#before I fucKI NG LOSE IT

[zydrateacademy]

Current Activities in Gaming #228

So there is in fact an extra enemies mod for Starfield, and the game's much harder. I haven't even bothered playing on "very hard" yet, just "hard". With leveled enemies and such, the game has some actual level of challenge now. I just got really tired of seeing level 5's and 10's. I don't feel like a pro stealth sniper at all when I can basically sneeze on most enemies without a problem. Stealth sniping is still kind of viable but mostly in the outdoor sections of encounters. Enemies will impotently fire in my general direction but if I'm far enough away they have trouble actually finding me. Interiors are much more difficult, but I imagine once I drop having a follower and utilizing void form more I can lose them as well.

Ultimately, I've barely died in this game at all until installing that mod and I'm okay with this. I have to actually rethink certain encounters and hallways and that's exciting.

Now my FO4 game I made super hard but I also had a modern firearms mod which has pretty crazy damage scaling. Enemies can kill me quickly but I can kill them just as fast. It's different in Starfield while I'm still dealing with vanilla weaponry, enemies are semi-spongey (I can usually 2-3 tap basic enemies but boss/veteran enemies with multiple health bars take a while to deal with) so enemies can kill me quickly but I can't in turn do the same to them. So now I'm outnumbered and outdamage'd, but again it just forces me to rethink encounters and I'm spamming my starborn abilities a lot more than I did before. Finally putting those essences to use when before I'd be collecting dozens. They're a real resource now.

So, so many of my problems with the game were fixed just by adding more enemies. As I knew it would, and usually does in Bethesda games. Stealth is a lot more fickle as usual but as long as my ranged capabilities stay to par, it's fine.

I also had to get a mod that allowed me to continually craft and upgrade the quality of my guns to keep them competitive. But the values are still fairly vanilla, it's not OP 2-shots-you're-dead like Modern Firearms, but it helps with the scaling issue of enemies staying at my level but my Beowulf being stuck at 200 damage for every NG+. As usual, mods fix everything.

I said in the comments of one of my previous posts that I'd report back to how I feel about Ryujin. I did it again and void form basically makes the more annoying bits of that final quest fairly trivial. I had much less problems and glitches with it the second time around. Seems odd to design a whole faction questline around the powers, which you can technically do before you discover them. I'll have to do a self-imposed challenge some day without void form but the problem is... I've already walked that road. It sucked ass. That said I only used it on the one or two problem spots from before, I still just classically sneaked through most of it, but it's still a bit beyond me how they expect me to do that last stretch to grab that prototype (schematics) without void form because there's shit all over that room and some of the guards don't patrol. I know we're supposed to use manipulation but that only works half the time because the interfacing with it is super fucky.

Interestingly I've discovered something else. I bought it a while back before I had computer upgrades because I just wanted it available, but was worried. Most screenshots make the game look like dogshit, but none of them really did it justice. There's weather conditions that can mute the colors but most towns and areas have their own palette, so it's not a homogeneous blur of grey and white as you play. I found places like Neon and Gregarin(sp?) to be fairly vibrant in its own right, while New Atlantis can seem a bit muted in comparison. Overall it's not too terrible looking game as you play it, but looking at static screenshots could give that impression.

Currently my main save file is on her +3. First was the normal, second playthrough I was making some different choices while recording it for youtube. Third was the speedrun MQ skip to see what it was like and how much exactly it skips. Turns out Sarah will literally just hand you like half of the artifacts (like seven of them or so, in truth) after a certain point because you just tell Constellation where they are. I had her as a follower even and she just had them on hand which was pretty funny. You have to gather the first five yourself but as one quest, not as a chain. Anyway the whole MQ can be done in about an hour, not counting the temple runaround for power upgrades and I also didn't do much prepwork. Basically ran around with a decent semi-auto Kodama I picked up from Constellation's basement and burned through it.

My current "fourth" playthrough is my "whatever I feel like doing". I have spent many many hours just doing surveying and was almost getting ASMR tingles from it. I say in my youtube recording that planet surveying is very much a "mood" thing and not something you should really go out and do on purpose, just something to vibe with. That said it can be fairly decent early-game experience or something to go do to eke out an extra level or two if you feel like you absolutely need something before you can progress. I understand how and why people might find it boring, but nothing about it is required.

I might honestly do a lot of surveying on a total new game, which I might have to do once mod tools come out and everything gets updated to a proper structure. I fear I might also have to reinstall and just burn-delete everything I have right now. But it's fine because I know the flow of the game better, now.

One point of order though, I've done both Ryujin and UC multiple times and it seems the factions aren't terribly rewarding on their own. Ryujin only gives this decent stealth outfit that gives 25% to your stealth which is decent, but you lose everything in Unity so everything factions reward is temporary. UC pays fairly well but their best reward comes from their very first quest. Complete it and you get access to one of the best ballistic ship weapons in the game. I don't know what else they give other than decent chunks of credits every now and then.

At some point soonish I'll actually try out the Crimson Fleet and Freestar Rangers. Gonna go google their rewards.

[redmaples]

genshin spoilers // 

me for a year: I hate whopperflowers, I will literally fight any boss 1000 times before I fight another whopperflower, I literally can’t stand them this event, giving me the most monstrous fuck you ever: 

[fishingformoncy-blog]

   G U Y S  … … . . 

[zerot0all]

Forbidden Fruit | M

[Oneus -1- ]

-My Muse-

.RAVN POV.

The sounds echoed loudly in the studio. Her breathing causing sudden goosebumps to come alive on my skin as I remember last night.

Last night, I was drunk on her like her very addicting scent. Sad part was, I don’t ever wish to get sober.

Everyones eyes grew as the soft sighs erupted from the speakers. I was speechless. I can’t believe that file was on my computer. And to make matters worse, Seoho was eyeing me like a dog. Like he’s about to rip my throat out. 

How could I do this to him...he has feelings for her too.

“Is that… is that y/n?” Seoho whispered as the sounds got louder. Fuck. I tightened my jaw, wondering how I was going to get out of this.

“What.. no.” I simply stated taking a quick glance at y/n who sat frozen on my seat. she pressed the wrong button and now our session from last night was a song that everyone was listening too.

maybe if I kept denying it, we could both get out of this unharmed. but I knew better... we knew better.

y/n turned her head slightly to catch my eye.

we both knew this was bad- bad for us, bad for the group and bad for Seoho.

“Ravn. Oh god… yes.” “You like that huh?” “Yes. Yes.” 

Our voices were clear as day and I knew what was coming next. My fucking downfall. “Look at me y/n, I want to watch your eyes rollback as you cum!” Fucking great. 

My eyes shut roughly. How could this happen? Did I press the button, or did her perfectly round ass do it? Then again, why the hell did I fuck her on top of the console?

Seoho’s eyes seemed to flare at the revelation, I can tell he wanted to say something. Too soon were our thoughts cut off.

“You had sex with noona... i-in the studio?” Xion looked petrified as he started to look around the couches. as if he was going to find some more proof, like as if our voices blaring through the speakers wasn't enough.

I was stuck, I didn't know what to say and to say as the leader I should have been more careful or professional.

fucking with the staff, even if we are all friends was bad news. 

Leedo coughs, breaking the tension that was now being aimed at me- mostly from Seoho.

“How about we all take five downstairs in the cafe, yeah?” he intervened and I couldn't be happier for his timing. Leedo sent me a, ‘fix this shit’ glare before opening the studio door and ushering them out.

but him... Seoho took longer to leave. his eyes, besides being blazing with anger towards me- his leader-his brother... he seemed disappointed.

I failed them... I failed him.

and I failed my muse.

**

Y/n and I were in an intimidating silence once everyone was gone, I barely breathed and she barely looked at me.

“Ravn,” her soft voice spoke up, quickly reminding me of her sighs that escaped her plump lips last night. watching her in ecstasy was a movie, its like I have her image burned into my mind.

I'm fucked.

I glanced at her as she stood up, her hands held up at her chest. the pain was evident in her face, I was able to see fear also.

it could be one of two things-

1- if word gets out, she could get fired.

or

2- the guys wouldn't want a friendship with her anymore.

y/n and her sister have done nothing but be some of the most amazing assistants that have been added to our entourage in a long time. we can't afford to lose them.

I can't lose her.

“Did you see his face?” She goes on, her eyes water as I go to her. I knew she saw Seoho’s reaction, but its not like she knew about his feelings... right?

“Its okay y/n, he will understand like the rest.”

“He probably hates me.” she lets a tear slide down her cheek, the agony was tormenting me. but why was she in so much pain?

“Y/n, do you have feelings for Seoho?” I question.

her tears stop as her eyes finally meet mine, her dark eyes are captivating. she bites her bottom lip as she nods weakly.

“I have feelings for the both of you.” she confesses completely throwing me back a few steps. I'm not sure how I feel about that, should we have not had sex? how can someone have feelings for two people?

“Please don't over think this...” she goes on, her voice still delicate from the hurt.  her eyes once again flash with a need so profound, so addicting that I am willing to get on my knees for her.

I will do whatever my beautiful muse asks of me.

“I think I've got an idea.” I state.

she cocks her head, unaware that I am willing to bend over backwards for her. she looks confused but I don't want my little muse to worry anymore.

anything to see my beautiful muse happy.

“Do you trust me?” I question.

“Yes.”

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Some doodles i did today! It’s older!paladins or something (around 10-15 years older maybe? Idk)

Now there’s a possibility you didn’t recognize Lance and you’re like “why the Fuck does he look like ThAt” so here are some details!

So like this is a kind of story I made while I was supposed to be productive. Idk the exact definition of AU so I’m not sure you can call it like that; I just call it the possessed chicken duck à l’orange

Lance is blind (*hot damn shouted in the distance*)

Most of the scars, like Pidge’s one (which is an explosion's scar) come from the event when Lance got blind

All the guys got a beard just because

Right before losing is eyesight, Lance lost his memory

Keith cut his mullet. He says it’s because it was getting annoying, but everyone has seen how Lance has an habit of petting his hair and making comments

Lance insists on having the greatest hairstyle of all, even if he can’t see it.

Without the greyscale, Hunk looks like Guy Fieri I s2g it's terrible

Those are dreadlocks btw, and he ties them in a bun

The two scars near Lance’s eyes were made by himself

I can’t draw Shiro for shit. I’m sorry Shiro :(

Ok Lance got fucki ng abducted. That’s the fucking plotwist. He basically got caught because that’s a secret but yeaah and then when he came back (how? Secret) he was amnesiac because secret. And THEN after at some point he became blind because of some REALLy twisted and fucked up stuff that I’m not going to tell you and there’s a lot of angst and hurt because that’s what I do baby and that’s why he looks slike a kicked puppy. I’m not telling everything because there’s a possibility I do a kind of webcomic about it? Idk but if you’re interested do tell me bc i won’t ever find the motivation if not AHAHAHdamnit