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aroaceinaerospace · 9 months

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sometimes I so deeply miss being a teenager because there was so much more space to just talk to people the same age as you and figure out who you are. there's nothing quite like the vulnerability you were able to reach late at night during a sleepover with friends

#finding yourself at a different time compared to the people around you can be so so so isolating #i know its talked about a lot in the book refusing compulsory sexuality how we seem to pin life events on certain ages #like i always enjoyed hearing about my friends and how they see the world and their experiences #and the way they were able to just talk freely about who they are and where they fit in the world #im so grateful that ive been on the journey i have been on to finding myself #because all the books and content that ive consumed have had such a positive impact on thinking more complexly about the world #but since it seems a lot of people go through this in middle school or high school i feel so behind #i didnt realize i was ace (or even just that i was “different”) until i was a sophomore in high school #and even then it was just hearing the word and saying oh i guess thats me #and it wasnt until about a year or two ago that i really started feeling the need to learn more and be more connected #so it seems like ive been growing at a much slower pace than other people around me #and i know everyone grows and learns at different paces and theres nothing wrong with it #but it can be very disheartening to see and feel that disparity between yourself and your peers #and because a lot of people do their growth at a younger age and because we lose those age groups as we become “adults”#it becomes so much harder to find people your age who are on the same journey to be able to talk through things with #and yes there is the internet which is so wonderful in connecting people from all over the world #but theres just something so special about being sleep deprived and just pondering existence with people you care about #on top of the fact that im just genuinely terrified of accidentally hurting people by saying the wrong thing on the internet #anyway what a tag rant that im sure nobody will see

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