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darabeatha · 3 months ago

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/ I feel like my current struggle when it comes to this blog (or any of my multis but specifically this one, bc with my j.ojo's I'm vibing) is that I do have the passion for my characters, but my attention is all over the place because I have too many interests, too many muses, and all my muses come from very different backgrounds where there's a lot of nuances and history and culture behind each of them that are miles apart; think of having to jump from greek mythology and all its pantheon of gods, to aztec mythology and its religion to then indian mythology to then Maya mythology, and then japanese history and etc etc and back and forth all the time while trying to keep it accurate to the muse's fictional story but offering these lil tidbits here and there of their backgrounds;; it's also why there are some cases where I have to go back and re-read a lot of stuff because I'm remembering only fractions (example; vlad III)

so in conclusion it's like;; for as much as I love history and love reading about it;; at the end of the day it's also a LOT of information that goes into each of my muses and the way I seek to portray them; which in some way, I'm also being a bit too perfectionist about it all (I am not an historian after all, nor do I seek to write accurate historical depictions either) hence why you probably can't see much writing in terms of threads and the such; lately I mostly just reblog a lot of stuff;; BUT YEAH- just some self reflection :thonks:

#;ooc #ooc #its like im lacking on the actual 'r.p schedule/etiquette' i dont answer asks nor write threads nor etc etc #in conclusion; this is why i write one in a blue moon OUETHIERUBHRUGHR #also english is not my native tongue and sometimes the day isnt englishing you see #but its also not spanishing either;; my mind is BLANK #i start going 'and he said and he did and he went and he and he and he-' OIUGHRAAAAAAHJJJJHH #which is totally fine on itself but i want to write like;; more descriptively #IT'S ALSO WHY- i had so many f.go solo blogs too; bc i could just focus on them and only them for that time i was logged there #what i love about multis is the flexibility;; especially for someone like myself who has a lot of interests #i can have them all in one place; so its really good in that regards #but at the same time; it makes me get too distracted; like theres so much on the table i just sit there thinking mmmmm who to pick-#-takes 50 hours-#U GET IT---#i dont know how to fix this tbh;; i think the key is to just let it go and dont be too much of a perfectionist since its a hobby and #all that stuff #but---- (insert a.rjuna complex)#me when it doesnt fit an inch of my standards: im going to release my final croar-#jkjk- unless-#im just going to start replying to stuff as one liners; that will teach me a lesson #there's also this thing about;; 'paragraph etiquette' of old rpc days l.ionfanged / e.rika was talking about #that you feel that if you dont write a reply with tons of paragraphs; u get the guilt that 'oh they will think im not as into this #-as they are'#GRAGHRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRGRGGHH #AWFUL #im going to start replying with gifs only to train my brain to let it GO #anyways i miss d.iego b.rando...

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