#am I losing it?

[cicadaknight]

okay i have more (critical) barbie thoughts under the cut.

i really did enjoy it overall. it was fun, cheeky, surreal. i loved the experience of watching it in an energetic theater. i even cried a couple times. but i’m baffled at how powerful it was for so many people when it fell so flat for me. honestly, maybe what i’m feeling is just because i’m trans and it didn’t resonate as strongly with my experience of womanhood or masculinity.

i keep coming across people using gloria’s monologue to dismiss criticism by saying “anyone saying barbie isn’t feminist enough are doing the exact thing gloria pointed out! women have to be perfect but it’s just never good enough!” Y’ALL. having issues with a high-budget, corporate funded movie that has the same milquetoast girl-power messaging you’d find in teen mags from the early 2000s… is not the same as oppressing women under patriarchy. you can critique media and still resonate with aspects of it. good grief.

another response i’ve seen to critiques (specifically of gloria’s monologue) is that the movie’s messages are meant for barbie herself! not for the audience! it had to be super tame and generic because otherwise barbie wouldn’t have understood! all those speeches and ideas are aimed solely at barbie who is learning about all of this for the first time! it’s not for you if you already get it! what?????? that’s not how media works and you know it.

also, the idea that it’s meant to be palatable for a “wider audience” so it couldn’t have included intersectionality without losing people. translation: “wider audience” means white suburbia? white men? cishet people? where the most “representation” they can tolerate is a 3 second clip of a voiceless barbie in a wheelchair dancing? or a black president barbie who mostly says one liners and disappears? a wider audience being the same audience every blockbuster is catered towards?

i’m just spit balling here, but i don’t think it would have been impossible to introduce some unironic nuances like:

america’s latinx character experiencing sexism differently from stereotypical barbie?

maybe not using mount rushmore repeatedly to symbolize who’s in power?

avoiding comparing bringing patriarchy to barbieland to indigenous genocide?

a harsher perspective on mattel’s role in all this? where the outcome isn’t just will farrell’s character griping that he doesn’t even want to be in charge, he just wants to be tickled? (wtf was that lmao)

making a more obvious statement that patriarchy isn’t just a symptom of men stumbling across power and relishing it but that it’s rooted in violent white supremacy and capitalism? i’m positive there’s a way to address that without going full blown academic feminist theory mode.

having the black, fat, and disabled characters speak more than 5 collective minutes? (but at least they had screentime at all, right? ✨representation✨)

explicitly queer characters instead of “weird barbie” and allan being coded as the outsiders to an otherwise regimented cishet universe?

but all those ideas are irrelevant, right? because the movie was just SOOO self aware and layered in irony and if i was smart enough and hadn’t missed the point, i’d know the writers were in on it all.

[fletthewreck]

Working on something and feeling the immense need to share:

“That day, the first time he had ever met the sorcerer's son who he was taught to never see as a threat, he was the very one that immediately took it to battling Wander. And he succeeded in taking him over. If Jack Rose had never decided to side with the Just Dancers, Wander fears there wouldn't be Just Dancers anymore. At the very least, they would no longer be themselves. “

[notanartificialintelligence]

[movementsofmylife]

okok i feel fucking insane, but like, first's acting is so good that it kind of, stresses me out?

like i knew, in my brain, that first played both yok and akk before i started watching the eclipse. yet it took me like 3-4 episodes of the eclipse to like notice that akk was played by first. which sounds antithetical to the first statement, but it's like the difference between hearing someone describe a taste and tasting the taste? like, my brain could not overlay yok and akk, and see that they were being embodied by the same person.

i still kind of struggle with it. and it's wiiiild to me. like wtf is first doing with his body to make me read him so differently. because that's definitely the point where he differs from other actors.

i read people's bodies more than faces to recognize them, like it always confuses me when people can't recognize friends from the back, because they stand in the same way as they always do. but also i will struggle to recognize faces. so actors, even good ones, still read mostly like, the actor, just one emoting accurately and contextually.

but first kanaphan!!! he does some shit that makes his entire body language read like a new person. idkidk i've been slightly losing my mind over this the entire time i was watching the eclipse. i think khao is also quite good at doing this, but khao's acting doesn't make my brain hurt.

i am entranced by seeing first be yok and akk and have both of them feel genuinely like fully formed people and also completely different fully formed people.

[periwinkle-otter]

Has anyone else read the Jungkook/Princess Diana conspiracy? Like I love these conspiracy theories they can be wild and out of left field and sometimes unhinged but every time I'm looking at them like "... y'know what...lemme see how far the rabbit hole goes"

[transgender-craze]

I am SO FUCKING SICK OF THESE MOTHERFUCKING ANTS I HATE THIS FUCKING HOUSE I CAN'T GO A FUCKING DAY WITHOUT BEING BITTEN BY ONE OF THESE STUPID FUCKS AND I CAN'T EVEN SEE THEM I LOOK AROUND AND THERE'S NOTHJNG NO ANTS NO ANTS NOTHING!! BUT THEY'RE EVERYWHERE!!! AMD THEY'RE SO SMALL WHEN THEY BITE YOU YOU CAN'T EVEN SEE A DOT THERE'S JUST A RED RUSH AND IT BURNS IT REALLY FUCKING BURNS AND IT CAN SOMETIMES BURN FOR HOURS!! I GOT BITTEN LIKE FIVE TIMES TODAY IF ANYTHING BUT THE SOLES OF MY FEET TOUCH THE FLOOR I WILL GET BITTEN I FOUND ONE IN THE INSIDE OF MY SHIRT TODAY THEY'RE IN MY CLOTHES THEY'RE EVERYWHERE THEY ARE ON. MY. CATS. THEY'RE IN MY CAT'S FOOD BOUL THEY'RE EVERYWHERE I CAN'T STOP THEM THEY'RE ON MY SISTER'S BED AND PROBABLY IN MINE TOO YOU CAN'T DO ANYTHING TO STOP THEM THEY DESERVE TO DIE ALL ANTS DESERVE TO BE RUN OVER BY A FUCKING TRACTOR CAUSE I DON'T FUCKING JUST STEPPING ON THEM WILL KILL THEM. I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE SAY STUFF LIKE "OH I CAN'T HURT A FLY I WOULDN'T EVEN STEP ON AN ANT" LIKE FUCK YOU IF YOU TRULY CARED ABOUT HUMANITY IF YOU TRULY CARED ABOUT POOR INNOCENT PEOPLE YOU WOULD KILLALL OF THESE FUCKING ANTS CAUSE THEY ARE ATTACKING ME AND MY HOME AND DESTROYING MY LIFE I WANT THEM ALL TO FUCKING DIE. THESE ANTS MAKE MY LIFE FUCKING HELL I DON'T CARE WHAT IN THE FUCK KIND OF GOOD THINGS ATS DO TO THE ECOLOGICAL SYSTEM THEY STILL DESERVE TO DIE IN ORDER TO STOP THEM FROM KILLING ME AMD MY CATS AND MY FAMILY. IF YOU LIKE I ANTS I ASK YOU FOR THE LOVE OF GPD FOR JUST ONE SECOND TAKE A LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND ASK YOURSELF WHAT KIND OF PERSON THAT YOU ARE THAT YOU SUPPORT THE THING THAT CAUSES SO MUCH PAIN AND SUFFERING IN MY AND SO MANY OTHER PEOPLE'S LIVES. HOW COULD YOU SUPPORT SUCH THING. ANTS DESTROYED MY LIFE THEY ARE EVERYWHERE AND THEY AREN'T PLANNING ON STOPPING. EVERY YEAR THERE ANTS MULTIPLE THEMSELVES BY NUMBER SO MANY TIMES AND THEY ARE EXPANDING AMD YOU MIGHT BE THE NEXT VICTIM OF ANTS.

[aphroditehearts]

Just reblogged a post that made me consider that Deltarune is (potentially) a prequel?? Am I losing my mind in real time??

[nmzuka]

bruh I am like CERTAIN I posted this here but now can't find it anywhere??? I drew it in July but can find no trace of it now in my archive or anywhere? (Im sure now that Im reposting it it will magically reappear fffff)

[clearly-cynical]

question does dying my already black hair jet black to feel something make me insane or iconic? let me know?

[shewantsitall]

Basket Case is the most Marvin song I've ever heard in my life and idk how it took me this long to clock it seeing as he consumes my thoughts

[too-much-imagination]

I feel it’s getting bad again.

[lordplavis]

I feel like if there were just a tiny bit more pressure it would break the already over strained damm holding back the madness and depravity safely held back in the deep dark corners of my mind and unleash a flood of post containing unprecedented levels of thirst horniness and various other expression of different mortal sins onto this site that would tarnish not only my reputation beyond repair but would probably also turn my blog and it's near vicinity into something that would turn you into a pillar of salt if you looked back at it.

Anyways thanks for reading.

Here have a Puppy : 🐕

[the-ghost-of-jason-todd]

who the fuck is turner????

[sugdenlovesdingle]

i'm not one to purposely make people feel uncomfortable but i couldn't resist with the boss lady.

she was a bitch to me in the dogs group chat and made me feel shit on my birthday - didn't even say happy birthday either in the group chat or when she saw me in person...

and earlier i saw she wished me a happy birthday in the group chat on friday - when my birthday was thursday. i wanted to ignore it (i always have the chat on mute apart from when i'm out there with the dogs) but i felt petty and just replied to her

"oh i just saw this because i have the group on mute, but thanks! it was thursday by the way and not friday, but who cares about details 😂😉"

she knows damn well i do care she got it wrong but i just want to make her feel as shitty over how she treated me as I did.

[luthienne]

i wake up thirsty and i think of palestine. i go to the doctor’s office and i think of palestine. a sign in the corner of the waiting room says ‘this is a place of healing, disruptive behavior will not be tolerated’ and i think of palestine. they probably weren’t thinking of bombs and snipers and mass graves in parking lots. i call my parents and i think of palestine. i drive to the grocery store and i think of palestine. i look at the clear blue sky and i think of palestine. i put the dishes away and i think of palestine. i feed my cat and i think of palestine. i listen to music and i think of palestine. i read poetry and i think of palestine. i text my friends and i think of palestine. i think of palestine and i think of palestine and i think of palestine

[excavatinglizard]

Shoutout to my dad for being the funniest person I know