#and now i feel like an imposter bc i talk about writing fic but have nothing posted on my new ao3 and i just want to scream about all

[orpheuscas]

anyway

[jcfoxington]

@sambambucky​ : “pls... Pastels, Peaches and Pain??? among us first draft??? marvel meets warframe meets a bunch of tumblr posts (it’s not an au!?!??!)

hi jo !!! Pastels, Peaches, and Pain is one of those sambucky wips i have mostly fully fleshed out in my head because of one (1) extreme moment of clarity after a rogue ‘what if’ tangent thought but havent written anything of yet out of restraint / knowing i need to finish at least one of my current sambucky wips before i start it or none of them will get done

this was the rogue tangent thought: “what if Sam is haunted by Figaro’s ghost and has been since he was a kid?”. i’ve changed the ghost cat to not be Figaro but that’s the premise !

i refer to the fic as the cat fic ‘cause the whole plot is based around sam’s ghost cat companion insisting he adopts nat’s cat Liho after endgame and then Figaro later and then [insert redacted because plot spoilers but just know it relates to Alpine]. no im not projecting my feelings about cats idk what youre talking about 

here’s some note snippets just for you:

the cat, inexplicably, takes a liking to bucky, which is really annoying bc sam doesnt know how to explain to him that all the oddly soft gusts of wind are actually sam's dead cat insisting on getting pats

bucky getting shade thrown at him by said ghost cat during all of tfatws + them making up (and not out. yet)

starts when sam's a kid & follows him as he grows up w/ a ghost kitty as a companion only he can see & interact with + angst with an undertone of comedy + getting together

he whispers to ghost kitty, who simply mmrrs happily

for the among us first draft thing, what basically happened is i saw this tweet and this video and my brain latched onto these dynamics so hard i had to write about them. 

here’s a sketch of my two main imposters, Black (left) and Cyan (right):

and here’s a snippet:

The thing having Cyan pause and stare out at the asteroid field is how the colors stretch to family. When they and Black came aboard, they had thought every crewmember was an adult working on the planet-change project. That the patch of off-white with a black something-pattern-or-shape signified status. In a way, Cyan supposes it does, but just not the way they expected. They had expected it to show what rank an individual held within the hierarchy of the crew, from deckhand to division leader to captain, not to show that you're family of the crew and not actually part of the crew itself. 

There are innocents on this ship. Children. It was not something any of them had anticipated, and not something Cyan had been prepared to deal with. They and Black boarded this horrible place to eradicate a threat, believing each and single one of the humans were accomplishes and dedicated to the goal of destroying Cyan and Black's species, and their planet. But, now?

marvel meets warframe meets a bunch of tumblr posts... doesn’t have a wip title or seperate document for itself yet cause it’s been stuck in my ‘story ideas’ document since its creation. so ‘marvel meets warframe meets a bunch of tumblr posts’ is literally just me describing the vibe of an original world gjkerfkds

the world came to be for two reasons. firstly, i want to do make take on a superhero universe because the plot and complete lack of communication in both the dcu and mcu piss me the fuck off. secondly, needed a place to dump ocs with elaborate backstories or fantasy / sci-fi abilities that dont fit into any of my existing worlds

which sounds super competent but trust me, it isn’t. it didn’t gain any solidity at all until i decided to do a personal ‘how different can i make spn castiel look & still retain the same vibe?’ challenge. i have my own cas now

however, the reason i said ‘marvel meets...’ is because i’ve snagged a couple of different things from the mcu, most notably: enemies to reluctant coworkers to lovers, yes our best friend have the same name. no they’re not the same person, secret evil org is controlling the government, and the assassin that tried to kill you several times is now your best friend

warframe was added to the world because i got attached to my Volt build, gave them a name, and have some headcanons idk what to do with because i refuse to interact with that fandom. also because the friend i made through discussing warframe lore + plot dicked me over so it feels Bad to create for

the glue to this whole mess is that one “in every friend group there’s a mean bisexual, an even meaner lesbian, a she/they, a he/they, a himbo, an astrology bitch, a short king, and a token straight” tumblr post. my main group of superheroes ala the avengers consist of these people. the token straight is the only one i havent figured out who is yet

ever since i figured that out ive been throwing story / character ideas and weirdly specific aesthetics from popular tumblr posts into this world’s notes. here’s some examples:

sword grandmas

that trope where someone’s really nice and acts super well-adjusted to society but then they do something super whack and dangerous and you realize ‘oh they’re secretly a little bit insane, actually’

anti-gay group’s leader’s wife leaves him for another woman

superhero who swore to be the best hero [city / planet / solar system / continent / ????] has ever seen ever since he lost his wife. not because she’s dead but divorce just sucks & the hero-to-be is terrible at coping

dishevelled swamp witch

that one person who runs around with an amulet all the time & isn’t aware it’s cursed

an exasperated, tired superhuman assassin running after their husband and their husband's best friend. their husband and said husband's best friend both have wings. chaos ensues (yes, this one is a sambucky post)

ask me about my WIPs!

BONUS:

@sambambucky​​ : #i want to have a coffee and listen to synopses of all of these.... #i miss the discord wow #WRITING TAG #waitttt time jumping dream movie? lmao I'VE READ THIS LIST FORTY TIMES and every time i rediscover something i wanna know about #outfit doodlesss ugh i need to go

couldnt not respond to your tags because they make me go ghrkjfnerknf but in the good way. we miss you too jo !!

the time jumping dream movie was one of the first vivid dreams i had and the whole thing was so stupidly coherent and whacky i had to write it down. it grew plot, a queer love dynamic, weird sci-fi apocalypse elements, anti-military propaganda, questionable science, and a sequel while i wasnt looking and now i just. have to make it a real movie or i’ll combust

outfit djoodlles.png is only on there because my best friend sent me a ‘draw this outfit’ meme and space kitty, my current character brainrot, stole all the outfits for himself. otherwise, that file just sits there until im feeling like designing an outfit or wanna see how a stupid thing looks on my oc patrick

here’s one of the two poses-to-doodle-outfits-on of space kitty ive made so far:

and here’s one of those stupid things on patrick (that then turned into an actual outfit of his because i have no self control):

[queenmylovely]

1/2: Hello! I LOVED your Just My Luck series, it’s stuck in my head for ages even after finishing it (have definitely laid awake at night thinking about it). I’ve got some experience with fanfic writing, but I’ve never really delved into RPF before. I want to start writing for the Queen fandom and was just wondering if you have any advice on that, maybe specifically to do with historical accuracy (as historically accurate as fanfic can be, at least), characterisation, planning out a plot, etc?

okay first of all, thank you so much I’m glad you like just my luck and also I’m very flattered that you would come to me for advice 💙

now, onto any advice I have, which is going to be long so get a snack:

historical accuracy: I think that jml has got to be my most historically accurate fic and I’ll point out that it’s almost my first. New writers can tend to be more concerned with this which is fine, but those of us who have been around for awhile kinda don’t give two fucks bc you’re already adding an entirely new person, which itself is inaccurate. That being said, it can be cool get the dates right if you wanna write about going on tour and the stops they had and for that Wikipedia is amazing it has basically all their tours laid out easily. Also say it’s a roger x reader fic and you are going to be talking ab John, Fred, and bri, you can absolutely use their actual partners (Veronica, Jim, chrissie, etc.) but if you don’t want to deal with that feel free to make up names and whole new characters. When it comes to uni and stuff, I definitely feel free to mess around with ages, like making them all the same year, but I think most of us wouldn’t make John the oldest and Fred the youngest. Also most of us keep their majors the same bc they are pretty important to them. Lots of people write refernces to the movie which is always fun to read but note that the movie itself isn’t terribly accurate. Basically the thing with historical accuracy is to be as historically accurate as you want to, if it’s super fun for you to research and get things right, go for it, it’s cool to learn things as you read, but if you don’t want to, don’t fee obligated and that’s exactly what au’s are for!

characterization: there are definitely some widely accepted characterizations of the boys. Fred is fun, creative, flighty, fashionable, kind, loving, a little superficial, gossipy, material, the life of the party, shy, and motherly. Brian is studious, intelligent, kind, caring, proud, arrogant, a know it all, soft spoken, thoughtful, horny, moody, and sardonic. Rog is clever, cheeky, self centered, materialistic, immature, so funny, sweet, also gossipy, caring, charitable, a bit of a slut, and also a baby. John is sassy, technical, smart, funny, tender hearted, The baby, shy, stubborn, blunt, family oriented, in love, money man, and at times selfish. But some of my fav fics are ones that make me see them in new lights (in the wings by @/just-my-sickly-pride I’m looking at you). Interviews are great resources but follow your gut! Also drawing inspiration from other fics is totally valid and if someone told me that one of my fics inspired what they did with a certain character I’d be more than flattered.

planning out a plot: this one really varies person to person. Some people like doing outlines and planning the whole fic out and others just start with some ideas and see where that goes. I’m somewhere in the middle, blurbs are never outlined (even tho they’re consistently over 1k) and most one shots aren’t but series might be to keep things straight. That being said, I did not outline at all with just my luck. Smth that I’ll do is write out any ideas or scenes that are in my head. In high infidelity, I wrote the ending practically to a t before I started it, but the ending was the most important part of that story to me. I also knew the ending words of just my luck as soon as the idea popped into my head. But sometimes I’ll write down a scene that’ll end up being like two scenes ahead or a particular line of dialogue so I don’t forget it. Experiment and find what you like!

Finally, imposter syndrome is lying to you!! jml is the first thing I ever published and I just went for it! (The only other fic was when I handwrote like two pages of a Loki [😬] fic when I was like 15/16.) I had the idea and I really wanted to so I did. This fandom is so supportive and we always love to see new creators in the space as I’m sure you know. definitely tag me in anything you do post (if you want lol) also dw I obviously loved answering these questions, this was almost like three times as long. Feel free to come back to my asks with any more questions or dm me if it’s something more specific/you just wanna talk 💖💖

[moonhoures]

😭 it’s fine I have the same kinda situation before. I’m sorry that you got rejected🥺😭. I’ve only ever confessed to someone about liking them maybe once or twice first time I don’t remember exact but Ik I got rejected and the second time he didn’t say anything and just looked at me with a small shy smile on his face😭. We’re still friends and I bring it up that he never responded often and he claims he did 🙄.

But I just take rejection as ✨ℬ𝓊𝒾𝓁𝒹𝒾𝓃𝓰 𝒞𝒽𝒶𝓇𝒶𝒸𝓉ℯ𝒻✨😭😭 it hurts like hell when you’re going through it right at that moment tho💀

And bf Kyun has everyone in a chokehold I swear😭😭

Also I read your taehyun fic the day you posted it (I forgot to message you that day😗😭) but it was *𝒞𝒽ℯ𝒻𝓈 𝒦𝒾𝓈𝓈* once again😭😭. Can I just say your way of writing has me in a very much enjoyed chokehold😭

-✨

honestly as painful as it was in the moment, being rejected wasn’t as terrible as i thought it would be. it could’ve been wayyyy worse than it was. i thought the way i confessed was kinda cute though so i was a bit disappointed 💔 if you’d like to hear the story i put it under the cut!!

and omg thank you!! i’m so glad you liked it!! i was really proud of the tyun fic 😌❤️

to make a long story short; me and my crush were in a big group of friends that played among us together for hours like every night (y’know when among us was in its prime like 2 years ago lol) and i texted him one day saying i found out who had a crush on him in our group (bc he had mentioned it on a call w me and a couple of our other friends that he had a suspicion someone in the group liked him) and so he asked “who?” and i sent back a cute image i edited of my among us character that said “moon is the imposter” and at first he was confused but when he pieced it together he just kindly said he didn’t like me like that and luckily nothing changed between us after. we both acted completely normal, and as far as i know he didn’t mention it to any of our other friends which makes me feel better abt it 😅 luckily (?) i learned pretty quickly after that that i didn’t really like him i just liked that he was the first guy to seem somewhat interested in me / paid attention to me. because he talked shit abt some of my friends and i didn’t like that so we fell out and he ended up not being friends w the rest of the group soon after (for reasons i have no idea abt even now) so yeah i dodged a bullet i guess 👍🏻

[movedto-dazaipositive]

sad Q-era jackparse pseudofic

like most of my writing these days, this started on the parseposse. it’s basically a train wreck of sad Q-era jackparse feat. hockey culture. it’s also the outline for the fic I’ve been meaning to write (hahaha) so I thought I’d put it up here bc I love discord but it’s not very good as far as saving stuff goes. anyway, this is sad.

it started with frances (@lexatargaryen) hc'ing that Kent was super insecure and wanted jack’s approval. then I ran with it.

Kent’s always been a lil dumb for approval from people he looks up to/loves

so like,,,,,when he’s living with the Zimmermanns? it’s like he’s constantly being praised/approved of (Kent has a praise kink but it’s not really a kink it could be but mostly whenever people praise him he’s just a little overwhelmed bc he doesn’t ever think he deserves it)

and bad Bob definitely plays hockey with them and he holds both of them to extremely high standards and for both Kent and Jack, an okay from Bob is worth twice it’s weight in gold

but also in the Q where Jack is the one holding both of them to impossibly high standards. Kent is always free with what he thinks–like he’ll tell Jack if he’s playing badly/being a moron/could do better. but Jack is the kinda asshole that just yells at Kent to play better all the fucking time. and it drives Kent to tears more than once except hockey culture is Bad and he Cannot Be Vulnerable and so he’s mostly crying in the shower after practice and hating himself for crying

and it’s tough to take that from a guy you love and it’s worse bc Kent and Jack are living and breathing hockey. there’s no separation for them. everything on the ice bleeds into the bedroom. and practices where one of them isn’t playing as well as usual are the worst bc then afterwards they’re making out but there’s also so much resentment

and Kent is like. starving for approval, specifically Jack’s approval, but this boy has never done emotional labour in his life and he sure as fuck ain’t starting now.

not even for Kent

and Kent can’t deal, y'know? maybe he’d have tried harder to care about jack’s anxiety if Jack hadn’t been depriving Kent of any kind of positive response

but it’s so tough on both of them bc the pressure Jack is putting on himself and Kent is insane

and like. that whole situation in the Q is so ridiculously toxic for both of them. it’s no wonder Jack ODs. and Kent is so fucking bitter afterwards, because they could’ve been golden together. but some days he thinks he’s glad it happened because at least now he doesn’t have to deal with not being good enough for Jack

like, obviously he doesn’t really feel that way. but he thinks that. in his heart he knows he won’t ever be as good as Jack and on bad days he wonders if its worth it to even try.

but he tries anyway. hockey is the only thing he has. and even if he’s not the best, at least he’s playing, right? at least some team wanted him.

but Kent always feels guilty. even when he’s lifting the Cup he has this little thought in the back of his head that maybe it’s Jack who deserved this.

KENT HAS IMPOSTER SYNDROME

and he’s always going around wondering when people will find out that he’s not the one they want. that he’s only pretending to be good at hockey. that he’s not nearly as good as everyone thinks he is and he’s always scared people will figure him out but he thinks that when they do figure it out he’ll be relieved because pretending all the time is exhausting

and at this point frances came back in with the fact that Jack had won the Stanley Cup /and/ scored the gwg. and Kent basically thinks okay, no one needs me here anymore. the golden boy is here.

(I’m paraphrasing)

and Kent starts letting it slip a bit? like the next time someone compliments him about a goal, he just looks at them sorta incredulously and goes, it’s okay, you don’t have to pretend anymore. and whoever he’s talking to (probably another hockey player) says, wtf are u on, what do you mean pretend? and Kent

is extremely flustered and he doesn’t want to explain but he ends up explaining anyway

and you know what, this conversation happens with swoops

and it’s bad, because every time kent comes up with a reason why he’s not good enough, Swoops has an argument for why the opposite is true. and Kent hates it.

he hates it because he’s kinda not used to this from someone he really cares about (the last time was with Jack, and that was completely different) and Swoops is obviously serious and Kent can’t deal with this

it’s such a shit show. they’re shouting at each other. and Kent and Swoops both have their pride and they’re not giving in.

this is making my heart hurt

but swoops isn’t getting through to Kent and it’s pretty obvious that Kent is lowkey panicking. so the next day

Swoops talks to the whole team. and they’re kinda ?? bc Kent? is their Captain? this arrogant, confident dude? but they Love him so they’re like okay we can compliment him

he’s their Smol Captain and they love him

so the next day when Kent walks into practice Smithy tells him he’s “looking good” and Kent is like wtf. but this goes on all day with people randomly complimenting him and Kent’s not dumb, he can figure out what’s going on

but he can’t really tell why they’d do that? either they’re making fun of him or they actually care about him? and the latter option is Impossible so it’s gotta be the first one

but the compliments do make him feel a bit better? even if he knows they’re just making fun of him? and it hurts bc even if they don’t care about him it’s pretty fucking cruel and rude of them to take advantage of his insecurities like this

and he’s sad bc he thought that even if he’d never be worth anything there’d still be people who cared about him and he’s so fucking hurt

but he puts up with the //fake// compliments. and then someone hits a lil too close to home and Kent fucking erupts at them

and tells his whole team about how he’s never felt like he’s good enough for anything or anybody, especially Jack, and he’s nothing compared to Jack, and he knows this but could they please, please stop reminding him of it because it hurts

the Aces are horrified. and Kent is crying and his hangups about crying in front of people have never really gone away. and Kent runs. except that he can’t really see and he definitely bangs his toe somewhere, and the rest of the aces catch up with him and

give him their own little impromptu speech about how he’s the best Captain they could ever have hoped for, no really don’t try to argue with us, Kent, and he’s one of the best hockey players currently playing, possibly ever, and he deserves every good thing that’s ever happened to him, and he deserves them a hundred times over

and Swoops ends up treating the whole team to dinner at Kent’s condo. and after the rest of the Aces go home, Jeff finds Kent standing in the kitchen and he hugs Kent from behind and and whispers, i love you

this is the first time that Kent hasn’t been the first to say that to someone. and after he cries into swoops’ shoulder for five minutes, he says it back. and then they kiss

the end