#anyway it is 1:30 AM as i'm typing this goodnight

[psychicthepsychic-daily]

obligatory killer purple guy joke

(thank you to @gennytherator06 for the suggestion!)

alt. versions under the cut:

right: void with white and psychic with pink eyes and syringe instead of yellow; left: void and psychic both with purple instead of yellow

[kipog]

"Did you mean it?"

an Emily is Away fan fiction written by Kipog

Mat x OC

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• 1/7/20 • Wednesday • 10.57 am •

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Matthew7: dudeee

ColdWeather: yes?

Matthew7: I'm actually gonna die like NOW

ColdWeather: and why is that?

Matthew7: college starts in like a month ugh

ColdWeather: I'm well aware

Matthew7: it sucks that we won't be going to the same school anymore :/

ColdWeather: yeah, it'll suck but I'm sure that we can find some time to hang out right?

Matthew7: yeah I guess ://

ColdWeather: hey cheer up man, wanna hop on some r6?

Matthew7: always >:)

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• 30/7/20 • Thursday • 6.08 pm •

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Matthew7: SAGE

ColdWeather: yeah? why are we yelling lmao

Matthew7: college is starting in like 4 days!!!!

ColdWeather: yep, I've started to pack my stuff for it, you've started too right?

Matthew7: ...

Matthew7: anyways, we should hang out! this could be our last hang out ever man

ColdWeather: oh don't be so dramatic, we'll hang out during college too

Matthew7: I know but I still wanna hang out before it starts :/

ColdWeather: I'd be lying if I said I didn't feel the same

Matthew7: we can get absolutely fucking wastedd on my roof tonight!!!!

ColdWeather: that's one hell of a way to hang out

Matthew7: It's the last day we can hang out before break ends! gotta go off with a bang

Matthew7: so youre coming right??

ColdWeather: yeah yeah yeah I'll be there by 9

Matthew7: hell yes!!!! I'll see you there!!

ColdWeather: see yaaa

Matthew7 is offline

ColdWeather is offline

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• 18/8/20 • Tuesday • 4.46 pm •

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Matthew7: hey

ColdWeather: yo

Matthew7: soo hows college treating you?

ColdWeather: it's been treating me alright i guess, what about you?

Matthew7: its been super boring ngl ://

Matthew7: make any new friends yet?

ColdWeather: I think so, her name is Casey, she knows how to skate and stuff which is pretty cool

Matthew7: oh thats nice

Matthew7: the people in my class are kinda snobbish so its been kinda tough for me

ColdWeather: oof sorry to hear man

ColdWeather: oh wait I gotta go, I have a group project thing at like 5 ish

Matthew7: oh uh alright, have fun man

ColdWeather: yeah you too

ColdWeather is offline

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• 5/9/20 • Saturday • 3.08 am •

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Matthew7: hey

Matthew7: I know you're probably not awake right now

Matthew7: sorry for missing your birthday yesterday, I was really busy with school stuff and I literally just finished some homework

Matthew7: I actually wanted to surprise you by going to your school

Matthew7: happy belated birthday man

ColdWeather: mat?

Matthew7: holy shit, you're awake?

ColdWeather: haha yeag I went ouf for somee drinjs wit casee and her boyfreind

ColdWeather: her boyfriend is soooo preeyty

Matthew7: sounds like you had fun

ColdWeather: yea yeah I didd

ColdWeather: bbut I donno

ColdWeather: I wanted yyou to be here but you wenrnt

ColdWeather: and I kept thijnkinf about you :(((

Matthew7: you were?

ColdWeather: yeah!! caasye broght me back when I starrted crying about howw you wernt here :((

Matthew7 is typing...

Matthew7 is deleting...

Matthew7: hey, are you free later?

ColdWeather: yyeah probabbly

Matthew7: I'm gonna visit you since you're a little crybaby who needs to be taken care of

ColdWeather: aawwh youre coming??

Matthew7: you probably won't even remember that I said any of this

ColdWeather: hghhhhhhhhhjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj

Matthew7: oh my god you fell asleep didn't you

Matthew7: wow.

Matthew7: thats fine, you need the rest anyway

Matthew7: goodnight sage

Matthew7 is offline

[ 7.45 pm ]

ColdWeather: hey

Matthew7: yoo

ColdWeather: thanks for taking care of my hungover ass today

Matthew7: dude, if not me then who else?

ColdWeather: honestly true

ColdWeather: it was kind of weird hanging out with you and casey today

Matthew7: whys that?

ColdWeather: I don't know, like, hanging out with an old friend and a new friend was pretty trippy for me

Matthew7: yeah I can see why u'd think that :p

Matthew7: oh wait did you see my gift yet?

ColdWeather: gift?

Matthew7: I left it under your blanket looll

ColdWeather: let me check

ColdWeather: a bracelet?

Matthew7: yeah, i know youre not really a jewelry guy but idk, figured you needed some type of bling :P

ColdWeather: it has my initials on it too! dude I'm gonna wear this like everyday now

Matthew7 is typing...

Matthew7 is deleting...

Matthew7: yeah you better, I spent good money on it

Matthew7: I uh, wanted to ask you something too if thats cool

ColdWeather: yeah sure go ahead

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Matthew7: is it true you actually cried on your birthday cause i wasn't there?

ColdWeather: shiiiiit

ColdWeather: did casey tell you?

Matthew7: bitch you're the one who told me

ColdWeather: wait what?

ColdWeather: holy shit i did

ColdWeather: okay yeah, I'll own up to it, I cried because I kinda missed you

Matthew7: "kinda"

ColdWeather: shut up

Matthew7: well im glad we hung out today

Matthew7: you probably would've bawled your eyes out if I didn't show

ColdWeather: oh my god shut it already

Matthew7 is typing...

Matthew7 is deleting...

Matthew7: okay I gotta go, I have to do some stuff now

ColdWeather: oh, okay, good luck with that

Matthew7: see ya

Matthew7 is offline

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• 30/9/20 • Wednesday • 11.29 pm •

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Matthew7: sage

ColdWeather: mat

Matthew7: woah, wasn't expecting you to be awake

ColdWeather: I was actually gonna go to bed soon

Matthew7: man shut up

Matthew7: what are you doing up so late anyway?

ColdWeather: studying.

Matthew7: riiight, exams are in like a month

Matthew7: its literally just midyears tho

ColdWeather: still need to study for them, you should too

ColdWeather: why are you texting me this late by the way

Matthew7: I wanted to ask you something

ColdWeather: you can ask me tomorrow, go to sleep dude

Matthew7 is typing...

Matthew7 is deleting...

Matthew7: yeah youre probably right, I kinda forgot the question anyway lool

ColdWeather: typical mat

ColdWeather: night

Matthew7: yeah, night

Matthew7 is offline

ColdWeather is offline

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• 24/10/20 • Saturday • 1.24 pm •

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Matthew7: sage sage sage

ColdWeather: good afternoon to you too

Matthew7: got any cool parties youre going to for halloween??

ColdWeather: I'm like 95% sure that I'll be boxed up in my dorm studying until I die on halloween night

Matthew7: oh c'monnnnn youve worked hard enough! lets go party!!

ColdWeather: mat, as much as i would love to party, I can't. midyears are literally next month

Matthew7: dude

Matthew7: please?

Matthew7: like, I know how hard you've been working and I dunno, I thought a party might take some stress off of you

ColdWeather is typing...

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ColdWeather: dammit mat

ColdWeather: you got any parties in mind?

Matthew7: hell yeah I do!!

Matthew7: there's gonna be a huge house party that some kid from my class is throwing

Matthew7: apparently its gonna be at a mansion??

ColdWeather: okay, that does sound pretty sick

Matthew7: right???

ColdWeather: send me the details

Matthew7: it'll be at thomson road street 43 at 8 pm but I'll pick you up so you don't have to worry about a ride B)

ColdWeather: oh okay, thanks man

ColdWeather: wait, do I have to dress up?

Matthew7: well duh, dude it's a halloween party

ColdWeather: uugh I'll need to think of a costume idea then

Matthew7: well in case you wanna match, I'm totally going as green lantern

ColdWeather: I am not surprised in the slightest

Matthew7: well it's not as predicable as batman so I'm pretty satisfied with my choice B)

ColdWeather: I'll probably go as the flash then

Matthew7: that would be dope as hellllll

ColdWeather: while you're here btw, you wanna hop on a game?

Matthew7: holy shit, we haven't played in like forever

ColdWeather: so are you down?

Matthew7: dude always

Matthew7: modern warfare?

ColdWeather: hell yes

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• 1/11/20 • Sunday • 8.45 am •

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ColdWeather: mat

ColdWeather: can we talk about last night?

[ 2.31 pm ]

ColdWeather: mat please

ColdWeather: are you okay?

[ 7.19 pm ]

ColdWeather: matthew please say something

ColdWeather: anything?

[ 9.50 pm ]

ColdWeather: do you not want to be friends anymore? is that it?

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• 2/11/20 • Monday • 12.13 am •

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Matthew7: I'm sorry

Matthew7: I'm really sorry sage

ColdWeather: oh my god you're alive, are you okay?

Matthew7 is typing...

Matthew7 is deleting...

Matthew7: I'm fine, I'm sorry

ColdWeather: okay, slow down, can you just explain what happened at the party?

Matthew7 is typing...

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Matthew7: I don't know, I was drunk, I wasn't thinking right

ColdWeather: dude, you weren't even drunk, you barely even touched your cup

ColdWeather: if anything, I was the one who was drunk

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Matthew7: how much do you remember?

ColdWeather: well, I remember being with you for the majority of the night, we talked, danced and drunk with a bunch of people but you didn't drink nearly as much as me

ColdWeather: after awhile you said you were kinda tired so we went out to the top floor balcony and sat there and talked for a bit

ColdWeather: then you said that you thought you were in love with someone

ColdWeather: I asked you who it was, but you just stared back at me like you were waiting for something

ColdWeather: then you kissed me

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ColdWeather: I had to call casey to pick me up after you ran away

Matthew7: sorry for leaving you there

ColdWeather: dude it's fine it's just... the whole in love with me thing

ColdWeather: is that really how you feel?

ColdWeather: did you mean it?

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Matthew7: yes I meant every fucking word i said on that balcony

Matthew7: I have loved you ever since high school, maybe even before that

Matthew7: I thought that I just wanted to be really good friends with you but I don't know, during high school, I started to realise that I wanted more than that

Matthew7: you probably think Im a fucking creep now

ColdWeather: I don't think that at all, understand?

ColdWeather: I just need some time to think

ColdWeather: we should be asleep right now anyway, goodnight mat

ColdWeather is offline

Matthew7 is typing...

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Matthew7 is offline

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• 24/11/20 • Tuesday • 4.07 pm •

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ColdWeather: hey

Matthew7: hi

ColdWeather: how are you dealing with midyears?

Matthew7: It's been okay

ColdWeather: that's good

Matthew7 is offline

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• 4/12/20 • Friday • 8.19 pm •

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Matthew7: what the fuck are you doing

ColdWeather: oh good, you texted first

Matthew7: I can see you from my window

ColdWeather: yeah, that's kinda the point

ColdWeather: now come down here and snowball fight me

Matthew7: what? why?

ColdWeather: because clearly, whatever we have going on isn't getting anywhere so the obvious solution, is a fight to the death

Matthew7: dude, we aren't in middle school anymore, go home

ColdWeather: not until I beat your ass with some snow

Matthew7 is typing...

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Matthew7: fuck you

Matthew7: by the time I'm done, youre gonna be begging for mercy

ColdWeather: finally! a worthy challenger!

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• 27/12/20 • Sunday • 8.12 am •

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ColdWeather: hey

Matthew7: hi

ColdWeather: are you doing anything for new years?

Matthew7: I don't think so, maybe I'll go out with some friends or something but it's a strong maybe

ColdWeather: would you perhaps like to see some fireworks?

Matthew7: yeah sure, I'll have to think of some gifts for casey and her boyfriend tho

ColdWeather: oh, uh, they're not coming

Matthew7: so it'll just be us?

ColdWeather: yeah, is that cool?

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Matthew7: does this mean you've made up your mind?

ColdWeather: well, yes, but I wanna tell you in person

Matthew7: with a bunch of fireworks exploding in the background?

ColdWeather: yeah

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Matthew7: are you asking me out on a date?

ColdWeather: it'll be a date once I very romantically tell you how I feel in front of a million fireworks covering the sky

Matthew7: you are the biggest nerd I've ever met

ColdWeather: I'm glad to hear it

ColdWeather: I'll pick you up and we can go to the park to see the fireworks

Matthew7: how romantical

ColdWeather: that's not even a word

Matthew7: yeah it is, I just made it up!

ColdWeather: and you call me the nerd

Matthew7: and I stand by that

ColdWeather: whatever you dork

ColdWeather: I'll see you on new years :)

Matthew7: see you :)

Matthew7 is offline

ColdWeather is offline

[hazyjellyfish]

4.0

hello world, it is 1:30 am on a sunday night (monday morning?) life feels a bit wonky lately. i've felt really good since saturday night but all day saturday i felt like a piece of shit because i was having an anxiety attack for 3 straight hours at work and when i get really anxious but can't go release it (meditate, or usually just cry), i have this bad habit of itching the back of my left hand until it's raw. i kind of developed it after my first breakup, because i had to see them face-to-face every day despite the whole event going down. anyways, i was fixated on doing that in between customers and couldn't do the other parts of my job that i usually get done quickly, and i apologized so many times to my coworker for my lack of productivity, because i knew it would make us run late. they simply said "it's okay" the first time, and i came back from my lunch break, sniffling, a little bit of mascara staining my eyes from "asleep" by the smiths, which, as you don't know, is my primary end-of-the-world song, which i reserve for days that i can't help but to allow mental illness to beat me to a pulp. when i was in this messy state, i apologized again, so sincerely that my voice was barely a whisper. i could literally feel the energy in the room soften, and everything felt a little warmer around me. reassurance ensued that i needed to hear so dearly, that the bustling business around me was the primary cause for our lack of progress which would end up with all of us getting out an hour later than scheduled. i don't want to bore you with my work, anonymous reader, but i simply cannot stop thinking about all of the kindness that this one specific person has shown to me over the past month of them being employed. do you ever just meet someone, and you don't want them to go away? because i know in the field of work i'm in, people come and go constantly, but i can't help but to cling onto them not following the others in that regard. i wish they knew how much they've helped me since we met, most of it indirectly; little jokes and banter and smoke breaks and late nights all add up into this big bundle of security that's dangerously balancing on a cliff. i know one day it will fall, and break open, and i will have to deal with all the emotions that this joy is covering up, but for right now, i could not be any more grateful for this new person to come into my life and join the small circle of people that can comfort me so gently. my post wasn't going to be about this at first, but typing as i go when my brain is silently screaming every second of the day leads to some funny things. on the topic of brains; can you see things, images, in your mind? because i can't. i've learned over the past 2 weeks that it's called aphantasia, and it really helped me in the sense that i've never had visualization meditations work for me because i... can't visualize. when i close my eyes, i see tv static, but it's all this weird, dull assortment of colors. i envy people who can visualize, especially as someone who wanted to get into visual art. it's impossible for me to focus on a full art piece when i can't even imagine my own concept.

well, lovely reader, thank you for reading. nobody read this, i know, (except i don't know. maybe one or two people. s/o if you're one or two people.) (wait) (that doesn't work)

goodnight tumblr diary,

-anon

[kaptain-k-pop]

The K-List: Day #27

so fun story..... I wanted to do something Fun for Pride Month even tho we know that I cannot keep up with any planned event type thing that I set out for myself and making 30 days of post in a row would be Literally Unthinkable For Someone As Bad At That as me

But I was gonna Try!

And hahaha hey would you look at that it's already June 10th :)

Funny how that works...... 👀

But Consider... Heartland Pride is not even until July 10th for... Some Reason.....

So if you look at it that way I'm really not late at all really if u really think about it really... 🤔🤷👀

I can start today and end on the day that my Local Pride Event Is and that will be 30 Days 😌 <3

(and I will inevitably still fail at that plan and come up with another excuse but it's Fine 🤷 we are gonna Try It Anyway bc I am Stubborn shhh)

Kaptain K's K-List Pride Event: #1

BLACK MIRROR

ONEUS

Oneus my Beloveds 😔💗💗💗💗💗💗

Did I pick this song for the first day of my pride posts bc the album art is rainbow colors? No of course not, you'll never prove it

It is Simply A Bop 🤷

This song is so Fun and Funky! We love the groovy bass that first got hinted at back in January which I've been looking forward to finding out What It Goes To since then (and was not disappointed!!) We love Dongju's haircut opening sequence! We love Keonhee's energy and stage presence! We love Seoho being a vocal king! We love RAVN killing 👏 it 👏 as 👏 al👏ways 👏 with his raps! We love Hwanwoong being a tiny charismatic powerhouse! We love Leedo's vocal duality!!! We love the whistling and the snapping and the Hats! We love the styling in General!!!!! (bless U stylists thanks 😔🙏💗)

and Oneus have so many other amazing songs too!!! These boys are so talented please go give them some love and listen to their songs u will not regret it 😔

Would Kaptain K ever steer you wrong? No. Exactly

Stan Oneus for Good Vibes <3

Happy Pride ily goodnight 😘