#asane sana

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happy birthday to sana asane(utau) and utanami kazusa(utau) [feb 13] !!

sana asane

utanami kazusa

sana asane and utanami kazusa !!! they are both utaus from the windows 100% utau magazine (see post from feb 1) sana asane comes with the windows 100% utau starter pack utanami kazusa was released as a giveaway it's always so hard to post about most utaus cause there is just so little things about them online, especially in English. I'm going to have to download Duolingo just for this account /j

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Love is a drug|| JJK|| 4

Pairing: Yandere Jungkook × Female Reader

Genre: Yandere Themes, a bit fluff, angst, betrayal..

Summary: OC had a very Happy life with her lovely Boyfriend Jeon Jungkook, a 24 year old ceo ; but things take a vast turn and oc finds herself in critical condition.

CHAPTER 4

*Sarah's Pov*

"Can you tell me what is Yn's birthday?"

I was fidgeting with my skirt as I sat here waiting in the cabin. I was nervous about the plan but I knew there was no other chance.

It had been a week since I asked Sana about Yn's birthday. She was suspicious, no doubt but I reasoned it with requirements for documentation. She agreed and gave me the birth date

12 June. It was next month and I had plenty of time. I wanted to take it slow, baby steps,

Slow and steady wins the race.

"You can go to sir's office." the secretary announced making my heart jump. Yes. I know calling myself as Yn's bestfriend will catch his attention.

I was moving towards his office more confident, as I stepped into his office I saw him, the most handsome man I have ever seen. I have seen him in my highschool roaming in corridor with his six best friends. That's the only close I could see him but now,

I'm gonna have him in my arms.

*Author's POV*

Jeon Jungkook was nervous, had he let it slip? What if someone's going to manipulate him and YN. Knowing yn she will be really angry.

Jungkook knew her bestfriend but Sarah this girl was not in her list. And he was scared of this girl's intention but he is not gonna show it, never.

Sarah stepped in the office with a bright smile on her face. She bowed and introduced herself.

"Hello Mr. Jeon, I am Sarah Kim working in endoscopy department in Asan Hospital working with YN. The issue is I never wanted to interfere with her personal life but her birthday is coming up in next month" Sarah introduced herself.

Jungkook was still confused, still not sure what to say " So, what does that have to do with me?" He asked with a serious face.

Sarah pretended to be shocked she knew how to put words in people's mouth.

"W-what!! You're not the boyfriend of yn, I knew miss Sana would give me wrong name. I'm so sorry sir I'll leave." Sarah exclaimed with shocked voice.

"WAIT, I am her boyfriend" Jungkook tells her hurriedly. Sarah stops, "I see Mr. Jeon so can I discuss with you?" She asked politely with gentle voice.

Sitting comfortably on his office couch Sarah started with her tactics and he noticed the bag she brought along. "So Mr Jeon , as I said there's birthday of your girlfriend yn and I am incharge of making her cake".

No lie but jungkook was a little flustered and happy cause someone other than him acknowledged their secret relationship.

Sarah could see she was softening him with her sweet voice.

"I want you to tell me what's her favourite flavour"

Jungkook blinked. Was that it? She came up here just for this? Jungkook thought as he saw her opening the bag.

"Here's my card, please taste how the cake would be, it's ok if you don't -"

"No!! I mean yes I'll contact you yeah and her favourite flavour is red velvet" he didn't want to be seen as careless boyfriend and he knew Sarah as Yn's colleague.

"Ok!! So I'll leave Mr. Jeon nice meeting you"

As she shaked her hands with him and turned to leave he asked her the question eating up his brain.

"Does anyone other than you knows?"

She knew what he indicated, Sarah turned around and smiled. "No Mr. Jeon, don't worry about that and please don't tell yn about this, it's a surprise party".

'She's a nice woman' he thought.

Sarah stepped out of the office, happy knowing she bagged his trust.

Moments later YN stepped into Jungkook's office although she wanted to turn around and go home but she knew sarah will see her running away.

Jungkook greeted yn with smile and hug,

"Hey babe!! How are you? Surprise visit?" He questioned yet yn was still in a daze

'he didn't smell like her'

It was a relief, "yn, are you ok?!!" Jungkook asked in a concerning tone. Yn finally coming into reality assured him.

They both were eating the meal brought by yn with jungkook talking about his day, but yn had this peculiar feeling in her mind. Yn was a person who would rather stay quiet in this situations rather than clearly talking out it was one of her toxic trait.

"Jungkook, had someone from my office visited you?" Yn questioned not coming directly on topic.

Jungkook freezed at the question, he knew he should keep that as a secret, maybe she had a bit of idea and wanted him to confess about the party.

Looking at Jungkook's stiff figure her doubt was rising up.

"No-one babe" he said with a smile.

Liar.

The day was the start of the suspicions for yn and she knew it is going to end badly.

Yn was skipping to the deck, Jungkook as usual was waiting for her there. It's been 2 days since the incident and she's trying to shrug off the bitter feeling thinking it was nothing but an accident.

She froze. Again. Just like that dreadful day.

She saw Jungkook talking with Sarah.

Taglist:- @princess-sunshyn , @douknowbts , @ane102 , @jk97bam , @bangtanpov @dodoneck

Author's note: Sarah is evil, isn't she 😅. Did you guys liked this chapter, comment down. I like to read you guys comments. Tell me if anyone wants to get tagged in this series. Have a good day y'all ☺️💜

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📣 JOHNNY SUH. angst | non-idol!au

✍️ written in taglish | ⚠️ separated parents, child experiencing doubts, profanities | 📅 posted on june 12, 2023 | may be triggering for others, please read at your own risk. | 📨 requested by an anon huehue pasensya na agad kung angst ang unang lapag ngayong buwan, matagal na to naka-tengga sa drafts kaya sorry anon :< specifically ni-request 'to as mini-series pero let us know what you guys think!

🎧 LISTEN: glimpse of us by joji

“MOMMY, SAAN NA PO SI DADDY?”

tanong ng 5-year-old mong anak na si eleanor–ellie kung tawagin niyo ni johnny. “i’ve been waiting for him since kanina pa po, where is he?”

napabuntong hininga ka at tumigil sa pagtatype. ang hirap balansehin ng pagiging boss at nanay minsan, pero wala kang magagawa dahil pinili mo rin naman ‘to at kailangan mong gampanan ang parehong trabaho. tinext mo na si johnny kanina, mag-iisang oras na rin simula nung nagreply siya na malapit na siya at dalawang oras simula nung sinabi niyang nakalapag na ang eroplano niya. hindi naman ganun kalayo ang tinitirhan niyang apartment, pero busy rin kasi ito madalas.

umupo ka sa tabi ni ellie, sinuklay ang buhok nito para kumalma ng kaunti ang bata. “he’s on his way na daw, baby eh. onting wait na lang, okay? dadating rin si daddy mo.” sabi mo sakanya at niyakap siya ng mahigpit, “ellie, one month mo ring hindi nakita si daddy mo because he’s on a business trip. promise, anak, onting wait na lang at dadating rin si daddy.”

“does… does he not love me anymore, mommy?”

it broke your heart seeing your only daughter this way, wala ka namang magawa dahil hindi mo kontrolado ang schedule ni johnny at ang takbo ng buhay nito. naiinis ka kasi ang bata bata pa ni ellie para mag-isip ng ganito at napapaisip ka na sobrang naapektuhan ang bata sa sitwasyon niyo ng tatay niya.

“ellie, love na love ka ni daddy. pati ako, love na love ka. please don’t think na we don’t love you because we’re busy most of the time. busy si mommy and daddy because nagwowork kami para mabili namin yung needs and wants mo, anak.” paliwanag mo kay ellie, “okay, how about… pagbalik mo from daddy’s place, alis tayo. tayong dalawa lang, girls day? what do you think?”

ellie sniffed and nodded her head, “...okay mommy.”

“baby, please don’t cry na. i promise, dadating na si daddy soon.”

ilang minuto mo ring yakap-yakap ang anak mo, hindi mo na napansin na nakatulog na siya kaya inayos mo ang pwesto niya sa sofa at kinumutan. eleanor suh looks exactly like her mother, sa korte ng labi at ilong, sa hulma ng mukha… ikaw na ikaw eh. hindi mo mahanap-hanap kung nasaan ang features ni johnny sa mukha ni ellie dahil carbon copy talaga mo talaga ang bata. kung ipagdidikit ang baby pictures niyon dalawa, alam mong sayo nagmana ang bata. nagtanim ka ng halik sa noo ni ellie bago bumalik sa kusina kung saan ang laptop mo at nagumpisa na ulit magtrabaho.

ilang oras ang lumipas, lumbog na ang araw at napalitan na ng dilim ang liwanag sa labas–wala pa rin si johnny. hindi mo alam kung nasaan siya, ni hindi nga siya makapag-reply sa messages mo ngayon. when ellie woke up, nagpalit na lang siya ng ibang damit na pambahay. excited pa naman siyang ipakita ang bago niyang damit sa tatay niya dahil alam niyang matutuwa si johnny kapag nakita niya ito. pagkatapos ng trabaho mo, nagluto ka at sabay kayong kumain ni ellie–hanggang sa nakapagtoothbrush at ready na matulog ulit ang anak mo, hindi dumating si johnny.

pabalik ka na sana sa kwarto mo pagkatapos mong maglinis ng pinagkainan niyo, nung narinig mong tumunog ang doorbell. alam mong si johnny na yun dahil sa sunod sunod nitong pag tunog. napabuntong hininga ka nalang at pumunta sa may pinto, huminga ng malalim bago ito buksan.

“i’m sorry,” sabi niya, “asan siya? galit ba?”

“ewan ko, johnny. hindi ko alam kung galit ba si ellie sayo.” sagot mo, umisod ka ng kaunti para makapasok siya sa loob. “tulog na si ellie, she was really excited to see you earlier pero she got her hopes a little too high and you’ve disappointed her. again.”

this wasn’t the first time that this happened, few times na nga. hindi mo na maiwasang hindi makaramdam ng galit.

“it’s not my fault that my meetings got extended. alam mo bang pagkalapag na pagkalapag ng eroplano ko akala ko didiretso na ako dito? hindi, kasi biglaan na namang niliko ng driver ko yung sasakyan papuntang opisina.” galit na sabi nito, siniringan mo na lang si johnny at naglakad papunta sa kwarto ni ellie.

“wag ka sakin mag-explain, johnny. hindi ako ang pinaghintay mo this time, si ellie. sanay na ko sayo.”

napatigil sa paglalakad si johnny, pati na rin ikaw pero hindi mo siya hinarap. alam mo kasing na-offend siya sa sinabi mo–lalo na’t alam niyang hanggang ngayon, dala-dala mo pa rin ang galit mo sa nangyari sa inyong dalawa.

“kasalanan ko bang demanding ang trabaho ko? i’m doing this for a living, to support ellie. what the fuck is wrong with that, y/n? i already said i’m sorry for being late.”

“hindi ka dapat nagsosorry sakin, johnny. kay ellie.” banat mo, “tapos at pagod na kong maghintay sayo, pero si ellie? wag mong gawin yung ginawa mo sakin sa anak ko–sa anak mo. it’s more than enough that i was the one who suffered first, that i was the one who experienced it firsthand. i wouldn’t let my daughter experience the same pain you’ve given me, suh.”

sasagot pa sana si johnny, pero bumukas ang pintuan ng kwarto ni ellie. nakatingin ang bata sa inyong dalawa, hawak-hawak ang paborito niyang stuffed toy at medyo magulo na ang buhok dahil sa tulog. 

“are you two fighting?”

“n-no, ellie. we were just… talking.” sagot mo, “do you still want to go to daddy’s place? we still have time to repack your bags naman, sabihin mo lang sakin.”

umiling si ellie, and that made johnny’s heart break pero hindi niya masisi ang bata kung bakit ayaw na rin niyang pumunta sa bahay niya. 

“ellie, sayang naman ang byahe ng daddy mo if hindi ka sasama sa kanya.” pakiusap mo, “remember what we talked about kanina? girls’ day pagbalik mo galing sa house ni daddy mo.”

“lagpas bedtime ko na po dumating si daddy eh,” sagot naman ni ellie.

lumuhod si johnny sa harap ni ellie, akmang yayakap sa anak pero umiwas ito. “ellie, i’m sorry.” sabi niya, “promise, last na to na malelate ako. i’ll arrive on time na next time, i promise.”

“no.”

sinara ni ellie ang pinto ng kwarto niya sa harap ng tatay niya, ikaw mismo hindi makapaniwala sa ginawa ni ellie dahil unang beses niya tong ginawa. hindi mo rin alam kung saan niya nakita o natutunan yun. si johnny naman, nakaluhod pa rin, hindi rin makapaniwala sa nangyari.

“i’ll talk to her. sa sala ka muna,” sabi mo bago kumatok sa kwarto ni ellie, tumango naman si johnny at tumayo na. “els? it’s mommy. pwede ba akong pumasok?”

“no, ayaw ko pong makita si daddy.”

napanbuntong hininga ka, “eleonor, it’s just me ang papasok. si mommy lang, daddy’s in the living room. can i please come in?”

ilang segundo lang at narinig mo ang paa niya na tumakbo papuntang pinto bago ito bumukas. pumasok ka na agad at sinara ito, “ellie, why did you say no to daddy?”

“because i heard you tell him he hurt you.” sagot ni ellie, hindi siya makatingin sayo at pinaglalaruan lang ang stuffed toy niya. “if daddy keeps going here and you keep seeing him, you will be in pain mommy. dito nalang po ako sayo. okay lang po na hindi ko po makita si daddy.”

how can a 5-year-old like ellie understand what’s happening between you and her father? na nasaktan ka ng tatay niya dati, na hindi maganda ang ending ng relasyon niyo? naiipit ang anak niyo sa sitwasyon niyong dalawa. ang aga pa para mapansin ni ellie to. isip mo. alam mo namang magiging cause ng trauma to ni ellie paglaki niya, as much as possible, gusto mong nakikita niya na parehong okay at civil kayo sa isa't isa ni johnny pero ang hirap kasi kung palaging mainit ang ulo niyo ni johnny sa isa't isa.

napaluha ka sa sinabi ni ellie, “mommy, are you crying because of me?”

“hindi, anak. it’s just…” you sighed, “i just love you so much and i want to protect you, and mommy is really sorry if you’re experiencing this kind of situation at a young age.”

ellie finally looked you in the eyes, “i love you, mommy.” 

and that’s when you realized ellie has her father’s eyes. those warm brown eyes that shine beautifully under the light, johnny na johnny.

“mommy?”

“yes, ellie?”

“pwede po bang pasabi kay daddy, sorry? can he come back tomorrow na lang po? i’m sleepy na po eh.”

you gave her a warm smile and nodded, “okay els, i'll talk to daddy.” sagot mo, at inayos si ellie sa kama niya. humalik ka sa noo niya, “sleep ka na, anak. sabihin ko kay daddy mo balik na lang siya. but baby, i think mas maa-appreciate ni daddy if ikaw mismo yung magsosorry sa kanya, so promise mommy na tomorrow, magsosorry ka sa kanya.”

“promise po.”

umalis ka na sa tabi ni ellie, pinatay ang ilaw at lumabas ng kwarto niya bago pumunta sa sala kung nasaan si johnny. tulala pa rin siya, hindi makapaniwala sa nangyari kanina. tinawag mo siya para mawala siya sa pagkakatulala at tinanong: “gusto mo ba ng something na inumin?” tumango si johnny at tumayo, sinundan ka sa kusina. nilapag mo ang dalawang wine glass sa coutertop kung saan siya banda nakaupo at nilagyan ito ng wine, pinot noir–ang paborito niya.

“thanks.”

the two of you quietly stayed in the kitchen, naghihintay lang kung sinong unang magsasalita. 

“so–” “ano–” sabay niyong sabi, sumignal nsman si johnny na mauna ka na daw magsalita.

“ellie says she's sorry,” sabi mo, “hindi daw muna siya sasama sayo ngayong gabi, she’s already sleep when she told me that. balikan mo na lang daw siya bukas.”

“oh…”

“don't worry, i told her to say sorry to you again. personally para naman maramdaman mong galing sakanya at hindi sakin.” you chuckled, “anyway, narinig niya kasi yung sinabi ko sayo. ano… i wanted to say na pwede bang maging civil na lang tayong dalawa ulit? na every time ellie is within earshot, wag tayong mag-away. you can hate me from the distance, i just don’t want ellie to hear us fighting kasi ayokong matrauma si ellie.”

“noted on that, but i think dapat mo ring i-apply yan sa sarili mo.”

hindi ka na ulit sumagot, at napalibutan na naman kayo ng katahimikan. walang nagsasalita hangga’t walang nagiinitiate ng conversation. 

“so, uh… late na rin. at ayokong malate ng punta bukas.” sabi ni johnny, “i should probably go.”

tumango ka nalang at sinamahan siyang maglakad hanggang sa pinto, walang paalam sa isa’t isa. sinara mo na ang pinto pagkalabas niya at huminga ng malalim

how did it end up like this? isip mo.

why do you hate the man you once loved, imagined a future with? and everytime you look at your daughter's eyes, you see a glimpse of your relationship with her father. 

CAUSE SOMETIMES I LOOK IN HER EYES, AND THAT’S WHERE I FIND A GLIMPSE OF US.

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BİR TRAKYALININ AŞK MEKTUBU:)))

Nufut Gözlü Sevgilim Asibe, Te büle akşam oldu mu epten akılcımı alır, gözümü göğnümü bir oş edersin beyav... Abe Allah belacımı versin seni çok severim. Yatmaz mıyım yatacıma abe bi direm uyku girmez güzlerime.. Dünerim şu tarafa dünerim bu tarafa ep gene silinmez ayalin beya.

Ekmekten sudan kesildim artıkın. Tarlada elim çapa tutamaz, kaavede desen ne bi laf ede...rim ne de kiyaat oynarım. Üldürdün beni beyaa... Düşün bobam düşün.. Amet Aganın sıpası gibi önüme baka baka solurum.

Akşamları sizin maallede sülerim "Yarim sende vifa yokmu" şarkısını. Duyarsın elbet. Ölmüş nenem bile dinner. "Anlarım kızanım seni anlarım ama unda u boba varkene vermez sana asibeyi" der ep.. İşte u zaman çeltik tarlasına döner gözlerim. Epten gene vıcık vıcık olur aalamaktan... Şu boban olcak kapçık aazlıyı yola getiremez misin beyaa.. Aşıklık çekeriz bilirsin işte. Eriye eriye gündöndü sapına döndük anacını satımının.

Agana da süle düümesin artıkın beni. Sankim u iç aşık ulmamış. Düver Alla düver, sırtım gırnatacı Asan gibi kapkara oldu beyaa...

Takarım sana cumuriyet altını, alırım uzun tüülü mantu, cazlı düün bilem yaparım taa ne olsun beyaa... Süle anana akşama çıtlatsın bunları bobana. Yosa atar em vallahi em billahi damarları beynimin. Buzmayasın adamın aklını.

Yarın gece Alil'le Üsiin'i alırım yanıma, atarım seni Ismayıl'ın arabaya undan sonra bulsunlar bakalım bulabilceklemi...

Te ben adama bu kadan süülerim başkacanada bişey sülemem...

Seni er şeyden çok seven sevgilin;

Yolsuzların Kara Mümin.

Kara Mümin ve Asibe bu mektupdan 3 ay sonra evlendiler.

Düğün resimleri budur be yaa... yıl:1956.🤣🤣🤣🤣

[whooolaanmo]

Agang aga may nangungutang.

Na ngungutang : Tao po!

🙋🏻‍♀️ : ( ako na nasa loob ng tindahan namin ) ano po yon?

Na ngungutang : Neng asan Mama mo?

🙋🏻‍♀️ : nasa kabilang tindahan mo sa hardware, bakit po? maya maya po lunch andito na yon.

Na ngungutang : ay siya sige mamaya na lang pag nandyan na Mama mo, uutang ulit sana ako mga 10 libo sana, kailangan ng kapatid ko sa probinsya namin.

🙋🏻‍♀️ : sige po uulitin ko na lang po kay Mama o bumalik na lang po kayo.

Na ngungutang : sige Neng salamat.

Sa isip isip ko nangungutang pala yon sa amin pero yung asawa nya na babae saksakan ng yabang, feeling mayaman kasi may 2 sila anak tas pareho nasa ibang bansa pinag mamalaki nya yon kasi nakabili ng lupa tas ok na ok daw pamilya nila at suportado sila ng mga anak nila... ABA TEKA BAKIT MAY UMUUTANG...???

Apr. 13, 2024 10:06 am

[lyntherighteousleftist]

FEUD BETWEEN THESE TWO POLPOL NA POLITICIANS

Yesterday, I was on my way back to Matina from attending church. I wanted to go for a stroll but then I realized, if I go back, I'll be stuck in traffic for even longer. So I decided to head straight home instead of wandering around. While I was on a jeepney ride, I was surprised that there is traffic at UM Bolton-San Pedro area, only to find out there was a detour due to a prayer rally somewhere around San Pedro-Magallanes. I was curious about what kind of rally it was. When I got back to my boarding house, I checked my phone and scrolled through Facebook, only then did I find out about the prayer rally against Charter Change and the feud between Duterte and Marcos. All I can say is, they're both fools, treating us like idiots. They only think about their own interests and not the welfare of Filipinos. Asan ba yung unity niyo? Nagsisimula na silang nag sumbatan HAHAHAHA.

Speaking of politicians, para sa susunod na halalan, sana naman natuto na tayo from this dirty governance na dapat pumili tayo ng lider na meron talagang malasakit, hindi pera lang ang habol, may transparency at higit sa lahat, hindi puro "coke" lang ang alam

Of course, I strongly against Charter Change, but these politicians, I don't support them. NEVER.

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BİR TRAKYALININ AŞK MEKTUBU:)))

Nufut Gözlü Sevgilim Asibe, Te büle akşam oldu mu epten akılcımı alır, gözümü göğnümü bir oş edersin beyav... Abe Allah belacımı versin seni çok severim. Yatmaz mıyım yatacıma abe bi direm uyku girmez güzlerime.. Dünerim şu tarafa dünerim bu tarafa ep gene silinmez ayalin beya.

Ekmekten sudan kesildim artıkın. Tarlada elim çapa tutamaz, kaavede desen ne bi laf ede...rim ne de kiyaat oynarım. Üldürdün beni beyaa... Düşün bobam düşün.. Amet Aganın sıpası gibi önüme baka baka solurum.

Akşamları sizin maallede sülerim "Yarim sende vifa yokmu" şarkısını. Duyarsın elbet. Ölmüş nenem bile dinner. "Anlarım kızanım seni anlarım ama unda u boba varkene vermez sana asibeyi" der ep.. İşte u zaman çeltik tarlasına döner gözlerim. Epten gene vıcık vıcık olur aalamaktan... Şu boban olcak kapçık aazlıyı yola getiremez misin beyaa.. Aşıklık çekeriz bilirsin işte. Eriye eriye gündöndü sapına döndük anacını satımının.

Agana da süle düümesin artıkın beni. Sankim u iç aşık ulmamış. Düver Alla düver, sırtım gırnatacı Asan gibi kapkara oldu beyaa...

Takarım sana cumuriyet altını, alırım uzun tüülü mantu, cazlı düün bilem yaparım taa ne olsun beyaa... Süle anana akşama çıtlatsın bunları bobana. Yosa atar em vallahi em billahi damarları beynimin. Buzmayasın adamın aklını.

Yarın gece Alil'le Üsiin'i alırım yanıma, atarım seni Ismayıl'ın arabaya undan sonra bulsunlar bakalım bulabilceklemi...

Te ben adama bu kadan süülerim başkacanada bişey sülemem...

Seni er şeyden çok seven sevgilin;

Yolsuzların Kara Mümin.

Kara Mümin ve Asibe bu mektupdan 3 ay sonra evlendiler.

Düğün resimleri budur be yaa... yıl:1956.

[esmaelnourukbayev]

Sana dönük yüzümün duvarına

en kadim sancıları çizip,

bir incir dalına asan sen değil misin yâr..

Bin pusat yaralarımı

derman türkülere yasladığım..

Ya da yetim gülüşlerimi

bir yudum öfke karşılığı

eskiciye yâr eden..

Esmael Nour Ukbayev

[aking-takbuhan]

KISS ON THE CHEEK (EP.2) N.JM

Plot: Where you got attracted to your brother’s friend, Na Jaemin and started to grew close not knowing you are starting to fall for him. But your brother, Jaehyun told you not to get too attached to his friend. Will you take risks? Just so your brother won’t get hurt?

Genre: Fluff, Romance(?)

Author note: hiii!! I can post little by little now kasi kaya ko naman siguro. Btw guys feel free to tell me what you feel about sa mga sinusulat ko like kunwari medyo plain or like parang ambilis, so I can know your pov and change it for future purposes! I hope you guys have fun reading~

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Nakauwi na si Jaemin. Pinauwi ito ng kuya mo kaagad-agad kinabukasan dahil alam nga naman niya di ka komportable na may ibang tao, pero pati na rin na medyo inilalayo niya ikaw kay Jaemin. "Asan na si kuya Jaemin?" iyong tinanong dahil akala mo bukas pa ito uuwi. "Umuwi na. May kinakailangan pa siyang asikasuhin related med." Pagsisinungaling ng kuya mo, pero medyo totoo naman ito pero hindi naman ito ang pinaka rason. Tumango ka nalang at bumalik sa kwarto mo.

Binuksan mo ang iyong laptop na asa lamesa mo para magtapos ng ibang mga kailangang ipasa sa next week. Bad trip na sembreak ay hanggang Wednesday lang. Nung binuksan mo ito may papel na nakaipit. 'let's be close haha..? 09....' at may naka lagay na jaem sa ibaba. Tinitigan mo ito na parang nagdadalawang isip, pero in the end, inilagay mo rin ang kaniyang number sa contacts mo, dahil may tiwala ka naman kay Jaemin. After all childhood friend ito ng nakakatandang kapatid mo. Nag send ka naman ng 'hi:)' sakanya at pinatay mo muna ang phone mo para hindi ka madistract sa mga kailangan mong gawin na assignments.

Pero.. ang ginawa mo halos ay manood lang ng youtube. parang 99% na nood 1% na assignment. Dahil wala ka rin naman gana gumawa ng mga requirements mo, binuksan mo nalang ang iyong telepono nakalimutang nagchat ka kay Jaemin. Tinanong lang naman nito kung ano ginagawa mo at nagkaroon ng kaunting chikahan. 'are you free tomorrow?' ang message ni Jaemin sa iyo. nag oo ka naman, at hindi mo naisip ang iyong kuya na baka tanungin ka kung saan ka pupunta bukas.

Kinabukasan, ikaw ay ngayon nag-aayos na sa iyong sarili dahil inaya ka ni Jaemin na magkape daw kayo at usap-usap. Siyempre crush mo si Jaemin, edi pumorma ka ngayon. Mas naging crush mo siya ngayon dahil andami mong nalalaman about sakanya na nakakaattract sayo. Like, he is THE standard. Ikaw ay naka skirt na medyo maikli, at naka blause. "At saan ka naman pupunta?" Naitanong ng kuya mo sa paglabas mo ng iyong kwarto. "u-uh, ha ano lalabas lang" kabado mong banggit dahil di mo talaga naalala kuya mo. "Saan nga, kompletuhin mo sagot mo di kita payagan jan eh" Pangasar ni Jaehyun. "Pupunta café, with... friends." Kilala ng kuya mo ang mga kaibigan mo kaya okay lang naman sakanya. "wehhhh pag ikaw ng club kokonyatan kita ha" Sabi ng kuya mo. At inirapan mo siya jokingly.

Asa cafè ka na, na sinabi ni Jaemin. Natanaw mo rin naman ito dahil maluwag ang cafè. Ang susyalin pa nga eh, parang di mo afford to ah. Nagwave siya sayo, and you did it back. "Hello. I guess nakapagpaalam ka sa kuya mo ng ayos?" Kaniyang tinanong. "Actually, sabi ko friends.. hehe I mean you're a friend too, pero ang akala niya is yung mga kaibigan ko sa uni." You mentioned, and he chuckled. "That's okay, dahil I'm sure ayaw ng kuya mo malaman na magkasama tayo." You just nodded still confused bakit ayaw ng kuya mo kayo ay maging malapit sa isa't isa ni Jaemin. Inaya ka naman nito bumili na ng kape and something to eat. and, boogsh nagulat ka. Ang mahal ng kape! "H-hala, uh kuya Jaem di muna pala ako oorder haha..!" You awkwardly laughed and mentioned it. He was about to ask why, but he said something. "If you are worrying about the price, ako naman ang magbabayad. Ako naman ang nag-aya din. So siyempre libre ko to." Kanyang nasabi at papalag ka pa sana ng hindi mo na siya mapigilan dahil asa harap na kayo ng counter.

You got your coffees and food, and did a little chit chatting. You even tasted his coffee, "WTF!! NAKAKAMATAY ATA YANG KAPE MO KUYA" iyong nasabi, muntikan ng mabuga ang kape. Tinawanan ka lang niya. You really aren't the type of person na madaling makapagclose, but Jaemin just hits differently. He made you comfortable, and he is very trustworthy. And your feelings starts to grow really harder.

Hapon na at malapit nang mag gabi. You both had fun, but both tired. "Nagcommute ka papunta dito??" Natanong ni Jaemin. "Mhm, wala pako lisensya. Jaehyun wouldn't let me drive because of it. Delikado daw." Jaemin really appreciates kung gaano ka masunurin sa kuya mo. he loves it. Kaso, he just can't be bothered na nakasuot ka ng maikli at nagcommute ka pa. "This is none of my business, pero I'm just worried the fact you are wearing something short? Alam mo naman kapaligiran these days." Concern ni Jaemin. "Nag-grab naman po ako kuya! that's fine! And mag-grab nalang ulit sko pauwi-" There is no way he will let you, baka mapahamak ka pa dahil gabi na. "No, wag na. Sabay ka nalang sakin hatid kita. Di naman makikita ng kuya mo, don't worry." He just wanted to make sure you're safe. Nag agree ka nalang at nag thank you sakanya. I mean babae ka so mahirap talaga magcommute ng ganitong oras.

You sat infront and Jaemin closed the door for you. ack ang gentleman naman. He went in the drivers seat and started the car. He just started it, pero di pa niya ito pinapatakbo. He was staring at nothing. You weren't that bothered not until he suddenly spoke. "Alam mo ba kanina pinagtitinginan ka ng mga lalake doon sa gilid?" He suddenly opened up. "They were staring at you, na parang inuundress ka na nila sa kanilang mga mata. And the worst thing is, grab drivers sila." You got chills. "Paano mo naman naisip na grab drivers yun??" You questioned. "of course katabi nila sasakyan nilang nakalabel na grab." Doon ka na natakot, what if kanina may balak pala sayo yung naghatid sayo kaninang papunta sa café dito? You started to overthink. "Gladly you're safe papunta. Dapat sinabihan mo ako na magcocommute ka pala. Edi sana nasundo kita." His concern once again.

Malapit na kayo sa condo niyo ng kuya mo, pero nakatulog ka. Jaemin was admiring you, glance by glance. Like, fuck ang ganda mo kasi. Jaemin really felt worried kanina. Hindi niya maimagine mapahamak ka, dahil alam niya na kung gaano ka kamahal ng kuya mo. So he then make sure na hindi na mauulit. Gini-gising ka na ni Jaemin. Halos mag sa-sampung minuto na si Jaemin nakaparada dito inaantay kang magising dahil hindi ka nagigising sa sobrang himbing ng tulog. After two more minutes, finally nagising ka na. "We're here for about 10 mins I think. Baka hinahanap ka na ng kuya mo." He looked at you while telling that. Kay ganda ng bungad ng paggising mo. Ampogi naman kasi nito. "Alam kong pogi ako, pero baka hinahanap ka na talaga ng kuya mo." Nawala ka sa pagtulala sakanya, at nahiya. "a-ay, u-uh okay um una na ako kuya-" "Call me Jaemin. I don't feel like it suits me to be called kuya. Siguro kung bata." He smiled and you laughed. "Okay, thank you so much today. I really enjoyed this day. Next time ulit, Jaemin." Only if you knew kung gaano ka laking epekto kay Jaemin kung paano mo siya tinawag. It sounds too attractive when it comes from you. He then opened his door to go to your side and open yours. Apaka gentleman talaga. once you got out, he was there standing. Pabalik na sana sa driver's seat, when you suddenly pulled his arm and kissed him on his cheek. "Bye! Chat moko pag kauwi mo ha!" You said running to the building, papunta sa condo. Jaemin just watched you, medyo gulat. You kissed him on his cheek. Kaya napangiti ito sa sarili. What a wonderful and memorable day today.

[vocalsynthbdays]

happy birthday Utanami Kazusa(utau) !!! [feb 13]

Utanami Kazusa is a japanese synth developed by SHINYUSHA for the mar 2013 release of the windows 100% magazine, and so she was released in 2013. she is voiced by Aranami Kazusa, and illustated by Romilio(?)

last year i also posted Sana Asane on this day but it turns out she was released in january LMAOOOO,, oops forgive me !!

[boldlypurplelight]

LOVE IS A DRUG|| JJK|| 2

Pairing: Yandere Jungkook × Female Reader

Genre: Yandere Themes, a bit fluff, angst, betrayal.

Warning: Swearing

‌Summary: YN had a very Happy life with her lovely Boyfriend Jeon Jungkook, a 24 year old ceo ; but things take a vast turn and yn finds herself in critical condition.

CHAPTER 2

YN were a very noble and sincere employee known in Asan Hospital. A student with straight A's yet she were a goofy and fun person. She had a very great colleagues including your two besties Sana and Nayeon. Most trusted and as goofy as YN.

But not everyone in their colleagues liked her. Kim Sarah was a good employee working in the endoscopy department yet she was greedy. She actually wanted to be in your position but since endoscopy was little less demanding Sarah has no choice but to choose another option- 'Marry a rich man'.

Ofcourse it wasn't an easy task but Sarah could never dream herself to be struggling in future.

YN got a message at her break time.

'Come to the deck, babe!! I brought you Sushi 😋' she snorted at the cheesy message.

"Your boyfriend, isn't it?" Nayeon questioned. Sana and Nayeon knew your love life, YN didn't like the idea of many people knowing about her personal life and on top of that if people got to know that the investor of hospital is her boyfriend, Damn! She don't wanna go through it.

'On my way 😉' She reply.

The Deck is always empty at lunchtime hence the meeting spot of the secret couple. She saw Jungkook waiting for her, she hugged him, his hands still lingering on her waist as he asks "How are you baby?".

" Hmm, fine" as she was resting her arms on his shoulder.

Jungkook frowned "You were supposed to say I am not fine without you babe".

YN chuckled "Alright!! Now that you're here I am all fine, Happy?" She teased.

"Hmm more than happy"

Jungkook didn't get or liked the idea of secret dating , he wanted to show the whole world that YN is his girlfriend or more like she is taken. There were times when he found out that many employees like her, he was enraged wanting to punch those mans to even think about her.

"yn-ah, let's just be official now" Jungkook trying every way to perceive yn.

YN loved Jungkook, really but people knowing she is dating him , JUNGKOOK the ceo of Jeon Industries and your hospital investor, people would see your hardwork as nothing but nepotism.

"Babe! We will make it official, but it's not easy for me too.I need some time" YN said biting on her lower lips.

"Don't you trust me soon-ah, I love you from the depth of my, I , Jungkook have never seen my future with any other woman but you. Don't I atleast deserve to call you mine in front of the world"

Jungkook said. No sugarcoating and No lies in his eyes or words.

It made her heart flutter that he feel she is that important in her life. Tightening her arms around him she pulled him for a kiss.

The couple immersed in a kiss couldn't see that someone had seen their secret with her own eyes.

Sarah couldn't believe, YN was dating the Jeon Jungkook. Is it the reason why everyone liked you - but that wasn't her main concern. The main concern was she was dating a billionaire.

A FUCKING BILLIONAIRE.

Sarah was jealous, envied that yn unknowingly got everything but Sarah couldn't even become an above average.

She stomped away in the head office to tell everyone what their favourite employee is doing but she stopped. What would even happen if she tell their secret? She would be fired? NO. YN might even get onto bigger position if possible.

No, Sarah wasn't going to do that , she found herself going to the laboratory. Evil thoughts occurring in her mind as she steps in lab she finds YN's bestfriend Sana.

Sana looks at Sarah probably wondering why she was here. Sarah smirked, If she doesn't have the life like yn, she'll get the life like YN.

"Can you tell me when is YN's birthday?"

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[ligayangdala]

fwb!hyuck na bibigyan ka ng signal na i-meet siya sa cr ng rest house na pinags-stay-an ninyo habang nasa vacation with your friends. it's dinner time already and malapit yung place niyo sa shore, which set the ambiance quite better than expected.

everyone were still in their bathing suits, and you were wearing your swimsuit also. hyuck was still in his black trunks as well, and you would be damned if you didn't say he was hotter than usual. the pair you were wearing was hyuck's favorite, pero no one had to know that. after all, what would hurt kung aasarin mo siya nang kasama mga kaibigan niyo, hindi ba?

back to when he gave his signal, nauna na siyang pumunta sa comfort room. a little while later, sumunod ka. the rest house had two comfort rooms anyway, kaya naman hindi na kayo nag-alala kung mahahalata ba nila o hindi.

agad siyang sumunggab sayo kasama ang mainit na halik matapos mong buksan ang pinto. hinatak ka niya papasok at nilock agad ang pinto sa likod mo habang iniipit ka sa pagitan ng pinto at kanyang katawan. “anong pakay mo, donghyuck? alam mo namang kasama natin mga kaibigan natin. what if they hear?” he scoffed at your question, na para bang inasahan niya nang sasabihin mo 'yon.

“i don't know where you keep that much audacity in your tiny body, doll. you were basically eye-fucking me kanina tapos inirampa mo 'yang katawan mo sa paborito kong pares ng swimsuit. paano kita matitiis, hindi ba?” napatawa ka nalang habang tine-trace ang mga linya ng katawan niya. mula sa magandang leeg na masarap kalatan ng kiss marks, sa collarbone niyang defined, hanggang sa dibdib niyang pwede nang gawing unan. ibinalik mo ang iyong mga kamay sa kanyang batok, bago nagsalitang muli.

“mhm, you talk too much babe. let's get this over with kasi kanina pa ako naiinip. you look too hot in these, hindi mo naman din ako masisisi kasi i know for a fact that you were thinking of taking me there and then in front of them.” napangisi siya sa mayabang mong remark at agad mong naramdaman ang kamay niyang dumapo sa kagitnaan ng iyong mga hita. hindi na siya nag-aksaya ng oras para lumuhod sa harapan mo at saka rumebat;

“you know me too damn well, baby. gusto kong malaman nilang sa'kin ka lang.” sasagot ka pa sana kaso hinatak niya na sa gilid ang pudya ng iyong bikini, at sinipsip nang maigi ang clit mo. napa-higop ka ng malalim na hininga mula sa gulat, kaya't umakyat ang iyong kamay papunta sa bibig mong nakabuka.

ever since the first time donghyuck ate you out, you knew he was a great at doing so. he was the best one you had, and the only one you'll come crawling for. the way he dragged his tongue in between your folds and fucked his hardened tongue into you, it was given that he'll have you coming in no time.

“h-hyuck, baby please- malapit na 'ko.” mala-nauubusang-hiningang sambit mo habang nasa buhok niya ang iyong mga kamay, rhythmically pulling and signalling further na malapit ka nang labasan. as if on cue, sumabay pa ang mga daliri niya sa aksyon, at lalo kang napalapit sa papalapit mong orgasmo.

muntik ka nang sumigaw sa inis nang tanggalin ni donghyuck ang mga daliri niyang nasa loob mo kanina lang, at binigyan ng isang mahabang dila at halik ang puke mo bago ipinasok sa bibig niya ang mga daliring ginamit niya sayo kanina.

“gago ka, hyuck! parang tanga naman eh, ang lapit lapit ko na no'n!” maluha-luhang sambit mo habang hinahampas ang dibdib niya nang mahina. “kasalanan mo 'yan sa pang-aasar sa'kin kanina. don't worry and be good for the rest of the night, mamaya ka sa'kin.”

(inspired by my experience with my fubu last year hehe sarap niya)

— 🧃

"mamaya ka sakin" AY BAKIT PO HINDI PA NGAYON?????????

🧃 anon, beh saan mo nakilala 'yang fubu mo..... meron ba nyan sa shapi?

ASAN NA YUNG ANON NA KINAKABAHAN KAY 🧃 ANON 😭😭😭😭 ETO NA SI 🧃 ANON BEH...... HINDI NA LINKS ANG BITBIT NIYA..... ONESHOT NA PO 😭😭😭😭

[fucklob]

taming the wildfire // 550

tags: mentions of miscarriage, light angst, smut 🔞

Posted by @woodzjeon

Psalm’s apartment is… huge. And I’m not even exaggerating. Sobrang laki talaga nito. It’s a two-storey apartment. Pag-pasok mo pa lang, enggrande na agad ang hallway. Paintings were hanged on the walls and I just know na hindi lang iyon basta-basta mga paintings. The walls were white with black accent. The theme is modern classic. Sobrang… bagay sa kanya.

High ceiling sa living room. Kulay itim ang chandelier na nakasabit doon. Ang mga furnitures ay itim lahat. Even the throw pillows. The vases were black too. More paintings hanging on the wall. Sobrang liwanag dito dahil ang isang pader ay salamin and the curtains were opened kaya nakakapasok ang liwanag sa labas. The skyscrapers look beautiful here.

Ang ganda… Ang laki… And yet he’s all alone here? Or dinadala niya dito ang mga flings niya para hindi siya mag isa? Though sabi niya dati hindi siya nag uuwi… Whatever. It’s none of my business, anyway.

“Asan ang magiging kwarto ni Salem?” tanong ko ng hindi siya nililingon. I keep looking around but him. Ayoko siyang tignan. Kumakalabog kasi ang dibdib ko. Baka makalimutan kong naiirita ako sa kanya.

Kaming dalawa pa naman ang nandito lang sa apartment niya… Mahirap na.

“All the rooms are upstairs,” sagot niya, voice low yet I could hear him loud dahil malapit lang siya sa likod ko. Too close, actually, that I could feel the warmth of his body.

“Okay, akyat tayo–” Papanhik na sana ako but he grabbed my arm at swabeng hinarap sa kanya. Agad nag tama ang mga mata namin. And although kalmado, seryoso ang mga mata niya.

“Usap muna tayo,” he said and the way he said sent chills down my spine. Wala sa sariling napakagat labi ako at kita ko ang pasada ng mga mata niya doon. “Alam kong may hindi ka nagustuhan that’s why you’re acting like this. I want you to tell me about it dahil hindi ako manghuhula to know what’s the problem. At kapag hindi ko alam kung anong problema mo, I won’t be able to solve the problem.”

Buntis nga talaga ako. My mood swings are such a bitch. Kanina masaya ako pero mabilis na nagalit. Nag maldita. Tapos ngayon, binabaha ako ng guilt. Psalm sounded so mature… tapos ako, parang high school student sa pagka-immature.

Sure, naging sarado si Psalm noong mga huling araw ng relasyon namin. He was blinded with anger… with jealousy… Pero bago iyon, he was the most understanding person I knew. He always knew what to say. He always understands me. Ako lang itong bulag at hindi nakita iyon.

Hanggang sa huli na ang lahat. Nagkaroon siya ng rason para hindi ako pagkatiwalaan. Para hindi pakinggan. I pushed him to the edge. Masyado akong nakampante pero… mali ako.

And yet, years later, heto siya at iniintindi ulit ako. Nag iisip ng paraan para magkaayos kami. Magkaintindihan. So things wouldn’t go haywire… Out of our control… Para hindi maulit ang nakaraan. Ang mga pagkakamali namin.

“Who’s Huh Yunjin?” diretsang tanong ko.

Bumakas ang gulat sa mukha niya pero agad iyong bumalik sa dati. Seryoso at sinsero. “Kaibigan.”

I could taste bitterness in my tongue. Kumalat iyon sa dibdib ko. “Did you fuck her?”

“Yes, I did.”

Fuck. Naramdaman ko ang pag init ng mga mata ko.

“W-When?” My voice broke. My lips are quivering. My heart is shattering.

“Two years ago.”

“But you were seen leaving the hotel together…”

“Nagkita lang kami doon. She was with her parents. Her father is one of our business partners. He’s also my ninong kaya hindi ako nakatanggi ng inaya nila akong sumama sa kanila. Hindi ko alam kung bakit kaming dalawa lang ang binalita when her parents were there,” he explained.

Fuckfuckfuckfuck.

Nilunok ko ang nakabara sa lalamunan ko. They fucked two years ago… Hindi pa kami nag kikita ulit. Wala ng ulit nangyari sa kanila. Kasama nila ang magulang ni Yunjin sa hotel. Wala silang relasyon.

“I saw her texts…” I bit my lower lip. “Ano yung ginawa niyo na hindi niya makalimutan?”

“I honestly don’t know,” he said. “Her parents did leave us together. We drank a bit sa bar. She opened up to me about her problems and I did give her advise… as a friend. Iyon lang ang ginawa namin. Saglit lang dahil umalis na rin ako kaagad kasi gusto na kitang maka-video call, pero hindi mo na sinagot ang mga texts at tawag ko.”

Hindi ako nakasagot. He frowned, tilting his head a bit to the left. “Kaya ba hindi mo ako pinansin… dahil doon? Nagselos ka?”

My cheeks burned. Gusto kong itanggi pero… pero mas pinili kong mag sabi ng totoo. Naging honest siya. Dapat honest din ako. “Oo. Dahil doon… Akala ko may nangyari sa inyo when you told me na exclusive tayo sa isa’t isa.”

Isang maliit na ngisi ang lumitaw sa namumulang labi niya. “I’ve never slept with anyone ever since I heard you were back in the country.”

I blinked. Kumalabog muli ang dibdib ko dahil doon.

“Sinagot ko na mga tanong mo. Sagutin mo naman ang akin.” Marahan niya akong hinatak palapit sa kanya.

Marahan pero sa panghihina ko, napatid pa ako palapit sa kanya. Mabuti na lang ay mabilis niyang nayakap ang bewang ko. Napahawak ako sa matipuno niyang dibdib. Halos maduling ako sa labi namin. I could see the stubbles on his chin. His pores. Those beauty marks. Nalulunod ako sa mabango niyang amoy.

“Nagka relasyon ba kayo ni Jace?”

Muli akong napakurap. If possible, mas lalong sumeryoso ang mga mata niya.

Umiling ako. “We were fuck buddies at alam kong alam mo ‘yon. Pero simula ng… magkagusto ako sayo, wala ng nangyari ulit sa amin. Yes, he did kiss me nung nag away tayo at nag inom ako sa bar kasama ang mga kaibigan ko. Hindi ko siya natulak kaagad sa gulat. Nag sorry siya.”

“He’s in love with you…”

“He was in love with me but I doubt he is still now. I never returned his feelings. Alam kong alam mo rin ‘yan because you were fucking me when he confessed. O hindi mo tanda?” I arched my brow.

Muling lumitaw ang ngisi sa labi niya. He licked his lips, biting his lower lip. “I remember it very well, Sin.”

Kumuyom ang mga kamao kong nasa dibdib niya. “A-After that… Hindi na kami ulit nagkita.”

“Hmm…” Naramdaman ko ang bahagyang paghaplos ng kamay niya sa likod ko. Bahagya iyong bumaba, just right above my eyes. Nakagat ko ang inner cheek ko. “Si… Si Karim? Nagka-relasyon ba kayo?”

Huminga ako ng malalim bago sumagot. “Karim was my first… Naging fuck buddies kami noon pero tinigil namin because we realized we’re better off as friends. Since then, wala ng nangyari ulit sa amin. Nakilala niya si Shiloah and he fell in love with him. Ako… Nakilala kita.”

Hindi siya sumagot kaya nag patuloy ako.

“Nagkaanak sila… Si Karim at Shiloah pero… pero nakunan si Shiloah. Karim lost his chil and Shiloah. He was depressed. Natakot ako kung anong bakang gawin niya kaya… kaya lagi ko siyang dinadamayan. I’m sorry, Psalm, kung nakalimutan ko ang obligasyon ko sayo bilang boyfriend mo. Natuon ang atensyon ko kay and I guess, my desperation to give back for everything he did to me. Sa sobrang desperasyon kong makabawi sa kaibigan ko, nakalimutan kita. For that, I will forever be sorry.”

Napansin ko ang pagbigat ng paghinga niya. I could feel it on my palms that are on his chest, his warm breath fanning across my face.

“Nakita… Nakita ko kayong nag halikan ‘non,” mahinang sagot niya, halos hindi ko marinig but I did. Kumirot ang puso ko, remembering that night. “Hinahalikan mo siya pabalik, Sin… Tandang tanda ko… Hinding hindi ko ata makakalimutan ‘yon… Gabi gabi kong naaalala kung paano mo siya hinalikan.”

“I’m sorry…” mahinang sagot ko. I run my hands towards his shoulder, up to his neck, hanggang mayakap ko ang kanyang batok. “Hindi ko itatangging… hinalikan ko siya, because I really did kiss him back.”

Kita ko ang sakit na pumasada sa mga mata niya.

“Noong mga panahong ‘yon… I was lost… Hindi ko pa alam na buntis ako but I was already lost… Nawalan ako ng scholarship. Nagtatrabaho ako. Hindi ko alam patutunguhan ng buhay ko. Tapos… Tapos nawala ka pa sa buhay ko. I loved and hated you at the same time. And when… when Karim kissed me… it felt like I could grasp back on what used to be familiar to me… Bago nag bago ang buhay ko. The intimacy… The comfort… The neediness… I used to have all of it tapos biglang nawala… Kaya nung nahalikan niya ako… parang bumalik sa akin.”

I chuckled bitterly. “It was short lived though. Pinagsisihan ko kaagad. But you were already there. Nakita mo na.”

“It solidified all my accusations to you…” Psalm mumbled. “I was already regretting everything… Kinwestyon ko lahat ng pinaniniwalaan ko… Na niloko mo ko… Nagsisisi na ako… tapos… Tapos nakita ko kayong dalawa. I was so mad, Sinclair.”

Marahan kong hinaplos ang buhok sa likod ng ulo niya, threading my fingers through the soft locks. “I know… I could feel your anger… Your pain… But I was already too tired… Too numb… Hindi ko na pinilit ipaliwanag pa ‘yung sarili ko.”

“I don’t think I’d believe you if you did…”

Napapikit ako ng pinatong niya ang noo sa akin, our noses grazing against each other.

“I hated you for years, Sin… I wished so many bad things to happen to you… Para makaganti… Para makabawi sa lahat ng sakit na binigay mo sakin…”

“I hated you too…” I chuckled bitterly, dinadama ang paghaplos ng ilong niya sa akin, ng kanyang mainit na the hininga, especially the ghost of his lips.

Marahan ‘din siyang natawa. “And yet… no matter how much I hated you… I’m still madly in love with you… Hindi kita maalis-alis sa puso ko, Sin… Kahit anong gawin ko… Hindi kita makalimutan… ‘Yung mga mata mo… Mga ngiti mo… Kung paano mo ko tawagin… Yung mga tawa mo… Kung gaano ka kainit… kalambot… kakinis… Hindi ko makalimutan, Sin… Kahit wala ka sa tabi ko, it still felt like you were right there…

“I kept falling for you… even with just the memory of you… of us… Patuloy kitang minamahal… Nung bumalik ka, gusto kong maghiganti pero nung nakita kita, all I want was to own you again… to make you fall so damn hard for me na hindi mo na ako ipagpapalit kahit kanina… Then I learned about our Salem… our baby… I fell so damn hard even more.

“Hinding hindi na ko makakabangon sa’yo, Sin… You own me… Every single part of my being is yours… Sayo lang… Ikaw lang–”

Overwhelmed with feelings, tumingkayad ako at inabot ang mga labi ni Psalm. Humigpit ang yakap niya sa bewang ko ng malalim ko siyang halikan. I grabbed a handful of his hair as I deepened the kiss.

Nilunok ko ang ungol na pinakawalan niya. I nibbled on his lower lip, sucking, and biting on it bago ko pinasok ang dila ko sa loob ng mainit na bibig niya. I could taste the mint. I could feel the vibrations of the sound he’d release. Pinakiramdamdamn ko lahat ng iyon.

Masyado akong nalango sa halik niya na hindi ko namalayang nakaangat na pala ako sa sahig, his warm hands on my us, keeping me up in the hair, habang nag lalakad siya patungo sa hagdan.

Nasa pangatlong hagdan palang kami ng ibinaba niya ako saglit. Saglit na naghiwalay ang mga uhaw na labi namin dahil hinuhubad niya ang pang itaas niya. I was already too impatient then. I didn’t let him go at patuloy na hinahalikan ang pisngi niya, ang kanyang leeg, even his shoulders kaya nahirapan siyang hubarin ang damit niya.

“Sin–” I started kissing him on his mouth again. He groaned, kissing me back for a bit bago siya bumitaw. “Sa– Kwarto– Tayo–” paputol putol na sabi niya dahil hindi ako matigil sa paghalik sa kanya.

“Okay–” sabi ko but I still didn’t stop. Para akong nagma-malfunction. Wala na akong control sa sarili ko. Nalunod ako sa emosyon ko. All I wanted was him… to be with him… Fuck, I need him so bad.

Sinubukan muli akong buhatin ni Psalm para makaakyat kami, pero ilang beses kaming nahinto sa hagdan niya dahil sa kakahalik ko sa kanya. I even started feeling his body – especially his hard on. Sobrang tigas na niya. Gusto kong ilabas. Gusto kong hawakan. Gusto kong isubo. Gusto kong maramdaman iyon sa loob ko. Fuck! Baliw na ata ako.

Hindi ko na alam but we successfully got upstairs. Wala na ako sa matinong pag iisip. Hindi ko na nga namalayang wala na rin pala akong pang itaas. Nalaman ko lang nang isandal niya ako sa malamig na pader sa tabi ng pinto ng kwarto niya.

“Tangina, Sin–” gigil na bulong ni Psalm, biting on my neck. My eyes rolled at the back of my head. Diniin niya ang ari sa akin, grinding it against mine. Napaungol ako. “Binabaliw mo ko.”

“Binabaliw mo rin ako…” I said in between my gasps and moans.

As much as I wanted to look around his room, I was already in my cloud 9. Parang lintang hindi na ako nalumbay sa kanya. I even whined like a fucking kid ng ibaba niya ako sa kama at umalis siya sa ibabaw ko para hubarin ang pantalon niya.

“Psalm–” I cried, reaching for him.

“Wait, Sin,” he said, mabilis na hinuhubad ang pantalon. I bit my lower lip, eyeing his god-like body.

Nang lumitaw ang naninigas niyang titi, bumangon ako at gumapang palapit sa kanya. Agad kong hinawakan iyon na ikinaungol niya.

“Sinclai–” Mabilis kong sinubo iyon, moaning in delight ng malasahan ko siya. The skin. Yung katas niya. Fuck, ang sarap. “God damn it, Sinclair.”

I heard his sharp breath and how he threaded his fingers in my hair. Hayok na ginalaw ko ang ulo ko, moaning habang dinadama ang pag labas masok ng titi niya sa bibig ko, walang hirap na sinasagad ko sa lalamunan ko.

Suminghap ako ng iluwa ko iyon. I used my hands to keep playing on it. Taas baba. Sinilip ko siya habang binabati ang titi niya. Kagat labi at kunot ang noo niya akong pinapanood. Without breaking eye contact with him, dinilaan ko ang bayag niya at pinasok sa bibig ko. He let out a loud moan habang nilalaro ko iyon gamit ang dila ko.

“Shit– Sinclair– Ang sarap… Sige pa…”

Mas lalo akong ginagahan dahil sa sinasabi niya. Dinilaan ko mula bayag niya paangat sa ulo, feeling the bumps of the popping veins on the length bago swabeng binaon muli iyon sa lalamunan ko. I moaned around it.

Hindi ko pinansin ang ngalay ng panga ko. Ininda ko iyon. I want to make him feel good… I want to embed in my brain the feeling of having his dick in my mouth… Anong pakiramdam… Anong lasa… I want to remember it forever. Gosh, kahit sa kabilang buhay, gusto kong maalala anong pakiramdam ng titi niya sa bibig ko.

Nilunok ko lahat ng pinakawalan ni Psalm ng tuluyan na siyang labasan. Inipon ko muna ang tamod niya sa bibig ko, tasting it, feeling its thickness and warmth. I even showed it to him bago iyon nilunok.

“Fuck, Sinclair!” nababaliw na ungol ni Psalm bago ako muling atakihin ng halik. Ginalugad ng dila niya ang loob ng bibig ko, tasting his own seed. It was so hot.

Agad ring nag lakbay ang mga labi niya. Sa leeg ko, sa balikat, sa dibdib kung saan nabaliw ako ng husto kung paano niya sinuso ng salit-salit ang sensitibo kong mga utong. Bawat balat na malalapat ng bibig niya ay nag iiwan siya ng marka. I wanted that.

I was so hard that it hurt. Basang basa na rin ako. Dama ko ang mainit na katas kong gumagapang palabas. Gosh, I think the mattress is already wet too. Kaya ng hawakan ako ni Psalm doon, nanginig ako.

“P-Psalm–” I cried out habang iniikot niya ang dalawang daliri sa butas ko. Fuck… Mas binuka ko ang mga binti ko. I even raised my hips para hindi siya mahirapang kalikutin ang butas ko.

Nasa sikmura ko na ang mga labi niya. Nakikiliti ako sa lambot at init ng mga labi at dila niya. Napapaigtad tuwing kakagatin niya minsan. Pababa iyon ng pababa until he stopped. Bahagya siyang lumayo kaya napatingin ako sa kanya.

Nakatitig sya ngayon sa peklat ko gawa ng cesarean. Sa maliit na umbok sa aking tsan at sa maputing balat, isama mo pa ang liwanag sa kwarto niya, kahit kupas na ay kita pa rin iyon.

“Psalm…” marahan na tawag ko.

Hindi siya sumagot. Instead, he leaned down at marahang pinatakan ng halik ang peklat ko. Napapikit ako sa gaan ‘non. His lips stayed there, gently pressed on the mark. Marahan kong hinaplos ang buhok niya.

Naalala ko ang hirap ng pagbubuntis. The pain I felt. Ayoko ng maranasan ulit iyon. It was a really painful experience. Pero ang madama ang mga labi ni Psalm doon, its softness and warmth, I wouldn’t mind going through all of that over and over again… If it means bringing the fruit of our love into this world.

“Psalm…” marahang tawag ko muli.

Unti-unti siyang lumayo. Umangat siya muli hanggang mag tapat ang mga mukha namin. His eyes were bloodshot. Kumikinang iyon dahil sa namumuong luha. His nose is already red. Maliit akong napangiti at hinaplos ang pisngi niya.

“Iyakin ka pa rin,” mahinang asar ko even though my voice is already shaking.

“I will do everything… to be the best father…” he mumbled.

Ngumiti ako. “You already are, Psalm…”

Sa muling halikan namin, unti-unti niya akong inangkin. I moaned in his mouth as he slid inside me. No gaps between us. We were connected as one, skin to skin, breath to breath.

Marahan at mabagal niya akong binayo, as if he was feeling then drag of his maleness in every inch of my insides. And I gladly welcomed all his shallow yet deep thrusts.

“I love you…” I whispered with his face hovering on mine. Sobrang lapit na halos malunod na ako sa mga mata niya. “I'm in love with you, Psalm Adrian Yuchengco…”

He let out a shaky breath as he pulled out, then slowly sank back in, shaky sharp breath escaping his parted swollen lips.

“I never did stop loving you, Psalm… I never did…” I let out a sobbed moan when he went deeper.

Napapikit ako ng marahan niya akong hinalikan sa pisngi. “You already made your mark on me… It’s permanent… You own me, Psalm… You own me…”

I bit my lower lip when his lips brushed against the shell of my ear.

“I’m going to marry you, Sinclair… You’re the only one for me… and I’m the only one for you…”

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Tapos pala kahapon 'di ba na assign ako mag reorient sa mga nurse regarding sa system na ginagamit sa hospi, 'pag dating ko sa venue sabi sakin "agahan mo naman sa susunod hindi yung mauuna pa mga user sa'yo" turns out madami pang wala and short notice lang binigay sakin na ako pala magppresent, sana ayos ka lang? Hahahaha tapos sabi asan daw laptop ko, sabi ko wala ang sabi lang mag oorient ako eh tapos sabi "ano ba yan dapat nagsabi ka na wala" Hello? Sino ba nagtawag sakin para mag orient? Tsaka walang laptop sa office. Hindi ba dapat kayo mag provide ng laptop kasi Head ka naman ng IT Dept lol

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ULAN HAİNLER!..

Kobani kobani diye amerikan cia propagandasını ve algı yönetiminin kuklası olup Irak'taki pkk terörislerini ülkemizden Suriye'ye ellerine dürüm-döner vererek siz göndermediniz mi? O zamanlar pyd mi vardı? Yoktu! Siz amerikan bop eşbakanı ve etrafındaki devlet düşmanları yaptınız bunu!. Suriye'pkk terör örgütünü siz soktunuz. Onlar döndüler ülkemin askerini, polisini, öğretmenini, hemşiresini, mühendisini ve diğer vatandaşlarımızı şehit ettiler. Sizin yüzünüzden. Bu milleti aptal mı sandınız?

Siz değil miydiniz o dönemde "Her türlü milliyetçiliği ayaklarımız altına aldık" diyen! Ey Bahçeli, seni de mi ezdiler bu ihvancılar? Sen milliyetçi değilsin, "memur"sun. O yüzden eline verilen yazıyı okuyup esip gürlüyorsun. Tarih seni affetmeyecek..

Adam kazanamadı!

Herkese hakaret eden biri var ve aklı olan herkes o söylemleri aslında kendilerinin yaptığını biliyor. Hastalığından dolayı bir söylediği diğerini tutmuyor; bir de yaşlılık var.. Yakında ANAP gibi olurlar. Gemiyi ilk terkeden fareler zaten Avrupa yolunu tutmuş. Merak ettim; neden ümmetçilik sarıldıkları arap ülkelerine gitmiyorlar!?

Son olarak şunu söylemek istiyorum; 160 milyar DOLAR'dan fazla ödenecek borç var. Büyük kısmı özel sektöre ait (Devletimizin borcuda çok yüksek, bize vergiler-zamcıklar olarak dönecek, yine biz ödeyeceğiz). Kısacası işsiz kalmaya hazırlanın, iflaslar başlar yakında. Aslında başladı ama muhalefet dahi bunu söylemiyor)

Her şeyimizi kaybetmek üzereyiz; kalfalık dönemi sonuna kadar ekonomik istilayı yaşadık (satılan fabrikalarımızı ve kime satıldığını paylaşacağım), şimdi sığınmacılarla ve topraklarımızla fiili istila altındayız. Göz bebeğimiz ordumuzun topraklarını dahi satıyorlar! Tersaneler, limanları falan zaten daha önce sattılar...

Hipnotize olmuş koyun sürüsü, sıra sızde.. Sizide mezbahaya gönderecekler; "eti senin kemiği benim" diyecekler..

Ey asgari ücretle çalışan kardeşim (asgari ücret alabililenlere, daha düşün ücret alanlara ne haliniz varsa görün diyorum çünkü hakkını aramıyor, aramak isteyipte biat edenlerdense verdiği oyu düşünsün!), iş verenin bir sığınmacı mı? Otur düşün şimdi; seni kendi ülkende sığınmacılara köle yaptılar. Ülkenin "yerli" diye bildğin şirketlerinin tamamına yakınını yabancılar aldı. Şimdi aklına bakan unakıyan gelsin; "Gecenin 3'ünde gelsinler, satarım" diyordu. Pezevenk, sanki babasının malı satıyor. Sattı da, kime? Yunan'a, Fransız'a, Alman'a, İngliz'e, Arap'a, Amerikan'a vs vs.. Peşkeh çektilar Ata'larımızın alın teriyle kurdukları, yaşattıkları fabrikalarımızı.. Bu zaata hakkımı helal etmedim, hem bu dünyada hem de varsa diğer dünyada yakasına yapışacağım. Hainliğin zaman aşımı olmaz!

Ülkemin güzel insanları, lütfen gece yastığa başınızı koyduğunuzda bir muhasebe yapın; son 21 yılı bir düşünün. Hatta daha da geri gidebilirsiniz. Size kim ihanet etmiş bir görün artık. Siz patronsunuz, güvenmeyin siyasilere. Baktınız sözlerini tutmuyor sandıkta gönderin..

Ve bu ülke Atatürk'ün Türkiye'sidir.. Grameri bozuk bilmem ne yüzyılı falan demeyin! Anayasa'mızı tanımayanları ben tanımıyorum.

Elinde tuttuğun o T.C. kimliği atalarının sayesindedir. Vatandaşlık görevlerinin en önemlilerinden biri seçme ve seçilme hakkıdır. Seçilmeyi anlarım; çok ürkek, çekingen, korkan insan var.. Ama seçmek de senin o kimliği taşırken görevin. O sandığa gidip oy kullanmak ZORUNDASIN! Kullanmayıp sikayet edersen sana siktir çekerler (Çalışma arkadaşlarımdan birine bunu yaptım; "Oy kullandın mı?" diye sordum. "Hayır" dedi. "Senin şikayet etmeye hakkın yok, siktir git" dedim. Sürekli şikayet eden biri ve hiçbir çabası yok; hiç sevmediğim tip.. Sizede birisi "siktir" çekmesin diyorsan, öncelikle sorumluluğunu yerine getir ve oyunu kullan..

Git oyunu kullan lütfen..

Not: Arapça ve diğer dillerde tabela asan işletmelerin resimlerini çekin ve girmeyin oralara.. Diyeceksiniz ki amerikan kahve, fast food vs şirketleri var; Eee size söylemedim mi ekonomik istila oldu diye! Gitmeyin, müşterisi olmayın! Milli ve yerl markalar varken neden Starbucks, McDonals, BurgerKing, Arabica gibi istilacıları güçlendiriyorsun? Sizi önce Allah ile aldattılar şimdi millilikle aldatıyorlar. Afrikalıları unutmayın; "geldiklerinde ellerinde bir kitap vardı bizimse topraklarımız-vatanımız, gittiklerinde bizim elimizde kitap onlarınsa bizim topraklarımız vardı"..