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"I have many fears, most of them about Lucrezia." — Cesare Borgia (The Borgias, 2011-2013) + hints of insecurity
that she adores someone that much / if she will reject his dark nature and act of love and violence as Ursula did / if he truly is not part of her desires / that she easily forgets him
#i have so many thoughts on these two#hes such a clingy brother wth#as much as he soothes her it is only by asking lucrezia verbally or#by looking at her that his fears and insecurities in her life can be soothed#cesare torn between - being relieved she had some joy in the ruthless marriage he had no power to prevent and did not even want to bless#or being envious there is someone else now when his little sister once said she will not love anyone as much as she loves him#but Accepting it anyways because it is impossible loves and maybe he is starting to become aware his love falls in this same category.#“should i envy this narcissus low-born who shall never see you again because of his impossible love for you when i love you just the same?”#the knife more surprise than fear. in a time when he did not love himself...“she accepts me as i am? as i do her”#biting her as if another black panther pet looking for reassurance that their love#that HE is still included in her perfect world even if he himself pulls away#“surely you're in agony as much as i am? are you already satisfied with your child and husband if we cannot share our love openly?”#“your eyes drift to mine when you say 'husband' am i not he? do you see me as so even when it was just 'tonight'?”#and then his sudden gaze as if to look for truth because how can she forget him when he only thinks of her#AND AGAIN pulling away being eaten by shame and guilt of corrupting her (when their relationship is not just his doing)#torn between hope (we have the capacity to forget and move on) and hope (our love has that much devil power over her)#cesare as the god or the devil or whatever it is that overwhelms whether at war or in love#cesare is one confident man and even if his insecurities has layers of righteousness and importance..it is still insecurity nonetheless#and only for lucrezia#lucrezia borgia#cesare borgia#cesare x lucrezia#the borgias#dailyborgia#perioddramaedit#perioddramasource#weloveperioddrama#onlyperioddramas#romancegifs#the borgiasedit
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Who do you ship TFP Starscream with?
#I ship him with you#and not just you anon#All of you guys seeing this#That's who I ship him with#me included#we're sharing him#in the series though? No one#I really cannot see Starscream with anyone in the series#Sure Knockout and Starscream are cool#but I see them as girlypop friends only#Knockout is happily married to Breakdown#And yes I will not accept that Breakdown is dead#they're happy husbands#forever.#transformers#tfp#starscream#tfp starscream#starscream x reader
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i dont think im finishing this lol i realized halfway that i dont like dudecest that much, at least in a sexual way lmao, but someone else might like it idk
#i dont think anyone is gonna like it tho. idk xp#i prefer doing fluff stuff with them. theyre are my comfort characters and rn i need FLUFF or just angst lol#im sharing it cuz i dont want the time that spent on it go to waste lol#i shouldve worked on my crochet commission but im here drawing pdude. i havent cleaned my house either... oof. im just daydreaming all day.#i can feel a depre episode comin and im just se excited for it :)) /jk#every winter i just crawl in bed and read fanfics and daydream... which leads to me becoming really depressed...#but i cannot stop daydreaming aAAAAAAAAAAAAA#im so obsessed i cant do other stuff#i dont want to stop thinkin about pdude#damn. the mental illness is illnessing#ok :)#postal#postal dude#postal 2#p2#postal 3#p1#postal 1#pdude#p3#dudecest#art#sai#fanart#digital art#postal fanart#im drawing fluff now. i just NEED it. i need them to be happy
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Parallel Lines and Brothers.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jiang cheng#lan wangji#lan xichen#jin zixuan#Does anyone else think about the tragedy of the parallel lines? Of characters who are parallel lines?#Of running the same course as someone. Of echoing each other in perfect synchronicity.#It's more than being a foil. It's about being on the same path and being so near to each other.#and yet parallel lines never intersect. They cannot meet each other despite their existence being tied to another.#I think the brothers tragedy is just as much of a tragedy of parallel lines as is pre-resurrection wangxian.#Jiang Cheng and Wei Wuxian spend so much time running side by side and yet - they cant close this gap between them.#Even if their relationship never recovers - they are forever tied together through their past. The good and bad and ugly.#All the things that are left unsaid between them. All the love and sacrifices they made for each other that are never shared. Parallel line#I firmly believe any post-canon material that would have them be indifferent towards each other is just...really doing them a disservice.#And dear god the Lan brothers. They certainly love each other! Its a far fonder fraternal relationship than jiangxian (/platonic)#They fool you by having you think they have a good read on each other. Lan Xichen certainly wingmans + advocates for lwj!#But lets not forget - Lan Xichen by the end is in the reverse situation and headspace as Lan Wangji by the end of this story.#Lan Wangji is more free and open than he has ever been. He's in love. He's married. He and wwx are intersecting lines.#& LXC who grew up with and lived the same path as LWJ - who even is said to resemble him visually - his parallel line - shuts himself away#Despite all the love LWJ has for his brother I don't think he ever manages to reach him.
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memento vivere
<previous - next>
#FFXIV#FinalFantasyXIV#Erenvahl#wolship#WoL x Erenville#X'vahl Tia#Erenville#Cahciua#don't... don't look at the date stamp between this one and the last one :')#In all honesty I got hit with a massive bout of big depression#that left me with zero motivation to do literally anything for a while#(....might still be dealing with it)#but I finally managed to get the next part out!#I'm disappointed but understand#how the game kind of made it seem like#after the goodbye in Living Memory everything is fine and dandy for him now#like I know that they can't really dwell on it because ultimately FFXIV is not his story so they didn't have time to dedicate to it#but the story *I'm* telling *is* partially his story#so I get to show a bit more of how my version of him is dealing with things#He's happy that he has X'vahl now#but that doesn't counteract the grief that he's still very much processing#about losing his mother#a relationship cannot fix something like that#it can help give you someone to lean on and share your grief with#(should you chose to share it.... which may be more difficult for some than others)#so maybe you don't have to shoulder it alone#but it cannot *fix* it#tumblr *please* don't annihilate this one too...#between posting it at 2:30 in the am for me and tumblr probably launching it into the stratosphere#it may be a miracle if anyone sees this at all :')
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holy shit the sexual tension is through the roof in this one
#19 days#tianshan#fay talks#i cannot even imagine what was going on inside he tian’s body when guan shan got up and approached him#and i know we saw this in the last chapter but guan shan really just… isn’t fazed anymore#and it’s not indifference — it’s just acceptance? tolerance? something he never really had during their school days#he still has had a few panic moments when they’re warranted but overall i’d say they’re both thinking the same thing and so are we#in any case I actually don’t think this is the last of this scene. hopefully.#whether or not they actually kiss is TBD but this is a great setup to get them to share the bed despite all the rooms like he tian said#also — can we talk about the fact that he tian is immediately opposed to guan shan doing housework?#a literal 180 from their early days when that’s all he tian wanted him for. to work for him and be at his beck and call#now he just wants…… a kiss. anything. he just wants him#lol idc what anyone says — this chapter was worth the wait for me
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"I'm in this orange-themed room. It's supposed to represent an underground tunnel. I play a recluse in this story. Someone building their own world, digging tunnels, and staying hidden inside them. Going outside can feel a bit scary. Being out in society can give you anxiety and fear, but in your own space you can feel secure and at ease. I've reflected on those feeling, which inspired this song. Nevertheless, society isn't as scary as it seems. There are a lot of amazing things out there and lots of ways to help tackle challenges. That's the message behind this video. Through this music video, i hope to inspire you to step out bravely [into the world]. Don't forget, mansae ('yay')!" - Onew [from '만세' MV behind]
#shinee#onew#lee jinki#dailyshinee#kpopccc#smsource#speakofgifs#ksoloists#malegroupsnet#i LOVE the idea behind this song and mv <33 it's a message rly worth sharing (especially something to reflect on in my own life i tend to b#a recluse). I'm super glad he's come to love the world and not fear it and he's so clearly happy with his life. legit cannot put into words#how over the moon i am about that <3#also a little secret: i had a version of this posted with him popping out of the chimney - that was the original concept lol going from#underground to pop out the chimney but... i looked back at it a lil while later :')) it was so phallic im so sorry to anyone who saw that i#promise i didn't notice at first i swear it omg. so here's the rated Everyone version that isn't stupid to look at (rip) :)#lastly shout out to the magic of editing: look at him giving himself a 'lil cheer for a moonwalk well done it's killing me this is so funny
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Cerise and Ramona as Romulus and Remus. No I will not elaborate
#WRONG i wont shut up abt this but i cant put thoughts into words rn#if anyone can feel free to lmao😭#i have plans i cannot share rn I HAVE PLANS I CANNOT SHARE RN AHDHGDGSH#ever after high#eah#cerise hood#ramona badwolf
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★ 127 // “Chao”
#jjba#jojo's bizarre adventure#steel ball run#sbr#johnny joestar#sonic the hedgehog#chao#offerings#tools used:#a Chao made out of Model Magic someone gifted to me at MAGFest on my birthday#acrylic paint#// Lately I've been going to bed earlier than I normally do and I accidentally passed out before I could post this LOL#Glad I finally got around to painting this lil guy!#I cannot stress how tiny this clay guy is. Cannot be bigger than two quarter coins tall.#I'm gonna put a magnet on the back of him so he can float and hold papers ^_^#I think if Johnny were a Chao maybe he'd start off as either Dark/Neutral and then work his way up to Neutral/Hero.#Because his whole story arc is “getting back to zero”. Johnny is a character who evolves and I think a Chao version would be similar!#Speaking of Chao... I REALLY want to draw Tusk as a Chao and have for some time. I just think his design would work so well!!#I'm throwing the idea out there if anyone wants to draw the chaomimin~ themselves. If you draw him please share with me!#Someday I'll get around to it myself but life's a bit hectic rn!! Maybe I can squeeze it in...
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just saw someone cosplaying franziska von karma crush a watermelon with their thighs. today has been interesting
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"You get sexy Drew McIntyre, so deal with it!!"
Oh I am dealing with it sir. Very much so :)
#can I keep him#or does anyone wanna apply for shared custody?#also cannot wait to see him make the social media people at netflix cry#drew mcintyre
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I just realised that if you have a set of interchangeable circular needles, you can take one pair of tips, split them and attach each tip to a different cable, put stopper caps on the other ends, and then you have the functional equivalent of a really long pair of straight needles. If you are knitting something very wide, turns out this is actually much easier than trying to knit flat on a single circular needle. 💡🧶
#crafts#knitting#how to#I cannot be the first person to think of this#but think of it I did so I'm sharing it just in case anyone else hasn't
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❝ 𝐝𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐦𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 ❞

okay … i will stop talking about this and finally post it .... you all did not really think i would get a vampire comm without making myself the vampire did u hehehe ❤︎
by diodoubleg_ on ig who is immensely talented and made me look so beautiful <33 cannot thank her enough !!
#i’ve had it for a while but will finally share so i can use for my halloween theme heheh#CANNOT ! stop staring at it tbh#quote is from my beloved interview with the vampire <33#i contemplated for so long which of my favs to do this with bc my vampire au lore knows no bounds but#human sanji + vampire rylie spawned in my brain back in march and did not let me go#anyway here we are <33#how long before he’s turned into a vampire too idk that’s anyone’s guess
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I finally started liking Modern AUs and that's all thanks to hansry, BUT the only Modern AU that works for them is Czech Modern AU, no other fits nor feels like them, stay away from me americanization STAY AWAY
#hansry#not to yuck anyone's yum but i cannot take any other modern AUs of them seriously#they are czech boys no matter what time period#let them be slavic in slavic settings!!#sharing this cause ive read two of the best modern AU fics ever that took place and felt very czech AND THEY CANNOT LEAVE MY BRAIN#hansry also making me read fics in czech call it národní obrození#kcd2#czech#hansry the national klenot you are...
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ok this might be a long one. guys... i cannot tell you how badly i wanted to love veilguard, like i have been waiting for this game for so long. this is my absolute favourite video game series (it is literally what inspired my honours thesis, so big time fan here) and yet i am 5 hours in and cannot find anything that i have really enjoyed. the voice acting is super strange, especially from neve and irelin, the dialogue is clunky and over the top and the pacing is so slow. i wasn't super into how big inquisition was but only because a lot of it was kinda empty but i still loved walking around those spaces because they felt like real spaces- not just video game sets.
and rook! there are so few opportunities to give them any character at all. i constantly feel the game pulling me in one direction instead of allowing me to choose anything for myself.
the only thing that has brought me any joy at all is seeing solas and that was for a minute at the start, but then nothing. i really hope it turns around and it just has a shaky start but, man, i right now i am just kinda sad and disappointed.
also, this is definitely a me problem, but i get really bad motion sickness and the DA games have never been a problem for me but DATV's camera controls are a nightmare and i feel super nauseous after playing. i've tried changing it in settings but either you can't or my brain is small and i can't figure out how.
#i just... hate this direction they've gone in#and like i am the radical woke left#i share their agenda#but i also just like it when games are#i dont know#good?#and i cannot in good faith say that it is right now#but i hope that changes#anyway just wanted to say this because i have no friends and need to talk about it#also if anyone can tell me how to change the camera controls i would owe you my life#datv#dragon age#dragon age the veilguard#bioware#da critical#dragon age critical#solas
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wrote the full epilogue for compass over the weekend anddddddddd

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