#and i need to make three meals

[pampinto]

I am starting a new job on Wednesday and I am absolutely terrified.

Its my first time working as Pam, and I'm really not sure what to expect (I came out midway through my 4 years at my last job, but kept it to myself due to the culture and some of the comments made by other staff members.

They have asked me to bring a photocard ID, and I applied to have my drivers licence changed to my name, however because my deed poll was signed by someone who lives at my address (not a relative) it was returned rejected. So now I am going to have to bring my deadname passport and a copy of my deed poll. I REALLY don't want to give out my deadname to anyone but now I am going to have to.

I have also only ever worked in uniform, and now I have to buy work clothes. I haven't bought clothes in years, I am physically anxious whenever I go into a clothes shop. Not only do I not know what I am looking for (what the fuck does "You can generally choose between business-formal, business-casual, and smart-casual attire" mean). My friend was supposed to go shopping with me on saturday but they cancelled bc the trains were all rail replacements.

I know I am going to be really clocky and gross (its been super hot recently here and its made me sweat profusely and I am breaking out so much).

I'm also in the process of changing my anti-depressants and currently I am in the process of cutting down what I am currently on. I haven't left my room in several days. I am constantly having suicidal thoughts.

My housemate said she was going to move out at the end of October, which I really need to happen bc living with her is driving me crazy and I only feel safe/ comfortable in rooms other than my own when she is not in. She needs to give 2 months notice and she hasn't and I am worried she is going to continue being here, my new job means I am going to be at home more and working from home which really isn't ideal with her about.

When I left my old job of 4 years, my boss didn't even say goodbye to me. I worked there throughout the entire pandemic when a team, formally of 5 was turned into a team of 1 (me). I worked while recovering from several assaults, the death of both my grandparents (I had to fight to get leave to go to the funeral), homelessness, depression, loosing a vast majority of my friends when I came out, England loosing the euros. and nothing, no thanks for working here, not even a good luck, fuck I would have settled for a "good ridence".

[freebooter4ever]

prior to this, i actually never ate much meat - my go to for protein was nuts, hummus, peanut butter, and the occasional chicken or lamb curry dish. legit i just didnt eat or cook meat. so this sudden high protein diet to make up for the lack of carbs calories is probably making my stomach confused. i eat two sausages for breakfast now. its insane. pls let me eat gluten again soon ;_;

[triglycercule]

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[daisywords]

as someone who was raised with a comparatively healthy mindset around food, I keep being baffled/concerned by other people’s eating practices that they’ll just drop like it’s no big deal. “I’m doing this intermittent fasting thing where I only eat one meal a day” girl if your one meal is the salad you eat every day for lunch I’m. that’s eating disorder behavior. and they talk about this stuff like it’s normal! “I’m trying out this new meal plan where—“ oh a starvation diet? You’re starving yourself?

[mossflower]

how many breakdowns should you have about dropping out before you seriously consider dropping out. asking for a friend teehee

[tj-crochets]

Hey y'all another "I suspect this is atypical but idk how atypical" question, this time about blood sugar! Okay, maybe a few questions

if your blood sugar is in the fasting blood sugar range, but you aren't fasting, does that count as low blood sugar?

2. Is it normal to have low blood sugar symptoms at not-technically-low-blood-sugar levels (today, 93)? Like, especially when it's that way when you have not been fasting, but also in general

3. How do you word "hey doc my records say you took my blood sugar when I was fasting, but I wasn't fasting. That was like an hour, hour and a half after lunch and I'd downed half a gatorade before I walked into the office and my blood sugar was in the 80s. Is that...maybe...a problem? That it's happened twice?" in a way doctors will care about?

[bugmistake]

at what point am i gonna realize that i don't actually like eating meat all that much

[vagueconfusion]

forgot to eat all day so am making salmon + a rice mix + jalapeno poppers

[piplupod]

trying to decide whether i should leave the house or not today and ,, i probably should, but also. urghghghh i am tired and i have mold to clean and i have dishes to clean and i have vacuuming and dusting to attend to (guess who hasn't dusted in probably over a year now! ruh roh!!! <- has an actual dust allergy) and laundry baskets to empty and crochet to start and projects to work on !!!

[thestrangestwatermelonofall]

i'm like. Completely dependent on other people in order to experience any joy, any motivation to live. Which is a bad combination with the fact that I am terrified to let people become too close to me, because then I will disappoint them and lose them forever. So I need people around me all the time but I can't be close friends with them or I'll push them away. Anyways I'm dying

[thequeerlibrarian]

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[allcheers-allfears]

somebody has probably made this post before and worded it better but like don't forget to reward yourself, even if(especially if) the task is something you think you "should" be able to do. if you struggle to do the dishes, treat yourself when you do manage to do them! just because you think it's just something you should've been able to do anyway -guess what! it doesn't take away the struggle. yes this is coming from experience, yes I'm learning to accept I struggle at things despite the expectation they should be easy, yes ice cream after hoovering is nice :3

[nanowatzophina]

🙏Bioware PLS. I need a specific date so I can have a countdown.

I’m afraid of the unknown 🥺

[aftermathing]

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[casbitchh]

lmao so my roommate and me finally talked about how we’re splitting the communal stuff and i’m taking two (2) of the things and she’s keeping the rest including the $400 couch and then was suprised when i brought up how we’d split the money for it? like my stuff adds up to ~$150 and hers adds up to ~$450 like GIRL those amounts are not equal give me some mcfreaking money

[hauntingblue]

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