#and NONE of it is the mentors fault btw im not saying that because there's no way to mantain a moral highground in this situation

[ozzieinspacetime]

Thinking about the INSANE moral grey area of the thg victors at the minute,, these scared, small children killed 23 (or 47) other equally scared, small children in order to make it out alive. Every year afterwards the wound that is the games gets ripped open and they have to go about closing it up all over again. They can never escape the blood of the other scared little kids on their hands. They are being punished by the Capitol, made to watch other kids do what they did, for something the Capitol made them do in the first place. If they want the kids to die because they don't want them suffering the way a victor does for the rest of their lives, then they're uncaring & complicit in the tributes death. If they get the kids out, they're signing the tribute up for a life of misery. No winning. No moral high ground. Just a train ride that never stops.

[gurorori]

you keep me crawling is very shnz btw. but a bit of post-fall valk shmk if ya wanna. more under cut im jus rambles

if i keep / if i keep forgiving / maybe i'll believe / that you never meant for life to hurt for me /maybe i'll recover if you set me free

but why does it make me feel / like i am weak and small? / why do i keep begging / like the animal? / maybe it's because i need to serve someone

back 2 da song! i do love the changes in the second verse. structure kept da same but words r different n it adds 2 da picture, n i love touches such as these

↑ undeniably shnz rite? altho the 'serve someone' make me feel bit more towards mika. nawt 2 say nazuna wasn also dedicated 2 valkyrie n fulfillin shu's ideal, i jus don see him bein unwaveringly loyal (nawt necessarily in a 100% positive light. as we've seen it can b 2 a fault n i cant nawt acknowledge dat) like mika is, still, (again naw shade @ da fact nazuna left!!! its exacly like the first verse said.. he needed 2 b set free 2 recover & find himself. he don Need 2 serve no one) w mikas past unwillingness 2 break dat mentor-apprentice worshipful dynamic (i have ex&old valk (both pre&post fall) tunnel vision btw. nothin after 2017 exists. i luv it n i don wanna let go)

if i keep / if i keep confessing / maybe i'll believe / that you never meant for love to hurt for me / maybe you could feel a little sympathy

but why do i make you feel / like you are big and strong? / why do you keep hunting / like an animal? / maybe it's because you need to own someone

↑ again same stuff very shnz. n if ya take a shot of mika juice n squint its there too, perhaps i made it up, n while exvalkyrie HAS affected both dolls differently, i think im a lil annoyed w ppl who deny the damage done 2 mika bein lesser. jus cause he knew nothin else in life prior & accepted it w open arms (cause its better than yanno, bein back @ the orphanage n later in da streets, w no prospects in life?). like, the sympathy part?? shu had none of dat 4 mika for a long-long while b4 comin 2 realise his humanity n full potential eh?

anyway. m nawt a good talker when it come 2 these things but i hope this made a bitta sense. i like seein my own stuff in every song i listen 2 cause i have a disease.

[hnnyoongs]

adults accidentally fueled deku's hero complex

bnha spoilers up to 319 but I do make some nudges toward 320

I'm going to be really controversial here and say that none of the adults around deku helped this mindset one bit yes they cared but they never saw.

I'm not slandering anyone here because I love everyone in bnha except afo I just think the mentors deku had did not understand Deku's mentality correctly which btw isn't their fault

aizawa's first lesson to deku is crucial cuz he essentially says if u get hurt you'll be a liability. deku is not letting anyone be around him because they'll be a liability tho it's more fueled by fear instead of logic as much as I love Aizawa and I know he didnt mean for deku to take his word in that way, for deku it means no one should help me, if I get help that means less people are saved and that means im a liability. if im not mangled & broken I don't need any help.

enji who's my favorite mentor of them all because he's the one that respected Deku's thought process the most did not help either while yes he was right that heroes should be able to do everything by themselves, deku once again did not understand it correctly. he did not see it as, I need to be able to do everything so when there's no one to help me I can do my job. he took it as I won't need help if I can just do it by myself. I can manage fine alone so why have extra?

there was also a tweet I saw that really stood out to me and if it ends up becoming true im going to be very scared here's the screenshot:

this scares me because Deku's hero complex is an overdrive even though all might did enable deku there were times were he did put the line down and this is one of them where he told izuku he couldn't save everyone showcasing that all might's hero complex is not completely controlling him, he does not believe he can save everyone

it would not be out of character for deku to IGNORE something he did not like just like he ignored his mother all those years ago all of Deku's mentors taught him very good things but I can see deku ignoring a part that doesn't fit his way of thinking and it scares me because im not sure who can save deku anymore I'd love it to be katsuki or ochako or tenya but idk who Deku's gonna listen to because his hero complex has taken him over especially after what happened to nagant

im not blaming the mentors because they were teaching to the best of their degree and im not blaming deku for his hero complex because while it's not an official mental illness it's psychologically damaging to the person with it

anyways to end off this long word vomit post I'd like to say if u disagree with me just ignore this because it'll be better for the both us I promise anyways someone please save deku from himself

[thrillridesz]

Is there any thing that shocked you about your moots? 👀

well i guess so? a few of them? shock is a big word haha but it’s mostly nothing big and none of which are in a bad way, just things i didn’t really expect out of them lol

i’ll try to list it down here. ( under the cut because this is long lol )

@yangyanghater​ ( cal )

the chaotic energy is strong as fuck with this one LOL i swear, whenever i talk to cal, i smile and she makes me laugh all the time. when we first talked, tbh i didn’t know what to expect and ngl i thought she ignored me on purpose because we were talking and she suddenly stopped replying for like a couple of weeks and i was like ... did i say something wrong (it turned out to be dumblr’s fault so). I was super intimidated by her but honestly, we’re really just the same level of clown and i think another thing that ‘shocked’ me was the amount of things we had in common. like dude, we can talk about EVERYTHING. literally everything. i tell her most stuff and even sensitive topics, we are able to talk it out and respect each others opinions without judgement. I don’t feel like im walking around eggshells around her now and im rly comfortable with her which is funny bc when we first started out i was kinda scared of her lol

@timextoxhajima ( dana )

i guess when i first talked to dana, i didn't think i’d find an older sister/mentor figure in her? she’s the one i go to talk about school and just tell random stuff about sometimes lmao... i’m kind of blown away by the level of maturity this woman has and it really does feel like i’m talking to someone i can really look up to as a role model of the kind of person i might wanna be like yknow? also dana strikes me as someone who’s very reserved and keeps to herself but i feel like that might not be the case because wow this woman is like ‘boss lady’ personified. you can’t put dana in a box seriously, she’ll break right out of it and amaze you. talking to dana feels like wearing goggles and looking at things from another perspective. so often i can be so dead set on my decisions and dana will say something that makes me go like ‘wait...’ 

@experimentalwrites ( nabi )

there’s just so many good things about nabi that i’ve discovered, i don’t even know how to start. so when i first started talking to nabi, i don’t think i realised how deep of a friendship would blossom from our first conversation. i don't think i realised just how much i would come to see nabi as someone i can rely on and like trust my secrets with. when i say tumblr’s my support system, nabi is really one of main reasons. she really helped me through my toughest time in college and for that, i’m just so extremely grateful to her? i always prided myself to solve my own problems without asking for help but i think i first found someone i can be vulnerable around in nabi. she’s the first person i really talked to about how shitty uni is even tho i wanted to try my best to look like im doing ok. i guess i’m just ‘shocked’ at how much i feel like i can tell you stuff without feeling insecure. 

@aniyawoos ( yu )

ok, yu is another big sister to me but more of the big sister who’s quiet, shy and just so fun to tease because she’s so cute with her reactions. like everyone else, i was also a little afraid of yu at first and i didn’t rly know what to say or do around her. i used to think she’s like the ice queen type but i guess the shock came in when i found that she’s actually quite soft? like ice queen who? not yu, for sure. she’s so incredibly full of wisdom and if i turn to dana and nabi for advice, i turn to yu for philosophical nuggets of wisdom.

 @mjlkau / @bratzau ( anie )

i’ve 100% mentioned this before but i’m mentioning it again. my first impression of anie is someone who is just so sweet, so kind and just extremely soft (she still is btw but hear me out). like i rmb when she first talked to me on kkt and talked to me discord when i felt so invisible, i was just so grateful to her and i was like she’s so nice omg >< i must say i didn’t expect her to have such a fiery, fiesty side? it’s like looking at an angel with that delightful streak of mischief and darkness in them. she’s super vocal about what she likes and doesn’t and is extremely outspoken about what is right even if it means she might have to bear the consequences for it. i think that’s something about her that makes me like woah omg i like her even more now. you get?

@neo-cult-ure ( ley )

i first met ley when i joined her neo summer collab ( which was also my very first collab ^^ ). i rmb i was just like kinda intimidated by her because she just seemed so cool and like yknow ‘up there’? unreachable in a way? i was relatively new to writeblr tumblr then so i mostly kept to myself and didn’t dare to like say anything for fear that i’d unknowingly say something wrong. though, when i actually started talking to ley, i realised that she’s actually really soft and kind? i think in my mind, i was just so caught up with the idea of accidentally offending people that i never gave a chance to people before placing them in that box you know? like oh idk i might not approach them bc im scared. but talking to ley kind of dashed that and i rmb being like so awestruck and happy when she told me she would feature me in one of her fics because that had to be one of the kindest thing anyone has ever done to me. i guess the ‘shock’ here is that i didn’t expect her to be so sweet and receptive to a peasant like me lmao

these are just the moots that stood out to me when i first saw this qn so if i think of anymore, i’ll add them to this list :)