* ◜ kristine froseth , cis woman & she/her ◞ * according to school records , that’s merrit antonietta unn hornsby walking on campus grounds with their usual iced-americano from the ancient grounds cafe . they’re known for their long , dark blonde locks outshining their surprisingly tall figure and are often spotted at the versailles garden reading wild geese by mary oliver . almost everyone knows their family is worth like 1.2 billion dollars , so we suspect they’re a member of olympus , you know , the one for old money . do you know where they were the night that the scholarship student died ? they claim they were touring around the campus for inspiration , must be an architecture major thing , right . and hey , don’t you agree that the sophomore reminds you of muffled screams into silk pillows , the bellyache you get after doing something wrong & vacant smiles ? you better watch out h e s t i a before something dangerous happens to you and life ends at twenty-two . * ◜ barb , twenty-two , gmt +3 & she / her ◞ *
alright alright . it’s me , wrinkle free brain bar from gmt +3 !! so pumped to be here w you sexies mwah <3 here’s merrit’s pinterest board if you’re interested ( pls im a virgo n pinterest addict .. lemme make boards for our muses .. id d*e ! ) imma . bore u to de*th w this intro pls .. forgive me .. i only hav 2 brain cells , this is all over the place HDFJK rip </3 tw: kidnapping, death.
starting w the boring statistics :
full name: merrit antonietta ‘antonia’ unn hornsby
nicknames: mer, antonia, ant, tbc.
code name: hestia ; the goddess of hearth , the family , the state & the domesticity.
star sign: libra sun , virgo moon , scorpio rising.
sexuality: bisexual.
favourite literature piece: wild geese by mary oliver , an anthology .
“meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.”
merrit is the only child of the young hornsby couple. she doesn’t remember much of her childhood, according to her grandma, she was the happiest kid. had everything she could ever ask for and more.
the reason why merrit can’t remember any of this is the beginning of a tragedy — a stormy december night, she and her parents went missing. grandma says they were gone for over five months. a kidnapping case gone cold, they thought. right when the old couple was giving up on them, an angel from above delivered antonia to their door step. malnourished, void of any memory but alive.
life after losing her parents was easier than expected, grandma hornsby ( nee du pont ) made sure merrit would recover from this without any trauma & in a way, she did.
doesn’t have the best relationship with her grandpa, he’s harsh and cranky and too smart for his own good, merrit is lowkey afraid of him lmfao
she’s currently studying architecture — her dream major was interior design but grandpa encouraged her to pursue architecture to follow her father’s footsteps. kinda made sense because she’s fascinated by houses .. in reality the insides, the families living there are the real source of interest for her but she’s happy to settle for outside for now gshdjkf
personality stuff !!!
uMM.... i’d say she’s lowkey a people pleaser sdhjkf like ?? making her grandparents proud is . literally the only thing she’s ever wanted in this world n now she feels the same responsibility for every single soul in her life . a torturous existence if you ask me
can’t say no <3 if she thinks its gonna make u feel a tiny bit better . boom . she’s in .
the friend you’d call to bury a body . no questions asked . she’s pickin up the shovel as you speak asdghfjk unless it’s between her grandparents n you, then *michael scott vc* how the turntables.... sdhjfk shes rattin u out instantly rip
LOVES to talk n listen . fills her heart with joy . a blabbermouth .
an overachiever . doesn’t sleep much, rocks the dark circles 7/24 lmfao works bc doesn’t like the idea of .. wasting life if that makes sense ??
loyal 2 a fault. mostly to olympus. wld do anything to stay in the secret society / establish her place .
extremely gentle n caring . sometimes ?? its just . too much sdjkf like. tone it down <3
likes poetry ,, especially mary oliver n louise glück ! her fav poem is the orange by wendy cope.
i imagine her wearing flowy, tulle dresses with floral embroidery or vintage pieces idk
has shit ton of plants but struggles to keep them alive rip
!!! im . terrible at explaining her fr i hate it here ok i hav a vision but ??? i cant explain it
safe 2 say shes having difficulty deciding who she’s supposed to be . a part of her wants to be the golden child for her grandparents n the other side .. jst wants to live her life y’know ???
UPDATE ! i’ve realised that by hiding her secret, i also unintentionally hid a big portion of her personality and she comes across as the typical, soft & gentle soul. don’t get me wrong, she is indeed gentle and soft but she’s also volatile and deceitful !
connection ideas !!!
childhood friends - except she doesn’t remember any of it. maybe your muse thinks she’s changed. maybe they don’t care. maybe they are no longer friends . idk
penpals - seriously ??? i imagine her as someone who writes letters jst bc they’re nostalgic n cute ??? cld be fun.
a home - i kno home’s not a person but a feeling but tell that to merrit lmao. this person’s probably the only one in the whole damn world she’d choose over her grandparents. platonic or romantic, doesn’t matter.
betrothed - super old school yikes. nt exactly betrothed either .. maybe her grandma thot it’d be better if these two were in a relationship . maybe they remained as friends . maybe they hated each other . maybe they kept the publicity stunt ( cue 2 merrit begging to keep faking the rel so her grandpa wld be happy )
exes - a classic. ts this is me trying vibes . on good or bad terms . lingering feelings ? yes please .
bad + good influence - again, classic sdhjfk
saw u at the garden but cldn’t say hi bc i’m a dumb binch - basically someone she has a minor, unrequited crush on. probably knows this person through her other friends but she’s too damn timid to take the first step
a friend from labyrinth . ok hear me out . this is a big deal for her bc she’s all in for her society n v opposed to the idea of a second one even existing . wouldn’t say shes openly mean or .. rude to labyrinth members but ?? jst . wants to protect her own , so this would be a v secret friendship .
a project - could say she has some sort of a savior complex . wants to ‘fix’ people up .. toxic much, mer? <3 anyway ashdjk maybe she thinks .. she can change your muse ? i truly dont know.
ok final one . its juicy . someone who’s suspicious of her . she has a secret n for the obv reason i didn’t talk abt it, your muse’s suspicious n it’s just . hashtag awkward
these r the only connection ideas i have rn my brain said get tht fire exit door im off im so sorry forgive moi bUT im a sucker for angst : ) so theres that
something inspired by my queen n savior phoebe bridgers or . folklore ?? yeah.
give me noora / william vibes . the ex friends . the dan / blair dynamic . i live for them ok sgdhfjkl
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12.01.17 - 12:22am
it’s another restless night for me, i can already feel it. i’m sitting outside in 40 degree weather smoking my umpteenth cigarette of the night. i’ve been stewing in a state of bad depression this past week. i have good days, i have bad days. but when the bad days are bad, they eat me alive.
i sit here wanting to write a story but have nothing to write about. i want to draw or paint but something keeps getting lost in translation between my heart, my brain and my hand. so naturally, i decided to start up a blog documenting whatever it is i’m documenting.
there’s almost something calming about sitting on my patio listening to the white noise of the town i live in. listening to my dog sniff and sigh, the cars on the distant highway driving by, the sound of an AC unit kicking on...
anywho...these days i feel like im losing myself. i’m no longer the creative driven soul that i once knew. having that realization isn’t an easy thing to cope with. there are so many things that i want to be doing and that i should be working towards but i’m just...not. i’m sure we’ve all been there. i have my regrets about the choices i’ve made. but of course, i know i have to live with those decisions. i’m hopeful that the will to change the things that i am unhappy with comes soon, but i know it’s something i will have to work towards, and i think my lazy soul is afraid of working towards anything.
i know that i’m capable of change. i’ve seen it. i used to be an absolutely messy person. my apartment was a complete embarrassment and it was one of many things that caused my relationship to fail previously this year. luckily, we are trying everything again and working really hard at changing the negative things that contributed to our downfall. now, our apartment is nearly spotless and smells like cherries 24/7. i know that i am capable of changing the things that i thought i could never change. but it’s so much effort and finding the will to put forth that effort is seemingly impossible. especially feeling how i’m feeling.
i think the most frustrating thing to me is the fact that everyone around me keeps trying to give me their unsolicited advice. “maybe you should see somebody about that.” “have you tried this medication?” “try this natural remedy” “have you tried smoking pot” .......... “have you tried not being depressed?” i have tried everything it seems. i want to stop feeling this way. i want to get out of this rut. i want to get my interior design certification. i want to start my own business. i want to stop being 3 months behind on my car payment and start helping my boyfriend pay the god damned bills. but everything seems nearly impossible right now. like i’m permanently stuck between a rock and a hard place. i’m stubborn by nature and i used to stop at nothing to make things work out for me. but for the first time, i’m becoming a passive version of myself that is sitting on this rollercoaster called life and i’m stuck in the seat with the lap bar pushed down as far as it will go.
my boyfriend is taking me bar hopping tomorrow night in hopes that i can find a little bit of relief from this funk i’m in, so i guess all that i can hope for is that tomorrow is a better day and that i can get out of my own head.
feel free to drop me a message or an ask me while i’m away. i will respond to all of them.
thanks for reading my thoughts. have a beautiful night. i’m going to smoke one last cigarette and try to sleep. good night, friends.
~Mackenzie
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