Text
i know why my social anxiety is so terrible i know what i have to do to at least be able to live w it (like ACTUALLY live not just Not Die) & i know i am capable of doing what i have to do & have made some steps already. but i need somewhere to complain
#smudgy.txt#i feel bad abt complaining here bc no one is following me for that#but also. its my blog#oh ig i could just have a vent tag#.vent#<- there#anyway when the thought of being Known by another person like actually existing in their mind as a real actual human#& knowing another person like Really knowing another person being comfortable enough to just have#regular conversations w them share things w them etc#sends me into a panic#its just. UGHHH#bc i know what the problem is but that doesnt stop the anxiety from happening it doesnt stop the panic#bc its my default state#& my brain has had me convinced for so long that thats what was rly keeping me safe. but no it was just#digging me into a deeper & deeper hole#& im lucky i can actually See some footholds here. & i actually want to reach for them. i want to get better#but man the sudden urge to Dig Deeper is so. very strong. ahaha
0 notes
Last Seen Blogs
