#ayitsdani

[danicoro]

and with that i think we r now running chronologically lol

[danicoro]

just got my hair cut for the first time in four years

can't believe i got a whole new head of hair boys!

[danicoro]

posting this here because i know my wife would want me to

[danicoro]

what if i just suddenly came back to and started updating that one canon x oc fic i started back in 2019. the subscribers would probably be like limmy waking up wondering who the fuck i am (if they're even still around tbh)

i did always want to finish that one, tho...

[danicoro]

sometimes i think abt the fact that i'm married to the loml and honestly that's pretty fuckin tight

[danicoro]

Chris and Ellie meet up stateside after their serendipitous first meeting at a nightclub. It’s definitely just a coffee, and absolutely not a date…

[danicoro]

i came home from work today and my wife bought me a birthday cake ;_;

[danicoro]

y'all moving in this climate? in this economy?

i haven't known peace in months

feeling absolutely INSANE and UNHINGED

feral? maybe, but something beyond

really looking forward to finishing up this move and settling into the new place

i'm so exhausted

[danicoro]

the fact that i wrote a fucking resignation letter draft LAST JULY is sending me bro. it's been bad enough for me to DRAFT it almost a year ago and yet here i still am.

it's tough out there, yeah, but also updating resume and trying to fucking dig for scraps is so exhausting. i'm so tired of this rat race, i'm so tired of begging for bare minimum...

[danicoro]

the fact that so many companies/jobs are enforcing RTOs under the guise of "group cohesion" and "team-building" is such bullshit.

i thought y'all paid me to do my job, not come to the office to fucking socialize?

it would probably help if i liked any of my co-workers on a personal level, but we are from SUCH different worlds, and it's exhausting.

hearing the c-suite try to hype themselves up like "we got to see one of our employees buy their first house!" okay great, i live hand-to-mouth on the pittance that you pay me, when do i get to buy a house?

i'll never fucking forget when i ran into my ceo and he asked me how i was doing and at the time i had just found out that my (previous) ll was raising my rent 55% at my next renewal, so i had to move somewhere else because i couldn't afford that, and he attempted to relate to me by mentioning that his nanny had mentioned the same thing to him, that her ll was raising her rent and she was needing to find somewhere else to live.

that shit was fucked on so many levels, and i just remember feeling so fucking perplexed at that... or when i mentioned it to another director when she asked me the same (how are you doing), and she tried to relate by mentioning that she had recently needed to renew her mortgage and the interest rates were much higher now, and i just felt so deflated.

like okay great, glad you guys can ✨relate✨ to my struggle but also, fuck off? you can afford a nanny, you can afford a mortgage. i budget every fucking month just to be able to survive and some months i can't even break even.

and it's not like i don't understand that i have a lot of privilege in this moment; i have a job, that job pays me "enough" to at least pay my rent and bills and buy food, but it galls me that people who earn 3-4x what i do for about 10% of my input have the audacity to "oh yeah, i know exactly what you mean"

i don't know, i just feel so fucking frustrated about everything lately. everything feels so fucking bleak, and i hate feeling like i'm constantly on the verge of a menty b, homelessness, and getting canned for not falling in line all at the same time.

[danicoro]

wow damn i love my wife.

that is all.

[danicoro]

may this type of wretched, rotted employment never find me again

[danicoro]

i don't know how much work i got in me today, boys...

[danicoro]

0 context complaint: while i am grateful to have a job that (more or less) allows me to pay my bills in a time when it seems the economy and job market is so fucking bleak it's enough to bring a bitch to tears, holy FUCK do i wish things were different. both broadly, and personally. i am so fucking tired all the time.

[danicoro]

can't wait to sit in my counselor's office on wednesday yelling and swearing about how angry i am all the time because i keep swallowing down everyone's shit all the time when i should be standing up for myself but here we are!!

(this is specifically in relation to my employment... the rest of my life is honestly p fucking solid but atp i have zeroed in on my employment situation being the most toxic thing i have to deal with on a regular basis so if y'all are into prayers or vibes or w/e would appreciate the good kind for me finding something new that is more suitable for me long-term amen tks)

[danicoro]

the way i have been feeling unbridled rage about my job/work lately :') this is not sustainable but the world and the economy and the job market is in shambles so idk what else to do besides My BestTM while trying to figure out what to do next/instead so i don't constantly feel the desire to walk into traffic!!!