#anyways pls look forward to my chan smut and

[karinasbaby]

just wrote an entire bang chan smut that’s 4.4k… it was literally supposed to be a drabble.

[ericsangyeon]

addicted - l.sy

‘He was like fire, she was his igniter. Together they were each other's addictions.”

pairing: sangyeon x female! reader

word count: 7.0k

genre: angst, fluff, suggestive

theme: gang au sorta??

warnings: SMUT!!, profanity, drinking, guns, blood, kidnapping, bang chan and skz are villians

a/n: hey guys! i wanted to try writing a fic bc why not! this is my first tme ever writing smut so be nice. also this was edited many times but there could be mistakes so just bare with me. enjoy it! i worked really hard hehe -t :D

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“Kevin oh my god. I'm not going to that criminal ball.” I roll my eyes at my best friend.

“Pretty please? You can finally meet Jacob! And I'm pretty sure a certain someone wants you there too,” Kevin smirks from the other side of the work area. I stop cleaning the countertops and stare up at him with wide eyes.

Kevin, and his boyfriend Jacob, are members of the underground mafia group TBZ, which never gets brought up when I'm with Kevin because he knows it makes me uncomfortable. That was until Lee Sangyeon came into the picture. Sangyeon is the leader and “big boss” (as Kevin calls him) of TBZ, and has somehow found interest in me. Ever since Kevin brought him into the cafe a month ago during one of my shifts, I kept bumping into him everywhere. From work, to campus, to even near my apartment. He tries to make small talk with me, which I always ignore and keep distance from him. I see him all the time despite wanting to, and I want nothing to do with him…. even though he literally looks and talks like an angel sent from heaven. I'm positive there is some sort of an attraction between the two of us. But don't tell anyone I said that. Lee Sangyeon is hopelessly attractive and I couldn't help myself to have developed a crush on him. If it wasn't for his shady career choice, I would have hooked up with him in an instant.

“How many times do I have to tell you Kevin? I want nothing to do with him,” I cry while Kevin snickers.

“He's not even that bad, he only hurts people who have wronged him” Kevin explains.”But never mind about him, Jacob really wants to meet you and you said you’re free Friday so please, please pl-”

“Fine oh my god.” I huff while Kevin claps, pleased with himself. “One problem, I have nothing to wear.”

“Not to worry about that sweetheart, I got that covered. Just text me your measurements.” Kevin says. I was going to try to argue with him but I knew he would win no matter what, so I just shot him a thumbs up.

“Anyways babes I gotta go to class now. See ya y/n!” Kevin grins, blew me an air kiss which I caught with a small smile, and walked out of the cafe.

I sigh and put the cleaning supplies away. As I went to greet a customer, all I could think was - it's just a ball, with your best friend and his boyfriend. What could possibly go wrong?

~

On Thursday night, as I was getting ready to make dinner, there was a knock on my apartment door. I went to answer it, but found no one there when I opened it. Instead, a white box with a small bag on top, both had my name on it. “Oh yes.” I thought to myself. “The criminal ball.”

I grabbed both items and brought them to my room to open them. I unsecure the first box to be greeted to white tissue paper and a note on top, which I pick up and read the writing.

“This colour will look ravishing on you. Can’t wait to see you tomorrow.”

Or at least that's what I thought it said. It was written in a script that I had never seen before, and it certainly wasn't Kevin’s handwriting. Maybe Jacob’s? I put the note aside and unwrap the tissue paper to take out the dress and my jaw drops. I pull out a ball gown that was wine red and had a lace strapless top with a semi-poofy skirt attached. Below it were gold open toed high heels. I laid everything down on my bed and reached for the small bag that was on top. Without checking first, I pull out what was in that bag and gasp. In my hands is a beautiful gold mask with black silk fabric to wrap around my eyes. Fuck. Kevin never mentioned it being a masquerade ball? Now I have a higher chance of running into Lee Sangyeon since I probably won’t be able to tell who's who.

I send Kevin a quick text saying thank you for the dress, cursing him out for not telling me that piece of info. To finish my day, I made my dinner and went to bed early.

~

Friday night at 6:45pm, found me applying my last coat of lipstick as I stood up from my vanity chair. Staring back at me in the mirror was a completely different person. I loosely curled my long straight hair so it was falling down my back in waves. My makeup was not too heavy, yet not too light. My eyeshadow was a nude colour to contrast with my mask, as well as my lipstick was wine red to match my gown. The dress and shoes fit me perfectly (thanks Kevin), as well as the finishing touch, the gold mask.

My phone beeps and I looked down to see a text that the car Kevin sent for me was here, so I grabbed my phone and clutch and locked up my apartment. “Goodbye bed, I’ll see you later tonight.” I thought to myself, smirking.

The car waiting for me downstairs was gorgeous and sleek, and when I entered the back seat, the driver tipped his hat at me and we were on our way.

After driving 20 mins out of the city, the driver turns onto a single sided road where in the distance, I could see a huge house with bright lights shining.

“Oh my god.” I whispered to myself as the driver pulled up to a mansion - no - castle with a staircase leading to the entrance. The car stops and I could feel myself start to get nauseous. The driver came to open my door, lending me a hand so I could get out of the car safely.

“Have a great evening, Miss y/n.”

“Thank you, I do hope so.” I smile softly as I turned to walk up the staircase on this warm June evening.

As I was walking in the big hallway that led to what I'm guessing is the ballroom, I went over my rules for tonight. 1) Don't trip 2) stay with Kevin 3) avoid Sangyeon at all costs.

But of course, when the guards opened the big double doors for me to enter, everyone stopped what they were doing and stared at me as I walked further into the room. I see someone come forward from the crowd of people and my eyes go wide because I know it is not Kevin or Jacob.

Lee Sangyeon is walking towards me like he had been waiting for this moment, and there was nothing I could do about it.

He looks amazing of course, like a walking marble statue that came to life. His light brown hair was pushed back to reveal his amazing eyebrows and smirking lips and he was dressed in a black velvet suit that was so low cut that I could see a glimpse of his defined pecs. He wore a black velvet mask over his brown eyes. Sangyeon had me very much weak at the knees right now so thank god everyone went back to minding their own business.

“Y/n! I'm so glad you could make it.” He smiles at me. That goddamn smile. “You look exquisite.” Sangyeon said to me as he reached down, grabs my hand and softly kisses it while staring at me.

My breath hitches. “You don’t look too bad yourself.” I softly smile at him. “Now excuse me,” I whisper, attempting to create some distance. But his hand on mine got tighter.  “May I have this dance?” Sangyeon asks. I nod my head, not sure what took over me. He softly smiles at me and leads me toward the dance floor, where other couples are dancing already. As we were nearing the dance floor, I felt myself trip over my gown. Before I could faceplant with the floor, rough hands were on my waist pulling me up.

“Be careful y/n.” Sangyeon chuckles and I thought I would throw up on his designer shoes.

He puts my hands on his neck and grabs my waist to pull me close to him. Sangyeon starts to sway me back and forth, eyes never leaving mine. As we danced for a few minutes, I felt his thumb lightly brush against my hip bone and I saw him slightly leaning his face towards mine. I finally jumped out of the trance he put me in and unwrapped my arms from his neck.

“I can’t do this. Excuse me.” I told Sangyeon as I brushed past him, leaving him on the dancefloor alone.

I speed walk over to the bar and spot a familiar black head of curls standing with a brunette boy wearing a similar tux.

“Where have you been, asshole?” I yell behind Kevin, making him jump and then smile at me.

“Hey y/n you made it! Meet Jacob, my boyfriend.” He gestures towards the man next to him wearing the same mask.

“Nice to meet you, Jacob. Kev, I'm getting a drink and then calling a cab to leave. I can’t be here.” I say while looking around.

Before Kevin could say anything back, I turned my back to him and ordered red wine from the nearest bartender. I sigh and drink my wine and look over at the guy who is standing next to me.

“Rough night?’ He smiles at me.

“You could say that.” I smile back as I drank more of my wine.

He chuckles and extends his hand to me.”I’m Bang Chan.”

“Y/n.” I shake his hand back.

His smile faded once I said my name.”You’re Lee’s girl?”

I stare wide eyed at him. “I'm who's girl??”

Before he could answer me, a body was standing between us. Sangyeon.

“Piss off Bang, she's mine.” Sangyeon growls at him.

“Excuse me?” I said but no one seems to hear me.

“Chill out Lee, I was just getting to know her, but I’ll leave.” Bang Chan waves bye to me behind Sangyeon’s back and walks away.

Sangyeon turned around and looked at me, his defined jaw clenching tightly.

“Y/n, we are leaving.” He states.

“I am not going anywhere with you!” I yell back while a muscle in his jaw twitches as he clenches  his hands into a fist.

“Y/n. I suggest you go with him before he tries to shoot someone, because he will.” Kevin appears and says behind me, squeezing my shoulder. I just nod my head at Sangyeon. Kevin would never put me in danger. Right?

Before I could even say bye, Sangyeon grabs my hand and is leading me out the ballroom door, out of the castle and towards his car.

He opens the passenger seat car door for me. “Get in.” He says to me. I glare at him as I get in slowly.

Sangyeon shuts the door and walks over to the driver side, gets in, takes his mask off, and starts the car without even saying anything. And we are off to god knows where.

The entire drive was silent. Sangyeon is gripping the wheel tightly, rough fingers scattered with rings turning white. I'm too scared to move, only moving my hands to remove my mask and my heels that were starting to hurt my feet.

20 minutes later, we are back in the city and Sangyeon is pulling into a parking garage surrounded by guards. He pulls into a parking spot, and leaves the car after stopping it. I open the car door to follow him, barefoot and all.

In the elevator I kept trying to glance over at Sangyeon, but he’s looking straight ahead, defined jaw still clenched. The elevator door opens and I gasp. I walk out behind Sangyeon to see a beautiful penthouse common area surrounded by glass windows overlooking the city night sky.

Before I could even admire the place and the city lights that surrounded the room, my back is being pushed against a hard wall to face a livid Sangyeon. He grabs  my wrists and leans in.

“How dare you talk to other men, especially him.” Sangyeon growls in my ear. “You’re mine.”

I stare at him in disbelief as he faces me again. “I-I will never be yours. You can't tell me what to do.”

A smirk slowly appears on his face. “Oh yeah? We will see about that, princess.”

Before I could even think of a witty response back, Sangyeon grabbed my face and his lips were on mine, and I felt my tough interior crumble as I wrap my arms around his neck and pull him even closer, bodies touching.

He kisses me again. And again. Like he is possessing me. And it was working as I kissed him back hard. “You are mine” Sangyeon whispers against my lips. “No one else’s.” Sangyeon starts kissing down my neck, lightly sucking on certain parts, while I’m biting my lip trying to hold back my moans. It felt so goddamn good, but I'm stubborn and didn't want him to have the upper hand. Sangyeon sucks hard on the crook of my neck, making me release my lips and moan as I feel him smirk against my neck. He won, I lost and now I am melting into his touch.

Sangyeon kisses my shoulders and exposed collarbones, stops and chuckles into the crook of my neck.

“You know I picked this dress for you. Not Kevin.” he says while unzipping my gown.

“What?” I whisper, shocked.

“You heard me.” Then my dress is on the ground, leaving me in just my black strapless bra and panties.  Sangyeon is staring at my body with lust covered eyes as I just stare back at him, both of us breathing heavily, a boner starting to appear in his velvet suit pants.

“Wow, you’re so fucking beautiful.” He says quickly before kissing me again hard on the lips, shoving each other's tongues deep inside our mouths.

“Jump” He mumbles against my mouth and I obey, wrapping my legs around him as he carries me to his bedroom, never breaking the kiss.

When we enter his room, he lays me down softly on the huge mattress and proceeds to take my bra off, leaving me topless.

“God, these tits.” I hear him growl as I hiss at the cold air hitting my bare breasts, but the hissing quickly turns into moans as Sangyeon takes my right nipple into his mouth and sucks on it while playing with the other one using his hand.

“Fuck.” I moan loudly, mouth parting.

After rotating, sucking and playing with my breasts, Sangyeon removes his mouth from my nipple and starts to kiss down my stomach, inching towards my panties.

“You're such a good girl for me.” He coos on my stomach as I moan and squirm. Sangyeon brushes his fingers lightly against the fabric of my panties and looks up at me and mouths “you sure?” I nod my head back. He smiles before removing my panties with his teeth. I am now bare naked in front of a fully clothed Lee Sangyeon.

Sangyeon positions himself right in front of my pussy and spreads my legs open as I gasp and watch him lean down. He kisses and sucks on both my thighs, guaranteeing hickeys in those spots later on.

“You’re so fucking ethereal, Y/n.” Sangyeon mumbles and kisses the tops of my thighs softly, and before I could even think, his mouth was on my clit and I scream.

“FUCK Sangyeon oh my god!” I arch my back and moan loud as he licks into my clit.

“So wet me for me already.” He murmurs against my pussy.

He starts to suck and kiss my clit and I can’t breathe. I could feel his tongue exploring my entire pussy, eating it up as if it was his favorite food. My hands found his soft light brown hair and as I ran my hands through it, he sucked on my clit even harder. After for what seemed like seconds, Sangyeon comes up for air and proceeds to put a finger slowly in my hole, pumping in and out.

“You tasted so good, I can’t wait to see how you take my fingers and then my cock.” Sangyeon rasps out as he adds another finger as I'm a moaning mess below him.

“FUCK! Im gonna-” “Cum for me babygirl.” He says while pumping his fingers faster. I arch my back and scream his name while I cum onto his rough digits. He removes them from my pussy and sucks on the juices that got on them.

“Tastes so sweet.” He says while licking his fingers clean and staring directly at my hooded eyes and parted mouth.

Before I can even catch my breath, his lips are on mine quickly, stands up from the bed and unbuttons his blazer, revealing his amazing toned upper body and taking off his pants and boxers, cock slapping against his abs. He was huge, I gulp knowing that that's going to be inside me soon.

“I'm on the pill!” I hear myself blurt out. Sangyeon chuckles at that.

“Good to know y/n.” He says with a smile while running a hand through his hair before positioning himself over my body, hands on each side of me and aligning his cock with my hole.

“This is gonna hurt.” I thought to myself, since the last time I had sex was high school and it was awful to say the least.

Sangyeon starts to slide his dick in slowly and I can’t breathe again.

“Fuck. You're such a tight baby girl.” He rasps out as I let out a string of curses.

Sangyon thrusts into me slowly at first, but when he realizes i'm no longer screaming and just moaning, he removes his cock and slams it back into me hard and fast, which makes me lose my mind. He swears under his breath a few times before he speeds up the movements. I wrap my arms and legs around him, leaving scratches on his back as he leans closer to me and touches his forehead with mine.

“You're so beautiful sprawled out like this under me princess.” he growls into my ear as he thrusts even harder into my pussy, making both of us swear and moan each other's names as I move my hands from his back to his hair and he moves his to play with my nipples.

Between Sangyeon pinching my nipples and his cock tearing me open, the pleasure flowing through right now is something I have never felt before.

“Shit y/n!” Sangyeon grunts and thrusts hard once more into my pussy and pulls his dick out and uses his right hand to pump out his orgasm all over my stomach. His other hand reaches down to rub my clit in circles while kissing my neck and leaving more hickeys to help ride out my second orgasm of the night.

“Fuck Sangyeon!” I scream as I release all over his fingers once again. He licks it up again and mumbles “so sweet princess.” while looking at my dilated pupils.

He gets off me and rolls over so that he's beside my overstimulated body but head is tilted towards my direction.

“Are you okay?” Sangyeon asks me, concerned eyes looking over my shaking body that's struggling to even look at where he is.

“I'm amazing.” I respond back softly, him sighing in relief as he strokes my cheek with his knuckle.

“I've wanted to do this for so long.” He whispers and smiles softly at me.

“Me too.” I whisper back smiling as he kisses my lips softly and jumps out of bed, and runs into the connected bathroom fully naked leaving me alone in his huge bed, body paralyzed.

Sangyeon returns with a washcloth and a bowl of warm water and moves my shaking body so I'm lying on his leg while he dips the cloth in the water and starts to clean me up.

“You did so well for me. You were so beautiful when you came. So beautiful for me.” He murmurs to me fondly, rubbing the cloth over my body tenderly as I'm falling in and out of slumber. As I fall asleep, Sangyeon gets into bed next to me and tucks us both in. He kisses my forehead and wraps his arms around my waist and I rest my head on his chest.

“What a night.” I think to myself before dozing off in Sangyeons strong arms, moonlight shining through the huge windows.

Tomorrow is a new day, where we decide what happens next. But one thing's for sure.

I am addicted to Lee Sangyeon.

~

Light shines through the windows as I open my eyes to an unfamiliar surrounding, and then it hits me. I had mindblowing sex with Lee Sangyeon and now I am lying naked, tangled in his bedsheets. I feel an arm loosely draped around my bare waist. As I sigh and glance over next to me, I find Sangyeon lying on his side, staring at me with fond eyes.

“Good morning, beautiful.” He whispers to me in his deep morning voice. Swoon.

“Good morning, handsome.” I whisper back to him with a smile on my face.

I untangle myself from his arm, and attach my lips softly to his. Sangyeon does not react at first, but proceeds to kiss me back softly and full of tenderness as he cups my face into his hands. I break the kiss and lay my head on his bare chest.

“Last night was amazing.” Sangyeon murmurs into my hair and kisses my temple as I nod back.

Oh fuck, I just remembered. I sat up and faced the man with wide eyes.

“What's wrong baby?” Sangyeon asks, genuinely concerned.

“Fuck, what do I tell Kevin?” I gape at him.

Sangyeon chuckles loudly, eyes crinkling as he grabs my waist and pulls me down towards him. He tickles me, making me laugh.

After lying in bed for what seemed like hours and just talking, Sangyeon reaches over to the night table next to him. He grabs his phone and starts to furiously type as I just stare at his fingers flying across the screen.

“I told Jacob he is in charge over at the house this weekend, which means I get to spend it all with you.” He says as he puts his phone back down. Apparently, now I was spending the weekend at Sangyeon’s luxury penthouse. Good thing I didn’t have work this weekend.

After taking a shower in Sangyeon’s massive ensuite bathroom (and looking at myself in the mirror, in shock at the sight of my hickeys across my body), I changed into the clothes he left me, which seems to be his boxers and a blue and pink pullover sweater. I walk out of the bedroom towards the kitchen to find a very shirtless Sangyeon putting waffles on the island counter. He briefly explained to me earlier that he sent all his staff home, including his cooks, so it could just be us in the penthouse.

“Wow, waffles? You really know the way to a girl's heart.” I say amused as I take a seat on one of the island chairs.

He laughs loud and leans over the island, arms resting on the counter. “It's one of the only things I know how to make, so expect take out the rest of the weekend.” Sangyeon says with a smile on his beautiful face as I wolfed down the waffles in front of me.

“One day I’ll teach you how to cook.” I wink at him.

Sangyeon grabs my hand softly and rubs his thumb over my knuckles and kisses them softly. “I would love that, y/n.” He says with a smile on his face.

The rest of the day is spent just relaxing. Sangyeon shows me around his penthouse, from his impressive indoor gym to his walk in closet in which he implies that will once be mine as well. I ignore his comment. Afterwards, he shows me the tv room where a massive flat screen was attached to the wall and asks me to pick a movie, which I pick The Notebook.

“Really y/n?” Sangyeon rolls his eyes as he sets the movie up.

“Yes Sangyeon really. Now come sit here and enjoy.” I respond as I pat the spot on the leather couch next to me.

After the movie, and laughing at an almost crying Sangyeon, I go to retrieve my phone from my clutch to find 15 missed calls from Kevin.

“Oh good! He didn't kill you!” Kevin cries in my ear after picking up after the first ring.

“Yes Kev, I'm totally fine.” I respond quietly.

“Did you guys fuck?” Kevin asks and when I don’t respond, he screams into the phone, which makes me cringe and move the device away from my ear.

“OMG I KNEW IT YOU HAVE TO TELL ME EVERYTHING! WAS HIS DICK AS BIG AS JACOB AND I THOUGHT?” He yells into the phone as I softly chuckle and proceeds to tell everything to a panicking Kevin.

“Holy shit. I owe Eric $50.” Kevin sighs into the phone after I explained everything to him.

“You were betting on me? Anyways I don't even wanna know.” I say annoyed.

“Are you guys like a thing now?” He asks me.

“I'm not entirely sure.” I reply unsure.

“Well no matter what, I support you sweetcheeks.” Kevin assures.

I snort. “Thanks Kev, right back at you. Gotta go now eat dinner, I'll update you later.”

Kevin laughs. “Enjoy Sangyeons big d-” I hung up on him.

That night found Sangyeon and I, fully clothed, cuddled in bed and holding each other, just listening to each other's heartbeat and making small talk.

“Sangyeon, how did you become the leader of TBZ?” I asked, looking up at him from where my head was on his chest.

He sighs and looks straight ahead. “For generations, a Lee has always led the gang, no matter what. It was between my cousins and myself, but my elders picked me, as my dad was the former leader before he passed and I've always been a leader, even since I was a young boy,” Sangyeon replies.

“I’m so sorry.” I say to him. He smiles softly and kisses my cheek.

“Don’t worry about me princess. Tell me, what are you studying?” He asks me.

“I'm studying childhood studies and english lit  so after I graduate I can enroll in a teachers college. I wanna be an elementary school teacher.” I answer him proudly.

Sangyeon smiles at me fondly. “You will be an amazing teacher.” He says while stroking my face with his hands. He kisses me softly as I melt into his touch.

After not being so sure about Sangyeon, I have come to realize how amazing he is. I can feel myself starting to like him more and more each day.

I am his and he is mine and in the end, it's him and I.

~

Months pass, and Sangyeon and I can’t get enough of each other. Everyday when I finish my shift at work, he picks me up and we either go to his place or mine to have dinner. Last week I even taught him how to boil pasta! But, sometimes we don’t even make it to dinner because I end up riding him in the back of his luxury car. Whoops.

One day while we were lying in bed after having sex, I sat up.

“Wait Sangyeon, what are we?” I asked him, facing where he was lying on his back.

Sangyeon sat up next to me.  “Well y/n, I'm extremely fond of you and think you are the most intelligent and beautiful girl I have ever laid eyes on, and I wish to give you nothing but happiness and satisfaction. I would love nothing more than for you to be my girlfriend,” He says to me, a glimmer in his eyes.

I stare at him, shocked because no one has ever said anything like this to me, and then I felt myself smile at him as I wrap my arms around his shoulders.

“Yes Lee Sangyeon, I will be your girlfriend. I will be yours.”

He smiles wide back at me. “Then you are all mine.” He whispers back as he connects his lips with mine for a passionate kiss.

Kevin thinks it’s hilarious that I wear more turtlenecks more often, which always makes me turn beet red. Because when Sangyeon and I have sex, he doesn’t just bite, he chews on my body like a fucking dog (“Doesnt it feel so good though?” “Kevin I swear to god.”) I have also gotten to meet Sangyeon’s entire gang, made up of 11 men including himself, and watching Sangyeon speak to them so confidently and leader-like makes my heart flutter. Yeah, I definitely think I’ve fallen in love with Lee Sangyeon.

A rainy Thursday afternoon found me finishing up my shift at work, getting ready to close the cafe as the only employee left. Sangyeon had texted me earlier saying he couldn't pick me up today due to an important meeting, so I was stuck walking home alone. Which was fine with me since my apartment was only a ten minute walk from the cafe.

As I was locking up the cafe doors, I heard a car engine behind me. I turned around smiling, expecting to see Sangyeon, but my smile faded, when the window opened and Bang Chan was in the passenger seat, pointing a gun at me.

“Y/n. Get in the car right now so no one gets hurt.” He commands me in a monotone voice.

“Never.” I sneer back at him and start to back away from the car.

“Fine. Guess we are doing this the hard way.” He replies.

Before I could sprint away, someone appeared behind me, put a cloth to my mouth and grabbed my waist. As the world around me went black, all I could think was, “Lee Sangyeon is going to murder you for stealing his girl.”

Blood. Blood is dripping from a gash in my forehead when I regain consciousness. I look around frantically to find myself in what looked like an abandoned warehouse with my hands and legs tied together with heavy rope.

“Help!” I scream loudly, but that did not do anything for my situation. Instead, Bang Chan enters with another man holding a rifle and I feel another scream forming in my throat. The rope tied around my hands and legs were digging into my flesh and I could feel blood emerging from them.

“Ah y/n! Lee’s playtoy! Glad to see you awake!” Bang Chan claps and smiles at me wickedly while I just glare back.

“TBZ knows you're with us sweetheart.” He says. “We told them it's either you or the money.”

My mouth opens and then closes. “What money? I swear I don't know anything, he never tells me about his work,” I cry to him.

“LIES!” Bang Chan screams. “Han. Go get her.” The other man - Han - walks over to me, ignites the rifle and puts it against my head hard. I start to cry even harder and squirm in my spot even though I feel the rope burning getting worse.

“We are going to try this again y/n. Where is the money?” Bang Chan yells into my face. I spat at him and Han forced the gun to my already bleeding forehead harder.

“I'm done. Shoot her.” Bang Chan shouts.

“No, please don't shoot!” I cry, knowing nothing will make a difference.

As I felt Han press down on the trigger, I stop thrashing and sat still. At this point, there was nothing I could do to stop this myself.

Lee Sangyeon, don't forget about me.

“DON’T FUCKING TOUCH HER!” A familiar voice yells behind Bang Chan.

I wail loud with my last bit of strength I had.  “Help m-” BOOM!

Around me, I see the building collapse, rubble hitting my head as it knocks me over. Gunshots were loud and clear although my ears were ringing loud.

The last thing I remember before blacking out again were strong arms pulling me out of rubble.

Beeping. White ceiling. That is what I see and hear when I finally regain consciousness again. Looking around the plain room, I can see that I’m in a hospital bed. There is a bandage on my head and I can feel both my wrists and feet bandaged tightly, as well as an IV in my right arm. I move my head to the right slowly to the hallway window and see guards are positioned outside the hospital room. “Anything for Lee Sangyeon’s girl.” I think to myself and chuckle.

Wait. Sangyeon. Where is he? Is he alive?

“Hey sweet cheeks.” I hear a voice from the other side of the room. I slowly turn my head to see Kevin standing up from the couch that is in front of my bed and smiling at me.

“I'm glad you're okay. You woke up earlier than the doctors thought. You don’t have to worry about the Stray Kids gang anymore. They all died in the explosion.” He explains to me.

I nod my head slowly.

“Sangyeon. Where is Sangyeon?” I rasp out to Kevin.

Kevin softly smirks and shakes his head at the ground. “He's okay, he was here a few minutes ago, he hasn’t left your side in days. I’ll go get him, he's just getting his bandages touched up. He got injured in the explosion while pulling you out of the rubble.” Kevin tells me as I feel tears in my eyes. He would’ve sacrificed himself to save my life.

After patting my head softly, Kevin left the room to get Sangyeon, leaving me alone crying softly.

“Y/n.” I gasp and sit up and look towards the door, where the love of my life, Lee Sangyeon is standing with white bandages on his left arm and tears streaming down his scratched up, but beautiful face. Seeing him standing in front of me, makes me cry even harder. Without saying anything, I rip the IV out of my arm, slide out of the bed and jump into Sangyeons arms, and engulf him in a hug, which he gladly returns.

“I thought I lost you.” I cry into his shoulder as he sits down on the bed with me on his lap. I move my head to stare into his beautiful eyes, that still have his usual shimmer, even after all that has happened. “You'll never lose me.” He whispers fondly as he cups my face in his hands and wipes away my tears softly with his right thumb.

Sangyeon held me like I was a broken doll, fragile but sweet. He whispered sorry to me over and over again, which I quickly shushed and ran a bandaged hand through his soft brown hair.

“I love you so much.” I say to him, grabbing his neck softly and pulling him towards me.

“I love you more princess.” He says while smiling wide at me, which made me smile back at him as we connected foreheads.

~

“God Sangyeon. Go take a shower you stink.” I say to him as we enter his penthouse after being in the hospital for days, which ended with the doctor clearing both of us. I got the bandages on my head, hands, and feet, and he got his bandages removed.

“And you don’t smell y/n?” He smirks at me as I scoff. “Shower with me.” He says, eyes darkening as my breath hitches.

“Okay.” I nod, and we are on our way to his huge ensuite bathroom.

We both strip out of our dirty clothes and get into the massive glass shower, me going in first with Sangyeon following.

I watch him pump the liquid from the shampoo bottle into his hands, and lather the shampoo into my hair as he stands behind me.

“You’re so fucking beautiful Y/n” Sangyeon tells me as I lean my back into his chest. His hands lightly trace my body, lingering on my lower stomach and my breasts. I could feel his erection growing, and being the little greedy bitch I am, I grind down on it slowly. All of a sudden, he turns me around and attaches his lips to mine hard, and we are both caught in a rough make out session. He breaks the kiss and stares at me with lust clouded eyes.

“Are you gonna take care of this princess?” Sangyeon asks me while his eyes are motioning to his cock.

“Yes Sir.” I reply, not sure where that came from, as he pushes my shoulders down lightly and I feel myself fall to my knees.

Without thinking, I grab his hard cock with my hands and pump it a few times.I licked the slit tasting the precum that had come out, before sinking my mouth down his shaft softly, making him swear under his breath.

“Fuck you’re such a good girl. You suck my cock so well.” He hisses while grabbing my hair and guiding my head back and forth while I lap up his precum. He guides my head so that I swallow his cock and I gag on it a bit, which makes him growl loudly. My watering eyes glanced up at Sangyeon to see his head tilted back, mouth open partially.

“Fuck y/n I’m gonna cum. Gonna dirty up that hot mouth of yours.” Sangyeon rasps out as I feel his hot cum go down my throat as he rides out his orgasm. I release myself from his dripping cock and swallow the cum that had landed in my mouth.

“Fuck y/n. Princess. You're so good at that.” He cooes at me while helping me stand up and kisses me quickly and firmly on the mouth.

“Do I get something for being good, Sir?” I ask him while batting my eyes together, trying to pout as much as I could.

“That depends, what do you want? You want me to fuck you in this shower until you can't walk” He asks me loudly.

“God yes!” I answer him. Sangyeon picks me up like I weigh nothing as I wrap my legs and arms around his broad body.

“FUCK!” I scream as Sangyeon slams his cock into my pussy without any warning.

“You’re so fucking tight, shit.” Sangyeon curses under his breath.

I moan like crazy as Sangyeon fucks me hard, every thrust hitting my g-spot.

“You feel so good y/n. Your tight pussy feels amazing around my cock.” He rasps out before sucking on my jaw, making me arch my back and moan. I could feel my orgasm coming already. Sangyeon is a sex god and he knew how to have me cumming within seconds.

“I'm gonna cum in you, y/n, ok? I want you to feel my hot cum inside of you.” He growls in my ear as I loudly moan. I couldn't even answer him, I just nodded my head while leaving scratches on his back.

“FUCK!” We both scream and cum at the same time, I shudder feeling Sangyeons hot load entering my pussy. He drops his head onto my shoulder, whispering praise in my ear as I'm shaking in his arms. Both of us panting and sweating, even underneath the water. When he pulls his cock out, his cum and my cum is dripping fast out of my pussy. Sangyeon puts me down but I start to fall over, so he catches me and starts to snicker.

“Well I guess we have to take a real shower now and clean ourselves up.” He says amusingly as I roll my eyes and smack his chest as he laughs.

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June 2021, I finally graduate college! As my name is being called, shouts and cheers come from the audience as I look and see the entire TBZ gang jumping up and down. My smile grows even bigger when I'm shaking the headmaster's hand and see Sangyeon, my boyfriend of one year, in the audience holding a bouquet of red roses with a huge proud smile on his face. After enrolling in teacher’s college and officially moving in with Sangyeon, Kevin announces to everyone over a gang family dinner that he and Jacob are getting married, and that I'm his best person, which makes the whole gang erupt in chaos. Sangyeon has to calm everyone down, and congratulates the happy couple fondly, knowing that everyone will be as supportive when he finally asks his best girl to marry him.

Two months later I found myself at the MoonBae wedding. During the reception, Kevin calls all the non-married men and women to the dance floor so he can throw the bouquet. What shocks everyone the most is when I catch it, making Kevin and Jacob both scream and tackle me in a hug. Sangyeon chokes on his glass of scotch and turns purple watching the whole event unfold.

Sangyeon proposes to me one quiet night four months after Kevin and Jacob’s wedding as we are both drinking wine and watching the sunset on his penthouse balcony.

“Y/n, You are the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me.” He says to me with tears in eyes as he gets down on one knee. “Will you marry me?” Sangyeon asks.

“Yes! Of course I’ll marry you. ” I answer him crying.

Sangyeon smiles wide at me and picks me up and spins me around before kissing me passionately.

“I love you so much y/n l/n.”

“I love you more Lee Sangyeon.”

“You’re mine forever.”

“And I'm yours.”

well i hope you enjoyed! sorry if it was bad or rushed again it was my first time hehe

stream breaking dawn and support tbz on kingdom :D

[seospicybin]

Hello! I have been following your account for a while now and have binge read most (if not all) your works. I was wondering if you could make a fic about y/n being a little insecure about herself (esp with her thighs... maybe about the marks and it's... how do I say this- thickness??). The member would do whatever they can to make y/n feel good about themselves and shower that part of them with so much love and kisses? Like a soft nsfw? Does that make sense?? Hahah. I was just feeling a bit down lately and I really enjoy how you describe how each character feels (emotionally and physically).

I really enjoyed how y/n praised Felix's freckles in 'Constellations' as if they were literal constellations that their world could never live without. It made me feel so warm and soft despite knowing what was coming up ahead aahahhaha. Any member would do however it would be nice if it was Changbin... he comforts me ALOT and hearing some sweet words and praises coming from him might literally make me cry in the middle of reading the smut/fic AHHAHAHA.

Anyway, I wanted my first ask on this new acc to be flirty since everyone was doing it and having fun, I didn't want to say anything too serious and break the lighthearted feeling... but life's kinda taking a toll and I'm sure the same goes for everyone! I've said this before on my ask in your old acc but I really looking forward to waking up because of your fics and it has been my escape from reality (god this is turning so cheesy but I really need the comfort of someone else's words rn abahhahaha Ó╭╮Ò ). Thank you so much for you and your fics, you have no idea how much it has helped me wahhh. You don't have to do this btw! I would totally understand especially with how hectic everything is, plus, you just recently posted one of Changbin already.

Supporting you from backstage! ✨🖤

Yes, I remember you! I do, bcs the first ask you sent was so sweet and you sent me another ask now and it's just as sweet 🥰

Who are you? Why are you so sweet to me? 🥺

It was the first thing that I read on a sunday morning and I'm on my period so my hormones are already a mess but reading this make me a soft fluffy melancholic mess 🥲

I'm not against writing about body positivity and don't get me wrong, I have thick thighs myself and a big nose like Chan but often times, when I saw fics abt body positivity, it only made me even more insecure about myself. That's why I avoid writing y/n's physical appearance in my fics but I'll try to make one abt maybe y/n having a scar/marks, I think I can do that 😊

And oh please, I like cheese! Whether the cheese food or cheese the skz song, I love being cheesy. Being cheesy is needed esp in fictions. Didn’t you read all the cheesy lines in my fics?! That's how cheesy I am, so pls don't be shy to be cheesy to me 😄

Writing is my escape when life is taking its toll on me so I know more or less abt how you feel but pls know that your kind words made my day. Treat yourself with some nice meals, you deserve it, my love! 💗 -f.

[neo-shitty]

toffee!

yeah same, i follow some fic accs that occaisionally post smut and its like mmmmm is the fluff writing enough to balance the posts that gives me finger burn trying to scroll past it? but yeah thats probably the way to go

ah i wasnt there for the teaser but i can imagine that was tantalising. lmaoo yes but to be fair i do have a writing acc called channiesbigheart so... balancing it out? but i absolutely am whipped beyond belief. it was a TRAVESTY how COULD they have. yeah the b sides gave him more lines but they werent the ones that were performed over and over at stages. yessss the line distribution in this album is impeccable, im pretty sure the thunderous stuff was some of their best distribution

hehe i can understand that, sometimes putting someone in a situation so horrible it would be considered a violation of human rights is theraputic, ya know? mmmm the differences are a bit nuts, it was 14 degrees today and in less than a week its going to be 32 or smth. BROOO that would be legendary, i bet theyd treat their artists rlly well and have great music as well ahhh but its a lot of work adn commitment. yES that is a mood if ever i heard one.

its the same in australia as well, sadly, you have people who hold up harry styles and lil nas x for breaking gender roles and wearing make up adn steryotypical womens clothing (and keep in mind i have infinite respect for both of them theyre honestly doing so much for the de-dehumanising of gay people and those who wear whatever they want), and calling the kpop boys gay and other things for doing the same thing, when theyve been doing it for years and gotten no recognition smh its so tragic. yes, anyway YES ONLY 6 MONTHS I AM FOR ALL INTENTS AND PURPOSES A BBY STAN altho i considered myself a fully fledged stay like 2 days after i got into them cos i just spent all day researching and fixating. YES someone said it. it feels like theyre losing a huge chunk of why a lot of people liked their music in teh first place, which was that whole dna, dope, fire mood. and even doing bright songs is fine, liek they should do what they want but i feel liek the western music industry is so fucking toxic that they feel pressured into making these decisions. dont get me wrong, theyre good decisions from a business perspective, theyre getting record breaking sales but still. mmm yeah honestly yg just needs to get its shit together or get out

oooh! not into nct but i see a lot of him, he seems rlly talented. ahh yes another channie ult lmaoo i feel that, my list is growing in leaps and bounds as well. mmm yeah i think i will, im just going to try to save enough money :) mingi appealed to me mostly for the voice (like felix smh what is it with me and deep voiced bois) but also his soft visuals and the whole cutesy thing he has going on i rlly liked. yes i did get into them while he was on hiatus, but im still mostly a casual stan, ill listen to the album when it comes out but i dont think ill obsessively look over everything to do with it, like skz. HAH WE'RE MORE SIMILAR THAN I THOUGHT. lmaooo the thot line describes them perfectly, why are they all so damn attractive. especially seonghwa, like that man looks like a character from a book, cardan greenbriar vibes anyone? mmhmm! his vocals are absolutely insane. ty! yeah im excited altho idk how theyre every going to beat border:carnival, that shit was impeccable. ahh no stress, enjoy teh groups you stan atm!

ahh thank you so much, ill keep that in mind. hehe thats good! hopefully its soon :( ah ty, it means a lot. ill think abt that and hopefully talk abt it a little more :)

ah, no it was inside our gymnasium but to get to the other side of the stage you had to exit the building, go around the back and then enter through the other stage door. ah tysm! im glad too. mmm same, they baffle me. ;n; noo so sad :( ahh, thats um not smth i put on here, but im in high school so make of that what you will :)

thank you! ive done a majority of them, i just have maths, an english presentation and an economic assignment due now so im pretty much home free. yeah i feel like hes the epitome of here for you while being inescapably far away. haha she sounds like one of my friends. lmaooo why is that me. hmmm i feel like youve answered a lot of them in that answer so maybe just ateez, enha, txt and bp? if you stan them? :)

ahhh no problem at all, proud of you for managing to overcome the procrastination! progress! mmm thats good! ahh pls do let me know if you ever decide that, i cant promise i wont cry but do what you gotta do :)

<3 w.a. 🐺

hi! sorry for the late reply, i didn't know how to construct sentences yesterday e.e

yeah sometimes it's the perfect balance! i personally don't like fics that focus mainly on the filth? the plot has to carry the whole fic somehow and the smut is just something to add to the mix. also, i'll follow you on your writing blog! i keep forgetting to do so, damn it.

"sometimes putting someone in a situation so horrible it would be considered a violation of human rights is theraputic, ya know?" putting it this way just silenced me but yes. angst just feels more realistic. it isn't always happy endings irl so i tend to do it a lot.

falling into skz is so easy! it felt like that for me too. stanning them felt like getting sucked into a blackhole. also yes i agree. kpop is nothing but an industry after all and it runs on money so i get why they do what they do as well.

i suggest we not talk about haechan because i will literally not shut up but yes my boy is an ace :( chan is also sooooo easy to love. and the chan's rooms just solidified his place as ult. having something to look forward to every week at a time when my mental health was just plummeting into the depths of tartarus just helped me be stable. oh yeah, mingi's deep voice is indeed sexc. and he has some wack ass duality as well! and i think seonghwa was one of the people i nearly considered as bias just because of his visuals because wow that's one beautiful face. and true, idk how enha's going to beat border:carnival. i don't like all the tracks simply bc of taste preferenceds but i like more than one so i consider that a lot already.

bro that gym should've had some sort of a covered walk :// also i miss being in high school sO DAMN MUCH. but i still feel like i am because time stopped when quarantine started and i was still in senior year at the time.

my ateez bias is wooyoung! it wasn't that much of a shocker to my kpop stan irls because i was a jimin stan for the longest time. enhypen is jake and they kept pointing out that he looked like seungmin sometimes so it's like chan's aussie-ness with a tinge of seungmin (the other guy in my skz bias line, in case i haven't mentioned it). txt is huening kai! i find it hard to believe that he's my age because he looks a lot younger? o.O and he always looks good damn :(( sigh for blackpink it's lisa! i tend to bias the maknaes of yg groups, it's a pattern i've noticed but don't intentionally do!

DON'T WASTE YOUR TEARS OMFG. you can always reach me elsewhere if i like disappear off this blog.

[lovelyyjh]

crazy in love || 7

↬pairing: yoon jeonghan x reader

↬genre: fluff, slight smut?, crack, angst

↬warnings: alcohol consumption, cheating?, swearing as usual lol

↬word count: 3k

↬a/n: i’m so so sorry for taking so long to post this, these past few weeks have been pretty hectic. and i also apologize for making jeonghan a stupid head in this story but i promise it gets much better so bear with me pls. anyways, this is another longer chapter so hopefully it kinda makes up for it being so late. as usual, my inbox is always open so please let me know what you think !! :))

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“it’s time to fucking party!” you looked up and burst out into laughter at jun standing on the table you were sitting at for dinner. seungcheol had his arm around you and you were leaning into his side, feeling the rise and fall of his chest as he laughed. the two of you had been dating for almost two weeks, and you had hardly said a word to jeonghan during this time. sure, it killed you to not talk to him, but the overwhelming anger that flared up in your stomach every time you looked his way was able to get rid of the temptation to walk over and attempt to fix things. he was currently sitting diagonally from you on the other side of the table, blankly staring over at you and seungcheol, something you noticed when you glanced over at him from time to time. he and seungcheol were fine and they had been talking as regular friends, but neither dared to bring you up in a conversation, knowing it would cause a problem.

“jun! get off the table before i come over there and take you off of it!” taemin, one of the counselors from the ring ding dong cabin (i still laugh every time), yelled. jun’s eyes shot over to the angry counselor before nodding quickly and scrambling back into his place next to you on the bench.

“jun, you’re really stupid sometimes, you know that?” you teased, knocking your shoulder with his. he shrugged and gave you a goofy grin before going back to his food.

“i don’t think you’re stupid,” minghao mumbled from the other side of jun, not intending for anyone to hear. but of course, that wasn’t the case. you had heard and you flitted your eyes over to see minghao and jun both blushing as jun reached down and took the younger boy’s hand into his own.

‘cute,’ you thought, reaching your hand down to hold seungcheol’s. you were two busy looking at the flustered boys next to you, you didn’t look down where you were reaching your hand, accidentally setting it onto your boyfriend’s thigh, extremely close to his crotch. you turned back to see where your hand was before shrieking and pulling it back to set it in your lap. seungcheol chuckled lowly before taking the hand that wasn’t around your shoulders and setting it onto your bare thigh, right below the cutoff of your shorts, causing your eyes to widen as you looked up to him in warning. he just winked down at you and gave the flesh in his hand a light squeeze, pulling a soft squeak from your throat. the rest of the table looked towards you in question, to which you lowered your gaze in embarrassment. seungcheol took his hand away from your thigh and stood up, taking your hand to pull you up with him.

“y/n isn’t feeling well,” he announced, pulling you closer to him, his arm now around your waist loosely, “i’m gonna take her to get some rest at our cabin before the party.” and with those words, he pulled you with him out of the mess hall.

“we aren’t really gonna rest before the party, are we?” you asked nervously, looking up at the black-haired boy whose eyes had gone dark as he smirked down at you.

“of course not, babygirl.”

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“they’re gonna fuck, aren’t they?” mingyu said out loud, a disgusted look on his face. a majority of the table nodded and bursted out laughing.

“let’s not go back to our cabin for at least an hour,” vernon said, chuckling and popping a chip into his mouth. after everyone had calmed down, they returned to their normal conversations and went on with their dinner. all except for one.

jeonghan continued to glare at the door, his fists clenching underneath the table. he jumped as a hand touched his shoulder, turning to see chan with concern painted across his features.

“are you okay? did something happen?” jeonghan’s expression softened as he shook his head slightly, giving the younger boy a small smile. chan nodded and went back to his food, though he wasn’t completely convinced. jeonghan still had hurt swirling in his eyes and his fists had begun to clench again. chan turned to seungkwan, who was sitting next to him, and asked if jeonghan was alright, to which seungkwan shook his head and frowned.

“i have no idea, channie. but don’t worry about it, i’m gonna get to the bottom of this.”

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seungcheol pulled you onto his lap as he sat down onto the edge of his bed, your lips moving forwards to crash into his own. he tugged your waist closer to him as your tongues explored each others’ mouths, your hands threading into his hair. you reached down, pushing his worn out leather jacket off his shoulders before letting your hands rest there. you gasped into his mouth as he slid a hand under your shirt to hold onto your bare sides, his other hand moving lower to rest right above the curve of your hips. he softly bit down on your lower lip, dragging it back with his teeth before capturing it between his plush lips and going back to kissing you. you pushed your hips down into his, eliciting a groan from him, the vibrations from the low noise traveling to your tongue and down into your throat.

“you know you can’t do that to me, y/n.” he gripped onto your waist and pushed you down onto his growing bulge, a whimper leaving your lips as you held onto his shoulders a little tighter. he disconnected your lips to leave a trail of kisses down your jawline and to your collarbone, where he stopped to bite down into your shoulder. your eyes rolled to the back of your head as he continued kissing your neck and mumbling sweet nothings against your skin. you ran your hands through his hair once again, tugging at the strands ever so often, which would cause him to moan with his lips pressed into the crook of your neck. you wrapped your legs around his waist and his hands slipped under your thighs, pulling you flush against him.

he halted his actions and let his head rest on your shoulder, his heavy breathing tickling the area right below your jaw.

“we should go to the party, it started a few minutes ago,” you said in a small voice, still holding onto seungcheol’s shoulders. you felt him nod underneath your chin before he pulled back and grabbed the sides of your face with both hands, bringing you towards him to peck your lips one last time. you giggled and got off of him, straightening your shirt and your hair. glancing down, you noticed the still very prominent outline of a bulge in his jeans, which looked painfully uncomfortable, “cheol, do you want help with that?” he looked down and sighed before shaking his head.

“no, i’ll handle it. you should go to the party though, i’ll meet you there in like ten minutes.” you started to protest, but clamped your mouth shut when he gave you a warning look, turning and walking out the door of his cabin. you closed the door behind you and turned around to walk down the few steps, but jumped at the people in front of you.

“jun! minghao! what were you guys doing in front of the chilli cabin?”

“waiting for you of course! we wanted to talk to you before the party.” you gave the two smiling boys a cautious look before beginning to walk down the path towards the butterfly cabin with them.

“sounds sketchy, but okay. what is it?”

“so what’s going on with you and cheol? i thought you liked jeonghan,” minghao asked hooking his arm with yours.

“i did. or i do. i don’t know. i just don’t really want to deal with him right now. plus, i like cheol. i didn’t before, but i do now. he’s really sweet and he treats me well,” you explained as jun hooked his elbow with yours on the opposite side of minghao.

“i know what you mean. but why did you give up on jeonghan? minghao was extremely stubborn and thick-headed before we started dating, but over time, he changed and now he’s the best boyfriend i could ask for.”

“since when were you two dating?” you asked, looking back and forth between the two.

“since around new years. but no one other than you knows, so don’t say anything. we’re gonna tell everyone at the end of summer,” jun said, smiling fondly over at minghao, who grinned back.

“i don’t really know. i guess i just got to the point where i gave up on hope that he would ever like me back. and i know i sound like a kid who’s upset because she thinks her crush doesn’t like her, but that’s exactly what i feel like. he makes me feel like that little girl who was too nervous to say one word to joshua in fourth grade, even after we kissed by the lake. but with jeonghan it’s more. i said i was in love with him when we were sophomores, but i think i mean it now. i think i really know what love feels like when i’m with him,” you rambled. jun and minghao exchanged a look before staring down at you.

“it sounds like you really love him,” minghao pointed out.

“yeah. i do.”

“then why are you with seungcheol?” jun asked, causing your head to snap up towards him as you remembered the man still back at his cabin. your boyfriend.

“shit.” you groaned and leaned your head onto jun’s shoulder exasperatedly, “what do i do?”

“firstly, you break up with seungcheol. it doesn’t have to be tonight, but it has to be soon. you might like him, but you love jeonghan, and i think you’re subconsciously using him to get over han,” minghao instructed.

“next, you woman up and go tell jeonghan how you feel. you might feel like a little kid around him, but you need to act like a big girl,” jun continued, staring down at you pointedly. you nodded and looked up, noticing you had arrived at the ‘butterfly’ cabin.

“i’ll do it tonight. i’ll talk to cheol after the party and then talk to jeonghan tomorrow or the next day or whenever i can muster up the courage to do so,” you said determinedly. the boyfriends (that’s what we’re calling them now) locked eyes with each other then turned back towards you, nodding in unison. the three of you walked inside together, being swept into the masses of people and loud music as soon as you stepped in the door. within five minutes you had a drink in your hand and you were in the center of the crowd of seniors and graduates like yourself, the heat from the surrounding bodies pulsating through your body and sending a white hot blood rush to your head. time passed quickly, and soon, you were draped over an armchair with only a few of your other friends still there. including jeonghan. you looked over to see seungcheol for the first time since the party started, passed out on the couch across the room. giggling at his leg hanging off of the sofa, you stood up and stumbled over to where joshua was talking to jihoon and shifted your weight onto his shoulder.

“are you drunk, y/n?” joshua asked, holding you up with his arm. you nodded and gave him a thumbs up before standing up straight.

“we should play truth or dare!” jihoon and joshua looked at each other and shrugged before calling out to everyone who was left. you all gathered in the middle of the main area, forming a small circle in the center of the room.

“who wants to go first?’’ seungkwan asked, grinning from ear to ear.

“i’ll go,” jun offered, a small smirk appearing on his face as he looked towards soonyoung, who was sitting next to him, minghao being on his other side, “truth or dare?”

“truth,” he decided quickly.

“what are your real feelings towards jihoon?” jihoon’s head shot up to look at soonyoung, who was sitting right next to him and had turned a deep shade of red.

“he’s cool, i guess.”

“you know that’s not what i mean, soonyoung.”

“i said what i feel.”

“i mean your real feelings.”

“fine! i like him! i’ve fucking liked him for two years and i never told anyone but apparently i was obvious enough for everyone to find out.” he huffed and sat back, leaning against his hands. the corner’s of jihoon’s lips turned up before he reached his own hand back and set it on top of soonyoung’s, lacing a few of their fingers together. the red-haired boy blushed even darker before clearing his throat dismissively and sitting up for his turn, “alright, truth or dare, jeonghan.”

“dare,” jeonghan answered, shrugging. seungkwan stood up and walked over, whispering something into soonyoung’s ear. they both exchanged a proud look before the younger returned to his spot in the circle.

“i dare you to kiss y/n.” your eyes widened at your name being said, looking around to the rest of the circle, who were now very interested in the game. on a normal day, with everyone sober, no one would have ever thought of this. they all knew you were dating seungcheol and even if they knew you liked jeonghan, they’d never condone unloyalty. but, everyone was too drunk to care, and all morals were thrown out the window at that time. half of them couldn’t even tell you their birthday if you asked.

you felt the presence of someone sitting on the ground next to you, instantaneously knowing it was jeonghan. you tilted your head upwards and to the side to meet eyes with him, his face just inches from yours. his fingertips went to the underside of your jaw as he tilted your chin up to meet him halfway as he ducked down to connect your lips with his own. a warmth was sent through your body, whether it was from the kiss or the alcohol buzz, you couldn’t tell. all you knew was that it was intoxicating and you couldn’t help but want more. time had stopped and the only two people in the world were you and yoon jeonghan. you found yourself chasing after his lips when he pulled back from you, ending the seven seconds of euphoria. he reached up and tucked a stray hair behind your ear before turning and going back to his spot. you still had that feeling in you, the feeling that you had longed to experience for so many years. you might have been wasted out of your mind, but you knew what was in that kiss. you knew it was something you never have and never will encounter with seungcheol. you were overwhelmed with love. at that moment, you knew jeonghan had put every bit of love he had for you into that kiss, even if he didn’t mean to. you felt loved in a way you never had before. and you were relishing in every glorious second of it.

the rest of the night passed in a blur, the truth or dare game coming to an end and the rest of the guests leaving. the last thing you remembered was being lifted and taken to another cabin before hitting the bed and immediately falling asleep when your head hit the pillow.

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“so you’re saying you kissed y/n at the party last night, then carried her into your bed after she threw up on herself, proceeded to change her into your clothes, and then slept in the same damn bed with her?” joshua asked, dumbfounded. he had woken up that morning and looked over to see much longer hair hanging off of jeonghan’s bed, something he hadn’t seen since freshman year, before the aforementioned cut his hair. he had looked over and seen your face buried into jeonghan’s chest, his arms wrapped around your shoulders. they were now on the porch of the cabin, having gone outside as to not wake you up.

“dude, you were there! you walked back with me after i drank some coffee the butterfly girls had in their cabin for some reason, sobered up, and carried y/n here.”

“i wasn’t sober! i can’t remember anything about last night past my third drink.”

“yeah, because you’re a fucking lightweight josh, but we have more pressing matters at hand here!”

“oh yeah, like the fact that you kissed your best friend last night while her boyfriend, who’s your other best friend, was passed out on a couch twenty feet away.”

“when you say it like that, you make it sound bad.”

“it is bad, jeonghan!” joshua scolded.

“i don’t know what happened,” jeonghan groaned, sitting on one of the steps and resting his head in his hands, “i got to a point where i had enough to drink and i didn’t really care what i was doing, but it wasn’t so much that i didn’t know what was going on.”

“why’d you do it? you never play truth or dare, and when you do, you never do the dares anyways. why did you do this one?” joshua sat down on the step next to him and crossing his arms over his legs.

“i just felt this pull. something telling me i should do it. so i did. and i’m being honest when i say i don’t regret it. i realized something when i kissed her. i’ve never kissed anyone like that before. sure i’ve dated girls and kissed them, but i’ve never felt that. it was like this spark that ignited something inside my chest and it’s been burning since last night.”

“what are you going on about, jeonghan? i’ve never heard you talk like this.”

“josh, i think i’m in love with y/n.”

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Beautiful Sin - Death Note AU - Daehyun x reader x Jongup

AN: Admin S here, so I decided to combine two of my most favourite things, Death Note and B.A.P~ For those who don't know, Death Note is an anime/manga about a student named Light Yagami picking up a Shinigami (god of death - Ryuk)'s notebook which was dropped by a bored Shinigami in the human world and begins to kill the world's criminals with it, being dubbed as "Kira" by the public and becoming a god like figure to the world. The Death Note requires the name of the person intended to be killed to be written while their face is pictured and unless cause of death is specified, it will be a heart attack 40 seconds later. L (under the alias of Ryuzaki), being the greatest detective in the world steps into the picture, wanting nothing more than to bring a childish, self-proclaimed god down in the name of justice, thus starting a cat and mouse game, the loser having to lose their life. So, in this one shot, Daehyun will replace L with Jongup replacing Light, other members of B.A.P will be playing other characters (which will be explained) throughout the fic, I really hope you guys enjoy this, I really worked hard~

Word Count: 2967 

Warnings: Sexual content (not smut), mentions of murder, super natural themes.

"Jongup-kun?" (Y/n) whispered, knocking on his door, only to hear maniacal laughter from the other side, causing her to get immensely confused. "Idiots, fucking idiots, I am the god of this new world, Kira will cleanse this world of all evil, L, you've just lost." Jongup continued, and (y/n) continued to listen, her eyes widening in horror. L was right, he is Kira, oh god, I need to get out of here and tell him.

She quickly pulled away from the door, only to tangle her own feet and fall straight down onto the floor, alerting Jongup of her presence. Feeling her lungs constrict as the door opened, she began to panic, he was going to kill her, this was her end, this would be how she died, discovering that her best friend was Kira and to die at his hands.

Jongup opened the door, expecting to see Sayu, his younger sister but his eyes widened a fraction when he saw (y/n) on the floor as she got up, and he smiled at her, hoping she hadn't heard his monologue.

"Hey, how come you're here?" Jongup smiled at her, his personality having done a complete 180 degree turn, scarring her even more. Just a second ago, he was a mass murder and now, his face showed no signs of remorse or guilt, but rather a caring and happy expression was plaster all over his face. "I-I-I was-" Before she could finish, Jongup bent down, his strong arm pulled her up and pulling her into his room, slamming the door shut behind them as he pushed her towards his bed nearby.

Letting out a loud sigh, he ran his hand through his hair, rolling his eyes before turning around, knowing what he had to do. "What did you hear?" He asked her, his voice dangerously low, he wasn't going to make the same mistake again. (Y/n) internally panicked as she straightened herself up, turning around and sitting down on Jongup's bed, trying to keep herself as calm as possible as she tightly gripped the bedsheets.

"I just got up the stairs, and I trip-ped, what, what was th-there to hear?" She asked him, giving him her best fake smile but he saw right through it as he walked closer to her, bending down so he was at her eye level.

"Come on (y/n) don't lie now, you know what Kira can do, a name and a face and I have both of them." He whispered into her ear, using one hand to hold her chin as he leaned over, asserting his dominance in the situation. Feeling weak and pathetic as tears brimmed her eyes, she lowered her head, hoping he wouldn't kill her.

"Pl-ple-please Jo-jongu-up." She cried, tears rolling out of her eyes freely as Jongup pulled back, his eyes curiously scanning her face. A god needed a goddess to rule by his side and who better could it be than (y/n)? She'd known him his entire life, she was insanely intelligent, working with L was a proof of that, and to top it all off, she was beautiful, to him anyways.

"You won't kill her Jongup, you love her too much to do that, she'll cost you your life hehehe." Ryuk laughed, watching the owner of his Death Note struggle with the current situation.

"Aww, don't cry love, I'm not gonna kill you, no, no, no, you're far too precious to die by my hands, a god needs a goddess to rule, I'm offering you to be mine (y/n)." He whispered, his nose rubbing against hers as her eyes widened more as if it were possible. His empty hand resting at the base of her neck, his fingers playing with the necklace that hung around her neck.

"Jo-Jong-up." She began, only for him to cut her off by placing a finger against her lips."Shh, this is your only choice, accept Kira and the new world, or I'll have no choice but to end you and your entire family." He threatened, the dark look in his eyes proving his point. Feeling helpless, she slowly nodded, agreeing to his terms and he smiled, before leaning forward to capture her lips in a sweet kiss.

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(Y/n) sat in the investigation headquarters, mindlessly fiddling with papers as she spaced out. Jongup had her dancing to his tunes and there was nothing she could do to resist him, her brain screamed at her to tell L, to tell Ryuzaki, to tell anyone but with the threat looming over her loved ones' lives, she couldn't bring herself to do so, no matter what.  

"(Y/n)-chan, it would be great if you could return to us." L's smooth, soft voice called out, breaking her out of her trance and she turned around, only to meet the brown eyes of the chestnut haired boy, who was busy stuffing strawberry cheesecake into his mouth with a silver spoon, sitting in his ever so odd position.

"I'm so sorry Ryuzaki-kun." She apologised, using L's other alias, like seriously how many did he have?

"It would be great if you could help me monitor the Moon family, Mr Moon is asleep." He replied and (y/n) nodded, moving her chair over to in front of the various TV screens that showed the three members of the Moon family. Sayu was on the phone with her friend, Jongup's mother watching a drama on the TV and Jongup studying in his room. Gripping the ends of her chair tightly, she watched him reach for his drawer, the one containing the Death Note.

He was going to get caught, oh lord, he was going to kill her family.

Letting out a breath she didn't know she was holding, she relaxed back into her chair when she saw that he pulled out a packet of potato chips but how on Earth did he know about the cameras? L had them installed in absolute secrecy and even she hadn't mentioned them to him.

"Is everything alright (Y/n)-chan, you seem very tense." L remarked, his eyes not once leaving the screen but yet he failed to ignore the sudden changes in her behaviour.

"I feel sick, I need some air." She replied, mentally thanking the gods that she came up with that and before he could question her further, she got up, basically sprinting out of the room, down the stairs and out of the building, stopping in the unmonitored car park as she ran out of breath.

I can't do this, I just can't.

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"Jongup, I need to talk to you." (Y/n) began, walking in to his room as he closed his door, following behind her and she sat down on his bed, which no longer felt warm and inviting, but rather cold and hard, as he sat down on the chair he pulled opposite her.

"What are we?" She asked, looking straight up at him, looking into his dark eyes for an answer. Jongup smirked slightly, knowing that this was the perfect time to send L a message. His best investigator was in his room, his main suspect's room, and now, all he had to do was show L was how weak he was.

"Baby, you're my everything." He smiled softly, before leaning forward and smashing his lips against hers, knowing that L was watching his every move and actions spoke louder than word. He gently pushed her back, until she was laying down beneath him as he hovered over her, using his strong arms to support his weight as (y/n) wrapped her arms around his neck, loving the feeling on his strong lips against hers.

His lips worked magic on her, every time he kissed her, she forgot everything. She forgot the fact that he was a psychopathic mass murderer, and that she was the detective on the opposite side, she forgot everything, allowing herself to get consumed by his presence. This being her only moment of peace and pleasure.

Jongup smirked, pushing harder against her lips, bitting down on her bottom lip, allowing a little bit of blood to seep out, both of them tasting the coppery taste as they devoured each other and (y/n) wrapped her legs around his torso, pulling him closer to her as she tangled her hands in his hair.

At this point in time, she just didn't care. She was completely unaware of the two hatred filled eyes that were watching the pair through the screens.

"Hehehe, you're doing this to taunt L aren't you? Showing him how you have complete control over his best partner, you really are a devil Jongup." Ryuk commented, before walking out of the room, after all, he didn't wish to see the future events that were going to happen between the pair.

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"You were fully aware of the fact that the cameras were there!" Youngjae, another investigating officer on the case remarked, not believing what Chief Moon had said. When (y/n) and Jongup were sharing their heated intimate moment, Chief had asked L to stop the monitoring and as uncomfortable as he already was, he asked L to give his son and his girlfriend privacy, to which L outright refused, which lead to the entire team hearing about Jongup's love life and his affair with (y/n).

"It's very unprofessional for you to do this (l/n), Jongup is a key suspect, you cannot continue your relationship with him while you're working on this case, I'm afraid I'm going to have to ask you to choose one side." Chief Moon sighed, taking his glasses off. (Y/n) starred at him, knowing what this meant, and knowing what Jongup could do, she had no choice but to resign from the task force.

"I need some time to think over it, I'll you know soon sir." She gave him a weak smile, before grabbing her coat which was hanging on her chair and began to make her way outside again before she bumped into L on the way out.

"(Y/n)-chan, are you headed somewhere?" He asked her, giving her a weird look, like, she couldn't exactly pinpoint what it was. Lust? Anger? Jealously? Hate?

"I'm sorry Ryuzaki, I need some time to think over everything… Jongup, he means a lot to me.." She trailed off, not knowing what to do.

"And catching Kira? Does that not mean anything to you?" He asked her, slowly taking steps towards her, very consciously pushing her against the wall as she moved back.

"Watari, please turn the cameras off." He commanded, not wanting this conversation to be visible to anyone, and this caused (y/n) to become even more alert.

"You didn't answer me (y/n), what about catching Kira? Or do you already know that Jongup is Kira?" He asked, his voice getting dangerously low as he placed one hand beside her head, pushing himself closer to her. Her heart began thumping wildly, this was it, L knew. He fucking knew that she knew. She was trapped, from both sides, her death was unavoidable from both sides but knowing if she stuck to Jongup, her family had a better chance of survival.

"Wh-what do you mean, pl-please st-stop jok-joking Ryu-Ryuzak-ki." She stuttered, not liking what this proximity was doing to her. L chuckled, running a hand through his chestnut hair.

"Come on (y/n), you know I'm not joking." L replied, dragging out the syllables in her name, sending shivers down her spine. (Y/n) looked up, her breath getting caught in her throat as she locked eyes with the brown headed male, his plump lips ever so softly brushing against her own as he leaned down closer.

"Tell me what you know, I'll protect you from whatever harm (y/n), I'll keep you safe." He whispered, seductively, before slamming his other hand on the empty space beside her head, before he slammed his strawberry scented lips against her sinful ones, taking her breath away.

If Jongup's kisses drove her mad, L's kiss drove her insane. His lips worked wonders against her own, his tongue invading her mouth as all her sense drowned in euphoria. The sweet taste of strawberry cheesecake lingered in the kiss, his tongue leaving no space untouched as he moved one hand down to her waist, holding her in place.

(Y/n) moaned into the kiss, causing L to smirk as he broke off, his lips attaching themselves on to the smooth skin of her neck, pushing her against the wall harder as he pleasured her. Closing her eyes tightly, (y/n) threw her head back, giving him full access to her neck, wanting nothing more than his lips on her skin. His touch caused her skin to flare up, his lips burning her but she didn't care.

L smirked, bitting and sucking on the nape of her neck, causing her to whimper beneath him. "Say my name." He commanded, rather aggressively as he continued, his left hand moving down to intertwine with her right hand. "R-yu-ryu." She couldn't continue, her brain wasn't letting her continue. "My real name." He commanded, bringing her back to reality, no one knew L's real name no one and that's when Jongup's face crossed her mind. She'd just cheated on him, with his worst enemy, oh lord, she'd just sinned against the god of the new world

But if this was sin, she'd happily do it again, she'd damn the devil, again and again to feel his lips against her own

"This is wrong! Ryuzaki, no!" She mumbled, her eyes darting around the room before she frantically sprinted away, leaving a smirking L behind, who stood there, rubbing his lip with his thumb, his plan was going to be a success.

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"What's wrong with you? The cameras are gone now." Jongup smiled, pulling (y/n) closer to him as the pair lay in her bed, he held her as she rested her head on his chest, listening to his steady heartbeat. Jongup had his fingers threaded through her (h/c) hair, running his fingers through it adoringly.

"Your father gave me a choice, I either stay on the task force or end it with you." (Y/n) gently spoke, catching his attention. "You're staying on the task force, no matter what, we can always meet in secrete." Jongup replied, already having his answer planned since day one. (Y/n) felt immensely guilty but then again, this psychopath was blackmailing her into dating him, constantly reminding her that the lives of her loved ones were in his hand. No matter how hard she tried, she couldn't get L's voice out of her head, the way he kissed her, the way he held her, who knew that the world's greatest detective had such a side?

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"Come on, tell me baby girl." L smirked against her lips as the pair lay on his bed, with (y/n) underneath him as he attacked her lips. The both of them couldn’t keep their hands off each other as they devoured one another.

"Ryu-z-" Before she could continue, he broke her off, placing a finger against her lips.

"Daehyun, my name is Daehyun." He smirked at her before reconnecting their lips, allowing this new information to sink in. "Now tell me, Jongup is Kira isn't he?" He asked, kissing her neck, his hands playing with the hem of her shirt, rubbing circles on to her skin.

"Dae-dae." She moaned, feeling lightheaded from his touch, the effect he had on her was scary. "Come on love, tell me." He urged her, kissing her jaw, his hands lifting her shirt a little higher, allowing the cool breeze from the open window to hit her warm skin.

"Jongup, he's kira." She spoke, not caring about anything in the world, being selfish and not wanting his lips to leave her own.

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'L, you, you...lied?' She asked, not believing what was happening but it was her own fault, she was the idiot. The idiot who was now in jail, serving a life sentence due to her involvement with Kira and now he had the audacity to come visit her in prison, to mock her.

How did she fail to realise that this man wasn't capable of loving another. How could he? He was heartless, never having had a friend, a companion, she's been a fucking idiot for trusting him.

'It was all business darling, all business.' Daehyun smiled at her, finally dropping the act. After all, she was his accomplice, she willingly placed her lips on his guilty ones, she willingly let him continue, she willingly kept this from him.

"I've made arrangements that would keep you safe from everything." He remarked, leaning back in his chair as she glared at him. Even now, she'd give anything to feel his touch, to have his mouth against her own.

"Keep you fake concern with yourself Jung Daehyun, just tell me one thing, why L?" She bitterly asked, causing Daehyun's eyes to widen. How on Earth did she know his name?

"How do you know my name?" He questioned her, standing up and leaning his hands against the table as she threw her head back and laughed. The letter L held so much significance to him, a nickname his mother had given him before giving him to Wammy's House where Watari raised him.

"You've forgotten, I am a detective too, didn't take long to hack a few places." She grinned back at him, knowing she had the upper hand. Daehyun glared at her, before learning across the table, capturing her lips with his own in a rough kiss. When he'd began his plan, he had no idea that things were going to end up like this. Despite everything, deep down, Daehyun could not deny the sinful attraction he felt towards the girl, her lips, her voice, her touch, and for her, he was prepared to sin, give up on everything, damn his own faith.