#bearbear is 13 this year! ^_^

[kalied0skull]

presents my son. you got any pets? you seem like you'd have insects/reptiles mayhaps

AUGH GOD DO I WISH !!!

it's a dream of mine since i was a wee one (as in, 4 years old) to own a chinese water dragon, but unfortunately it's not easy to get them in my area ... but i have 2 old dogs and a fluffy cat!

unfortunately i only take good pictures of ONE of my dogs, and that's just because gummybear is too damn old to be photogenic anymore 💀

this is bearbear (dog) and toomas (cat) though! he is named toomas because he is TOO MUCH. (directly just, too-"many" in spanish)

i am most definitely a reptile person though. i LOVE lizards so much, and i was obsessed with snakes when i was 10. but i am just as happy with my fluffy guys !! :D

[c0pernicus]

How did you deal with losing a sibling? I don't think I'll ever recover

tbh for me i was really young (about 7/8) and the circumstances surrounding it were kind of set up for a very slow processing time.

not to ramble on forever, but essentially my dad had retired (my parents had me p old, early 40's and early 50's) and my mom, dad, and I were moving from Virginia several states away. my brother was 10 years older than me, had just turned 18, and was planning to stay in virginia with his girlfriend and i believe go to college?

he had p bad asthma, and he ended up getting some kind of pneumonia or lung-based illness very suddenly that got bad really quick while we were finishing packing to move/in the middle of moving. he was taking over the counter medications to help with some of the symptoms, and he went to the doctors and was given a prescription without the doctor telling him to not take any kind of OTC medications with what he was prescribed. it was a big mess of his asthma, the illness, and the mixing medications that caused him to pass in his sleep one night. my dad and i had taken a bunch of stuff to our new house out of state and my mom was in virginia with him when he passed.

because it was already drilled into me that i wouldn't really see him much at all once we had moved, and because i didn't really participate much in his funeral (i don't think they let me see him at the viewing, just when he was buried) it took a lot of years for me to even process the fact that he isn't still in virginia, he's buried down the street. i don't remember a whole lot from that whole part of my life for a big number of reasons, but i do remember having a moment of clarity when i was around 13 or 14 of him being inaccessible to me anymore.

the biggest thing i learned throughout the years (it's been nearly 2 decades since he passed by now) is that there isn't really one answer on how you deal with losing a sibling. i just try to remember him when i can, i wear a necklace i picked out for him before he passed with a bear paw on it (i called him bearbear when i was little) every single day, and i try to get him cake for his birthday (german chocolate with the coconut pecan icing) and sometimes my mom and i will travel or do something on the day of his passing. his birthday is new years, and this past new years i spent an hour on the phone sobbing to my mom at 4am because i forgot to get him a slice of birthday cake this year. it doesn't stop hurting, but it does stop being as devastating and mournful as time passes. visit wherever they're resting, talk to them whenever as if they're there, talk about them positively and reminiscently, if you believe in praying then you can pray to them. listen to their music, write them letters, keep a photo of them in your room or wallet, whatever feels right to you.

this got really long, but i appreciate the opportunity to talk about it even if it was a long time ago. as far as handling their death, do what feels right for you. grief has a bunch of emotional stages and personally ive found they dont always happen in the stereotypical "stages of grief" order that theyre listed in so be patient with yourself and just feel them out. theyll pass. just try to take care of yourself until they do.

[nonbibarry]

Ayyy, got tagged by @thedeceitfulpeacock to do a "get to know you" type thing, so big shout out to them for being super cool! I appreciate it, dude ^^

Nickname: I don't really have any! My gf calls me BearBear tho, which is really cute and sweet ♡

Gender: I'm nonbinary, which I think is really chill of me

Astrological Sign: I'm a Scorpio lol, November birthday for the win

Height: I like to think I'm 5'5, but my doctors say 5'4 an awful lot. Either way, I'm p short

Sexuality: Bi, babey!

Hogwarts House: Ravenclaw

Fav Animals: Dogs, Deer, Cats, Leopard Geckos...It's a p long list actually, so I'll just sum it up with: most

Where I'm From: Good ol' Wisconsin, USA northwoods, it's a blast and a half

Dream Trip: I'd really like to visit Israel someday, but honestly, travel in general is just ♡♡♡

When I made my account: this one in particular I've had for ab a year I think, but I've been on Tumblr since I was 13

Why I made this account: originally it was supposed to be an art blog, but I had no energy for it, so I just browsed, but I developed it to fit my niche mysterycore aesthetic, and I'm loving it tbh

Followers: I have 22 rn, and I appreciate them all ♡♡♡

Tagging: @a-r3pr3ss3d-n3rd

@offical-mothman

@lucid-witch

@owodotmp3

@raccoonstds

@nonbinarytak

@delda14

Aaaaand @karnevil-9 even tho I already know you pretty well, lol