#and sorry in advance. I'm going to work through my inbox this week and answer several asks to clear it out a bit

[marimayscarlett]

The year 2024 is coming to an end... and I can say it has been a wonderful year in this fandom 🤍

After last year, I did not expect that we could experience and witness such a carefree year and amazing tour of the band, and I am incredibly happy and grateful for it. Rammstein brings me so much joy, and watching some recordings from this year's tour today fills me with such a warm and nostalgic feeling – it was simply magical.

I'm so thankful for this band, and especially for this community here. So open, warm-hearted, and accepting, it's a joy to be a part of it. Have a wonderful New Year's Eve and a good start into the new year 🤍

[soaps-mohawk]

hi hi hi !!! i’ve already expressed to you in your inbox how much i love your writing and here i am expressing it again!! you’re an amazing writer and i love rereading your new series. but i do have a question. (a couple, sorry)

i’m new to the whole alpha/omega verse thing and i could just go on google but i’d rather get an answer from the author writing the story.

what’s a heat and how does it work?

i’ve kinda pieced some bits together but i’m still confused. is it like a monthly thing or is it like losing one’s virginity?

and does the menstrual cycle come into play at all or do female omegas not get it at all?

and are omegas only females? are there no male ones?

thank you in advance, cheers

Hello!! Thank you!! I'm so glad you're enjoying the fic!! Don't apologize for asking questions I love explaining things!! (Also I do have a running tag right now, if you search 'crcb lore' on my blog it'll bring up a bunch of asks and such with world building/lore/explanations and stuff if you're interested. I meant to put a note about it on the masterlist but I forgot)

To answer your questions:

A heat is sort of exactly like what some animals go through. It's basically an intense period of arousal where, the omega in this case, is fertile. The exact details vary depending on the version/author but in this one, omegas are only fertile during their heats and they happen about every three to four months. They don't have a menstrual cycle as we do irl, the heat cycle is their menstrual cycle basically.

To break it down, omegas experience something called a pre-heat, basically signs that a heat is coming. In the reader's case she gets more clingy, her appetite spikes, and usually omegas will start to nest more than usual to prepare for it. Once the heat hits, the body temperature spikes and basically they just get insanely horny to the point it can get painful. Their scent changes and becomes basically an aphrodisiac for alphas which is why they can be dangerous if you're not somewhere you can be safe from alphas. Alphas kind of lose their minds once they smell an omega in heat (like animals) and they slip into a rut and want to breed the omega. If there's multiple alphas in the vicinity, they will fight each other over the omega, even if one of them is bonded to that omega and the others aren't. Heats last about a week, and while alphas can take the caretaker role during that time, packs with betas will usually have a beta that helps keep the alpha and omega fed and hydrated during that time because, of course, they're not really going to be considering that.

I did touch on gender in a different ask, but status is not dependent on gender. So there can be male and female alphas, betas, and omegas. Identifying as non-binary or trans won't change how you're seen in your status since anybody can be anything, and transitioning will not affect ones status either.

Thank you for the questions!! I always love a discussion and some world building!!

[theatrekidenergy]

I think it's so cool that you're a figure skater. How did you get into that? I've debated it myself, but I'm disabled so I'm unsure if I should attempt it or not, lol, but those who can do it have always impressed me and seemed extremely magical. There's no need to answer this if you're uncomfortable, obviously, I'm just curious :)

I just realized I’ve left this in my inbox for so long I’m so sorry man 😭 /gen

1. Thank you so so much! That means a lot to me.

2. How I got into it and my process:

Essentially the way I got into it was that one day I went to an ice rink with my cousin, fell many times, and loved every second of it. That’s what sparked it. I got home with a new hyperfixation that had formed nearly spontaneously and started researching like crazy, it was all I could think about for about 2 weeks before my mom caved in and bought me a very beginners lesson which I passed the first day and went to the second level. (Keep in mind, it’s not needed to commit to buying skates for quite a while! I didn’t buy skates until having had skates for nearly 4 months)

From there I flew through levels pretty fast, and became friends with someone who I now consider to be my absolute best friend. 4 months into skating, right after I bought my first skates, my coach who had taken me under her wing particularly decided to have me perform in a show, The Nutcracker. Was I terrified? Absolutely. But, I was in a group of other skaters and it taught me loads of fundamentals of skating, and performance. I highly recommend taking any chance to do shows like this, especially during the winter months which have great help for beginners and advanced skaters alike. After the nutcrackers my coach skipped me multiple levels into a higher up program.

I’ve been skating for nearly a year now and have competed in countless small programs in my city as well as two different competitions on a regional level and will be in a duet in a show this august as well as a soloist in a huge show this winter.

3. Disability wise: Personally speaking I have fibromyalgia and hEDS, and I’ve talked to my doctors multiple times about the safety of it for me and they’ve all passed it off as okay, plus being on the ice all the time essentially functions as a full body ice pack which feels like heaven if you have chronic pain. Please, before you start skating talk to your doctor and physical therapist about if it would be a good choice for you. I was not diagnosed when I started skating but was in a lucky enough position to be able to continue as well as being encouraged by my doctors to continue it; however, not everyone is going to be the same and it’s important to talk to your doctor about it as you become more advanced for your own safety.

Also, don’t be afraid to tell your coaches and community about your diagnosis! In fact, lots of skaters I know have some kind of a disability, and many of the staff have the ability to give certain accommodations on ice depending on the rink you skate at.

4. A bit of encouragement: Believe me, progress is possible and everyone works at their own pace, there is no shame in being a beginner and I promise you figure skaters are some of the sweetest communities you can be a part of, if you ever need any help I’ve never once had a more experienced skater be rude or even passive aggressive. I hope you decide to make the leap to figure skating, it has helped me so much and I hope it can do the same for you. I hope you have a fantastic day / night and I’m wishing you luck!

[autisticforestgremlin]

Hii i just read all ur posts and I'm deciding to remain anonymous but i want to ask smth and i hope you don't mind. ASD is a disorder which cannot be cured, is it possible for it to resurface and hugely impact one's mental condition after being kept in control for a few years? Even if it wasn't that much of a serious case at first?

HI FRIEND *waves*

Heck no, I don’t mind. I love asks! Sorry it’s taken me so long to get to answering this. I’ve been crafting the answer in my head but haven’t had a good brainspace to answer. Apologies in advance if this is a little rough as far as sentence syntax goes. Twas a Big Day today and I’m caught somewhere between Too Much Stimulus and Too Little Stimulus.

Anyhow. I shall also preface this with the disclaimer that my answer is based totes on my own experience and my limited research + talking with other autistics.

There are two things that come to mind here:

1) Masking: Masking is when we basically pretend to be neurotypical. We suppress our stims and most of our autistic behavior in order to “fit in” and “get along”. Masking can be super exhausting when done long term, and this exhaustion can cause you to have what’s called an autistic burnout. This can look a lot like the autism “getting worse”. It’s kind of like a depression/shutdown/meltdown crash. All systems down, four alarm fire, autistic human in trouble.

2) Stress/trauma/illness: Stress or trauma or an illness can lower your ability to deal with sensory input. It can also compromise your ability to mask.

I have...many much experience with all of this. I’d say it also depends on when you were diagnosed. I’m about three weeks into my autistic discovery, and I never knew I was masking. If you wandered into my room right now, you would see someone who presents as very autistic. If you saw me at work, you would see someone who looks just a lil quirky. That’s masking for you.

My ability to mask is severely impacted if I’m stressed or sick. I used to say that “sometimes I felt autistic” and other times I didn’t. I realize now that what was really happening was that when I was sick/stressed/tired, I couldn’t mask effectively, so my stims and sensory issues “broke through”. Masking takes energy, and when my energy is redirected elsewhere, something’s gotta give. The “neurotypical” circuit breaker blew.

I’m risking a four page ramble here, so I’ll try to shorten this -- but pls pop back into my inbox if you wanna keep chatting. I have many more Thoughts.

My guess would be that with everything that’s going on in the world, the autism is “breaking through”. You (or whoever) probably have less overall energy to run your body systems, meaning that your sensory issues are affecting you more and your stims are closer to the surface. You could also be having a bit of an autistic breakdown. ORRRR you were masking a lot and the mask is crumbling (finger guns @ myself). Been there done that.

ANYHOW that was a chaotic mess of an answer but here we are. I hope that was somewhat coherent/helpful? Let me know if you wanna chat more. I am essentially a 27 y/o AFAB enby who like....thought for years I just had anxiety but now realize I have like. MMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmm moderate???? autism? Yeah. Anyhow. Best of luck to you. Come and chat anytime, friend <3

[ls-timeline-8]

A considered but dropped outcome

Ideas flood in but mun has no idea what to do with any of them

I think this was idea H

I don't know

(Implied/actual character death)

(Lots of dialogue)

Ehh??

Again, I don't know

He groaned, turning over to cover his ears with his pillow while reaching over to his desk and unplugging the charger before bringing the cursed device closer to read the caller ID

**

It was 2:47 in the morning when Ethan woke up to disastrous sound that he chose for a ringtone.

Syrus

You'd think someone who was such a stickler for time would call at a reasonable hour but then again, the red head never called much in the first place unless it was that important

The teen kicked the blanket aside and sat up moment before he slid the answer button and held the phone to his ear

"Hello..?"

The audio crackled. Unstable connection? Must be

"-han? Hello"

"Hi, what happened to you at," he squints to the clock on the wall, "2... in the morning..?"

"Mm- -ust had a thoug-"

The other cutting out was odd. Shouldn't he be in bed at this time?

"Really? What kind of thought? A thought to maybe warn us of a scheduled family event?"

There was a moment of silence on the other side of the line before choppy laughter emitted from the speaker

"-'m sorry, I didn't realize tha- -t'd still be a problem"

"You left without saying a word and it's almost been two weeks, of course it'd be a problem" Ethan sighed and looked behind him

Exbo was sleeping soundly, that was good

He reached a hand back to softly pat at the cyndaquil

"I'll be- -turning soon if- it- it make you feel better"

"You better... Krystal won't get off my case otherwise... but really, did something happen? You never call, let alone message"

"... No I- -ust wanted to call. It's been a har- -ard day"

"What? The work-a-holic Syrus had a hard day? I'm not buying it"

"-don't think I'm making a sales offe-"

"Shush your face, you know what i mea-"

Ethan cut himself off with a yawn and shook his head

"I'm keeping yo- -up. I'll take my leave now-"

"No no, it's fine! 'm just waking up, that's all"

Another moment of silence passes

Ethan lowers the phone to see the screen

The call was ended

He sighs and tries calling back, pressing the device to his ear again

...

...

...

Sorry. The person you're trying to call does not-

He hangs up before the automated voice finishes whatever statement it had about not having an inbox set up and sends a text

Me (2:54am): Did the line go dead?

He watched the screen for a while before laying back down with the phone in hand

All he can do is hope that the other calls back soon...

--

Syrus sent his phone through a full factory reset before removing the SD and battery from the device, listening to it's screen shatter against the brick wall in front of him.

He let out a shakey sigh as he held the two pieces his hand and tried to maintain the pressure on his side

A part of him hopes that he didn't leave a trail for them to find but hope would only get him so far and this was probably as far as he'll get

He was lucky to get himself out of that tight spot but with the state he's currently in, there wasn't must more he could be from here.

The wound in his leg would prevent him from advancing any further, he's lost vision in his right eye, and the wound on his side would probably be it

"I'll be returning.. soon..."

He repeated from his mostly one side conversation with Ethan

... that may be true... if anyone finds him that is

And if it does become true, it won't be the way they would like him to...

Syrus tilted his head back and pressed it against the wall

It was only a matter of time now...

The phone shattering would've at least signaled someone that he was sitting in this alley

He just sat there with nothing else but the suffocating silence

Nothing to do now but think...

...

They've been out of school for... 6 months now?

Ethan and Krystal wanted to drag the rest of the club members out to an arcade or ice rink on the weekend, just days before he disappeared

They made plans for a Christmas party that also worked for his birthday

Birthday... right his birthday was coming up, wasn't it?

It was never such a big deal until those two found out

Syrus couldn't help but smile to himself, the pressure on his side easing up

His own birthday never meant much to him but he made sure to at least do something for the other club members

Wheather it be a card, something he tried making at the cafe the night before or just allowing them to make any reasonable request of him

It was... nice to see them enjoy a day to call their own even though, realistically, it wasn't like that in the slightest

He held the SD card a bit tighter as he looked to the broken device just feet away from him

Dark splotches were clouding his vision and he was feeling more tired than he was before

He can only hold on for so long

Just a moment more

Just a day

An hour

A minute

A single second

...

He hopes that he sent Krystal those photos