#among other things.

[devilsskettle]

pearl is all about rot and sickness and festering and decay and deterioration and contagion and paranoia and jealousy and pride and searing anger and the insidious way these things can build and take over and the collapse of the boundaries between physical/emotional/mental corruption and seeing the reality underneath a facade of wellness and of course complete dissociation from that reality

[kaeyapilled]

What are some fics that you think are must reads for kaeya fans?

TEEHEE okay i think i have rec'd most of these before when i was asked for fic recs some time ago but its ok. here are the most kaeya fics ever in my opinion !

clouds in a lake by VelleRue

“Pot of butter,” Kaeya mumbles beneath his breath, eyes roving over the words. Alone, the words wouldn’t be very special. The shapes and sounds don’t scare him as much anymore, not like they did when he was new and wore shoes with torn soles and only knew how to say, My father told me he was going to buy grape juice.

Together though, they sound like the orange-yellow light of the oil lamp flickering in the corner. They sound like sticky fingers and bread rolls. Like a dinner table of three.

Cake and a pot of butter.

this one is so bittersweet and melancholic and i love all the headcanons in it and the way it's written oughhh it's a great read!! short but really good

stubborn roots by alexithymias

Kaeya’s plan to end his life is interrupted when Rosaria asks him to take care of a plant for a few days.

this one is heavier so definitely pay attention to the tags but, oh my god. this rewired my brain SO violently. i adore the concept and the characterization is really on point. it is so painful in all the good ways i like stories to be painful. i really recommend it!!

I'm gonna miss your love when it's gone by imaginarypasta

A selection of scenes from Kaeya's childhood related to his relationships with his fathers, and all they have led him to be.

im pretty sure ive rec'd this before but this is like, one of my favorite portrayals of kaeya and his bio father ever. its just so good. so delightfully sad. a breath of fresh air from the common headcanon that his father was an evil asshole. the kaeya & crepus bits are also really good and i like the author's hcs about khaenri'ah/the abyss SO much

not bad for a walk on death's doorstep by b_attery

Fear is a knife’s edge. Fear is a killer. Fear is how you know you’re still alive. Kaeya Alberich, not yet Ragnvindr, knew how to fear before he knew how to talk. As the heir to the regency of a dead kingdom, a spy-in-training to be sent to the surface world, as the last hope of Khaenri’ah – there were many things to fear. And later, as the Cavalry Captain of Mondstadt and a traitor no matter what he chose, Kaeya Alberich ex-Ragnvindr knew that as long as he lived, he would be afraid.

i have definitely rec'd this one before. but i just really love it!!! my comment on the bookmark says "literally the best kaeya character study i have ever read" and yeah that still holds up. shaped a lot of my kaeya hcs. i love this author

Hundred-Watt Light by pepperjuice

The first time the thought occurs to Kaeya he is eleven years old. Well, that’s not exactly true. It had been twisting in the back of his head for a long time, already. Formless and unspoken, an ever-present awareness, a whisper. But the first time it rings in his head, put in words, bright and shiny and just behind his eyes—

He is eleven. *** A story about ten years of contingency plans and holding your own hand. (Because how else are you supposed to live with a weight too big to hold all alone?)

OH I MUST HAVE REC'D THIS LIKE THREE TIMES BUT THIS IS REALLY A MUST READ. first of all heed the tags because it touches quite heavy topics! but this entire concept is SO interesting to be explored in kaeya's character and this author does it SO well..... this is one of my favorite fics, like, ever, lmao. absolute kaeya must read To Me

Lamellae by scripturient

A slowish movement in a discordant key, wherein Kaeya has bitten off rather more than he can chew and needs significant help; meanwhile, malady exposes buried memory and dread. A limited plot from a limited point of view which dabbles in themes of pain, trust, angst, conflict, and betrayal. Not quite a character study.

the writing style in this one is SO cool, i love it! non-linear narratives are my thing, i never get tired of it. and the whump in this is so good.. i like whump fanfiction, lol. the combination of characters in this is really fun as well, though everything is told from kaeya's very disoriented point of view. anyway, amazing exploration of his character!! the next work in this series, The thaw that comes in springtime (plus the next next work!), is also really good and i loved it, particularly the ragbros bit lol. another must read!

undertow / oversight by MercuryPoisoning

In which Kaeya gets by with a little help from his friends.

another one i feel ive rec'd before, but i love it. really good characterization!! especially his relationship with diluc!!! really good read. i love this author's stuff a lot lol. (bonus by the same author, and another one i consider a must-read even though it's still in progress and also way heavier than most of the previous recs: sleeping marble lion! i really like the writing style and the concept!!! pay attention to the tags but trust me it's a delightfully gut wrenching one<3)

whew. i think i have a few more i could have added here. i just went through my bookmarks lol i have read a decent amount of kaeya fanfiction. hope these are to your liking!!! fic rec'ing is one of my favorite activities

[hourcat]

arm ,

[malscare]

the niche 2017 tumblr microceleb i got anon hate calling me transphobic for breaking up with bc she wouldn't take me to the hospital when i broke my knee visiting her & let her tech bro friends neg me outside her dorm room for 30 minutes until i unlocked the door & proved that i was a real person willing to date her 😐

[rubbertplant]

this is their dynamic to me

[russellmaelofficial]

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why is there russell mael mpreg on ao3

[astrowaffles]

I think the best thing we can do now is make cat girl edits of sukuna

[pingnova]

My version of "what doctors thought I had / what I really had" is usually "thought I had": fat, anxious. "really had": autoimmunity to an essential dietary nutrient, lung tumor, rare precancerous biliary cyst.

[magicalemma]

really feeling like i have got to kiss a girl

[runthepockets]

I have cis guy friends cus I need people to go to Hardcore shows with.

[tacit-semantics]

Falin PLEASE call me back with our combined collection of middling to mediocre to unfortunate graphic t shirts we could be. Unstoppable

[sillyandquiteawkward]

I have always thought Valentine must have lungs. They're just there to move air over his vocal cords, which are built to be a faithful replica of human ones. This is why his voice is so natural. It doesn't come out of a speaker like on the mass-produced G2 units, who were not given the same budget as the team that made Nick and DiMA.

ooo thats also a very nice thought. i do like that! when nick said he had all the parts of a human minus red blood cells, what he really meant was he had a diaphragm.

[whoslaurapalmer]

sometimes i want to look some people dead in the eye and go 'and did you write that fic because you wanted to genuinely discuss the topic, in particular the inherent horror of the topic, or because you just wanted those characters to fuck? no, there is no third option. i don't think a middle ground is possibly conceivable for this. seriously what goes through your head when you write that completely uncritically.'

[violet-amet]

The hard part for writing for me, is finding the right words as a perfectionist. Some words do fit, but I often keep finding myself repeating things. I also need to get better at making it all flow better. Hm.

[remade-c18r0]

linking my twitter to autopost to tumblr so you get great hits like "my stomach hurts" "i shouldnt have drank coffee" "ow"

[unbrcakablc-hcart]

Actually. Wait. Hey. Fuck you. I'm not thinkpol and you aren't even committing thoughtcrime, I'm trying to protect you from people not liking nudists.