#anyway im gna just scribble n post and pretend i dont care about most of the notes being from my own reblogs | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

carrieway · 1 year

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everyday i commit to making art and making something i can be proud of, then i post it, have a subsequent breakdown and spiral into deep depression when it gets nowhere, and swear off art forever because of how damaging it is to my mental health in the end . then i pick up my pen a day later and tell myself this time will be different, it has to be (it is a cycle, it will not be)

#this sounds v melodramatic i promise im just saying words #i just type like that #anyway im gna just scribble n post and pretend i dont care about most of the notes being from my own reblogs #i lived my adolescence hyper aware and fixated on interactions as i was very isolated and it was the only time i got human contact #and it's still the same now but im trying to not let it rule me #for random talking posts im okay now but for things i make it's still rlly hard to seperate #i dunno. i hope i get there someday #i know i can #blabs

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