#and i haven't warmed up yet (in bed wearing merino wool)
Text
.
#vent#bad time. *bad time*.#i'm not going well.#desperately needed to shower because i felt like i was sitting in my own filth but we were out of hot water#so i hyperventilated on the shower floor while i washed and i don't even feel clean#and i haven't warmed up yet (in bed wearing merino wool)#i have no energy left i am still shivering and i want to curl into a ball and sleep for 5 years minimum#and i'm not going to class tomorrow because of this#but now my brain is being bad about it because clearly i can't keep up with academia and clearly i need to drop out#(i cannot drop out. i *cannot*. i lose all the money i get if i drop out. i would not afford rent. i would not be able to eat.)#i just hate this#i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it#i just want to be secure enough not to worry about this shit.#i want to have enough money to live without needing obscene student loans#and not have to worry about being sick and missing class#or if i'm going to have the energy to look after myself#and i hate that that feels like i'm asking too much from the world#i just. want to be taken care of. just a bit.
2 notes
·
View notes
Last Seen Blogs
neon-doctor
www.neon.doctor
perfectedxpressions-blog
Perfected Xpressions
mark985t
Mark985t
ilebarbe
L'île Barbe
jungleslut101
†❈Sinner❈†