#bestie i don't think you understand how much i am ready to read this chapter

[archived-and-moving]

hey hi hello tobi! because you've been so sweet about the wings au, now that it's done and I'm doing dialogue prompts to tide me over for nanowrimo (they're on my blog), I wanted to offer you the opportunity of first pick if you'd like!

if there's something you like out of the lists I chose, or another idea you had, I'll focus on that one first! there is, of course, absolutely no pressure to do so at all. but I wanted to offer as a thank you :)

Quil I can't tell you how incredibly sweet this is!! My face really just went :O.

I would. Love to offer a prompt (this might take a minute for me to answer because I'm indecisive hold please. Actually this doesn't matter to you about that bc you're already reading this) But dude this is actually so cool!!

My brain is constantly plagued by previously mentioned wings au, so I think I want a prompt from one of my favorite dynamics that you write, Sophie and Tam.

Along w/ this prompt if it's chill:

“ jeez, i don’t even wanna know how you got that battle wound there; sit down and let me fix it up, won’t you? “

Seriously dude this is so cool, and I really feel like I should be the one thanking you! I haven't actually read the last chapter yet, (as all of my teachers have apparently coordinated to make each day of this week living hell) and I really want to save most of my comments as something I can actually leave on Ao3.

But to shorten it a little bit; thank you so much for making such a wonderful story. The twists were delightful, the characters and their interactions were fabulous, and I'm in love with the world you built that is everything and nothing like canon all at the same time. Thank you for making something so marvelous and being so kind when I told you about all the things I love.

I literally love interacting with you so much, (it always puts a smile on my face) and I cannot believe I was lucky enough to step into your brain for over a year. Thanks so much for the journey <33

[here2bbtstrash]

alright besties~*~ i feel i owe you an update so let's strap in, shall we?

TLDR: the final chapter of LDOMLT is not gonna be ready by 1/31. i don't know when it will be done, but i do know that i want to take my time with it and not force it. this means you're going to see me post other writing before i post chapter 11. if that makes you sad, i'm sorry (and also: me too lol). LDOMLT is not dead, it's not cancelled, it's not even on hiatus. i just can't say when the last chapter will be posted right now. once i feel like i can commit to a date, i will shout it from the damn rooftops lmao. but right now, i need to switch gears.

i hope you can understand or at the very least respect this choice, and please know that i love you all so so much. i just wanna give you the best ending possible, and as it turns out, that shit takes time!

longer version under the cut 💜

siiiiiiigh. i didn't want to have to make this post 😭 but y'all, i am really, really blocked. i kept telling myself that i would figure it out, magically get unblocked (it's happened before!) and be able to meet my 1/31 date (or if not 1/31, then at least 2/5...... hello grammys 👀). but right now neither date seems like a possibility, if i'm honest with myself. in part because i've got a whole stew of personal life shit going on as well! (some of it not so good, and some of it ..... very good lol 😏)

and the way i've been spinning my wheels over this is starting to feel unproductive and honestly, not great for my mental health (i **cried** last night because i was so frustrated that i couldn't make words happen. we'll blame that one on my period but 😩 omg! tears!!!)

so... what do i do? well, i actually feel like playing that ask game the other day made me realize: i need to write other things right now. amazing how the moment i put down this chapter 11 draft, ideas and words just flew out of my brain so easily!! and i have all these other wips i'm dying to get to, but i kept telling myself "not until we finish chapter 11", and i think that's gotten me into a bit of a mental bind 😞

so, as previously hinted at in past posts - i am gonna move forward with ~*~jihope month~*~ in february and allow myself to work on other things 💜 i'll make a separate announcement for that soon, but i'm very excited to dedicate a whole month to writing and reading about my two best boys 😩 and i'll be taking drabble requests too, which i think is gonna help me find my footing again creatively ✨

i know it might be disappointing to see me post writing that isn't LDOMLT chapter 11, so let me preemptively say: i get it 😞 and i'm sorry 😞 and i really really REALLY 👹 also wanted this chapter to be out before february. but the muse has other plans! and i just have to make peace with that even if i hate it lmao. i hope you all can understand where i'm coming from, and if you can't understand it, i hope you can at the very least respect it 💜

to be clear: i'm not gonna stop work on this chapter, but i'm also not gonna force it. if i manage to unblock and get it finished in february, i'll post it in february! (sorry to jimin and hobi lmao) but i don't want to try and hold myself to yet another date only to watch it zoom by with my chapter still unfinished, because that shit is depressing lmao. so right now, i cannot give you any kind of timeline on when ch11 will come. only that it will, and that i'm never ever gonna give up!! 💪

i also hope you can understand that i won't be answering asks about when chapter 11 is coming, and imma be swift with the block button if anyone tries to guilt me about this decision 💜 because i love y'all endlessly, but let us not forget that i do this shit for free, on top of a full-time job and the rest of my life (and now also on top of getting laid irl 🎉)

however, i have no doubt that 99.9% of y'all are going to be nothing but kind and supportive about this 🥺🥺🥺 i've already gotten so many lovely asks and comments and messages (not all of which i've replied to 💀) and i will never find the proper words to tell you how much i appreciate them. when you tell me to take my time and not stress, that you'll wait as long as it takes, that you want me to rest and take care of myself. it means so much and idk what i did to deserve such wonderful people and friends reading my work - all i can say is thank you thank you thank you 🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️

so yeah 😩 not the announcement i wanted to make, but it's the one i have to make right now. writing is so hard sometimes 😭 but i am determined to give this series an ending that i'm proud of and satisfied with! it just needs a little more time to get there. 💜

[spacecowboysfrommars]

dude I am SO EXCITED for your new hydra Peter story, I literally might start shrieking at you in asks again T_T like fully dependent on my workload and how successfully I can pry tumblr out of my unhealthily tumblr-addicted hands but- !!!!!!!!!!

please don't think I haven't read your other stories too btw. Like you should assume I'm always at a base level of Insane for your writing. but oh my god. Peter being hurt and dependent on Tony and them developing a father-son relationship and Tony healing from his own shit because this kid needs him is so much my jam oh my GOD-

that first chapter! [SPOILERS for anybody who hasn't read it yet]

but oh my god Peter not knowing what a blanket is! <3 bby!!!!!! and Tony being so soft with him, even while he's hurting over the other avengers and pepper and ross being a dick and-

Does Peter actually speak/understand English? Does he know who Tony is? Will there be lab days in our future where we get to see Peter being a genius and Tony being impressed??? Will the other avengers eventually come back? (ngl if they do, they best be ready for a WORLD of hurt from me, idkb, personally, for leaving Tony like that. My guy's self-hate ramblings are so not reality. They have a LOT to answer for >:( in this house we think peter deserves to punch steven grant rogers in the Face)

I'm so excited to read them getting closer, depending on and trusting each other more after they've both been burnt so bad. Learning that they each are actually worthy of love thx, since neither of them probably believe that right now.

tldr I am HYPE for this story. even if I have to ban myself from tumblr again please know that I will probably still be frothing at the mouth every chapter you post. damn.

HDISOKQHEYDH my bestie idkb is back for a few seconds 🥺

And to answer your question YES, there’s SO MUCH cacw-based angst coming up so GET EXCITED. Love you miss you <333

[threeletterslife]

I have the luckiest timings I swear to god because you actually DID tag me in chapter 9, but tumblr didnt give me the notification. I just so happened to go on my dash (after a week of not checking tumblr!!) and saw that you had uploaded it. I don't know how I acquired these powers but I will treasure them

anyway chapter 9 besties!! let's see how you mess with my heart today </3

omg straight off the bat with an interrogation scene :0

two seconds and she's already said something witty. y/n, marry me please 😭

Oh, I get why they're doing the whole interrogation thing but seeing y/n stutter just makes me feel so bad :( I don't want her to doubt herself after this, poor baby, she was already so confused and distressed when she first arrived, I don't want her to go through that again :((

It's starting to get into your head — who do i have the fight, say the word? lieutenant or general? because I will gladly punch either, forget the fact that I have a crush on both of them

SHES OVER THINKING THINGS I KNEW THIS WOULD HAPPEN YOONGI BACK TF UP BEFORE I

No because this is making me nervous too??? I know they're just acting but my nerves are 📈📈

WAIT THE NECKLACE COULD BE- OHHHHHHH I KNEW THERE WAS A CHANCE SHE COULD BE A SPY WITHOUT KNOWING IT (but pls don't say that in front of them istg)

They're both right, she broke so easily. I feel so bad for her :((( but i understand, I would also be an absolute mess

BAHAHAH NOT YOONGI MAKING FUN OF HER THE SECOND ITS OVER "I... don't know" — HES SO WRONG FOR THAT BUT ITS SO FUNNY

I agree with lieutenants theory!! I think she was originally a spy, but lost her memories and started to work for solaria and

HOLY SHIT I JUST REALISED SOMETHING I'M GONNA PAUSE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE CHAPTER I NEED TO CHECK SOMETHING BRB

OMG OMG OMG I WAS RIGHT HOLY SHIT MY HEART IS RACING RIGHT NOW I CANT BELIVEE I FIGURED IT OUT I LOVE YOU MUAHHH

I went to the main haracter list and her birthplace is literally the Kingdom of Darlae I feel so STUPID for not thinking about it before but this basically confirms teh theory (I mean unless she defected before? But it's more likely that she's a spy)

Now that my heart has stopped racing let's continue

HOLY SHIT THERES A DARLAREAN PRISONER??? NVM MY HEART IS RACING AGAIN

Y/N BABY DONT GO CLOSE

YOU DONT UNDERSTAND I'M TOO SCARED TO READ ON, WHAT IF SHE GOES CLOSER SND HE RECOGNIZES HER???? I DONT WANNA READ ON I'M JUST WAITING FOR SOMETHING BAD TO HAPOEN

“I swear on fucking Guseul’s heart once I get out, I’m gonna kill you all!” — on the other hand this was very funny to read

I'm still not reading forward my heart is racing rn i don't wanna see what happens next 😭😭

NONONO CHANA DONT DO THIS TO ME I'm so scared to read more… what if i just leave it here and pretend nothing happened???

Literally why am I so scared just READ it but AHHH

boxy grin????? BOXY GRIN???? TAEHYUNG????

TAEHYUNG STOP SMILING AT HER GODAMMIT THATS GONNA CAUSE SO MANY QUESTIONS DONT MAKE HER LIFE HARDER

and now taehyung is horrified??? Shit he probably thinks she's betraying him even though she has no idea what's going on NOOOOOO

"Are you rehearsing a play out there?” — the fact that all yoongi has to do is say one line and I calm down?? I'm not talking about y/n I'm literally literally about me, my nerves were SKYROCKETING and then he says this and I calm. The POWER this man holds over me

I might send another ask because i have so many thoughts fumbling through my head right now so be prepared for that maybe but like AHHHHHH I WANNA SCREAM NAHHHH WUSHSBSHDHHSHSHDHDBSJDBDJDVDJDGDUDHUDDHJDBDBDJDHDHDHD

MY HEART IS GOING TO BEAT OUT OF MY CHEST AND LIKE

I have so much to say, get ready for another ask (maybe today, maybe tomorrow, idk) whenever I figure my own thoughts out

Otherwise great work on the chapter today, Chana!! 10/10 it stressed me the fuck out, brilliant

MUAH <3

YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I SCREAMED WHEN I FIRST READ THROUGH THIS LOLOL

i can't believe tumblr is being such a hater. i literally TRIPLE-CHECKED this time to see if i included the taglist 😭😭 and then tumblr just decides it doesn't wanna tag anyone :') rip. BUT SOMEHOW YOU STILL CAUGHT THE FIC IN TIME??? it's a superpower indeed

LMFAO I'M SCREAMING. THE MENTAL TURMOIL YOU HAD TRYING TO DEFEND MY GIRL FROM YOUR TWO OTHER FAVORITE CHARACTERS PLEASE

THIS CHAPTER JUST DIDN'T LET YOU ALONE 😭😭😭 (though i can neither confirm nor deny ANYTHING)

yoongi has a *magical* way of making you feel calm with just one line. in fact, he can make me calm with just his presence 🥰 king <3 the power this man holds over ALL of us (including yn LMFAOO)

THIS CHAPTER IS WILD YES. I KNEW IT WOULD BE WILD WHEN I WROTE IT. I WAS CACKLING LMFAOOOO

thank you so much for your wonderful commentaries and thoughts as usual!!!! i enjoyed reading through them so much 😩😩 AND I'M SORRY THIS CHAPTER STRESSED YOU OUT SO MUCH FJSDLKFJLSDFJ (to be fair, it stressed me out to write it too 💀💀)

AND AS USUAL, THANK YOU FOR READING AND HAVE A WONDERFUL REST OF YOUR DAY <3333

[borathae]

Y'know everytime I think I can't love Yoongi more than I already do. A new chapter comes and I am falling even deeper. In an overall amazing story, he is the cherry on top.

At least the Sanguis are together.

Babe, please we know like him more than you let us know. This is just the denying your feelings part in your epic enemies to lovers story.

Yoongi is the definition of hard shell soft core.

And he is playing the piano, just let me listen to him play 24/7

I am proud of her for swallowing her pride, for apologizing wholeheartedly.

I am not completely happy tbh that she wants something in return.

Imagine the pain of almost losing her after opening your heart for her. And just imagining how this would've affected him. Imagine the grief, he would have experienced. It pains me so much.

It's the mature way he talks about how he felt. I love it.

Finally she is in his lap, I swear I would snatch it from her if she denied the offer.

I hope (but I am hopeful) she will learn from this.

He is making her so comfortable.

Ahh it's a shopping date at the garden center.

Sibi, I love the way you describe music in all your stories. It's so subtile and it just makes you feel. And it sets the atmosphere like nothing else. It always reminds me of my love for Sonata Cantabile where I first recognized it❤️❤️

Pick a reward. Ma'am you could have requested everything. Don't get me wrong I still like Tae a lot but right now I feel my tendencies slightly shifting. She really denied a night full of pleasure. Who are you? But if she doesn't want, I am always ready😌 Let's get it.

I get no satisfaction from it, can he please marry me already?

I love their affectionate 'play'

sparkling eyes, I am melting my friend melting

I really hope it's not an act. Please don't use him.

A kiss omg

He is showing so much tenderness after so many years of not receiving any affection.

And this softness

I am going to be honest when I first read this scene, I wanted her to stay. She should enjoy her time with him.

Please don't break his heart please.

This comment made him realize that he can't compete with Tae. He thinks she will never see him as a lover. Cries😭

Does she really not suspect what Yoongi feels? Please do it soon.

For a second I thought Tae escaped.

She is such a caring person.

I still love their moments together. There is something about them which just fits together perfectly.

I am so glad he has her. He would be lost without her.

They somehow make their talks so meaningful. An understanding for each other always.

No, this is so sweet.

Finally we are closer to finding Joon.

Someone needed to tell him that.

Despite everything she just stays. Their love is so strong.

I wish Jimin would have got his second chance😭

And love getting to know more about him.

Jin as Jack the Ripper?😲🤯 Your mind wow.

I am mourning him too.

Hopefully she frees him with Yoongi and not behind his back.

What a chapter. I love those emotional heavy chapters. I am so excited for Wednesday, I can't wait😍

🌟

Honestly though? I feel you? ahahhaha like I actually didn't plan on making Yoongi such a loveable character but here we are now gngngn

Babe, please we know like him more than you let us know. This is just the denying your feelings part in your epic enemies to lovers story.

FAFJDJAIEF BEST PART OF ENEMIES TO LOVERS AFDMFMADMF

Sibi, I love the way you describe music in all your stories. It's so subtile and it just makes you feel. And it sets the atmosphere like nothing else. It always reminds me of my love for Sonata Cantabile where I first recognized it❤️❤️

THANK YOU SO MUCH AAAAH!!

I am going to be honest when I first read this scene, I wanted her to stay. She should enjoy her time with him.

you and me both besties ofmmgmm I seriously was aching when I made her leave liKE PLEASE STAY WITH YOONGI LET HIM MAKE LOVE TO YOU ALL NIGHT OMGG

This comment made him realize that he can't compete with Tae. He thinks she will never see him as a lover. Cries😭

S T O P oMFG 😭😭😭

ALSO OFMMG I AM ALSO SO EXCITED FOR WEDNESDAY!! THE CHAPTER IS ONE OF MY FAVES!! LOTS OF PLOT AND CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT AND SO MUCH YOOONGIGIIGIG 😔💜

[guigz1-coldwar]

'Enraged' : New chapter for "Redemption in a Spirit in a Cold War" is out !

'Enraged'

"I'm fighting for the good side, protecting the innocents from Perseus threat and anyone that can hurt them !"

Chapter Summary : After Garrett sacrified himself to save her life, Yirina is ready to unleash hell on every Naga's men and Perseus soldiers in the whole region before someone familiar came in.....

To read it on AO3, click here !

Words : +3400

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I lost Garrett...an friend that was believing in me since the first day we met an month ago thanks to Park and I wasn't able to save him from falling to his death, sacrifing himself so I could live further to fight but nothing will be the same now, not after what happened. I lost him and there's no way I can bring him back....he's dead. Park's long-time friend was no more, it will be so hard for me....to explain his death to her and to Song. I could still hear his last words, the same one Lazar said to me before his death....'Take care of Park'....the same...words....echoing in my head.

Right now, I was in an bigger rage after killing those two bastards who tried to check for any survivors at the crash site and meet me alive, blinded by the rage. I looked around me, hearing no one coming after I taunted Naga over the radio but where I was going to go right now ? Half of my equipment were in that chopper, my MP5 was gone, leaving me only with my M1911, some throwing knifes and the ballistic knife Garrett gave to me before leaving the base and that was it, nothing else.

The map I was using was on an empty seat until the helicopter crashed, meaning that I have nothing to guide me in this jungle and that I was fucking lost in that place with nowhere to go. I couldn't stay here awaiting the reinforcements to arrive as it would be Naga's men that will arrive first and staying here would be too dangerous, I couldn't risk that but I was so enraged that I was preferring to calm down before actually starting to move but it will never go away, it wasn't going to go until I got my hands on Naga's neck....

After an while to stay in that place, I finally got myself decided to move to check the bodies of the two guys I killed, trying to found some piece of informations that could help me to guide myself in the jungle and join back the others.

"You got to have something." I mumbled in an angry voice as I was checking the second body, the one I stabbed multiples time after I did the first one, finding nothing useful for me. "Come on." I chuckled in anger before I remove myself from the body, having like for the first one, find nothing else, only the radio I took from him was going to be useful to know about Naga's men whereabouts in the sector. "Why is nothing helping me ?" I whispered to myself, head down in defeat.

"Seems kinda lost here." Someone said in an clear voice behind me, causing me to quickly draw my M1911 from my holstler to aim at that direction....

"Adler ?" I said as I was seeing him...dressed in some black Perseus military suit, standing in front of me in an well shape despite an new beard and holding an submachine gun in his hands : an LC-10, I believe. "How ?" I added in an very silent voice.

"Guess that I was very tenacious against Perseus." He replied, sounding proud of himself as I lowered my gun off him, still shocked to see him here.

"And...and that ?" I pointed to his suit, unusual to have him wear that thing.

"Oh, that ?" He looked at his suit before looking back at me. "Stoled it from an prick during my escape from Naga's HQ." He finally responded to me but I was very curious about how he managed to escape that place.

"How did you manage to escape ?" My thoughts came out of my mouth literally, too late to back down.

"They kept their guard down, allowing me to make an move." He told me, checking his LC-10 mag before looking at me with narrowed eyes. "You're looking rather suspicious, Bell." He said, making my eyes go wide.

"Wait...why are you still calling me Bell ?" I demanded in an very serious voice, not understanding that sudden change.

"Why that question ?" He sniffed, almost laughing without me as I was clenching my fists. "I saw your helicopter crash from afar, is everything good ?" He asked me, brutally changing the subject.

"I....no...I'm the only survivor...my friend...he...he sacrified himself to make me live." I responded, mixed between my rage and my sadness, thinking about that moment.

"I'm sorry about your friend." He expressed but I could see through his voice that there were something wrong, like always.

"Like if you were sorry about anything with me." I tried to joke, walking to retrieve the throwing knife I launched on the first guy I killed.

"It's not the moment !" Adler exclaimed, seriously as he was looking not sure to get next to me.

"Oh hell yeah, it's the fucking moment to talk about it !" I raised my voice against him and even if he was true in his words, I wanted to know things. "I know too much about you to tell if you're lying or saying the truth, how much time you told the truth to me ?" I demanded, taking the throwing knife in where I put the others.

"We don't need to discuss about this, Bell." He repeated.

"Don't...fucking...call me....Bell !" I yelled, almost going to draw my M1911 again, not hesitating to shoot him in sight.

"I can't do an thing about it and you too !" He affirmed in an sure voice, still looking at him with narrowed eyes, ready to jump around his neck.

"What do you mean ?" I questioned him, interested in his last words.

"Well, to start, you're proclaiming that you're not longer Bell." He started, taking an breath and turning his head around for an few seconds to check the surroundings. "But you're wrong, Bell is still in you and you know that." He continued.

"Yes." I breathed.

"See ? You can't remove Bell from you and it's defining you." He added to his statement. I wasn't moving at all during his words as in my head, I was struggling to remove his words from it...I'm no longer Bell. "My memories are living in you and you can't back down."

"Your memories ? Yes, clearly to fuck me up, saying that I was your 'bestie' from Vietnam." I exclaimed, spreading my arms to make him look around. "You could have know that I was defecting but instead, you make me live hell."

"You weren't talking at all !" He confirmed, seeing him holding his LC-10 firmly.

"And why I wasn't talking, uh ?" I asked him "Tell me !" I added but he wasn't responding at all, making me draw my M1911 but not aiming against him even if I wanted to do it.

"I can't tell you why, Bell." He replied, still adressing me as 'Bell'.

"Don't..."

"Call you Bell ?" He guessed my words, cutting me, knowing that I was going to ask about it. "I told you, I can't do that, you're Bell and you can't change it." He affirmed again as I was making that angry face towards him.

"I can kill you right now, you know." I stated to him, holding my M1911 in my right hand.

"But we both know you will not do it." He admitted and...yeah...even with everything, I couldn't let myself to pull the trigger as an normal person will do. "See, you're hesitating but you will not do it." He continued, almost smiling to my face.

"You...you're right." I confessed in defeat, wondering why I wasn't pulling that damn trigger against him, he stoled my life, my future and I couldn't do it.

"Listen." He breathed, taking an look around. "I'm your only hope to get out of this place and join the others." He told me in an serious voice. "So, grab one of the AK-47 those pieces of trash used and follow me."

"Follow you ?" I raised an eyebrow to him, putting my M1911 away again for the second time. "I rather go on my own way instead of having you around." I said, giving my thoughts to him.

"And not avenging your friend ?" He told me, stopping me in my moves as I was going to go away in an different direction. "You don't want to kill the bastard who shot down that helicopter ?" He added, making me look back at him and he was right. I was so stupid to go on my own way.

"Because you know your way around ?" I demanded.

"Bell, I did the Vietnam War, I know every part of this jungle." He replied, bragging himself about his exploits. "I can feel the rage inside of you, you should follow me...to express your anger on those Perseus soldiers." He continued, slowly moving towards me. "You also did this war, remember ?" He moved to get next to the stabbed guy, tapping his feets on the AK-47. Why is he still sounding like if he wasn't giving an fuck about who I am in reality. "So, grab it and we're on our way to stop Naga." He then start to move away from the body before stopping next to an tree, awaiting for me.

"Okay, I will." I whispered, resigning to walk next to the stabbed body to take his AK-47 and the few mags he was having with him. "Let's go kill these fuckers." I affirmed after I check the mag that was on the gun.

"Good to see the Bell I know." He said, still making me angry in the inside to heard that name before I start to follow him away, feeling that rage growing inside of me.

I was still curious about how he succeed to escape Naga's HQ and how he managed to get this far from its location without been spotted by anyone and even the others, why did he joined me and not the others ? When I asked him about this, he wasn't either responding or he was saying that it was not important for me to know about it since he was there. All of that by still walking through the enormous Laotian jungle with him, extremely calm about the situation while me were enraged inside, ready to brutally slaughter Naga's men one by one until I found myself facing the man in person.

And during all our walk inside the jungle, I could still hear Garrett's voice in my head, saying his last words over and over again but also now, he was asking me to kill them all, kill every person that's working with Naga and that's an promise, no one was going to get out of here alive from the Perseus side....no...one ! As I was still in my thoughts, Adler stopped, having heard an distant screaming not so far from us and we quickly move to its direction before hiding behind some rocks to see who screamed.

In fact, it was one of us, probably someone from Rivas scout team, having been taken captive by two members of Naga's cartel and we couldn't risk to let him like that so with Adler, I decided to make use of my ballistic knife against the first guy and for an first try, I did good, hitting the guy right at his heart, making him fall on the ground before I move out from cover to launch an throwing knife to the last guy but he somehow managed to avoid that knife from me before I started to charge him.

I threw myself on him at his chest, falling on his back as I was quickly moving my right hand to grab my knife on my boot to stab the guy but he succeeded to block my attempts to touch him with the knife until I tapped the knife very hard with my other hand, breaking his control over me and managing to kill the guy, freeing me from him before I got my attention towards the man we just rescued.

"Thanks for the help !" I said in an low voice to Adler who was at an few meters from us before I kneeled behind the tied soldier. "You're okay ?" I asked him.

"Shit, I thought my time was passed." He replied, sounding relieved as I was cutting the ropes around his hands. "You're from the helicopter that crashed ?" He demanded and I nodded.

"You were with Rivas ?" He nodded to my question.

"Yeah, we were ambushed, an part of the team went immediately KIA, the other part was dispersed around the jungle while the others with Rivas went back to the LZ." He added to his nodding. "I'm Swift by the way." He said, telling me his name.

"Okay, Swift." I breathed, having finished to cut the ropes.

"There's an small outpost at an least 100 meters from here." Swift told me, looking at the direction of the said outpost. "We can attack it before joining the others." He proposed, his eyes on one of the guns of the dead guys.

"You heard that, Adler ?" I turned my head around to look at him.

"Yeah, this outpost is maybe the one holding the man who shot that rocket on your chopper, we should be on the move." He exclaimed in an clear voice before I look back at Swift, an disturbed expression on his face.

"What's wrong with you ?" He asked, making me confused but at this moment, I just saw someone arriving behind Swift and I couldn't react too quick that the man was in fact running with an knife in hand, hitting Swift at the back of his neck and throwing himself on him.

At this moment, I grabbed my M1911, making the guy pass above me as he was trying to charge me after doing it to Swift and in an second, I shot 3 bullets on his chest and an fourth one between the eyes, making sure that he was finally dead for sure before I decided to check Swift pulse.

"Damnit, he's dead." I said, checking the pulse before seeing the big knife cut behind his neck and then, looking back at Adler. "Why you didn't do anything ?" I demanded in an angry voice as Adler was the one watching the surroundings.

"I didn't see him coming...I wasn't looking in that direction." He replied in an suspicious normal voice towards me.

"But why you didn't shoot him, then ?" I asked him again.

"Because." He simply told me, making me raise an eyebrow. "Listen, we need to get on the move, take his dog tags and stop asking questions." He ordered me like that before starting to walk away from the scene in the outpost direction.

"I'm sorry, Swift." I whispered in an low voice, taking the dog tags with me and putting them in one of my pockets before following Adler, mainly forced to do it.

I was still asking myself why Adler didn't act to save one of his own that was in danger, letting me doing the work by myself but even with these questions that I directly ask to him, it was like before : either not responding or saying that I was bothering with my questions. Guess that I will never know why is he acting so strange right now even after succeeding to escape Naga's control and arriving to me.

As the outpost wasn't too far, we didn't spend too much time to arrive near it and I was surprised when I saw that it was just an simple little house with nothing around it, not even sandbags or an guard keeping an look outside to see that there were nobody to come, it was weird because I didn't see that house from the skies before, meaning that it must be an hidden outpost established.

"Looks like there's only an simple entrance." Adler said after we hide behind some trees to take an look an the house. "We charge inside and we will be emptying our mags on them."

"Sounds like an great plan." I told him as it was the only thing that we could do right now.

"Good, so let's move in front." He ordered as he start to slowly advance towards the house with me behind him and I was thinking about why he was acting like that before we arrived near the front door. "You're ready ?" He demanded in an low voice as it could be some people just behind that door so I nodded to him. "Then, let's do it old-fashioned style !" He exclaimed before he moved in front of the door to force open it.

At this moment, he was first in line, entering the house as I quickly move to get inside, him already blasting the big room filled with enemy soldiers, joining him to also fire all my bullets towards the soldiers that was surprised to see two people storming in that house in the middle of nowhere. It took one mag for me to clear the right side of the house and then, I could spot someone holding an RPG behind his back...the bastard who has maybe shot down our chopper.

Adler spot him too in an fast movement, firying multiples bullets towards the man, hitting mostly his kneecaps while he was trying to run away before no one except me, Adler and that soldier were alive in that house. It didn't take me too much time to walk straight towards the RPG man, grabbing him by force by the collar to put that guy on top of an table.

"Did you shot down an chopper ?" I asked the guy straight, feeling the rage inside my voice and my body.

"What ? I..."

"Answer her question !" Adler demanded, loudly, cutting the soldier out.

"You heard him." I said, pointing at Adler's direction who was standing near the door for the guy and like Swift....the same disturbed expression on his face. "Talk, you son of an bitch !" I yelled, making him look at my eyes, meeting with them.

"I...yes...I did...I shot down an Huey." The soldier replied, almost pleading for his life before I took the knife of my boot, placing it on top of his chest.

"That's for my friend." I whispered before I slowly move the guy towards the knife, planting it in his chest, to make him suffer slowly, his hands trying to stop it but instead of making it slower, I removed the knife and start to immediately stabbed him an countless number of times, like I did for the second guy I killed after the crash. "That's...for Garrett." I added, still in an low voice, releasing the dead guy on the table, seeing my hands in blood. I was still feeling that rage in me.

"Hey, guys !" I could hear an radio that was standing next to the guy, getting my attention on it. "You all want to hear an american speak ?" He demanded through the radio. "So, speak !"

"Go fuck yourself !" The american said but...that voice...it was Adler himself talking but...what the fuck ? As I was questioning myself, I heard someone clap in his hands.

"Nicely play, Bell !" Adler expressed with an smile, his gun dropping on the floor. "I think that you're liking all of this."

"What's going on ?" I asked him, confused as hell to hear his voice on the radio and seeing him here at the same time.

"Always terrible naive, I can say." He started, slowly approaching me, hands in the back. "I'm not even here, to be honest." He scoffed and in an moment of rage, I finally draw my M1911 at Adler's direction and finally find the courage to pull the trigger but when I removed my finger from the trigger, he wasn't there.

"What the...." I stopped myself, in an loss of words.

"You can't kill me, Bell !" I turned around to see Adler again, dressed in the same clothes from Solovetsky, the same one he weared at that place....all this time, it was an simple vision and I was stupid to not check that before. "I'm just one of your vision, tormenting you. You let an man die today."

"No." I breathed, lowering my gun in shock.

"You're always an good pawn, time for you to get some rest." He then clapped his hands in front of my face, making me blind my eyes and seeing his face, still smilling. "Bell, we have an job to do !" He said it again....after all these times, he said it again. It's been almost an long time I didn't hear it but I couldn't control it as I fall on my knees, so weak before I fall on my back, dizzy and watching Adler standing on top of me.....

"You were never an hero, Bell...just one of my pawns !"