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shuckstruck · 2 years

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last post istg i promise this isn’t made in a fit of self-pity i mean it for real these are my for real normal everyday thoughts on my Neurodevelopmental Disorder

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anyways i’m happy for all of u who are comfortable with ur body and ur brains but christ alive i just want to rip my brain out of my skull and cut out all the adhd parts of it. i don’t want anything that comes with it i don’t care for any part of it it doesn’t improve me it makes me worse. i could be so successful and normal and motivated if i didn’t have adhd and instead i’m tired and lethargic and nothing i do is right and everybody blames me for it like i make life difficult for myself and everyone around me on purpose

#i’m thinking a lot about how j forgot my glasses for wicked the show and #i didn’t even cry i wasn’t even sad i just sat there consumed with the feeling of #yeah. yeah this checks out. i WOULD do this.#like of course i tried my hardest. i put my glasses case in my bag hours before #i was so careful not to take them out so i would t lose hem #and then i got there and i went to take them out and they weren’t. there.#and i just felt like such a failure in that moment #such a colossal fuck up i cant even enjoy this thing i spent all day preparing for #be ayse i didn’t bother to open the glasses case #something that nagged at me several times #and i couldn’t tell u why i ignored it

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