#and tbh im always in the mood for werewolves

[wyrmswears]

happy halloween i drew athena cykes as a dog

[civilians-of-nothingtown]

12 for all of them???

12. What have you found to be most difficult about creating art for your OC (any form of art: writing, drawing, edits, etc.)? 

Tyler - drawing his flannels

Elias - sometimes writing him is difficult because i really have to be in like. a specific mood. to write for him

Ross - getting his dynamic with the crew right

Salem - N/A

SR700 - im shit at drawing robotic parts lmao

Rose - drawing her wings every damn time

Zek - N/A

Rogue - his robotic arm. the Struggle

Adonis - all i ever want to draw is porn of him which is. Bad. Because he's more than that but.

Anxietatem - writing for him is hard because i don't have extreme paranoia so i try to make it as realistic as possible

Jakkal - N/A

Thorn - how to write loving relationship? between a demon and a werewolf?

Alex - getting his vibe right is. difficult. because. it just is

Max + Tide - ITS GETTING THEIR D*CKS RIGHT WHEN I DRAW THEM

Leo - like Elias i really have to be in a certain mood to write for Leo, and also it's hard to describe the situation going on in his mind from an outside standpoint sometimes

Reese - Reese is practically mute and writing mute characters is a bit difficult since i am not mute

Sasha - similar to Reese (i really have never written for a trans woman, if anyone could give me pointers on Sasha / Reese i would die for u)

Clark - i always forget what hair color she has lmao rip

Karnarka - N/A

Natalia - gotta try real hard to not make her a slutty Morticia Addams

Virgil - tbh writing him makes me feel dirty because like. he's one of my fave characters but he truly is like. a fairytale villain

Vaz + Gabriel - their dynamic is like. difficult. its almost like Crowley and Aziraphale but um. sluttier and a bit meaner (in good spirits)

Tenki + Lena + Kaskae + Fen - N/A, writing werewolves is easy for me heehee

Andreas - sometimes i forget he's a hot head (HAHA) that basically destroys everything so

Enid - i can't make her an avian Hermione i can't make her an avian Hermione i can't make her an avian Hermione i can't make her an avi

Njord - N/A

Ari + Nikolas - i gotta try rlly hard not to like. fuck up their hair when i draw them

Project 56 - okay he is legitimately hard to write because of the mental damage he's had, it took a lot of research about unsavory torture methods from war to hone my knowledge on how he acts

Kaz - i wanna make sure im not making him too like. americanized. because he IS japanese

Ky - siren? what do?

Tex - I ALWAYS FORGET HIS BONER GARAGE TATTOO

Rak - *projects myself onto him, which, inherently, is bad*

All my alien species - THE DIFFICULTY IS WRITING THEM SO THEIR WORLD ISN'T SUPER CONFUSING also rin is baby

Extended point on Rin - they're difficult to write because of their trust issues. like. i have trust issues but not as bad as they do.

[bhyunni]

Getting to know BAMBAMS-A-BABE I guess

NAME-

Chrisstyle (Chrissy)

BIRTHDAY-

July 12, 2003 think??

Tbh I don’t even know lmaooo, went from the 12th, to the 7th, to the 4th, to the 14th, and then back to the 12th y’all

RELATIONSHIP STATUS-

Single, but I’ve got friends and fam to keep me satisfied!!

PIERCINGS I HAVE-

One piecing on each lobe, but I want a second pair on the lobe as well,,

THE MEANING BEHIND MY USERNAME-

BamBam is a B A B E. My babe tho.

Like, I love him!! I also wanted my username to be Baekhyuns-A-Babe because I love him, too, so I just made a side-blog that I don’t use called strawberry-baekgels because at the time, I’d been eating bagels with strawberry cream cheese.

GROUPS I STAN (and listen to)-

BTS • GOT7 • EXO+CBX • DAY6 • PLT

NCT 127 • The Rose • Monsta X

FANXY CHILD • SF9 • SNUPER

Stray Kids • Pentagon • B.A.P

Seventeen • iKon • MOBB • JBJ • KNK

FAVOURITE MOVIE-

I’m boutta’ add a bunch because there simply cannot be one.

Moana • Coco • Bambi • Balto • Bolt

Fox and the Hound • 101 Dalmatians

To Kill a Mockingbird

I love Disney y’all, like,,

It’s gREAT, and it makes me cry.

A FACT ABOUT MY PERSONALITY-

I used to be extremely quiet, and still am when I’m not around friends or fam because I’m super shy, but super chill. Very optimistic! I’m almost always in a good mood, and even when I’m not in a good mood, I’m patient and slow to anger, though some things do annoy me. I’d say that I’m super caring, and I try to be friendly as possible and equal to everyone I come in contact with. Like, one of my friends classified me as the “Mom friend” LMAO. I worry about everyone, and can get a little paranoid about losing them?? or that they think that I don’t care about them because I’m a sarcastic person and sometimes people can’t tell when I’m joking or when I’m being serious. Another thing about my personality is that I get so caught it in helping others, and worry about others that sometimes I forget that I need to take care of myself, and sometimes my optimism blinds me from doing that.

Oops, popped off there! I think I did factS instead of A fact.

WHAT I HATE MOST ABOUT MYSELF-

I don’t like asking for help because it makes me feel like a bother to others, so I suffer in silence most of the time unless somebody straight up asks me.

WHAT I LOVE ABOUT MYSELF-

Everything else. Gotta have those good vibes amirite?

IDEA OF THE PERFECT DATE-

Picnic under the stars on a cool night • A walk on a chilly, Autumn afternoon and our hands are intertwined because my hands get cold fast and I love a good handwarmer- and we just enjoy the scenery and crisp air

WEAKNESS-

Being yelled at, and feeling like a disappointed to those I care about.

BIGGEST TURN ON-

•Someone that can surpass or find a way around my way of thinking, 😩👌

RANDOM FACT I KNOW-

There are turtles that breathe through their butts.

LAST TIME I CRIED AND WHY-

Today I was watching the BTS theory videos, and I was watching the one about Spring Day and the Omela’s Theory, like bROo that stuff is deep. When I think about it I start tearing up again so lemme stop.

FAVORITE FOOD-

French fries never get old, there are so many kinds. How did we ever become so blessed??

CHINESE ZODIAC SIGN-

A SHEEP LMAOO, YIXING WHERE YOU AT BOI. BE CAREFUL SHEEP IN THE NEIGBOURHOOD 🐑🐑🐑

FAVOURITE SEASON-

Autumn hands down.

HOW LONG I TAKE TO GET READY-

Depends on the occasion. I can take a minute or two, to thirty.

SOMEWHERE I WANT TO VISIT-

Tokyo, Switzerland, New York, South Korea and/or Australia

OTHER LANGUAGES I SPEAK-

Learning Spanish. I can write it, and understand it, but cannot speak fluently or it’ll take me a year to come up with a sentence.

THE COLOUR OF MY EYES-

Dark brown hhh

MY LOVE LANGUAGE-

Japanese, Spanish, and Korean.I’ve wanted to be multilingual since forever and learn German, Italian, French, Portuguese, Thai, Japanese, and Korean is now on my bucklist.

TALENTS-

Nothing special.

MY ULTIMATE BIAS(ES)-

BamBam| Baekhyun| Chanyeol| Yoongi

CONCERTS I’VE BEEN TO-

Bold of you to think I’ve been to any at all.

LAST BOOK I READ-

First They Killed My Father, I forgot the author.

FAVOURITE ICECREAM FLAVOUR-

Coconut, vanilla, cookies&cream, or peach!!

CATS OR DOGS-

Definitely dogs, but I would own a kitten. I love kittens and dogs, but full grown cats just aren’t for me. But hey, I like drawing cats more than I like drawing dogs,, wildcats that is.

SONG I’M LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW-

I’m not listening to anything right now, but if I was, it’d be Take You Home by Baekhyun or Lay’s Namanana.

DAY OR NIGHT-

Night, but I get super paranoid at night, too sooo,, I’m kind of both tbh, even though Im more of an evening gal rather than a night or day one.

DO I LIKE ROLLERCOASTERS-

Never been on one, so I’d be scared to death, but I’m a pretty brave coward if I’m being honest. I’d be the one person to point at the highest, scariest ride and everyone is like “nO” even though I’m scared.

LUCKY NUMBER-

7 and 21

FAVOURITE QUOTE-

“I live so I love.” -Kim Namjoon

FAVOURITE ALBUM-

• 7 for 7 by GOT7

• Most Beautiful Moment In Life pt.2 by BTS

WHAT I FIND ATTRACTIVE IN OTHER PEOPLE-

• Wit

• Humor, and down-to-earthness

BATTERY PERCENTAGE-

100%, lmao this thing always charged

WHAT IM DOING TOMORROW-

Imma sleep in, read some fics, and take naps.

NATIONALITY-

American.

FAVOURITE SONG-

21 by Dean.

STUFFED ANIMALS I OWN-

A bunch of Beanie Boos that I’ve had for a long time, and 3 bears.

WITCHES OR VAMPIRES-

How about werewolves (;

[dojaeism-archived]

Hi~ hope you've been keeping well! They're all good now, thankfully; it is hard to recover but I think we've got some strong immune systems here haha thank you o(TヘTo) no matter how many times you say that I'm always relieved and grateful you keep up with these essays Lol how's the weather for you; not too cold, is it? Please make sure to stay warm! - ❄️

hellooo i am so sorry this is so late 🥺

aksdhghsj yes, ASTRO are my ult group!!! and I accidentally deleted my roha blog a couple months before ^^* so now I'm just trying to find a decent url and trade it with the one I have for my multi blog so that I can get back into giffing them! I accidentally saved a full name url when I was playing around and made it into a blog; I do like the group (because I stan too many bgs hehe) but I just don't gif for them so I'm on the lookout for tbz/astro ones - ❄️

I just say that I'm sending asks to my 'assigned victim' HAHA but I'm dumb and say that the one who assigns for us might be called an assignor and us the assignee (since they give the assignment to us and we are on the receiving end) but my brain goes blank for the actual assignment whether it be a person or thing... and I think no one would like to be called 'the assignment' Lol - ❄️

it's just so hard to concentrate or keep things organised in your head when another comes in and messes around, no matter if they just move in the kitchen itself or say/do something to/for you! I tend to get irritable if someone comes in while I'm cooking unless I called them myself, but all I can do is silently brood and mentally keep things in check... Ah, my aunt's the same yet we still have stuff like that from time to time sjsjsjssjsj but when she visits us? Nothing to see or eat here - ❄️

I made it but still can never get around to acting upon it (눈_눈) I'm either too busy or just not in the mood 'cause I'm tired. If I do get to it, I'll mass gif and then post it smh Jaehyun has a lot of people coming back to post each week even when they say they won't haha so you're not alone! Also about the vampires; too bad I like werewolves more but doesn't hurt to ask (¬‿¬ ) which concept, Genshin x Chanyeol or Vampire!Chanyeol? - ❄️

Ooh you know Hyunjin too, that's good; hopefully I can make you into a casual stan~ Ah, if you ever do check them (txt) out, I'd recommend their songs: Our Summer, Run Away, Eternally, Wishlist and New Rules! (sorry just picked my faves from their albums haha) I hope you've been keeping safe and healthy too, don't forget to smile at least once everyday thus indulge in things that make you happy ♡ - ❄️

oh omg i love astro’s music! im not really a stan, more of a eunwoo solo stan (what is it with me and solo stanning?!?!??) but their music is wonderful and i love it soo much 🥺 im so glad to meet another aroha hehe but i hope you manage to trade for the url you want! 

assigned victim 😩😩 ngl i have a heart attack every time i send my anons but its fun and im enjoying making my gift so i wont complain haha but yeah! i haven’t cooked in a hot minute tbh bc my family doesn’t really do that kinda thing but i can’t imagine what a mess i’ll be when i go back to uni and i will have forgotten how to do everything 😩 

i know what you mean! i’ve been so busy with school lately that i haven’t giffed and when i was making the inkigayo ones earlier today i was like damn... is this what it’s like.. huh... LMFAO but.... i think i’d still pick genshin x chanyeol simply because it’s a newer concept? vampire chanyeol’s kinda overdone and tbh i dont really see him as one LOL he’s too baby for that imo so (◕‿◕✿)

thank you for the song recs!! i’ll try to listen when i have time hehe i hope you’ve been keeping safe too!!! don’t stress yourself out too much and remember to take breaks in between your tasks ~ lots of love 💗💗

[goldenscript]

ah u and i both are putting off english hw. i have a rough draft due monday and whole lotta other shit for the class but here i am. doing none :-) GIRL I CAN WRITE A WHOLE DAMN ESSAY ON OIKAWA AND WHY HE DESERVED MORE. god i love that man sm he’s fighting for my ass and soul with kook. I cant remember the last time i DIDNT spoil myself with a movie tbh.. And UGH im just curious as to how everyone’s gonna work together since the avengers are kind of in a sticky sit atm with the members and (1/?)

everything BUT THE WORLD AINT READY FOR WAKANDA DUDE. ngl t’challa didn’t have a strong intro for me during civil war, i remember being like ‘ok u got claws whats good’ but now it’s like OK KITTY SHOW EM WHATS UP!! what story app was it bc it sounds interesting! it’s good that you’re challenging yourself, it’s so important for artists and authors to venture out of their safe zones (something that i know i struggle with a lot still)!! tbh with u i never got into twilight, i watched the movie (2/             

and i was like ok wats the hype dude. but then again ive always been a huge critic when it comes to real life supernatural teen romance stuff but when it’s an anime/fics im like >:O GASP WHAT’S NEXT >:O LMAO. for me ideas come and go and i do my best to thread them together but a lot of times im like.. wtf this doesnt make any sense *SCRAPS*. ok ur pretty spot on with that, jin would most DEF be the cafeteria lady that everyone ogles over despite the nasty ass goop he plops down on their (3/?             

plate, but i mean his smile is what makes everything worth it right?? he would def work at the same school with yoongi to which everyone thinks is unfair esp kook but hey boy shut your roach ass up. then there’s tae and jimin who somehow landed the delivery boy jobs together. it would be more crack+slice of life tbh haha. (4??/) -sjsu     

girl i hella put off my english draft due today too jdshfjsfh luckily my teacher doesn’t grade drafts for content and more or less for completion. since this paper is like 1500-1800 words he was like “it’s ok if you only have a few paragraphs” done so bless that ‘cuz i got my points for it. AND OMG GIRL. I FEEL THAT THO. LIKE I FEEL SO STRONGLY FOR THE CHARACTERS AND I LOVE THEM SO MUCH. i want them all to succeed gdi. & mood, i love kook with my whole heart n soul 2.

honestly i always spoil myself with movies but i told myself not to do it for black panther and that’s probably it ahahahah. but yooooooo, i haven’t seen civil war yet LOL. i haven’t even seen winter soldier so i was like “Well i obvi can’t watch civil war then” jkdsfhs soon tho. just so i can keep up with the storyline. & ok i had to search and redownload it but it’s called heroes rise! it’s like a trilogy app bundle and you gotta pay for it (sorry boo but it’s so fun and i rec it!!!!!!!)

it’s something i just gotta do, man. i wanna try diff genres to find my niche so if it’s hard then that just means i gotta work to get it together. ^_^ and i read the book and i was having a huge moment for vampires and werewolves, that’s the only real reason why i liked twilight so much LOL. i can’t write vampires for shit tho ‘cuz i feel like that’s one genre i can’t really…. satisfy myself with? l.j. smith (author of vampire diaries and night world) made such a profound impression on me with that genre so i can’t hold a candle to her kjsdfhksjfh but i think it just makes more sense to like it as an anime since they’re technically animated and usually the plots are a lot better, more cohesive than most real-life depictions.

ahahahahaha, yes thank u! they’d have pockets of issues like sometimes wishing they had powers again. probably namjoon messing around in the library trying to read up on godly stuff, maybe trying to find a loophole on their sentence. or something pops up like “alright bitches,,,,,,,,,,,,,,” and their past starts coming back to haunt them LOL.

[markleetrashh]

Nct as Werewolves

Request: Would it be weird if I now request for something similar but it’s just that it’s a werewolf au this time? _(:3」z)_ Thank you and I really love your work!! 💕

A/N: no it’s not weird at all hehe, like last time, i’ll only give a brief outline of what they’re like so request again if you want a more specific detail of a member and im sorry if this is bad, idk much about werewolves 😭

Nct as Vampires

imagine you’re dating them, yes a werewolf

——

Taeil:

strong sense of hearing

could probably hear sounds from as far as 50metres away

very alert and quick

doesn’t growl much but when he does it’s either because he’s really hungry or angry

soft white fur, with streaks of grey

can be really gentle

generally really quiet but has random hyper moods

and he starts running non stop like??

dating you:

loves it when you pet him

especially when you play with his fur!!

loves snuggling up in your legs for warmth

but when he’s in human form he’s the total opposite??

he’s too shy to even initiate skin contact

but it’s still cute so

Hansol:

really mysterious

and quiet

big eyes!!

really observant and can catch every small little detail

grey/dark fur

can be really aggressive if he needs to be

but most of the time he’s just observing and not doing much

dating you:

becomes a big softie, unlike his usual self

smiles a lot too!!

once changed into his wolf form and ran through the whole woods just to find a pretty flower so that he could give it to you

doesn’t stop hugging you be it in wolf or human form

gets teased by the wolf! johnny because of this because he’s never this affectionate with the rest of the pack

Johnny:

really sneaky

and always joking

always acts like he’s very weak when in fact he’s the strongest in the pack

probably randomly goes up to another wolf and starts running while screaming “IT’S A RACE, LAST TO REACH WILL GET A PUNISHMENT”

and most of the time it’s wolf! ten

despite being a dork he’s still really observant, and is really serious when he needs to be

dark grey fur with a few streaks of black

really really active

dating you:

either teases you a lot, or is a total sweetheart

no in betweens honestly

but is always there to protect you

kinda overprotective and shows it

because he’d growl really loudly

and it’s scary because he hardly gets angry

but loves to chase you in his wolf form to freak you out and see you scream

but when he’s in human form he holds you in his arms a lot!!

which means lots and lots of hugs

Taeyong:

leader of the pack, really dependable and responsible

really serious at first

but after spending more them with the rest, he slowly opened up and got cheeky (like them)

actually smiles a lot

but when it comes to dealing with enemies or threats he can get really scary,, with those glares

light grey and white fur

takes care of the other wolfs a lot

dating you:

becomes a big softie too

especially cuddling up to you

and brushing his fur against your face/legs

and when he’s in human form he’s an actual sweetheart

doesn’t and won’t let anyone hurt you

not even a single bit

really really protective

Yuta:

sneakiest and most cunning one?

probably the one who sets up traps to catch enemies/threats

most aggressive one too?

is always joking around like wolf! johnny

except for when he’s with wolf! winwin

pastel grey fur

“don’t lie to yourselves, im the best in this pack”

dating you:

really bad pick up lines

“babe, it’s a full moon today, would you like to go FUR a walk together?”

“oh god why am i dating you”

“too late, you’re already mine”

probably bites you randomly (but lightly) because he wanted to ‘mark that you were his’

which you’re too tired to even scold him anymore because you’re so used to it

and he always gives that proud smile

“woah y/n what’s with that bite mark on your arm-” -a very clueless mark

but can also be very sweet

loves skinship a lot, both in human and wolf form

sticks to you no matter what

Kun:

quiet and observant too

doesn’t say much

but smiles a lot??

more like an angel tbh

but can be aggressive if asked to be

very light shade of grey with streaks of black

fast to react

runs quickly too

dating you:

still the sweetheart he is

occasionally searches through the woods to find flowers or plants to give you

lots of kisses in human form,

and lots of snuggling in wolf form,

especially when you hold him in your arms, his head on your shoulders

he loves it the most

always have a soft spot for you

Doyoung:

really sensitive

probably has a good eyesight too

or a good sense of hearing

quick to move and attack

bickers with wolf! taeyong & wolf! yuta the most

takes care of the younger ones

can actually run really fast but sometimes he’s too lazy to do so

really white fur and small sharp eyes

dating you:

doesn’t show it much but lowkey loves affection

loves it when you play with his fur

or when you hug him

but in human form he becomes a blushing mess

is always protecting you

his main priority is protecting you honestly

Ten:

really playful

and sometimes clueless too

which is why he always asks questions to the rest

and follows whatever they do

is really active

fast and quick

happy little bun

mixed of dark and grey fur

actually small in wolf form too

dating you

always teasing you

and makes you smile

really clingy and lots of skinship!!

“babe if we had children would they be werewolves too or would they be humans?”

gives you A LOT of kisses, everywhere

be it in human or wolf form,

he always leaves a mark on you

Jaehyun:

actually really smart and is always the one looking out for the enemies/threats

runs really really quickly

which is why he always races with johnny

probably the calmest amongst the pack

but when he’s aggressive it’s s c a r y

but most of the time he’s like a soft bun smiling so

except when he’s smirking it’s another story

really soft white and grey fur

in charge of taking care of the younger ones too

dating you:

really protective

is willing to take risks for you

in human form he always has his hands on you, and he’d give you that™ look

in wolf form, he loves growling to tease you but ends up jumping onto your legs for you to cuddle

which always scares you because he’s kinda huge in wolf form?

but still an absolute sweetheart who calls you so many sweet names

and doesnt forget to give you kisses everyday

WinWin:

another clueless one, but it’s so adorable??

is soft and quiet most of the time

but when things get serious he can get a bit aggressive and he gives that one glare that scares everyone

really observant and sensitive to his surroundings

listens to instructions really well

and he does he job well

but most of the time he’s actually really soft so!!

really light grey & soft, fluffy fur

dating you:

really loves skinship and affection

especially in wolf form

he loves it when you stroke his back

or when you pat his head

sweetest person ever??

does anything you call him to

a really big softie for you

Dreamies are still not fully developed werewolves yet so technically they’re half human still? (i dont think it matters but)

Mark:

another clueless one

but somehow still manages to become the leader of the younger pack??

which they always protest about ^

but listens to instructions really well and does a great job in completing tasks!!

an actual softie and sweetheart so he cant bring himself to hurt others

which is why he’s never aggressive

extremely soft snow white fur, a few streaks of dark grey on his back

dating you:

wants to be there for you whenever he can

loves cuddling with you, a lot

sticks close to you when he’s in wolf form

but in human form he’s an actual shy bean??

probably asks wolf! taeyong for advice

“what do i get her oh my god”

takes really good care of you

Renjun:

an angel?

really sweet and cant bring himself to hurt anyone else too

usually just helps the others if they need help

never really initiates

tries to be fierce and aggressive but is actually too nice to be

he cant even bring himself to hurt a bunny???

“wait!!! don’t cross yet, let this bunny hop past first”

is there to take care of wolf! chenle honestly

ash grey fur

dating you:

still the sweetheart he is

collects every flower he finds and gives it to you

and everyday it’s a different one

loves giving you small little pecks on the forehead

an actual sunshine honestly

Jeno:

is actually really agile and quick

also pays good attention to his surroundings

and wants to help the older wolves in the pack but doyoung wouldn’t allow in case he got hurt

so he spends his time playing with renjun & jaemin instead

is really polite and sweet?

slightly white fur, a few streaks of black

has really small but cute eyes?

eyesmile too!!!

dating you:

loves bringing you out to walks in the woods and forest

where he can freely be in wolf form

and your heart would flutter when you see him jumping and running around excitedly playing with the leaves

also loves hugging you in his arms a lot,,

snuggles close to you to keep himself warm

Haechan:

always joking around

“being a werewolf is tiring, why can’t i just be a normal human being”

when in fact, he loves being a werewolf THE MOST

always really actice and causing trouble

and gets a hearing from either taeyong or doyoung

but he’s too cute to stay mad at so they forgive him in the end

but he’s quick to think and can come up with many ideas

really faint grey fur with white streaks on his back

dating you:

probably chases you around for fun, or lets you chase after him

lots of laughter

loves it when you tickle him or pat his back/head

and he always gets revenge when he’s in human form, attacking you with tickles and big tight hugs

“damn you must be blessed to be dating someone unique like me”

Jaemin:

another dork here

won’t stop laughing or smiling

or thinking of pranks to pull on mark

actually really laidback and doesn’t do much

but when he needs to he gets things done quickly and well

always sticks with jeno

black fur with streaks of grey

dating you

really clingy

must be by your side 24/7 if not he’d start pouting or growling

like yuta, also says really bad pick up lines

“i usually do the hunting, but today you captured my heart”

“god jaemin you dont even do the hunting”

“shut up and go along with it”

Chenle:

as expected, the loudest of them all

can probably be heard laughing or howling from far away

but despite countless reminders from the older ones, he doesn’t listen

next second later he’s laughing again

loves disturbing/annoying the rest

but is actually really smart and can help a lot

only that he just wants to play

mixture of white and grey fur

dating you:

endless chattering and talking

even when he’s in wolf form he makes a lot of noises

and is super active

wants to pick flowers and stones for you to keep/collect

loves lying on your lap, your hand playing with his fur

an actual ball of happiness too who makes your day brighter

Jisung:

likes to act like he’s very matured but in fact, gets scared over the slightest things

which chenle always teases him about

is quiet but tries his best to help out

good runner and can catch onto/learn new things easily

but the older ones are too afraid he might get hurt to let him do anything

really soft grey fur

youngest but bigger than most?

dating you:

awkward shy bean

but always makes you laugh and smile with his silliness

loves resting his head on you

“i still can’t believe you’re dating me”

probably drags chenle out to help get things for you

sometimes really affectionate, even in human form

his favourite thing to do is giving you a big hug

[woozoinks]

I was tagged by @zimooy ! this has take me 23 days to get to. im sorry. Would you rather explore the many planets in the universe or explore the wondrous depths of our oceans? That's a toughy tbh. both would be p cool. but I would probably choose the universe. like that would be so cool???? 10/10 a gt im sure Can you describe your favorite color without saying what it is and its shades? Early November Evening In The Heart Of Seattle Your bias texts you, mistaking your number for one of their friends. Do you talk to them and keep up an act or do you admit the mistake? How do you do it? What happens after? I would probably admit from the get go that he has the wrong number but bc coups is a nice guy and im a nice lady, we'd probably continue talking anyways Describe your favorite feature of one of your best friends without saying what it is. Why? can i say everything?? describe a feature of my best friend without saying what it is?? my goodness what is this?? hagge's class??? okay um. it's like??? yknow when you eat some cookies and you wash it down w milk?? yeah it's like that. or like when you come inside after a really hot day and for a solid 15 minutes you are super sweaty but then by then, the A/C has cooled you down and you feel amazing??? it's like that. or when you you are giving someone a hug and they squeeze you in a loving way???? it's like that. or like when you hear the rain outside and you can't really see it but you kNOW it's raining and everything else is just quiet??? yeah it's like that. or when you are super tired to the point where you can't keep your eyes open so you close your book and turn off your light and finally rest your head on the pillow to sleep??? yeah, it's like that. What super power would you have and how would you use it? Hero or villain? mind reading or shape shifter. I can't decide between the two. probably mind reading tbh??? like that would be so cool. nobody can lie to me bc ik what they're thinking. I always know what's going through a persons mind. it would be so cool and personally v useful. but i don't think I'd be a hero or a villan really?? I'd just be doin it for myself yknow. as for shape shifter, that can just come in handy all the time. running late for work??? shape shift into a frickin cheetah and whabam im there. bih. i can even shape shift into the flash if i wanna. you can't stop me. What are three things included in your ideal type? Why? Would you accept someone without these features? they gotta be like friends man. loyal af. im not here for some hot n cold, two faced shiz. nuh uh. nope. i like someone who actually sHows that they care. someone who genuinely wants to be my pal. someone who is Real. no fakes here. having someone who is funny is kinda nice. but like fr i think everything is funny so that shouldn't be hard. I prefer someone who isn't rude or does a bunch of hardcore drugs n drinks n tries to get me to do it w them bc im not about that. I definitely need someone who i can have personal, deep conversations with. that's a must. i like someone who likes hugs but that isn't like a nEED. i could keep going but those are some of the main stuff. and I'll accept just about everyone. but if you don't meet most of these things, I probably just won't be close to you. Vampires, werewolves, or witches? If you could become one, which would you choose and why? a witch. i mean what's the good in being a vampire??? u gotta drink blood and u cant go out in the sun n stuff. lame. and werewolves??? you literally turn into a wolf whenever there's a full moon. I literally don't see why anyone would want that. so definitely a witch. like casting spells n making potions n stuff??? how cool would that be??? i wAnt. if you released a mini album with 4 songs, what would the song titles be? 1- cherry soda 2- queen 3- teacups & oil 4- rose petal gardens Describe what you feel right now by using a metaphor without including the word to describe how you are feeling. an old man is sitting inside a row boat in the middle of calm waters but below the surface, screams are erupting from the gills of scaled creatures Your bias from one group confesses to you in front of your bias from another group. They quickly confess their love. Who do you choose? they cannot be your ult. bias. *calls mo* listen chani and jinjin,,,, I love you both,,,wow um,,,, * aggressively whispers into the phone speaker* mo i need your help rIGht now Your bias promises to go on a date with you on the condition that you plan it. Plan the entire night (where you go, why, what you eat, what you wear, the other places you go, what you talk about, etc.) alright. here goes nothin. they didn't say wHat bias it had to be so um,,,im doin jae bc nobody can stop me. let me just run you through the date. start to finish. I'll start with outfits bc in this friendship with jae, style is Key. jae would be wearing his hp wire frames and wearing an oversized maroon sweater bc gotta have the Sweater Paws. and let's just say for this time, he had the hair he had in the when you love someone mv bc that's a good. okay honestly. that entire swingset look? the outfit, hair, everything. tHAT is what he's wearing. okay. me?? um. probably wearing some cute black skinny jeans and some classic red converse. and probably an oversized, light grey sweater. we just havin those cute sweater paw vibes yknow bc we like that. imma make this a day long date bc i Can. so after we do our things yknow, we meet up at a cute coffee shop (btw we are in seattle) at like 9am bc we are not wasting the day sleeping. we have a casual, flowy, comfortable morning conversation over warm coffee and soft muffins. then at like 10am, we leave the coffee shop and walk down to a library and grab some poetry books and sit on the comfy library couches and read each other some poems to set the mood for the day. at 11am, we walk to through the streets of seattle, having wonderful conversation, even stopping by the bubble gum wall and leaving our mark there before continuing, maybe once in a while stopping to admire the graffiti or art posters along the way. stopping off at a park or a bench to rest. just having no particular destination and simply enjoying the city as it lightly rains. around 1pm, we stop by a cute, old restaurant that has been around for decades and order the oldest item on the menu. we talk, smile at the old man that started the restaurant and shake his hand before leaving at almost 2pm. then we go to pike place market. we watch them throw the fish, we go into every single shop there is & look around. we don't buy anything but we take a few pictures together with his polaroid camera throughout the day. we spend the rest of the afternoon there bc there is so much to do and so much to look at. we buy some fresh berries and snack on them bc seattle berries are truly devine. we even go to the original starbucks and buy a coffee. we take a polaroid picture of course which i will later tape to the wall next to my bed next to all the other polaroids we've taken throughout our friendship. after spending the afternoon at pike place market, we go to dinner at a cute restaurant across the street that jae swears has the best breadsticks. and he's not wrong. we spend the entirety of the 6pm hour and part of the 7pm hour at this restaurant, talking about some of what we've done today as well as other pointless conversations. as 7:30 creeps up, we step out of the restaurant. the sun has already gone down and all the street lamps and city lights are ablaze. we walk down to the space needle, deciding that it's a good way to end the day. so we pay the ever growing price to go to the top (where most people have already begun to leave). we step out onto the outside of the very top and peer out to look at the city. we walk around it once slowly, taking in every inch of nighttime seattle. we point out what we find astonishing while doing so. once we make a full revolution, we walk to the side that overlooks our favorite view (the side that shows the giant ferris wheel and the ocean) and lean against the railing, just staring out. then we start getting into deep conversations about the universe and other personal topics that only the two of us will ever know. we stay there for a while, eventually just sitting on the floor bc our feet and legs have grown tired. i sit against the wall as he lays on his back, his head resting comfortably on my lap. I play with his hair as we continue you our quiet conversation. we stay like this until everyone else has left and even some of the employees have left. we don't leave until the last employee left says that we have to leave bc they are closing. so we get up and walk hand in hand back inside the elevator and back down to the bottom floor. we step outside and agree that it looks less twinkly on the floor then it did at the top of the space needle. we check the time, seeing that it's past 11pm. so jae, being the good friend he is, walks me to my apartment (although he doesn't live in the same complex, it's only a 10 minute walk away from where he lives). as we walk, we have comfortable conversation about the nighttime. once we reach my building, he walks me up the three flights of stairs and 12 feet down the hallway to my door. I thank him for the day and we give each other a hug. we stay in that position, hugging, for nearly five minutes, not saying a word. the only sound i can hear is his heartbeat. once he pulls away, saying that he will see me soon and he promises to text me when he makes it home safely, we bid our farewells until next time and I go into my apartment, waving one last goodnight wave before closing the door, leaning against it as i listen to his footsteps fade down the hallway. ~the end~ okay honestly that was rEALLY fun and I had a gt doing that. thank you mo for tagging me. honestly. I would tag someone else to do it but LITERALLY the only two people ik on here are mo and ri and they both already did it so oop. im not gonna tag n e one bc idk n e one. sorry it took so long for me to fInally do this. thank you for reading!!

[ghostantine]

THANK YOU SO MUCH @theladyigraine​ for tagging me!!! ♥

Gonna do without tagging anyone this time :’) But also if anyone wants to do feel free to join!! ♥

coke or pepsi?  I dont care and tbh I’d pick the cheapest cola resembling drink the shop’s got to offer lmao.

disney or dreamworks? omg i can never remember who does what so?? i dont know :P

coffee or tea? Both, kinda. I prefer coffee most of the time and I drink it daily but i also love teas (except black...) and herbal infusions ^^

books or movies? right now movies cos I cant seem to find the time or mood to actually focus on reading...

windows or mac?  I have an entire apple garden shoved up my ass (mac)

dc or marvel? DC all the way

xbox or playstation? i dont play... like at all but I always have a soft spot for playstation, especially playstation 2 which we got when I was young (well my brother still has it)

night owl or early riser? night owl for damn sure

cards or chess? card

chocolate or vanilla? depends on the context?

vans or converse? converse (wish i could afford real ones instead of knock offs from primark’s kids’ section :P )

star wars or star trek? star wars

one episode per week or marathoning? I love following a series unfold in matter of weeks, it’s such and experience

gandalf or obi-wan? I dont have huge mentor/idolizing view of either but I’m gonna say obi-wan cos gandalf’s actually such a dick....

heroes or villains? villains mostly, or more clearly anti/grey heros (john constantine, jessica jones...) I love it when the lines get blurred

john williams or hans zimmer? again Im pretty sure I cant tell or remember who is behind what music but I remember zimmer’s amazing.

disneyland/disney world or six flags? NEVER BEEN TO DISNEY AND DONT REALLY CARE TO and I’ve actually been to six flags (I THINK??) so six flags it is. (tbh i dont care as long as they got cool crazy coaster etc that make me pray for sweet release of death) 

forest or sea? ok now I cant pick. but... judging by my inspo blog... i’ll say sea.

flying or reading minds? flying omfg I dont want to know what people think. also flying’s dope

twin peaks or northern exposure? i love twin peaks and havent seen the other so

harry potter or lord of the rings?  lotr but let’s go back like 12 years and im gonna say HP :’D

cake or pie? pie, preferably quiche.

you are banished to a desert island, which benedict cumberbatch character would you choose to take with you? (why) I want to say turing cos i want to tell him he’s alright and give him a hug but it’s about turing and not BC. So maybe just someone who can get me the hell out of there?? can dr s. person like teleport or some shit? just get me out.

train or cruise ship? train for travelling, cruise ship for party so??? I need a context? but im gonna say ship cos im not crazy about trains...

brian cox or neil degrasse-tyson? ummmmm???? 

wizard of oz or alice in wonderland? im starting to feel like an uncultured fuck since i havent really properly seen either of them omfg

fanfiction or fanart? fanart! or as i call it: ART. I draw it, I love it, I’m always happy to see it! and I have sort of a complex relationship with fics... i like them but i also... nitpick them a lot in my head and am very careful when picking ones to read, the very odd times I read them. I just started to read some after a long time and really enjoying them tho ^^ (what a ramble)

the hunger games - books or movies? uMMMM i’ve just seen the first movie...

be able to see the future or travel into the past? travel into the past, future looks dark and depressive as fuck and im a history nerd

han solo or luke skywalker? han solo 

lilacs or sunflowers? both so pretty but maybe sunflowers

spring or autumn? spring has so much hope and my birthday but also snow melting and smelling like dog poop, aesthetically i like autumn’s colours and concept of everything dying....

campfire or fireplace? fireplace

french fries or onion rings? french fries (with lot of mayo and/or salsa)

truth or dare? dare, im scared of truths

winter or summer? summer, i’m not fuckign with the cold dark abyss of frozen hell that is the finnish winter nor the central european wet freezing horizontal rain shitshow

vampires or werewolves? vampires, especially like cass in preacher :’) but also in general

red or blue? red, still... tho with hair it’s blue and shades of it

eyes or lips? eyes

burgers or sandwiches? sandwiches

friends-to-lovers or enemies-to-lovers trope? DONT ASK ME THIS I CANT PICK!! tbh i used to hate enemies to lovers but now I love it so much?? honestly I cant pick

pizza or pasta? pasta all the way

ancient rome or ancient greece? ancient egypt (k i get the question but... bleh, rome?)

dubbed or with subtitles? subtitles!! dub is H E L L ! ! ! (lmao @ france: W H Y???) but I prefer to have subs on everything, i’ve grown up with subs (tbh i would download finnish subs on finnish shows just so i dont have to focus on listening that much lmao but it’s good if you miss something you can always check from the text....) 

historical au or modern au? modern au mostly...

 sunrise or sunset? sunset. Maybe I’d enjoy sunrise more if i was ever awake during that... it’s beautiful tho when you’ve been awake all night

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20-39 for fanfic asks?

20. Do you like PWPs?

hell yeah! not everything has to be a full story. they are super great for quick reads and even as writing exercises

21. How and when did you get introduced to smut fic? Any horror stories?

it was so long ago i dont remember. well before i was 18, i can tell you that much. like who knows. i coulda been like 13? and i dont remember how i got into it all. the only horror-esque smut story i have is the entire thing that went down around the glee/dalton fic Caramel. when i hear the word i cant function. just NOOOOOOOOOO

22. Biggest turn-ons in fic?

figurative language galore. using all the senses. and realism

23. Biggest turn-offs in fic?

poor writing. ooc. bad layout like not spacing paragraphs or confusing stuff. blatant author biases like discriminatory things. but for smut the inability to properly describe whats occurring and overusing/under using terms. also claiming and ownership language being treated like its the default like ew no talk about that kinda shit beforehand if youre into it. i hate when writers misrepresent the kink community too

24. Do you have any dirty kinks that you’re ashamed of?

nope. im not ashamed of myself sexually 

25. Any kinks that you’d love to try in real life?

ive tried all the ones ive read about or written and wanted to explore

26. Any kinks that you don’t want to try in real life (but are still hot in a fanfic)?

im not gunna say i love well written a/b/o dynamics that dont rely on sexist bull and masc v femme but 👀👀👀👀👀👀

27. Rough sex or gentle sex?

why choose? there are different moods and needs. change things up. have soft intimate and hard fast and dirty like you dont have to only do things one way. play around with things. having a routine or this is how its always gunna be is boring af. give me rough and gentle

28. How do you feel about masturbation in fic?

there isnt enough tbh. ive only seen it mentioned a handful of times where its just some self lovin time instead of an oh im pining and horny i guess iiiii have to deal with this paired with a fantasy. give me characters enjoy their bodies for them! i have now realized i need to write this now. A+

29. How do you feel about non-con and dub-con?

to each their own. a person doesn’t have to write or read what they dont want to and all that. 

30. Favorite porn fic?

...is it bad that i want to put one of my own?

Exploration [Part 8 of the Daddy Calling Series] by SalazarTipton

31. Do you read AUs?

i do, but not that often. there are certain ones that i will always read tho like hockey aus and potc 

32. Favorite AU tropes?

characters joking about something that happens in canon like it a ridiculous idea like werewolves existing or some shit. like allusions to the original content/world/universe. also soulmates

33. Least favorite AU tropes?

genderswap. it feels so gross to me cuz like gender? and being trans? and just no thank you

34. Do you like UAs (universe-alterations, when the main universe and characters are the same but one plot point/decision/outcome is altered)?

i get why people call it UA but i always thought thats what canon divergence was for? but lets be honest, fixers are needed in like every fandom and who doesnt love the but what if they did this insteaD?? i write canon divergence all the time

35. Do you like high school and college AUs?

not high school aus. high school is so shitty why would you wanna? i just dont get it ??? ive read some college ones that ive dug. 

36. Do you like crossovers? If so, favorite crossover?

the only crossover ive ever really enjoyed and sought out [to the point where i started writing it] is criminal minds/x-men specifically reid/remy 

37. How do you feel about parent!fics/lovechildren? How about mpreg?

i dont like children irl and i dont want to read about them when i can avoid it. 

38. How do you feel about genderbending? De-aging? Animalizing?

fuck genderbending. im trans and that shit makes me feel awful. i dont read it. de-aging depends on the context. i havent ever experienced animalizing unless you count supernatural creatures with animal sides?

39. Favorite AU fic?

fuck dude how am i supposed to choooooooose??? there are so many i cant even--here just have one of my soulmate ones so i don’t have to pick

A Day at Samwell by SalazarTipton

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These are actually solid questions

1. First thing you wash in the shower? my hair

2. Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker? i can’t stand coffee. and alcohol might as well be my blood at this point

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? haha noooo. he was nice but i felt literally nothing. was like kissing a brick wall or something. tbh i never feel much when i kiss boys

4. Do you plan outfits? YES. i’m a drama queen and a diva and flamboyant and i need to look good always. i have my graduation in 2 days and i still haven’t planned what to wear and it’s bothering me

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now? tbh pretty numb. like not happy and not sad. just. .... chillin

6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red? my track pants

7. What would you do if you opened your door and saw a dead body? well with the mood im in now, i probably wouldn’t react. but the logical side of my brain would kick in and i’d phone it in to the police. 

8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having? it’s still that one about the creepy old dude touching me in the car. 

9. Three of your current feelings? -introspective -apathetic

-wistful

10. What are you craving right now? tbh i would very much love to hug my stuffed pink harold. but he’s downstairs and i just don’t have the energy to walk haha

11. Turn ons? not rly in the mood to answer these

12. Turn offs?

13. What comes to mind when I say cabbage? this vine

14. When was the last time you cried? Why? idk like over a month ago. i had to work a thursday night shift which is always super stressful. and that day my sister just started beating the shit out of me so the anxiety was like double

15. If you could be a superhero, who would you want to be? ironman. any day. or spiderman because it’d be fun to just swing around the city listening to music peacefully

16. Did the one person who hurt you most in your life apologize? nope. she doesn’t even know that i know about half the shit she did. never ever apologised about the stuff she knows i know about. no acknowledgement. no apology. just pretends it never happened

17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it? lick it 

18. Favorite movie ever? idk i like frozen and pride and prejudice and the hunger games

19. Do you like yourself? i like myself, but i can’t seem to justify why. i don’t really have an identity. i don’t know what i’m like. and so it’s hard to like myself when i don’t know what i like about my self, or why i do. but i enjoy being myself.

20. Have you ever met a celebrity? i met stan walker once? he’s a minor celebrity in australlia

21. Could you handle being in the military? part of me would thrive in the structure and forced exercise and socialisation. another part of me would completely crumble because like i have anxiety

22. What are you listening to right now? i don’t give a ... - missio

23. How many countries have you visited? india, america, canada, australia. so 4 i guess

24. Are your parents strict? you betcha

25. Would you go sky diving? sure yeah. i’m afraid of heights so the adrenaline would be wild

26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush? nah. i dont give a shit about him. maybe i’d go if he paid for the food.

27. Whats on your mind right now? literally nothing. mostly thinking about endgame. i’m also thinking about taking my mum’s anti anxiety meds since she doesn’t use them and i have anxiety. but i don’t want to take them without professional advice. but also, i am a professional advice. and like what could happen? i’d get mentally ill?

28. Is there anything you want to say to someone? nah i dont really feel like talking atm. i guess i’d ask if they wanted to go for a smoke. i would love a cig rn

29. Have you ever been in a castle? no but i would love to!!

30. Do you rent movies often? not really, i just watch stan/netflix

31. Whats your zodiac sign? cancer sun, leo moon, libra rising

32. When was the last time you had sex? i haven’t had sex

33. Name five facts about yourself. i honestly don’t think i know enough about myself to do this but let’s give it a go -i have short hair -i love music more than literally anything -i turn 21 this year and i have no idea what to do for it -i’m thinking of getting a motorbike soon -i’ve never broken a bone

34. Ever had a near death experience? If so, what happened? nope

35. Do you believe in karma or predestiny? i used to. and i absolutely would love to believe in all that stuff. but not to sound angsty or whatever, i’ve had so many shitty things happen to me that it’s hard for me to believe that it’s all part of some big plan or that there is any justice in the world. i think people just do shit and that’s it

36. Brown or white eggs? ive never had white eggs so..... brown?

37. Do you own something from Hot Topic? nah we dont have it in australia

38. Ever been on a train? yeah man i love trains

39. Ever been in love? not mutually, no

40. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you do it? it’s a million bucks. absolutely. one night of terror to never have to worry about anything ever again. i’m a witch too so as much as i’d be scared, it’d be fine.

41. If you could trade places with any person living or dead, who would you trade places with? someone rich and famous. maybe harry styles or freddie mercury. i’m sure they didn’t have it easy, but it’s certainly easier than things have/ever will be for me you know?

42. If you could shorten your life expectancy by 10 years to become more attractive, would you do it? absolutely

43. Whom do you admire and why? i tend not to admire irl people. but i do admire tony stark a lot (GOD this is so lame ksajrsjkfs). i admire his charisma, his confidence, his humour, his good looks, his intelligence, his eyes. he embodies everything i feel like i can never be. but everything i’ll always want to be.  i admire freddie mercury. for his work drive and ethic. for his confidence and stage presence, his ability and talent in singing, songwriting, musical instruments. his flamboyancy, his sense of humour. again, these are all qualities i would love to have.

44. What was your favorite bedtime story as a child? oh i never really got read bedtime stories

45. You’re walking down the street, you come across a burning building. A woman says her baby is trapped inside, what would you do? internally, i’d be like “that sucks for you” and walk away. but i can’t be a dick, so i’d assess the extent of the fire and see if there was a way to save the baby. i’d try if so, if not idk what i’d do. panic and call 000?

46. If you could choose the future profession of your son or daughter, would you? nah man. gotta let kids live their lives 

47. What was your best experience on drugs or alcohol? alcohol: the night i just moved out of home 2 weeks ago. my roommate invited a friend over, and we all had fun and played never have i ever and i flirted with this really cute guy and had so much fun. i hadn’t really had any experiences like that before because i was - anyway. it was nice to feel like a normal 19 year old just for a second weed: either the time i was drunk and high at our housewarming party and went to the park and felt like i was on a fucking rollercoaster, or the time i got super cooked after work and had a shower which felt amazing and then went back to my room and listened to beautiful people beautiful problems. i didn’t hallucinate per se, but i closed my eyes and could like see the lyrics “blue is the colour of the planet from the view above”. it was like i was in outer space and could see the earth and i was so relaxed and it was so magical mdma: my halloween party! there were so many people and no one knew i was high and we had a mad dance party and i met some of our neighbours and i just had so much fun talking to everyone and Living. 

48. What was your worst experience on drugs or alcohol? alcohol: being around boring people when drunk is boring. especially because when i’m drinking i really want to have a good and fun time.  weed: ahh i have anxiety so i used to get a few panic attacks when i was smoking mdma: eugh it was my friends 21st at the time and we took mdma and i thought it wasnt kicking in because all we did was sit in bed and talk. literally so boring. im so mad that i wasted my first time like that

50. As your walking down the street you find a suitcase full of money sitting next to a parked car, would you take it? nah, i’d probably hand it in to the police. actually, i dont trust the police so i’d probably google what to do with it. but probably police because i cant have stolen money or give it to someone else. 

51. If you found that a close friend has AIDS, would you still hang out with them? not hanging out with someone because of that has literally never even crossed my mind

52. In front of you are 10 pistols, 5 of which are loaded. If you survive you’d receive 100 million dollars. Would you be willing to place 1 to your head and pull the trigger? nah. i’m actually going places now days

53. How old were you when you lost your virginity? tba

54. Do you believe in ghosts, werewolves or vampires? nope

55. If you could live forever, would you want to? yeah probably. i’d like to give it a trial run though. i’m very anxious, so being lonely and immortal might make it worse. but at the same time, being immortal might make it easier to not give a shit and to be less anxious

56. Which fictional movie character most resembles who you are? honestly i feel like jane villanueva or peter parker

57. If you could go back in time, which time period would you visit? i would love to be a victorian bitch with a bomb ass dress and waist

58. If they were to televise a live execution, would you watch it? probably not. unless it was someone i really hated, i wouldnt give a shit

59. If you could be the president of the USA, would you be willing to do it? i mean i wouldn’t be the best person for the job, but i also wouldn’t be the worst. if i could have time to properly study politics then yeah i’d consider. 

60. If you could choose the sex of your unborn child, would you want to? i’d probably want a girl but i dont really see any reason to not have a boy

61. Would you rather live longer or be wealthy? be wealthyyyyyy

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LIT Retreat

Oh my, this is gonna be long but it was so fun!!

Friday (4/28)

so i didn’t go to coffee or micro and just came for work due to me needing as much sleep as i can get before the retreat, and i had to hand out some things to D and J and didn’t want to hold onto them for long. Went to work, J got the duffle, D bought and brought me some chick-fil-a :) E swung by and so did D but lets not get into that.... S passed by and asked if i’m excited about the retreat, moved to back booth, E came by and so did J, twas fun

got my stuff and had 30 min to chill, i forgot to charge my phone all the way tho :( started walking to car, i was riding w C!!! and J and J. got there first, we had small talk, J showed up, and talked to him for awhile, we were left in the car alone, wasn’t too awk, C came back and finally J came. 

we went to walmart, right when we got out of the car a woman approached C, and asked if we can buy her some diapers for her baby, C said sure and asked her to come w us, C was asking her about her life, and we walked around trying to find her some diapers and wipes, C went quickly to get something, so J just paid for S’s stuff, she wanted some food for her family so J and J went to Jack in the Box while J told me to find C and stay with him to get his things, he was like right there but they already left, so i went with him to find water bottles, J needed some as well, anyways, there was only a small section and then i was like wait theres more over there, we looked for quite a while until he was like yeah im gonna go back to the cheap ones lolol we also had to pick one for J and he was like pick one between red and neon yellow so i said red obv, we paid and then we saw some cardboard cutouts of a lady with a big dancing skirt and man with a sombrero and guitar, so C was like lets take a pic with those jokingly and i was like that is a good way to start off the retreat, and he was like yeahhh so we took pics, i was w the man and had to tiptoe and he took one w the lady staring off in the distance lol we went to go find J and J and lowkey was worried so i asked C if they were ok and he was like yeah yeah, went there and C got his snacks, apples and cookie butter and i was like omg i love cookie butter and he was like theyre amazing but nobody rlly knows about it, so when we were at the table he gave me a slice of apple and cookie butter on it and i ate it, it was v good, he gave some to J  too, and even handed me the snacks for me to get some more, but i was like nah im good, J was in the middle of talking to S about the gospel and we were just listening in and then she prayed for us and we all gave S hugs then went on our way

we just talked, getting to know each other, but J fell asleep and so it was quiet for most of the cafr ride, we arrived!

they were just sitting around the campfire (no fire yet) with their chairs, saw D and G and c so talked to them, grabbed my chair to sit w them, C asked for some of my hand sanitizer and i was like it smells rlly girly and he was like it has sparkles too haha you caught me irene lololol anyways, we just chilled, mostly talking about their piercings, finally introduced myself to J and she was hugged me, the campfire got started, and we started sterilizing the hangers on which we had to eat the hotdogs from, i stuck a hotdog in mine but forgot to wipe it off first so it was black on some parts, had a hard time cooking it lol, kinda got the tip burnt but that was it, just chilled, had a worship sesh led by A and W, then C talked for a lil bit, then we played werewolf! it was soooo fun! the first round i was the little girl so i knew who the werewolves are, and when it was time to accuse, i accused C lololol i forgot my first reason but the second was that all the dead ppl was pointing to him, so then he came to defend himself and was like if i was a werewolf i would kill the ppl next to me and i shouted yeah like toby! (who was right next to him) and everyone was like omgggg hahahhah so he got ousted, then i accused A bc he tried to nominate someone to divert attention from J, so he was out, then J was a team effort and so was M and T by me, M and W it was so great!! we won and W was like i knew yall knew what was going on and we were all just so happy omg it was just so great

 then the next round i was part of the couple which means if one dies the other dies w them, and lol so A called the couple out to know who they are and it was jsut me so everyone was like are they single lolol and C even volunteered to be the other one but it was handed to C, then somebody killed C so we both died p early but it was great to actually know everything that was going on, C was a werewolf (!!) 

that ended and then T and D and I were just talking, mostly them two, C cmame by to say gnight bc he was going to sleep, he said good game to me, then i just went over to the game going on, was so confused, and later C announced to clean up, D and I went to the bathroom, then to the tent, we changed and cleaned up, also no running water, so no washing hands or place to brush our teeth, we did it outside the tent and spat in the grass, was v uncomfortable sleeping that night, first bc i was just unsettled by the fact that i didn’t rlly feel like i belonged there w others, and i kept praying to God but i dont think i ever finished that prayer, it was cold and hot alternatingly, was afraid to hit M, kept rolling around, no pillow, and the wind was super loud, 

Saturday

woke up at 8 for breakfast, D woke me up, we got cleaned up, then i ate a banana, and one poptart from J, C was right across from me, D and I went to the bathroom, then just got ready for the day, we had down time, so I was talking to J and she was just trying to get to know me esp bc i said i was from the philippines, i got hit by a frisbee tho, J tried to warn me, but it was too late and it hit me in my ear and my cheek ish, dude it hurt bci t was hard, but it went away, i started tearing up and J was gonna get me a bag of ice, L was the one who threw it -.-, C came to joined our little group but turned around to watch the frisbee game so that he can protect us from getting hit lol, then we had worship led by K, and it was great, J talked and then we had 30 min to just have QT, so we each grabbed a chair and i prayed mostly and looked at some scripture and then prayed some more, after that, we had lunch, PB&J, dont rlly like it, was not in the mood, so i just ate some of my hot cheetos, J ate some too and J who hated spicy stuff actually tried a few, we were in a circle once again, i was w J and C and J then J joined as well as T and J and D and J, they just told some stories, and C came later with a sandwich and cheetos within it, he talked to me about my hot cheetos (sad he doesn’t like it) and said do you know what ive been craving? that filipino food truck, and i was like omg yeah theyre great but they dont come around often, and J was like you can track them on social media yeah lil thing but it was great, then we played games, so first we did the rope thing where we had to hold onto the rope and be fully supported bby tghe rope, i was next to J and C, we almost fell at one point, then we split up into 3 groups and did the human knot, we were the first ones out and it was super quick too, Z asked some team building qs, then our group tried it again but it didn’t work lol so we just played bang and that was super fun, never won but had fun nonetheless, then once the other teams gave up, we played this suepr fun game where we pretend that we were in an airplane crash and some got paralyzed, broken legs and arms, blind, mute, and healthy ppl, and basically the point of the game is to get everyone across the finish line within a certain time limit, i was picked to be paralyzed both times, so ppl had to carry me, L carried me the first time w M and D and i was the first one to make it there safely, it was sooo funny bc T was paralyzed and it took like 10 ppl to carry him it was so funny to watch, but we all made it in 3 min!! when we were given 10 min, so the next time, there were more paralyzed and unconscious ppl and more injuries and a lot more guys were picked and we were given 4 min, so we started complaining, but we made it in 3 min and 15 sec!!! A was the one who carried me this time, w J’s help, was one of the first to cross again, and when we finished they asked what was a struggle and successes and i said that there were always ppl ready to help me without me even having to ask, then we had chill time i think, or maybe this was before lunch idk tbh, but afterwards, J was just talking to me and asked me if my parents were believers, i told her my conflict about church and she said she wanted to talk about this more so she offered to have lunch w me, then lit team and lead team got separated and C talked to us and split us into groups of 3, i was w L who i met for the very first time, and C, we were supposed to be vulnerable and what to pray about, what you struggle w, and i told them about my feelings of doubt and fear, we prayed for each other, and after i prayed, C was apparently there, and talked lol idk how long he was there and if he heard my prayer, but he wanted to talk to C, anyways, we were just conversing afterwards, then got the whole group together and we discussed what have you learned from God this semester in which j was like to pace yourself and not take up everything even if they are all good works, G was like you are placed where you are for a reason, and some other ppl talked, then we all prayed one at a time and just waited for further instructions, the lead team was taking a really long time, so first the girls and i were just taking then i went to the pond and skipped some rock unsuccessfully w others, then just kept moving around, the girls finally found a table and just chilled there, B came by ad said that there has been some conflict and theyre just trying to talk it out now, so we were super hungry and thankfully C’s car was unlocked, so i went and grabbed my hot cheetos and gummy bears and baby wipes, we demolished all those and then we were finally called for what to do next, in which C was talking about how this is a serious time now, and the level of vulnerability from you is up to us, then we were told to get in a single line and my heart was beating rlly fast, i was not scared but anxious as to what it is, the lead team were all in a circle holding up cardboard signs, lit each had to take turns to read what was on it, and then write our own, if we want, then go back to the line, honestly i was tearing up before i read their signs and when i was in line again, i just kept crying, then we worshipped and then Z talked and it was in Luke when Jesus washed his disciples feet so the lead team washed our feet, E was the one who washed mine, and then C and B talked and we chilled til dinnertime, i hugged D and she was like we need to have monthly meetings next sem to just chekc up on each other adn we all agreed,we had chili, and then we packed up and headed home, the ride home was more enjoyable bc we were all just conversing and C asked what we wanted to do again in the lead team, and i was like coffee and C was like i just think that yall would make good small group leaders, and i told him why i didnt put that down (im not strong enough in my faith to handle all of them and schedule ofc), and C was like I accept the second reason but the first reason isn’t a reason (or somewhere along those lines), and honestly that struck me in the heart, i was like well that was what i thought... and he was like all the small group leaders though that way and probably still think that way, which was comforting to me, C asked about our music tastes me:none

then all BSM met at whataburger!!!!! omg it was so fun, we were the first ones to get there, all sons and daughters song played and C was like ive never heard of this song before and i was like really? even i have heard of this song and he laughed, then he was like im sorry guys my car stinks and i was like it was more of a group effort, and he was like thats comforting, anyways i sat w M and J and S at whataburger, got bbq chicken tender sandwich, D was supposed to sit w us but sat w J instead, we talked about majors and what we thought about this weekend, we extensively discussed the cardboard moment which everyone thought was heart provoking, then i was around G and L and C and A, L wants a piercing and T showed up but i was like nooo, D came to just rest on me, showed T my cartilage, then went to hbu, kinda dozed off on the way, hugged J and exchanged numbers, then hugged C, said bye to C, D, Z, and L as well. went home, showered and crashed.