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[myowninsecuritiesb]

A random blog with random feels

It's been almost 8 years since I came on this thing. I need an outlet though. I see how I literally am my worst enemy. I lost my job last month and really, I quit but I haven't been in the same mind set since then. It's been really hard to do the things that I would normally do. For the first time I was forced to leave my Pisces land of delusion and realize I was depressed. When people say you don't want to do the things you enjoy, I never realize how easy it was to slip into that mind. I literally gave every excuse. I didn't walk the dog until afternoon because the sun wasn't shining enough. There's always been so much pressure to do what's right or to make the best choices but honest I've found that living my life and doing what feels the best is my best option. Those right choices always left me with a feeling that I did not do what I wanted to do but had followed someone else's decision.

I went from being a hot girl to being a hot wife. My child is no longer just a child but a teenager. I really want to produce some music, but I feel like I don't have enough to my studio. I'm still grinding at jobs to make the money I need to do the things that I want, and I have grown beyond frustrated with the pattern.

I pray but I don't think I pray enough sometimes.

The random crippling within my soul tells me that all the layers are almost ripped off. I saw a black butterfly today. It flew beside me as i skated down my street. I know that the Woman I am becoming is close. I know I'll love who that is wholeheartedly. But I am indeed growing impatient with myself.

Its cold. Ill keep shining bright.

One of these days this name will be more than in the light.

[stressedcollegekid-blog]

100 Days of Productivity

Day 5, I believe

Yeah, I slacked on this blog, but trust me I’ve been productive!

I’m going home this weekend, and my goal is to study for my Organismal Biology Exam this upcoming Monday, and we will see how that goes.

6 am is class registration for next semester so wish me luck!

[leahrobin]

Back to the Blog

Hello Bloggers,  It has been way to long that I have not written on my Blog and I am happy to say I am inspired by everything I see and the things people share with the world today.  I have been trying to figure out how to share my voice, thoughts, creative ideas, and I realized I have the tools right in front of me: Computer & Brain.  Since I left China in 2014, I moved back to the United States to Seattle and back to NYC.  I realized that when it comes to America for me, I work best in cities that have a lot of people (over 800,000 is good fit for me).  Although, Seattle is so beautiful and smells amazingly fresh everyday - it was too small for me and creatively a bit stifling.  I think being mixed and Black may have something to do with that - For Me, but it doesn’t negate that it is so beautiful.  Point is, I am back in NYC, I’m back blogging, and  excited to write and share my thoughts with everyone!

[sadoldcardinal]

Not really much else to say!