#but even then idk how I'll write it I'm still in dead brain phase lmao

[snowddeong]

On today's docket of disparate ryeji thoughts we have:

Omegaverse college au cockwarming

Boss Shin Adventures - somno

Boss Shin Adventures - pool sex

Boss Shin Adventures - Yeji masturabing in public

Jacket AU first time

Hybrid AU first time

Planning for the ryeji omegaverse fic

Just Yeji with a strap on in general tbh

Ryujin sucking off TA yeji

And it's only 7 in the morning I'm sure it will get worse hfgf

[yuri-is-online]

Sorry if this ask makes absolutely no sense I just need you to know the absolute emotion I feel because of this Ayuu.

I need you to know just . how close to tears I am . I just reread your Azul meeting his Yutu and I am. IM CRYING. THE “Your daddy’s here” IS TAKING ME OUT AND SHOOTING ME DEAD . IM GENUINELY TEARING UP. I think I’ve read every part so far twice over, barring the Yuu specific ones cause they Hurt Me. Speaking of hurt, Deuce!Yutu and Riddle!Yutu hurt me so so bad . All of the Yutus do, but they’re the ones that just came to mind rn and it’s so so sad. Especially Riddle! Yutu because he hates his dad :( Idek why I might’ve blocked out why LMAO,,, I love all the Heartslabyul characters and their kids it makes me cry. Especially Trey. He’s such a weirdly domestic freak that the idea of him being denied the family life he’s always been content with is so so sad. ALL OF THEM . THEY MAKE ME SO SAD BECAUSE THEY WANT TO BE WITH YUU!! They want to be with Yuu, and most of them are obviously happy to have a kid, but to know that that’s been taken away from you by circumstances that are literally destroying the world you live and love in? Yeah. That’s Rough!!

I would love to see Jamil!Yutu and how Jamil reacts to his child feeling guilt for something he never did, was never responsible for, and again has to suffer through because of the family theirs has been forced to serve. I think he’d be so mad, so so mad this boy has grown up thinking he’s the biggest blight of his father’s life, the cause of his death, when in reality he’s probably someone Original Timeline! Jamil would have cherished.

I LOVE YOU RUGGIE BUCCHI!!! Sorry I needed to cry that out this made me love him so much more!!! And Rook!! I love you Rook Hunt you weirdo. Ruggie being like “Idrk what to do… but I can bug Leona about it” is so so real. Him not caring if his son is charismatic as long as he knows his cards and is able to survive. Rook as a phantom is genuinely breaking my heart idk why. All of the phantoms break my heart. I don’t want to imagine anything abt them if I do because if I imagine them having even a fraction of sentience I’m heartbroken. Imagine being unable to prevent something from possessing you. Imagine your body and soul being used to tear your home apart— imagine seeing any of that through your own eyes. Imagine seeing your own kid after years of thinking them missing. I would genuinely not be able to handle that. It’s giving the Last of Us zombies where they’re completely aware and conscious throughout the first phase. Scared . Heartbroken .

Anyways, this au is 100000/10 I need you to know this. YOUR MIND IS SO SO BRILLIANT!!! I’m probably gonna keep rereading everything you’ve written so far about it because I’m having so many brain worms . So so many. Sorry for this ramble!! Please ignore this ask if for any reason I might have said something you didn’t like >:]]]] I HOPE YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL YEAR!!!!

;-; ty so much for your kind words anon I am injecting them into my veins to continue writing. You have said nothing wrong, rambles are nice to receive, though my ask box is a bit cluttered at the moment and I am super busy so getting to things in a timely manner is not something I am able to do.

Riddle! Yutu was the first one to get a post, and I am tempted to re do it as I was still figuring out the format. He hates his dad because he wasn't there for him when he was a child and he doesn't know why. In the good timeline he's something of a daddy's boy; he really wants Riddle to be proud of and praise him

After I finish editing the second part of Rook's post you will be pleased to know the next post is about Jamil. I'm still formulating the outline of it because I've been thinking some thoughts about stars and unique magics

The way I write the phantoms they posses the instincts of their former selves but the individual lacks the input you might associate with consciousness. I'll get more into it in the second half of Rook's post... but there is a degree of awareness of their actions.

There's a lot of tragedy in this ayuu, I'm glad I'm hitting my stride with it c: it's nice to know people are liking it

[kananjarus]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

tagged by @bvckandeddie thank you so much!!! 💕

How many works do you have on ao3?

only 18 hehe

What's your total ao3 word count?

341,541 😳 I would've guessed way less than that lmao

What fandoms do you write for?

mostly 911 but I've written for star wars, spn, and marvel (mcu)

Top five fics by kudos:

end of the affair

fill me in (don't sink me)

this must be the place

13 days to say I love you

feeling small

Do you respond to comments?

yes...I don't know how to handle compliments so it takes me a while but I do my best

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I don't think I have one?

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

they all have happy endings knskdfn but I guess 13 days is the least angsty fic I've written

Do you get hate on fics?

not that I've heard? I got an meh comment for a 911 fic once because the reader was upset I wrote Eddie having a Real Adult Reaction to something instead of some uwu shit. that's the closest thing to negativity I've seen

Do you write smut?

I have before but it's been a while

Craziest crossover:

ehhh I'm not one for crossovers but I guess the 911 / station eleven au counts?

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that I'm aware of

Have you ever had a fic translated?

no but that would be so cool!

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

no :(

All time favourite ship?

that is so hard. I'm in my silverflint renaissance era currently so I'll pick them. the way their story ends will haunt me forever, and every time I rewatch the show it as painful as the first time all over again. it's a prequel to treasure island so even from their first meeting you might not know how their relationship plays out but you know it's going to end tragically. they are quite literally doomed by fate no matter what choices they make *screams into a pillow* that's my SHIT

What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

other than my long star wars fic, my answer will always be the captain america/stevebucky house of leaves au. I was not a committed writer at all when I thought of it and the idea is still so cool to me but it would be such a huge project if I sat down and actually tried to flesh it out

What are your writing strengths?

writing suspense (I just wish I had the kind of big brain ideas for horror stories. I want to be a horror writer so bad)

What are your writing weaknesses?

lately I feel like it's been dialogue. I don't know if I'm just going thru a phase but every piece of dialogue I've written recently feels incredibly forced and I hate it

Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

I know limited spanish. that's the only foreign language I've written dialogue in but I'm always afraid of getting a translation wrong so I really try to avoid it if I can sdfjnkkgn

First fandom you wrote in?

h*rry p*tter

Favourite fic you've written?

it changes all the time lmao. dead reckoning is the current favorite because it was so fun to write, but I'm also really proud of my self for the station eleven au. when I first came up with the idea I was 'get real you'll never be able to pull this off' but I'm actually doing it! take that self-doubt 😊💪

Idk who has already done one of these but I'll tag: @rogerzsteven @shortsighted-owl @mellaithwen @asharadaine @markofalover