favour, STOP MESSING WITH OUR BIAS LIST!!! lol, You deserve around of applause. Can't wait for Tuesdays!!!! hwaiting!!!!
Hot hot spicy! hehe thank you so much for reading the update and Iâm glad it brought you pain/pleasure ^^ hehe
Anonymous said: BSKSKSNDND MUMSY IM ACTUALLY CRYING AT THIS IM SCREAMING WHY WOULD YOU OH GOD IM IN NEED OF SERIOUS COMFORT WHY WHY WHY IM SOBBING NDKDKKDEM I CANT EVEN BREATHE I'M CRYING IM NOT READY FOR NEXT WEEK IDKSKEND MUMSYYYYY WHYYYYYYYYY
*comforts you* shhh itâs okay~ itâll be over soon~~ hehe thank you for reading it my love!!
@deangetoutofmyspleen said: oK i'm crying like a little bitch yet again bc of IWSY. the pain is highkey worth it though i'm in love with this story. if i owned a time machine i'd go to next week fr
itâs okay I cry like a little bitch every day~ itâs gr8 hehe ^^ thank you for being in love with iwsy ^^ iâm so happy that youâre enjoying the updates lovely!
@platinumbreak said:Â Thank you, you made me lucky haha my exams went well. I hope yours will too. I talked about your writings to a friend and she has been reading it for 3hours straight, she is not even answering anymore haha Ps: This chapter is just amazing thank you for writing and making our life happier haha Ă
Iâm so happy i could give you a little bit of luck! and Iâm glad to know that your friend has seemed to immerse herself in the story too :3 I hope she likes it! thank you very much for reading!
Anonymous said: I'm not even gonna begin to lie, there's actual tears in my eyes after ch26 like, fuck it has me so emotional I'm such a soft pillow I just want everything to turn out okay Jesus Christ I'm sitting nd crying why u gotta do this to me
trust me,I was crying when I wrote parts of that chapter ^^ hehe~ *hugs you* thank you so much for reading the update!
@killingalltheflowers said: Omg this chapter was too much. HOLY SHIT YOU KILLED JIMIN, MY LOVE. YOU MONSTER (I still love you) A-AND NOOO NOW THE READER IS GOING TO BE BOUND TO YOONGI. UGH I- I CANT. I'M SO UPSET ABOUT EVERYTHING. YOU FREAKIN GODESS OF FANFICS. T^T Also this chapter was gorgeously written.. T^T
Where does it say Jimin died?! lol ahhh Iâm definitely not a goddess but thank you so much for reading and enjoying the chapter, it means so much to me :3
@oramleon said: sara i'm fucking crying right now what the HELL was that update??????????? WHYYYYYYY
IâM SORRY OKAY
@theninjachan said: "Yoongi smiled â baring his teeth and gums as if he found something to be terribly funny." Â YOOO I THOUGHT OF YOONGI'S GUMMY SMILE IN THIS LINE AND CAN'T HELP BUT GIGGLE BUT HOLY FUCKING SHIT I AM TEARS RIGHT NOW THIS HAS BEEN YOUR MOST HEART WRENCHING CHAPTER YET. I NEED A MOMENT.
Yoongis gummy smile melts my heart every single time fuck-- TAKE YOUR MOMENT ITS OKAY I UNDERSTAND hehe but I hope you enjoyed it my love ^^
Anonymous said: sara you KNEW everyone was gonna be upset what do you mean "some scenes may be upsetting" i was balling my eyes out the entire time
Shit u rite~~ BUT I HAD TO WARN OKAY YOU CANâT SAY I DIDNâT WARN YOU YOU BROUGHT THIS ON YOURSELF
@moonlighthollow said: OMG NO NO NO WTF NO PLEASE OMG  OK I'm done..đ I'm an emotional wreckđ she can't just..... yoongi can't just... oh geez i don't even know what to say  AND JIMINđđđđđđđđđ Why u doin dis to me ? My poor heartă
ă
(i love your writing thoâ„)
Shhhh itâs okay...shhhh now *hugs* eheh thank you so much for reading this chapter even if it was a little sad!
@doubletroublesince1994 said: OH MY FUCKING GOD YOU DID NOT OH LORD HELP ME BREATHE I DID NOT EXPECT THAT HOW THE FUCK DID THIS HAPPEN BECAUSE HELL I DIDNT ANTICIPATE THIS IM SHOOK
Iâm glad I could surprise you in the worst way c: hehe thank you for reading once again my love!
Anonymous said: Hi, how many chapters will IWSY have? đ
Iâve answered this question a million times before and Im sorry but I have no idea! :D
@wearelivinglegacies said: I'm NOT OKAY OMG I'M SO CLOSE TO CRYING RN LIKE WHAT AHHHHH FIRST JIMIN AND NOW Y/N!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! I'M SO ANGRY AND SAD AND THIS STORY IS SO AMAZING THANK YOU, BUT ALSO WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO MEEEE???????? I can't wait for the next part this story has me on the edge of my seat đâ€
I apologise for any hurt Iâve caused hehe~ thank you so much for being on the edge of your seat, and thank you so much for reading too! :D
@noceurash said:I knew bad things would happen in this chapter but I'm so... gffhu DEAD INSIDE,, my poor sweet boy jimin (I have such a soft spot for this boy why would you hurt me like this ;^;)) and tae too aaah my heart is breaking. Not to mention bby namjoon not wanting to hurt anyone im crying inside. You've hurt my soul this chapter. It's so good ((hurting me but good)). I hope you have a lovely day~~ I love you!!! <3
All the soul and heart hurties :c hehe i hope youâll have a lovely day and I love you too! thank you so much for reading the new chapter sweetie!
@wastedtaehyung said: WHAT THE FLIPPJNG FUCK DOFMDCKMS KWEKSLXKQOS (Y/N) AND JIMIN WHAT WOFMWKDK APLDLQD NOW I HAVE TO WAIT NEXT WEEK WIFNSKDMSKSKWMS FUCKFKCMSKLAXMLWFKLW
youâre welcome :3
Anonymous said: nOOOO SARA NOT JIMINNN T_T. i expected it but you still got mehhh feeeeeels. your stories are just so emotional and thats exactly whats so great about them ;-;. ive always thought about how these ideas pop up in your mind. :3
:3 iâm so happy that you find it emotional to read, because i find it emotional to write! as for ideas, they just come to me randomly? dreams, through lyrics and poetry I write, i donât really know^^ thank you so much for reading dear :D
@bekzzz said: Holy Shit. Just.... holy shit. Tuesday can't come fast enough!
hehe thank you so much my love!
Anonymous said: straight up forgot that iwsy was coming out today đ. I'm moving houses so everything is super stressful but i read the chapter and suddenly I am at peace. -tall anon
i hope moving house goes quickly for you! stress is no good~ thank you so much for reading the new chapter tall anon! ^^
@m1n-yoong1 said: The amount of times I've gasped and screamed reading IWSY pt 26 is unreal, your writing always amazes me and I look forward to the next chapter đđŒđđŒđđ
awh thank you, that was so sweet and you made me smile ^^ thank you so much for reading the new chapter love!
Anonymous said: damn sara these cliffhangers tho đđ»đđ»đđ»
u know me xox
Anonymous said: I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you đĄ
Itâs okay. I hate myself too.
Anonymous said: There was a part where you mention how she was essentially able to give life and it was in italics so she can bring Jimin back to life, right? Also if Jungkook marked her in some vampy way, does that mean that Yoongi's plan won't work? Please say yes! đ Joon is gonna be okay too, right? I don't like death. Death is sad. I don't like being sad.
When Jungkook said he marked her, it was sexual innuendo as in - he has already gotten her pregnant ^^ hehe I hope everything turns out well in the end c: ~ thank you so much for reading!
Anonymous said: I'd like to assume that Yoongi can still be redeemed, because o love each and every one of them. That seems a bit too unrealistic, doesn't it though. đ
Weâll just have to see what happens! But just remember that itâs not real haha Yoongiâs image is just being used for a character I created! It doesnât depict him in any way ^^
@thenotsogrownupeldest said: I was screaming reading the ending of IWSY latest chapter! I even wish I was some kind of supernatural being that can intervene that heartbreaking scene and save both jimin and y/n.. you my friend, are a terrific writer. I love you but I slightly hate you right now for the ending. I need a moment to calm my non-vampiric soul from this intense scene.
Jump into the story and save everyone! hehe ^^ thank you so much and I love you too (even tho you slightly hate me) c: iâm glad you liked? the update!
Anonymous said: HOW COULD YOU
WHAT DID I DO
@wanda-rog said: I'm speechless...I really wasn't expecting that...Jimin better be okay next week! You're so good at leaving us all on the edge! I bit all my nails reading that chapter and now I can only hope for Jimin to survive and WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO THE BABY AND IS NAMJOON OKAY AND WHAT WILL HAPPEN OVER ALL, angst aside that was a really cool chapter I'm seriously looking forward to next one, thanks for always updating on time and lengthy chapters too, you go Sara xx
I hope heâll be okay too! hehe all the questions, hopefully youâll get answers soon c: thank you so much for enjoying it and reading the new chapter dear, it means a lot to me ^^
@coppertopging said: Omg i totally forgot it was tuesday until i saw your update! This chapter had soooo much going on!! I have so many questions, but got so many answers, but I can't help but want... no... NEED more of this story! Is it terrible that i just never want it to end?!
trust me, al the days have merged into one for me. I have 4 assignments due and numerous exams to have and Iâm losing my grip on reality lolol please kill me :( thank you so much for reading as always dear, it means the world to me.
Anonymous said: Holly Tony Molly SARA DA FEELS ARE SO STRONG stop making me cry why did u kill Cristian Chim Chim :/// I just cant wait for next week arggggh *sobs* I freaking love how all of this is so angsty đ --wifey anon
hello wifey anon! Where does it say I killed Jimin? ;o thank you so much for reading my love!
Anonymous said: [[SCREAMING]]
*whispers*
Anonymous said: [Error 404] u cant kill chimchim u just cant why ?!đđ
Where does it say I killed Jimin? ;o
@jynxy24 said: What. The. Hell. Shit feelings. What are feelings anyway? Do feelings even exist? WHY THE HECK YOU GOTTA DO THAT SARA WHY?! I'm happy that Namjoon is good. WE WERE CORRECT!! And damn, badass reader omg. I MISS BADASS VAMPIRE MOM!! Also, if Yoongi frickin doesn't turn good at the end, Istg Sara. Anyways! Thanks for the greatttttt chapter! Stay awesome :3
FEELINGS DONT EXIST :D hehe thank you so much for reading the new chapter ^^ iâm really happy you enjoyed it Jynxy :D
@shineeshawol204 said: So I just read chap 26 of I Won't Stop You, first of all, bitch - I mean that in the nicest way possible - second of all, your writing style is phenomenal! During the fight scene I was letting out audible gasps as the events were unfolding and I feel like I am actually watching it. There's zero gaps in your writing, I am left without questions (other than why bis, ugh the pain I feels) as to what's happening and just ugh, wonderful. Also my friend i sent it to is only on pt.3 and I need someone
Ahh thank you so much Iâm so glad you enjoyed the fight scene! I had such a fun time writing it tbh lol to hear you say that thereâs no gaps in my writing, itâs really a massive compliment to me. itâs always something iâve been afraid of happening so thank you so much! thank you a million times ^^
@cheeto-puff-gem said: what the FUCK WHY THIS WHY T H I S
I DONâT KNOW WHAT
Anonymous said: OH SHIT Y/N IS GOING TO BECOME A VAMPIRE (stares intensely at April 18th on the calendar AKA NEXT TUESDAY)
but what if SHE DIES
Anonymous said: ONCE AGAIN YOU GOT ME ALL THE WAY FUCKED. ONE JIMIN NOT DEAD. IF HE DIE IMA LOSE MY SHIT AND TWO Y/N NOT GONNA BE YOONGI'S SLAVE CUZ SHE BELONGS TO JUNGKOOK. it's midnight and I'm laying in the bed crying RN cuz like why? Why you do these things? đąđąđą My soul is hurt. I feel as though the world needs to end because Lil mochi is dying and WHAT ABOUT THE FETUS? Baby fetus me is in there like wtf mom calm ya tits and where's my dad? You keep hurting me w/ cliffhangers but I love u đ~LilKookieAno (cont.) P.S. on a real note I'm dead ass when I say the baby should be named after me. đ ~LilKookieAnon
Donât worry baby fetus iâm sure youâll be okay! hehe hopfully everything will work out okay in the end :D i love you too sweetcakes~ thank you so much for reading part 26! i hope you enjoyed it even though it was an emotional one :3
@blryface said: I'm honestly so shook at part 26. Like, oh my god I'm speechless. You're such an amazing writer and I anticipate every Tuesday when you update! I can't wait to see how things turn out but DAMN YOU GOT ME FUCKED UP
ahhh thank you so much honestly ^^ iâm so happy you liked it and that you look forward to new updates my love! and iâm sorry if i got you all fucked up hehe
Anonymous said: NO NO NO NO SARA WTHEFUCKWHY TAKE ME TO THE HOSPITAL RIGHT NOW IM GONNA AAAAAAA
I called you an ambulance!!
@sunnyoongi2 said: I JUST FINISHED THE NEW CHAPTER OF IWSY AND IM SO HURT I LOVE IT SO MUCH IM CRYING JIMIN!!! NOOO
hehehe thank you so much for reading!
Anonymous said: HOLY SHIT WHAT THE FUCK JIMIN OH MY GOD IM CRYING BUT ALSO NAMJOON AND IM SO TIRED IT'S TOO LATE ON A SCHOOL NIGHT TO BE THIS EMOTIONALLY DISTRAUGHT OH MY GOD
GO TO BED YOU NAUGHTY CHILD!
Anonymous said: NUH UH HONEY. That is all. (In response to IWSY Part 26)
UH HUH HONEY YES MM
Anonymous said: OH MY GODDDD. IWSY CHAP 26 GOT ME SCREAMINGGGG!!! THANK YOU FOR THE UPDATE đđđ
AHH YOUâRE WELCOME AND THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING!
Anonymous said: WAIT WHAT
*waits*
Anonymous said: Yeah just slap me right into the feels take my heart will ure at it whats the point of living if softie Jimin is dead đ©
Where does it say Jimin died?!
Anonymous said: What is this pain that I feel in my chest?
Life
Anonymous said: my poor hearteu
*comforts you*
@lostheretics said: oMg iM HAVING A HEART ATTACK WTF YOONGI???????????? I NEED HELP IWSY IS KILLIN ME
hehe~ youâre welcome for the heart attack! :3
@koreaisanaddiction said: SARA NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! not thatt!!!!! im so sad!!!!!!!(cont.) I THINK I KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN NEXT!!! I HAVE THEORIES!!!
*sneaky laughs* I guess youâll just have to wait to see if your theories are correct! ^^ thank you for reading lovely :D
Anonymous said: you ripped my poor soul in half with iwsy why, why must you bring pain and do this :( Â poor jimin my heart
I apologise for all the pain :( but I hope youâre still enjoying the story my love!
Anonymous said: I just cannot with chapter 26, this feeling is so indescribable, no words can explain the pain when I read the last few paragraphs, OMG NO PLEASE DONT TAKE HER AWAY FROM JUNGKOOK PLEASEEEE!!!! àČ„ââźàČ„
Hopefully everything will be okay!! Thank you so much for reading my love ^^
Anonymous said: oh my gosh Sara chapter 26 was so saddening but so good!!! JIMINNNNNN please tell me a miracle will happen and he won't die!!! and let's hope the mark made by jungkook makes a difference and it is strong enough to overcome Yoongi's... I don't want evil yoongi to become my master T.T btw I've written in a couple of times as anon, but how about I label myself as bunnykookie96 from now onwards :D yes, I'm a 96-liner. may I ask what's your age too? ^^
The reference jungkook made to a âmarkâ was a sexual innuendo because he got her pregnant haha ^^ and yay bunnykookie96! I am also a 96 liner~ my birthday is 12th of January!! :D
Anonymous said: IDC ABT Y/N RN WILL JIMIN MAKE IT AKSKSKKSKK PLEASE OH MY GOD I STILL NEED TO SEE THAT VMIN SIDE STORY
I PRAY THAT ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE GODBLESS
Anonymous said: im fucking having theories in my head right now loool but i cant put it into words i will wait for the next chapter to see if im right hoho and btw is this ending? :( i feel like im reading a book holy shit i dont want it to end :((
I canât wait to see if your theories will come true!! And nope, not yet. Thereâs still a bit to go~ But Iâm glad that youâre not getting bored of it! I was afraid that people might get bored of it because of the length of the series haha :( thank you so much for reading!
Anonymous said: HOW COULD YOU DO THAT JIMIN WHHHHHYYYY the tears currently streaming down my face could create a lake for him to relax in LIKE WHHHYYY DID U DO THIS TO ME WHY COULDNT YOU JUST TAKE ME INSTEAD he was so young so bright so precious just full of love I'm so sad WHY JIMIN!!! New drinking game!! Drink an entire bottle of wine everytime you cried during this chapter âčïž
Jimin you should have stayed out of it!! Take him? Where did he go? Who said heâs dead? ;o hehe~ thank you so much for reading the chapter my love ^^
Anonymous said: I just looked at a picture of Min Yoongi the love of my life and I? Got mad at him?? Like??? You asshole???? Why couldn't you just stay in the basement of your god damn mansion and let everyone live happily????? Like damn I had to remind myself that I'm not dating a vampire and Jimin didn't actually get stabbed and that I need to stop reading outside because I look crazy crying on a park bench THANKS SO MUCH SARA YOU REALLY STABBED ME IN THE HEART THERE
Awwwwh no! Donât be like that~ thatâs not how Yoongi is - Iâm merely just using his image to fit a character that I made! Yoongi is a sweet person for sure :D hehe iâm sorry if I made you cry :( but i hope you enjoed the chapter nonetheless ^^ thank you so much!
Anonymous said: Omg ch 26 was brilliant! All I can think about is what's going to happen to y/n's unborn baby ahhhhhhh >.< my heart goes out to jungkookie, his biggest fear became true. I really loved this chapter and the loved the way you conveyed namjoon's struggles! On another not,I really admire you for updating on time! Thank youuuuu for writing an amazing story that contrary keeps us on our toes. I love it and hate it at the same time lol.
Thank you so much my love! that really means so much to me, youâre so, so sweet thank you so much *hugs* I really hope youâll enjoy the rest of the story and Iâm glad you liked this chapter ^^
@dont-hyuck said: Fuck I'm trying so hard not to ugly sob after this chapter ooooohhhhhh someone help ease my aching heart đđđđđđ I hope everything ends up right at the end I am so attached to this story it is one of the most wonderful things I have ever read and I mean that with my entire being. Please don't ever stop writing I love you so much đđđđđđđđđđ
I was ugly sobbing while I was writing it haha :( I hope everything ends up all alright too! awwh thank you so much my love, you have no idea how much your words mean to me! I donât ever plan on stopping so you donât have to worry :3 thank you and I love you too my dear!!
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I was tagged by @wonderseverythingabove @glaspaladin and @kageyama-tobiyo sorta idk
Five Things Youâll Find In My Bag
phoneâš
napkins
Moneyâš
lipstick
mints/halls (i drink too much Coke to be eating mints and I bought two packages and⊠oh god)
Five Things In My Bedroom:
computer
books
huge ass scary wardrobe
clothes everywhere
a lot of lamps cus I like to draw and I am super blind.
no posters cus they never keep there. old 14 years old me wasnt happy about itÂ
Five Things Iâve Always Wanted To Do In My Life:
play piano
learn more languages
travel a lotâš
dance ballet
art
Five Things That Make Me Happy:
food
art supplies
good education
my dog! Fuck! I love my dog!
buying things I want
Five Things On My To-Do List:
enter uni
chillâš
study for uni
recovery
laundry yeah same
Five Things People May Not Know About Me:
I get anxious a motherfucking lot about everything and no one irl knows besides my bffs. And family last year.
I eat a lot but canât win weight and i am super skinny and look sick all the fucking time butâŠ..
I might actually be v sick lmao. Im doing studies rnÂ
apparently I have french accent LMAO đ€ đŠ some mx pals even asked me if Iâm french and im like???? No??? i just cant focken speak right, okay?Â
Im a coastal who doesnt likes seafood and old ppl constantly tell me shit about how i am missing the joy of life or how i am actually not a resident. yea, u rite, i am an alienÂ
Name?: Gabriela
Nicknames?: Bowie in school đ€ đŠ gab, gabs, babe (gabe), uh, gabalooney toones? Idk dawn is nuts. dont call me gaby pls that's my momÂ
Zodiac?: aries, constantly annoyed and an annoyance
Sexual Orientation?: Fuck this question honestly
Ethnicity?: mexican/Spanish but born in MĂ©xico, you get? Mexican
Favorite Fruit?: grapes
Favorite Season?: Summer. im a sucker for summer, find me in the beach, its too fucking hot so everyone wants to die
Favorite Flower?: idk i dont frikin care leave them alone
Favorite Scent?: scents that ainât too strong. I rather breathe fresh air for all my life cus sometimes, no matter what smell, get me nervous đ€ đŠ just⊠never food. any food
Favorite Animal?: all animals are cute I donât play favorites
Coffee, Tea, or Hot Chocolate?: Hot chocolate even if it kills me. then coffee and kill tea. The only iâve had is fuze tea lmao. tea i believe is fucking bad in here and this city is too hot to actually care. i love frappes
Cat or dog?: dogs
Dream Trip?: idk, bexâs ufo spots is actually a good one but i wouldnât like to go to merica. Also⊠i wanna go to yucatĂĄn and see the place where the meteorito crashed and killed the fucking dinosaurs. and i think yucatĂĄn has a beach w pink water!!!! but nvm i checked and apparently you cant see shit. just take me somewhere idc
Number of Followers?: never will tell u
What do I post about?: i have two blogs. I used to post Queen/beatles pics and gifs and shitposts. In this one i was sooo quiet for like, 2 and a half years, I barely followed anyone and stopped entering once cus all i saw was su and v0ltr0n i was so lost in my dash đ€ đŠ came back this year and its good đ andâŠâŠ idk just texts i tag under bullshit.txt if u wanna block em. i wont b posting jaaaackshit
Do I get asks on a regular basis?: blep? Sometimes. I laugh cus when I was so quiet I answered em all on private. Look, that experience is fuckin hilarious to me cus i didnt have hopes of the anime fandoms or whatever  Â
Favorite Band?: queen. But i love a lot of music bruh. Queen was my first fav band so shut the fuck up and eat dirt if you say something
Aesthetic?: bleeeh bleh bleeeh bru the sun, keith, the desert, the beach, the sky, the universe, fight club and trainspotting, big buildings, parties, cool stories, me dyin
Fictional Character Iâd Date?: Eren đ€ đŠ. ListenâŠ. I love him, and i knew about him when we were both 15⊠itâs specialâŠ.. and now we are both 19âŠ.. and weâre so alike. I picked him so we could b friends actually he a little motherfuck
Hogwarts House?: gryffindorÂ
Rules: BOLD the statements that are true for you!
APPEARANCE:
I am 5'7" or taller
I wear glasses (all the fucking time)
I have at least one tattoo
I have at least one piercing
I have blonde hair
I have brown eyes
I have short hair
My abs are at least somewhat defined (i didnt even kno about this i checked a birthday pics w my friends and i had a croptop an suddenly i had abs. its from laughing probably)
I have or have had braces
PERSONALITY:
I love meeting new people
People tell me that Iâm funny
Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me
I enjoy physical challenges
I enjoy mental challenges
Iâm playfully rude with people I know well
I started saying something ironically and now I canât stop saying it
There is something I would change about my personality
ABILITY:
I can sing well (my throat is super fucked fam i barely can speak :/)
I can play an instrument
I can do over 30 pushups without stopping
Iâm a fast runner
I can draw well
I have a good memory
Iâm good at doing math in my head
I can hold my breath underwater for under a minute
I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestlingÂ
I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch
I know how to throw a proper punch
HOBBIES:
I enjoy playing sports (bleeh sometimes)
Iâm on a sports team at my school or somewhere else
Iâm in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else
I have learned a new song in the past week
I work out at least once a week
Iâve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months
I have drawn something in the past month
I enjoy writing
FANDOMS ARE MY #1 PASSION
I do or have done martial arts
EXPERIENCES:
I have had my first kiss
I have had alcohol
I have scored the winning goal in a sports game
I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting
I have been at an overnight event
I have been in a taxi
I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year
I have beaten a video game in one day
I have visited another country
I have been to one of my favorite bandâs concerts
RELATIONSHIPS:
Iâm in a relationship
I have a crush on a celebrity
I have a crush on someone I know
I have been in at least 3 relationshipsÂ
I have never been in a relationship (almost v close actually)
I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them
I get crushes easily
I have had a crush on someone for over a year
I have been in a relationship for at least a year
I have had feelings for a friend
MY LIFE:
I have at least one person I consider a âbest friendâ
I live close at my school
My parents are still together
I have at least one sibling
I live in the united states
There is snow right now where I live
I have hung out with a friend in the past month
I have a smartphone
I have at least 15 CDâs
I share my room with someone
RANDOM SHIT:
I have breakdanced
I know a person named Jamie
I have had a teacher with a last name thatâs hard to pronounce (axayactl but its easy tho and whe called him axa!)
I have dyed my hair
Iâm listening to one song on repeat right now
I have punched someone in the past week
I know someone who has gone to jail
I have broken a bone
I have eaten a waffle today
I know what I want to do with my life (yah whatever who care)
I speak at least 2 languages
I have made a new friend in the past year
i dont kno who to tag, idk who is down for this lm but if you see this and wanna do itâŠâŠâŠâŠâŠ bbbbleaaassseeeee consider yourselfie tagged ily we dont have to b mutuals. tag me tho so i can read it!!!!!!!! iâd love toÂ
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