#and they certainly didnt love burning to death like are you for fucking real

[theysangastheyslew]

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[onyour-right]

house of the dragon 1x06

I have a lot of thoughts on episode 6 of House of the Dragon.

Firstly, lemme start with saying Emma D’Arcy fucking kills it as older Rhaenyra and I just feel it in my bones that they’ll have even greater chemistry with Matt Smith. So anyways.

Rhaenyra this episode showed not only greatness as a queen but also a mother. The overflowing affection she had for each of her boys was heartwarming, the fact she openly apologised to mrs bitchface in the council meeting and tried to take the higher road, the friendship with laenor (although he didn’t deserve it at times) because even as angry as she is at him she wont break her vows she made to him. I’m heartbroken we didn’t see more of her bond with Ser Harwin given their circumstances, but the subtle glances and the warmth in her eyes whenever they interacted was really sweet. I guess I understand why, there were already rumours of him being the daddy so to have them interacting so plainly with each other would have added more fuel to the fire. But even still we should have seen more. 

In contrast we have mrs bitchface, who’s a whole scheming, conniving, musty ass slice of bread. All her scenes with crispin were really crispin’ on my nerves for real; how are the both of them so obsessed and bitter after 10 YEARS. I hated the fact she made Rhaenyra come to her after my girl had just given birth, and then tried to play the concerned act ‘oh, you should be resting in bed’ like... bitch if you dont get. I hated the fact that she went to Larys and then wanted to act all surprised and innocent when he got our beloved baby daddy murdered (i knew it was coming but that scene fucking destroyed me y’all).

Viserys. I gotta respect him as a father and grandfather, who wont hear anything bad being said about Rhaenyra and his grandchildren, who wants them to play together & fight together so that their bonds are tightened. But as a king? SIR, GET YOUR WIFE AND YOUR PEOPLE. Daemon was so right when he said he was weak. He is weak and he lets himself be too easily swayed. Half those issues they had could have been resolved if he’d had more of a backbone and payed more attention to the people surrounding him then whatever tf he’s building in his chambers. I mean, yes, fine, he was in poor condition and increasingly detoriating so probably didnt want any added stress, but c’mon man. DO YOUR GODDAMN ROLE.

Onto Daemon and Laena. Their relationship was certainly something. I wish we would have seen more of it like how they described it was from the books. From the snippets the show gave us it was tense, but I also believe it was one of  affection and care. I wish they’d given us more than breadcrumbs, but I’ll snatch what they gave us up. 

Yes, I ship Daemyra hardcore but I also believe that Daemon loved Laena and cared for her as much he could given the circumstances. Their dragonride together at the start showed two people who got along, who shared common interests and had fun with each-other. When Laena went up to him on the roof to talk about them going back, and was saying how his life wasnt the one he chose and perhaps she wasnt his first choice of wife, whatever it means he does try to protest. Yes, he was snarky with her too but I mean c’mon thats Daemon. He’s not gonna be a mushy gushy type of lover boy. That’s just not him. That scene ends with Laena resting on his back though, which indicates a level of intimacy with each other. Him staying present during her labour, when he called her ‘my brave girl’ like wtfffff sir i cant. And can we talk about the difference between him and Viserys when both their wives were struggling during labour? CAN WE. He cared about his wife’s survival. He went after her when she left and looked genuinely broken witnessing Laena’s death. 

(Again, that death fucking triggered me man. The fact Vhaegar had to be told more than thrice to burn her rider, and was obviously mourning for the loss.. But kudos to Laena for going out the way she wanted. I just wish we would have seen her saying goodbye to her girls) 

I dont like that we never saw Daemon consoling his two girls after Laena’s death (though I’ll take it as him just being at a complete loss of what to say or do in that situation - grief hits everyone differently i guess), or how its setting him up as a father who favours one child over the other when in the books he loved both his girls equally. Granted this episode also clearly showed that Daemon was struggling not just with fatherhood but his whole place in everything, I’m just hoping that sooner or later he’ll step up and be the father Baela and Rhaena deserve. That small scene of him teaching Baela old valyrian and her kissing his cheek when she went to bed was honestly the sweetest. Matt Smith really delivered with what little he was given and I appreciate that. I just hope they dont have him being more of a father to his stepsons than his girls because that would really irritate me.

All in all, I feel like the frequent time skips and all the rushing doesn’t help. I would have wanted to see at least a couple of episodes dedicated to fleshing out Daemon&Laena and Rhaenyra&Ser Harwin&Laenor’s family dynamics/relationships. I get that they want to get to the Dance quickly, but why did I have to sit through so many scenes of ser crispin and mrs bitchface??? It feels an uneven distribution of screentime somehow and I feel like I’ve been robbed out of something that could have had more of an impact. 

[thechangeling]

The Box

Tiberius Blackthorn had gotten quite good at compartmentalizing. Pretending that things weren't happening, that they didn't effect him. Pretending that he didn't feel. It was almost like flicking a switch. If things got too painful or too real he just turned it off. Closed his eyes and told himself over and over.

This isn't real. This isn't really happening. This doesn't matter. I don't care.

She isn't really dead. I don't miss him. I don't love him. Over and over until the pain stopped. Ty could usually make it last for awhile. Until something brought up an unpleasant memory or feeling and then he had to start all over again.

Being around Kit again was certainly making this worse.

Kit, in true Herondale fashion was in deep trouble with multiple people. As it turned out, he was the first heir and now a bunch of people were trying to either kill or kidnap him. So now a bunch of shadowhunters and downworlders had banded together to help him defeat his enemies and keep him safe. Ty had made a huge fuss to Drusilla about being forced to help. But secretly they both knew that he would rather die then let anything happen to Kit.

So now Kit was here, back in the Los angeles institute and currently sitting at the breakfast table with that vampire friend of his and Dru. She seemed to be very adamantly telling a story and Kit was laughing hysterically. Ty felt his heart turning over in his chest at the sound. He had to fight the urge to smile.

It isn't real. I don't love him. This isn't real.

Having him this close was torture. Hearing him laugh, watching him train, watching him flirt, watching him try not to cry in front of the others. There were so many times that Ty wanted to just reach out and touch him. Run his fingers through Kit's hair, trace the curve of his cupid's bow, hold him in his arms. It was a burning, suffocating ache.

Ty leaned back against his perch up on the windowsill. He had asked Livvy to give him some space to be alone. He was doing a decent job of blending into the background with his black clothing and dark hair. Or maybe they were just ignoring him. Ty pushed away that thought.

Suddenly he felt the weight of someone hopping up beside him. They made no noise or attempts to get his attention. Ty could hear the faint sound of Under Pressure coming out of headphones.

Alyssa.

Alyssa Reyes was the werewolf from Maia's pack who had been assigned to essentially be the scholomance's liaison to the downworld and help educate future centurions about downworlder affairs. She hadn't exactly been happy about this situation and had been pretty hostile towards most of them for awhile. But she and Ty had bonded over both being autistic, and also being queer. He could honestly say that meeting Alyssa had changed his life.

He turned to face her. She was staring up at the sky, mouthing along to the words of the song. Her black wireless headphones were slud over her ears and her dark waves were tied up into a low bun. She was excitedly fiddling with the straps of her white crop top which contrasted nicely against her golden brown skin. He stared at her for awhile, just basking in her presence.

He was sad that she was going back to New York in a week. He was really going to miss her.

Eventually she turned her gaze on him, sliding her headphones down. "You have all the best hiding spots" she confessed with a smile. 'Also I figured it was time to come interrupt your lurking because it was just getting a little sad." Ty rolled his eyes at her.

"I wasn't lurking! I'm literally just sitting here!" He protested worrying instantly that they were speaking too loudly. But everyone else was deeply preoccupied with their conversations and also they were several feet away. He stole a quick glance at Kit again and practically felt Alyssa disapproval radiating off of her. Ty turned back to face her displeased expression.

When Ty had first met Alyssa she was scared and standoffish but had quickly warmed up to him. He often described her as having pure magic in her warm brown eyes, so much excitement and life practicing buzzing out of her. But now her eyes were cold and dark. She seemed angry.

"I have just about had enough of this Ty" she announced. It's clear to me how much you want him, how much you love him, so why don't you just go talk to him already?"

Ty sighed, avoiding her gaze. "I can't."

She flailed her hands haphazardly. "What do you mean you can't Ty? You can. You just won't! I'm so sick of this!" She shouted.

Ty spared a panicked glance back at the kitchen table, but they hadn't looked their way. Still Ty hopped down from the ledge.

"Here, follow me" he said to Alyssa, pulling her off the ledge. She didn't protest. She allowed him to lead her out of the kitchen and into the hallway.

"Look" he began, "I don't want to talk to Kit alright? I'm still mad at him. I'm not just going to let that go." He explained. Alyssa just stared back at him.

There was a long drawn out pause where neither of them spoke. Ty wasn't that concerned. Long drawn out pauses were kind of their thing.

"Ok" she said slowly. "I need to tell you something that you might not be ready to hear. In fact it's probably going to make you really angry. But I need you to listen."

Ty had no idea what to say to that. But Aylssa kept on talking.

"Ty you need to get over yourself" she stated simply.

Ty bristled instantly. Rage flooded through his entire being. Who the fuck did she think she was? And to hear this from Alyssa of all people. Didnt she understand why he was so hurt? Why he was so angry?

Alyssa kept going before he could yell at her, stepping towards him slightly. "Listen to me Tiberius Blackthorn. I understand your pain, better than anyone else most likely. I understand your anger. I feel it to. I feel it everyday. The way the world treats us it's like little jagged cuts everyday, slowly whittling us down into nothing." Her voice broke. Her eyes were brimmed with tears.

"But I need you to ask yourself something" she continued shakely. "I need you to ask yourself, did Kit Herondale really do this? All of this? Is all of this really his fault? Something that we talk about a lot in therapy is putting the blame where it belongs. Recognize what was caused by which person and how much fault really lies with the person you're mad at. I know you don't want to forgive him because you're hurting and your also so fucking stubborn love" she laughed despite the fact that her eyes were filled with tears.

"You refuse to move. And I know why you do that because you think if you move, you will be admitting defeat. Admitting weakness. But you aren't Ty. You are saving yourself" She reached for him but shot backwards, shaking his head. He couldn't believe her. Maybe somewhere deep down he knew that she was probably right but he didn't care. He didnt care about what he knew anymore. All he could think about was the pain he felt.

"Please" she whispered "It isn't healthy to hold a grudge for this long. It isn't good for you. It isn't good for your soul." Alyssa wiped her eyes and stood up straighter, hardening her voice. "I know you're fed up with everything, and the same things keep happening over and over again. But here's the thing. Kit isn't responsible for what Paige did to you or what your father did, or your uncle or anyone else." Ty instantly began to shake at the mention of Paige Ashdown. He could feel all if those instances coming back to him. All of those kid memories he had tried to repress.

Whenever Ty had something horrible and traumatic happen to him. Everytime someone laughed in his face, everytime someone whispered behind his back or called him a slur. Every time someone made him doubt if he was really loved. Every autistic hate crime, every murder, every debate over the concept of his soul and whether it really existed. Livvy's death. Everything that happened that day on the beach. What Kit had said to him. Kit leaving him. He took all of it, all the bad memories, all of the pain and heartbreak. He took it and shoved it into some deep place inside of him. He usually envisioned a box of some sort. He shoved it all inside of that box, shut the lid and buried it.

This isn't real. This didn't happen. This isn't happening.

Ty's entire body was vibrating now. Alyssa put her hand on his shoulder. "Listen to me. Kit Herondale is not your enemy. He isn't trying to drown you or ship you off to an institution or shove you into ABA. And I know what you're thinking, that's a pretty fucking low bar and I know!" She exclaimed. "I know! But we have to start somewhere Ty. We have to start somewhere or else we will never get anywhere. That kid is so fucking in love with you and yes he does not deserve a gold medal for doing so, but he is fighting like hell to win you back."

That much was true. Kit had been trying to talk to him all week, but Ty kept brushing him off. It wasn't enough, he always told himself. It wasnt enough. He wasnt actually sure if Kit really loved him. He just refused to believe it.

Ty shook his head at Alyssa, his fingers fluttering at his sides. He began to hit his hands against his thighs to ease some of the tention he was feeling. Alyssa squeezed his arm, taking a deep breath.

"I know you are sick and tired of explaining the same things over and over and answering stupid questions and always having to make adjustments and put in the effort when everyone else doesn't try. I am too! Believe me! But I think at a certain point you need to ask yourself if you can forgive him for not knowing?" She asked. "Can you forgive him for being ignorant and making a mistake and breaking your heart because you've hurt him too? Can you accept that he is not perfect?" She dropped her arm down and stared him directly in his eyes. "Because neither are you. Ty I know you dont wanna hear this, but you live in a very privileged bubble where most people let you get away with murder because you're a man and you're white, while those same people condemn me for being rude and intolerable." She said pointedly.

Ty bit his lip. He felt like he should argue with her but he knew she had a point. "You're a shadowhunter!" She glared at him. "You're a shadowhunter and your people have committed so many atrocities against mine. You and your family spent most of your time ignoring all of this and only focusing on helping your brother and sister. You joined an organization that has a history of doing terrible things to downworlders!" She shouted.

"Well so did you!" He shot back even though he knew it wasnt really the same thing. "And by the angel Ali if you really hate me that much then why are you even here?" Alyssa just shook her head at him and rolled her eyes. "Because I don't hate you genius. I could hold these things against you, but I don't. I forgave you for not knowing. As long as you acknowledge it and try to work on making things better, which you are, then I can let it go. Because like I said Ty, we have to start somewhere" she pleaded. "

"You have to be brave and let it go."

Instantly Ty sucked in a breath. He recognized the words she had used perfectly. They were from a song.

Their song.

Tears instantly gathered in his eyes. He let out a shakey exhale and she smiled sadly at him.

"Because right now all you're doing is hurting is yourself." Alyssa said with a shrug.

Ty squeezed his eyes shut for a moment. "I know" he whispered. He opened his eyes again, she was staring at him sympathetically with those warm eyes. "I just dont know how to do this" he admitted. "I don't know how to deal with all if it. I don't think I can."

Alyssa looked confused "Deal with what exactly?"

Ty took a deep breath. "The box" he exhaled. Alyssa looked even more confused. It was a little funny.

So he decided to tell her. He told her about the coping mechanisms he had been using since he was a child. He told her about the box and how many things he had buried in it, and what they were. She cried and held him tightly to her chest. He let himself cry along with her.

He cried for that kid who had the door slammed in his face, that kid who had his interests mocked and spat on. That kid who had his heart broken over and over again long before Kit Herondale. That kid who never felt accepted or like he belonged, not even with his own twin. He cried for Livvy. He cried for that kid on the beach who lost everything. Who wanted to apologize to Kit and make everything right because he was so fucking naive and stupid, and Magnus Bane told him to go away.

So he did. But it hadn't solved anything.

He also cried for Kit. His Kit.

Ty pulled away from Alyssa, wiping at his eyes. "The worst part is it's not just my pain that's in there. I put all of the stuff with Kit in the box too" he confessed. "Like I mean the stuff that's happening right now. He's in a world of danger and I can't feel that because if I feel it then I'm afraid it'll break me."

Alyssa contemplated this for a while. "I know Ty, but you have to face it. All of it. You have to open the box or else you'll never get through it." She said sternly.

Ty leaned up against the wall if the institute. When he spoke, it sounded like it was coming from somewhere far away. "Every bad thing that happens to him feels like it's happening to me. Everything from when he was younger. When he was alone." Ty was making an effort not to cry again.

"I want him to know that he'll never be alone again. Not as long as I'm alive."

Alyssa looked at him incredulously. "Well then don't you think you should tell him that?"

Ty didn't answer her, just stared ahead. He still needed to think. Alyssa seemed to understand that because she spared him one final glance and then walked towards the kitchen.

"I'm gonna go eat" she announced. "Come join us when you're ready."

And then she left Ty alone in the hallway with his thoughts.

You have to open the box.

This is real. All of this is real.

You have to open the box.

@older-brother-kit @zafirafoxx @idontgetit-whydoihavetosaymyname @ti-bae-rius @anxiousbookenthusiast @emiikas @eutony-in-whisper

[missjackil]

Season 8

I’ve seen a lot of discussion about Season 8 lately, most of you hate it, or at least the first half. Understandable really, it was a train wreck! I will go on record to say that yes, Sam was very OOC for not looking for Dean, but it’s canon, so we do have to accept it. 

I do think however, I may understand what Carver was going for with it. I’m not saying it was executed well, but from what all happened in the previous seasons, I think it was very important to establish who the brothers are to each other. Looking back through every season before this one, though there were some very good broments a lot the way, there were a lot of unnecessary fights, lies, insults and mistrust. How could they really sell to us how deeply they love each other while they keep hurting each other so badly? 

In this essay, I may come down hard on both brothers at times. Please dont take it that I hate either or that I’m a stan for one or the other. I love these boys... flaws and all, so if you’re okay hearing your fav isnt always perfect (whichever bro that might be) please continue :)

In the beginning of Season 8, we have this strange, awkward, and OOC clusterfuck that we all blame bad writing for. And it was, I agree, and so do Jared and Jensen, but they both love where it led and are proud of the finished product. 

I’ll start with the major OOC elephant in the room that is Sam not looking for Dean. He never really gives us a reason, even though later in the season he says that his whole world imploded, came raining down on him and he ran. We have to keep that as the only canonical reason as to why he didn't, so we only have headcanons to fill in the blanks. My main concern with it really is just that I am sure that Sam would have at least established Dean was dead for real, before moving on. There were no bodies, or even any blood, to indicate that Dean might be dead. I do believe that Sam would have or should have at least bought an Ouija Board , but then what could he do? Everyone he knew who could help him was dead. All the lore books they’d been using for 7 years were burned up in Bobby’s house. All that was left was Dad’s journal which had very little information in it. So he accepts Crowley’s words “You are in fact truly on your own”, fixed up the Impala and drove. 

I don't believe Sam was suicidal. Crushed yes, depressed as hell but he won't kill himself without helping people in some way. Same with Dean. They may have wanted to die and would welcome death many times, but they're selfless martyrs, they won't eat a bullet or drive off a bridge, unless it was for a greater good. So Sam didnt look for Dean, because “Dean wouldnt want that” as we saw how pissed Dean was at Sam in S4 when he thought Sam sprung him from Hell, Sam had to remember that.  Sam also knows he wanted Dean to have a normal life when he was gone, and Dean was nearly successful. Also, in the very same episode that Dean apparently died in, Bobby told them both upon leaving, “when it’s your time... go” So Sam most likely thought Dean would be proud of him if he moved on. That IS why Dean taught him how to fix the Impala a few years back right?

So Sam tries to move on. I hated Amelia, but I dont think we were ever supposed to really like her or “ship” them, we were supposed to feel the fakeness, how awkward and just wrong it was. Sam never looked content with her, even though once she stopped treating him like trash, he smiled a lot, he never seemed happy. She was nothing more to him than a grief partner and a physical distraction. He probably enjoyed playing house though, having a dog, getting a paycheck, but it wasn't really his life. 

Meanwhile, Dean is in Purgatory with Cas and Benny, fighting monsters every day all day for a year. And this isn't a bad place for Dean honestly, he even referred to it as his “happy place” later, but it wasn't home, and Sam wasn't there. So in addition to slashing monsters all day, Dean was trying to find his way out to get back to Sam and their life. 

Dean comes out and finally, he meets back up with Sam. The reunion hug was amazing! One of my favorites. they both looked genuinely happy to be with their brother again, but it was sadly short-lived.  When Dean told Sam he wasn’t dead, he was in Purgatory, you can see the color leave Sam’s face. Like “Shit, I fucked up, I should have looked for him.” and then comes Sam’s big reveal that he got out of hunting. Watch how he says this. He’s not hiding it, he’s kind of cheerful about it, not like when Dean came back from Hell and he knew he was doing something Dean would be pissed at, he may have THOUGHT Dean would be pleased that he tried to move on, but obviously, Dean was not. 

Im not blaming either of them for what they felt. They’re both justified in it. Sam felt like Dean would want this for him, and Dean felt like Sam was out there looking for him, or at least missing him terribly, and needed to get back. Imagine if you will, as each other's spouse. One goes off to war, goes MIA and is presumed dead, though no body is found. It may have been established beforehand that if anything happened to the soldier, that his remaining spouse is to move on with their life. However the soldier isn't dead, he’s a POW and he busts his ass for a year to try to get home. You bet he’s going to be pissed off when he gets home to see his spouse DID move on and didn't even ask for proof he was dead first. 

Now we have Dean angry with Sam, Sam feeling guilty, but not willing to take the griping, so he’s going to fire back, and start threatening to leave. We have known from day 1 that Dean doesn't want Sam to abandon him. But he feels like Sam abandoned him in Purgatory, and now he’s trying to abandon him in the real world. 

I feel like, at this point, Sam felt like he had the upper hand. He had the “Stop nagging me or I'm out” card, but he didn't know Dean had a card left to play either. He had the “Leave me and I'll replace you” card.  This takes us to when Sam met Benny. Sam had been looking at schools again, weighing his options, so Dean thought it was time to introduce him to Benny. 

Dean hadn't seen Benny since they got back, so had he and Sam been in good graces, I don't think Dean would have run out to help him when he called, or at least he wouldn't have been secretive about it, but they were on shaky terms and if Sam wanted to play emotional chicken with him, Dean can play this game too. There was no reason at all for Dean to have told Sam to meet him at the dock. Dean had his car, Sam had to steal one to get there. Sam rushes because he thinks Dean needs him, and now he’s not answering his phone, and Sam is panicking. Dean had told him he was on this hunt with a friend, but Dean doesnt have any friends right? Certainly none he can trust to have his back in a hunt right? Dean must be in trouble! However, when Sam gets to the dock, Dean is pulling up with this big dude. The camera focuses on Sam and Benny’s hands long enough for us to notice that Benny’s hand is bigger than Sam’s. Sam turns from pissed off brother, reluctant hunting partner, to jealous spouse in 60 seconds. He goes for his blade, he’s going to kill this bastard! Dean shakes his head.... “no”. Sam had no idea Benny was a Vamp at that point, he was going to kill his replacement. Dean got this, oh so smug look on his face “Go ahead and leave me.... but don't think I’ll be alone”.

I'm going to leave it there because I don't want to analyze the entire season. What I want to show you is that Carver must have wanted to deconstruct the entire relationship, look at each piece of it, and show it to us, and then put it back together by the end of the season. By the end of Sacrifice, we learned Dean doesn't want to be without Sam but is willing to let Sam go and live his normal life, but to do that Dean wants to go out saving the world so Sam and everyone else can be safe. Sam doesn't want to be without Dean, but he thinks he's lost Dean’s trust, and he’s been replaced by Benny, Cas and holds Dean back from doing what he wants, so he’s going to save the world, even though it’s going to kill him in the process. 

Dean had told Sam that he didn't burn Benny’s body when he killed him, and Sam said he understood, and he might need him later. 

So I hope you can see why I feel Carver did this. I for one knew that Sam and Dean loved each other, but I honestly didnt see this “nothing comes before you” type bond before S8. So he took everything, from the very root, in the beginning, and laid it all out on the table for us, before giving us this epic defining moment in the Church between Sam and Dean. Sam would rather die than lose his place with Dean, and Dean would rather kill them all and let the world burn than to lose Sam, 

So even though I think the beginning was poorly executed, I do appreciate what it was showing us and I love the finished product. There hasn't been a more defining season in the whole series. As much as you might hate S8, you probably wont ever put the church scene out of your mind, and what led up to it. So, in my humble opinion, rocky start Mr Carver, but well played 🙌

[monelite]

yall mind if i....... dissect anduins bigger parts in the war crimes novel

    “Baine’s body quivered, ever so slightly, and he strode over to Anduin, peering at him intently. “When the weight of the brass pieces of the bell crushed you, I would imagine you were filled with fury. That when you awoke and faced an agonizing and long recovery, you wanted revenge against Garrosh for breaking every bone in your body, after you had come to him with help and wisdom.”     Anduin said, very quietly, “No.”     Baine pressed on.”You weren’t in torment? Frightened that you might never walk again? Angry?”     “Yes, of course, all of those things.”     “But you say now, here, under oath, that you did not want revenge.”     “That’s true.”     “That is a remarkable attitude. Why not?”     “Because it doesn’t do any good. It won’t unbreak my bones, or bring back the dead. It won’t do anything but cause more damage.” It came easier now, the flow of words,as easy as breathing, and as necessary to life.     “But certainly you do not wish Garrosh to do any of the things he has been charged with ever again, do you?”     “No.” No more torment, no more pain. We’re here to help one another. To grow and prosper together.     “Well, the Accuser insists that the only way to be certain that these terrible things won’t happen again is to put Garrosh Hellscream to death. Is that what you want?”

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    “Please tell the court, Prince Anduin,” said Baine. “Do you want Garrosh Hellscream to die for what he has done?”     “No,” Anduin Wrynn said quietly.     “Why not?”     “Because I believe people can change.”     “What makes you say that?”     “Because I saw it happen with my father.” Anduin’s eyes flickered to Varian, who looked surprised.     “Do you think Garrosh Hellscream can change?”     A pause. Anduin turned his golden head to regard Garrosh intently. Inside his heart was no fear, only peace. He took a deep breath, expanding himself so that the true answer would come.     “Yes.”

even though anduin has a lot of reason to wish nothing but awful things upon garrosh, he doesnt. after everything garrosh had done to the people of azeroth, and even to him, hes still willing to give garrosh another chance. he doesnt want revenge for what he did to him. he still believes that there can be good even in the absolute worst of people, that even they can change.

and honestly call me a sadist or whatever but i wanna see if blizzard ends up pushing anduin to his limit with that. like what would someone have to do to TRULY get on his bad side? im legitimately curious

like.. even later in the book, anduin finds out that garrosh’s food had been poisoned, and, even knowing what garrosh was capable of, he kicked the bowl away so that garrosh would live. garrosh grabbed anduin’s arm and he literally said to him he would pull it RIGHT OFF, but he didnt protest. he felt at peace thinking that he did the right thing. not to mention that garrosh was TRYING to piss anduin off when he was going to warn him, and he STILL saved his life. like, jesus christ.. hes 15 and hes doing All That

    “Garrosh, listen to me--” Anduin began, intent on warning him about the poisoned dish.     “–I hope you live to be king. Because whether or not I am here to see it, the day you take the throne, the orcs will celebrate. And we will come for Stormwind. Do you hear me? We will race through your streets, and kill your people. We will place your soft little peace-craving body on a pike, and burn your city down around your still-wet ears. And in whatever afterlife your precious Light grants you, your parents will wish Queen Tiffin had miscarried.”     Anduin had stopped breathing. He felt as if he was about to burst with white-hot wrath. He wanted to stop Garrosh from speaking, ever, to blast his mind and wipe all that it was to be Garrosh Hellscream from it. He knew how to use the Light. He could use it now, not as a shield to protect, or a balm to heal, but as a weapon.     Maybe Veressa had been right-- maybe the Light was at work. It was going to take care of Garrosh Hellscream. All Anduin would need to do was stay silent. He’d been an idiot to think he could help. That he could somehow reach Garrosh. The orc had been correct about one thing. Nothing good could ever, ever reach him.     He tried to kill you, he thought. He’d kill you now, if he could. Let him die. The world really would be better off without him.     Garrosh watched the prince of Stormwind struggle against his rage, and laughed. He squeezed a sunfruit quarter over his curry and picked up the bowl, raising it to his lips.     With an anguished sob that was half a snarl, Anduin darted forward, reaching his arm through the ensorcelled window and knocking the bowl from Garrosh’s hands. It clattered to the floor, its contents spattering the furs.     Garrosh seized Anduin’s arm and yanked, slamming the prince’s face against the hard iron. He twisted the arm sharply, taking it to an almost impossible position, and Anduin gasped.     “Roused you to anger, have I boy?” Then I have won!”     “Your food-- it’s poisoned,” Anduin hissed, clenching his teeth through the pain.     “You lie! I can’t squeeze your skinny little throat through the bars, but I’ve got your arm, and I can rip it out of it’s socket!”     Anduin let the light fill him, and the pain fell back before him. Calmness replaced the agitation in his spirit, and he offered no protest. He simply regarded Garrosh. The orc was right. He could tear off Anduin’s arm as easily as ripping a plant from the earth. Anduin was at the orc’s mercy, and he surrendered his concern. He had done the right thing, and that was what mattered. Whatever would happen, would happen.”

like, anduin.. i love you, but no offense-- give the fuck up on garrosh! hes trash garbage! a real Bastard! let him perish!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but anyway anduins character is so interesting to me and i love the way christie golden writes him. Its Just Good Writing

[a-memoir-of-me-blog]

more systemic things! YAY!

This was about the reaction to cutting PP (but there is more on this somewhere and opinion did shift a little)

-x: thanks for being educated!!

-Me: like bro….reversing roe v wade...cant just be me thinking this???

-x: yeah. Youre right about that. Honestly going to be a crazy 4 years

-Me: srsly. Smfh

-x: hope for the best (do the best!!) but expect the worse (and always have a plan!! And backup!!!) nothing we can really do about it (yes we can…) but just live in this era. Everyday in our lives cant be sunny (yes it can…)

-Me: sadly

-x: mishaps like trump has happened and its something we have to live with

-Me: idk. We will see what happens

-x: wouldnt be surprised if war occurred (we’ve been at war for all history of US….lol. And the cold war with russia is happening). The vast majority can just play the waiting game now. Like us (lol not me…)

-Me: and lol we fund private prisons but dont even care about the future. We dont care about prevention and we have to deal with the issues that arise because we are cheap in avoiding things and spend like mad trying to defend emptiness. Like i hate how america thinks so short term. Like yeah..short profits in this time...but do we not realize the damage we will need to spend in the future that is greater than the money we got in profit…..like yo. If we become even more populated becasue of this and people who wanna get an education instead of being stuck with a child and having to go into work and not go to school….(but honestly….with school and prevention and all that on the rise...educated people=smaller growth pop rate…) and their kid will never see their parent bc they are working all the time to just get means of survival (anbd again, they are very vulnerable to the corruption and dont know what is good or bad) and then on top of that, they will also still struggle bc taxes will be thru the roof for yet again, more useless and not beneficial short term stuff and the minimum wage cant even get them thru and then that will also cause the child to act out and the cycle repeats...and if they do make abortion illegal (which they cant) then babysitting and daycare services should be more available and not pricey (even free) while their parent(s) get a better education for themselves and therefore their family.

-x: selfishness and greed plays a big part in our society. Within the past three years ive seen the “real world” and its truly sad. We live in a world where capitalism plays a big role. But as humans i guess we will always have a sort of hierarchical system in place. Lets take for example electric company like conedison or national grid (lol what…)

-Me: its like the powerful, the privileges, the elite. They all need someone to be at the bottom to help keep the cycle going (its not a pyramid...its a cycle….in nature...in everything….). This pyramid is so outdated and immoral. And honestly, all we do is follow business cycles. Like the nature of things are all in circular motion and keep going, ups and downs and sides and all that, and it translates into human thought, human behavior, and therefore the world we live in with all the material there (made by us..a cycle…). Up for a little. We crash. And thru it all, distract the vulnerable and the underprivileged, and then use them as a profit while we leave them suffering even more. And then we will want to innovate because we see the consequences of our wrong doings. Then watch the “system” crack on itself because the people who make the system run stopped it all. We stop the system, the system doesnt stop us...only if we let it. Then, because we are the system, then the system breaks here and there, and the whole chain reaction happens and it keeps happening because majority dont realize it. That they are letting themselves be used, instead of using the system to their advantage.   Its always happening. But the woke...the ones with the force….of good will and good intent and love...they are the ones going against it and spreading it and waking everyone up.

-x: electricity is as free as free can be yet we pay for things like that (because its an incentive...it has “power” and “motivates” us, also some are also paid for bc we need to pay for the costs of labor, time, environment, etc…). I have a dishwasher who is a great man but also an ex felon. On our break he helped a homeless man set up an outlet on the streets using a lamp pole. I didnt think it was possible, but that was an eye opener.

-me: the powerful hates those who rise from the ashes that were caused by the powerful burning them down

-x: there are certainly “simple fixes” but to have a world where every single person will agree on the same idea will be inevitable

-me: i wrote stuff about this in english this term. I loved it lol

-x: it’ll be too late and the world would probably end before that happens (no it wont (:)

-me: its what made me so interested in it. Also prisons need to be reformed

-x: lol. Thats good! Its things we should be thinking about. And yeah prisons (culture in general and society) should be reformed. The amount of money put into prisons are ridiculous

-me: children should learn how to negotiate and argue on facts. Thats why education is so important. I cant stress it any more

-x: i had a discussion about school tuition and how much it takes to keep a prison open. Lol. i know what my parents feel now. Newer generations are just being baby fed everything (good or bad! And we just take it all! Like we are literally allowing them to fuck us over). More and more people dont really know what “hard work” is. But parents are to blame for that too. Since they started from 0 and want the best for their child (yeah and when we are being given all those things and they are getting older, then we need to be giving them things, bc they are going to reach 0 again too….death. And its not like its bad for us, because we are still gonna be able to live and get that back….but it is also the older ppl who are also very greedy and just want and want and dont even thank. As if they were entitled for it just bc they gave….like no…..i give because i want to….not because u deserve it…)

-me: our corrections system sucks too. Our military and police system sucks too. Our education sucks too (well...our own fault  because we let it go to waste). Thats why the RIGHT education is the solution.

-x: lol. I can agree with that. Honestly in this era you dont even need to go to school. You can take the easy route which would be finish hs or just a GED, take a course for a certain certificate and move up in that particular company. As you move up, work experience will beat any degree (right...but if you can do that...and school...and extracurricular….NO ONE can beat you. You did that for yourself and it will reward you. Just know what youre beating yourself up for.)