#another thirsty Ash post is coming up shortly lmao

[kindahoping4forever]

Happy New Year!

I wasn’t planning on making a New Year’s post but I'm emo rn and scrolling past a few on my dash made me want to say a quick something. 2019 was a weird year for me. It started off bad and then kind of tapered off and peaked around a dull meh (and that got kind of bad again the past couple weeks). Maybe in the future I’ll see it as transitional but right now I can’t see what I could possibly be transitioning into so it just kind of feels like a throwaway year.

The honest truth is being on this website was my favorite part of 2019. Loving this band is my favorite thing to do, I would’ve been doing it regardless but it is so much more fun and rewarding doing it while being surrounded by other people who feel the same way. At the beginning of the year, I would come here for fun and distraction. But now at the end of the year, in addition to the fun and distraction I’m also lucky enough to get to engage with people, whether it be the friends I am so grateful to know or reading people’s tags or comments on my posts or the occasional ask. This is honestly all I wanted when I started this blog just over a year ago and I could not be more thankful for the experience I’ve had so far.

So first off, if you’ve sent in an ask, reblogged, followed or interacted with me in any way this year, thank you, thank you, thank you. You have no idea what it’s meant to me. (And if we haven’t interacted, let’s! If you’ve seen my posts, you know I’m always down to overreact to anything and everything lol)

Next up, my GC crew: Ashton’s Queens (@irwinvalentines​ @starwarsmccaffrey​  @babylon-corgis​ @ashtonangst​ @finesos​ @calumhood-imagines​ ) and formerly 5SOS Angels now 5SOS Sexy Bitches 😂 (@calumamongmen  @beefstickirwin  @dontdoitluke @myloverboyash @calsophat @bumblebet-20 @burncrashbromance ) I love talking with y’all and my year would not have been the same without you.

@ashtonsunshine​ @sexgodashton​ @cxddlyash​ @cashtonasfuck​ @h0tsos​ I love seeing you on my dash and I love talking to you even more, let's please do that more often in 2020.

Lastly I specifically need to thank the people who I talk to just about every damn day, whose messages I stay up way too late responding to and yet am still thrilled to wake up and see more from. (My insomnia + friends in different time zones = the real OTP of 2019)

@wastethen8 Ayla, I can’t even remember the last time we talked about the boys, now we just share our lives and I think that’s awesome! Thank you for messaging me and becoming my first fandom friend, almost one year ago now!  🥺

@glitter-cal Jen, it's been so much fun getting to know each other and legit one of my favorite memories of 2019 was getting your frantic messages after your Ashton moment at Jingle Ball. (I'm not over it yet, are you? 💪🏼) I'm looking forward to SO much more Scientific Research in this coming year!

@pxrxmoore BETH so much of my time is spent screaming at and with you that your name autocorrects to all caps. These past few months wouldn't have been nearly as much fun without our daily breakdowns over Bro Things and 🥳🥳. I love you (even if your choice to bring back Coachella!SOS still haunts us to this day) and I can't wait to meet you and Lucy this year! May 2020 be the year we finally answer the question: who needs sticks?

@feliznavidaddycal Rach, our bond was forged in thirst (#CalNipplePiercings2020) and has quickly evolved into one of the loveliest, most supportive and understanding friendships I've had the pleasure of knowing. I love messaging you and knowing you'll understand exactly how I feel whether it be about doctors being the worst, bodies being dumb or any of the COUNTLESS Cashton concepts we kill each other with on the daily. Literally as I’m typing this you’re ruining my life on two different social media platforms and I could not be happier (or more distressed) lmao.

@cal-puddies I've never been more happy that I overshare in my tags because that's how this wild ride started. And then I Kool-Aid Man'd my way into your messages and neither of our sleep patterns were ever the same. 😂 There's no one I'd rather stay up all night spinning elaborate headcanons with and you're honestly still my favorite writer. Here's to a new year of lane checks, murder blurbs and discovering even more random things we have in common. The picture says it all. 🤜🏼🤛🏼