#but with alice i kinda want wild colours

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #402

“there’s a space kept in hell with your name on the seat  /  with a spike in the chair just to make it complete”

Have you ever had any really infected injuries? Not an injury, per se, but I've had at least one ear piercing get infected during the healing process. Shit sucks ass. Are you popular on any websites? No. What was the last song you listened to? "Savior" by SWARM. Are you considered popular at school? I wasn't. If you could host your own talk show, would you do it? No. I've got nothing interesting to talk about. If you were starving would you eat food out of a garbage can? I honestly don't know if I could with how squeamish I am about sharing food, even with family. And we're talking about sharing food that's been in the TRASH. Do you know anyone who has changed their first name? I do. Which one of your senses would you be the most devastated to lose? I THINK hearing. I hate silence, so that would just be... haunting. I want to be able to hear people's voices and other sounds. Do you know anyone who has been on life support, and survived? I have no idea. Do your parents have a strong relationship together? God no. They're divorced for a reason. Have you ever read any of Charles Darwin’s works? No. If there was such a thing as a mental health first aid kit, what would you want to be in it? Some ice cream and a Mountain Dew bc I'm an emotional eater, my "graduation" pebble from my partial hospitalization program to remember how far I've come, some cold water to run over my face (or drink), my iPod for music and phone to watch YouTube, a nice, big blanket to turn into a burrito in... that kind of stuff. If you’re in a relationship, are you happy? And if you’re single, are you looking for someone? I'm not actively searching for anyone, no. What is something that people make fun of you for? Always being on the computer. It makes me EXTREMELY self-conscious, and I really wish people would keep their mouths shut about it. Which supermarket do you like to shop at? Wal-Mart. Have you ever been told that your boyfriend/girlfriend wasn’t good enough for you? In the past. Do you think it’s okay to flirt with someone that’s already taken, as long as it goes no further? Fuck no. Do you struggle to say ‘no’ to things you don’t want to do? YUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUP. Someone attractive is staring at you. What do you do? Probably just kinda smile and blush and look down/away. Are you friends with someone a lot of people dislike? *shrug* Favorite photo search engine? Tumblr for gifs, Google or Pinterest for still images, depending on what I'm looking for. Do you doggie paddle or actually swim in a pool? I'll do both, I think? It's been too long since I've swum. Ever made a snow angel? Ye-ep. Would you ever take up smoking? No. I like having operational lungs. Do you laugh at racial jokes? No. Hate to break it to ya, but they're not funny. Book series you enjoyed reading recently? I've been loving Wings of Fire by Tui T. Sutherland, even if I'm reading very slowly. My psychiatrist has given me a new way to approach my hobbies I have difficulty engaging in, so I'm hoping if I keep it up, my rate of reading will speed up! Are there any keys on your keyboard that have letters fading away? Ahaha, yeah... "a," "s," and "d." A true gamer. How "w" is still alive, I couldn't tell ya. Favorite non-chocolate candy? Sour Punch Straws, probably. The red ones, in specific. Last person you texted? My mom. What did you learn from your first job? That I can't work with people. Favorite website from your childhood? I was a Webkinz A D D I C T. Least favorite flavor of food or drink? Cranberry came to mind very quickly. Least favorite pattern? uhhhhhhh Favorite potato food? Either French fries or Lays wavy potato chips. PC or console gaming? I grew up as a console gamer, so I'm kinda biased. Writing or drawing? Don't make me choose!! I get more satisfaction out of drawing something I'm proud of, but I do way more writing. Who would you put before everyone else? My mom, probably. Lamps, overhead lights, fairy lights, or sunlight? Fairy lights are so cute. How many phone numbers do you have memorized? I shit you not, none. What is your third favourite colour? Hm. Maybe rose gold, or lilac. Can you remember your first phone? If so, what kind was it? I'm really not sure, but I WANT to say it was one of those slide-y, compact Blueberry ones? Who is your favourite character from Alice in Wonderland? The Cheshire Cat has always been very alluring to me. What is the last thing you looked up online? The definition to a word just to ensure I was using it correctly. Have you ever had your fortune read? No. I ain't wasting time or money on that shit. Can you read tarot cards? If you couldn't guess from above, I have zero faith in this kinda stuff, so I don't care to learn. Do you prefer lemons or limes? Lemons. I like lime flavoring in some stuff, though. Are your expecting anything in the mail? No. What would you like to see out of your window everyday instead of what you see now? The forest. Do you own a camera? I do, a Canon EOS Rebel T6. Have you ever written a special note in a book? Yes. Early into our relationship, Jason lent me a book to read, and I wrote a lil love letter in it for him. Do you have any artistic talents? I mean I like to think I'm a good writer and a decent artist. Do you remember the last movie you saw while on a date? Yeah, IT with Girt. It was fun because he's a horror pansy, haha. He did fine, though. What would you do if you found out you were pregnant? Freak the fuck out because I haven't had sex in many years, so that thing's coming the fuck out 'cuz it obviously ain't natural. Favorite thing to get at McDonalds? Look man, I'm shameless, I love me a Quarter Pounder w/ cheese. Plus some fries. :x Do you know anyone named Alex? I know multiple people named Alex, actually. Whose house did you last sleep over at? Sara's. In other words, it's been a loooong time.Would you ever record yourself having sex? God no. Like zero judgment to the people that do, but I get NOTHING out of watching others "do it." I've never actually tried watching porn, but I couldn't have less interest. I know I'd hate it, and a lot. Did the vacuum scare you as a child? I don't think it did, anyway. Have you or would you ever use a dating app? One of my most embarrassing secrets is that I was briefly on Christian Mingle. It makes me want to cringe into fucking oblivion. Who are you most nervous about introducing potential significant others to? My dad. He's... a character. What was the most important non-academic thing you learned in high school? That time fucking flies, so cherish every millisecond. Do you and your friends ever talk about your sex lives? Not really. Even when I was sexually active, I was private about that stuff. I don't care if others talk to me about theirs, but odds are I'm not saying much about myself. What were the best and worst interviews you’ve ever had? What made them so good/bad? I've never had a bad interview, but I mean, I've only had I wanna say four in my whole life. None were anything special either, though. Ever put someone else in the hospital? No. Have you ever sold anything on eBay? If so, what? No. What is the best surprise you have ever had? Finding a container of puppy chow underneath the Christmas tree one year. It was my parents' way of telling me we were getting a dog (which I had been nagging them about FOREVER), and next came Teddy. <3 I miss my boy. Is someone in love with you? I wouldn't know. Ever kiss someone on the first date? No. Ever sleep with someone on the first date? That's a hard no. Do you wear cologne/perfume/aftershave regularly? No. Do you snore? No, actually. Pretty astonishing for someone with such severe sleep apnea. When is the last time someone else slept in your bed? When Sara last visited. How often do you dust? Not... nearly enough as I'm supposed to. Mom gets on me about it all the time. What is the most ‘extreme’ activity you have ever done? Ha, nothing wild, I assure you. I guess riding a four-wheeler through the woods once with our former neighbors, who were good friends of ours.. Have you ever rode on a mobility scooter/wheelchair just for fun? Um, no? That's a jackass thing to do. Some people actually need those. Who’s the most controlling person you know? OH MY FUCKING GOD. OUR FAMILY FRIEND TOBEY. EASILY. She seizes control of EVERY situation, even if she has no right to be involved in it. Does anyone keep a photo of you in their purse/wallet, and if so, who? Not to my knowledge. Do you own a microphone? No. Do you enjoy trailers at the cinema? I do! I like arriving in time to see them. Have you ever been burgled? No, thankfully. Have you ever entered anything into Urban Dictionary? If so, what? No. What’s the last live performance you watched on TV? No idea. Have you ever been embarrassed to buy something from a shop? Not to my recollection. It helps that I'm not the one buying things, like ever. What’s the name of one of your friends’ dogs? Buster! :') He's a precious lil bean. Name a pet you definitely wouldn’t want. A GIANT CENTIPEDE. That's one pet in the invert community that I have ZERO interest in EVER owning. Those bitches are scary. Have you ever needed to wear a tie? If so, when/why? Nope.

[thebeauregardbros]

“The Ultimate Character Questionnaire”: Alus Beauregard

a fuckton of random questions abt alus ramblingly answered

questions stolen from [here]. i cut out ones that ask the same questions i accidentally answered prior, or just didn’t interest me enough to answer, so if you wanna do this for your own OC I recommend copy+pasting it from the source!

Basic Character Questions

First name? Alus (pronounced ‘Ah-Loose’)

Surname? Beauregard (taken from adoptive father)

Nicknames? Alus wants to be called “Al” but it doesn’t stick because his name is already short. Lots of people unfortunately call him Alice. he does not like that

Date of birth? unknown but he celebrates his birthday on All Saint’s Wake (aka Halloween)

Age? Funfact: Alus and Arc’s age is the age between the RPers’ real-world ages (I’m 24, Arc’s player is 25, but for a brief period Arc’s player becomes 26 while I’m still 24.) So they’re going to be 25 this year (2020)... what the fuck. stop growing. dont do that.

Physical / Appearance

Height? I... he’s tall. Despite Alus being the max height for Miqo’te characters (5′8″/173cm), other male Miqo’te RPers say their characters are taller than that anyway, so I’m like.. not sure what to answer. I don’t want to break reasonable canon of what’s possible for Miqo’te but I also don’t want him to be short or average sized in comparison to other average Miqo’te. I’m just gonna say, definitively, “Alus is tall for a Miqo’te”. If you have a tall Miqo, Alus is just as tall. Or half an inch taller. Take that as whatever you want. I’m tired.

Weight? I... don’t know? This question really doesn’t clarify anything to me; people can be the same height and weight and look totally different in body type. If you absolutely had to get an answer from me, my best guess is maybe somewhere between 170lbs-180lbs? (assuming he is 5′8″)

Build? Wide shoulders, slender hips, long legs, big wide chest and a nice strong core. He is muscular; burly and brawny; his body type feels intimidating and large. He has a healthy amount of fat over his muscles, but still has much clearly visible muscle especially while flexing.

Hair colour? Golden blonde; it’s got a subtle yellow-ish tone that reminds you of sunshine.

Hair style? Alus’ hair is naturally thick and wavy. His hair is grown out long; about armpit length. His hair is choppy, even somewhat feathered. It’s a bit badly damaged from years on the road, but the split ends and fly-aways sparkle brilliantly in the sunlight like a messy halo around his head. His hair naturally very poofy, like damaged 80s hair. Long bangs that were once pushed back fall gracefully over his face like a wild child running about in spring. Whilst resting away from work, he braids it loosely.

Eye colour? Heterochromia; A raspberry red in one pupil, and a sun-shiny yellow-orange in the other.

Eye Shape? Thin and serious, and slightly down-turned. Small double-lid.

Glasses or contact lenses? His eyes are overall pretty healthy, but he’s slightly far-sighted. He uses glasses once in awhile to read, but they’re not super necessary.

Distinguishing facial features? Heterochromia and his adult male Miqo’te markings. He tends to wear purple eyeshadow around his eyes and a subtle purple lip tint.

Which facial feature is most prominent? The facial structure of Alus more resembles an Elezen than a typical Miqo’te; he has a long slender nose, a oval face shape and noticeably high cheekbones.

Which bodily feature is most prominent? Alus’ lion-like tail is somewhat unique among other typical Miqo’te.

Other distinguishing features? His style of dress tends to stand out in a crowd; he favors pure white and soft pastels over more popular color tones among adventurers like blacks and greys. Also unlike the typical adventurer, he is more want to wear fabrics of the fancy and soft nobleman, decked out in frills and lace like a prince locked far away in a chamber more than any man on a dusty and bloody battlefield.

Skin? Uh... a... “medium tan” skintone? (again I have no idea how tf I’m supposed to figure out labels for skin tones when there’s no widely used phrases for specific tones fghdjkgh) with a “warm gold undertone”. The small amount of skin that’s ever exposed upon him is surprisingly soft, as if he never did much hard work in his life. [SPOILER]Underneath his clothes, however...The countless scars upon his torso, back, legs and upper-arms are rough and hard, like treated leather.[/SPOILER]

Birthmarks? Not that he knows of. He has lots of scars from messing around in his childhood but he can’t remember the origin of them all. Any of them could be birth marks as far as he can tell.

Tattoos? None! And he never plans to get one. He has yet to see any tattoos that match his personal aesthetics of what he’d put on his body yet and even if he did, he can’t imagine liking them enough to want to get one.

Physical handicaps? [SPOILER]Numbness in various small patches of skin throughout his body.[SPOILER]

Type of clothes? I already answered this somewhat but if you’re curious about specifics, I made [this pinterest] of stuff I’d imagine he’d wear. Pretty much just take the “aristocrat” Japanese street fashion genre and turn it white, and give it a bit of a gold trim. Lots of frills and lace; heavily inspired by fantastical shoujo manga glorified depictions of what a Prince Charming looks like in medieval setting fairy tales.

How do they wear their clothes? Some (not all) of the specific guidelines I have in my head of what his wardrobe’s like; Colors are only pastels, white, or gold - once in a blue moon he might wear a rich dark raspberry red color or bright orange or yellow. He will NEVER wear grey or black. Pants have to be long enough to reach the ankles. He prefers wearing his shirts tucked-in. Clothes MUST fully cover everything on his body excluding head, neck, and hands at all times - low neckline acceptable in off-duty time. Under special occasions only (ie beachware); lower arms, top of feet or shins can be uncovered. He wears a lot of jabot ties.

What are their feet like? (type of shoes, state of shoes, socks, feet, pristine, dirty, worn, etc) Alus takes his quality of fashion seriously. He’s the type of guy who wears expensive fancy soft white socks trimmed with gold nobody will ever see with the little suspenders on his legs to keep the socks from sagging down. He adores wearing white pointed dress shoes, especially if they have a bit of a high heel. Gold jewelry or buckles are lovely, and any shoe with lace, bows, ribbons, fancy beadwork or faux flowers are supreme. (Google image search ‘Bridal Boots’ if you wanna see his shoes. He’d seriously wear any of them.)

Race / Ethnicity? hhhhhhhhh it’s 5am man I dont have the energy to google faces until i find a reasonable faceclaim and try to figure out that person’s ethnicity... they’re Fantasy Characters... alus is a miqo’te.. maybe had some elezen or hyur in his lineage? idk

Mannerisms? Alus is like a living embodiment of a cartoon Disney prince. I don’t know how to better describe it; He’s elegant and gentle for the most part but can also so comically stiff you could mistake him for an automaton or a piece of background cardboard - then when the moment hits, he can spring into an unrealistic slapstick looney toon nightmare. He always seems to be in a constant state of floating between elegance, stiffness, and slapstick. There is never a break. There is never an in-between.

Are they in good health? For their active life circumstances of constant physical hardship, they are in amazingly good health.

Do they have any disabilities? I don’t think of ADHD as a disability (and I’m saying that as someone who has autism and most likely ADD or ADHD myself) but it’s classified by a lot of people as a disability. So yeah, uh, Alus absolutely has ADHD.

Personality

Are they more optimistic or pessimistic? Definitely more optimistic, sometimes to a fault. I think there’s a degree of choice in there but he’s kinda lost the boundary between blind trust and trying to believe in people and situations because he morally wants to. He is still a worry wart, and that is what causes him to fight so hard as he does for making things around him better as well as making himself better - but I think he makes a very active effort of not letting anyone see that part of him, maybe in an effort to convince himself as well that everything is and will be okay.

Are they introverted or extroverted? Extroverted in a lot of ways and introverted in others. Alus loves and thrives around people, and I think he’s a bit more drained than the average person when he’s alone vs. being in a crowd, but he’s still living more as an introvert - one-on-one deep talks can make him extremely anxious. He’s great at the surface niceties but can often find himself too devoted to strangers, which leads him into trouble sometimes. He’s like a really great social co-worker and a extremely awkward off-duty member of society that doesn’t really know how to function or navigate normal relationships.

Do they ever put on airs? A b s o l u t e l y. Alus’ entire persona is carefully hand-crafted over a lifetime. It’s not to say “This isn’t who he really is, he’s a liar”, but moreso “He’s not quite the person he wishes he was yet.” He makes a really large effort to put on airs of this confident and beautiful Princely type of heroic figure straight out of a fairy tale where he simultaneously knows that such a goal is impossible, since this isn’t a story book - this is real life, he is flawed and complicated, and nothing is as perfect as you wish it was. But he keeps trying no matter what.

What bad habits do they have? Low-key bullying his brother, for sure. Arc is the only person Alus just can’t really put on airs with so his perfect image just breaks down around him. While Alus appears to be a very gentle and kind individual around other people, he’ll comically slap and roast his brother without mercy. (Don’t worry; it’s mutual between them.)

What makes them laugh out loud? Almost anything. Alus is definitely a big giggler, and an even bigger loud spontaneous laugher.

How do they display affection? There’s two major levels of it. First, it’s showering you with little gifts - sweets, flowers, even money if you’re in need, with nothing asked in return. If you’re very close to him, it’s skinship; he loves spontaneously hugging others and holding hands and all that kinda platonic stuff. He’ll pretty much not let go of your arm if you’re around him. He also loves dancing with people, you bet he’ll do the whole nine yards of weaving you around him, lifting you above his head and dipping you.

Mental handicaps? Hates being touched. He has some really bad memories of being manhandled and despises any type of physical restriction on himself, especially from people he doesn’t find VERY close to him. He hates even more to be seen in casual clothes, especially clothes that expose his skin. He’s really not a fan of his exposed body and it’s gonna take a lot for him to get over it. He’s slowly getting better but it’s a long journey.  

How do they want to be seen by others? Someone to look up to; someone to rely on. He wants to be the hope for humanity, essentially. He wants to inspire others to heroism and kindness just by seeing him, and he wants to make the world a better place just by existing in it.

How do they see themselves? Someone who’s just not good enough; Someone who needs to keep working to be better; someone who’s chosen destiny is to be the hero of humanity.

How are they seen by others? Probably as a weirdo. He definitely comes off as eccentric; his strange comedic ramblings and sudden dancing mid-conversation, as well as his random gifts and bag full of pranks, magic tricks and fireworks just really feel off-the-wall. His immediate devotion to others may also come off as exceedingly suspicious. I think how he dresses and his cafe also indicate he’s kind of the ‘rich unhinged guy’ stereotype. People who know him well though know that he’s an extremely good person who would give you the clothes off his back if you needed them more. He loves humanity and would do anything for it.

Strongest character trait? His stubborn devotion to his ideals, for sure. If he wants something, he’ll work his hardest to make sure it happens.

Weakest character trait? Far too trusting of strangers; he gets taken advantage of very easily, and he’s almost always happy to come back for more. He’ll even give the biggest villain a 2nd and 3rd and 4th chance. His inability to condemn anyone as truly evil may cause far more hardship for everyone in the long run than if he just chose to kill the person or lock them up indefinitely and be done with it.

How competitive are they? Alus thrives in competitive environments due to an absolute love and adoration for sportsmanship. He does a fantastic job making his competitors have fun and feels that a competition that is too one-sided doesn’t have any fun or worth. He loves difficult competition because he feels that it helps better himself and his rival.

Do they make snap judgements or take time to consider? Oh, he’s absolutely a “strike now while the iron’s hot” type of a guy. He knows that even a second of a wait can change things for the worse. He’s also definitely a philosophical type that thinks over every possible scenario in his mind in his off-time, but ultimately, he’ll always be the one running off to get things done as soon as they’re brought to his attention. He’s the opposite of his brother, who wants to slow things down before making rash decisions. Alus just knows those decisions need to be made, so it might as well be now, so he just gets it done and worries about the outcome later.

How do they react to praise? He’s actually probably never used to it. I think he has a bit of a low self-esteem problem in how he sees himself as never quite as good as he wants himself to be, so praise can catch him off-guard pretty easily. He’ll cover that up by clumsily stating something comically over-the-top like “Of course, I am incredible! I am the best! Mwahahaha!” but not before gasping for air and stuttering like a shy schoolgirl first.

How do they react to criticism? He has a great ability to deflect toxicity into positivity; he asks what people mean and tries to understand them. I think if the criticism can be taken as constructive, he’s always happy to take it. If the criticism is just plain mean, I think he’ll ask if there’s anything he can do to help the person he’s talking to - he knows nobody would say such mean things to another unless they were having a pretty bad day.

What is their greatest fear? Oh, y’know. Losing his brother. Slugs and slimy things. If you wanna get painful and philosophical about it, I think he’s terrified of the future. He tries to live in the moment and just do the best he can at all times, but when he sees that what he does doesn’t help a lot of the world to stay safe, it freaks him out. In his mind, he’s doing a lot, but in reality - it’s not much at the grand scheme of things. He tries not to think about it too much. He tries not to think much of the past either - of all the mistakes, of what he could and couldn’t have done. It frustrates him. I guess you could say his greatest fear is his own limits. It never feels like he’s doing enough, or even if he ever could do enough.

What are their biggest secrets? [SPOILERS, OBVIOUSLY] Alus is absolutely disgusted with the military powers of the world, and the politicians. He tries to stay optimistic and bright on the outside - he stays useful and does what he can without complaint, he tries to lie to himself and say it isn’t too bad, tries to focus on the good these systems do, to be placated and trust his brother that things will work out alright in this setup - but he sincerely wishes that somehow they could be abolished entirely. He’s frustrated with the idea of any one person or power having control over the lives of others - people those single powers may never meet - will inevitably cause a lack of humanity and understanding of others. Nobody should have this power, not even him, not even the gods. As Alus’ writer, I don’t think he knows a good alternative, he just knows he’s seen enough immoral and inconsiderate shitfuckery in these systems that he can barely stand it anymore. I think many soldiers probably feel like this eventually. [/SPOILER]

What is their philosophy of life? literally just look at the [quote insp tag]

When was the last time they cried? I FEEL LIKE ALUS IS THE TYPE TO TEAR UP AT EXTREMELY COMMON SHIT TBH?? EVERYTHING IS SO BEAUTIFUL I STARTED CRYING TYPE??

What haunts them? [SPOILER]Literally just... becoming a soldier or a fighter to begin with. He wishes it never happened, he wishes the world didn’t need fighting to begin with. But he knows he can never go back now, and even if he did, he’d probably still become a soldier all over again. It’s all he can do in this violent, terrible world.[/SPOILER]

What are their political views? Notable traits would supporting equality rights for Beastmen, more funding towards helping refugees, more funding to adoption agencies and orphanages, more transparency about tax profit and spending, creating opportunities for different countries to share their culture.. etc. (Note: I like to believe that larger glaring IRL political issues like lack of LGBTQ+ rights, gender inequality, ableism, skin-color-based racism and other large current inhumane social problems aren’t problems in FFXIV’s universe. If your RP character uses bigotry in accurate line of these IRL social issues as a character trait, you are not welcome in my RP circle. Period.)

What will they stand up for? He hates violence in general, so he’ll do whatever he can to stop it. Anyone who seems to be controlling or keeping other people against their will is something he loathes. No means no!

Who do they quote? Urianger. like a lot. Probably mostly accidentally; he picks up a lot of vocal mannerisms from the guy.

Are they indoorsy or outdoorsy? Outdoorsy, for sure. He grew up under the stars and being forced indoors for a long time will probably give him feelings of anxiousness and claustrophobia, especially if the space is small. He has had some bad experiences being unable to go outside so he takes his freedom to roam outdoors very seriously.

What is their sinful little habit? He loves sweets. This guy is all about boasting a healthy diet, but his weakness shows the exact opposite. More serious answer: He tends to procrastinate bad, especially when it comes to his passive military duties.

How do they treat people better than them? If they breathe, they’re royalty. Utmost respect and courtesy. Treats them as if he’s the royal butler to their fancy ass selves, even if they’re the lowest of the low in poverty.

How do they treat people worse than them? Honestly? Pretty much the same answer as above. If he gets truly angry at someone, he’ll tell them how and why straight-up, but he’ll never stop giving them the respect and courtesy he believes every human being deserves.

What quality do they most value in a friend? Someone who is as ridiculously open-hearted and ready to confess love to the nearest person along with anything else in the world as Alus tends to do, but also someone who pays close enough attention to him that they can tell when he’s in distress. Alus has a hard time speaking up about when he feels uncomfortable, so someone who has a talent for empathy - detecting other peoples’ emotions - would be incredibly invaluable. That’s the fastest way to his heart.

What do they consider an overrated virtue? None, and all. He thinks that if anyone gets carried away with any traditional virtue to the point that they’re causing evil in the world, they’re just misguided. He understands that - or at least actively wants to understand that - so he can forgive.

If they could change one thing about themselves, what would it be? He... honestly thinks of himself as more of an Elezen than a Miqo’te. So anything that ‘gives away’ that he’s a Miqo’te, he could probably do without. He likes his ears and his tail though! But maybe if he was taller? lmao. (I don’t intend to ever Fantasia Alus FYI, MAYBE if male viera comes out and my partner agrees to it AND I have absolutely no active RP going on, but it’s very unlikely, and if it does happen it will be considered a retcon, not a character development)

What is their obsession? Definitely his aesthetics. He spends an incredibly large amount of time, effort, and money on making himself look and properly act like a “fairy tale prince charming”. It’s not only a philosophical mindset of being moral and heroic, but also being charming and supportive to everyone around himself. He honestly hopes and believes that if he succeeds in creating and upholding this image that every person who rests their eyes upon him will be filled with determination and hope that heroism and safety is real.

What are their pet peeves? He disapproves of the glorification of alcohol, smoking, or any other vices that are bad for the average person’s health. He won’t turn away the people with these vices as potential friends, but he’ll certainly be tempted to lecture them on it. He is also really not a fan of casual skinship between strangers, nor is he a fan of an aggressively pessimistic attitude, nor will he ever really be used to people who wear very little clothing (He isn’t disapproving of the sex industry or sex workers per say, he just doesn’t ‘get it’; he could never imagine himself in their shoes), nor is he a fan of other people trying to change him to be more chill about his aesthetic code (how he dresses, how he positively interacts with others, etc.) - but he tends to be more quiet about his dislike of these things. He tries to stay open minded and patient, but yeah, maybe it’ll take a bit longer to get to ‘close friend’ status with these things.

What are their idiosyncrasies? (special mannerisms?) His posture tends to be stiff as a board: too perfect, like some sort of breathing statue or mechanic humanoid, while at other times it’s as if a switch is flipped to make him become a crazy slapstick ragdoll. He tends to speak in a constant fluctuation of ‘ye olde English’ and common casual speech, and he keeps a few feet distance from people he isn’t especially close with at all times. He’s generous with money and far too trusting of strangers to the point it feels like an overblown parody of these traits. He’s painfully optimistic and takes compliments first with a moment of surprise before he adjusts his reaction with over-the-top narcissistic vigor. He’s a constantly faltering image of himself. He’s a walking symbolism of good-hearted chaos.

Friends and Family

Is their family big or small? Who does it consist of? The only people Alus regards as true family is his twin brother, Arc, and his late adoptive father, Gwenneg. There are other Beauregards in the world, and other great “found family”-esque friends yet to make, but Alus cannot imagine them ever meeting the kind of friendship and connection he has with his brother and had with his father. Perhaps he’s tried in the past, but it just never feels the same. He’s at the point he’s given up on the idea of it happening casually.

What is their perception of family? A close-knit group that is always there for eachother, practically living at eachother’s hips. The type of people you can just glance at and they can read your mind, and even if they disagree with you, they’ll go along with you and fix it later. They’re always up for improving eachother. They are essentially extensions of oneself, and like limbs, even if such is cut - it is carefully looked after and healed, the rest of the body worries and tries to better it, never blaming it’s limb for not being good enough. All part of one system.

Describe their best friend. Arc is undeniably Alus’ best friend. I feel a bit weird talking about my friend’s OC for them, but I will say this; Arc’s strengths are in his slow and strategic approach to things; his love of politics and ability to glide through them, the way he finds the best routes and setups in battle, the timing, everything down to the little tiniest details to turn a battle of either wits or blood - he thinks over all of it, something Alus lacks. And despite being much less prone to trust than the willingly naive Alus, he can find the good in just about anybody when it really comes down to it. Arc knows the dark side of this world and is constantly aware and remembering of it, but understands it’s still worth fighting for. He’s also got a pretty good fashion sense! He seems extremely shady when it comes to his bar business though... It seems to be played up as a joke, but you’re never quite sure as you’re talking to him about it.

Ideal best friend? In assumption this means ‘a best friend besides Arc’, I think Alus’ standards are low. Of course, he’d love to have someone who shares his basic interests of aesthetics and his moral philosophy that centralizes on a love for humanity, and the honor and strength of action to act on it, but he also wants to know someone who can teach him a lot. I think that type of person could be absolutely anyone, especially someone that is nothing like him. Alus doesn’t want to necessarily completely change himself through the journey of knowing anothers’ life, nor change someone else entirely either, even if it’s for the better. He just wants mutual understanding with others. He finds a joy that can be found nowhere else when he feels two people, who don’t have anything in common, can find a common ground. This kind of thing excites him. I think something in-between -- someone who is a lot like him in a lot of ways, but has a few traits he lacks completely -- is ideal for him. 

Describe their other friends / Describe their acquaintances. (combo’d) Alus doesn’t really have other people he regards true friends, I think. He kinda regards every person he meets as his friends. That’s really all there is to it for him.

Do they have any pets? No pets, just a lot of animals that follow him around for food scraps and snacks. He always has an open window for birds and butterflies, and an open door to dodos and chickens and stray cats. He enjoys the company of birds the most, though he’s a fan of the loyal doggy too. In terms of his mounts - He mainly only claims ownership over his military-issued chocobo for paperwork purposes, but regards her as a friend without a voice more than an animal under his ownership.  

Who are their natural allies? Anyone who agrees for humanitarian rights, I think. Alus just exists to be a hero, really.

Who are their surprising allies? People he once fought. He always reaches out a hand for people who’ve made mistakes and tells them that he’ll be their friend if they agree to stop their mean-spirited behavior.

Past and Future

What was your character like as a baby? As a child? Equal combination “good kid” and “absolute little shit”; On the surface, he’d always be loyal to his father and polite to strangers, but the second he and his brother got some time to themselves they’d get into all kinds of shenanigans - especially if they manage to find some way to conceal their identity. Most of those shenanigans were pranks trying to scare people with All Saint’s Wake-esque props. They were also a time they were absolutely not above purposely trying to confuse people on which brother was which whenever it was convenient or just funny.

Did they grow up rich or poor? Poor, but I think he still thought himself as lucky. He might not have had a big room to himself or a lot of possessions, but he got to travel the world and meet so many interesting people and see so many interesting things in his father’s caravan.

Did they grow up nurtured or neglected? Nurtured for sure. His family were joined at the hip.

What is the most offensive thing they ever said? I’m sure Alus used to have a potty mouth when he was a kid and young teen. He picked it up from being exposed to so many different individuals growing up. If he’s been around a lot of sailors in Lima Lominsa, I think it’s a safe bet that he probably swore like one too. After his father died that changed almost immediately though in order to honor his dad’s memory.

What is their greatest achievement? I’m sure there’s much more impressive individual achievements he has accomplished - monsters he’s fought, hostage situations he’s negotiated, villains he’s managed to persuade to become heroes, but if you asked him, he’d tell you that simply being lucky enough to be chosen to become one of the Warriors of Light or opening his cafe are the achievements he’s most proud of.

What was their first kiss like? [spoiler]Still haven’t had it![/spoiler]

What is the worst thing they did to someone they loved? I feel like even though Alus adored his father, he probably did a lot of things to make him worried or stressed out, maybe even ran away once or twice just for the fun of it. It was a lot more innocent time for Alus and I don’t think he’d do anything like that in adulthood.

What are their ambitions? Alus just wants to end all war. Full stop. It’s not that complicated. He doesn’t really know the most effective way how to, though. He just keeps doing whatever he can when people request his help - which usually ends up taking advantage of his physical combat skills.

What advice would they give their younger self? Cherish this time. Hug your father and tell him you love him more often. And maybe focus on being a medic or someone who helps the world peacefully more than someone who uses violence to solve the world’s problems. Maybe care a little more about politics.

What smells remind them of their childhood? Chamomile, road dust, seasalt,  and old fancy dusty antiques. 

What was their childhood ambition? To grow up to be a glamorous warrior that saves the world again and again and to rescue a pretty princess.

What is their best childhood memory? Dancing on the streets of Ul’dah with his brother for a little extra pocket money and becoming unexpectedly popular.

What is their worst childhood memory? Losing his father to the calamity and being passed between temporary foster homes again and again, then finally losing his brother in that mess, too.

Did they have an imaginary childhood friend? Alus left out honeyed milk for faeries all the time as a child. Post-calamity, he started to quietly make-believe that faeries and little unicorns visited him when he was particularly lonely or bored, or just wanted to escape his own mind for awhile.

When was the last time they were crushed with disappointment? [FFXIV POST-STORMBLOOD SPOILER]Hearing about Zenos’ body being revived against Zenos’ wishes for a perfect death.[/SPOILER]

What past act are they most ashamed of? Any time Alus can’t save someone from death. Sometimes, Alus must be the one to kill them himself. This is an unbearable sin to bear for him.

What past act are they most proud of? Any time he can save someone. Any time he can help the suffering of someone by giving a little coin. Every time he has made someone smile. It is all the most cherishable, wonderful memories to him. None better than the others.

Has anyone ever saved their life? His twin brother Arc probably on at least a weekly basis. I think saving eachothers’ lives is a regular thing on a battlefield, even if your ally is basically a stranger.

Strongest childhood memory? Just sitting underneath the stars, curled up under a blanket with his brother while they rest their head on their father’s lap as he reads them bedtime stories.

Love

Do they believe in love at first sight? Absolutely. Guy will trust anyone at the drop of a hat, why not fall in love, too?

Are they in a relationship? Not officially, no. I think he casually flirts a lot and has gone out on sporadic dates with many people, but he hasn’t become anyone’s “steady”.

How do they behave in a relationship? Alus is extremely inexperienced. I think he’ll end up trying so hard to show off to whoever he’s dating that he’ll become exhausted. He wants to treat his future spouse like royalty.

When did you character last have sex? [SPOILER]Never![/SPOILER]

What sort of sex do they have? Nothing kinky or out there, he’s a shy confused mess to begin with when it comes to sex - he’s probably very reserved and traditional about it. I should note that Alus is canonically asexual, even if he doesn’t fully realize it yet. He doesn’t really understand the appeal of sex but he’d want his significant other to be happy. [NSFW/18+] He’d definitely insist on being a top, though. [/SAFE!]

Has your character ever been in love? As an greyromantic writer, I have no fucking solid idea what romantic love is supposed to be defined as. If you define it as ‘fantasizing about having a certain person in mind as a future spouse’ then, yes, Alus has been in love loads of times.

Have they ever had their heart broken? Many times, but it rarely gets him down for too long - he’ll fall in love with the next person he sees, then the cycle restarts.

Conflict

How do they respond to a threat? A fake, forced smile. Explaining calmly to the enemy that what they’re doing is wrong. Explaining calmly to the enemy to drop it and go drink tea with him instead. If being calm doesn’t work, yelling at them about their hypocritical morality like some sort of shounen superhero making a speech.

Are they most likely to fight with their fists or their tongue? Tongue, for sure. Alus will be so painfully reasonable with his enemies that the only way he’s drawing his sword to fight is someone else draws first.

What is your character’s kryptonite? Like any hero, he’s a sucker for hostages. Also, math completely turns him fucking stupid. [SPOILER]Also... having his morality questioned, especially being accused of being a hypocrite.[/SPOILER]

If your character could only save one thing from their burning house, what would it be? A faerie tale storybook from his childhood his father read to him often when he was alive.

How do they perceive strangers? “A friend he doesn’t know yet.”

What do they love to hate? I don’t really imagine Alus truly ‘hates’ anything or anyone, just greatly dislikes or disapproves of them. And even then I think he doesn’t particularly enjoy disliking them. I don’t think he views negative feelings as something to be prideful over.

What are their phobias? Slugs and other slimy creatures, as well as mild situational claustrophobia.

What is their choice of weapon? His fists, for sure; there’s some sort of philosophy inside his mind that fighting with his bare hands or body without tools or weapons to aid him is the ultimate form of respect towards other human beings’ pain and livelihood - he wants them to know he shall feel pain right back if he strikes someone else, and he’s allowing himself the possibility to be hurt in return.

What living person do they most despise? I think anyone who justifies war or pain as a glorious and wonderful thing instead of a tragedy is someone he dislikes. Especially if said person has no respect for human life or the bodies of the fallen.

Have they ever been bullied or teased? Plenty. Unfortunately mostly his given name is particularly targetted. He’s also been called too soft plenty of times.

Where do they go when they’re angry? Home - his house is well soundproofed and cozy. He may go on an off-trail walk alone in the middle of Thanalan or the like.

Who are their enemies and why? The Garlean army, the Ascians.. do you really need to ask why? They wish to create death and chaos, that’s plenty of a reason enough.

Work, Education and Hobbies

What is their current job? Maelstrom military field medic, café proprietor, free paladin

What do they think about their current job? The café is seemingly always empty, but he doesn’t mind continuing to pour money into it. It’s a safe haven to him and a symbol of his independence from the violent life of military duty. Being a field medic is endlessly horrifying, but he’s glad he can help people. His status of Free Paladin makes him obligated to carry out duties to help Eorzea, which is something he’s proud of - but he is always not all that great at drawing his sword at the sign of trouble.

What are some of their past jobs? The only other “jobs” Alus has had in the past were mostly just side jobs for a little extra pocket money, mostly dancing on the street.

What are their hobbies? Dancing, capoeira martial arts, piano, tea brewing, baking, reading, writing, sketching, watercolor art, goldsmithing, fashion, bird keeping.

Educational background? Went to a school for accounting for a few years. He retained absolutely no information about accounting.

Intelligence level? Literate; can read older more complex texts easily. Good with maps. More of a “physical education” kinda guy.

Do they have any specialist training? Paladin training. Nothing else formal.

Do they have a natural talent for something? Weirdly incredibly good at parkour - stuff like navigating tightropes and climbing up buildings without any hesitation or struggle.

What is their socioeconomic status? At the moment, Alus is pretty well-off. He and his brother own their own business in the Lavender Beds, and Alus can afford high class clothes, hobbies, furniture and the like. He’s also prone to donate to charity near constantly.

Favourites

What is their favourite animal? whatever birds are ROUND

Which animal to they dislike the most? S L U G S

What place would they most like to visit? His cafe, honestly. It’s a safe haven.

What is the most beautiful thing they’ve ever seen? People.

What is their favourite song? Simply Satie

Music, art, reading preferred? Alus loves playing piano, drawing sketches and reading storybooks. I don’t think he could trade one for the other! (He’s awful at singing though.)

What is their favourite colour? Pale blue, white, yellow-gold, and pastel pink.

What is their password? “Password”. Nobody will ever get it!

Favourite food: La Noscean toast! (AKA French toast!) with lots of berries and whipped cream!

Who is their favourite artist? ??? ((OOC: if Alphonse Mucha was in FFXIV it’d be him idk))

What is their favourite day of the week? E V E R Y D A Y (but probably mostly Sunday)

Possessions

What is in their fridge: Fresh salad, fruits, fresh berries, vegetables, tofu, jackfruit, orange juice, leftover strawberry shortcake, protein shakes, leftover rice, eggs, butter, yogurt, frozen berries... and even fresh flowers?

What is on their bedside table? A dozen lighthearted fairytale and academic books on aether he recycles through reading every night as he goes to bed, a pitcher & glass of water, a vase with a flower in it, reading glasses, 3 inch tall lil stuffed dodo.

What is in their bin? Compost bin for old fruits/vegetables/egg shells/bread and a recycling bin full of paper and packaging garbage.

What is in their bag? A lot of coin, a hairbrush, a box of ice chilled flowers, travel-size beauty products, lots of fireworks and other fun little spectacle toys, a pocket-sized book of poetry, a basic armor polishing set, a miniature sewing kit, bandages, healing potions.

What is their most treasured possession? A very old and damaged book of fairy tales from his childhood.

Spirituality

Who or what is your character’s guardian angel? His adoptive father - at least, that’s what he wants to believe.

Do they believe in the afterlife? Yes! Very much so.

What are their religious views? [SPOILER]Alus has a complicated relationship with religion. For the most part of his life, he’s believed in The Twelve like every other Eorzean, but as he’s grown older he’s found himself more and more impatient and even disgusted of the cruelties that the gods allow to happen, and the ways followers of Nald’thal and Halone use their religion as a means to prey on the weak for the sake of money, classism, and racial disparity. Hearing the words of Garlean soldiers point out that proof that The Twelve exist is seemingly nonexistent has further disrupted Alus’ belief in them. Alus does, however, firmly believe in Hydaelyn.[/SPOILER]

What do they think heaven is? Alus has no true confident belief in what exactly the seven heavens are, but he likes to think heaven is a place where flowers bloom all the time, the weather is always warm and sunny, bugs don’t bother you and war and violence never happen, and relaxing tea parties are hosted all day long, clothes are comfortable and pretty and never soiled by dirt and mud no matter how much you play in the grass.

What do they think hell is? Like many Eorzeans, Alus believes in the seven hells. The seven hells are a place that one must climb out of to eventually make it to heaven, and depending on how bad of a person you were in life, the deeper in hell you start out in after you die, and the more you have to climb before you get upward into heaven. Alus finds great comfort in this ideology because it means that no matter how bad a person was in life, they may still find forgiveness and redemption in death.

Are they superstitious? I think he’s open-minded. He seems to discover so many legends of being real every day that it’s difficult for him not to believe in anything and everything he hears. He tries to be respectful of the unknown and follow their rules, but when push comes to shove it’s all about the grandest happiness for everyone - he will challenge whatever fae or ghostly apparition that wants to mess with him if he thinks what they’re doing is immoral or unfair. 

What would they like to be reincarnated as? A stream. A rosebush. A rainbow. Something that others can look at and feel at peace, something for others to enjoy. A way to give love without living a life that inevitably creates suffering through heroism. To just exist as part of the beauty in the world.

How would they like to die? He doesn’t know. Death scares him. He does not want to die in battle. He does not want to die sleeping in a bed. But he wishes he’ll be old. He wishes he’ll have lots of friends. And he wishes he did everything he could while he was alive to make the world a better place as much as he possibly could.

What animal is most like your character, spiritually speaking? .... A golden retriever. Eager to please, extremely loving and loyal, a strong body, picky about weird things, and incredibly goofy.

Values

What do they think is the worst thing that can be done to a person? Betrayal?? torture?? bullying?? rape?? what do you want from me. He hates all forms of toxic and violent behavior!!

What is their view of ‘freedom’? The ability to form your own path; the ability to be whatever you want, even if the dream seems impossible to everyone else. The ability to go anywhere you want, walk and run anywhere you want, travel anywhere you want. The ability to say no when you want. The ability to be respected as independent.

How often do they lie? NEVER!!!!!!! He might bend the truth a little bit or side-step an answer but even white lies he’s not into. He rarely needs to white lie about anything anyway; he tends to see the best in everything.

What’s their view of lying? BAD AND UNNESSESARY

How often do they make promises? Constantly.

How often do they keep or break their promises? He 100% keeps his promises unless he’s literally physically incapacitated and in which case he will apologize and try to make it up to you so much

Daily life

What are their eating habits? Vegetarian. He eats really healthy and he eats a lot. Big fan of asian food I think. Has no problems eating stuff that’s bland as hell; I feel like it’s part of his determination to better himself. Has a terrible weakness for sweets, though. Secretly hates stuff that’s slimy, like mushrooms, but he will never complain if it’s given to him.

Do they have any allergies? Nope, he’s lucky. If he does, he hasn’t discovered it yet.

Describe their home. Very white, tons of gold nouveau trim on everything, and tons of flowers everywhere. Looks like the home of royalty. [Here’s his housing aesthetic.]

Are they minimalist or a clutter hoarder? Neither, I think. Maybe leaning closer to minimalist over clutter-lover; he likes everything being clean and easy to access in his house. His design aesthetic of nouveau isn’t necessarily minimalist in inherent style though imo.

What do they do first thing on a weekday morning? Wakes up extra early, takes a quick cool shower to wake himself up, eats a quick and simple breakfast full of protein; most likely something with a lot of nuts and eggs as it’s ingredients + big salad. packs a simple lunchbox and starts his day: Every morning, he walks to the statues of Nald and Thal, viewing the warm pink sunrise in the process. he pays his respects to each; cleans and dusts with a simple cleaning kit he’s left there prior. Leaves some simple offerings. Finds somewhere nice and empty in Thanalan to do some excercises and martial arts training for the day. sits down and eats lunch afterwards. lazily walks home, takes another quick shower to get the sweat and dust off. while his hair is drying, he puts on makeup and decides a proper outfit to wear for the day. meets up with arc, goes on their obliged military-issued mission for the day.

What do they do on a Sunday afternoon? Makes an effort to drag Arc over to his place for a big fancy dinner. Tea and crumpets as an early evening appetizer. Alus cooks everything while Arc hangs out and talks, lending a bit of help when Alus demands asks for him. Arc sneaks in alcohol. Alus yells at him. repeat next week.

What do they do on a Friday night? this but like, outside, alone, in the middle of thanalan somewhere

What is the soft drink of choice? If soft drinks existed in Eorzea I can’t help but feel like Alus is one of those freaks who don’t like any of them.

What is their alcoholic drink of choice? NO

Miscellaneous

What is their character archetype? This question originally linked to some basic archetypes, but I already have TVtropes collected and they’re far more interesting as an answer imo SO: [All-Loving Hero], [Reluctant Warrior], [Cloudcuckoolander], [Warrior Poet], [Stepford Smiler], [Motor Mouth], [Large Ham], [Stupid Good], [In Touch With His Feminine Side], [The Fashionista], [Light Is Good], [Flower Motifs], [Declaration of Protection].

Who is their hero? I don’t think Alus has a specific person in mind that isn’t fictional - fact is, nobody is as perfect as the type of person he strives to be. I think he finds traits of admirable heroism everywhere in people, though. Everything from his friends who fight for the good of the world no matter what, from the villain who unexpectedly saves someone while nobody else is watching, to the single mother who works hard to raise her children, to the homeless people who just continue to fight on to live even when everything feels so hopeless around them. I think he sees traits in others he wishes he had all the time. He wants to embody all the good traits of everyone. And I should mention, if one is to have a ‘hero’, it is expected that person to be better than one, yes? I don’t think Alus believes he’s particularly better than anyone else, especially in their positive traits.

What or who would your character dress up as for Halloween? Alus goes HARD on All Saint’s Wake. He and Arc’s signature best costume always ends up being these hyper-realistic ghost costumes that they trick out with special glamours, magic, and tech to surprise the passerby. If it doesn’t genuinely scare someone, it isn’t enough!

Are they comfortable with technology? I think he’s absolutely got the boomer brain when it comes to allagan technology. He can get by fixing old mechanical clocks and the like but when it comes to allagan stuff, he’s just absolutely out of his element. He’ll certainly listen if someone wants to try explaining it to him, but it’ll take considerable time before he fully “gets it” and usually when he does, it’s more on blind faith and an ability to follow basic directions more than true understanding. I think in general it just doesn’t really interest him and if he’s going to spend the time and energy to learn about it, he’d rather use that energy on his other interests - books, physical training, baking and the like. (Modern AU: He’s absolutely the guy still using an ancient flip phone because “It still works!” Also, he capitalizes and uses perfect grammar in all his extremely-hard-to-type number code texts.)

If they could save one person, who would it be? It’s a difficult question, because of course - the first person to come to mind is Arc. But the thing is, Arc can take care of himself. And Alus knows this. Alus trusts this. So when it comes down to choosing between Arc and someone less capable.. Alus will most likely help the less capable person. If Arc is hurt, Alus knows he’ll forgive him. But if Arc were to die? And it be Alus’ fault? It would utterly crush him.

If they could call one person for help, who would it be? Arc, of course. There’s nobody Alus would rather have by his side while dealing with problems.

What is their favourite proverb? “Since it is likely that children will meet cruel enemies, let them at least have heard of brave knights and courage.” – C.S. Lewis (Personally my fav proverb in thinkin about Alus is “Because the world is so full of death and horror, I try again and again to console my heart and pick the flowers that grow in the midst of hell.” – Hermann Hesse)

What is their greatest extravagance? This is kind of a depressing and even controversial answer, but it’s honestly any time he has ducked out from military duty with or without permission when all of it has just gotten to him too much. He knows that him not being there will be more of a problem than a solution - he knows that - but any moment he can just pretend, for a moment, that he’s just a normal man running a normal little girlish cafe during a time without war.. That’s his greatest extravagance.  

What is their greatest regret? The amount of enemies he has been forced to down when talk wasn’t enough is piling higher and higher every moon cycle. It’s an absolute horror. He tries so hard to be nonlethal as possible. He’s studied so much how to avoid vital organs, how to down someone without hurting them badly, but no matter what there is always the chance of there being a prior injury he didn’t know about, or a undiagnosed medical problem that was just activated by the smallest knock.. That isn’t even to mention the people who have been hurt because the people he talked down didn’t keep their word or stood back up when he thought they’d stay asleep. No matter what, he just isn’t enough to save everyone. Why is it that no matter how hard he works to have this ideal of pacifism, it never works completely? Why is it never enough?

What is their perception of redemption? That the unwavering truth of this world is that people are fundamentally capable of change. He refuses to believe otherwise, no matter what. Perhaps it is an active choice instead of an instinctual one, nobody is certain for Alus’ mindful case. He believes the expectation for lifelong punishment for a past crime is petty and cruel, and in itself deters people from switching sides for the better. He believes anyone and everyone deserves the right to have the choice to right their wrongs at any time. Don’t misunderstand though - He understands sometimes people are far too gone for simply dropping everything they’ve done and that’s enough to erase their mistakes - he knows that some people can only find rightful redemption in the afterlife after execution, even if execution is not an ideal solution to stopping them in his eyes. But he prays for them. He’ll never give up on anyone.

What would they do if they won the lottery? Back into investments or savings to get an even bigger profit later. Alus knows how to play the smart long game. But uh... If the fates play a trick and he sees a beautiful fashion piece in a shop window, maybe that won’t last too long. He’s also notoriously overly generous with money to the needy, he spends money on service tips like pouring water out of a glass. Money is always moving, and if he starts to run low, he just works a little harder to get back to the comfort zone. He’s in a pretty good place in his life monetarily wise atm already.

What is their favourite fairytale? It’s difficult to answer this because I don’t know what sorts of stories exist in Eorzean canon! But I can say that the real-world 1986 manga “The Sword of Paros” is a huge inspiration to Alus’ character. It’s about a person born with the title of ‘Princess’ who believes to have been born the wrong gender, and does everything in their power to prove themselves worthy of the title of ‘Prince’ despite immeasurable odds against them from their family and their country. The hero also falls in love with a commoner woman who wishes nothing more to be loved by the idyllic image of a charming knight in shining armor that comes and rescues her, and their love is ultimately tragic as it’s also not recognized as valid.. but the prince never stops fighting for his title and the right of his love, and the ability for them both to be happy. Though the story ends without the ideal conclusion, the very concept of these characters fighting against all odds for something genuinely better for the whole world is something Alus is really all about. (Also, seriously, read this manga. It’s groundbreaking. It’s Utena done right.)

What fairytale do they hate? Any faerietales that have unhappy endings, or seem to focus strongly on tragedy or pessimistic ideas of realism in the world. That tends to fall into the category of ‘cautionary tales’ most the time. He’s also really not a fan of stories with body horror or gore.

Do they believe in happy endings? I think he believes that happy endings should always be the goal, but I don’t think he truly accepts that they actually exist. He understands that happiness and safety is always temporary, and this is why he should always strive to make the world a better place. If he helps someone get to a point that they’re happy, healthy, and safe - he’ll just move on to the next person who needs his help. A happy ending for himself though? I think he’s not confident in it, but he wants to live every day to the fullest as he can before he dies. He accepts this as part of his duty - he knows he’s living on ultimately borrowed time.

What is their idea of perfect happiness? Being in love, being surrounded by people you love, having the support of others you trust and having the ability to spoil the people you care about. Having a home you’ll never be kicked out of.. And no war that you have to leave to. No people you have to harm. Just the peace to drink tea with your former enemies as you gaze out onto flowers on a warm day... That’s all he ever wants.

What would they ask a fortune teller? I think he’s concerned if he’ll ever someone to truly share his life with besides his brother. He just really wants a good friend.. Ideally, someone attractive he can hold the hand of!

If your character could travel through time, where would they go? Before the Calamity. He’d just want to listen to his father tell him a few more stories again. He misses the peacefulness of his childhood, the certainty that someone out there stronger than him loved him and wanted to keep him safe, the ability to ignore his own call to war... He wouldn’t so selfish to want to try and bend fate enough to save his father, though he would if he had the chance.. But he knows it’s impossible.

What sport do they excel at? (Modern AU) He was definitely a cheerleader in highschool and/or college, I feel like. Probably into dancing! And ofc a dedicated martial artist. I feel like he’d be pretty good at football and wrestling too - games that require a bulky build to be great at - but he just doesn’t have a particular interest in either of those.

What sport do they suck at? (Modern AU) Probably stuff like archery and tennis -  not only would he’d thrive better in big team sports, he’s just not much for long-range dexterity. He’d also be absolutely incompetent as an esports competitor lmfao.

If they could have a superpower, what would they choose? Anything that was especially effective at saving peoples’ lives. Time travel to stop mistakes before they happen or say the right thing before a war breaks out, super effective healing powers... anything. Just to stop suffering and death.

[piracytheorist]

Trans!Hope headcanons

Pre-transition: Before even finding out about what being trans and what being cis means, she always asks to have long hair - especially after Killian starts saying how his own mother’s hair had the same colour. Emma and Killian let her have it long, but don’t think much of it.

Said colour is so pretty that a lot of (cis) girls at school tell her they wished they had that colour. It makes her feel closer to them and boosts her confidence through her dysphoria.

After she turns eleven, they start suspecting something, but because Archie continues to be the only psychologist in town, they find a therapist outside of Storybrooke who is trans himself and have a first chat.

After that, they finally have a chat with Hope (whose previous name I haven’t decided on) and it’s like a burden is lifted off her shoulders. They’re fully supportive, Killian himself has met a lot of trans folk but none of them had the medical assistance provided by our world, but still he has a lot of stories to tell her about the people he’s known.

To her, it’s kinda funny that she can talk with the therapist about something that troubled her as long as she remembered, but she can’t mention anything about magic - an everyday happening in Storybrooke - to him.

They go through the basic evaluation, and she finally chooses her own name as Hope, and starts taking puberty blockers.

Unexpectedly, she finds herself confiding in Alice and Robyn over her fear of people not being fine over her transition. They’re the first to not tell her something akin to “Just be who you wanna be” and instead understand her fully about it and let her talk her frustrations out.

When she’s fifteen she goes with her parents, Alice, Robyn and Wish Hook to the Boston Pride Parade. 

(After they come back they start planning on making one in Storybrooke for the United Realms the next year)

She loses herself in books with trans protagonists, eventually starting to write her own stories aside from the whumpy fanfics she writes of course

She experiments a bit with looks and hairs and all but ends up adopting a kinda bohemian style, letting her wild curly hair long and free.

She meets a lot of people through the internet and spends her twenties travelling across the world, the new places on Earth as majestic and enchanting as the trips she’s taken across the United Realms.

(Those travels spur her creativity and she finally starts publishing her novels, hoping her works can help young trans folk the way her favourite books had helped her)

(After a while, it’s literally impossible to have a conversation with Henry and Hope once both are in the same room, cause they go down huge rabbit holes on books and writing)

(Henry writes fantasy books, Hope writes coming-of-age stories and crime mysteries)

She becomes quite famous for the realism in her works, and so many people, especially trans teenagers, want to meet her, and sometimes she attends writing conventions and stuff but her whole backstory and place of origin and terrific, surprising knowledge of ships and sailing are a complete mystery to not only her fans but also her publishers.

(She has the time of her life when asked about that stuff. Every time she’s asked on it she gives a different answer on purpose. It’s only her experience on being trans that she’s honest and open about)

[swallowedinthestars]

Thank you lovely  @blueberry-beanie and @flamingplay for tagging and just being overall amazing hoomans! 

Do you make your bed?

I will on weekends when I’m not a zombie in the morning!

Your favourite number?

26...and probably 42 heh!

If you could go back to school, would you?

I’m still in school! Well I basically committed to another 2 years in a master’s program. I’ve always been kinda a school nerd haha. I’m grateful for education because it’s given me a lot and I love science.

Can you parallel park?

I live in LA, so its a darn crime that I’m terrible at it. The only times I’ve been successful were when friends in my car helped me out.

A job you had that would surprise people?

Hmm...my jobs over the last couple of years have all involved working outdoors doing field work, usually with plants. Currently I work on a restoration project in the Angeles National Forest. On my last job, I got to help reintroduce a beaver into a canyon and wow that was wild. She may have escaped once.....

Do you think aliens are real?

I would never disregard the chance, considering how vast out universe is and how much is still unknown. Are we really all that’s here?

Can you drive manual?

Nooooo. But I’m always proud/amazed by a few friends that can.

Guilty pleasure?

Watching animal crossing vine videos which are nothing short of masterpieces.

Tattoos?

I have two...and probably will get more but I have them in somewhat concealed places so far. One for Coldplay’s song Yellow, which is a moon with clouds/stars. Another with my pen pal from hs, which is an envelope (that some confuse for an ‘email’ symbol but that’s ok). 

Favourite colour?

Love deep dark blues and greens. And I wear a lot of yellow sometimes.

Favourite type of music?

Oof! I guess I mainly listen to alternative/indie rock. All the bands or songwriters I listen to stemmed from falling in love with Coldplay those many years ago. I’ve branched out a lot and always love suggestions from friends. I definitely love some good old guitars with sassy vocals (like Young the Giant and Hunny) or more layered jams (like Foals and Wolf Alice). Idk what I’m talking about tbh...

Things people do that drive you crazy?

I don’t like when people drag others down because of their own insecurities. Also not a fan of people being inconsiderate of others!! Apathy really really annoys me.

Do you like doing puzzles?

Sometimes! I have one friend who I will specifically make plans to do a puzzle with because she really loves them.

Any phobias?

Not formally, but I am afraid of being swept up in the ocean sometimes...

Do you talk to yourself?

I am guilty of this. Usually it’s about complete nonsense.

Favourite childhood sport?

I was so bad at sports. PE used to give me nightmares. I played tennis and soccer but quit both. Sorry mom.

What movie do you adore?

I don’t watch a lot of them....but Pride and Prejudice and Ratatouille put me in a good mood. 

Coffee or tea?

I love tea and drink it multiple times a day. So grateful for tea!

First thing you wanted to be when you grew up?

I wanted to be a vet when I was a kid because I love animals. But I grew up and realized it would make me sad! Props to those who pursue.veterinary medicine tho! 

I will tag.... @xandwhy and really anyone else who is down to share!

[lordeasriel]

Ok, I’ve read chapters 1-11 of The Secret Commonwealth and this is my set of impressions so far. I’m using the audiobook, which is wonderful and I recommend it! Under the cut for spoilery reasons:

First and foremost, the audiobook: Michael Sheen is A-MA-ZING! And because he did La Belle Sauvage too, lots of voices are recognisable and I love it. Pan sounds a lot like young Malcolm, but less sweet and more sharp and snappish and it’s beautiful. Marcel has hints of Bonneville = Papadimitriou aka disgustingly smooth but scholary and witty. Lyra sounds amazing; Alice and Hannah have the same voices as they did in LBS (i love you michael for this). Malcolm has a mix of Coram’s voice and Asriel’s voice, he sounds worldly and sexy scholarly at the same time, I love it! Olivier sounds like a lil bitch.

I love the part where Lyra is telling Miriam about her origin story and it’s added that she wasn’t sure about the horse, but she liked it. She won’t give up on the romantic vibes of Asriel saving her, first the swordfight, now a horse lmao;

“I saw someone being mudered” Pantalaimon no chills lmao I love this adult Pan, he is so special to me, but then again I always loved him and his grumpy mood.

The Hyperchorasmians: this was such a wild moment, I laughed out loud and was like “is this a self meta?” but someone did brought to my attention it may be a self parody, I love it regardless.

Pantalaimon saying "I do exist (...) we exist” and so on, was really powerful, because it feels like a horrible existential crisis and I get his anger with Lyra and I feel his entitled to it. Right now, they’re struggling with their sense of self, yet they are one, and while Lyra finds that concept interesting, Pan is afraid because the same concept suggests he ain’t even real. In our world, our existential crisis consists of asking “do i exist or not?” but in Lyra’s world, is like asking if only a part of you is real and that’s bloody horrible to even think about.

I love how smoothly Pullman retconned Alice’s age, in “Lyra now thought she wasn’t as old as she first thought” like yeah my man, nice try, but I see through the lies of the jedi your retcon, yet I love it all the same lmao I’m glad she’s alive and well.

I love that remark of Lyra having learned how to charm people and manipulate information out of them with her wits and small talk. That’s such a Marisa trait, at least as I always perceived her and it really made be bubbly and cheerful as I noticed that.

I also noticed how Lyra refers to Asriel either by his name or as Lord Asriel, and she still refers to Marisa as Mrs. Coulter, although she acknowledges them as father and mother when other people refer to them that way. I’m a little sad she doesn’t refer to them as mom and dad, but then again i feel like they never earned that treatment from her and I get it.

Pan suggesting Malcolm and Alice may be lovers and Lyra stares at him then ignores him because the mere thought of it it’s inconceivable LMAO

Lyra remembering Asriel’s moonlight walk with her was too much for me, that’s as emotional as I’m gonna get. It really made me sad that Asriel was living hand to mouth and that he left her nothing; to think that his most recent luxury was his house arrest on Svalbard is, well, sad.

On a happier note, Dr Carne supporting Lyra is my favourite thing. He cared enough about her to actually give her a home and support, and I think people should respect him more. This guy is the father Lyra had, however quirky the entire situation was and I have an immense love for this character.

Oh my God, I cannot believe they kept Lyra in the dark for so long. She is so fucking clueless about everything! What is wrong with those people? Tell the girl everything for fuck’s sake! The moment she snapped I snapped too; for fuck’s sake, she should have known about that stuff the moment she came back from the other worlds. Also, the fact she does not know about Asriel and Marisa is infuriating, but that one I can forgive because they kinda did threw themselves into a fucking void and didn’t wanr anyone about it, so...

HOW THE FUCK IS THE MAGISTERIUM STILL STRONG???? I am so fucking angry! I can understand why it takes a long time for them to dissolve entirely, but they are still strong and influential and Asriel’s war was for absolutely nothing. He and Marisa died for nothing, everyone that died there died for nothing and I am so angry because I hate theocracies with every fiber of my fucking being and I AM SO FUCKING SMAD;

Lyra does mention “the witches of the north” and that got me thinking that there may be more types of witches around the world and that not all of them have split daemons. But I don’t know, just a thought.

I only read 11 chapters, but so far I am 95% percent sure Lyra and Olivier are going to end up together by the end of the third book. I will not elaborate on this now since I have very little to go on with, but I will speak more as I read more. I do not approve of this, but I fear this may be the route Sir Phil is going for. I hope I am wrong.

Malcolm’s description of his feelings for Lyra are creepy and cringe. If he only, I don’t know, “discovered” his feelings for her recently, I could overlook it with a certain frown, but he’s been having those weird ass feelings since she was his student and a minor and that’s creepy, to say the least. I know he acknowledges that what he felt wrong was wrong and weird, and wow, thank god, but the fact he indulges himself on those feelings now that she’s older is weird. I feel like Pullman is deceiving us, I’m just not sure. I love Malcolm, I do, and I am slightly attracted to him now lmaoooo but no, you see? No. Not okay, but as I said before, I don’t think they’re ending up together. I hope I am right.

Also the way Pullman describes it lmaoooo “Malcolm Polstead, age 31, was in love with Lyra” or something like that. It was so funny, I felt like I was read a very well-written fanfiction that suddenly the author had a stroke and wrote as if they’re 12 and in love. It was very cringe, I don’t know, I was embarassed on Malcolm’s behalf.

I really love that Oakley Street is still going strong, sort of lol and that Malcolm is now a member and I hope we get to see more of them. I love spies and I love Oakley Street and I’m sad Nugent is dead.

Makepeace referring to Pan as “my boy” warms my heart because it shows the daemons’ treatment we should see and treat them: they are people and they have feelings and they exist and should be acknowledged. I just cherish the whole conflict between Lyra and Pan because this is what it feels so far: the struggle of being who they are and the pain that comes with it.

I have an unpopular opinion here, but I love the relationship between Pan and Lyra; I love their banter, their fight, their anger with each other. It feels right, although I am sad that they are fighting a lot because of the existence business, I think Lyra is really being inconsiderate with Pan. But, I think their constant disagreement is in-character; they always disagreed with each other, they always were very different from each other, so I love that they struggle with that, it’s just sad that they’re bordering on self-loathing and they need to work on that. I want them to find the spark of love they had, but not to the point where they are clingy again; they’re people and they’re different and they are the same person, so they need to come to terms with that. It really hurt me when Pan had to yell that he exists, that hit so close to home and I don’t know, I felt speechless for a moment.

Pan saying: “You are in a world full of colour, and you wanna see it in black and white” was a powerful. I really appreciate how that argument was handled. It’s beautiful and sad and painful to listen, there’s so much emotion in Lyra.

Back to Malcolm, I think that Pullman is going for a weird route here, not gonna lie. But so far I think that Malcolm’s awareness of its weirdness is alright, I think and as long as he never acts on his feelings, we’re gonna be fine. I want Lyra to end her story alone and with a healthy relationship with Pantalaimon, because that’s what really matters in life.

Now, more Oakley Street: I’m sorry but Glenys Godwin is awesome and I am so happy that a woman is the head of my favourite spy organisation, thank you sir phil for this gift. I love her and her daemon, and that OS is a bit stronger than before. RIP Lord Nugent, thank you for your service, you ruthless bastard.

I do not trust that priest tho; I think it’s cool and stuff, but I just dont trust religious figures in general lmao i hope he is not a traitor.

I don’t know what is wrong with Marcel, but I like him cause he’s clever but I hate him cause he’s a Magisterium bitch. I had the spoiler that he is Seasea’s brother, I had this theory that maybe they’re twins, but so far it hasn’t been mentioned and I am horribly curious. I wonder, did he changed his name? Did Marisa change her name? I thought van zee was canon tbh

Giorgio Brabandt is a man, my friends, and what a man he is. He is AWESOME. I loved him immediately. I love the gyptians in general.

What the heck is happening to those roses?

[foofygoldfish]

character interview, round 3! tagged by @statichvm!

name ➔ elizabeth-victoria rose maxwell..... Just call me elizabeth. It’s easier.

are you single ➔ nope!

are you happy ➔ yes. very much so.

are you angry ➔  ...i mean, if i think about the dickweed and his pretentious “oh look at me i have so much --” .... look, i have a temper, i know that.

are your parents still married ➔ i think so?

NINE FACTS

birth place ➔ charlevoix, michigan. quaint little town. 

hair colour ➔ dark brown! i used to have hair like alice’s though - i loved it but uh... that’s a lot of work. i don’t have time to keep up with that out here.

eye colour ➔ dark brown, once again.

birthday ➔ september 9th, 1992.

mood ➔ a little peckish, really? 

gender ➔ 

summer or winter ➔ late spring and early fall. listen, i grew up in the south and i’ve split most of my adult life between northern michigan, new york city, and now montana. winters... not my thing. oh oh wait - bonfire weather. is that a season? 

morning or afternoon ➔ i’m not a morning person at all, but that doesn’t really matter when you work with animals....

EIGHT THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE

are you in love ➔ i think that’s what this feeling is... <3

do you believe in love at first sight ➔ not really? i’m a good judge of character - but anything more than friendship takes a while.

who ended your last relationship ➔ never been in one before

have you ever broken someone’s heart ➔ yeah. but not romantically? it’s... complicated. don’t really like going into it.

are you afraid of commitments ➔ nope. yes. i don’t know?

have you hugged someone within the last week? ➔ i try and make it a point to hug jess every time i see her, and well, sharky’s a hugger. 

have you ever had a secret admirer ➔ yes, but... neither sharky or jess are really subtle (shut up alice, i --) okay, alice wants me to point out that i missed all the signs of their crushes, but -  (alice: she’s oblivious, guys, oblivious.)

have you ever broken your own heart? ➔ yep. again, don’t really want to go into it....

SIX CHOICES

love or lust ➔ love.

lemonade or iced tea ➔ even if my childhood was shitty... yeah, i grew up in the south, sweet iced tea is kinda my jam

cats or dogs ➔  horses. and cats. and dogs. i just really love animals....

a few best friends or many regular friends ➔ few best friends. 

wild night out or romantic night in ➔ chill night in?

day or night ➔ dusk and dawn? i like the soft lighting. 

FIVE HAVE YOU EVERS

been caught sneaking out ➔ a few times, but they really had no idea how often noah and i snuck out...

fallen down/up the stairs ➔ i think i’m the only one in this county that’s clumsier than alice

wanted something/someone so badly it hurt? ➔ every day

wanted to disappear ➔ yeah. a lot. coming here’s helped that more than i really expected, tbh.

FOUR PREFERENCES

smile or eyes ➔ smile! oh - alice shut up

shorter or taller ➔ .....i’m 4′11. on a good day. 

intelligence or attraction ➔ intelligence

hook-up or relationship ➔ relationship. 

FAMILY

do you and your family get along ➔ honestly? i haven’t talked to them in months. we were never close - my parents tried to buy me over when they found me again, but i was... 14? when i went back to them? so it was just... awkward. they didn’t really know what to do with me. i’m not really anything like my brother, either - apparently we were nothing alike as kids so i’m sure that didn’t help our parents at all, and we don’t have anything in common now. 

would you say you have a “messed up life” ➔ alice calls sharky, jess and i the angst trio, so... uh..... yeah. it’s gotten better since i came here, but... 

have you ever ran away from home ➔ yeah. there’s only so much you can take, you know? the first time i didn’t end up going back. after my parents found me - i ran away a few more times, but... well, either my brother found me and talked me into coming home or i just came home on my own.

have you ever gotten kicked out ➔ yeah. hated those fuckers, so... no loss to me, i guess?

FRIENDS

do you secretly hate one of your friends ➔ nope. i’m pretty good at cutting out people i don’t like.

do you consider all of your friends good friends ➔ pretty much. there are some i’m not as close to, but... yeah

who is your best friend ➔ jess! ...... okay alice says my girlfriend doesn’t count and sharky doesn’t either, so - alice, i guess. oh shut up, alice you knew i’d say that--

who knows everything about you ➔ jess and sharky.

[enixamyram]

Can you write a fic that alice and Robin first feeling Blessing kick? Please? I want all kinda family time we can get!!

... Yeah at this point this might as well be a oneshot haha, but I’m still classing it as a short! XP

 “I found… Myself… In Wonderland…”

 Taylor Swift’s chorus to Wonderland sang out loudly from the phone inRobin’s pocket and she paused her trolley in front of the frozen goods sectionto answer it. She smiled at Desirae, sitting in the plastic seat and playingwith Mr Hatter, the little stuffed rabbit toy that Alice had given theirdaughter on the day they had first brought her home from the orphanage. Despitestill being so young, her soft light brown hair was already getting quite thick,even if it was still very short, not even passing her ears completely, and allthe strands curled upwards slightly towards the ceiling. The blue eyes she hadin her pictures shortly after birth had long since darkened into somethingclose to golden brown colour, although the pink cheeks seemed like they werenever going to fade. She was currently in an orange flower dress with whiteleggings underneath and soft white shoes on her chubby feet. She had beenwearing a pink rose headband as well but had kept pushing it off to the floor eversince leaving the house until Robin had finally just pocketed the damn thing.

 While pressing the phone to her ear, Robin reached her other hand overand made Mr Hatter dance in front of little Rae, watching her squeal and giggleat the sight of the playful rabbit, reaching to pull his long ears towards her.She tugged dangerously hard on them and Robin quickly moved to make the rabbithug her so she wouldn’t rip the toy to pieces – though she knew that if thatdid happen, then they could always get her aunt Regina or mother to use theirmagic to put it back together again in a matter of seconds. Alice’s own magic wouldbe of no help, as it seemed her abilities were being affected by her pregnancy,making almost everything she did go a different way and was quite unpredictableat best.

 “Hello?” Robin said. She was so busy watching as Rae played with herbunny, she hadn’t even bothered checking her caller ID.

 “Robin!” It was Alice. She was sounding very breathless and Robin mighthave been worried about her if not for the excitement so obviously mixed in hervoice. “She’s kicking!”

 One second. That was all it took before Robin realised what she meant.

 “I’ll be right there!” She shouted, hanging up with a sharp jab of thebutton and breaking into a dash for the doors.

 Robin dodged and ducked around the various people in her way, preparingto sprint the entire way home if she had to. With her quick speed and agility,it took her no time getting all the way towards the automatic double doorentrance… Only to skid to a sharp stop just before she stepped outside. Curisngherself and turning back around, Robin ran twice as fast back to the trolley,not even bothing to dodge people this time and simply pushing them angrily outof her way. Despite the people shouting after her, Robin felt a wave of relief whenshe caught sight of her trolley, unmoved and untouched. Even though she knewnothing would have happened to her – not here in the United Realms – it wasstill scary to think of the possibilities and what if’s and Robin nearly criedto see her daughter was safe and sound in her plastic seat, still playing withMr Hatter and oblivious to her momentary abandonment.

 Lifting her daughter out of the seat, Robin cradled her close and kissedher forehead and cheeks repeatedly. “I am so sorry, Rae-Rae!” She gasped,pausing to look her in the beautiful eyes. “I am so damn sorry, I won’t everforget you ever again! I love you so much, I promise you.”

 She knew Rae couldn’t understand a word she was saying and the younggirl clearly hadn’t noticed being left behind for those short few secondsanyway, but Robin still felt it needed to be said aloud. If Robin did one thingas a mother, it was going to be to make sure her daughter never felt like shehad been abandoned or forgotten.

 With that, she gave Rae one last cheerful bounce against her hip. “Nowlet’s go!”

 Rae giggled in her mother’s arms as she turned and started runningagain. She felt Mr Hatter’s ear tickling her chin from where it was squishedbetween her chest and her daughter but ignored it, rushing back the way shecame, only slightly slower than before due to her precious object now sittingin her arms. In a matter of seconds she was pushing through the doors and hurryingout into the parking lot where their car sat waiting for them.

 Robin ran all the way to the vehicle and rushed to get Rae seated in herseat in the back, double checking Mr Hatter was still safely tucked in hergrip, before she slammed the door and threw herself into the front seat behindthe wheel. Once inside, she quickly buckled her seat, flipped on the engine andshot out back into the street. Alice would have most certainly hit her over thehead for how fast she drove, especially with Rae sitting in the backseat, butRobin couldn’t help it. She needed to get home right away! And anyway, she wasa good enough driver that she wouldn’t let herself be caught in a sillyaccident.

 The shop wasn’t too far from home, and in the end it took Robin lessthan ten minutes at the speed she was rushing to make it back. The street whereher house was settled was mostly deserted at this time of day, allowing Robinto be a little riskier with her driving. She skidded to a dramatic stop justoutside the building. She pushed herself the extra few inches so she was halfwayon the driveway and half still sticking out into the road behind her. It wasn’tgreat but it would do for now. She could fix it later.

 As soon as she was parked and had the engine switched off, she jumped out,nearly getting caught in her own seatbelt as she did, and ran for the front door.Her key was in the lock and she was about to turn it when she sword loudly toherself, pulling it out and hurrying back to the car and to where Rae was stillsat waiting for her in the backseat.

 “I swear,” She said as she unbuckled her car seat straps. “I am notgoing to make a habit of this. I am not going to forget you for your littlebrother or sister. I swear to you, I do and will love you both equally.”

 With that she lifted her daughter back into her arms, hugging andkissing her as she kicked the door shut behind them before she hurried back tothe door again. After scrambling to unlock the front door, she left it wideopen behind her and dashed from room to room, shouting Alice’s name as she wentuntil Rae finally began to whimper, getting upself from the loud and constant noise.Robin forced herself to pause, bouncing her gently and lowering her voicegently.

 “Shh, sorry, sweetheart, it’s okay, shh,” Robin said guiltily.

 “I think she might want this.” Alice said suddenly, stepping out intothe hallway from the first floor bathroom and picking up where Mr Hatter hadfallen in the open doorway.

 Robin spun around sharply and her face broke out into a wide smile. She tooka large step towards her only to stall and blink. “Did I… Did we…?”

 Alice gave her a sad smile, shrugging slightly. “Yeah, sorry. Shestopped not long after she started.” Robin’s face dropped hard and Alicequickly moved to put her hands on her shoulders, giggling. “Don’t worry. Shemight start again soon any minute! I get the feeling she’s gonna be a wild onelike her mum.” She grinned, leaning forward and kissing Robin softly.

O*U*A*T

 “Knock knock,” Zelena called, rapping her knuckles against the door atthe same time as she swung it open with a soft tap of her hips. Withouthesitating, she let herself into the house, arms overloaded with a weeks worthof shopping stuffed inside two reasonably sized white plastic bags. “Anyonehome!”

 “In here, mum.” Her daughter called from the living room.

 “So are you going to tell me why you had me do your shopping for youthis week?” Zelena called as she walked towards her daughter’s voice.

 When she stepped into the room, she saw Alice was lying spread out overthe sofa, feet taking up what little room the rest of her didn’t with a cold drinkin hand, watching the television quietly. She was dressed in a black vest and aloose knee length brown skirt that seemed tight on her already bulging stomach.Her blonde hair was pulled back into a limp pony tail out of the way of herface and she looked completely at ease, sparing a quick moment to glance up overthe back of her chair and smiling at Zelena as she walked towards her.

 “Hey there, Alice. Where’s Robin?” Zelena blinked, glancing around. Shehad sworn it was her voice who called out to her.

 “Down here!” A hand appeared beside Alice, stretching up into the air.

 Zelena frowned, walking around to find Robin sitting on the floor byAlice’s stomach, Rae lying in her lap, chewing on her fake toy keys. Theylooked perfectly content with Robin leaning against the cushion and smilingcalmly up at her mother while her hand supported her young daughters head.

 “Thanks for picking up the shopping, mum,” Robin smiled.

 “Okay. And why did I have to pick up the shopping when you so clearlyhave a bundle of free time on your hands?” Zelena said, raising an eyebrow downat her.

 “The baby kicked and I missed it.” Robin said sadly, pulling a facebefore scowling and turning back to Alice. “And I’m not missing the secondtime!”

 Zelena paused, frowning at the two women in confusion, looking fromRobin to Alice and then down to her stomach. “Alice… How far along are you?”

 “About eleven weeks.” Alice chirped casually, reaching down andstraightening Rae’s dress slightly.

 Zelena paused again, frowning even more now. “Robin, I know you neverpaid much attention in your biology classes but… You do know the baby doesn’tstart kicking until at least week sixteen, right? I mean sometimes it’s earlierfor your second pregnancy but even then that’s normally around week thirteen.Certainly not week eleven.”

 “Wait what?” Robin did a double take and looked up. “But… Alice said…”She looked at her wife.

 Alice paused before she smiled innocently at her. “Oh wow, really? Huh.Who’d have known. I mean. Um… Guess it was… Indigestion?”

 “You lied to me!” Robin yelped, picking Rae up and standing sharply.

 Alice pouted slightly. “I was lonely and wanted you to come home.”

 “You could have just told me that,” Robin said, feeling oddly furiouswith her. She’s been so disappointed thinking she had missed something special,except now it turned out it was a cheap trick all because Alice wantedattention. Which was really god awful because she could have called and Robinwould have done everything she could to finish her shopping and get home assoon as possible. There was no reason to lie like that!

 Alice was oblivious to Robin’s inner frustrations and just shrugged upat her. “It was quicker my way.”

 There was a single short pause. “I’ll just put these away, shall I?”Zelena said, sensing the building tension between the girls and hurryingthrough the door that connected them to the kitchen. However her own noseycuriosity got the better of her and she let the door hang open slightly so shecould still see and hear what was happening.

 “I thought I’d missed something special!” Robin complained, irritably,trying to stay calm even while she felt her face growing hot.

 “And now you know you haven’t,” Alice shrugged, smiling cheekily. “Comeon. You’re not really mad at me over this, are you?”

 Robin hesitated, shaking her head down at her and scowling. “I’m notmad, Alice. But I sure as hell am pissed.”

 As Robin stormed passed her, Alice twisted around in her seat, watchingher slam her way out of the room without a look back. As her wife and daughterdisappeared up the stairs and out of sight, Alice lingered on the spot, feelingboth awkward and a little confused. Was it really that big a deal? Alice hadn’tthought that a little teasing trick could upset Robin like this…

 She turned back around and caught Zelena’s eye from the kitchen. Alicehesitated before smiling with a mixture of shyness and guilt, only relaxingwhen Zelena gave her a genuine smile in return.

 “Don’t worry. She’ll get over it.” Zelena nodded. “Now why don’t I makeyou a chocolate apple pie to help settle your nerves? Stress is never good forthe baby.”

 Alice felt her mouth water hungrily.

O*U*A*T

 Some time has passed and Robin’s irritation faded away. She could neverstay mad at Alice. Not really. And then, one night, she found herself beingshaken awake.

 “Robin… Robin!”

 Robin sat up sharply and nearly headbutted Alice from where she wasleaning over her. She narrowly avoided it, pulling back at the last second andblinking in the night darkness. The only light in the room was streaming fromthe silver of the half moon outside, peeking between a gap where the curtainsdidn’t quite meet. Alice was lying by her side, leaning closely towards her,her expression masked by the shadows of the room and making it near impossibleto tell what she was thinking.

 Reaching up, Robin rubbed at her face, trying to wake herself properlybefore she began squinting through the dark towards her love. “What is it? What’swrong?” She suddenly felt her body go tense. Now that she was awake, her mind wasrunning a thousand miles ahead of the rest of her. “Is it Rae? Is she okay?!”

 “Rae’s fine,” Alice said quickly, putting a hand over Robin’s in comfort.“It’s the baby.”

 At first, Robin was even more confused than before. Rae was the onlybaby they had. But then she realised her wife was talking about the second baby– the one that was yet to actually be born.

 The worry came back twice as hard this time. “What’s wrong with the baby?!”Robin gasped, sitting up and placing one hand against Alice’s back and theother on her arm, pulling her towards her slightly and already preparing toleap from the bed for the phone. “Are you okay?! Does it hurt?! I’ll call DrWhale!”

 “No!” Alice grabbed her arm even as she began to roll off the bed. “No,Robin, it’s fine, everything is perfectly fine. Just… Here.” She took her hand.“Feel.”

 Robin – still feeling a little panicked and very confused – let Aliceguide her hands down to rest on her stomach. It had certainly grown fast overthe last few weeks and due to her own insecurities about showing her stomach, shewas already having to switch to a different wardrobe in order to keep covered. Fora moment there was nothing and Robin was close to demanding Alice to explain whatwas going on when she felt the slightest pressure slap against her hand and thebreath froze halfway in her throat. She paused, waiting to see if she imaginedit before she felt another light pressure once more slap against her palm. Finallyshe looked up at Alice, a smile spreading across her face excitedly and allthoughts of sleep disappearing in an instant.

 “Is that…” Robin whispered.

 “Yeah,” Alice beamed, looking at her with tear filled eyes. “Our baby.”

 “I can’t believe it.” Robin whispered, looking back down to theirgrowing child.

 Alice hesitated, then said quietly. “Robin… I’m really sorry abouttricking you before.” Robin looked back up at her with a puzzled expression onher face. “When I pretended the baby kicked.”

 “Oh, forget about it.” Robin shrugged. “I was all tense that day. I’msorry I got so huffy about it.” She looked back down. “To be honest, I have allthese fears that I’m going to miss stuff. Like, the way my dad missed so muchof my life. I don’t want to miss any of the first. Not the first kick, thefirst steps, the first words, the first… Everything. I want to see it all.”

 “You’re not going to miss any of it.” Alice promised. “Even if I have touse my magic to bring you home in the middle of a life or death situation.” Sheshrugged. “And if the baby starts walking when I’m not here well then… I expectyou to pick them up and hold them until I get home!” She grinned.

 Robin laughed. “Deal!”

 Alice smiled, slipping down on the bed slightly. “I do mean it. Neitherof us are going to miss a moment with our family.”

 “You know you can’t really promise that,” Robin said softly.

 “Watch me.” Alice said stubbornly.

 Robin grinned at her, fighting the urge to giggle for fear of gettingtoo loud and waking up Desirae next door. To keep quiet, she leaned towards herand kissing her softly. “I love you, Alice.”

 “I love you, too, Robin.” Alice whispered, returning the kiss and lying onher side to face her.

 They curled up together in the bed, Robin keeping her hands on the sideof Alice’s stomach and pressing their foreheads gently together. They stayedawake for hours afterwards, staring happily at one another in almost silence,broken only by the occasional soft kiss, long after their child had finally settleddown and stopped kicking, though the baby would prove to be a restless one overthe coming months.

 It seemed Alice had been right. Their child really was going to be awild one.

[cravingwitandwisdom]

All of the space asks, my dear 😄

Damn okay, here we go.. ♡ Comet - what are you currently frustrated about? Capitalism Back hole - what are you most afraid of? That one day, when I'm old and burned out I'll ask myself the question "was it really worth it - this life, this mess" and I'll know it wasn't. Galaxy - do you have nicknames. What are they? Daniel always calls me Mary Poppin or just Mary. Here I'm known as Grace and irl some folks call me that too but my name is actually Grachella. It's hard to pronounce so most of the time people make their own version l and that's okay, too. People at my voulenteering work sometimes call me Frochella because we all give each other nicknames and I kinda love that. Star - what songs do you feel describe you? Drops of Jupiter by Train, Bored by Billie Eilish, idontwannebeyouanymore by Billie Eilish, Dust by Frank Ocean and many many more I can't think of right now.Moon - are you currently reading any books? I'm currently reading (finally reading!) Lotr. I own the books forever and it was time for an adventure. I just started reading Today I am Alice yesterday. It's a biography about Alice who has multiple personalities. It reminds me of a girl i know, the story. Its not a pretty one. Planets - if you could go anywhere, where would you go? Right now I'd go to Mexico. Daniel is there for two months now and I feel like I miss a part of myself.Mercury - describe your aesthetic. Sometimes I live in the 90s and I'm turning up 2pac. Fila's on my feet and a Casio watch on my wrist. I let strands of hair fall down the front of my face while the top is tied in a quirky little ponytail and the back hangs loose, barely reaching my shoulders. Sometimes I live in the 60s. I wear long skirts and tie bows in my hair. I listen to The Civil Wars and feel infinitely soft. The pain and the sorrow, the loss - there's purpose in the ugly parts of life. Sometimes I'm an African queen. I tie my hair in a turban and wear the colours of nature. I radiate elegance. I feel deeply connected to my roots and dance to Gyptian or Jah Cure. I talk in my mother's tongue. Sometimes I am an Victorian witch. I wear a long black dress, the crocheted choker i wear is elegance itself. I cover my body with crystals as I chant a spell or pray to Gaia. See.. I don't think I have one aesthetic because I don't think I'm just one person. Venus - whats your favourite tv show? Shameless, Rick & Morty, Westworld, The Tudors, GoT, Gossip Girl, The Handmaids Tale, Vampire diaries and The Originals. Earth - if you could be anyone else for a day, who would you be? Oh I don't know. Mars - if you could change one thing about yourself, what would you change? The numbers on my bank account. Or maybe that I'd be a minimalist.. one or the other hahaha Jupiter - if you had to pick one colour to use for an entire week, what colour would yoi choose? Black for everything. Saturn - how far would you go for those you care about? 9.229 km or 5734.635 miles Uranus - what would you say is your greatest achievement? Climbing a mountain and then sleeping on the mountain in a hammock, in the middle of the Amazon. The mountain wasn't very high but I never did anything like that before. Neptune - describe yourself in one sentence. Did you not just read i cant even describe my aesthetic in a simple way. How do you expect me to describe myself in one sentence? I am so much more than one sentence. Pluto - if you could meet anyone, alive or dead, who would you meet? J.D. Salinger. Constellations - if you could have one talent, what would it be? The ability to take care of plants.. all my plants always die :/Asteroid - when you die, what do you want te be done with your body? I always wanted to give my body to science but since thats not so easy anymore i decided i want to be cremated. Or if its possible by the time i die, I'd like to be buried in a biodegradable burial pod that turns my body into a tree. Aquarius - whats a topic you enjoy learning about? Languages, science, mythology, philosophy, spirituality, witchcraft and culture are a few things popping into my mind right now. Aquila - do you prefer to read books or watch movies? I read more than i watch movies but i do enjoy a good film every once in a while. Aries - what is something you enjoy doing? Sleeping. Auriga - if you had to pick one villain from any media, who would you rather have to face and why? Delores Umbridge is a foul despicable toad-like villain i have great abhorrence for. Bootes - if you could have any animal, wild or not, fake or not, which would you want? A thestral or rather a herd. Cancer - how do you want tp be remembered? Often the wise are remembered by their tortured minds. But I'd like to be remembered as wise and free. I want people to reminisce me and think "she lived fully and without remorse, she lived the way she wanted and there wasnt any onther way for her to live" Canis Major - How many friends do you have? I find it difficult to distinct friends or friendship. On Tumblr i talk to some people, people i have been talking to for years. I have some colleagues i hang out with after work hours. Are they my friends? I hang out with friends of friends. Are they my friends, too? I cant answer this question. I dont know how many people consider me a friend. And i, myself, have a hard time figuring out what friendship exactly is. Can anyone teach me the rules? Capricornus - whats a song lyric that you can relate to? "Can you see that im getting bored, giving you every piece of me?" - by Billie Eilish Cassiopeia - whats your favourite quote? 1. "Forget what they told you about bodies and temples. Mine was all roadside attraction, tourist destination. A place mediocre men go to remember how to be good again" - by Ashe Vernon 2. "Can you understand? Someone, somewhere, can you understand me a little, love me a little? For all my despair, for all my ideals, for all that - I love life. But it is hard, and I have so much - so very much to learn" - by Sylvia Plath 3. "I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel" - by Maya AngelouCyngus - if you could go back to any time perion for a couple of days, when/ where would you want to go? The beginning of everything. Gemini - do you have any siblings? How many? 2 half sisters, 3 half brothers, 1 sister and 2 steph sisters. Leo - if you could change the way any movie was made, which movie would you change? Avatar and Death note. Libra - if you could talk to your past self, what would you tell yourself? Stop smoking weed and go do something useful with your life. Lyra - would you rather be feared or loved? I find it hard to receive love but i choose it anyway. Orion - whats your favourite type of weather? The breaking if dawn on an autumn day when the air is gloomy and the meadow misty. When the world is peaceful and leaves are covered with hoarfrost. Pegasus - whats your favourite music genre? I dont think i can pick, i really cant. Perseus - whats your favourite movie genre? Drama and fantasy. Pisces - Describe someone you love without their name. Tall, dark and handsome. Self-righteous. Beautiful brown eyes. Lazy and sluggish. But such a pumpkin. Amazing smile. Incredible kisser. A cute smoll spot on their nose. Game addiction. Cant talk about feelings. Doesn't know how to apologize. Humble and soft. Sagittarius - what do you do when you don't feel well? What do you eat? I sleep alot and i barely eat or i munch on potato chips. Scorpius - if you had to pick someone to betray you, who would you pick? This woman i work with.. she's been getting on my nerves playing the victim all the time. I'd love to have a reason to go off on her. That sounds bad huh? Taurus - What makes you feel comfortable? Hoodies. Ursa Major - if you had to pick any job to have, what job would you want? Physicists or writer. Virgo - what do you value the most- artistic / creativity, musical ability, athletic ability, intellect or work ethic? 1. Artistic ability/ creativity 2. Intellect 3. Musical ability 4. Athletic ability 5. Work ethic Neutron - are you more a leader or a follower? Leader. Supernova - how do you feel about yourself? I try to love myself but its work. Supergiant - whats something you like about yourself? I love learning, knowledge. Im open to anything and I'm curious by nature. Red Giant - would you get into a debate/ argument with someone if you heard them saying something you disagree with or know to be wrong, or would yoi stay silent? I dont shy away from arguments, especially if i know im right. I can get very passionate. What is your favourite smell? What smell makes you feel most comfortable? Lavender, wood smoke, pine and sandalwood. Protostar - give a random fact about yourself. I got a new tattoo just yesterday. A picture will be up soon. Sorry, in took me a while. I dont have a computer rn so i had to do this on mobile. Thank you so much for asking me.

[cxnsigliere]

— 8 PEOPLE I’D LIKE TO KNOW BETTER !!

( repost, don’t reblog. )

ONE ( NAME / ALIAS ):  Erica TWO ( BIRTHDAY ):  May 13 THREE ( ZODIAC SIGN ): Taurus!!! FOUR ( HEIGHT ): T. TALL. FIVE ( HOBBIES ): writing, baking/cooking, oc shit, pokemon, reading, drawing SIX ( FAVOURITE COLOUR(S) ): LIGHT PINK, dark teal, and pastel mint! SEVEN ( FAVOURITE BOOKS ): TO KILL A MOCKINGBIRD, the Unwind series, and The Alice Network EIGHT ( LAST SONG LISTENED TO ): Think It Over - Wild Child NINE ( LAST FILM WATCHED ): TO ALL THE BOYS IVE LOVED BEFORE!!! TEN ( INSPIRATION FOR MUSE ): THE STORY OF HOW KING WAS CREATED IS.... ALL OVER THE FUCKING PLACE BUT, TO MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT, i just really wanted a typical New Yorker mafia man tbfh, then he kinda developed into this fucking crybaby. BUT LIKE LOWKEY HES ALSO SORT OF THE WAY HE IS BC I WAS TIRED OF HEARING SHIT LIKE “IJRGIOJEW GROWN MEN CANT CRY OR BE EMOTIONAL” AND “HAHA LARGE GUYS SHOULDNT BE SAD” OR WHATEVER THE FUCK, SO JUST TO SPITE THOSE BITCHES I PUNCHED KING RIGHT IN THE GUT WITH ANGST BC I LOVE ME MALE CHARACTERS WHO ARENT AFRAID TO CRY, ESPECIALLY WHEN THEYRE ON THE MORE MASCULINE SIDE TWELVE ( MEANING BEHIND YOUR URL ): uhhhhhhh king is the consigliere of the mafia hes in and it has an X in it just bc like. thats what cool kids used to do and i dont feel like changing it bc i still really like the way cxnsigliere looks

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[eljokerbabey]

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 3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?Tom Holland onscreen as Peter Parker in Infinity War. But also my friends who are going with me to infinity war.10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?Probably Nick12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?Boy Pablo - EverytimeGinger Root - Call It HomeWild Child - Crazy BirdBusty and The Bass - Melodies and MemoriesAlice Francis - Shoot Him Down 13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?Yes, its really soothing. I mean, ask first, but yeah generally it kinda instantly puts me in a good mood. 14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?I guess I believe in luck kinda, I mean, I definitely know some people who seem luckier than others.15. What good thing happened this summer?It’s not yet summer so I guess it means last summer, which is lots, went swimming, made new friends, had fun. 17. Do you think there is life on other planets?Yeah, whether its intelligent hasn’t been determined but life definitely exists on other planets. Plus, the universe is too big for intelligent life to not exist somewhere so I think it probably does.19. Do you like bubble baths?Yeah, I can’t remember the last time I had one though. ;-;20. Do you like your neighbors?not really to the one on our left, but the one on our right is a cool guy, he drives a santa truck. The one across the street seems like a good guy.21. What are your bad habits?Second guessing myself, not paying attention, not showing up to stuff22. Where would you like to travel?Japan and Europe, also Canada23. Do you have trust issues?yeah24. Favorite part of your daily routine?petting the cats25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?I guess my stomach26. What do you do when you wake up?Lie in bed for a while28. Who are you most comfortable around?My parents, some of my friends (nick, enrique, emily, david and robin all come to mind) 29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?Nah, I lost contact with one of them, and then I’m just bad at keeping in touch when it comes with others. I kinda wish I didn’t lose contact with a lot of people, not just exes, I’m kinda unintentionally bridge burn-y 30. Do you ever want to get married?fufufufu is this a proposal?!~ So forward, my my. I’ll consider it! ohohohohoho!33. Spell your name with your chin.daNIKEWLK ;L;LDE ;LASN GBEDLKIKNA34. Do you play sports? What sports?sport sport sport sport sport35. Would you rather live without TV or music?TV, I don’t really watch it anyway36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?Yes, many times! Often!37. What do you say during awkward silences?I dunno, I don’t really mind silences, I guess sometimes I’ll make a funny noise or clicky my tongue, very rarely I enjoy trying to make them purposefully awkward, but I have to be in a shenanigans mood for that. 39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?I like stores that have neat stuff, like antique stores or thrift stores.41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?More or less42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?Usually I’ve got something on my mind, but sometimes I just don’t have energy. Also sometimes it means I wish someone where talking to me. Sometimes in relation to me having something on my mind I wanna talk about.43. Do you smile at strangers?Sometimes44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?Space I guess45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?I dont know if I have an answer for that right now46. What are you paranoid about?I dunno, strangers, I just always have an eye out, I got mugged one time and now my brain won’t let me not hyperfocus on what strangers around me are doing.47. Have you ever been high?A couple times 49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?I dunno probably50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?Purple I think51. Ever wished you were someone else?Yeah kinda, I guess I’ve mostly just wished I was me in someone elses situation or something52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?Things about my appearance, I’m working on it. 54. Favourite store?I don’t know55. Favourite blog?Mine56. Favourite colour?Somewhere in the realm of blue57. Favourite food? I’m not really hungry right now so its hard for me to have an answer for. Uhh, probably sushi though. 58. Last thing you ate?I had some burger king 59. First thing you ate this morning?probably the aforementioned burger king65. Are you hungry right now?no67. Facebook or Twitter?I guess I use facebook more68. Twitter or Tumblr?Tumblr probably69. Are you watching tv right now?nope70. Names of your bestfriends? Michael, Emily, Nick, Enrique, Ally, come to mind71. Craving something? What?human intimacy or something72. What colour are your towels?There’s purple ones and green ones and a couple of blue ones72. How many pillows do you sleep with?3 exactly73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?I do not

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?I dunno, probably a couple, somewhere around here

75. Favourite animal?Cat77. Chocolate or Vanilla?chocolate78. Favourite ice cream flavour?Cookie Dough or something79. What colour shirt are you wearing?Blue

80. What colour pants?Black81. Favourite tv show?I dunno I have lots, My Hero Academia, Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood, Doctor Who, etc82. Favourite movie?This is also hard, I still really liked spiderman homecoming, most of the marvel movies really, uhh, Kung Fu Hustle, Baby Driver, Scott Pilgrim, etc86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?I dunno, Crush?87. First person you talked to today?Nick I think, hard not to when he lives in the same room as me88. Last person you talked to today?Either my dad or nick, I can’t remember if I said anything to nick when I entered the room a second ago91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?Sure92. In a fight with someone?Kinda, I’m not on the best terms with a couple people93. How many sweatpants do you have?2 pairs probably? 94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?Unsure, several95. Last movie you watched?I just watched Baby Driver and Thor Ragnarok with my family96. Favourite actress?I don’t knooooooowwwwwww, favorites are haaaaaaaard. 97. Favourite actor?haaaaaaaaaaaaaaard.100. How are you feeling?

I’m feeling ok

101. Do you type fast?very

102. Do you regret anything from your past?yeah kinda, I have made mistakes that I probably would change if I could, at the very least I wish I could make them right. I do think they attribute to where I am and that changing any of them would mean changing my whole life so I don’t know that I regret them104. Do you miss anyone from your past?Yeah, there’s a few people that I don’t talk to anymore (rather, they don’t uh, talk to me anymore) because I was… I dunno, kinda crazy. I really wish I could’ve had the foresight to keep those people in my life somehow.105. Ever been to a bonfire party?Kinda? I mean, sure, I guess so106. Ever broken someone’s heart?Yeah, I’d probably change that too. I dunno, I at least hope the people I’ve hurt know I’m sorry.107. Have you ever been on a horse?a what109. Is something irritating you right now?Not right this second but I do have things that are problems on a general scale, I’m just not currently upset about them111. Do you have trust issues?again, yeah112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?I don’t remember, I don’t remember the last time I really cried113. What was your childhood nickname?Pooh, like Winnie-The, its because my middle name is Oso, which is spanish for bear, so I got called Pooh-Bear a lot, and often it was just shortened to Pooh.115. Do you play the Wii?This is a very old person sounding question. “Hey sonny, do you like the eck bawk?” yeah I guess I’ve played the wii, I think Nick has one116. Are you listening to music right now?Not right this second but I can hear the background music from a game nick is playing, which would be this song117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?Sure118. Do you like Chinese food?Yeah hella119. Favourite book?favourites are haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaard. I like The Dresden Files a lot, the Haruhi Suzumiya books are really good, Scott Pilgrim is fantastic, Interview With A Vampire is pretty solid120. Are you afraid of the dark?Not like, exceptionally, i mean, sometimes?123. Can you keep white shoes clean?I mean, sure, I don’t really own a pair of white shoes but I’m sure I could do it if I wanted to124. Do you believe in love at first sight?Kinda, I mean, I believe that you can get a crush on someone based on observation of appearance125. Do you believe in true love?uhhh, as much as experience tells me I shouldn’t, I guess so, I mean, I think its about dedication on both sides, love is partially a choice, or rather, a dedication126. Are you currently bored?yeah I mean, kinda, generally, but answering questions is entertaining.127. What makes you happy?Doing fun stuff with people I enjoy128. Would you change your name?In some situations sure.130. Do you like subway?yeah its good131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?I’d probably give it a try, one date/hangout with a romantic connotation just to see couldn’t hurt probably? I dunno, I think about things in a pretty exploratory manner, so I tend to be open to experiences to see whether or not something works.132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?Probably Nick? 133. Favourite lyrics right now?I already did this in a previous one so I’ll go for some different ones this time “I was a green eyed monsterCould you tell I was afraid?I sat myself down and shot my fear in the face”Garbage - Man On A Wire I just really like the delivery in that song, and I’ve been listening to it lately  135. Dumbest lie you ever told?I try not to just lie about stuff now but when I was a little kid I had some pretty good ones, I once convinced a friend that by law they had to have a black guy in every commercial. I also convinced him that japanese or something was just english backwards.136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?uh, closed, given that the door to this room goes to the outside141. Night or Day?normally I’d say night but I’ve found myself getting depressed with nightfall lately142. Favourite month?December144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?milk 147. Mars or Snickers?Mars148. What’s your favourite quote?  “The power of one man doesn’t amount to much. But, with whatever little strength I’m capable of… I’ll do everything humanly possible to protect the people I love, and in turn they’ll protect the ones they love. It seems like the least we tiny humans can do for each other.“  - Roy Mustang, Fullmetal Alchemist“We evolve, beyond the person that we were a minute before. Little by little, we advance with each turn. That’s how a drill works!” - Simon, Gurren Lagann149. Do you believe in ghosts?I don’t know what I believe right now150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? How could things                                                    Have                                                    gone                                                       so                                                    wrong?Thanks for the ask! Lemme know if I missed anything

[gracia-suficiente]

So here’s a long and detailed post of my 2017!

In years past, I’ve kept a good things jar which is nice because it helps me keep track of all the good things that happened during the year. Something like that would’ve helped a lot this year because although this year wasn’t awful, it was a challenging year. The year started off really great but then slowed down and got stressful. Towards the end though, it came back up and I’m so excited for 2018. I did keep a good things jar the first couple months of 2017, but I stopped soon after the year started. So if the rest of my post after those months isn’t that detailed, it’s because the rest of the year was a blur. 

January started off so strong! I spent New Year’s Eve with my cousin Isaac and family and I actually had a lot of fun! I even got a Native American blessing from my cousin’s wife’s grandfather who is Native American! Bailey and I talked a LOT in January; I have an embarrassing amount of good things papers about phone calls and facetimes with him. Speaking of Bailey, the app that we met on, Beme, died in January which sucked but everyone in the beme community spent the last few days sending each other fun reactions. I started my internship with my (now) previous employer on January 3! Even though I started my new internship, I went back in January for an exit interview with my old job at my university and it was so great to see my old coworkers. They were seriously some of my favorite people to work with. Also! The Catholic Campus Ministry (CCM) planning meetings for Awakening retreat began in January (tbh I forgot I served on team this year!) There were also a lot of birthday parties (James, Jayden, Alice) and even a few anniversaries (my parents and my brother’s godparents). 

February started off on a sweet note because Bailey was my Valentine and that made me really happy. Speaking of notes, my little brother had an orchestra concert this month as well! My bestie Vivian turned 24 and I had fun at her dinner; I wish I could’ve gone out with them though. I especially hated having a curfew this past year. 

March was long and stressful. Work got hectic, school got difficult, and life got hard and depressing. But March ended up being redeeming also; I got asked to be an ash distributor for the CCM campus wide Ash Wednesday mass! I also served on retreat at the end of March and it was beautiful. God’s timing is perfect and that retreat helped me so much; God is good. 

April was fun because I went to two concerts! My sister and I saw The 1975 and we were in the pit; I’ve never been so up close for a concert before. I also took my mom to see Chris Tomlin and that concert was so beautiful. It was also fun to do something with my mom! Easter happened right before all of the concerts and Easter is probably my second favorite holiday; I love it so much. 

May was a good month; I graduated from college with my master’s degree! All of the graduation festivities were so much fun; there was graduation mass with CCM, the College of Business hooding ceremony, and then the big graduation ceremony. My family and I had a nice graduation dinner after the ceremony with a lot of family. I also got offered a full time position with the accounting firm I interned for. I started working full time after I graduated. I was so grateful for the position because I struggled to find a job when I graduated from undergrad. Job security is nice. 

I saw Miike Snow in June! That was a lot of fun! It was also my first time at one of the smaller venues in my city. I racked my brain, and other than that, I can’t remember anything significant that happened in June. 

In July, I finally went to the new baseball stadium in town with my family; I say “new” but it’s been open for a couple of years now and I just hadn’t had the opportunity to go. Going to the game made me remember how much I love baseball. We went over the 4th of July weekend so we got to see fireworks too! Speaking of the 4th of July, my family and I went on the military base where my city’s symphony orchestra had a free concert and fireworks show! It was fantastic and the best 4th of July at home I’ve had in a long while. My little brother turned 15 in July! I went to a job interview with Whole Foods corporate in Austin in July and I didn’t get it. But it ended up working out for the better! And lastly, I saw Andrew McMahon in the Wilderness in July and that was probably the best concert I went to this year. I’ve never had so much fun at a concert. Also, I got to meet The Greeting Committee and A R I Z O N A afterwards too! 

What happened in August? I have no idea. According to my memory, calendar, and photo albums, not much. 

But not to worry! September made up for the lame August I had! My cousin’s cousin (who is my age and I kinda grew up with) got married the first weekend in September! I turned 24 in September and I spent my birthday at my city’s art museum and I had dinner with my grandparents and family at my favorite restaurant. My parents’ birthdays followed soon after and were fun as well! And then came my Richmond adventure with Bailey! Such. a. great. weekend. After that, my sister and I saw Two Door Cinema Club! 

October was hectic with work but I did get to see Portugal. the Man on Friday the 13th! Near the end of the month, my other cousin’s fiance had a bridal shower and it was so much fun getting to know her a little more. 

November was fun because my sister turned 21! I also began taking Christian Formation classes at my church in order to become a Eucharistic Minister. I loved learning about my faith and getting to interact with other Catholics. My cousin Nicole had her last high school football game EVER (she’s in marching band) so my family and I went to cheer her on. I went to a job interview mid-November for the job that I currently have now. God is so good and I am thankful that He opened up this door for me in Austin. My family and I spent Thanksgiving at my cousin Isaac’s house and it was so much fun! 

December was a whirlwind. I saw Pale Waves with my sister on the 4th. I got assigned to a really big audit at work and I put in my two weeks notice. That was rough. My bestie and I took a trip to Santa Fe to go to a museum. My cousin Nicole turned 18! My little brother had his Christmas orchestra concert. I went to my previous employer’s Christmas party and then the happy hour after. I was invited to be a part of my middle school’s career day (how old am I??). My family and I moved all my stuff to my new apartment in Austin. We spent Christmas with my two aunts who live in the area. Then we came back to go to my cousin’s wedding at the end of the month. I visited an old friend in the hospital with my bestie because she had a beautiful baby boy. And we spent New Year’s Eve at my house with my cousins and tias. December was so wild and I never had a month fly by so quickly; there were so many people I wanted to say goodbye to but I didn’t get the chance. I’m so excited for the new year and what the change will bring for me! 

A few lists of things I saw/read/listened to in 2017 (probably not complete as my memory is awful and I didn’t keep track of anything):

Movies I saw: The Accountant, The Infiltrator, Lego: Batman Movie, Thor Ragnorak, The Hitman’s Body Guard, The Big Sick

TV shows I watched: Sherlock, Stranger Things, American Vandal, Over the Garden Wall

Books I read: Journal 3 by Alex Hirsh, Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage by Haruki Murakami, The Glass Menagerie by Tennessee Williams

Concerts I went to: The 1975 (with Colouring and Pale Waves), Worship Night in America (Chris Tomlin with Phil Wickam, Big Daddy Weave, and another band I can’t remember right now), Miike Snow (with The Other Half), Andrew McMahon in the Wilderness (with A R I Z O N A and The Greeting Committee), Portugal. the Man, Pale Waves (with The Candescents) [I had tickets to see Foster the People and Atlas Genius but both shows got canceled]

Albums I bought: Gracetown - San Cisco, Harry Styles - Harry Styles, What If Nothing - Walk the Moon, Reputation - Taylor Swift, Sacred Hearts Club - Foster the People, Kaleidoscope EP - Coldplay, Melodrama - Lorde, Unpeeled - Cage the Elephant, GALLERY - A R I Z O N A, Meeting People Is Easy - The Greeting Committee, Gameshow Live at KCRW - Two Door Cinema Club

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December 2017 (* = I'm in love with the song •= I should listen to it more) [My post was so long that I missed two songs on the rediscovered part]

Cold blooded love - Goblins from Mars ft Krista Marina

Loona / Yves- New*

Kailee Morgue - Medusa*

Oui - Jeremih (dubsmash challenge)*

Bostwick - Stranger things and Ariana Grande mashup*

Kailee Morgue - Discovery

KAYE - Sober (stripped)•

KAYE, Mr Eazi- Decline •

Wolf Alice - Beautifully unconventional

Sevyn Streeter ft August Alsina - Been a minute*

Alicai Harley - Gold*

11:11 - you

All night - Big boi*

Sabrina Claudio - Belong to you *

Sabrina Claudio - Wanna Know

MORGUE - THC (remix)

MORGUE - Limelight

Jye - A shitty love song

VARSITY - So sad, So sad

ACID GHOST - All alone

Kaio - Same love ( feat. Shiloh Dynasty)

TheSecondSex - In a mood

Peachy- Falling for u (feat. mxmtoon)

The Marías - I don't know you

Sigrid - Strangers

Andrew applepie - Don't fuck this up (feat. Ed Prosek)

Nick Jonas - Find you

Her's - Cool with you

Yung Heazy - Cuz you're my girl

Sunset rollercoaster - My Jinji

MISO - Take me •

RUDE - Eternal Youth

J-CAT - Same Time (feat. Ovcoco)

Ru mexx & Kee go - Fine (feat. Ovcoco)•

Ovcoco - low-key (feat. Lil'wu) [prod.GiiANA, BevyMaco]*

Lil cats-There for ya(feat. Ovcoco)•

Ovcoco - It's over(feat. Jeebanoff)•

Ovcoco - Bad Witch

INOJ - Love you down(eSenTRIK Remix)

The Weeknd - Or nah (Stwo remix)

Rihanna - Pon de replay(Ed Marquis Remix)

Feng Suave - Honey,there's no time

Kim possible anthem - DJ FLEX

MaxandRubygm

Windows song trap remix

iPhone ringtone trap remix

Kyary Pamyu Pamyu-Pon Pon Pon(Y//2//K Remix)

Kyary Pamyu Pamyu-ponponpon(Natsu Fuji trap mix)

Not even her (feat Shiloh)

PLS&TY - Run wild*

South Club - Dirty house

Chlöe Howl - Do it alone

Chlöe Howl - Magnetic

AURORA - Runaway

AURORA - I went too far

My neck, my mii

Idkkora - Favourite song

Slow dance with you - Adventure time (extended)

Mitski - Francis Forever

Yuseol - Ocean view

Zach Farache - naive unprepared child

E v e r y b o d y w a n t s t o r u l e t h e w o r l d*

KINDA - Trippin

NAKED - Looking for star (feat. Jhnovr)

Chase Atlantic - Consume (feat. Goon dad garcons)

Chase Atlantic - Uncomfortable

Chase Atlantic - Ozone

Chase Atlantic - Swim*

Chase Atlantic - The walls

Chase Atlantic - Dancer in the dark

Chase Atlantic - Drugs & Money*

I would va va voom - Zara Larsson & Nicki Minaj (mashup)

Brwn - 시간

NCT127 -Limitless/Cherry Bomb(mashup)

Red velvet x blackpink x sunmi - Peek-a-boo/ Whistle/Gashina

Ultra Naté - Free (Mood II Swing Vocal Mix)

Nightcrawlers - Push the feeling on (The dub of doom)

Madison Avenue - Don't call me baby (Original Mix)

Mr Jukes - Grant Green ft Charles Bradley

Maria Takeuchi - Plastic Love

Miki Matsubara - Stay with me

Yung bae - I want cha back

TANUKI - BABY BABYの夢

Mariya Takeuchi - Yume no tsuzuki

Jonghyun - 우주가 있어 (Orbit)

Jonghyun - Moon

Jonghyun - AURORA

Jonghyun - Dress up

Jonghyun - Cocktail

Jonghyun - RED

Jonghyun - Suit up

Jonghyun - Let me out

Rediscovered songs

Dropout - So long ft Zada

Hermitude - Hyper paradise (flume remix)

Solange - Don't touch my hair

Ginuwine - Pony (Esta Remix)

Rare - Colours/ Changing*

Monsta x - white girl

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Get to know me

Tag game! Rules: you must answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people

Tagged by @stellagetides​, thanks wifey! Even tho you didn’t tag me first...... I’m not tagging anyone bc this was hella long and i don’t want any of y’all to hate me but if you feel like doing this, obviously go ahead!

THE LAST: 1. drink: peach ice tea 2. phone call: my sis 3. text message: a friend 4. song you listened to: Beth Ditto - Fake Sugar 5. time you cried: this morning, watching the OB finale. i was NOT ready for any of it

HAVE YOU EVER: 6. dated someone twice: eh, sorta but not really. i wouldn’t really call that dating so, no. 7. kissed someone and regretted: yup 8. been cheated on: no 9. lost someone special: yeah 10. been depressed: nah 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: unfortunately

3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12. black black black when it comes to clothing 13. purple 14. orange

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. made new friends: yes!!! 16. fallen out of love: no, i’ve been head over heels for katie all this time 17. laughed until you cried: i always cry when i laugh, i’m a weirdo i know 18. found out someone was talking about you: yes, when @czasemsraczkaczasemnie​ showed me the texts between her and Alice​ when she was on her way to see me in Krakow. that was a wild trip hahahhaah 19. met someone who changed you: i believe everyone we come across in life change us in some way so yeah, definitely 20. found out who your friends are: i don’t know honestly. i guess nothing that big has happened that it would’ve made me rethink my friendships in any way 21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: yeah

RANDOM: 22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: i don’t accept anyone i don’t know at all but most of them are still just acquaintances. so i really know maybe half of them. 23. do you have any pets: my mom has a dog who i affectionately call a Little Idiot 24. do you want to change your name: nah i’m cool with it 25. what did you do for your last birthday: CRIED BC I HAD JUST SEEN LANA DEL REY IN THE FLESH WHAT THE HELLLLLL. but anyways, that was at midnight on my birthday and on my actual bday i raved at a techno party in a thunderstorm and that was pretty cool. until the festival was interrupted for a few hours which made me miss Sampha and Goldfrapp and half of The xx. but it was still cool altogether. 26. what time did you wake up: about 10 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: watching Glow with my sister 28. name something you can’t wait for: for my thighs to stop being sore. me and my sister downed a few beers before we entered the festival area on sunday and for some stupid ass reason we thought it would be fun to try to squat on one leg and then try to get back up. which was impossible obviously bc i do not exercise ever but yes that happened. a lot. and i’m in a lot of pain now. please, do not ask. i do not know. 29.When was the last time you saw your mother: a few hours ago 30.What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: i would love to start uni this fall instead of having to wait yet another year bc i didn’t pass, again. it sucks so hard knowing exactly what you want to do for the rest of your fricking life but not being able to bc you didn’t pass the exam you thought you had aced. #foreverbitter 31. what are you listening to right now: Au Revoir Simone - Somebody Who 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: yeah 33. something that is getting on your nerves: right now? me being so damn bitter over me not starting uni this fall. like, just get over it already??? 34. most visited website: i wish i didn’t have to say this but it’s the truth so, tumblr 35. what do you like about yourself: i’m kindhearted and always put others before myself. and also, my taste in music is 6/5 36. favorite food: carbs in general but pizza and chinese are always my go-to’s 37. hair colour: dirty blonde with lighter blonde highlights/sorta ombre 38. long or short hair: shoulder length 39. piercings: ears 40. blood type: i don’t know even. we tested it at school once and i was AB i think but i’m pretty sure i messed it up somehow 41. nicknames: jess if you don’t speak finnish and jesu if you do, plus a bunch of dumb ones my family calls me 42. relationship status: a single pringle 43. zodiac: leo 44. pronouns: she/her/hers 45. favourite tv show: ORPHAN BLACK ORPHAN BLACK ORPHAN BLACK damn i’m gonna miss that so much. Bones is amazing as well and so are Got, AHS, HTGAWM, JtV and HIMYM and yes i definitely picked them bc i love acronyms 46. tattoos: not yet but i have a couple of ideas 47. right or left handed: right 48. surgery: haven’t had any 49. If you could choose to be an animal, what would you want to be? I’d wanna be a tiger bc they are fricking gorgeous 50. sport: i watch hockey and sometimes ice skating if i happen to flick through the channels when it’s on. i don’t really enjoy doing any at the moment. except tipsy squatting apparently. 51. vacation: what are you asking really? my last vacation? or my ideal one? i have no idea so i’m just gonna say that my mini euro trip this summer was amazing and next i’d like to go anywhere i haven’t been before. my goal in life is to see as many places as i can 52. pair of trainers: again, what are you asking??? my favorite ones? how many i own? what? i don’t know what to tell ya man

MORE GENERAL: 53. eating: love it, not eating anything right now unfortunately 54. drinking: i would be drinking water but i left my bottle somewhere and i’m too lazy to get up from the couch. but dehydration is cool too so no problem. 55. i’m about to: i should go to sleep but chances are i’m just gonna keep refreshing tumblr until i pass out. if i ever finish this, thank you a-lice for making me suffer 56. waiting for: this thing to be over 57. want: money and world peace. not necessarily in that order. and actually, if you just give me world peace i’m happy without the money. 58. get married: definitely 59. career: i wanna be speech language pathologist so baddddd and i wanna specialize in post-acute brain injury rehabilitation

WHICH IS BETTER: 60. hugs or kisses: both are great obviously but i’m gonna say hugs 61. lips or eyes: ummm eyes i guess?? i don’t know??? 62. shorter or taller: i really do not care, except that maybe if a girl is a loooot shorter than me i’ll feel like a giant and that’s not something i would necessarily enjoy 63. older or younger: preferably about my age but it doesn’t really matter if we click. i wouldn’t date anyone under 20 tho 64. nice arms or nice stomach: i literally do not care at all. all arms and all stomachs are nice and i will fight anyone on this. 65. hook up or relationship: relationship all the way 66. troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant, but i sometimes make trouble unwittingly

HAVE YOU EVER: (why are there two different parts for this?? just asking) 67. kissed a stranger: yeah 68. drank hard liquor: unfortunately, yes 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: nope 70. turned someone down: yeah 71. sex on the first date: i wouldn’t plan on it (okay i forgot this was have you ever so edit: yeah) 72. broken someone’s heart: i don’t think so 73. had your heart broken: kinda yeah but that was super dumb and i’m 1000% over it 74. been arrested: not yet but if i ever enter the US again i probably will be. the smooth criminal that i am 75. cried when someone died: yeah 76. fallen for a friend: sorta yeah but only briefly

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 77. yourself: sometimes 78. miracles: not really 79. love at first sight: no 80. santa claus: sure 81. kiss on the first date: why not 82. angels: girls? angels? absolutely

OTHER: 83. current best friend’s name: i don’t really have a best friend 84. eye colour: greenish blue 85. favourite movie: WONDER WOMAN was amazing and also i love carol and the handmaiden. hidden figures was good too. somehow i’ve forgotten the names of all the other films i’ve watched in my life so i’m just gonna go with the four. plus, i’ve definitely seen mean girls more times than any of you combined and this is something i’m legitimately proud of. no joke.

[tangeythetangerine]

Questions divisible by 4?

So many questions! I started these last night but fell asleep before I finished, oops sorry! 

4. Are you easy to get along with?Sometimes? As long as I’m not in a bad mood I like to think I’m pretty friendly, I am super shy though unless I’m comfortable with the people around me8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?Do potatoes count?12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?This is hard, I don’t really have any right at this moment, guess we’ll go with the first ones that pop into my head:- Something’s Gotta Give - All Time Low- Shut Up and Dance - Walk The Moon- Just One Yesterday (feat. Foxes) - Fall Out Boy- Wild Mustang (feat. Becky G) - Yellow Claw & Cesqeaux- Don’t Threaten Me with a Good Time - Panic! At The Disco16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?Yeah probably20. Do you like your neighbors?When their kid isn’t playing the drums in the morning, yes haha they have a cute greyhound and a cat that spends 90% of its time in our backyard24. Favorite part of your daily routine?I have a daily routine??? 😂28. Who are you most comfortable around?Allison and Jossie32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?This is not a thing I have ever thought about and honestly: I have no idea.36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?Ahahaha when have I EVER told them40. What do you want to do after high school?Yikes, I’ve been outta high school for 7+ years…I’ve done the uni thing so I’d like a job plz k thx (preferably somehow related to biology)44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?Oooo this is a tough one…I really want both tbh48. Have you ever been drunk?Yup52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?My temper. Or maybe that whole emotion bottling thing.56. Favourite colour?Purple60. Ever won a competition? For what?Lol no…actually does winning one netball grand final count? Because I’ve done that once.64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?Boring af, still salty I was the one that had to lean in. Basically: I had been with my then boyfriend for about…2 or 3 weeks? He was dropping me off at the station and he was going to Hong Kong to catch up with his family for a month in a couple days and was essentially like ‘hey I know you haven’t your first kiss but since I won’t see you for a month do you want to now?’ and I was like ‘uh okay’ and *I* had to lean over and essentially just peck him on the lips. So underwhelming ahahaha68. Twitter or Tumblr?Tumblr, largely because I don’t understand how to use Twitter72. What colour are your towels?Pink76. What colour is your underwear?Light blue80. What colour pants?Pale blue with white dogs on them!84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?Oooo I’d have to say I prefer rewatching 21 Jumpt Street over Mean Girls88. Last person you talked to today?Like actually vocally talked to? Mum92. In a fight with someone?Not presently96. Favourite actress?I’m so bad with these questions, I really don’t pay enough attention ummm Candice Patton maybe? I’ve been marathoning The Flash haha (still a season behind orz)100. How are you feeling?Sick, bit tired haha104. Do you miss anyone from your past?I miss some high school friends that I’ve kinda lost contact with (I mean I have all the means to contact them but I just am unsure about starting up a random out of the blue conversation…which is mostly how I lost contact in the first place “OTL)108. What should you be doing?Sleeping112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?…I can’t actually remember… potentially my roommate on contiki?116. Are you listening to music right now?Nope120. Are you afraid of the dark?Nah (weird sounds in the dark on the other hand…)124. Do you believe in love at first sight?Nope, gotta get to know a person to love them128. Would you change your name?Probably not? It’s a solid generic average name and I don’t know what I’d change it to132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?What is “deep”? 136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?Closed140. Summer or Winter?Summer hands down144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?ALL THE CHOCOLATE148. What’s your favourite quote?“For courage to count, you have to take action.” - Nyozeka from Alice 19th by Yuu Watase

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-TAGGED        

Rules: you have to tag 20 followers you want to get to know better

I was tagged by @kendralynora

Gender: girl

Star Sign: sagittarius

Height: 5′2

Sexual Orientation: gray ace-lesbian

Hogwarts House: Ravenclaw 

Favourite Colour: blue-green-purple? it’s hard to pick just one

Favourite Animal: do dragons count?

Average hours of sleep: 6-8 hours

Cat or dog person: both but cats more than dogs

Favourite fictional characters: like every gay lady 

Number of blankets I sleep with: one in the summer, 1-3 in the winter depending on how cold it gets

Favourite singer/band: idk I kinda listen to anything

Dream trip: roadtrip with my best friend

Dream job: librarian or DI specalist, which is a pharmacist librarian basically

When was this blog made: 4 or 5 years ago I think

Number of followers: 337

What made you decide to create this blog: I was looking up stuff for Alice and Claire from resident evil and ended up on here.

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100 woo

Whens the last time you ate bread? This morning when I had French toast for breakfast Whats the last movie you watched on your own? Probably Charlie and the chocolate factory What about the last movie you watched with another person? Alice through the looking glass What about the last movie you saw at the cinema? Was it good? Still secret life of pets. It was cute Do you attend school, college, or uni? Just graduated college What do you study, wherever you study? Criminology What industry do you want to be a part of when you’re older? I'd like to get in to intelligence analysis Are you a Hugh Grant or Colin Firth kinda girl? Hugh Grant. Though I do really enjoy Colin firth's character and storyline in love actually Kisses on the cheek or the neck? Depends on who it's from of course. Obvi neck from a love interest and cheek from fam How many girls can you trust? Like 5 ish maybe 6 What about guys? Idk really...I'd say 2 but even those 2 I'm like eh How do you earn your keep? I'm not, yet. I have some things in the works but like the job I'm supposed to start is taking forever (govt probs) so I applied to some other jobs in the meantime/just because this other job isn't really something I want to do forever annnnd I have a phone interview tomorrow morning. I'm a lil nervous If you could speak three different languages fluently, what would they be? Italian, Russian and Arabic How many texts have you ever sent on your current phone? Far too many to count Who do you usually text the most? It varies tbh Baths or showers? Showers Cheese or tomato? Cheese Shaved legs or shaved arms? Legs Did you know they’re currently shaving their arms some people on this years xfactor? I'll take a wild guess that the survey maker is from the UK since xfactor hasn't been on in the us since like 2013 Early nights or early mornings? I guess nights? Idk I don't love either How many coats do you own? 3 What about shoes? 20 ish One word to describe your most recent ex? Okay Fried, poached, boiled or scrambled eggs? Scrambled Have you ever been surprised with breakfast in bed? No Where, in your current country, would you like to live, other than where you do now? The west coast, even though I haven't been. It just gives off nice vibes Where wouldn’t you want to live? Anywhere on the east coast south of northern va. Or in like Montana or somewhere where there's a lot of nothing Has your life begun? Yes and no. It has, but I'm still waiting for the adult part to fully kick in Do you like snow? I do, until I have to do out and clean off my car and shovel Have you always got good grades? I did before college. And then in college I had like 3 or 4 eh classes out of 40+ so I mainly did okay. Do you like sheer clothing? It's alright Name three things that are over-rated: Oh man idk I'm bad at this stuff. I'll say, fit bits, Justin Bieber, and cava List four things about your facial appearance: My skin is dry, especially on my forehead. I have freckles right underneath my eyes. My eyebrows are pretty decent. My bottom teeth are a lil crooked List four things about your general appearance: I'm pretty tall. I have a bit of a booty. My elbows are double jointed. I'm pale List four things you like about yourself: I'm a great listener. I'm open to trying new things. I'm organized. I clean up nicely lol idk this was kind of difficult is that bad List four things you dislike about yourself: I over analyze everything. I dwell on the past and things I can't change. I procrastinate. I can be too self critical List four of your favourite TV programs: How I Met Your Mother, How to Get Away With Murder, Friends, SVU List four of your favourite foods/drinks: Penne ala vodka, chips & salsa/queso/guac, chocolate milk, grilled cheese This quiz is pretty different to others, right? It is and I like that What phone network are you on? Verizon Is it good? It's the only network I've ever used and it's been fine Cats or dogs? Dogs Llamas or sheep? Sheep Have you ever seen anyone famous in the street? Nope. I always hope to when I go to NYC or the hamptons but it's never happened. I've seen famous people random places like sports events, but only because they show them on the screen lol Are you hungry right now? A little, I'm kind of craving a grilled cheese and some onion rings Do any of your friend really irritate you at times? Yep little bit What do you think of couples who have entire albums just for them, with pictures of them just randomly at home, doing nothing that really requires a photo? Like personal albums or fb albums... Personal is cute I get it but on fb...eh Can you cook? I have a few things I'm decent at making Can you iron? I suck Can you work the microwave? Yes Can you work the washing machine? Yes Do you like your photo being taken? Depends, if I look good then yes lol Do you like taking photos of yourself? Not really Have you ever got into a club, whilst being underage? No, but I also never tried How many magazines do you buy a month? 0, we just get hgtv in the mail How many of them are car-related? - What about fashion? - Any celeb gossip ones? I used to buy j-14 and all those fun teen ones lolollll but that was forever ago Who will do this note after you? Idk I don't keep track of that What pets do you have? 3 dogs and a cat It’s getting pretty cold now, isn’t it? Do you have the heating on? The weather is so up and down here but it is chilly. The heat is on but I also have my fan on in my room because I like my room to be cold so I can burrow in 100 blankets Do you watch Hollyoaks? No Do you like Silus? Never heard of it Who’s your favourite? - Who’s your least favorite? - Do you watch Gossip Girl? I used to. Never finished it, but I know what happens Who’s your favourite girl? Blair because Serena got annoying. Even though I loveee Blake lively What about guy? I was in to Dan for a while. But then as you go on chuck bass just gets better and better Last gig you went to? The Lumineers Next gig your going to? Maybe firefly again? I have no plans before then as of now Favourite colour? Blue Are you regularly tired? Eh depends Are you excited to live on your own? One day When do you plan on moving out? Maybe a year or so, we'll see Do you have a onesie? No