#and i'd never have applied if i'd known that was the primary patient group but the ad didn't specify

[mellyoraa]

i'm having an anxiety attack bc i think i might get offered a psychologist internship that i've interviewed for but that i'm really not sure that i want to accept bc of several valid reasons, but i'm also scared that if i turn it down i might not get any other offers and i will regret it ughhhfgjdj

[junheedz]

*taps mic* good evening, gamers! i'm super excited to be here for dazzle's opening night and equally jazzed to introduce you to kwon junhee, better known as jason, 5ummit's lead vocal, lead dance and center!

as is good practice i present you a meagre offering of a sparknotes version of their past under the cut and a link to their profile here — no plots because i ran out of time :,( but i'm very happy to figure out something personalised just for your muse and junhee, just leave us a like as a little show of interest!

i'm not great with tumblr's dm system, so if you have discord or twitter i'd greatly appreciate switching to there for any in-depth plotting! if not, that's a-okay, we'll make it work anyway.

you can also find me writing sol.etude's jihan over here!

trigger warnings for a mention of parental neglect and the consequences that come with it.

i'll be using any of the big three pronouns for them interchangeably since junhee is nonbinary, but for work purposes they very much go by he/him and right now i don't think their gender identity is all that much at the forefront of their conscience.

the second child of trot star kim eunju and her producer husband kwon joonho. his primary caretakers were his paternal grandparents since his parents were usually busy with work.

dealt with a lot of parental neglect growing up — or, perhaps the point should be to emphasize that they didn't. for most of the part, junhee tries to avoid dealing with as much emotional baggage related to her family as possible.

junhee was a lonely child and prone to picking fights with his grandfather and older brother. their grandmother was the one family member who never had a hard time connecting to junhee, but it still made for a pretty socially isolated and emotionally difficult childhood.

originally didn't mean to go into the entertainment industry having seen how self-absorbed and selfish it made her mother but was scouted on the street by a smaller company at 16. becoming an idol was whatever to them at the time, but it was a ticket out of their home situation so they went to the audition anyway — and got into the company.

lost their grandfather soon after. as difficult as their relationship had been, junhee knew that he'd been very supportive of "junhee doing whatever makes him happy", especially in the light of their mother being vehemently against the idea of perhaps having to share the spotlight with her child. training became a matter of honouring their grandfather after that.

would've been on the roster to debut under their old company anyway but when auditions for top five opened they were encouraged to apply just to give their company and future group a little bit more press alongside two fellow trainees (who did not find the same kind of success on the show).

wasn't a crowd favourite from the get-go but by the middle of the show it was pretty clear that he'd have to mess up big time not to be voted into the debut line-up. they had a bit of a magikarp arc where they were pretty mid but learnt very quickly and showed not only consistent improvement but also a lot of patience and enthusiasm, even with trainees that were generally considered more "difficult", so to say.

and now he's here, about to debut! baekho hasn't changed much about the image they left top five with, the human golden retriever-turned-hellhound on stage thing works great for junhee and takes very little acting on their end — which is great, because junhee is many things but a good actor is not one of them.

at a first glance junhee is super easy to get along: good-natured, patient, usually smiling and eager to please. she also has a host of really badly processed anger issues that very rarely come out to play, but when they do they usually have really bad consequences and junhee hates hates hates what their anger makes them into.

they're still super new to the entertainment industry as far as being an actual someone (tm) goes. everyone remotely famous they meet is a big deal to them and if a senior voices praise for anything he does he will remember it for the rest of his life.

making friends is… a little harder? junhee wants friends! they want friends very badly, actually! but it's a little scary to get close to others when you know you harbour this big, ugly rage monster inside you and you're still trying to cosplay the winner of a prestigious survival show and survive debut prep— you kind of see where i'm going here, right? junhee wants to make friends, but right now she's also very overwhelmed and scared and only just learning how fucking draining idol work truly is.

it's a learning curve. they're on it. call them magikarp junhee because they'll learn super fast and then they'll evolve into the gyarados of making friends! their words, not mine.