#but ppl like that tend to be wayyy fucked up generally

[coldresolve]

Hey, I wanted to come and let you know your post was incredibly well-written. You got me to consider something I never usually consider when writing, and I really do appreciate the message of “hey, just remember this is a real thing that happens and maybe be a little more careful when writing it.”

I hope you don’t mind me asking a question or two, I’ve noticed that you’ve answered a question before mine and I don’t want to bombard you but I’m curious. How does a bad character doing a bad thing (torture) become apologia in your opinion? I understand that by giving torture usefulness, as you explained in the last post, it can come across as a bad thing. But wouldn’t a bad character trying to justify them torturing someone just further prove that people like that will do anything to avoid admitting guilt? That they justify their actions because they know they are in the wrong?

I really don’t want to be aggressive at all; I respect you and your opinion, and I appreciate you bringing light to the subject that torture can and does happen in the real world, and that it does affect real people. I guess I’m trying to play devil’s advocate almost and pick your brain a little. Your stances on the subject are genuinely well thought-out, and I am 100% typing this from a place of respect and genuine curiosity. If this makes you uncomfortable to answer, please just disregard.

i answered an ask abt this exact thing just now but ig ill mention it here too: it's not about the motives of your perpetrator, it's about what torture itself is shown to be able to achieve. idk i might have phrased something wonky since ppl are asking about that

bad guy doing torture for x reason isn't torture apologia. zero problems here, smooth sailing

torture works at x is torture apologia. landmine zone, its hard to go here without something fucken blowing up

unless x = sadistic gratification, which, as far as i can tell, is the only thing you can ostensibly reliably "achieve" from torturing someone. but perpetrator trauma is common, and it doesn't steer clear of sadists, so it's like. yeah you're hard but now you also have ptsd

[shoezuki]

Ok random things/hc bout the aha!sampo divinity AU i was thinkin of

Aha at some is like. Yknow what fuck it im gonna reincarnate as a human n see whats up w this. So he basically takes bits and pieces, dropped change n spilled drinks on the floors of taverns, scrapes the side of the universe, takes scripts and stories and anything made from human joy n makes a body out of it

He starts off as a kid cuz he saw kids n were like o those guys seem to have fun hell ya.

He makes sampo koski and Becomes Him. Is taken in by the masked fools cuz they are all a lil fucked up so spendin too much time w em or struggling to hide his divinity can scramble their brains only so much...... probably.

Also these ppl who worship him not realizing the scrawny kid they took in is aha????? Thats funny as shit

Sampo grows up normally. Well he kinda got it a bit wrong n he grows at a wayyy slower pace than humans but he jus says he got caught in a temporal anomaly or smthing.

It takes him a long time to really get a hold on his powers/presence/divinity and ends up making people go mad quite often. Sometimes on purpose.

The masked fools send him to planets, give him scripts and have him portray characters and sow chaos. He bends reality a bit sometimes to make the scripts more fun. He creates a major presence on the masked fools and becomes infamous in some planets n ships thay marginally survived him

(Some of the things he does cant be attributed to him and it puzzles people. Theres no way a mere human could change the colours of stars or rearrange galaxies n move planets a lil to the left, right? He makes entire waterbodies taste like beer and makes trees bleed when cut and flips mountains upside down)

The role he's given in Jarilo is his longest one yet. Usually he's just like a force of nature running through but this time he becomes a Person on this planet

He meets the underworld ppl and they all have different reactions to his divinity the longer he's around them:

Natasha is fairly sensitive to his power but it doesnt really overwhelm her. She hears childrens laughter when hes around and the air feels warm like sunlight that Belobog hasnt experienced since the eternal freeze and every time he brings her medicine or carries out of her requests she tastes bubblegum on her tongue. She never says anything but sometimes she Stares n it makes sampo squirm

Oleg tenses every time sampo shows up but eventually forces himself to relax. But he always has to be aware of sampo at all times, can't ever turn his back to sampo or be unarmed around him. He has no clue why and thinks theres something wrong with him and its his problem not sampos. But sometimes when he looks at sampo he can almost swear he sees something shift over his skin

Seele doesnt notice anything for a long time. She has to be around sampo for hours sometimes days without break. But eventually she just becomes irrationally angry with him. Everything sampo does grates on her brain and makes her want to attack him. She doesnt think anything of it and just assumes its because sampo is annoying.

Luka is one of the least sensitive to divinity. Any anxiety or unease he feels around sampo he just attributes to sampo being a shady guy. Sometimes sampo's laughter and his voice feels heavy in his skull though

Children in general are highly sensitive and resilient to the divine: sampo doesnt know why. Maybe because theyre brains are still developing? Because they arent stuck in their own ideas of reality n rationality like adults? Regardless Hook KNOWS sampo isnt normal. She doesnt question it, she just knows sampo makes things fun.

He finds a lot of responses with those in the underworld: some want to worship him, others want him dead, some cant look at him without feeling sick. For some reason the overworlders tend to find him more unsettling and disconcerting. Qlipoth probably has nothing to do with it but Sampo blames qlipoth

[exandrothinadresseveryday]

um um um I'm back and I decided to analyze your art cause I really admire it :')

Honestly, I've noticed you use the same line width, if not similar line widths throughout the entire piece, which makes the dresses easier to swallow compared to how some artists draw, and I also think it goes perfectly with the overall simplicity of your art! While it is rather simple, it is also rather easy to add details into it to make it much more fun to do and gorgeous to look at.

I also love how you color things, as it is also pretty simple and goes with the line art, but it's also really easy to add details that you can overlook but still add to the drawing! Not even to mention how well the background goes with the outfits, especially in cases like the black hole dress or the white and blue angel dress (which both look amazing and are easily some of my favorite pieces ever)

Anyways once more, your art looks gorgeous and has given me so much inspiration and insight into my own art and how I can better it, as well that keeping things simple can totally help my art a ton!!!

um anyways sorry for the paragraphs but tysm for making the blog, it has cheered me up multiple times before and it probably will do it again countless times <33

This is so freaking cool to read, you absolutely hit the nail on the head with some of these comments :D Hope you don't mind if I add some insight on my part since it's so lovely idk if I could post it without anything to say.

But yeah, my usual choice in brush is literally a default CSP brush with the pen pressure turned off, and it tends to be 6-12px wide? There's nothing particularly special about it other than drawing with a smaller brush size helps me keep my canvas roughly the size I like (since I alter it each drawing), and I'm not a big fan of line weight in general lol. I'm definitely not the kind of person who will swear by a special custom brush or specific settings, I've always been the kind of person who will just make art with whatever the fuck I'm given.

If I can be honest, a lot of the time I just wing it with colours and the background- so you don't see it but there's a lot of me trying to slap a bandaid on a leak I created by not planning ahead. Sometimes things go smoothly, other times it doesn't.. For the record, an artwork will turn out wayyy nicer when you have a complete idea of what it's meant to look like. Do not aim to emulate me 100% I am but a fool in the grand scheme of things.

ANYWAYS, you wanna know something fucked up that might make ppl look at my art differently? This is my process for the latest drawing I did. I took my sketch, I drew it over it digitally and inked it, THEN I overlayed the sketch because I liked how it messed with my colours-

I paint OVER the artwork, realised my sloppy colouring makes the bottom part stand out so I add a shadow trying to adjust for this, decided I needed the artwork to be 100x more vibrant so I upped the contrast a bajillion times..

Then the rest was just shit i painted over:

I didn't even have lineart for the angel dress.. Check out this freak shit:

Have fun guessing what part of my artwork is what now,,,

[lab1rynth]

Here's my request for the event btw kitty!

For my looks

*I'm kinda short (5'0)

*I have somewhat long black hair with brown tips since I dyed my hair during the pandemic

*Have Dark brown eyes

*I'm kinda fair skinned tho my arms are kinda tanned since last year on an outing with my friends I gave my umbrella to one of my friends even tho it was fuckin hot at the time

*I used to wear glasses but I accidentally broke them but my eyesight isn't bad my eye just hurts from time to time and I apperantly needed glasses

*I have lots of moles around my body tho the most noticable ones are on my left shoulder and on my lip (and one on my right inner thigh)

*I'm on the kinda chubby side and I have very thick thighs

*and I'm Filipino!

For my personality

*If we just met I will be this quiet polite person but if you known me for a very long time I am a very loud bitch-

*I will not hesitate to fucking beat someone up if they tried messing with me or my friends

*I'm a very generous person... Tho my mom and cousin say I'm too generous

*I don't like children

*I have lots of ticklish spots especially near the back of my neck and ears

*I can be very oblivious to my surroundings since I tend to block everything out when I'm in public since I just wanna go to where I'm going

*I'm a little gullible

*I won't show it nor say it but I can be very jealous and im embarrassed to say it since it's like a hit to my pride if I do

*Whenever someone cries Im not sure what to do exactly so I just offer them to beat up who ever made them cry and tell them shitty jokes just to make them feel atleast a little better

*I'm a very sensitive person but at the same time I couldn't care less about what you say to me

*I mostly have a resting bitch face or a fake ass smile to show to ppls whenever I'm out (I don't like smiling that much whenever I'm in public)

*I'm somewhat friendly but I can be very blunt at times

*I'm an overly touchy person if we're close and I'm kinda touch starved

*And I some times bite to show affection tho I mostly playfully bite ppls to get their attention if I want it

*But I can get so shy whenever ppls compliment me and i just don't know what to do sometimes

(Ehe sorry if it got wayyy too long lol)

🐄

𝑰 𝑾𝑶𝑲𝑬 𝑼𝑷 𝑰𝑵 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑴𝑰𝑫𝑫𝑳𝑬 𝑶𝑭 𝑴𝒀 𝑺𝑼𝑹𝑮𝑬𝑹𝒀. . .

I SHIP YOU WITH...

YAN!HALLUCINATION

You've seen it for years, its used your gullibility almost 24/7 to make you do things for it, that you had done without question almost every single time. It had also used your jealousy against you, saying it'd just go talk to someone else whenever you seem to be mad at it, then making you beg and apologize when you want him to stay. It loves seeing you so dependent on it, despite its dependence on you.

Due to its height, almost everyone is quite small to it. Yan!Hallucination teases you about your height almost every time it shows up. It teases you quite a lot, sometimes hitting your ego quite deep. It doesn't really care if it makes you fee bad, as it normally breaks you down and builds you back up just so you'll be more dependent and wanting to stay on its good side.

"G̶͍͠õ̸̘ȯ̶̟d̶̰̓͒ ḇ̵̳͗i̵̗̎͑r̸̤͗̔d̸͍̣͌̐ẙ̸̥̠," Its whispers rung out when you had done its bidding, its shadowy hand playing with your hair, which you can swear you can feel despite it just being a hallucination. It knows how weak you are to its praise and compliments, it was like giving a dog a treat after it did a trick. It truly did care for you, your its plaything, its host. It knows you'd kill for it as it already had made you kill before.

In both of your downtime, there would be quite a lot of cuddles and praise unless it was in a bad mood. It would normally wrap its arms around you, its touch felt similar to how TV static had looked, it was like a slight electric current when its figure was pressed against yours. Its touch was cold as its body wasn't really there, but it tells you that its touch is much better than the fake people you would date if it wasn't there. "I̵̩̗͝ḿ̵̢̛ ̵͇͗̌ţ̷͙͗͐h̵͇̫̚ȇ̴̼̼͘ ̸̘̾r̷̮͛e̵̛̙̩̎ā̸̢͙̉l̶̘̕e̴̢͒š̶͕͚ť̸̜̻ ̷̦̙͋t̸̗͛h̵̙̉i̵͙̾̈́n̵̢̈̀ġ̶͍̎ ̵̮͚͌̈́y̸̧̛o̸̡̓ṷ̶̿͝'̵͎̭̐l̵̢̗̅l̷̜̜̆ ̵͎̏e̵̜̿̃v̵̬̬̓͝e̵͖͐r̶̪̀ ̶͈͋̈ͅm̸͓̅̆ẹ̶̝́e̸̪̓t̸̰́̃,̷̥̭͆̈ ̵̺͘b̵̥̼̓i̷̡̗͝r̶͍̂d̷̞̼͐͝y̷̡͔̔," It tells you as its hand cards through your hair.

. . .𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝑰 𝑾𝑨𝑻𝑪𝑯𝑬𝑫 𝑻𝑯𝑬𝑴 𝑩𝑶𝑻𝑪𝑯 𝑴𝒀 𝑯𝑬𝑨𝑹𝑻

EVENT

[eohachu]

Post pictures of your first ever (fictional/celeb) crush to the latest one and tag five others to continue the game.

Ali tagged me, thanks. I guess 😘 @lanzhansmiles​

A’ight so I’m simply taking this as an opportunity to show off my frankly impeccable taste 😌 *coughs into the crook of my elbow with my mask on and from a safe distance* More under the cut, godspeed!

I’m tagging uhh I really don’t want to expose anyone but uh. @morifinwes​ @ttaechwita​ @sunshine304​ @treemaidengeek​ @flamingwell​ no pressure tho!!

Since 2006

Janina Fautz: Die Wilden Kerle, anyone?? Tbh i had a crush on quite a lot of the characters/actors but in hindsight Janina was and is the most influential one. Also probably my first ever girl crush (again, in hindsight bc it took me until 3 years ago to finally find out i’m queer lol)

Eva-Maria May: Yeah well I’m not gonna talk about where I know her from let’s say it was an incredibly bad soap opera my mom used to watch. She was one of the reasons why I went Yeah I Have Always Been Into Girls. I was pretty obsessed with her to the point where mini me secretly printed out a photo of her to look at lmaooo the signs have always been there and it’s truly amazing how I had been missing them for years

Amy Adams: Her as Amelia Earhart in Night at the Museum was also definitely a huge Thing to young me. Again, I had been completely oblivious about this crush for years

David Luiz: HAH! This is the point where we do NOT get into my football/soccer crushes bc this list would get WAYYY too long hahaha. I had to cut loads of people from my list for this post bc I develop a new celebrity crush every 5 minutes basically but yeah. David Luiz was definitely my biggest football/soccer crush out of..... everyone else

M*rvel

I don’t have a lot to say about any of them since I’m not into m*rvel anymore TFATWS makes me want to stick the tip of my toe back into m*rvel waters but otherwise NO THANKS

Sebastian Stan was, if my judgement of my archive is right, the longest highkey celebrity crush I’ve ever had. Mostly because I love Bucky a lot and he was so amazing in Captain America: The Winter Soldier. I must’ve had a crush on him for as long as I had been in the m*rvel fandom

Recent Past

some celeb crushes from last year that were all more or less short-lived tbh

Ester Expósito: As it often goes I didn’t find her spectacular in the beginning but as Élite went on I started to develop a huge crush on her. I still find her pretty hot but I’m not invested in Élite so yeah..... I have no object permanence

Mina El Hammani: Got to know her through Élite, too. She’s so incredibly beautiful. Had a hard time choosing a photo of her bc I’d stare at every single one for ages. Wow.

Danger Days!Gerard Way: Hah! The ones of you who’ve been following me for longer might remember my posts about wanting to dye my hair neon red. Well, him’s the reason and also clinical depression. Ended up with natural red/ginger bc my hair is too thin for bleaching lel. ANYWAY

Maxence Danet Fauvel: Pretty short-lived crush from my Skam days

Ramy Moharam Fouad: So Ramy has a brother, Tamino-Amir Moharam Fouad, who makes INCREDIBLE music. Ramy made some of his music videos (directed them? not sure), that’s how he came to my attention. Idk man he’s just so incredibly beautiful.... gives me a hint of genvy, too......

Janelle Monáe: Became a fan when Make Me Feel came out, listened to the entire album for days and eventually inevitably crushed on her

Lera Abova: Saw her in ANИА and fell in love. I screamed to my friends for weeks about how she was the most beautiful human being I’d ever seen etc etc. Eventually my crush went away mostly, but I still think she’s stunning

Keiynan Lonsdale: Keiynan said FUCK gender and I said 😍😍😍 and that’s all you need to know.

Current

*deep breath* alright let’s gooo

Bright (Wachirawit Chivaaree): Crushed on him for as long as I watched 2gether/Still 2gether lmao. I still like him a lot and sometimes lose my mind over him but I’m not exceptionally Thirsty™

Tul (Pakorn Thanasrivanitchai) and Max (Nattapol Diloknawarit): If you search either of them on tumblr you will have to scroll for a long, long time to find seperate photos of them. However, I’m not patient enough so here we are. Re: Tul, actually I want to copy/paste what Ali said bc DAMN a man who is confident about his masculinity and sexuality really is kinda hot. Same goes for Max tbh. Also Max’ lips look so soft I [redacted]

Lukas von Horbatschewsky: Also known as Lukas Alexander. He did an amazing job in Druck and he’s just a person I admire in general. As one of the few out trans actors in Germany, he had a main role as a trans boy in Druck and also co-wrote Druck’s seasons 5 and 6. He’s just a huge role model to me and, apart from that, Big Crush Material (h i s  e y e s)

Li Wei: Someone suggested him as Hua Cheng for the TGCF live action and my life hasn’t been the same since. While I’m open for whoever will get that role in the end, I could look at his face for hours and not get bored. Major Genvy, too.

Li BoWen and Liu HaiKuan: I will have to deal with these two in one paragraph bc LanLan bc they have the exact same effect on me which is. that they’re not 100% my type but I WILL go absolutely feral about them at regular intervals, if you know what I mean

Song JiYang: ohh honey. oh honey.......... hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I have a natural affinity for aquarius ppl and this one lives in my heart rent free. I’d even make him soup if he’d ask.

Wang YiBo: WELL HOLY SHIT. listen. LISTEN! the hype around him is 100% justified imo he really is That Bitch and I love him so so much for it. Fucking ICON

Honorary Mentions: Gender Envy

Here’s to the People I Thought I Had A Crush On But Not Quite until I learned the word Gender Envy:

Zhu YiLong: Man, this is the person who’s mainly responsible for me finding out AT ALL about not being entirely cis. The POWER he holds!!! His performance as Ye Zun in Guardian was like a breakthrough point for me which. certain people witnessed in real time hahaha oh I love this fandom!!

Zhu ZanJin: HIM. AAAH!! He’s literally so beautiful and whenever I see him I just go ZANZAN!! in my head and in the tags bc. well. hIM.

Xiao Zhan With Long Hair: Look, Xiao Zhan is always amazing but BLESS the person who made these manips. I can finally rest.

Wang YiBo: uhh what’s he doing here again?? Tbh YiBo is one of the few, if not the only person that gives me Major Gender Envy that I would also [redacted] if they asked. Do I want to be him or be with him? The answer is Yes.

I skipped the fictional characters bc I tend not to crush on them 👉👈 Instead I will just directly crush on the actors/actresses lol!

Thank you for bearing with me. As a prize, you can choose between a ladder supported forehead kiss, or a bowl of homemade soup. ❤