#and im not going to squander it. i will get on adhd meds. i will finish school. i will pay off my debt. | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

orcelito · 4 months

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Got my phone on my own account, so I am Officially independent of my father (in terms of stuff I pay every month)

Also now know what I'm gonna get from life insurance and. Well. It really is a life changing amount of money. Enough that I could potentially just... not work as I make my way through the rest of school.

I want to be careful with it, not grow too flippant about it, but with proper allocation, this could genuinely help me finally get my life on track.

I'm still kinda reeling over it. It's genuinely mind-boggling.

#speculation nation #so. some positives in all the utter crap of this situation.#this year was already the year of Unfucking My Life. that was my motto. it still should be.#grief is... a difficult beast. but im going to make sure that i make the most of this.#he had life insurance in the first place as a final gift to us should anything happen to him.#and im not going to squander it. i will get on adhd meds. i will finish school. i will pay off my debt.#i will get a good job to hopefully let me live a comfortable life.#and as much as i wish he was still in it. was still around to see the places i go.#i am his child. pragmatic to the end.#lots to think about. lots to process. for now i've got a house to keep working on packing.

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