#anyways. weee (falls on to my pillow)

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she lost me sleep. but she is calm (and FINALLY DONE)

here is my last edit to the J&A edit trilogy i made dedicated to their ... um... whatever it is they have going on <3

hope you enjoy while i go nap or something

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27. Part 2

“You think we are bad parents for letting Liana go with your mom?” Robyn asked, shaking my head “not really, what makes you think that? She is literally on the tour bus behind us, we good. Least we can chill, fuck, talk and then repeat the process” watching Big D take a seat across us “since when did the help be allowed on this bus” I can tell he is really nervous with me, am I that bad “Chris, you are so rude. Ignore him Damian” Robyn said, raising an eyebrow “I thought he was big dick?” Robyn scoffed hitting my arm “man come on, this is stupid” Big D said “I think it’s funny” Jen intervened “see, someone that is on my side” holding my hand out, Jen pushed my hand out of the way “don’t mean you ain’t a pain in the ass, you have not moved on. Mel is about to snap on you” I know she is “but seriously dickhead, I mean Damian” Robyn scoffed getting up from the couch “ok, ok, I will stop” I chuckled “I am giving you another chance Chris, if you keep playing I will fall out with you” Mel poked her head out from around the bunk beds “first, put your wig on and then we will speak” I need to stop because they are getting butt hurt “you mad with me?” I asked Big D “nah, I know you be playing” see he gets it.

I feel like nobody is talking to me now “y’all boring” rolling my eyes, filling the red cups with Ciroc “the hell do you want us to do?” Jen asked “and what are you doing with so much drink” opening a bottle of Corona “I am making you all less boring” picking the blunt up from the side of me and placing it between my lips, pouring the drink in the cup “this looks dangerous” Robyn mumbled, placing the empty bottle down, slowly rounding the red cups and picking them up. Blowing the smoke out from my nose as Jen, D, Mel took cups and then going to Robyn. She took the blunt away from my lips before taking her drink “first thing you steal is that, aight. So” sitting down next to Robyn “seeing as we are a small group, a very tight group of friends. We can trust, let’s play some drinking games. We finna play truth or dare but the only thing, we can only do nasty things with our partners and Jen I don’t mind being your partner” winking at her “can I take mr sexy over there” side eyeing “I rather kiss Rihanna, forget you men” Jen waved me off “whatever, so if you take a truth you have to drink half of the cup, if you fail a dare you drink a full cup. Got it? We are grown adults so we can do this” I hope so anyways.

I don’t want to go first “my bodyguard can go first” I grinned at him, he knows damn well I was coming for him “truth or dare, if you do truth I know you a little bitch then” Big D stared at me “truth” he said, he really don’t care “aight, ok. I got you. So let me be good, would you say that you love Mel?” Mel’ eyes widened “that is deep” she spat, he better answer wisely “I would do anything for her and she knows that, I would say that I see myself having a future with her” he has never said that to her before, I can tell “I’ll take that answer, damn. I wanted to kick you off the bus” Robyn cooed “he is so cute, look at him bless” my head slowly turning to Robyn “I think you about to get kicked off instead, don’t call him cute” she better quit “drank it” D held his cup up and placed it back down “so Jen, truth or dare?” I hope she does a dare, she is crazy “dare!” she said, Robyn gasped “I got one, you need to go to the front of the bus and flash them titties” Jen got up without a care, Robyn quickly got up to chase her but I am not about to watch that.

Hearing the girls screaming as they sat down “so come on breezy, you next. Truth or dare” chewing my bottom lip “I am scared but I do a dare, I ain’t no bitch nigga” Mel jumped up “I got a dare, suck on Robyn’ toe for at least a minute” I chuckled rubbing my chest “oh man, she ain’t even had a shower. She is stank too” looking over at Robyn, she hid her face “why me, this is nasty” I won’t back down to a dare “come on now” grabbing Robyn’ leg, placing it over my lap “you think I care? I done licked and sucked many of Robyn’ things” Robyn giggled hiding her face “oh god no” taking Robyn’ slide off her foot “which toe though? I prefer the big toe” these really think I won’t do it “hey, no recording me now, I ain’t finna do it then” pointing at Jen “no cameras” I don’t want her to be posting this, Jen placed her phone away as I leaned down and placed my mouth around Robyn’ toe, she let out a shriek as they all cheered. I couldn’t help but smile “Robyn is acting shy when I know she loving it” Mel said, sucking on her toe slowly.

I already feel a little tipsy actually, stepping off the tour bus. I need some air and also this bus needs some gas, I have no idea but I am finding shit funny. Feeling a pair of arms wrap around my shoulders “weee!” Jen screamed out, my back near giving out as Jen jumped off the step of the tour bus “holy shit” I said laughing “don’t drop mee!” she spat, hearing Mel laughing behind me “my back woman!” she let go of me “you are so damn skinny” Jen pushed me “I thought it was Robyn actually, little miss rude” walking back towards the tour bus, Robyn got off the tour bus “the other tour bus” I pointed as it drove by us, my baby is on that bus “I miss her” Robyn pouted, holding Robyn’ hand walking towards the store.

We have so much more booze, this is about to be funny as hell. Robyn wrapped her arm around mine as we walked slowly back to the tour bus “oh look, it’s the happy couple” I pointed out, Mel turned her head “it’s our stalker Christopher” Mel retorted “you see how rude this guy is, he is supposed to be protecting me but no, he is too busy holding hands with his girl. Let me protect the couple of here” walking off from Robyn “Chris, you are so childish” seeing a couple of people taking pictures as we walked by “no pictures people, the happy couple coming through” walking at the side of Big D “nigga, I hate yo ass” he was about to grab me but I moved away, I then realised he was chasing me, I ran off towards Robyn “baby, help me” grabbing Robyn and placing her in front of me “ok, come on now boys” she don’t want to be between us now.

I feel a little offended, I am sat on this bus while these women are saying us men are scrubs “I have money ok!” I said correcting them, what did I do to deserve this mess from these women. Side eyeing them “ok, turn this rubbish off” waving my hand around “Hanging out the passenger side of his best friend’s ride trying to holler at me, I don’t want no scrub” Robyn sang to me, grabbing Robyn’ arm and pulling her on to my lap and placing my hand over her mouth “stop it, can we stop this” I am so happy that this song is ending “stop with the women songs now” I hope it ends, the girls all shrieked as Robyn moved off my lap “oh man” hiding my face, Destiny’s Child – Say My Name. Shaking my head, I don’t approve. Rubbing my face until Robyn moved my arm away as she sat on my lap facing me “Any other day, I would call, you would say. “Baby, how’s your day?” But today, it ain’t the same” she sang to me “Every other word is “Uh huh”, “Yeah, okay” could it be that you, are at the crib with another lady. If you took it there, first of all let me say. I am not the one to sit around and be played. So prove yourself to me, I’m the girl that you claim. Why don’t you say the things that you said to me yesterday” looking at both Mel and Jen acting like Kelly and Michelle, they are really taking this out on me “I am not happy now” looking away from Robyn.

Side eyeing Robyn “men hating songs are banned, y’all ruined it” I said, I seem like a miserable guy but they have ruined the privilege “they went in on you though” D said “see, even he knows y’all did. Now we can sit in silence” Jen scoffed “hey, Michelle. Calm that ass down” I said, Jen threw the pillow at me, busting out laughing “you can still put songs on” Robyn said “you right I can, I think we should do a dance off. The person that can do the best Mary J impression wins, I love her dance moves” D chuckled hitting my arm “I think you would win that, remember that one time you made them girls do it” squinting my eyes at him “oh wait, when that one chick was thinking I was serious and started doing it” busting out laughing dapping D “I swear I didn’t know if to kick her out or applaud her” those were some fun times “you know what Damian, now that you date my friend. I want to know everything Chris was up too” here Robyn goes “blah, blah, blah! Let’s put the music back on” I am not about to hear this “nah, let me say something” D said, pausing the song “go on” he better keep his mouth closed “you know Rihanna, I never actually spoke on Chris to Mel. I just think Chris was in a dark place, when every bodyguard would ditch him for his ways I was around for him. The best Chris I like was when he was with Liana, but all I want to say is that I won’t disrespect the guy that employs me and gave me this opportunity” Robyn remained silent “how much are you paying this guy?” Jen said “can’t tell that” I didn’t even know he was going to say that.

Robyn finally made her way to me, sitting next to me as I listened to Montell Jordan – Get it on Tonite. Placing my phone down at the side of me “you love me?” She said over the music “all day everyday baby” looking down at my hand “I love you too” opening my arm out “come to daddy” Robyn shuffled over to me, pulling Robyn closer to me and pressing a kiss to her head “Girl if it’s alright, let’s go somewhere and get it on tonight. You shouldn’t have to be alone tonight, it’s one on one tonight, tonight” I sang to Robyn as she looked up at me, kissing her lips as I looked up at Mel taking a video of herself and D but I was in the background “niggas!!” Mel spat, putting a finger up at her. Robyn stuck her tongue out, pressing a kiss to Robyn’ cheek.

Not a very good time to be doing an interview after smoking and drinking so much but who cares, my mom has taken Liana to the hotel and we came straight here “how do fans know where I be, it’s crazy” stood next to the driver as he parked out front “I may be the person in the wrong with that” Mel said, I bet it was “what did you say?” smiling a little at the fans “I can’t go any further, we are trapped here” the driver said “I placed a message on one of the dancers post, they asked where we was at and I said radio interview at Capital” turning around “well they worked fast then, hopefully your boyfriend can get us out of here” he has been slacking a little or maybe it is just me, walking down the tour bus. Grabbing the Patron bottle “I need to get off this bus, is the security team not here?” D had the phone pressed against his ear “Rich and the crew are here” Mel said, thank god because I didn’t want to be pushing through that.

I still look after my baby “go ahead of me” I said to Robyn, holding Robyn’ arm as she stepped off the tour bus and followed her out “Chris, I love you!” the fans shouted “love y’all too” holding my hand up with the bottle in hand, Rich and Clay walked at the side of us as we got into the building. I have an audience in this place “little late?” my manager said, blinking at him “am I?” I thought I was on time “let’s just get upstairs” I think I am in trouble again “you mad with me again?” stepping into the elevator grabbing Robyn in with me, I want her close by “mad? Me? No” I smiled biting my bottom lip, he is so mad “fuck you Chris Brown” some female shouted as the elevator doors closed, my head moving to the side as the doors closed. Placing my hand between the door before they closed “you what?” I said “Chris” D grabbed my arm “how about you lose some weight you dumb bitch” I spat, the security escorting from what I can see someone that has made their way inside “get inside Chris come on” she put two fingers up at me “fuck em” turning around, people coming at me sideways “I was scared you was going to throw the bottle bruh” D said as I drank from the bottle “you ok?” Robyn asked, moving to the back of the elevator “I’m cool” there is always someone around to ruin someone’s mood.

Walking into the studio smiling “he’s finally here” Manny got up off from his seat “I have been so excited to meet you that I have to hug you” this guy is so short, he hugged me “oh man, I have never had this before. I only get this from women” he stepped back “it’s such a pleasure to meet you Chris” he got his hand out, shaking his hand “same, glad to be here. The love is appreciated, sorry I was late. You don’t mind if I drink though?” I am drinking a little too much but whatever “do what you want, I am just glad I am have you in my studio on my radio show. I have so much to talk about, I didn’t manage to talk to your manager but what questions can I ask?” sitting down waving him off “talk to me about anything, I am in the mood to talk” rubbing my face, I can’t believe that woman told me to fuck off, shit just irks me so much.

Placing the headphones on slowly “Manny Norte on Capital and I am blessed, you guys don’t know how happy I am to do this. I have Chris Brown, come on people” laughing at his reaction as some people in the studio started clapped cheering “yes, yes I am just so happy. I have always been a fan of you, I feel like there is nobody like you. Nobody in the industry can top your music at all, you are the next MJ, I swear you are” nodding my head smiling “blessed, thank you so much” I said, I do feel blessed when someone says I am like MJ “oh man, I just don’t know what to say to you. I am such a fan, ok. So let’s start this, how is the tour? How is the UK treating you?” bringing my head closer to the mic “good, I love it here because my fan base is big over here. Y’all gave me love when I wasn’t allowed here. Selling these dates back to back is a blessing and I thank you, I thank all of my fans” I do until the odd bitch starts saying shit “radio stations are full of your music no matter what, I think I was reading that your tickets sold out as soon as they came out” nodding my head laughing “my manager called me saying and I was like oh damn, I need to add another date but then I ended up adding two more dates and they got sold out. I got a lot of love in Europe and I love it here, I think I love it more now that I have my family with me” pointing behind me “yes Rihanna, we will get on to that after this song” I chuckled, I knew they wanted to ask that.

The music faded out “just to confirm again we have Chris Brown in the building with us, so you said you was with your family here. Where is the queen herself, Liana? I have heard some news that Liana has been crying at your meet and greets?” he said, busting out laughing “yeah, she didn’t like the fans hugging me, she got jealous. She threw things at fans, she fell out with me. She told Rihanna on me, I swear my daughter is a little problem but I love her so much. She is my angel, I couldn’t do without her at all” I miss my baby Liana now “she is modelling also? I always thought when Chris Brown and Rihanna have a child she would be a diva and she truly is, you are a very lucky man” looking behind me, seeing Robyn sat on the couch laughing “I am, I have changed. I know a lot of people don’t see it, but it is all about my family” which is true “that is beautiful to hear, I am so happy for you guys. Both of you are just happy, it’s a shame that when you read these blogs. Like the fact Mychal has said you was the cause of the breakup” rolling my eyes “there is only one thing I would love to do that nigga and is punch him in the mouth, if that nigga got some shit to say to me then tell him to come to my face. He been hiding from this fade for a while now” I swear I hate that nigga “is the feud because of Rihanna?” he asked “it is because of what he did, you know this nigga is hiding a dark secret. He ain’t no angel, I am coming for him” kissing my teeth “wow, deep fam. So what about what Rihanna’ brother said, seem a lot of negative vibes?” I wish I never said he can ask what he likes now “I don’t care what he says, I am still marrying his sister” I shrugged.

“What do you say to the rumours people read?” sighing out “I would tell them to believe what they want, I honestly don’t care anymore. I am so in love with Rihanna, I am marrying her and I will be having more babies with her. There ain’t nothing in this world that will stop me, I know I am being so open about this but I don’t care anymore. I am so settled in life, we are currently planning on where to move too. I know it’s taken me a while to settle but I regret it, trust me I do” Manny cooed out “I can see the passion, your passion is your future wife. That is amazing, like what a changed man you are” placing my hand over my heart “I was never happy without her” which is true.

Walking into the backroom after finishing the interview “am I missing the party?” I said smiling, they wasn’t even paying attention to me at all “Chris” Robyn reached her hand out “can I speak to you baby?” she got up, nodding my head. She pulled my hand as we walked out, following behind Robyn and I do not know where she is going. Robyn opened the door “this is the women’s bathroom?” I pointed, she didn’t care at all “what is wrong?” I said, what has happened “I just want to ask if you are ok? I know it upset you that someone shouted fuck off” rubbing the back of my head “I don’t care, I just wish people would let us be happy. Let us love each other, I am just annoyed and a little hurt. I just think people are not happy for us at all” I didn’t want to say this at all “I just feel like this shit is a dream and we aren’t really together” I said, Robyn frowned at me “Really? Baby, you never told me this, don’t ever feel like that. We are together and we will be ruling the world together. I love you so much Chris, I know when you are sad. I always feel it” Robyn touched my chest “I don’t want to lose you, your family mean so much to you Robyn. I am the person stood between you and them. I am the problem” I have no idea where this is coming from, maybe it’s the drink “you’re my problem, stop it now. Please stop, I won’t leave you Chris. I don’t care about my family, I will marry you right now, stop it. Stop this feeling, I would marry you without my family around” my eyes widened “really?” Robyn nodded “I am crazy for you” she wrapped her arms around my body “I am sorry, I am just tired. I feel like this negativity will strain us” blinking my eyes to stop my tears.

Resting my head on my Robyn’ lap “I think you’re tired and highly emotional, I feel bad now because I have not been looking after you” closing my eyes, I am just glad to be back on the tour bus “ohhhh Robyn being a bad wifey, stop dick riding him and getting high. I blame Robyn” Mel said, I smiled opening my eyes “leave her alone, I enjoy her. I like to stay awake to protect her” Mel sat down “well you’re all tired with a concert tomorrow, this day off was to rest but look at you. Fuck the haters though Chris, you don’t deserve the hate” feeling Robyn stroke my head “I am going to look after you, sorry. I have been keeping you awake and you are the one performing and doing the work, just close your eyes” grabbing Robyn’ hand and placing it on my cheek “leave your hand here, I feel better now” closing my eyes smiling.