#i lived my adolescence hyper aware and fixated on interactions as i was very isolated and it was the only time i got human contact

[carrieway]

everyday i commit to making art and making something i can be proud of, then i post it, have a subsequent breakdown and spiral into deep depression when it gets nowhere, and swear off art forever because of how damaging it is to my mental health in the end . then i pick up my pen a day later and tell myself this time will be different, it has to be (it is a cycle, it will not be)