#and i found a video of a silly song from [redacted] and it was basically my bleach fave singing it since same va

[alukaforyou]

probably one of THE most embarrassing / audacious things i have ever done that haunts me to this day was when i was 12-14 cant remember exactly when, i saw this gorgeous art of a ship i liked from [redacted], and i was like "i have GOT to recreate this" and decided to make a duplicate of it on a HUGE piece of mixed media paper like 18 x 24 inches, no idea y i needed to do this but i sketched it out trying to get it exactly the same as the original art, and watercolored it, it was actually kind of impressive since i dont ever work large or use traditional media, BUT it was legit of 2 anime boys basically kissing on the floor with roses 💀💀💀💀💀💀 and i didnt even bother to hide that shit or anything, like i just put it away in the closet cuz thats the only place it would FIT, and im p sure my entire fam saw it like READ ✔️ and they said NOTHING about it 🫠 i dont know if i disposed of it before i moved out like it can very much still be in my closet at my parents apt now oh my god im gonna crumble to dust if i see that piece of paper again

[my-daydreams-live]

f/o masterlist!

I imagine this list will grow quickly so, I'm creating a seperate post to keep track of all of them and their respective tags, accompanied by some "short" ramblings if anyone's curious abt them + how i feel about them, found them, etc.. :]

❤ Antares/Unknown

#fo / my heart of mystery

This is my main f/o!! I've had him for years and years and he will never leave my head. Through thick and thin he has been a great source of comfort for me and has remained that way even through dozens of other hyperfixations. His name actually isn't yet known, so he's refered to as Unknown a lot, but I've also given him a name myself, Antares. I switch between the two a lot.

He's from an indie game called Don't Take This Risk (as well as a webcomic by the same name) and is genuinely such an awful, terrible, manipulative person. I want to make it really clear I would not even begin to tolerate him if he were real. However he is fictional so I get to kiss this awful terrible man in my own head!! Yippe!!!

Fun fact: I owe this f/o the entire reason I can draw men. I used to really struggle w/ masc anatomy and hated my drawings of any guys but it was because of him that I persevered!!!

💜 Mayoi Ayase

#fo / us phantom couple

OHHHH mayoi... i love him so so much. I find him so endearing and charming and frankly very relatable. I want to give him the world. Also his VAs voice is SOOOOOO GOOD i will listen to his solo song the rest of my life

He's from a mobile idol training/rhythm game called Ensemble Stars!! I only play the music version. Also his tag is a reference to him being the phantom of the ES building. We're both phantoms :]]]]

Fun Fact: we are the same age in years, same height, and he was born only three days before me! What!!!

💙 Silly Billy

#fo / ill stay awake

Silly Billy!!! Although he is mostly made up of my own image for him in my head (since there's little to work with in canon) he is so beloved. He's from a Friday night funkin' mod called hit single real and he's SO real to me

Fun Fact: I was not into FNF or its mod community for almost three years I think, when a video on this mod popped up and would not leave my recommended. Now I am Haunted (but in a silly way) his tag is a reference to the lyrics part of his song - "so stay awake just long enough for you to see my way" - why yes billy i will do that. I love u

🖤 The Outsider

#fo / you fascinate me

OUTSIDERRR. I love him so much. When you really think about it his presence in his game is so strange. He could have just as easily not been present with the way he doesn't alter the overarching narrative at all, but I love that he's there. He, and his origins, and his intentions, are so mysterious and so captivating. I could write an essay about this man and still have words to spare, so I'll stop while I'm ahead.

I remember watching a playthrough of Dishonored when I was really little. Only a year ago from now I remembered the game and decided to play it, and WOW did Outsider absolutely capture my mind and heart!! That entire game is so wonderfully made and is probably one of my favorite games of all time, if not the favorite. His tag is a reference to one of the voicelines from him in the main game, at his last shrine!

Fun fact: I have not played dishonored 2 yet! I am a little fearful of what that game did to the characters, especially Outsider!!

❓[REDACTED]

# fo / wake up call

HEHEHE this is my most recent addition to the f/o list! Staying true to basically all of my other f/os he has little to work with in canon (and what canon there is is very scattered throughout his games) but the mystery and collecting what pieces I can of his lore in my brain is the most alluring part!!

He's from trivia murder party in jackbox party packs 3 and 6! Give us a 3rd one already pleas

💚 Tarhos Kovacs (The Knight)

#fo / nothing but darkness

hehe big scary man in armor....... He's from dead by daylight :)) his tag is a reference to his tome lore

❣ Frank Morrison (The Legion)

#fo / through the heart

ough. Smth about a guy who is so human, except he can and will kill people. Love. Also from dbd!

🎻 Antonio Paganini (Violinist)

big tall scary man with a handsome smile and god just the most wonderful humming ever. Hello. Oh yeah also he's possessed! <3 He is from Identity V

🛡 Oscar of Astora

# fo / hope in my heart

Oscar means everything to me. He has like 8 lines in the game but he's still my favorite. He has a wonderful voice and I love his armor design!! and the fact that he was robbed of a larger storyline will never not make me sad. He's from dark souls! His tag is a reference to one of his lines. "Well, now you know... and I can die with hope in my heart..." except hes not dead cuz i said so

🔫 Boothill

⚙ Screwllum

🤖 Svarog