#basically dazai's dead and chuuya paint him and-

[drlqra]

there's a story behind this portrait 😇

and i'm going to gatekeep that story forever <3

[nataliaphantomhivesblog]

Hello! Hope I am not bothering but I wanted to ask: in your post about BSD chapter 109 you mentioned Soukoku dying together eventually and it being hinted at, can you elaborate on that? I mean, I remember the scene in SB with Mori but I do not remember Fifteen very well and where it was hinted at there… Thanks in advance!

Good day, anon! Thank you for your question, I appreciate it:)

Alright so in fiftheen, it's mostly in the subtext of the story.

a good example of this is Dazai's will to live in the fifthteen light novel.

So in the beggining of the story, Dazai is shown to be ultimately bored of life, he only stayed alive to somehow get closer to the human condition, thus, a reason to live yet to be found.

But with the passage of time and nothing catching Dazai off guard or closer to the value of human life, he was basically giving up.

Until Chuuya showed up, of course.

So back to the main point however, Dazai was bored, and when he first met Chuuya, he was still bored.

It was up until the moment that Chuuya kicked the gun right out of Dazai's hands that he got caught off guard and emotionally moved. (Check out the link if necesarry!<3)

Chuuya's impact on Dazai's life is actually so important to the narrative of Fifthteen, paralleling Rimbaud and Verlaine's partnership as well.

It was Chuuya who gave Dazai an intrest in the Port Mafia, not just because of the possibilities of finding meaning through other people, but to find meaning in his partnership with Chuuya.

So, in short, Chuuya helped Dazai find meaning, but honestly, Dazai said it better:

Anyways, it wasn't only Dazai that was battling with a reason to live, Chuuya was too.

In the start of the novel, Chuuya was heavily struggling with his identity, and in order to fill that void, he blindly was loyal to people who constantly overworked him.

It was Dazai who shifted Chuuya's perspective, albiet quite manipulating, it still got Chuuya to realize how he truly wasn't being a leader to the sheep, he was just being used.

I think the scene im painting is sort of evident for die hard bsd fans, Chuuya's (and Dazai's?) verbal confrontation with the sheep:

to make it quick and actually get to the point: Chuuya found a purpose thanks to Dazai and his recruitment to the Port Mafia.

Now you all probably think i'm absolutely off the rails wondering what this have to do with the original question, but i promise, I have a point! Just walk this through with me and you will get it too:)

During Fifthteen, we don't fully see hints of them dying together, but we do see Chuuya and Dazai metaphorically at the brink of death giving each other a reason to keep going through their partnership.

Their reasoning to live is so intrically connected to one another, as well as their dream of persuing the real human condition.

And that's what the subtext of Fifthteen is all about, their partnership bringing a fresh new outlook on something they believed was dead or possibly didn't exist.

But time passes, soukoku's narrative is running out and being "replaced" with shin soukoku's.

Their motivations, their abilities, and their lives are so intertwined that of course, if one dies, the other will follow.

Atleast that's my interpretation of it all! I am not Asagiri and can only assume with what's been shown and hinted so, let's see what he has in store for us<3

[pokemonruby]

thoughts about the finale of the bsd anime since it's my favorite manga and the adaptation has consistently let me down and this was definitely no exception. obviously spoilers so don't read ahead if you aren't caught up.

so, to summarize, it was sorely underwhelming. at least from my perspective. there's a strong possibility that this is not canonical since they actually ran out of material to adapt and this could just be an exclusive ending to tie the anime up (even then, it was a laughably poor finale) so its shortcomings may not be reflected at all in the original product, though we'll still have a few months i imagine to see if that is indeed the case. but the writing was so unspeakably clumsy. fyodor is a criminal mastermind, a threat feared by even ranpo, the smartest character in the series. and yet you mean to tell me that he didn't even realize that chuuya was, what - wearing fake teeth and colored contacts? i call bullshit. i still think dazai, in the manga at least, will pull some trick to squeeze himself out of a death sentence and he isn't actually dead since that would be woefully anticlimatic for his character arc, but i want him to be backed into a corner as well. i want them to back each other into a corner instead of giving dazai the advantage the entire way through since that hardly makes for a compelling battle of wits. but that doesn't even mention all the build-up they've done in regards to fyodor's backstory. sigma knows the truth now due to the information exchange. his ability, his motives. but they don't even address that or even address sigma's fate at that. dazai seemed genuine when he swore he would help sigma escape. he specifically told him "i'll leave the rest up to you," which is redundant if he was in control of the situation the entire time. it feels unfinished and counterproductive. and i know that can be blamed on the allotted time they're allowed per episode but man, it's unfortunate. again i'm really praying that the manga pulls through, since it has the freedom to spin this around and give us the answers to the mystery they've been teasing since fyodor's introduction basically and if he does die, which its quite obvious fyodor will eventually since at the end of the day he is the main antagonist, maybe it'll have some more substance to it as opposed to whatever power of friendship bs we were humbly treated to in today's episode.

surprisingly, the best part of the episode for me was everything with fukuzawa and fukuchi. i thought the way they handled that was actually really well done and it paints fukuchi in a more sympathetic light at least, and fukuzawa's reaction to his death was soul-crushing. something something old man yaoi always prevails. also i'm not addressing whatever happened in the epilogue i think that's just for bad apple part 2 or whatever they're cooking up behind the scenes but it certainly came out of left field.

tldr it was not great, and i'm holding out for asagiri in the coming months with the manga, but if it indeed turns out the same way as it did in the anime... hmm.

[chaosbled]

FUMIYA / @dcfygraviity​ 

            When Chuuya woke up, it was with the vague sensation that his insides had been flash frozen & then microwaved. Every single bone in his body hurt, as though he’d been rolled over by a stampede. As he pushed himself up from the dewy morning grass, his arms quivered, & a roll of nausea washed over him, prompting him to empty the contents of his stomach onto the ground in front of him. Ah, he was covered in blood too, could feel the dried trails that painted his chin down his neck, under his right eye... he rubbed a palm over his ear & pulled it back to find fresh crimson staining his pale skin. Shit. 

            The fight with that nightmarish thing had really done a number on the Executive. True, Corruption had always taken a lot out of him, basically carving out his insides & leaving him feeling like one giant lacerated contusion, but it wasn’t usually this bad. Normally Dazai stopped it before —

            “  ...I used Corruption because I trusted you. Just... get my ass back to the extraction point. ”  he’d rasped as his body finally gave out on him.

            The last thing he heard was an unusually soft voice, “ You got it, partner. ”

            Fuck. He was so fucking stupid. 

            Biting back the sudden emotion that rose in his throat & refusing to acknowledge the tears silently falling down his face, Chuuya forced himself up onto shaky legs & stumbled towards the nearest tree, slumping against it, grateful for a reprieve from the harsh morning sunlight. He fumbled through his pockets before eventually find his cell phone. 7:16am. It was nearly dead. He had at least a dozen missed calls & texts, but there was only one person he knew he could contact for this.

            Unsurprisingly, he heard the Detective answer on the first ring, & felt his shoulders sag with relief.  “ F-Fumi... ” he breathed, his voice gravelly & cracked at the edges. “ Can you... trace my phone to these coordinates an’ come pick me up? Please? I... It’s a long story, but I had t’ use Corruption last night... I can’t move... ”  he trailed off & shut his eyes, dark spots beginning to dance across his vision. 

            A moment later a soft thump could be heard as he dropped the phone into the grass.