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muffinrag · 2 years

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you know what. speaking of people pleasing. It's starting to get exhausting hearing "oh I used to be one but then I stopped giving a fuck about what other people thought" when I tell people I'm a people pleaser. like man. that's great for you I'm happy for you. I have a deeply embedded guilt complex combined with codependent tendencies and a literal phobia of anger both in other people and myself

so it's gonna take a little more than "not giving a fuck"

#thats the only advice people have lmfao #turns out what i actually need is therapy #but seriously like...#theres more that goes into this #i have to learn how to stop guilt spirals #i have to learn how to appropriately manage my own anger #i have to learn how to want things????#i have to break multiple heavily ingrained people pleasing habits #'stop giving a fuck' ok lemme know when hell freezes over ok?#lemme know when pigs start fucking flying ok?#god im so.#what is wrong with me. what is wrong with me #i shut off my computer for the night and my first thought was 'god i got nothing done today'#bitch what? i did onboarding for the JOB I JUST FUCKING GOT. i made a fucking phone call today!#and yeah i spent 6 hours on valheim while watching house on the other screen! i needed that r&r!#besides its not like theres anything else to fucking do #anyway. im just ranting now. basically i have problems and its exhausting #muffinrag blabs #text

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