#but Dracoh and Retepa

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i really should bring Retepa's moirail to the blog i think he would be a silly lil pathetic guy who would argue that hes not silly or pathetic and proceeds to do something that proves us right

Retepa and Dracoh mean so much to be, they are actually very personal characters, i kissy them i hold them so tightly

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Retepa is a muse I’ve very happy about reclaiming

I made her and another Troll named Dracoh back in middle school. During then, I was involved with a really toxic, abusive, and manipulative person. The kind that literally beat other people up (even children) if they simply looked at me wrong or breathed my name. The kind that would chase my friends away and guilt trip me into doing things by using her depression and threats of self harm as an excuse. We roleplayed Trolls back then, too. Surprise surprise, they went through similarly traumatic things.

I initially created Dracoh and Retepa for fun, but then I sort of shoved them into my relationship with my abuser as a sort of “stand in” for me. See, my abuser really wanted to date me, have only me, etc. etc. even though he was just fine lying and hurting everyone else and being with everyone else. I wasn’t allowed to. Even when I was with other people, I wasn’t allowed to be with them, technically. He would threaten to hurt them, yet go around and whine for half an hour straight on phone calls “Lyyyss why don’t you love me, love meeee.” So I guess I sort of just.. shoved my Trolls his way so he could feel loved or something??? Retepa and Dracoh was that; Dracoh had a “crush” on him and Retepa was just... idk... there. A friend for him carrying the weight of both him and Dracoh. In truth I think my abuser liked Retepa more. Either way the characters weren’t developed, they were just there so I wouldn’t have to be, or there for me to project.

I’m glad I reclaimed them, or at least began to. Retepa has her own story, her own interests, and she’s stronger now than what I made her be back then. Dracoh’s still in the middle of redesign/healing but I think it would be good for like...

My sake? If I were to put them here on the blog, allow them to form relationships with y’all’s Trolls. Even if I don’t have much muse for them most of the time, I would love for them to be involved with things to separate them more from my past.

I don’t know, I’m sort of like... talking for the hell of it here and airing my thoughts.

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Retepa Leppus

Retepa Leppus

Blood

Teal (#006666)

Height

5′1″

Gender

female

Sexuality

demisexual

Body Type

rectangular build, mesomorph, small breast

About

One of the five reborn Auspicious Beasts, Retepa was hatched with the marking of destiny on her throat. Ever curious about these markings, she dives into old archaic literature, mythology, and legends to find out whatever she can. This had made her into a naturally-curious person who questions everything to uncover the truth as well as become a fledgling sorceress.

She is a person with incredible luck, seeming to get almost every lucky (and at times, unlucky) catch at every throw. Some say she’s a good luck charm, while others claim she has an unnatural ability to carve luck in whatever shape she pleases.

Generally a warm and friendly person, she’s just as sympathetic as she is understanding. However, her patience is harder to balance, and she does not tolerate other people’s bullshit without some sprinkled sass (or revenge) of her own. She can be spiteful and unafraid to bite.

Some of her interests include historical books, witchcraft, roleplaying games, and ARGs.

Quadrants

Matesprit ♥ - open

Moirail ♦ - Dracoh Chigon

Auspistice ♣ - open

Kismesis ♠ - Pierce (@/moonlit-trolls)

Other Relationships

Arceel Obelis - Though these two are not close and their relationship can only be chalked up to client and customer, Arceel often sees Retepa stop by his shop and has grown as admiration for her. He secretly sees her as a student of the magical arts.