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isdalinarhot · 8 months

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man ive been drinking at new levels of Drinking Alone like not only am i physically alone but im also not making bad posts or talking to friends or any of that. im straight up just sitting in my apartment getting drunk with the precision and focus of a nasa astronaut doing. space math. or something, maybe having dinner if i can manage it, and then sitting down to work on my fic and writing a bunch of shit that is both incoherent and fucking unusable that i most nights have to just straight up cut anyway when im sober working on the fic the next day. fucking depressing.

#not cosmere #ugh #i go back and forth about whether i should Get Professional Help but like idk i dont think that would do anything #i spent like my whole teen years institutionalized for suicidal depression i do not fucking want to be institutionalized again #aka Oh My Fucking God I Do Not Fucking Want To Go To Rehab Jesus Fucking Christ #and aa is like all weird and jesusy and i dont wanna touch that with a 39 and a half foot pole #i dunno man. i'll sort my shit out eventually. somehow. i just dont know how #i could always follow my parents' advice (if you want to drink then just dont ❤️). what that it were so simple #sorry folks feel free to ignore #luke.txt

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