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maintenance of the heart

[ song mingi x reader ] [ handyman!mingi ] [ tenant!reader ] [fluff/angst]

[ wordcount: 12.6k]

[ warnings: toxic relationship, cheating, angst]

[unedited]

The steam was billowing around you in your relaxing mid morning shower when you hear your dog barking from the front room. Startled, soap from your face wash ran down into your eyes, making you cringe and your eyes sting. Your dog Petunia didn’t have a tendency to bark often, but to be fair you had new neighbors move in on the weekend and she was still getting used to their noises. Still, you didn’t want to be that person with a noisy dog, so you finished up what you were doing in the shower and wrung your hair out over the bathtub. Gripping onto your fluffy pink towel, you dry off quickly and wrap it around your body. Opening the door to the bathroom, you head down the thin straight hallway, heading to the front room where you knew Petunia would be. Turning the corner, a small yelp leaving your mouth at the sight of a large man crouched next to Petunia, giving her a belly rub. At the sound of your voice, his head shoots up and his eyes widen comically at taking in the sight of you in your fluffy pink towel. He’s quick to get to his feet and turn around, one hand covering his eyes and the other holding a clipboard horizontally.

“Who are you,” you say in a sharp tone, muscles tensed and ready to dash into the kitchen and potentially grab a knife if necessary.

“I’m here for the maintenance request put in the other day. I was told no one would be home, I even knocked and waited for a moment,” He said, still turned away from you out of respect.

“Who put in the request?” You asked, knowing it could only be one other person that would’ve put it in but still wanting the clarification.

“A Lee Seo-Jun,” the man replied.

“Ayesh, that moron,” you say under your breathe while rubbing your eyes. “Go ahead and do whatever you need to do. I’ll be out if a few minutes if you need anything. C’mon, Tuna,” you say and Petunia follows you down the hallway into your bedroom.

Your boyfriend of almost 3 years had been becoming more and more inconsiderate lately, and this just added a bit of fuel to your fire. You had done everything to be the gentle diligent housewife figure who at the same time made enough money to cover the bills so he could use whatever money he made at his job to “treat himself” over and over and over. Everything was in your name, you paid all the bills and then some. He had come into your life through a mutual friend, figured out how naive you were and manipulated you enough to not realize until three years later he was nothing but a leech. You barely saw him anymore, he was always “traveling for work” or “working long hours at the office”. You had your suspicions, but you were never one to want contention in your relationship so you swept every inconvenience under the rug. Roughly pulling on the clothes you had planned out, you brush through your hair and do your skincare quickly, not really wanting to leave a maintenance man unsupervised in your apartment.

Petunia was following next to you until reaching the kitchen, then bounded over to the man crouched into your empty dishwasher that has sat unused for months. You tended to do your dishes by hand, as the one time Seo-Jun had attempted to do them months ago he broke the dishwasher. Since then you had been hand washing his dishes as well, until you put your foot down on doing his dishes about a week ago. He must already be tired of doing the bare minimum, hence why he put in the request.

“What’s your name,” you ask the stranger inside your dishwasher. He jumps slightly and hits his head on the top of the washer before pulling out of it and turning to you. He pulls his arm up to rub the back of his head while looking up to make eye contact with you.

god. fucking. damn.

Your mind blanks as his dark eyes stare into yours. Normally when you’d think of a maintenance man you’d think of an older man who loved to smoke with poor eating habits. The man in front of you was clearly not like anything you’d expected. His dirty blonde hair was peeking out from the bottom of his worn ball cap, brushing up on the back of his neck. His tanned skin was slightly shiny as it was warm and humid outside, and you were trying to prolong as long as you could before turning the air on to keep the bills lower. His hand was still rubbing the back of his head, his bicep stretching the sleeve of his black cotton tee shirt. He drops his hand to pet Petunia on the head, who had taken up residence on the cold tile of the kitchen.

“My name is Song Mingi,” he says gently, “and seriously I’m really sorry again. I promise I’ll finish up quick and be out of your hair as soon as possible.” He takes his ball cap off for a moment, running his hand through his hair before replacing the hat back on his head- backwards this time.

please let my brain start working anytime now

Your thoughts never have a filter, but you sure wish they did. Moving your brain’s focus away from the sight of his hands and thick thighs straining against his cargo pants, you pull out a water bottle from your fridge and hand it over to him. He thanks you and opens it to take a drink. Watching him, you see a few water droplets rolling down his neck. You watch him, almost mesmerized, before balling your hand up into a fist and sitting at the breakfast bar across from him.

just because you haven’t been laid in ages doesn’t mean you should be wantonly staring at this random man in your kitchen. get it together!! Your brain yells at you.

“Have you lived here for a while,” Mingi asks you with his head still inside your dishwasher, fixing whatever needs to be fixed.

“It’s been about three years now I think. Have you worked here for long?”

“I started here a few months ago. Apparently there were some wild accusations against the last maintenance guy, so once he was fired they hired me pretty quickly,” Mingi replied to you.

“Oh my god yeah, I remember him! He was so creepy, gave off the weirdest vibes,” you responded, thinking back on the weird older man.

“Okay, I think I’m all finished up with this. Looks like it was just some loose bolts, it should work now. Let’s test it out really quick,” He says while standing to his full height and closing up the door of the dishwasher. He was so tall that your view was blocked by his broad shoulders. He turns the dial and starts up the dishwasher, letting it run for a moment before opening it back up to ensure that the water was flowing. It looked to be back in working order!

“Thank you for your help, it will be nice to stop hand washing all my dishes,” you smile and thank Mingi as you walk him to the door, Petunia following at his ankles asking for more pets.

“I’m really sorry again,” Mingi says while turning to looking at you, his cheeks a soft pink.

“Honestly, don’t worry about it. It’s not your fault, it’s Seo-Jun’s,” you reply with a roll of your eyes. He gives you a soft smile before giving Petunia some pets.

“Bye, little pup, it was nice to meet you,” Mingi directs at Petunia before addressing you, “Let me know if you need anything! I live on site in apartment 1117 if there’s ever an emergency.”

You thank him again and let him out of your apartment. You lock it and turn to lean your back against it, slowly sliding down to sit on the floor. Petunia climbs into your lap and kisses you all over your face, making you smile and laugh.

“He sure was handsome, wasn’t he Tunes?” She barks after you ask, almost like she was in complete agreement. You smile and push her off of you, standing up to walk into your home office and get some work done.

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It was only a few weeks until the next time you encounter Song Mingi. You were enjoying a few days of time off from work, freelancing was so nice and let you have the schedule you enjoyed. You were walking Petunia around the large fenced perimeter of the apartment complex mid morning. The apartment complex was extravagant, on acres of land with an area with trees, a small pond, and even a community garden. You weren’t able to spend as much time there as you’d like, but you had purchased a few small vegetables from the local garden store and were hoping to plant them in the community garden. Petunia was along for the ride as she loved digging holes and you didn’t have a shovel or anything to dig with. Petunia was taking her time, sniffing around the local flora when you lead her to the garden. You weren’t paying the closest attention while walking in, more focused on opening and latching the gate behind them with Petunia in a heel. Looking up you startle slightly at Mingi crouched down at the end of the garden, looking up at you and giving you a sweet smile. You awkwardly bring your hand with Petunia’s leash in it up to wave at him with a smile. Looking down the rows, you see the best areas to plant the vegetables you brought were down at the end near him. Heading down there, Petunia was pulling at her leash to get to Mingi, she clearly liked him a lot. She gave one hard tug and the leash slipped out of your hand. She trotted up to Mingi, jumping on him right away and getting her dirty paw prints on his white tee. You

“Goddamn it Tuna! Get off of him,” you say firmly while speed walking up to them, grabbing onto her leash and tugging her off. Mingi is giggling while still moving to stand up in front of you, still petting Petunia’s head. He straightens and gives you another winning smile, eyes in crescent moons that couldn’t be cuter.

“Hi, [Y/n]! It’s nice to see you,” he says in his deep voice.

“Hi, Mingi. I’m really sorry about Petunia. She knows better,” you say while scowling down at her. She was in a sit which you could appreciate, but the way she was staring at Mingi and the constant wag of her tail you knew she wasn’t even paying attention to you. Mingi held her attention, just like he held onto yours. You look back up at him, literally up because this man was multiple inches taller than most other men you met. You had never really felt short before, but next to him you felt delicate - you liked it. He reached his hand out to the arm you had wrapped around your various veggies, taking a few in his large hands to help alleviate the weight.

“It’s no big deal, I love Petunia. I always wanted a golden retriever, and you can tell from the look in her eyes she’s just the sweetest. What veggies did you bring with you?” Mingi asks, setting your plants down to the open spaces to the left of the area he was working on. This looked as good a space as any, and from the look of Mingi’s plants he clearly knew how to take care of them - if you were really having bad luck maybe he could loan his green thumb.

“I got some carrots, cucumber, and strawberries. I read somewhere they were easy to grow, and I’m still kind of new at this. The only other thing I’ve been able to keep alive is the mint potted in my kitchen. I don’t think anything could kill that thing though,” you say lightheartedly while setting the rest of what was in your hands. “The only thing I don’t have is a trowel. Do you have one I can borrow for a minute? You seem like someone who knows what your doing. I was just going to let Petunia dig the holes for me,” you admit shyly. He laughs and nods at you, taking a few steps over to the bag he had with him and pulled out a black trowel.

“Honestly, it might be more fun for you if you let Petunia do it, but I don’t think Miss Han will like the sight of that, and you probably don’t want to get on her bad side,” Mingi says while handing it over to you.

“Got it, no shenanigans in front of Miss Han,” you say as you pull a bone for Petunia to chew on while you gardened. She lied down and relaxed between the two of you, chewing peacefully. You carefully placed out each of the plants in two rows. You had gotten two of each plant, and you wanted to make sure they each had enough space. Once you had completed that you step back towards where Mingi was, back crouching on the ground trimming a few sun damaged leaves on the plants he was tending. It was fairly sunny out, and you had a bucket hat shielding your neck and face. Mingi had on the same ball cap you had seen before, but his hair looked shorter in the back, and a brighter blonde. He was so intriguing to you, his quiet demeanor being shadowed by his broad physique. You couldn’t help but get curious about what his story was, why he ended up in this apartment complex, what he wanted for his life. You wanted to know, but your lack of bravery and backbone would keep you in this same ignorant cycle you’ve been living for years.

“So, are you working today?” you ask Mingi while crouching down at the end of your row, carefully digging holes for your plants.

“No, not today. Why, did you need help with anything?” He inquired.

“Oh, no I don’t need anything! I was just curious,” you reply in a quiet tone, you felt redness creeping up your chest in embarrassment. You look down and continue to be overly enthusiastic while digging your plants new homes. You really needed to learn how to carry a conversation better, cringing while pulling one of your strawberry plants out of the plastic temporary pot, before squishing up the roots and bit and loosening the dirt they had been living in for who knows how long, before placing the plant into the hole and layering the dirt compactly. You continued this process for a couple more plants, in relative silence except for the quiet humming you heard coming from Mingi. You take a quick break now that you had completed at least half, walking over next to Petunia who was conveniently lying next to Mingi. Opening your water bottle, you pull out a silicone bowl from the tote bag you brought. Making sure Petunia had enough to drink, you sat down next to her. You took a few gulps from your water bottle while petting Petunia. You try not to pay attention as you feel Mingi looking at you, instead staring off into the distance at another one of your favorite places in the apartment complex - a willow tree with a bench under it that sat next to a small pond. From the corner of your eye, you see Mingi pulling something from his bag, before turning back to you with a smile.

“Y/n, your neck is looking quite red. I have this sunscreen, would you mind if I put some on you,” Mingi asks while shaking the small bottle. It takes you a moment to catch your breath before you answer him, and you see him already pouring a small amount on the tops of his fingers before kneeling next to you.

“Umm, yeah go ahead. I meant to put some on but must’ve forgotten,” you reply to him while pulling your hair off of your neck, not wanting to get sunscreen in it if you could help it. Even kneeling next to you, you felt dwarfed by him. It made your heart race a little, being this close to someone you knew so little about. You liked it though, it made a spark heat up in your tummy and your cheeks redden even more. He leaned in over you, gently running his fingers over your neck to distribute the sunscreen. His hands were heavy on your shoulders, and you could feel his fingers dipping into the top of your shirt. His hands dwarfed your neck, and your imagination was running wild. Wetting your lips you inhaled softly, and you felt his fingers draw back a little. You weren’t silly, you knew he was only doing that because of the sunscreen, but it still left you with butterflies. Mingi’s hands slowly stilled on your neck, fingers draped over both sides. You look up at him and froze in shocked to see how close your faces had become. You let your eyes run over his face, from his defined jaw to his full pink lips, his high cheekbones to his dark eyes and cute mole underneath. You stay that way for a moment, before the eye contact he’s making with you snaps you back to Earth.

“You’re cheeks look a bit red too, would you like to put some more on,” Mingi says with a smirk, knowing full well your cheeks were red for another reason. Eyes wide, you duck your head and let your hair fall back over your shoulders while pulling away from him slightly, his hands falling from your neck and into his lap.

“Thanks, but no thanks,” you say after clearing your throat. You hadn’t felt this sort of tension with someone ever, and it left every cell in your body on fire. You couldn’t help but get mad at yourself, letting your head win over whatever whacky shit your heart was telling you. You shot Mingi an awkward smile before standing up and going back to begin planting the last couple of plants you had, all the while repeating in your head you’re in a committed relationship [y/n] what the hell is wrong with you - regardless of the fact that your committed relationship was in shambles and you felt more alone than ever. You were better than that. Brow furrowed and head in the clouds, you finish your gardening faster than you thought you were capable. Watering them quickly, you collect the supplies you brought with you before clipping on Petunia’s leash.

“Thank you again for letting me use this Mingi,” you say while handing him back the black trowel in your hand. “It’s time for Petunia to eat, so we’re going to head home. It was nice to see you,” you politely said while giving him a smile.

“No problem at all [Y/n], if you need anything don’t be afraid to ask,” he replies, smiling back at your from where he was trimming his plants. You wave at him quickly before you turn around and start the walk back to your apartment. You clip the garden gate behind you, Petunia looking back at Mingi as if he were her long lost lover. You pat her head and look back behind you as well with the excuse in your mind that you’re making sure you didn’t leave anything behind - definitely not checking out the maintenance man that’s caught your eye. To your surprise when you looked over your shoulder Mingi was already looking at you. He waves at you with a grin, your deer in the headlights look amusing him. You whip your head around and briskly walk home, practically dragging Petunia along with you. She comes along reluctantly, the two of you tired from your day in the sun.

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Mingi POV

He had no idea what he was in for the day he accepted the job as the maintenance man at the Utopia complex. While there were only 75 units, it was sitting on 50 acres of land, making it a hidden getaway with plenty of amenities. The residents were almost all exclusive, doctors, lawyers, people who had the credentials to get in. He never expected to see a face like yours there. He only recently started on, with the order to fix your dishwasher falling in his first couple of months. You weren’t the typical tenant - young being the first thing to come to his mind. You were clearly accomplished in order to live in Utopia, and that only made his curiosity run wild with the ideas of what you did for a career. Clearly something more substantial than him, although he did have the perk of being paid to live at the complex so in his head that constitutes as a step up from your average handyman. While he didn’t have the book smarts that many of the tenants had, he had more than enough street smarts and everyday knowledge to make up for it.

The first time he saw you, his shock and embarrassment almost sent him crawling six feet under. Whoever this Lee Seo-jun was he had no common sense leaving out the bit where someone would be home - let alone that someone being the closest thing he had seen to a goddess before.

After that first encounter, and seeing you in that fluffy pink towel, you were stuck in his head for days. You had set his bones on edge and he found himself looking out for you around the complex constantly, hoping to get a glimpse of you. He loved seeing your smile when walking around with Petunia, who he had an affinity for as well. He’d always wanted a golden retriever, and she was the cutest one he had gotten to see in person.

The afternoon you had come to the community garden made him feel the warm rush of affection building up inside him. He normally silently despised when others were around when he was gardening, it was his time for fully relaxing. He didn’t mind when you appeared with your shy smile, Petunia bounding away from you to greet him. He didn’t mind letting you borrow the tools he would never normally let anyone touch. Mingi wasn’t the most extroverted when around new people, but he felt comfortable sitting in silence while you planted. When he offered to put sunscreen on you, he knew it was your blush and not a burn from the sun, but he couldn’t stop himself from taking the chance. Getting to feel your smooth skin under his and see your dainty features up close only sealed the idea that you would one day be his in his mind. Whoever this Seo-Jim character was clearly not giving [Y/n] the attention she needed, and he could tell you weren’t infatuated with him. Mingi felt his curiosity about you growing more and more every day.

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[y/n] pov

The summer was creeping by, monsoon season hitting and turning everything around you into mud. You had seen Mingi around the complex multiple times, frequently sharing pleasantries with him while Petunia got in her dose of unlimited pets. You had seen him around the community garden, he had been caring for your neighbors plants while she was on vacation. Despite the excess of rain the plants growth wasn’t slowing, some small berry buds popping up on your strawberry bush. There were even days where you would swing by the garden after a long day of work and your plants would already be watered for you. Mingi’s thoughtfulness always put a smile on your face.

Petunia had somehow convinced you to take her out on a walk despite the slight drizzle. At the very least, the early afternoon clouds kept the sun from beating down on the two of you. You walked through one of the hikes that was offered by the complex, a normally enjoyable dirt trail with plenty of foliage. By the end of the hike, the rain had started coming down in sheets, the dirt trail turning into slick mud. You couldn’t be mad, in the moments you had slipped and fallen into the mud and watched Petunia have the time of her life, you laughed more than you had in ages. You were both soaked to the bone and covered in mud.

Once arriving home, you wiped Petunia down quickly and had her stay in the foyer before wiping yourself down in a hurry, changing out of your sopping wet clothes and throwing on a dry dirty teeshirt and some pajama shorts. Petunia was in desperate need of a bath, and you would get her clean and situated before cleaning yourself up. You threw your clothes in the washer and had Petunia follow you into the bathroom to give her a spa sesh.

An hour and a few pep talks for Petunia later you had her long golden locks brushed out and shining in the late afternoon sunshine that was pouring through your open living room window. Of course now that you were home and remotely dry the sun started coming out. Throwing the damp, muddy towels in the washer, you start it up before going into the kitchen to make some quick ramen. Petunia was now lazing around on the couch in the living room, while you put on some music and made your food. You had your eyes closed for a moment, dancing around the kitchen to one of your favorite songs. You heard Petunia let out a bark from where she was laying and you spin around opening your eyes to see her looking at Mingi through the open living room window. He had a toolbox in his hand and a goofy smile on his face, holding up a hand he waves to you. You let out a small laugh and wave back, an embarrassed smile and light blush taking over your face. He continues on through the complex, stopping a few doors down from yours and knocking. Mrs. Han opens the door with a big smile on her face, clearly excited to see Mingi. He’s immediately ushered in, and you walk over to Petunia and rub her head.

“You really like him, huh pretty?” Petunia barks and paws at your hand, rolling over with her tongue hanging out for a belly rub. “Yeah, I get it. He seems pretty comforting, huh?” You lean over and give her a big smooch before laying your head on her belly, getting a quick cuddle in. The timer for your ramen was about to go off, so you get up and put it all into a bowl. Grabbing some chopsticks, you start eating the hot food while scrolling on your phone, music still playing softly in the background.

A little more than halfway through your bowl of ramen, you hear a loud thumping and scraping coming from the washer. Leaving your ramen on the counter you put your phone in your pocket and walk over to the washer. You figure it probably just has to do with the towels being all uneven, making your washer mess up with the spin cycle. Your turn it off for a moment, letting any residual water drain and wait for it to unlock. You hear the click and open up the lid of the washer, and are confused by what you see. The shirt you were wearing while hiking - one that your now deceased father had given you before he had passed away- had been sucked halfway through one of the walls of the washer, and trying to tug on it didn’t pull it loose at all. Despite it being just a shirt, one that you could probably find online and order, you didn’t want anything to happen to it, it was drenched in sentimental value for you. You had fond memories of your dad taking you outdoors wearing that shirt, then years later him handing it off to you to wear while going on your outdoor adventures.

Determined to get it out without tearing it, you start to pull out the sopping wet towels and toss the wet items in your empty kitchen sink leaving just the shirt hanging out of the sidewall of your washer. You run out to your small storage closet outside and grab your small toolbox, pull out a screwdriver and get to work pulling apart the washer. You weren’t really thinking of the process of putting it back together, you were just pulling parts off and compiling all the small pieces together by style. You had a pretty good memory and convinced yourself that you’d remember which parts went where, but in all honesty the tunnel vision from the panic of losing your beloved shirt had set in and you likely wouldn’t remember any of it.

Regardless, you kept pulling parts off the washer, finally getting in closer to the walls of the washer. Taking one of the side wall off, you were met with a peculiar sight - more than just your teeshirt had been caught inside the walls of the washer. They didn’t look like your clothing items, which was weird considering this had been your first purchase after moving into this condo - a brand new washer and dryer set. The only people who had used them were you and Seo-Jun as you had put your foot down when it came to doing his laundry.

Gently lifting the teeshirt out you stand up while examining it, walking in towards the kitchen where the light was. It seemed to be in the same condition you had last seen it, so you let out a sigh of relief. You fold it and place it on the counter of your kitchen before reaching into your cabinet and pulling out gallon ziploc baggies and tongs. Who knew how long those clothing items had been in there and what kinds of molds were growing on them.

Walking back over to the washer, you use the tongs to pick up one of the items - a pair of lacy underwear that were bright blue, definitely not yours and never had been. Putting them in a ziploc bag, you go back in for the second to last item that’s been held hostage between the washer walls - a leopard print thong. Placing it in the second ziploc, you return one last time to the washer, plucking out yet another pair of women’s underwear that weren’t yours. Placing it in the last baggie, you seal them all and examine them thoroughly. Two of them were extra smalls, and one an extra large. You were a medium/large, so there’s another strike against them being yours.

As much as you didn’t want to be the crazy girlfriend, clearly something was not adding up here. Unless Seo-Jun all of a sudden had a secret kink for wearing women’s underwear, this had to come from another women, or multiple. Heated, you leave the washer and it’s disturbing contents where they are before making your way to Seo-Jun’s room. You open the door and first start to go through his closet, looking through the pockets of his jackets and pulling out receipts for dinners and movies and coffee that were all dated within the last year. Seo-Jun had spend much of the last year ‘working’ and ‘traveling’, and while you knew he was independent you should have seen the signs of your failing relationship. You pile up the receipts in your hand and go through his dresser drawers, not getting far before finding the open box of condoms with opened wrappers crumpled up in the box. You felt pathetic, naive in thinking that the two of you were just working very hard to save enough to create a family together, when in reality who knows what he was really up to while you spent your life pent up, working and creating a home for a family that will never be. The anger made tears boil up in your eyes, seeping over and falling down your cheeks. The hatred that you had built up for Seo-Jun over the past couple of years was finally coming to fruition, you actually had a reason to hate him now.

You trudge back over to the kitchen and place the receipts in another ziploc bag before grabbing a black marker and labeling it ‘exhibit a’, then return to the washer where the other ziploc bags were waiting and labeling them ‘exhibit b’ and ‘exhibit c’. Sitting in front of your washer on the floor, the drama of almost losing your favorite shirt to discovering rock solid proof that Seo-Jun was cheating on you leaving you feeling drained and sad and angry. Now here you were with a washer that you had to put together and the knowledge that you’d have to confront Seo-Jun and end your relationship. Leaning your head up against the cool outside of your washer, you let the tears of sadness and resentment flow freely.

You sat there for a few minutes before your eyes dry up and you start feeling dull and numb. You stand and grab the ziplocks of evidence before dropping them on your coffee table, then turning into your kitchen to pour yourself a chilled glass of red wine. Petunia is napping away on your couch, dead to the world and oblivious to the turmoil you’ve been going through. You return to the disassembled washer and sit cross legged in front of it, gulping down some of your wine before sighing and pulling out your phone. You wouldn’t be able to get this shit back together if you wanted to, and even if you did it wouldn’t be for days. It was still before 5 in the afternoon, so you call the apartment mainline and click through the system options to get to the maintenance line, the line rings a few times before you hear the click of it being picked up.

“Utopia Apartments Maintenance - this is Mingi, how can I help you,” you hear his deep tones come through your phone.

“Hi Mingi, this is [Y/n]. Are you by any chance available to stop by before you’re off today,” you ask him, cringing at the knowledge that you have to tell him about why the washer was even disassembled in the first place.

“Hi [Y/n]! Of course, I can stop by in just a bit. I’m still over at Mrs. Han’s house a few doors down from you so let me finish up here and I’ll head over,” Mingi replies. You can hear Mrs. Han fussing over him in the background, and it makes you let out a small smile.

“Thanks, Mingi. I really appreciate it. I’ll see you soon,” you trail off, taking a sip of your wine.

“See you in a few minutes, bye [Y/n],” Mingi says as he hangs up.

You sit still for a moment, looking into the red wine with a hazy look, thinking about how you didn’t want your embarrassing and total waste of time relationship to keep you down in the dumps. You had come to terms with confronting him, leaving him, and rebuilding your life on your own. You’ve gotten so used to being alone the last few years, this wouldn’t even be a big change for you. You weren’t even angry over the fact that you’d have to end the relationship, you were more angry about the fact that he was so blatantly disrespectful to the point where he was bringing women into a home he didn’t even contribute to.

You sit in silence for a few more minutes before hearing a gentle knocking at your door. Despite his large stature, his demeanor was that of a gentle giant - everything you noticed him do was soft despite looking hard. Still clutching your wine, you use your left hand to pull open the door. There Mingi stands, his bulky frame taking up the majority of the doorway. You look up into his eyes, and he’s looking down at you with a quirked smile on his full lips. He lets out a soft chuckle, tugging on a strand of hair hanging down by your face, pulling off a bit of dried dirt from the mud you and Petunia had encountered.

“Hi there, what happened here?” he inquires softly, his sweet eyes looking down at you.

“You would honestly not believe the day I’ve had, Mingi. Come in and I’ll tell you all about it,” you reply, opening the door fully and gesturing him in. He steps into your home, his left hand occupied by the toolbox he was carrying and his right carrying what looked like enough food to feed 10 people, curtesy of Mrs. Han. His eyes immediately flash over to the partially disassembled washer, and he looks down at you with a look of astonishment, eyes wide and mouth hanging open slightly.

“Yeah, I know what it looks like. I promise I had a reason for doing it, and I could probably put it back together but you would definitely do it faster and more correct-” You ramble on for a moment, your anxiety of why he might think getting the better of you. Mingi cuts you off from continuing your spiel, lightly gripping your upper arm and smiling at you.

“Hey, don’t even worry about it. You don’t need to explain anything to me. I can fix that. Why don’t you go enjoy a hot shower and get the dirt off of you while I fix this up,” Mingi suggests, brushing his fingertips down your arms leaving warm tingles over where they touched. His fingers brush off more dirt as they trail down, and you both let out soft laughs as the dirt falls to the ground. You blush as you look back up into his eyes.

“Thank you, Mingi. I’ll be quick I promise! If Petunia bothers you, you can put her into the spare bedroom,” you reply as you walk off to your bathroom. You turn the shower on first before standing in front of the mirror, watching yourself down the last of your wine. Your hair is frizzy from the rain, you have mud droplets on your face and neck, and some smeared on your arms and legs. Your eyes are red rimmed from crying, and your makeup is smeared underneath. You cringed in embarrassment, setting down your wine glass and stripping out of your dirty baggy teeshirt and shorts. Stepping into the steam, you shower thoroughly but quickly, not wanting Mingi to be left all alone but also still wanting to smell nice and feel clean. You rinsed and turned off the water, opening the curtain and wrapping yourself up in your fluffy pink towel. Pulling open your pajama drawer you groan audibly and roll your eyes. You needed to do your laundry, and had nothing that was clean and loungy - just lace hemmed slip sleep dresses. As comfortable as they are, they're a bit more intimate that you would normally wear around someone else. Honestly, after the day you’ve had you don’t really give a fuck about giving Mingi the wrong impression and decide to pull on a black one. You brush through your hair and do a quick skincare routine before grabbing your wine glass and heading out of the bathroom.

Mingi is bent over the washer, the sound of his tools clanking against the metal ringing in your ears. From where you’re standing it looked like the dryer was almost completely put back together.

“Mingi, can I offer you a drink? I have wine, beer, soda, juices, water…” you trail off, pulling open the door of the drive to pour yourself another glass of chilled red wine.

“Uhh yeah, I’ll take a beer,” Mingi replies in his deep voice. You grab a beer and close the fridge, walking over to the washer and waiting for him to grab it. He looks up from where he was screwing in one of the sidewalls, eyes widening and standing up ramrod straight. He takes in what your wearing, looking from the crown of your wet hair to your light blue painted toes. You see him such in a deep breath, chest puffing out slightly and shoulders broadening even more than they already were. He reaches a hand out to take the beer from you, fingers skimming against yours purposefully while making eye contact with you. You grin at him mischievously, and he lets out a little laugh.

“I’m almost done here, just have a few more bolts and screws to put it back together. I can be out of your hair in a few minutes,” Mingi says while cracking open his beer, taking a few gulps.

“Are you almost off for the night,” you ask him while walking over to your couch, giving the still sleepy Petunia a pat on the belly before grabbing your nintendo switch remotes and turning on the console.

“Yep! When I finish up here I’m technically off unless there’s some sort of emergency,” Mingi replies to your question, screwing in the last few bolts and screws.

“Well, if you don’t have anything going on, do you want to hang out for a bit? It’s no fun constantly winning against NPC’s on Mario Kart,” you offer to him, the wine making you a bit more bold than normal, holding up your switch remotes to show him while turning the game on.

“Well, prepare to get your ass beat [Y/n]. You’re in luck too, Mrs. Han kept me hostage for a while today but luckily I got enough food for an army out of it. If you’d like we can heat some up and have dinner together,” Mingi offers back to you with the tips of his ears red and a beaming smile on his face. You nod enthusiastically at the offer of food and set up Mario Kart for two players while Mingi closes the lid of the washer and sets it on a cleaning run to make sure it works.

Mingi heads into the kitchen to wash his hands and pull some food out of the bags. You stand from the couch and head into the kitchen to help him get bowls and utensils out. You refill your wine and grab an extra beer for Mingi, bringing it over to the coffee table. You hear him dishing out the food and putting it in the microwave, heating it up for a few minutes before the beep goes off. Mingi brings the food over the the coffee table in front of the couch, setting it down and getting on his knees to give Petunia some pets and kisses. She loves it and wags her tail furiously, hitting you in the face a few times. Mingi finds this hilarious and the two of you break out into uncontrollable giggles.

Petunia lays back down on the corner of the couch, sprawled out so the only spot available for Mingi to sit is directly next to you. He moves in and sits down, his thick thighs and broad shoulders pressing into your space a bit, not that you minded at all. The daydreams you’ve had about those thighs spring into your mind and you shift slightly in your seat, the lace hem of your sleep dress riding up a bit. Keep the dirty thoughts on the downlow [y/n] get it together goddamit you think, thighs pressing together before Mingi breaks your concentration, handing you a steaming bowl of food. Excitedly, you take a few bites before looking over at Mingi. He’s watching you eat and you freeze with your cheeks full, looking like a chipmunk. He smiles and pokes your full cheek.

“You’re cute with your cheeks all puffed up like that,” he says in a quiet tone that makes your cheeks heat up. It’s almost like they’re in a perpetual state of redness when you’re near him. You chew quickly and swallow your bite before giving him a shy smile.

“Thanks Mingi, you’re sweet. This is really good, you’ll have to thank Mrs. Han for me,” you laugh out, breaking the slight tension between the two of you. You both eat quickly to the music of Mario Kart, filling up before placing the bowls back onto your coffee table.

Mingi catches sight of the “evidence” bags on the coffee table and looks at you questionably. You spend the next thirty minutes explaining to him the entire situation from beginning to end and why you needed his help in the first place. You tell him all about your sleazy boyfriend and you can see his frustration and anger settling into his face. You explain that you’re going to leave him as soon as you can, but you have a business trip for the next few days and that the first time you’ll see him in weeks is the day you return.

“Speaking of my business trip, I have to fly meaning Petunia doesn't get to come with me. I know this is weird but I know I can trust you, and so does Petunia. Would you be willing to dogsit her for the next few days? You could take her home with you or she could stay here and you come and check on her, whatever is easiest for you. And of course I’ll pay you-” Mingi cuts you off with his raised hand and a smile.

“Of course! I’d be happy to hang out with Petunia for a few days. Don’t worry about paying me, your company and hers is more than enough,” he says while reaching over to give Petunia some love. You thank him profusely, happy to finally have someone in your life you feel like you can rely on. You tell him about the spare key in the fake plant by your door and let him know the time you’ll be leaving tomorrow.

The two of you spend the next few minutes choosing your characters and customizing your karts before getting onto the racing screen. You let Mingi pick his favorite races first, and the two of you play through the four of them. In the end Mingi ends up winning the first round. He doesn’t let you live it down for a moment, gloating over his win and running around the room in excitement. Laughter is ringing off the walls of your home, making it feel the most alive it’s felt since you’ve moved in. You laugh along with him and he collapses next to you on the couch, thick thighs pressed against your bare ones. He takes his hat off finally, and you gasp as you notice it. His hair is pink - bright neon pink and cropped short. Your hand comes up to your mouth, fingers running lightly along your bottom lip.

“Mingi, your hair! It’s pink!! Oh wow, it suits you so much,” you exclaim, reaching a hand out to run over the bottom strands of hair and running your fingers though. Mingi smiles and closes his eyes, pressing his head deeper into your fingers.

“Yeah, my friends dared me to do it and I’ll never pass up a dare,” he chuckles rubbing his large hand over the top and messing it up. The chaotic strands made him look even more endearing, and you take your hand away and smile deeply at him, lost in thought.

he is so handsome, how is he here sitting on my couch? what did i do to deserve his cherub cheeked smile and kind gestures…

You snap out of your thoughts when you hear the beeping of a race starting up. Shocked, you turn to the screen to see Mingi has picked another set of races and they were about to begin. In your distraction he thought he could pull on over on you.

“You cheater! It’s so on, prepare to lose,” you taunt Mingi and focus in on the races. It’s a set that you love and have played many times, so you knew you could beat him. Focusing hard on the race, you do end up beating Mingi, but it was pretty close and only due to a few well timed blue shells.

At the scene of your victory, with your character standing on the highest podium and Mingi’s on the podium just lower than yours, you stand up and jump around, teasing Mingi in the same way he did to you. He laughs and catches ahold of your hand, pulling you down onto the couch next to him, your shoulders bumping roughly as you almost fall into his lap. Your hand stops your descent by gripping onto his thigh and god fucking damn you were so right about their muscularity. Your giggling tapers off and you notice his hand on your thigh as well, his silver rings cold against your skin. The sound of MarioKart drowns out and your eyes trail up his chest and neck, eyes slowing at the cute moles that decorate his skin. Your eyes trail over his smiling lips and up to his dark eyes that stare right back into yours. You feel like he’s the first person to actually look at you and see you, your breath getting caught in your chest at the sight of him so close to you.

Your mind is overwhelmed with your senses screaming about him. His warm body heat and the scent of him encapsulating your bodies in their own little bubble, his stare and warm fingers resting against your thighs had a vicious heat settling deep in you. You can’t stop yourself from the visceral reaction your body has to him, leaning in and pressing your lips against his. All you can hear is the rushing, pounding heartbeat in your ears as his hand grips onto your thigh firmly. His other hand slips behind your head, threading his fingers through your hair to pull you closer. Your hand leaves his thigh and meets up with your other hand wrapped around the back of his neck. He shifts you over to where you’re straddling his lap, lips never separating. Your fingers run through his bright pink hair and he lets out a low groan, his hands tightening around your hips. That groan is possibly the hottest thing you’ve ever heard, but it snaps you back to reality. Your eyes open quickly and your hands leave his hair. You quickly pull yourself off his lap as panic starts to settle into your nerves.

oh fuck what have I done? I’m still in a relationship and here I am throwing myself at Mingi. This is so embarrassing.

Mingi stands from the couch with concern in his eyes, his hands reaching out towards you. Tears spring to your eyes as you back away, hands raised to keep your distance.

“I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean for that to happen. I shouldn’t have kissed you,” you said to him, hands shaking and wrapping around yourself. Mingi steps in closer and rests his hand on your arm.

“[Y/n], it’s okay, really. It’s not a big deal, we can just forget it ever happened,” Mingi says somberly. His words make your stomach clench in an uncomfortable way, not happy about them. You didn’t want to forget that it happened, it was probably the best kiss you’d ever had. Mingi pulls you into a hug and you let him, sinking into his chest as his arms wrap around you.

“It’s probably best I head out now anyways. Let me know if you have any issues with your washer and I’ll come by” Mingi says, unwrapping himself from you and heading towards the door.

“Wait, Mingi,” you call to him, reaching out and grasping onto his hand, “I know that I probably ruined everything by kissing you and I’m sorry. You’re the first person I’ve met that I’ve instantly felt comfortable with. I really don’t want you to think differently of me.”

Mingi laces his fingers through yours and gives you a comforting smile.

“Don’t worry, [Y/n]. I won’t look at you any differently,” Mingi says and detaches his hand from yours. He gives Petunia some pets and tells her he’ll see her tomorrow. Mingi grabs his things and slips his shoes on.

“Thank you again for helping me, and for watching Petunia. I really owe you one,” you say to Mingi. He pulls you into another soft hug, bidding you safe travels before leaving for the night. He leaves with a smile, and you close the door behind him, sliding down it and sitting on the floor.

You don’t want to think about the way you’ve felt more with Mingi in hours spent together than years with Seo-Jun. You don’t want to think about how easy it was for you to kiss him, and you definitely didn’t want to think about the way his firm muscles felt beneath your hands. The conflicting emotions inside you from simultaneously loving being touched by him and feeling scummy because you weren’t technically single made a few stray tears drip down your face. Petunia came up to where you were sitting against the door and gave you some sweet puppy kisses, lightening the weight on your shoulders. There was nothing out there better than a dog at helping with emotions. You stand to go pack your travel bag and Petunia follows, climbing up onto your bed and watching you as you pack.

“You’re going to have such a great time Petunia. Mingi is going to give you all sorts of love and attention and I’ll be back before you know it,” you explain to her. She snorts and wags her tail, almost as if she knew you were talking about Mingi. You finish up your packing and leave your bags by the door before crawling into bed with Petunia. You had to leave early in the morning, and wanted to get as much cuddle time in with her. Eventually you drift off to sleep with tear stained cheeks and sadness weighing you down.

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Mingi POV

Mingi could understand the inner turmoil you were going through. While he hadn’t been in this sort of situation personally, he had a group of best friends and statistically speaking at least one had been through something similar. It seemed to Mingi that men like Seo-Jun are increasing in the population, and Mingi just did not understand their mindset at all. To have someone like you doing everything for them and yet still being unfaithful. When you had told him about the “evidence” that you had found he had a hard time keeping his temper in check. He could understand your anger at Seo-Jun bringing women into your home, he could have laughed at the stupidity and carelessness that Seo-Jun showed but didn’t want you to talk it the wrong way.

As disgusted as he was with Seo-Jun he was grateful for his underwhelming presence in your life and for giving Mingi a chance to connect with you. Getting to know you felt right to him, it felt like he knew you on a molecular level. The atoms and cells in his body gave all of their attention to you, and stood at attention whenever your soft hands would graze against his skin. Feeling your fingers running through his hair when you discovered the neon pink color left him floating on cloud nine.

He knew he’d wanted to kiss you from the moment you had shared in the garden, and he struggled with the intensity of his desire for you the evening you spent together. He had to start a new game of Mario Kart to keep himself from pulling you into his lap and making you sit there for hours. Mingi was doing his best to respect your boundaries, but when you initiated that kiss with him every sensible thought he had in his head flew out the window. His hands felt so big around your waist, and your hands felt so small against his skin. Mingi was surprised how quickly he gave into you considering how difficult it was to find someone to keep his attention for more than a few hours. Now here you were, taking up space in his mind for months on end. He didn’t mind having you there, though.

Petunia was easy to have around. She was the sweetest thing, and had no problem meeting new people. The first time Yunho had seen her he moped for ten minutes about being replaced before discovering Petunia knew how to high five and was entertained for hours. Out of all of the friends Mingi brought over, Petunia still clearly liked Mingi the best and he was slightly smug about it.

The afternoon before you were set to come home, Mingi had run out of food for Petunia and was stepping into your place to grab some quickly before dinner time. Opening the door, he notices some clothing strewn about the floor of your place, but he thinks nothing of it - maybe you were a messy packer or running late, who was he to judge? Closing the door behind him quietly Mingi heads into your kitchen, pulling out the ziploc from his pocket and opening up the cabinet that has Petunia’s food in it. Opening up the bag, Mingi’s daydreaming abound how domestic this was, how he would love to take care of you and feed you meals in this kitchen, how he would love to fuck you against the kitchen table. Mingi thinks he hears moaning, but shakes his head free from his daydreaming and gets back to the dog food. Portioning out enough for the next couple meals, and even extra just in case, Mingi’s putting the scoop back into the back when his clumsy ass drops it. The clanging of the nice metal scoop you have echoes throughout the house and down the hallway. Mingi’s hears a man’s voice say what the fuck before a fully nude man enters the kitchen, eyes immediately drawn to Mingi’s large figure. Mingi can’t help but let out a laugh, his hands dropping back to close up the food bag and put it back into the cabinet nonchalantly.

“Excuse me, but who the fuck do you think you are and what the fuck are you doing in my house,” the man that could only be Seo-Jun questioned Mingi. Mingi barked out a loud laugh and raised his eyebrows, grinning at the man standing across from him.

“Oh, this is your house? Wow, I was so sure this was [Y/n]’s, I must have the wrong place and be getting the wrong dog food then,” Mingi can’t help but tease Seo-Jun, knowing and seeing exactly the type of person he is.

“Alright, you smug bastard. I don’t know why you’re here but I’m going to have to ask you to leave,” Seo-Jun says harshly, pointing toward the door. Mingi grabs his ziploc and raises his hands in the air, laughing quietly to himself as he starts heading to the door. As he’s nearing the door a woman, wrapped in the same fluffy pink towel he had first seen you in, walked up to Seo-Jun and clung to him like mold. Mingi was instantly uncomfortable, not wanting the sight to tarnish the memory of you that he has. Mingi fully sneers and scoffs at both of them, pulling the door open and shutting it loudly behind him.

Once Mingi is in the comfort of his own home, he greets Petunia before pulling his phone out and dialing your number. He had to let you know what he saw, and wanted to make sure you washed your towel before using it again. You pick up on the fourth ring.

“Mingi, hi! Is everything alright? Is Petunia okay?” you ask with concern lacing your voice.

“Hey, yeah everything is great! Petunia says hi and that she can’t wait to see you. I just wanted to talk to you about something really quick, do you have a minute?”

“Sure, I have nothing but time, I’m just waiting for my flight for a little bit longer. What’s going on?”

“So, Petunia needed a bit more food so I went over to your place to refill the ziploc you gave me. I was about to head out when Seo-Jun came out of your bedroom. I already know that Seo-Jun’s been a piece of shit to you, and I saw the proof today. He had another girl with him, and she was wrapped up in your cute pink towel. I’m really sorry, but I had to let you know before you went home,” Mingi explained to you.

“For fucks sake, I’m so tired of this. Thank you for telling me Mingi, I like knowing that you’re looking out for me. Would you mind keeping Petunia for just one more night? I’m going to talk to Seo-Jun tonight, and she really hates yelling,” you ask him, tense at what you knew you’d be coming home to. You hoped he at least had the decency to make sure she was out of the house before you got there.

“Of course, Petunia has a second home here with me forever. If my friends could they would take her home with them too, so really she has three potential homes,” Mingi laughs and tries his best to lighten your dark mood, “I’m going out for a few hours this evening with them, if you want I can swing by and see how you’re doing afterwards,” Mingi offers hopefully. He’s missed seeing your face and smile.

“Thank you Mingi, and thank you for offering. I think I’ll be okay tonight, but I’ll see you and Tunie bright and early tomorrow morning. My flight’s boarding so I have to go but again, thank you so much Mingi, I seriously owe you,” your melancholy voice trails off and he hears the rustling of you getting your things together.

“No problem [Y/n], let me know if you need anything at all, travel safe!”

“Bye, Mingi,” you say and he hears slight sniffling before the click of you hanging up on him. His heart plummets knowing that he had to tell you about Seo-Jun. As if Petunia can smell his sadness, she climbs into his lap and kisses his cheeks before rolling over for belly rubs. Mingi wraps his arms around her and gives a cuddle before rubbing her belly and putting on the anime he had been watching. He had around an hour to kill before his friends would be around to grab him for dinner, so three episodes and one potty break for Petunia later he was heading out on the town with his group of friends.

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[y/n] pov

Disassociating through the flight and car ride, you wheel your suitcase down the sidewalk leading to your home. The sky was getting dark as storm clouds rolled in, matching your mood perfectly. Standing in front of your door, you felt uncomfortable in your own skin, an anxious tickle running down your spine.

You unlock and open to door to the smell of something spicy being cooked in your kitchen. You roll your eyes at Seo-Jun’s behavior and set your bags down in the entry way. You head into the kitchen and see him standing over the stove, stirring whatever he was making. You clear your throat and stand against the doorway, arms crossed and already feeling guarded. He turns around to you and gives you a big fake smile, stepping towards you and holding his hands out as if to hug you. You step back and he drops his arms, a disgruntled look crossing his face.

“Wow, the first time you see me in ages and you can’t even hug me? What’s your problem?” Seo-Jun immediately criticizes.

“What’s my problem? Do you think I’m fucking stupid Seo-Jun? Do you really think you can bring girls into my house and I wouldn’t know about it?” you cut to the chase. You’re losing your temper quickly, sick of being disrespected by him. You see his face morph into a fake confusion.

“You’re crazy, I would never cheat on you. I can’t believe you would think that,” Seo-Jun says in a condescending tone.

“I’m not crazy, I have proof,” you say as you walk over to where you had your ‘evidence bags’ hidden, pulling them out and handing them to him, “None of these underwear are mine, and these receipts are for dates you’ve never taken me on. Not only that, but my friend who was here picking up dog food for Petunia saw it with his own eyes and told me,” you finish with a huff. Seo-Jun’s faced changed from confused to furious at the mention of Mingi.

“Oh, you mean the man that was in our house yesterday? He doesn’t know what he saw, he must be confused and lied to you,” he tries to make up more excuses.

“Mingi would never lie to me,” you refute, “he actually has respect for me, unlike you.” Seo-Jun takes a menacing step towards you, and as you go to step back he grabs onto your upper arm, gripping tightly enough to bruise.

“You think you’re so smart, huh? You’re too dumb to notice the cameras I’ve set up around this place, aren’t you? You think I didn’t see you fucking Mingi on our couch the other night? If anybody is the cheater here, it’s you,” Seo-Jun accuses, grip tightening even more and stepping to stand chest to chest with you. Your arm was aching, and you try to pull it free from his grip but you couldn’t, ending up with a nasty burning sensation on your arm.

“Fuck you Seo-Jun. I didn’t fuck Mingi, but maybe I should have. I definitely will now, considering our relationship is now over. I want you and your shit out of my house immediately,” you stand up for yourself, pushing your chest against his and standing up taller. He grabs onto your shoulders and shoves you harshly into the wall you’ve been trapped against. Your breath is knocked out of you, and before you can comprehend it he shoves you against the wall again, this time shoving your head into the wall hard. your vision goes spotty and you struggle to take in a breath.

“You’re a lying, cheating, worthless whore [Y/n]. I’m the best you’ve ever had, good luck finding anybody like me,” Seo-Jun’s voice was dark and deep, his right hand splayed across your face holding it against the wall. You were about to slip into a panic attack, your head was aching and your breathing difficult. The tears that had built up in your eyes spill over, streaming down your cheeks and making his hand slip off of your face slightly. This angers Seo-Jun further and he slams your face into the wall. Your vision crashes into blackness and you feel your consciousness slipping away. You barely feel his hands leaving you as your limp body slides onto the floor.

You wake up disoriented and aching on the floor of your hallway. You feel warmth on the side of you head, reaching a hand up you notice you’re eyebrow has been bleeding for a little while. All you wanted to do was curl up into the fetal position on the floor and dissociate, but you didn’t feel safe and wanted to see where Seo-Jun had weaseled off to.

Pushing yourself off the floor, the vertigo makes you sway for a moment before you brace yourself on the wall. Looking down the hallways towards the room you notice both doors open and items strewn throughout the hallway. Slowly walking towards the room and gaining your bearings, you see that Seo-Jun had taken the items that were valuable to him, drawers empty of personal belongings and the closet door open to show it empty besides the mess of hangers. You peek into your room and see that he had definitely trashed it but it didn’t look like he had taken anything of yours. You’re distraught at the knowledge that you’d have to clean up this disaster, but you also felt a heavy weight lift off your shoulders knowing you were alone. You walk into the kitchen then living room, noticing that while it was in the same trashed state, nothing important looked broken or stolen. All you want is to cuddle Petunia and sob in bed, but checking the clock you see that you weren’t really out for all that long, between and hour or two. You’re not even sure if Mingi is home from his night out with his friends, but decide that you need to see Petunia to relive some of this angst. Slipping on some shoes you grab your keys and jean jacket before leaving your home, locking the door behind you. You’d have to get Mingi to change the locks so you didn’t have to worry about Seo-Jun making any unwelcome appearances.

The air was nice and cool during your walk over to Mingi’s place. The flowers were in full bloom and were enjoying the light the moon was giving off. Even with the slight throbbing your head felt, you let a small smile slip onto your face while looking up at the stars. Apartment 1117 had finally come into view, and you rushed up to knock on the door. You could make out Petunia barking from inside, but there were no other sounds or lights coming from Mingi’s place. You didn’t really want to go back to your place right now, so instead you plopped down onto Mingi’s front porch steps and pulled your jacket around you, looking back up into the sky. You felt more tears build up in your eyes and you let them fall freely down your face, surprised that you were even able to cry anymore considering how dehydrated you must be. Staring up into the stars and moon, you catch sight of a shooting star and make a quick wish on it

i wish i can find happiness and love without judgement

You lose track of time while waiting for Mingi. Petunia’s barks have settled down long ago, but you could still occasionally hear a whine coming from inside Mingi’s place. You knew she must be able to smell you and felt bad teasing her with your scent. You resolve yourself to wait five more minutes before heading back to your nightmare of a home. As soon as you decide that, you hear heavy footfall and a few rowdy voices coming up to Mingi’s house. You immediately cringe, feeling uncomfortable with meeting Mingi’s friends in your distraught state.

“[Y/n]?” you hear Mingi’s deep voice call out to you. You look up from the sidewalk and see him standing directly in front of you with four other people. You make eye contact with him and give an awkward smile.

“Hi, Mingi,” you say while standing up, his eyes catching sight of the dried blood running down the side of your face.

“What the fuck happened to you,” he says harshly, his hand coming up to reach for your face but you cringe away from him. His eyes get sad and he withdraws his hand.

“I’m really sorry to interrupt your night Mingi. I was really hoping I could see Petunia,” you say looking down at the pavement and peeking up at him through your eyelashes. You see his friends huddled up behind him, whispering quietly between each other and frequently looking your way. You feel awkward and out of place, and it makes you want to curl in on yourself. Mingi reached his hand out and grasps yours, fingers intertwining.

“Of course you can see her, I know she’s been missing you and is excited to see you. Wait here just one moment while I send my friends home, I’ll be right back,” Mingi says while going to turn away from you. You pull his hand back slightly towards you and he looks questionably into your eyes.

“It’s okay Mingi, I don’t want to ruin your friends’ night out. I can just go home,” you say to him in a quiet tone.

“No chance, [Y/n]. You’re more important, just give me one sec,” Mingi smiles reassuringly at you, giving your hand a squeeze before dropping it and approaching his friends. You could tell they were giving him shit and you felt bad, not knowing they were really giving him shit about having the girl he would not shut up about sitting on his porch. Mingi shuts down their gossiping and whispering and pushes them off back towards the car they arrived in. They leave begrudgingly and Mingi returns to your side, rethreading his fingers through yours and pulling his keys out to unlock his door. He tugs you inside and turns the lights on, shutting and locking the door behind you. You can hear the scraping of nails on the hardwood floor as Petunia comes barreling at you, jumping on you and knocking you down to your butt. You let out a soft giggle that turns into hiccups as you cry and bury your face into her neck. It’s wyirt for a moment before Mingi crouches down beside the two of you and rubs your back soothingly.

“I’ve got my first aid kit here, is it okay if I take a look at your cut,” Mingi asks while pulling out antibacterial wipes and butterfly bandages. You nod and lift your face up to look at him, eyes locking in the small space between the two of you. He gently dabs at your cut while you sniffle, wiping the tears from your cheeks as he’s cleaning you up. He places the bandages across the cut, sealing it from the air. You feel your energy deplete as the two of you are sitting there, wanting nothing more than to crawl into a warm bed and dream of anything but this evening. Mingi double checks to make sure the adages will stick well, and grips your chin in his hand lightly to take a look at your face and to make sure there are no other wounds he needs to look at. He sees some dark bruising and scrapes, but nothing more serious than that. Mingi releases his grip on your chin and wraps his arm around you, pulling you into his chest where his smell and warmth helps your body to relax.

“You don’t have to tell me what happened, okay? It doesn’t matter to me, all that matters is that you’re safe and sound. I’ll never let anyone hurt you again [Y/n], I promise,” Mingi whispers in your ear, pulling you close and kissing the top of your head. Your exhaustion is catching up to you, and you feel Mingi rocking you slightly, adding to your comfort and feeling of safety, “I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you tonight [Y/n]. You’re mine now, and I’ll protect you every minute from here on out, don’t worry.” You drift off to sleep at his sweet words, finally able to find comfort in his warm arms.

~-~-~-~

[a/n: thank you so much for reading!!! i struggled with the ending on this for ages. could potentially have a pt.2? lmk what you thought!!]

[essenteez]

There is only one thing I need to be fully happy on Tumblr

This.

Like, Tumblr I'm begging you

[atinywrites]

Your leg was bouncing under the table as you felt the butterflies in your stomach start to flutter up your chest and to your throat. The relationship was still relatively “new” (i.e. you started dating recently but spent the last 7 years as best friends who also happen to be absolute morons and oblivious to each other's pining) so the anticipation of how this date was going to go lingered in your mind.

The soft touch on your arm brought you out of your thoughts as you looked in the direction of said touch.

“Hey, I’ve been calling out to you for a while,” Jongho smiled softly, sliding your boba order to you. “What are you thinking about?” he asked, sitting in the chair across from you, tilting his head cutely.

“I’m sorry,” You said sheepishly, “Thank you for the boba.”

He hummed quietly, studying your face. Jongho leaned forward and you jumped when you felt his hand on your knee, smoothing a thumb over it.

“I’m-” You start, your throat suddenly dry, unsure if you should continue with this tiny confession.

He waited patiently for you to gather your thoughts and squeezed your knee in support.

“I’m nervous,” Your face heats up, the tips of your ears turning red. “You make me nervous.”

He couldn’t resist poking fun at you. “Don’t let Wooyoung hear you, he’ll tease you for the rest of your lives.”

You groan and throw yourself to the back of the chair, your body sagging and shoulders deflating. “Can we please not talk about my brother right now, it’s bad enough that I’m related to him.”

“Okay, okay,” Jongho yields, pulling his chair around the table so that he sits next to you and not across from you. Once he’s close enough, he leans in. “So I make you nervous, huh?” His mouth pulls up into a smile, eyebrows jumping. He catches your swinging hand, entwining your fingers and bringing it to rest on his lap.

“Confessing to you was a mistake,” You scoff, your shoe bumping into his when you lightly kick him in retaliation. “If I never said anything on that fateful day, it wouldn’t have led to this date and I wouldn’t end up bullied like this.”

The incredulous laugh that leaves his mouth a little too loudly causes some people to look in your direction. “You’re the main antagonist here,” Jongho exclaims, his eyes wide and mouth open in shock at the brazen audacity. “You and Wooyoung are both little shits that get away with everything.”

You laugh gleefully, squeezing his hand lovingly. “And you let me.”

“Oh, absolutely.” He says, the hearts in his eyes sparkling.

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hello, it's been a mf hot minute since i posted anything. i really want to get back in the swing of things. i missed you guys and interacting with my followers. i'm hoping that i will have more energy and motivation to write. thanks for sticking by me :)

[marvelous-llama]

ATEEZ recs

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Yunho x fem!reader, Seonghwa x fem!reader strangers to lovers, university AU - fluff, angst, smut yunho can’t stand how you’re so wrapped up in the notorious campus fuckboy, park seonghwa. he would gladly love you the way you deserve, despite being shy, awkward and the complete opposite of seonghwa. thus, when he finds himself spending more time with you over literature reviews and random study sessions, he decides to take on the challenge to win you over.

[twancingyunhao]

Ateez as husbands

Seonghwa

Doting. You(and any mini-hoomans) will always be top priority

He is the type to have to have a SPOTLESS house. (def can't relate)

Stresses fairly easy, but loves when you massage his scalp and just melts

Will make you fancy milk baths with lavender oil and shit.

Honestly just a 10/10 hubby

Hongjoong

He loves you so much

He works. ALOT. And with that being the case, he isn't home much

But when he is, he makes sure to make the days all about together time

He loves when you make a surprise visit to the studio. Likes to go home together after that, knowing he can sleep comfortably next to you

I just know he has an audio file folder lightened "for my person"

Yunho

He is so goofy.

The type to surprise you by shooting a nerf dart at you when you'd least expect it.

Purposefully makes it awkward when he sees you changing.

Begs you weekly for a spiderman marathon

LOVES when you go to practice with him and join in the dancing.

Loves even more when the serious dancing turns into playful slow dancing

Yeosang

He seems very aloof, but it's truly the softest baby

Wants to do little things together at home. Cooking together, self care days, bathing together

Would absolutely take you for a skateboard ride.

And take joy in playing some basketball one on one

Would also like to have a low-key gaming day

He's just a very laid back husband, lines taking things at his own stride

San

He's the baby in the marriage

He wants to be taken care of just as much as he wants to take care of you

Expect lots of whining and clinging

You can't even take a shower without the man forcing his way into the bathroom just to sit and talk until you're done.

The collection of plushies adorning your room is impressive

He's just the cutest I swear

Mingi

Baby #2

Will constantly be walking with his arms around your waist.

The clingiest human you've met

Quiet reading together, his head resting on your knees as he sits at your feet

Wants to be the little spoon for once

Please just give this man child everything good in the world

Wooyoung

You will ALWAYS have good food on hand.

Will make sure you're eating, and eating well

Lots of jokes. Your house is just full of laughter always

He's home to you

Constant cuddling

Or hand holding

Lots of pda honestly

Such a shit, but also super doting

He believes himself out

Jongho

Protective husband

DoNOT forget his goodbye kiss

Likes to go for a jog together each morning

Another fan of cooking together

Loves to give you shoulder massages when he notices you're stressed

Shy about pda

You'll probably have alot of late night talks, just spilling what's on your mind each night

Loves to take care of you

Sorry if this is very mehhh. Been dealing with a migraine all day but really wanted to write this. Also very much unedited. I'm assuming there are typos lol

Taglist: @atinywrites @mingis--tiddies @kpophoneybunny @big-tiddie-squad @yunhofingers

[nyoominmin]

Kim Hongjoon fic recs

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[seacottons]

“♧“ do your worst, roach.

You’re my: worst enemy

How I met you: i remember i read & reblogged your yeosang drabble, and we started talking from there

Why I follow you: that's a good question. why do i still follow you??? should've blocked you long ago

Your blog is: it'scutebuti'mnotgivingyoutheluxuryofcompliments. meh

Your URL is: tbh i wanted you to give it up so i can take it. i liked it that much

Your icon is: makes me have heart eyes <3 it's so fluffy

A random fact I know about you: you're russian, you suck at teaching. you're a rat. you always try and steal kitty from me even tho you're married. you're tall-ish.

General opinion: you suck. sometimes you're okay. your roasts are funny sometimes but you're still lame. no one can bully you except me tho. you're always scared to show affection towards me so work on that.

A random thought I have: prIVET. when will you finally teach me some russian. you're good at pirate aus. also kinda funny how our family dynamics are similar despite being from different cultures.

[latte-fairytaekwoon]

hello lovie 🥰 I just want to say that I really appreciate you taking my side 🥰🥰 seacottons is a bug and doesn’t understand the preciousness of sleep 🤷🏼‍♀️

Ok yes I agree sleep is precious, but my baby is not a bug. Sure they're a little rough sometimes, but overall they're a cutie ♡♡♡

[little-precious-baby]

This 2020...

First of all, I know most of the people did this many days ago but I thought today was like the best for me to say goodbye to this year.

Not to mention that this year has been very difficult, not only for me but for everyone. A pandemic that brought us many changes of which many are not yet comfortable and is understandable. In my case, in this year I have been able to understand many things, I have suffered and had to face other problems, and of course, I enjoyed important moments with my friends and family. My first decision this year I remember was cutting off my bangs without my parents' permission. I was scolded for weeks, even months and yes, I accept that seeing that picture from the first day of the school year is going to haunt me for a long time but I don't regret what I did. Is not a secret that for many of my irl friends, I'm like a little child that needs attention because if you give me your back, probably I'll be cutting my hair or even doing something worse.

As for emotional and friendship issues... I have to admit that I broke friendships in a non-gentle way, there were also discussions over totally stupid topics and not to mention love issues that simply ended up being a failure—a waste of time, to be honest.

While it hasn't been such an easy year, there's something I still don't even regret doing: coming here to Tumblr. My previous account has many years to created here —probably in 2017— however, at that time I didn't try to search much as I got to do this year and I'm glad I did because I met great people. Sadly I doubt at some point to meet you in person, but I hope you keep in mind that you make my days happier with your comments or just being you. I hope our friendship continues and that you all don't get sick of me so easily. Also, I wish you all the best as I know each of you is talented and has the ability to succeed in your lives. <3

Uh, the paragraphs 👉🏼👈🏼

Also I want you to know that this isn't in an specific order and that I hope you don't feel bad with my words.

💙 - @latte-fairytaekwoon

How can I start this without you rejecting my love? <3 You were one of the first people I decided to approach. I remember reading one or two of your works and just thinking "Wow, she writes very well... I'm going to follow her; it's going to be fun and interesting." I was planning not to talk to you at the beginning, to be honest. My end in mind was just to read what you updated and since you were the third account with content I had decided to follow, I thought it was a good plan. But one thing led to another and I decided to talk to you —which you probably regret since I bother you a lot lmao— and yeah, that's how we met and still talk to each other. I also need to mention that whenever I tried to talk to you about my problems or things that overwhelmed me, you always knew what to say to me even if that included to scold me. You always made me come to my senses. Many times I mentioned to you that you were like a mother to me as you "gave me those vibes" but how can you not? While you don't usually show so much affection through direct words of "I love you" "I care you," I feel them when you advise me. It's going to sound too idk, but I really don't regret to met you, Kitty. This looks like a bible and words repeating over and over again but how to show you that I appreciate, admire and love you if I always try to let you know? At this point if you still think I don't care of you, you are dumb 💖 By the way, it's worth mentioning that you and I have a long path together and you'll continue to be attacked with my love, support and jokes. I love you, mom 😗💙

💖 @winterviolet1

To be honest, I feel bad for not remembering how we started talking... I don't remember if I followed you first or if it was the other way around but hey, let's look on the bright side, it was fun to have met you and come together to always annoy Sofie with Hongjoong gifs <3 I hope we can still be little demons together and please, PLEASE, stop killing me 💀 I love when you send me gifs of Jongho because wow, that boy is definitely a daddy and more when he dances —I refuse to deviate from the subject but he jdudbd— but yeah, he kills me even when he just smiles. My point is that when I see those gifs, I went into a state where my mind goes to places that is better not to mention and I blush because yeah, we talk about my bias isbdkddj and I also frustrate because I find myself unable to return the same treatment to you dkdnskd. Ps: Let me know when we'll be demons again <3

💖 @teeztheflag

Your reactions are idejdindd art I feel shy as I know I never got to create a bond big enough to make you call my friend or that you consider me your friend but hey, it was great to talk to you. <3

Atte: the Slyffindor Girl 💀

💖 @twancingyunhoe

ALLYSSA 🥺 Okay, okay, just mention your name and I'll get in cute mode. I remember following you, yet I hadn't dared talk to you much. The safest thing I'd ever said to you was "Hello! I walk by giving love and support!" for days later asking if you were going to adopt me to have adopted Gabby as my sister 🥺 You're a beautiful person who has such a big, beautiful heart that makes me soft. I know I haven't exchanged many words with you this past month, but I hope that's not going to affect the fact that you're important to me. Thank you for accepting me, giving me love and always being so pretty. <3 kith kith

💖 @tinkerbellwoo

You are such a gift to me diejsndis. Since the first time I knew you, you were very kind and lovely to me. You won a part of my heart with your kindness and yeah, I do remember going to your asks and just "Hey, here is a bunch of love from me to you ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ Also I hope we can be friends" kejebskssi. That was like my way to ask to be one of your closer moots because you were just so cool and I wanted to be friends with the wonderful person I saw had interactions with some of my moots. I'm sorry because I have time without actually having a large conversation with you and is completely my fault... I hope this new year will change that and I can talk more to you 🥺💖

💖 @yungidreamer

My older sister :( I'm so happy I had the opportunity to talk to you 👉🏼👈🏼 I still don't forget that you once used the dissapointed card with meeee, your little cute princess angel baby sister. I have cero regrets welcome you into my big, not normal, Tumblr family because yeah, probable we aren't the same but at the same time we are the same, if you know what I mean 👀 I hope we can have more conversations between each other because I know is very interesting to talk to you but at the same time I'm so shy :(

💖 @yunderland / @shangri-woo

How can I began this? Ksbsdusbs First, I need ti be honest. I do have my thirst times and well, I read many of your works in ghost mode 👉🏼👈🏼 I was kinda shy to just idk, interact kdidbdkd. Also I began to see you interact with Amelie and was funny and I began to think "What happens if I do try to be friends with her?" but also "What if she doesn't like how I am? I ccan be a bother some times...". And yeah, I was thinking that for maybe two days until I decided to make a move. I followed you and I said "Hi 👉🏼👈🏼 I saw you talking with Amelie... You seem like a kind and lovely person, mind if I try being friends with you?" skdbsudbdks. I. Will. Not. Regret. Talking. To. You. You are such a good person :( Every time we talk, you are just so attentive that makes me soft. Please, keeo being my friend :( even if you don't consider me as your friend :(

💖 @ursaurora

Well, I don't have that much to say because I just said hi while being in hiatus but hey, I really really like the idea of being friends with you. This doesn't stopped me to wish you a good New Year and hey, why not hoping to have a good relationship between each other? <3

💖 @illicit-roses

Rosa xkenskd you sidjdndid are isbddkdj a ksudkdid baby. Such a beautiful, sweet, kind and big hearted baby. I was also the first one to talk to you and I was the one that began being surprised by your words isbwkdz. Not to mention that I also got shy and touched by your words. In this year, I would love to be more close to youuuuuu <3

💖 @inkigayeo / @woo-san

Vivi, I don't know if you will read this so probably if you do, is because I told you in private kxjsksdnsk. I don't feel like remembering you how I began talking to you because you asked and I already told you that but something I for sure need you to know is that... I'm still very touched by your encouraging words to me. I think our first first conversation was about me being depressed and how I was feeling toward myself, then about my admission test that hey, you did amazing with your words. I remember I cried because yeah, I was anxious but you told me a great advice. And when I didn't do well on that an also began saying sorry to you for not doing well, you gave me anither good words that hey... How not be in love with Vivi? Vivi is just a Queen with a big heart and kindness to give to everyone :(( <3

💖 @atinyedits / @atinywrites

My lovely and beautiful Anrose kdbdkzkzd I remember I began to talk to you after I saw a post of Cottons talking about how you were such a fk rat brat and my first thought was "Hey, I want to be her friend" lol. And guess what? That's what I did isbszlxudbzk I went to your asks and I asked you if you wanted to be my friend and you accepted. We began talking and I began having this love to you idbesldjdbs. But something I do need to make clear is that I didn't thought you will be part of my Tumblr family as my mom kdjdsldudhs I still remember reblogging with an "you are married with Allyssa?! She is my mooooom" and yeah, you were welcome to a natural habit of a family who is thirsty 24/7 for Ateez or each other and yeah, such a triangle live attraction and the foughts you still have with my other mom kdisjsnd. But I hope you feel the love I have for you. Because I do love you and I trust you enough. Don't you remember how I send you photos of my body? I do feel insecure about it and still regret to be being called a Queen but yeah, I trust and love you enough, my Anrose <3

💖 @atiny-ahgase

Gabby, my sweetest sister 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 How can I began this? Well... Not to mention that I usually read your interactions with Zad and as I wasn't someone you knew, I was scared to talk to both of you. You because I was mostly shy and for Zad because I thought he was intimidating, funny, right? Well, I'm not sure if I do told you about giving you tons of love and support directly but I do remember adopting Zad as my brother and he telling me he had a sister and my first thought was "Hey, why I can't have a big sister too?" and then I began talking to you and with what I was welcomed? By tons of love and cute gifs of kisses and hugs. You make me feel lovved, Gabby. You are such an angel 🥺 Please, don't stop loving your baby sister Mei <3

💖 @shinyddeonghwa

Omg, omg, omg. I feel bad because I don't even know how I began talking to you T^T I feel bad to admit that I get confused between you and Treasure and ksbsizbdsis I think it was with you that I talked in Portuguese jzusnsks and if not, I'm sorry for the miss understanding ksisjs T^T but something I for sure remember if you trying to dom me and then getting flustered when that didn't worked and it was my time then isnwishsslsns I also need to mention that is always cute everything you do dkdbskzusks even how you talk to me <3 I hope our friendship can last for more time <3

💖 @sansbun & @choisans-dimples

Bun and Cass, the brat in denial 👀😗, the sweetest babies I have met. Two lovely babies that love cats and San. I think my first interaction with the both of you was because of the Tumblr family. Bun, I'm sorry for not talking too much to you. You are such a kind person and I would like to be closer to you in this new year. And for Cass, we talked more in discord but still wasn't that much :( But it was actually funny to see you fighting with Mari, it was cute nsisnslds. I hope both of you know that your auntie loves you so much <3

💖 @galaxteez

ASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHH <3

Our first conversation was something thirsty, I'm 100% sure about that. And how to forget how I always forgot to turn on to be anon siwnsibddk8dn. But I'm still sure you loved to see my asks while me being anon than when it was actually me because mine was just cute, giving tons of love to you when my anon... Well... My anon 😗 I know I have time without having thisty talks with you so maybe this new year will mark the difference 👀 <3

💖 @ateezstanlove

Ndyensiddhsihssjwj here is when my mind is having problems to remember how I actually met everyone and that's making me feel bad skdbwksjzns but something I can be 100% is that I tried really hard every day to make you feel all the love I can give. I still remember when I saw you were on hiatus and thinking about leaving Tumblr. Being honest, I was really sad but hey, you are here now to receive all my love and have those lustful thoughts about Wooyoung's thighs —I saw that, sis 😗. But yeah sksnqisndks. I love you and I hope we can have more time as sisters this year <3

💖 @ateez-little-star

Jas, the beautiful star in the sky 🥺 You were actually my first sister in my Tumblr Family. I still think is funny how I try really hard to baby you but at the end is in the other way, you end baby me skjssksisns 🥺🥺🥺🥺 How can I be more grateful to met you, uh? You always listened to my problems and I do considered a lot your opinions, is very kind to talk to you. I feel always loved when I talk to you. Also not to mention how I felt when during the night you left and when I searched you, you were gone. I was really sad and my first thought was "If she doesn't come back... She will remember me?" ksudisbskd but in days you came back and I was so happy :(( Please don't leave me again, Jas :( You are very soecial to me, my baby sis 🥺💖

💖 @hiatus-kittenmbb

Msisnsiddn MU AUNTIE HERE, EVERYONE. MSIWBSKDJDSBSB I want your love, cuddles, kisses and all the things you can give me and I'll make sure to make you feel the same, with tons of love <3 Not to mention how funny is to talk to you and all the times you told me to bother Kitty mom hahaha such a good and lovely relationship both of you have hahaha. Ps:Don't forget I love you so much, Auntie <3

💖 @hwastreasure

Mia :( I'm sorry because I don't have many things to say but at the same time I don't want you to feel sad about it. I remember I told you I will talk constantly to you and I didn't do it. Please forgive me :(( Can we try again and be closer now? :(

💖 @hongjoong-a-holic

SOFIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE-.... Oh, no. My mistake. Let me try again. MY LIL LIOOOOOOOOOOOON GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR~. I don't have a lot of words how to describe the love and affection I have for you. You were always paying attention to me and giving me love —not to mention that you told me I needed to hug you just because you wanted nsisns and I say no lol— and that's cute sksnsksis. I also want to say that all those times that I do bother you with Blue about gifs of Ateez dancing sexily and those smuts and all that explication of sexuality... I have cero regrets! :D lmao. If you really thought I will say sorry about that, is a nono. I know you love it at the end lmao. But there is something I for sure need to be sorry... I know you were sad about me leaving ti be on hiatus and I still did but baby, I really needed to do it. I promise I'll be back soon. Very soon, just wait for me <3

💖 @hwaberrykiwi

Cam, Cam, Cam, Cam :(( I began to talking to you thanks to Jas that she asked me if I knew you and I said no and she just make me talk to you and guess what? I'm happy she did that because hey, I met an amazing person. And even if we didn't talked that much, something my heart will not forget are the words you told me when I said Uw as going on hiatus. I was really touched, I cried. I really did at the end but yeah. I would love to be more close to such a person with a big big heart <3

💖 @joongieblue

I don't even know how to began this because I think everything I need you to know, you already know it but at the same time I feel like I still need to say a lot :(( I don't want you to feel less as a person anymore... I know you said that way of thinking is because of your depression but baby, try to look at the amazing people who are with you, that cares about how you are and of course you are very important to them. You are very sweet and amazing as a person, let me tell you that I see in you a soft light. A very pure light that needs to shine bright in the sky but the darkness is making her feel like a insuficient and lonely light. Don't worry, things will get better soon. Trust me <3

💖 @seonghwa-is-babie

How can I began this without this looking awkward? 👉🏼👈🏼 I met you thanks to Zad and what I learned is that you were such a good, kind and shy boy but of course I still think you can be very intimidating if you want to. I'm sorry for not having a lot of conversation with you since I met you but I promise I'll try harder to be close to you. Of course, if you don't mind <3

🧡 - @seacottons

How can I began this?... The first time I talked to you, it was me trying to tease you really bad. I can also remember I told you to cald me kitten or something like that at that moment and the next thing we talked was about how I wanted to be adooted by you so bad isnsldks I don't regret doing all what you wanted me to do so you can adopt me because hey, you are amazing, wonderful as my other mom. Talking to you is like a way to calm my insecurities and stress I had during the day. You always giving love to me and even those cute hugs in the head you give or when you are too much sleepy to even type correctly iwjeneid you are such a baby :(( I'm still sorry for the time I called you a rouch, you aren't a bug... You are a beautiful, sweet, kind Queen I have the posibility to call mom. Not to mention that you are also my sweet, cool pumpkin —favorite— mom. Also, I can remember all those times you told me to bother or kick Kitty just because "she need it" dkbsskdjd the time you also wanted to disown me dibedidnzsj Leaving that topic to say cute things I love about you again is that... I'll be forever happy and gratefull with you. You gave me great advice when I needed them the most. You gave me a shoulder and a soft comfortable place to talk about my deep problems, my insomnia, depression, all of that. Thank you, mom. Thank you so much for letting me be part of your life and of course, youre mine. I will not share with Kitty <3

💖 @jongpleasure

My lovely, sweet and innocent twin ^^ lmao, we know we both are like really really twins. Our birthdays are very close, we both are Cancers, have the same bias that we share with each other because damn, he is really nice. But hey, is still very good to know you because you are talented, really really talented. The videos you create are wonderful and I am not saying that just because I know you, they are very good. The same with your fics, are amazing. You are an amazing writer, why you can't see that, uh? Want me to kiss your cheeks and hug you hard till you learn it? If you do want it, you are free to come to me and I'l give ut to you because msidbwks you are my lovely twin that I love so much. Have a great new year, I hope all your problems get resolved and you can noticed how you are talented enough to succeed and that you have friends in here that love you so bad. Kyra, my sweet twin I love so much <3

🕷️🕸️ - @yunhoshoe / @jonghoshoe

Aw, my baby prince Zad :(( The one I can trully see as a baby even when you are such a year younger than me. I want to protect you every time, even when I know I can't do that much virtually... So everytime I need to make me feel that I gave you all the love I can give and hope you can feel all the love I try to give you every time we talk. I'm still sorry for that time I make you feel uncomfortable with my missunderstanding about spiders and all of that... I'm also sorry for that time I send you gifs about dogs when you were scared of them... I'm really sorry, baby. Your big sister is dumb many times but hey, she is also still learning and want to give all she can to you. I hope this new year, we cab still be closer. Who is my little sweet, cute baby prince? Of course, you <3

💖 @xiuminswifeforever

I know we aren't that close, sadly. I follow you on twitter and here and everytime we talk is probably you being horny and wanting to have sex or somethung with your hmm... Is funny to talk to you and I know you told me that you are mostly in twitter and that was why we don't talk that much but hey, I would love to talk more with you. Want to try in this new year? <3

💜 - @yunhoiseyecandy

My sweet angel Violet :(( HoW I can began this? Kdsndid I don't remember very well how I began talking to you... Like I try really hard to remember how I began talking to you and my mind is in blank siwnsksus I'm sorry because of that but at the same time, is the good memories that are important to remember, right? How can I not be feeling grateful with the angel that with some kind words that came from her heart, made me a crying mess because of how touched I was? :(( There are many things I know I will not forget. That time I was feeling low beecause someone was just being very mean with me and you were protective, your kind words when I was just losing my mind and feeling all that pain inside and you helped me release that... For this year, I hope we can still be friends because you are amazing and I don't want to lose you :( <3

💖 @treasure-hwa

I feel really bad if I began saying this but I do want to say the truth and the truth is that I usually get confused between shinnyddeonhwa because you both had/have Hwa in their profiles and I know you both don't even write in the same way but idk, is easily for me to get confused, I'm sorry T^T Changing the subject, I really loved that time when we began talking in Portuguese and Spanish at the same time. Was really funny to even think how everyone would saw that ksjsnskdd Also I am very touched and happy when you roleplay with me... You are very sweet even while roleplaying and that makes me soft in such a way dksbskdid I would like to roleplay again with you, only if you want to any other time 👉🏼👈🏼 Also in this new year, I hope we can still be talking to each other for a long time, sister <3

💖 @cometoceantrenches

Not me being speechless every time I began writing a paragraph kwusnekdid also not me becoming your friend the second you asked me how was the relationship between Cottons and I 👉🏼👈🏼 But look at the good side, we are sisters now and guess what? I noticed how you have a big BIG heart and all the love you can give is just so cute when I receive it or just read it. I hope in this new year we can make new and memorable conversations together. Don't forget you have an special space in my heart <3

🤍 - @vocalyunho

Amelie, my sweet and lovely wife :(( How can I began this? I remember the first time I talked to you. I said your writing skills were amazing and that you were cute and I wanted to try being your friend. Not to mention that two days later I ask you to be my wife dkebdidbdkd But I don't regret that at all. I'm really happy I met you because every time I talk to you, I feel in a safe space... A place I can say how I really feel without being judged... And what do I receive every time I talk my problems out? Sweet words and advice :(( Amelie you are such a good girl, a good advicer and an amazing friend. Thank you so much for letting me be your friend. I know I won something big with your beautiful friendship. Also I know that you have problems and stress but hey, as you said, things hopefully will get better, we just need to be patient and wait. And don't forget that you can come to me everytime you want. I'll be here for you, Amelie. Anlso in this new year, I hope our friendship can grow bigger and yeah, why not trying to create new memories together? Remember you are Yunho of our 2Ho. Love you <3

💖 @sollyho & @ateezinmymind

Well... Maybe this will look like a very short paragraph but... I felt bad at the same time because I don't have that much to say... For sure, I'm happy I met both of you because during our conversations, I can deduce that I can trust you because you are lovely and all of that. What I regret so bad is that during this 2020, I didn't talked that much and that's why I feel bad for not writing something big but please, don't feel that I don't care about you because I do :(( i hope in this new year, we can talk much and maybe be close friends 👉🏼👈🏼

👑 - @barnesbabee

Queen Trixie 👉🏼👈🏼 Well, what I can say is that first, I love your humor keiwbsnd also that everytime you tive your opinion about something, you have valid points. This will sound stupid but I do really like to read when you post something. As I said some days ago in your dm, I really would like to be close to you but at the same time I do feel like that will not occur or will not happen that easily because I am not that cool and well, I don't know, I feel like I would be that kind of person you would dislike easily. Something I promised this year and will keep till this new year is the tonw of love I give to you and the support you need as a powerful queen. <3

💖 @multidreams-and-desires

My baby sis that I love so much, always taking care of me ane telling me how much you love me :(( this year was amazing. Probably our talks are mostly about problems or just giving each other love. I'm happy that I met you because you are always kind and of course you have also those thirsty moments that all our Tumblr family have —that's why we all get along, we are a bunch of people that have Ateez as their weakness lol. Also, I need to mention that in this new year, you need to know that I'll be giving you more love so just wait for me <3

💖 @msmadness99

Seven, my lovely Seven ^^ First of all I need to mention the iconic moment we both noticed we talked in Spanish after months of always talking on English lol. I know some of your insecurities about your writings and I still want to let you know that when I say that your works are amazing, well written and calls the attention easily, I'm being honest and saying that not as your friend, I say that as a fan of your works. I don't know who tells you or makes you feel insecure about them but hey, is amazing. Even those short things you write and don't get me started with Break Out serie siendjdbdkdys Every time you update, you make me have my heart in my throat kduebwdkd You are very talented, don't let others make you think other way. I love you, Seven <3

I think that is all 👉🏼👈🏼

I hope you all receive this new year with a smile and always being positive ❤️

I’m so grateful for your support and love this year. May you have a prosperous, happy and healthy New Year.

May all your dreams come true in 2021! You got this!❤️

[atiny-ahgase]

A message to my Moots

Hey all, I originally wasn’t gonna do this cause I honestly didn't even know where to begin (I still don't tbh) but I said that I’ll still give it a try cause I wanted to tell you all my feelings before the new year rolls around (for me at least lol). So let’s get too it.

Firstly thank you to every single person that follows me, or has read any of my fics or liked any of my edits or even just interacted with me in any form. Thank you for the immense love and support that I’ve received on this site, honestly I didn't expect to make any friends here and the fact that I was able to meet and befriend so many amazing people. So I just wanna say thank you so much for being a part of my life. I’ve always put up walls and I’m really bad at getting close to others but Tumblr was the first site that I’ve really felt comfortable enough to be the real me. So thank you for that.

Now on to the Mentions

I had no idea how to start this so I decided to start at the beginning.

@mingishoe -Luna, you were the reason that I joined Tumblr in the first place, your fics brought me here and your interactions with other blogs opened up so many doors for me and helped me to interact and befriend so many amazing people. You were the first person that I ever sent an ask to, you made me feel so comfortable and welcome so thank you for that. Thank you for being you, a literal moon; bright and beautiful always lighting up the way. I honestly don't think that I would ever be able to explain how much I love, admire and look up to you, I honestly can’t find the words. Honestly, just thank you for being there for your little anon (Idk if you know which anon I am though lol)

@vocalyunho -Ames!!!!! The 2nd person that I followed! an absolute angel. You are such a calm soul and I just love your vibe and energy so much. I think that I’ve said this a million times but you just make me feel so safe and secure, you have such a calm and capable aura that is just so soothing to me. Thank you for coming into my life and being the amazing person that you are.

@jonghoshoe -ZAD!!! Baby Brother! My Teddy Bear! My Sunflower!! Where do I even begin?!? You were basically my first friend on Tumblr (and I am even more grateful to Luna cause I found you through her). IDK what it was about you but you had such an amazing out look on life while still being chaotic in the best way possible. I would wake up every morning and look out for your posts cause you would always make me smile. Without even knowing it you became a big part of my life and I am so grateful for that. You were my motivation when I was feeling down, you encouraged me to see the good things in the word, you hyped me up to write fics; honestly you are part of why I am the Gabby that I am today and I cant thank you enough for that, I love and admire you so much.

Next on my list is my little bunny @lustjoong -PK PK PK, my knee loving queen!!!! IDEK what to say cause I feel as though I confess my love to you at least twice a week on discord lol. I love talking with you, you're incredibly level headed and give amazing advice (which I always need cause I’m a mess lol). I’ve said this before but I’ll say it again that I admire you so much and would of never imagined that I would of ever gotten the chance to talk to you (much less be able to call you my friend) cause in my mind I always saw you as this amazing and untouchable writer (but then I realized that I’m taller than you so... lol I’m kidding). I’m happy that you found out that I was messaging you on anon and thank you for reaching out to me. I look forward to more chaotic conversations and knee pics in the new year.

@atiny-piratequeen -FIE I FREAKING LOVE YOU SO MUCH THAT I MIGHT EXPLODE!! You fill me with so much life that I cant even begin to explain. I’ve said this a million times before but I love how you aren't afraid to speak you mind and say how you feel. You're such a strong figure to me here on the platform and I've always admired how natural and bold you are with your opinions. I find your personality to be extremely refreshing and welcoming, I was never afraid to interact with you (I combusted when you sent me an ask but that’s only natural..) so thank you for providing me (and a lot of other Atiny) with a safe and welcoming place that we can come to.

@twancingyunhoe -Allyssa!!! My mom!!!! My cookie baking, Yunho loving, cat mom!! where do I even begin?? Thank you for being an absolute angel! You shine so brightly here and you're always so supportive to literally everyone. I am and always will be there for you no matter what so I want you to remember that in the coming year. and remember that I love you in your highs and your lows and I am available to provide cuddles anytime they are needed or wanted cause you are precious to me ok luv.

@felixs-moonlight -my little duckling AJ!!! I’m wishing you the best in the new year cause that's what best bois deserve! You are so incredibly sweet and caring so don't you ever forget. Even if you do forget don't worry cause I will always be there to remind you.

@seoultraveller -Cat. Your presence makes me so happy!! IDEK what it is I just love seeing you on my dashboard, when I don't see you I wonder how you are. I hope that this new years is treating you well. Also, you are NOT boring and lets talk a lot more in the coming year okay luv

@yunhozone -Jey!! I miss you, I hope that you're well, its been raining lately so I hope that you're staying dry and safe. I love your boldness and sense of humor so please don't ever change. i started following you on a whim and I have never regretted following you ever since. You make me smile and laugh so much and I hope that I can do the same for you in the coming years. Stay safe okay luv

@pirate-hongjoong -Kayla, lets both talk more in the coming year ok luv. I pretty much told you everything that I wanted to on your post so I’ll try to keep this short. I think that you're really sweet and we should get to know each other more, I’ll try to reach out some more and be a little less shy. so lets continue to grow our friendship okay.

@taelepathysroom -You were the first friend that I made on Tumblr all on my own (meaning that I didn't see you interacting with a moot or anything, I found you all by myself) to this day I don't remember how I mustered up the bravery to message you. I remember wanting to message you on anon and realizing that you had anon off and I STILL went for it lol, apparently I was wilding. But that was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made, I love talking with you and receiving all of your extremely important messages and I look forward to many more (my heart is not ready but it is fine).

@moongaera -Gaera you are such a great motivation to me and I’m so happy to be a part of your life. You are so sweet and incredibly talented. I love seeing you on my dashboard and talking with you cause you honestly make my heart want to explode.

@yungidreamer - Big sister!!!! Kelsi!!! My aesthetic queen who I am convince is tryna kill me on our discord chat you are so kind and helpful and give such great tips. You are such a calm soul and I love interacting with you (especially when things feel crazy) its like you just magically know the answer to everything.

@yunhoiseyecandy -Violet, we don't really talk much but I think that you're really cool and fun so lets talk lots in 2021 ok. Also IDK why I felt like this was the perfect place to post this but you're the only moot whos emoji pops up when I start to type their name in the hashtags and I always thought that its really cute. (You're also really cute). I think that we would be really good friends so I cant wait to talk with you more.

@hwaberrykiwi -CAM CAM CAM CAM CAM!!!!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!! You are so fun to talk to and so sweet and so calming and you make my heart feel like its bursting (in the best way possible). I hope that you're well and I look forward to sharing more moments here with you on Tumblr (and I am still keeping my promise of not eating Lemon Bars if they aren't from you so...)

@atinywrites -Angel!!! My precious, little angel who always attacks my poor little heart. I love your messages and how you just pop up randomly and shower me with love (then I read your posts and you're just straight up roasting people JBJDJFILJFISREHF) I love absolutely everything about you and I’m really happy that we met each other, I cant wait to see what 2021 has in store for us.

@choisans-dimples -Cass my dearest little Sugar Plum, apart from you being absolutely precious you are also extremely previous to me. I remember our first interactions and they still bring a smile to my face (we were like Tom and Jerry and honestly in a way we still are lol). But you mean so much to me and you never fail to make me laugh or smile no matter what is going on in my life. I wish for you to never lose that smile in 2021 and if it ever begins to falter just know that I’m here ok luv

@latte-fairytaekwoon -Latte, I’m not gonna lie; when Mei started adopting family members I felt like my brain was gonna explode but I gotta hand it to her cause she has great taste in family cause she chose you. If it wasn't for her then I probably would of never found you. if that happened then who would spoil me rotten?!? I am so happy to have met you I honestly thrive every time I see you on my dashboard, you are absolutely hilarious and I love to see your interactions. I cant wait to see what you do in 2021 and all of the other years to come. Thanks for being a great Tumblr Mom

@little-precious-baby -Mei, where do I begin?? You came out of no where for me, you just sort of appeared and then in the blink of an eye you became so dear to me. Id just find myself looking out for your posts and wondering how you are. IDK how to explain it but you've somehow managed to bring so many amazing individuals together in such a short time, you're absolutely amazing and I hope that one day you'll be able to see yourself the way that we already see you. Ik that things can be hard (and they will be because that’s life) but just know that this family that you helped to bring together is always here for you when you need someone to confide in and when it feels like its too much and you need a break we’ll be right here waiting for you until you come back. Just remember that your big sis loves you ok my little bean.

@ateez-little-star -JAS!!!!!! My babie sister IDK how to write this without crying cause you make me so happy that idek what to do. You are so bold and brave while still being shy and cute, I cant explain it. You are so wholesome to talk to and so fun and interesting and sweet and loveable! Like how could someone not love you!! Thank you for always checking up on me and showering me with love and just making me smile.

@yunhofingers -My sweet little bean who definitely never behaves badly!! I am sending you all of the positive vibes for the new year. Ik that things wont always be easy but just know that I’m always here and I believe in you. You are so sweet and kind and bold and I love that about you, don't ever change and thank you so much for making me smile; I hope that I can do the same for you in 2021 and beyond cause I hope that we can be friends for a really long time.

I also wanted to include the moots that I do interact with but I also want to talk to even more in the coming year. Thank you for being here for both me and other people in the kpop community. I love your blogs and you all are so incredibly kind (and ridiculously entertaining; I’m looking at you Caly and Vivi lol), I hope that we can become even better friends.

@hanatiny @sansbun @hongism @multidreams-and-desires @smallfrye @aixy-hpsa @galaxteez @jongpleasure @simphwa @inkigayeo @heeseungluvs

[atinywriter]

kitchen confessions

[ yunho x reader ] [ bestfriendstolovers!au]

[ listen to: dance, baby! by boy pablo // fallingforyou by the 1975 ]

[ wordcount: 2.2k ]

[ warnings: unedited, paragraph or two of a creep, little bit of kissing, soft yunho hours, my first imagine so please bear with me. ]

The pulse of the bass and the strobe of the lights had put [y/n] into a trance on the dance floor. San and Wooyoung were on either side of her swaying body, the three of them chatting away excitedly with grins on their faces. Every now and then San and Wooyoung would try to out do each others funky little dance moves, which would lead to the three of them giggling hysterically. With the group of bodies moving together [y/n] could feel herself overheating. She let both of the boys know that she was going back to their table for her drink, and started making her way between people to get there.

The bar that her friends had chosen was fairly popular, and the crowd was only growing the longer the night went on. After shimmying her way through a group of giggling girls, her eyes on their groups table in the corner, she’s stopped by a hand grasping her arm. She is turned abruptly by the firm grip, and her eyes meet the eyes of a plain boy clearly trolling on the dance floor. Without letting go of her arm, the boy starts to speak.

“I saw you over there dancing with your friends, it looked like you were giving them a real good time. Now that you’re all alone I think it’s my turn to take you for a spin, cmon and have a dance with me,” the rude boy insists, not letting up on her arm. [Y/n] takes a step back, trying to create some distance, but he steps closer again.

“No, thank you. I’m going over to meet my friends,” [Y/n] says, trying to tug her arm out of his grasp. His hold on her tightens to a bruising force and he pulls her even closer to the point where she could smell his putrid alcohol based breath. [Y/n] could feel the panic start in her lungs, making the air feel hot and her palms sweaty.

“A couple of songs won’t hurt you love, might even make you want to come home with me,” he says lewdly, a sneer on his face. From the corner of her eye, [Y/n] could see a familiar hand coming down to rest on the rude man’s wrist.

“I’m not sure if you’re deaf or stupid, but she said no. Leave, now,” she heard her best friends low tones over her shoulder. She should have known that Yunho would keep an eye on her. Taking her eyes off of the sleazy man in front of her, [Y/n] looks up at Yunho and takes in the anger rolling off of him. Yunho has always been fiercely protective of his friends, and she was no exception- if anything he was more protective and sheltering of her than anyone. The rude man sneers at both of them and scoffs before releasing her arm and walking back into the crowd of dancers.

“Are you okay, [Y/n]?” Yunho asks, putting his arm around her shoulder and pulling her away towards the edge of the crowd. Taking her arm is his gentle hands, he looks over the bruising that is already starting to form and his frown deepens.

“Thank you for coming to my rescue, Yu. Some creeps don’t know when to take no for an answer,” she huffs before sending a small smile up at him. Yunho smiles gently at her and pulls her into a hug, careful not to crush her bruised arm, and rests his head on top of hers. She takes in a deep breathe and feels the tension leave her shoulders with his comforting scent.

“You know i’ll always protect you, [Y/n]. Let’s go get a drink, hmm?” He says, releasing her from his hug and slinging his arm around her shoulder again, pulling her close and tugging her over to their booth.

Mingi, Yeosang , and Jongho were seated in the booth, while Hongjoong and Seongwha were competing against each other in a game of pool. Mingi slides over leaving enough space for the two of them. [Y/n] sinks into the seat between Mingi and Yunho, picking up her drink and taking a few refreshing swigs. Rubbing her arm absentmindedly, she heard Yunho speak up from next to her.

“This bar is just not the vibe right now, let’s go onto the next one,” Yunho says, and the others agree but not before they take another round of shots. Seongwha goes out onto the dance floor to collect San and Wooyoung, while Yeosang walks over to the bar to order the shots for the table.

Everyone crowds together in a circle, each holding a shot in their hand.

“To [Y/n], congratulations on your new promotion, you’ve worked very hard and we can’t wait to see where your career takes off from here,” Hongjoong lifts his glass and slightly bows his head to you. There’s a chorus of “cheers, [Y/n]’s” and large smiles from all around while simultaneously shooting back the drinks. Gathering all of the coats and bags they’re brought, the group leaves this bar and starts walking towards the next one they had planned. Seonghwa and Hongjoong were walking together in the front, the rest of the boys were behind them goofing off and jumping around, and Yunho and [Y/n] are trailing along behind them.

“Yu, let me take a picture of you,” [Y/n] requests, leading him by the hand over to a bike post on the edge of the street. It was well lit and empty, and [Y/n] thought Yunho looked angelic, and wanted to capture a nice moment in their evening. Yunho smiles and plays along, posing while [Y/n] snaps pictures on her phone. After taking a few she hums and smiles before sending them to Yunho. Reaching out her hand, she pulls him alongside her again. The group had reached the bar, and [Y/n] and Yunho weren’t far behind.

Into the late evening and early morning, the group started breaking off and heading back to the dorms. [Y/n]’s apartment wasn’t far from their dorm, and Yunho sent the others off with the intention of seeing her home safely. He was nothing if not a gentleman.

They end up taking a cab back to her apartment, [Y/n]’s light snores flowing up from her head resting on Yunho’s shoulder. Yunho smiles softly while looking down at her soft cheeks and long lashes, resting his head against hers gently so not to wake her. The ride in the cab is not very long, so soon Yunho is unbuckling [Y/n]’s seatbelt and coaxing her out of the car. They walk up the stairs together, one surefooted and the other slightly stumbling.

Reaching the door to her apartment, [Y/n] hands her keys off to Yunho to unlock the door, which he does quickly. Holding her hand and tugging her inside, Yunho locks the door behind him and gets down on his knees in front of [Y/n]. He starts untying her shoelaces and looks up at her with a small grin on his face. [Y/n]’s eyes are wide and her full cheeks are dusted with blush. His grin widens, and he quickly works the shoes off of her feet. Slipping his off with ease when finished with your shoes, he takes your hand in his again.

“I know you’re tired, but we should really eat something. Can I make you a grilled cheese,” Yunho asks as they walk through to her kitchen. [Y/n] plops down into one of her barstools and nods.

“Only if I get to choose the music,” [Y/n] requests exuberantly, already pulling out her phone and scrolling through songs.

“That’s fine with me, just don’t let it get too loud so we don’t disturb the neighbors, right darling?” Yunho says it so nonchalantly while warming up the pan that she almost misses it. Yunho had always been sweet but he didn’t usually use pet names with her, rather using endearing ones to poke fun at each other. It made her thoughts wander, pupils darkened and eyes staring holes into the middle of his back. She could think of a lot of different ways for him to call her darling.

“I thought you were going to turn on some music,” Yunho questions before her daydreams get away with her. She smiles at him and presses play on an upbeat boy pablo song, dancing along in her seat for a second before hopping up and holding out her hand to Yunho. He waves his spatula at her as if he didn’t want to dance, but knowing Yunho he always wanted to dance. [Y/n] gets closer to him and tries enticing him even more.

“C’mon Yu, you didn’t dance with me at the club at all. You owe me a dance,” [Y/n] states matter of factly, wiggling her fingers.

“That’s because you were too busy being sandwiched between Wooyoung and San,” Yunho sighs and pouts while putting down the spatula. He folds his arms and looks down at her with his plump lips still pouted. She giggles and pulls his arms apart, waving them in the air until he loosens up and a genuine smile takes over his pout.

They bop and dance around together for a few minutes while Yunho multitasks and finishes up their grilled cheese. They eat them while the song continues on, the fun beat making them both giggle together.

The song ended and the dulcet tones of Matty Healy singing fallingforyou began, making [Y/n]’s eyes fall shut and swaying her body to the ethereal sound. Yunho looks down at her with a fond smile on his face, thinking about how much this song applies to their relationship. As far as he was aware, she was clueless to his overwhelming feelings for her. They had been friends for years, and recently he’s been feeling more for her. His tenderness had become so obvious, to the point where his friends tease him, and dare him, and try to do anything in their power to match Yunho and [Y/n] up. Yunho doesn’t mind though, it always felt like having her close kept him sane.

On the other side of things, [Y/n] knew she had feelings for Yunho. I mean honestly, how could she not. He was charming and smart, tall and handsome, the literal human embodiment of sunshine. He was her light in the darkness, but she knew how unattainable he was. Someone like him liking someone like her? Highly improbable. A fun daydream to have in moments like this. In her eyes, Yunho was so far out of her league it wasn’t even funny.

[Y/n] could feel Yunho’s hands pulling her closer to dance to the slower song. Her eyes opened and looked up into Yunho’s soft brown ones. He pulled her into his chest, her head resting against it while his warm arm wrapped around her back. They swayed together while he hummed, his low reverb vibrating through her. It felt very intimate to her, and she couldn’t stop the flush and nerves that zapped through her body. Listening to the lyrics of the song, she couldn’t help but feel a lump in her throat, wanting to confess her never ending fondness for him. She wanted to, more than anything, but the anxiety was making tears build up in the corners of her eyes.

“I don’t want to be your friend, I want to kiss your neck,” Yunho’s soft voice sang along quietly while swaying them, and [Y/n] couldn’t help but stop and look up at him.

“I can’t hold it in anymore, Yu. I think I’m in love with you. I know that this is gonna be awkward now because there’s no way you could ever like me but I just couldn’t hold onto it anymore,” [Y/n] rushes out in one breath. Her face heats up and a tear falls from her eye, the heat of embarrassment enfolding her body.

“Oh baby, why are you crying?” Yunho’s warm hang reaches up to wipe the tear from her cheek.

“I’m so scared you’re never going to want to hold my hand again… and your hand is the only hand I ever want to hold,” [Y/n] says, being as honest as she can now that all of her cards are on the table. She sniffles and looks down at her feet.

“You’re hand was made to fit in mine, you take my breath away with everything you do. I can’t believe it took me all these years to figure out how I truly feel about you. You are everything to me [Y/n], I love you,” Yunho confesses, feeling weight leave his shoulders at knowing you feel the same. It’s exhilarating.

His hand still resting on her soft cheek, Yunho tilts her head upwards towards him, and leans down 80% of the way. He wants to give her the chance to back away if she needs to. Instead, [Y/n] pushes her pillow soft lips into his, and Yunho’s eyes close at the feeling. He had imagined it so many times, and his imagination could never compare to the real thing. Pulling you closer Yunho deepens the kiss between them, a soft moan leaving her lips at the feeling of his hands on her hips. His grip tightens before he backs his head away from yours a bit.

“Please, be mine?” He asks, looking intently into her eyes.

“As if I could be anyone else’s.”

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“The coffee one, please,” You say, pointing to the ice cream tub from behind the glass. The worker scoops your ice cream into a big waffle cone and sticks two spoons on either side. “Thank you!”

Yunho smiles at the worker as he pays, taking the cone and handing it to you. You eagerly dig in with happiness shining in your eyes as soon as the spoonful of sugary sweetness reaches your tongue. He can’t help but melt at your cuteness and look at you lovingly.

You hold the cone between your bodies and welcome the warm breeze that comes and goes from your place at the table outside the ice cream shop.

“I swear ice cream can cure anything,” You sigh, taking a bite out of the waffle cone. “Thank you, baby.”

Yunho grins, leaning in to kiss the corner of your mouth where a smudge of ice cream had marked your skin. He then laughs when you whine and pout at him for not kissing you properly. “You’re welcome, angel, I’m sorry you had a horrible day. I can at least try to make it better.”

Your eyes soften and your heart swells at his words as he feeds you ice cream from his spoon.

“You being with me always makes it better,” You smile, placing a hand on his cheek and pull him closer to steal a kiss. “I love you.”

His cheeks flush as he gives you a smile, suddenly getting shy.  “I love you too.”

“So cute,” You coo, pinching his cheeks. He sticks his tongue out at you, swatting your hands away and leaning back to escape your teasing. You leave the rest of the ice cream for him and hand him the cone which he takes to finish the rest.

After he stands up to throw away your trash, he pulls you up by your hand and begins walking in the direction of your shared home. 

Your hands intertwine and sway lightly in between your bodies. Your other hand comes up to rest on his bicep as your head leans against his shoulder. The comfortable silence blankets over you as you enjoy each other’s company.

“Thank you for treating me,” You look up at him, bouncing up to your tip-toes to press a quick kiss to his jaw. Yunho hums as he leans down to kiss your forehead.

“Any time.”

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it’s been too long 🥹 I miss posting my work. I have some requests to work through but I had this sitting in my drafts for a WHILE.

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ATEEZ RECOMMENDATIONS

other group recommendations here

• Hearts Awakened | ateez - seonghwa series (f,a) @woosannie

• Stop Playing | ateez - wooyoung (m,a) @xofanfics

• Come Over | ateez - mingi series (m,a) @xoexoxhoe

• 4 Times We Almost Kissed + 1 Time We Actually Did | ateez - seonghwa (f) @blvejeanbaby

• Please Say Something | ateez - san (a,f) 🌼 @atinywrites

• Hearts Awakened | ateez- san (m,a) @purple-baby-d

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My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

if you’re still taking request, may i please request body worship with yunho, but it’s reader worshipping yunho’s body? his tall figure, soft tummy, his adorable tofu arms (that are also very toned lol), his broad chest and gorgeous neck (not to mention that delicious booty and big d*ck lol)… every inch of him is just… ahhh i’m losing it!! please? i’m just so in love with all of him!!

HELLO AND I AM SO VERY SORRY FOR THE WAIT ON THIS. Here we have the SFW version of this. A NSFW version will be released on my other blog at an undetermined date. But I hope you like it!

TRUE PERFECTION

Yunho x gn! Reader

Genre: fluff, so much fluff

Word count: 312

You had been watching him closely all day. Your eyes roaming seemingly every inch of his body, a flush adorning your cheeks as you take in his toned arms (but not too toned, still soft and comforting.) You mentally raved about his lovely bread-like cheeks.  Heart skipping a beat as your eyes lingered on his beautiful hands, the fingers that encompassed your own, making you feel safe and warm.  You reached for his hand, putting it flush against your palm and loving how big it was compared to yours, the true visual of just how much comfort and love Yunho was full of.  Trailing your hands down his arm and back up to set lightly on his chest, which was beautifully firm, yet still felt perfectly like home, you felt the rumble of him chuckling.

"Y/N, what are you up to?" He muttered, moving his hand, that was so shockingly gentle for something so large, from it's place in your hair–where it was previously giving a tender scalp massage to try and ease your tension– to your chin, tilting your head up so you could meet his eyes.  

His gorgeous eyes, like pools of warm chocolate filled with adoration that he saved for you.  You reached a hand up and laid a finger lightly on his cherry lips, soft and full, pressing lightly.

"Yuyu, I'm sorry.  You're just…. You're so perfect? How did I ever manage to get your love?" 

Laughter.  Roaring laughter as Yunho hid his face in your neck, dropping a soft kiss with those plush lips. "Darling, I ask myself the same thing everyday when I look at you." 

And as he pulled back up to smile at you with the most tender and sickeningly sweet smile, he found you trapped in your adoration yet again, only this time, he was trapped in his own adoration of you.

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63 notes - Posted April 25, 2022

#4

Ateez as Dads

Seonghwa

The over-protective and strict dad

Probably would want to be a stay at home dad once he retires from Ateez. Definitely if he wasn't in Ateez.

Literally Mr. Mom

Does all the laundry and chores, leaves you with bedtime and diapers though

Overall a very sweet and tender dad

Hongjoong

Very chill dad

Spends a lot of time at the studio so wants to spend free time with the baby having a relaxed and fun time

Does not want to scold

But will if needed. He'll definitely give "that" look to try and tone it down first though

Loves when you and the bebes visit him at the studio, before both of you beg him to come home.

Just honestly a tired simp

Yunho

His energy transfers to his child

You are now left taking care of two crazies

He doesn't stop moving, he and the baby always dancing

That child would be his pride and joy

You see nothing but love and adoration in his eyes

Gladly tires the baby out before bed, hoping to make your job easier

Honestly, seeing you take care of both of them makes him love you more

Yeosang

I thing Yeo would be the cool dad

Teaching his kids to skateboard, play basketball

Definitely the sport dad

Super supportive about everything they do

Not the most affectionate physically, but would show them endless love through his support

I love dad yeosang

San

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67 notes - Posted April 26, 2022

#3

Ateez missing you on tour

Hyung line part 1

Hongjoong

Your phone rang as you were doing your nightly clean up routine, light excitement bubbling up in your gut as you run for your phone which was left behind on your bed. With a muted oomph, opened the face time call, seeing Hongjoong pouting on the screen. Naturally, this elicited a pout of your own, never wanting to see the one you love looking down.

"Joong baby, it's 8:00 am for you, why do you already look so down?" He whines at your soft tone, pushing his bottom lip out further before throwing himself back on his bed.

"Y/N, it's only two weeks in and I'm having withdrawals from your hugsssss." He rolls around slightly, childishly, causing you to giggle.

"Hongjoong, you can do this. And just know when you get back, you'll have as many hugs as I can give waiting!" His lips turned upward, still trying to pout even though your words lifted his heart.

"You know just what to say, y/n. I love you, I miss you so much, and I can't wait to be back home. Just a few weeks." He smiled, before your conversation turned to talking about your day and his concert, as well as sight seeing experiences from the previous.

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106 notes - Posted March 5, 2022

#2

Hii, can i request ateez as boyfriends headcanon, pls? 🤧

Ateez as boyfriends

Seonghwa

Probably the most protective boyfriend ever.

Like not even in the way of being overprotective around other people

Protective over EVERYTHING

"y/n, that's a brand new knife, don't you use it without me there!"

Loves to give you forehead kisses

Not too big into PDA but will gladly hold your hand ALWAYS

Museum dates, expect to be told YOU are the art.

Hongjoong

Very relaxed relationship.

Enjoys being taken care of just as much as he enjoys taking care of you

Not big on going out on too many big dates since he is so tired after studio time.

Just wants to be sit at home, legs tangled together, watching a movie

Nose kisses. Lovessss nose kisses.

Just a soft boi all-around

Yunho

The SOFTEST boy ever.

Loves PDA. Kisses in front of everyone, hand on your waist always.

Literally can't help but putting kisses all over your face any time he gets a chance.

Arcade dates. Will try to hold back when playing games so you can win.

But when it comes to DDR, it is on. No reservations.

You may be his baby, but please baby him 🥺

Yeosang

Another soft boy.

Spends alot of time playing with your hair.

Also enjoys you playing with his hair.

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126 notes - Posted January 2, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Ateez as husbands

Seonghwa

Doting. You(and any mini-hoomans) will always be top priority

He is the type to have to have a SPOTLESS house. (def can't relate)

Stresses fairly easy, but loves when you massage his scalp and just melts

Will make you fancy milk baths with lavender oil and shit.

Honestly just a 10/10 hubby

Hongjoong

He loves you so much

He works. ALOT. And with that being the case, he isn't home much

But when he is, he makes sure to make the days all about together time

He loves when you make a surprise visit to the studio. Likes to go home together after that, knowing he can sleep comfortably next to you

I just know he has an audio file folder lightened "for my person"

Yunho

He is so goofy.

The type to surprise you by shooting a nerf dart at you when you'd least expect it.

Purposefully makes it awkward when he sees you changing.

Begs you weekly for a spiderman marathon

LOVES when you go to practice with him and join in the dancing.

Loves even more when the serious dancing turns into playful slow dancing

Yeosang

He seems very aloof, but it's truly the softest baby

Wants to do little things together at home. Cooking together, self care days, bathing together

Would absolutely take you for a skateboard ride.

And take joy in playing some basketball one on one

Would also like to have a low-key gaming day

He's just a very laid back husband, lines taking things at his own stride

San

He's the baby in the marriage

He wants to be taken care of just as much as he wants to take care of you

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234 notes - Posted June 6, 2022

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[treasure-hwa]

Hello, most of you probably don't know me, but we are in the same family and you were probably adopted by our amazing @cutemaknaegirl

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