#buty friends do i guess

[queenie-the-court-jester]

circus x gn!reader

ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls, please, raise your hands for tonight's star act, mx.maddox and the wanderer's!

★Waking up in a thick black fog was not something you'd ever expect to happen to you. Looking around, Spotting a circus in the distance, was pretty much your only hope of finding a way out. What were they doing out here? Were they in the same boat as you? Regardless, you just hoped they're nice..

★kri was the first to meet you, having found you wandering around outside the circus tents, he quickly introduced himself and asked you where you came from. After explaining your predicament, he nodded in thought

"gee.. that sounds rough.. but don't worry, I'm sure Maddox will know what to do, come with me!"

★Maddox had been stuck in the circus for a long while, along with the other residents. Kri opened the flap into his tent and quickly explained the situation.

"I'm sorry for your predicament young one.. but im afraid we don't know any way out.. on the other hand, you are welcome to stay and be apart of the circus"

★having no other options you accepted, kri excitedly dragging you to the nursery, where all the children and young adults stayed. He introduced you to jiro, Kyo and wendy. Explaining how the four of them were the clowns

★jiro welcomed you with a kind smile, and nodded his head as greeting. You noticed how he didn't seem like much of a talker, preferring to watch and listen

"welcome y/n, I hope you enjoy your stay here"

★Kyo was obviously the most energetic of the bunch, happily blabbering about whatever and making horrible jokes. His friends only gave a small laugh and pat on the back

"it's great to see a new face, come to me if you need a picker upper okay?"

★and last but not least, Wendy. She stayed quiet, giving a shy smile and looking away whenever you'd make eye contact. She shook your hand and soon left, having seemed uncomfortable

"don't mind her... She just needs time getting used to everything, she'll come around"

★they assigned you a bed, and that's how your life at the circus started. Everyone was very welcoming, everyone but wendy. Often staring at you wearily and from a distance. 'Till one night, she came into your tent after everyone went to sleep

"shhh.. I'm sorry for bothering you this late butI need to talk to you.."

"..okay? What is it you need?"

"I'm sorry if I've been coming off as.. distant.. it's just.. you remind me of something that feels so familiar, but I can't put my finger on it.."

"oh..."

"..as you already know, everyone calls me wendy, so you can too I guess.. sorry, did that come off as cold? I'm not really used to Talking to new people.. a-anyways, if you need anything, or if you have any questions.. you can come to me"

"I'll.. keep that in mind, thank you Wendy"

★she gives you a smile and leaves soon after, quickly rushing away. The next few days, she slowly starts talking to you. Opening up bit by bit

"you know.. everyone calls us the dream team, but I really don't think we're suitable for that name. Even Maddox calls us a nightmare!"

"yeah, because you're the main factor to that assumption"

"Wendy.."

"...sorry"

★during your stay with them, you learned that Wendy showed up at the circus just a few days before you, no wonder she seemed so distant. Sometimes she'd say random words in Spanish, most likely cussing kyo out

★their roles in their act goes like this: jiro and kri are the sideshow, doing tricks and all sorts of things while Kyo and wendy were the mains. Acting out many silly stories and using slapstick humor most of the time.

★the first time you saw them in their costumes you nearly had a heartattack. Imagine seeing four scary looking clowns just staring at you ominously from the darkness

★they perform for these shadow people that would come to the circus, nobody knows what they are or why they show up, but there were rumours that once, long ago, the previous circus inhabitants refused to perform for them and.. well.. they had to be "replaced"

★during one of the dream teams acts, you wandered off. Exploring the back tents and dressing rooms when you came across multiple people you recognized, from when they all welcomed you into their little family

★a ballerina named Odette, who was next in line for the show. She seemed sweet as she waved at you from her dressing room, waving back you quickly left

"oh! Hello y/n, do you need something?"

★samson the beast tamer, a peculiar cocky man. He bowed as he dragged a lion by a chain collar behind him. You sincerely hoped they didn't mistreat the animals like other circuses, but judging by the lions calm and obedient attitude, maybe it was domesticated?

"good day sweets"

★will the stuntsman. He gave you a devilish grin as he passed by you, carrying some metal pipe. Giving a wave and smile in return

"see ya later toots!"

★maybe living in the circus won't be so bad..?

[bbarican]

july 05, 2023; 6:09 pm - idk what to feel

hi tumblr, how are you guys?

im mentally exhausted, im confused, im all over the place; i wish i could just disappear and come back when everything is okay again but obviously i cant do that so here i am just pushing through as much as i can

work - is fine i guess, ang daming need gawin pero kelan ba ko naubusan ng gagawin? never naman so i guess this is just me being overwhelmed with everything else and work is thankfully not being affected as much

family - dont even get me started; kakaalis palang ng parents ko to palawan with the rest of our relatives and sakto nagkaproblem pa silang dalawa. i hate it so much, i wish i could slap my dad with how stupid he is pero syempre im also confused kasi i have no fucking clue kung ano ba talaga story. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it.

friends - buti nalang i have them to hold onto; me and chie and jed are seeing each other this friday for dinner and hopefully for our very own spek now taylors version listening party tapos my college bestfriends are just always there regardless if we’re all busy or not which i will always love about them

personally - im just really tired; ang dami kong iniisip sa work tapos dumadagdag pa tatay ko tapos i need to take cre of my brother nd my lola and our house and our dogs and our helpers and our relatives na this friday din dating so parang i just want everything to stop for a minute

i swear i wish i could just stay at the beach for a week and not talk to anyone muna

for now, atleast this coffee and cheesecake im having at my new favorite cafe is helping soothe my worries

[thirdworldearthling]

UltraelectromagneticHIGH

December 22, 2022. SMDC Festival Grounds. ERASERHEADS. Huling El Bimbo.

Bombarded by birthday greetings from family, friends, colleagues and insurance company 😂.

Today is gonna be the day that they're gonna throw it back to...me? Haha!

Eraserheads will be playing their final (final?!?) reunion concert in PH. I was the happiest person in the entire universe when I learned that they're going to play on my birthday. No more questions asked, no buts and ifs, I will be there come hell or high water, even dead and cold hahaha!

Dizizit! Bzzzt bzzzt! I'm going to experience once more (or for the last time?) that euphoric feeling, nostalgic ecstacy - ultraelectromagnetichigh.

The Diegos started stepping on the gas at around 8:00 P.M. to fill our dehydrated souls with music that we, the heads generation, love to death.

The 90s kid in me started giggling and mumbling, with the occasional head bounce (cannot do the head bang now, vertigo will kill me 😵‍💫) and stomping, eyes closed, to entirely feel the moment. OPM Megahits from FrancisM, Yano, Wolfgang, Razorback, P.O.T., Pu3ska and even Gary V were included in their catalogue, combined with the famed 90s anthem from Nirvana, RATM, RHCP, Cypress Hill, Beck, Salt-N-Pepa, Naughty by Nature, Arrested Development, Mastaplann, Breeders, The Cardigans, Blur, Daft Punk, Chemical Brothers, Beastie Boys, Fatboy Slim and merry more. They capped off their set with Teeth's Laklak, which heightened our sentimental senses and rebellious teen spirit.

8:30 P.M. The whole festival grounds went black and silent (just for a few seconds). Then the jumbo LED screens flashed a montage of Eheads' journey counting down to this epic finale.

5. 4. 3. 2. 1. Wooooooooooooohhhhh!!!

Lights off. All of us are guessing the first song. My previous assumptions were Fruitcake (why not? it's christmas time!), Superproxy (coz of the main producer's bragging of the hologram tech that made the ticket prices soar high way up in the sky 🤣) & Pop Machine (this is my current favorite). And then baaaaam! We all went insane and in flames!

We were all screaming our hearts out. Although the audio and visuals were disappointing (we barely hear the solid sound of guitars/bass, the screen display at the Moshpit/VIP section was out of sync with the music), our energies were intensified more than ever. Sing. Scream. Jump. Bounce. Stomp. Repeat. Then Elmo, Arkin and Eon went down the main stage to perform with their respective dads, and the much-awaited hologram of the great Francis Magalona unfolded right before our fiery eyes. I must admit that I am not impressed with the 3-D moving figure (with that ticket price they could've done better), but the illusion of him performing was undeniably a feast.

Oh my God. They're going to shove the whole Cutterpillow album to our face! The album art at the back of their most successful album were flashed one by one in the screen. BTW, I love their all black outfit for the 1st set.

Upon hearing Raymund's familiar drum patterns, we screamed in unison again. Saan ka nagtungo, tumila na ang ambon, sana man lang naghintay kahit na konting sandali, weee weee weee!!! (takatakatakatak) Sorry for all the people near me recording that important moment of your lives, you'll definitely hear my voice singing along, that was unforgivably cringeworthy. 🤣You can still hear my voice and it gets more annoying as the night progresses.

When they played Overdrive, we were loaded with nitro boost during the whole song and we stand by near the end, not sure if we wanted to hear the monologue of Marcus (Pare 'di na magstart yan, buti pa kain na lang tayo) or let them proceed onto the next song.

Slo mo. They let Ely rest for a bit. Raymund on vocals! Also one of my favorites, I love every bit of this masterpiece (written by the 4 geniuses). My twitter username was inspired by this song.

Another trip down the memory lane - Huwag mo nang itanong - I was in 5th or 6th grade when this song was released. It made me laugh when I first heard the line, "ewan ko, hindi ko alam, pwede bang huwag na lang nating pag-usapaaaaan. Huwag mo nang itanong sa akin, 'di ko rin naman sasabihin", I thought, oh dear, that was sooooo me haha! I don't talk much when I was younger (until now?), that was a waste of time for me, I value my solitude more than the nonsense chitchats.

Next! First time to hear Paru-Parong Ningning live. Though Raymund & Ely were upbeat, I was unable to move because I'm having cramps hahaha (signs of aging). Standing still while enduring the agonizing pain, I didn't want to be pulled out of the concert grounds. I just need water and I'll be fine 😂

I'm still singing and dancing with the crowd (even with recurring cramps haha) and then Raymund strikes again! Yoko - A very fitting song for the current madness we have these days. "Tigilan na 'tong raket, raket ng gobyerno, 'di ko na kelangan ng pang-aabuso niyo" / "milyon-milyong pilipinong estudyante, tumiwalag, palayain ang sarili!"

Ely showcased his acoustic guitar prowess, singing along with the crowd, as Fill her ended the first set.

The 30-minute break started with Cutterpillow playing in the background of the countdown timer. I used to have a cat, who wouldn't ever wanna get fat! I kept singing while in a rush to buy water. Aaaaaaahhh my throat was dry and painful. But I don't care, I'm going to sing my heart and lungs out all night. Haha!

Opening song for the second set - Pop Machine! At last, wish granted! As I've said earlier, this song is my current fave. The beat, the rhythm and the lyrics were perfect. Kailan ba ako magkakapera? Yeah!

I was surprised to hear them play Sabado. They released this song back in 2014, along with 1995 (the song, not the year). The limited edition CD was included in the Esquire Magazine September 2014 issue. Buti na lang, I got my own copy hehe.

Of course they also played their very first single (Ligaya) that captured the entire nation. Who would've thought that a tshirt, isaw, tansan and thesis (I don't even know thesis at that time, I was only in 3rd grade playing jackstone & patintero when I heard it on the radio) will make them legendary rock icons.

Buddy introduced Maestro Mel Villena who helped them arrange Lightyears - my ultimate favorite song from Eraserheads. No words needed. Just listen. The orchestra almost made me cry.

Aside from the orchestra and the back-up singers from AHEB cast, they were assisted by their auxiliary band members: Audry Dionisio, Mikey Amistoso and Jazz Nicolas.

Surprised again upon hearing the back-up singers sang the lines: In a hostile takeover bid... Whoa! Saturn Return! One of the songs in my wishlist. I wanna see a showdown from Ely and Raymund. But it got a lot better! Backed by the orchestra, the rap parts of Rayms were performed superbly by Arkin Magalona and Eon Buendia. I think after the 2nd set, I saw Diane Ventura (Eon's mom) and told her that Eon was impressive, then she shouted loud and proud, "Galing ni Eon!". The kids are alright.

Got another one in my wishlist - Tama Ka. At long last, been wanting to hear this live. Buddy didn't disappoint. "Minsan nagtatanong kung saan, kailan, paano nasimulan, ang katapusang mahirap takasan, pero 'wag na, ibato mo na lang sa ulan."

After With a smile, the band continued to play Insomya, perfect timing to pump up the crowd. We were on fire again! SWWWWW

Amazed and delighted when I heard the intro of Christmas Party. Another fave from the Fruitcake album. Did not expect this song, I was more convinced that Fruitcake will make the cut. Gary V sang the parts originally sang by the late Francis M.

The Sticker Happy piano was used as a backdrop during Spoliarium and made it more melancholic and gloomy. Remember The Final Set concert 13 years ago? That very same piano was set on fire. We can also feel the show's about to end soon.

They ended the second set with Magasin. Short break.

Encore. During Pare Ko, Raymund walks around the stage recording the event while drinking haha! "Lalo lang madadagdagan ang sakit ng ulo at bilbil sa tiyan" 🤣

Alapaap's intro was playing and the crowd sing along. But that was a mistake, that's why Ely's opening spiel doesn't add up haha! Minsan was the correct song, followed by Alapaap and the final song, Ang Huling El Bimbo. One of the greatest songs ever written, it was really doing well on its own, but when backed up by the orchestra, it went more magical and breathtaking. They ended the night with the magnificent fireworks display and loads of confetti shower.

Huling El Bimbo setlist:

1ST SET

1. Superproxy 2. Back2me 3. Waiting for the bus 4. Fine time 5. Kamasupra 6. Overdrive 7. Slo Mo 8. Torpedo 9. Huwag mo nang itanong

10. Paru-Parong Ningning 11. Walang Nagbago

12. Poorman's grave 13. Yoko 14. Fill her

2ND SET

15. Pop Machine 16. Sembreak 17. Sabado

18. Ligaya 19. Lightyears 20. Saturn Return

21. Maling Akala 22. Tama Ka 23. With a smile

24. Insomya 25. Christmas Party 26. Spoliarium

27. Magasin

3RD SET (ENCORE)

28. Pare Ko 29. Minsan 30. Alapaap

31. Ang Huling El Bimbo

Only three songs on my wishlist weren't included in their awesome setlist: Fruitcake, Maselang Bahaghari & Balikbayan Box. But still, one for the books! Thank you for the best birthday ever!!!

From the 8 year old kid in 1993 who listened to your songs & stick (still kick!) until the end. Amen? AMEN!!!

[minimomoe]

How to Train your Demon

Pairing: trueform! Sukuna x Fem Reader

Summary: Life has all kinds of wins and losses. You don't know which category to put your new demon husband in though.

Tags: MDNI!, red string of fate trope, true form sukuna, librarian reader, soul mates, reincarnation, accidental summoning, love at first sight (buti it's one-sided (until it's not)), Sukuna is demon, but he's v much in love, smut and stuff eventually i guess....

Song inspo: E.V.O.L- MARINA

Part I. II. III. IV. V. VI. VII. VIII. IX. X.

Rule no. 1: Don't show fear

It was a mistake. A comical, nonsensical, monumental mistake, but a mistake nonetheless. You didn’t mean to create a soul tie with a demon . All you did was read a torn up book from the library. Was it an occult book about spiritual practices in the Japanese Heian era? Yes… but it doesn’t warrant an eldritch horror being your life partner. 

Actually, according to the demon, you didn’t create the soul tie, he has been waiting for you all his life. Cute, but it didn’t make the situation any better. Damn your natural inclination to catch the old and withered items thrown into the donation boxes of the library you worked at. It just pained your heart to see pages falling out of books, and the ominous leather bound grimoire was no exception. 

Restoration was one of your favorite things to do. Knowledge is always worth saving, no matter how old it may be. Books were your life. You found yourself lost in them, enchanted, terrified, taught. You had no genre as your favorite. Everything was welcomed, nothing was off limits. You knew a little bit of every culture, every study, every block buster fantasy. If you could, you’d build a machine that would let you live inside of a book and experience the scene yourself. 

Technically you could ask your all powerful demon to do that, but you didn’t want to deal with him right now.

You still weren’t all too sure on how it happened. First you were glueing the pages back to the spine of the book, running your fingers over the deckled edges when you opened a page that was stuck together. You carefully peeled it apart, a task that took ten minutes to do to avoid any additional tears, and opened up to a page that was different from the rest. The words were written in a rush, the strokes of the characters dragging much longer than it should. You only knew a tiny bit of Japanese (but much more of Latin, Russian, Yoruba, and French from having just an abundance of time on your hands), but this time you could make out some of the words. 

You muttered the ones you knew for sure, used context clues for the ones that were beyond reading. It didn’t make a lick of sense to you. You closed the book with a clamp so that the glue would set and decided to come back to it tomorrow since it was closing time. There was no rush of wind, flash of lightning, or eerie sounds. Just you and the screech of a thousand cicadas as soon as you stepped outside to walk to your car. A normal Thursday night.

Until it wasn’t. 

You shuffled around your house with a new arc from your favorite novelist in one hand, a glass of wine in the other, and the largest frame of glasses known to man perched on your nose. Jazz music quietly spilled out from your hidden speakers, preventing the house from getting a little too quiet as you lived alone with your cat. It was a total boring cliche, you were well aware, but you were happy with your life. You had friends who you trusted, a great relationship with your parents, and just recently got out of a relationship with someone who you didn’t hate, you just grew apart. There was no chaotic, negative energy to feast on in your household and you liked it that way. 

You thought you heard your cat clawing on the door when you were snuggled away in your bed. You flipped the covers over and went to let her in to snuggle with you. 

“I’m so sorry, Cleo. I thought you were already in here with me,” you said, scooping her up from the floor. The ragdoll cat begrudgingly accepted your kisses of apology. You set her down on the bed, watching her find a good spot to curl up in and smiled. You went to reach for your wine glass you knew that you set on your nightstand, but there was nothing in the glass. You were sure that you didn’t finish it. You paced yourself well enough for it to last until at least chapter five, but there wasn’t a drop of alcohol left. 

“The quality of sake has diminished over the years, I see.” 

The voice came from all around the room but also deep in your chest. Cleo hissed, making a run for it out of your door, leaving you wildly spinning around for the intruder. You lunged for the heavy duty taser you kept in your nightstand, but when you turned around there was nobody there.

“What is that?” 

The bone chilling voice spoke again. Was it one person or many, you couldn’t tell. 

“I— I have a weapon!” You tried to steady your voice but it was hopeless. You were terrified. There was nobody there but you could feel a heavy presence in the room. 

“You call that a weapon?” The voice laughed. “The only weapon my wife needs is me.”

The statement made you falter. “Wife? Who are you?”

You turned around once again and nearly jumped out of your skin. A man, or a close approximation of one, sat on your bed flicking through your book. It was impossible, but he had twice as many limbs on his top half than he should, and double the amount of eyes. They were bright and red when scanning through your novel. “What language is this?” 

“F-french,” you whispered. You were dreaming. You had to be. That was the only way this could be happening. Still, dream or not, you had to protect yourself. You pressed your taser and watched the prongs leap out and touch his bare skin. He looked unbothered, merely looking down at his stomach where the taser landed and moved his arm to reveal a mouth on his abdomen. A tongue flopped out and licked the prongs, dragging it back to the mouth and the taser was slowly dragged out of your hands and into the mouth. You watched in horror as the hard plastic was crushed to pieces in front of your very eyes. 

“Useless weapon,” he reiterated, this time looking directly at you. “Don’t insult me again.” 

“Pl—please don’t hurt me.” There was nothing left to do but beg. You already punched yourself till blood was drawn. This was not a dream, you were looking at a real, evil monster who didn’t know French and ate high voltage tasers. 

He rose from your bed. You crawled away as much as you could until you bumped into a wall and still you wanted to move through it. He stood before you, looking over your trembling frame and called out for you. 

“Rise.” 

You rose, unsure if you really had a choice in the matter. One of his many hands cupped the side of your face. A clawed thumb brushed away the tear that fell on your cheek.

“Why do you weep?”

“Um… well… I don’t really know who you are,” you said honestly. You were still pinned to the wall, unable to flee and he took up your entire frame of sight. He nodded, removing his hand from your face and raising it in the air. You thought he was going to strike you and you flinched. When you opened your eyes again he was multiple steps away from you, still raising his palm.

“Time has faded your memory of me. You are my wife, and I am your husband. The string of fate proves that we are mates.” 

He stated it so matter of factly. You are my wife, and I am your husband. My wife, your husband. Mates. Forget dreaming, you have officially lost your mind. 

“I don’t… remember agreeing to that,” you said carefully. The words “husband” and “wife” bounced in your head in a crazy echo. You slumped to the floor, your body suddenly very tired. A laugh bubbled up your throat and escaped your mouth. So much for your boring life.

“Do you not feel the connection? The string is tied from my last finger to yours.” You looked at your hand, not seeing any supposed string and shook your head. 

He frowned. “You do not agree to it. It has been decided.” He crouched in front of you, inspecting your face earnestly. One side of his face was strange, not normal skin, instead inhuman, bumpy and shades darker. 

“You look the same after all this time,” he murmured. “I will make you remember.” 

“Let’s not do that,” you said quickly. “I don’t even know your name and I am not married. I’m a librarian and I have a cat. And I have never, ever met you before.”

“I am known as Sukuna, among other names,” he responded to one of your distresses. “What title is a librarian?”

This time you laughed. An deranged laugh, loud and unbecoming. Sukuna waited as impatiently as he could for you to be finished, but you kept on cackling. Once out of breath, you wiped the tears out of your eyes and leaned against the wall. It finally dawned on you how this happened. The drying grimoire that was locked up in the library was responsible for this strange turn of events.

“It’s not a title, at least, not in the way you’re thinking. It’s my job, one that I love very much. Was I ever a common worker before?”

Sukuna bristled at the thought. Even his tummy mouth frowned. “You were a queen. You wanted nothing because you had everything.”

“Interesting,” you mused. “I’m so not your girl.”

“I’m not interested in little girls.”

“Kudos to you. I think I’m going to sleep now. I’m clearly much more tired than I think I am.”

“We have things to discuss,” Sukuna protested, but you already slipped under the sheets. If I force myself to sleep he will go away, you thought. 

Instead you felt the dip of the other side of your bed and flung your eyes open. Sukuna was in bed, with you, staring your down with his four eyes. He was much too close for your liking. 

You looked at him wildly. “What are you doing?” 

“Resting with you.” 

“Get out of my bed!”

“Are you no longer tired?” 

“I am tired. Extremely tired, but that doesn’t mean I want you on my bed! Stay on the floor or something!”

Sukuna rolled his eyes at you and turned on his back, his arms crossed in two sets on his chest. 

“You were always particular with your sleeping habits. I see that hasn’t changed either.”

“Stop acting like you know me!”

Sukuna got off the bed to sit on the floor like you asked. The only problem is that you could feel his gaze prickling your skin, making it impossible to ignore him. You didn’t feel bad about kicking him out, he certainly didn’t have a pout on his face because of it, but something needed to be done. 

“Face the door instead of me,” you mumbled. 

His eyes twitched. “Commanding me like footmen,” he grumbled, yet he still turned away. You wondered if his obedience had something to do with the book. Sukuna had the aura of someone who doesn’t listen to anyone, yet he’s been more than understanding with you. Maybe you really were his wife. Maybe you were having a very elaborate and maladaptive daydream. You thought of “maybe’s” until the sun came up, still staring at the back of his pink, spiky hair. 

Your alarm chirped for you to get ready for work. You groaned. You didn’t get a second of sleep. You were too afraid of being eaten by the demon you accidentally summoned. You reached out to shut off the ringing clock as quietly as you could, but Sukuna touched it first. 

“How strange,” he said, turning the clock around in his hand. He brought it up to his ear, shook his head, tapped the glass. Then he crushed it. It was made of plastic, but the shards bent and broke to the floor left his hand unscratched. You gaped at the mess he made as he let the remains fall to the floor. “It was making a wretched sound.”

“Yeah…” you sighed. “It was pretty noisy.”

You had to find out how to get rid of him. Fast. 

Thanks for reading loves!! lemme know what ya think xx

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[blog-reflection]

ONE / Thirty One - Decent Ice Skating Person

And I did, in fact, spend time waiting.

Apparently Ethan was either asleep or at work, but he is definitely not the type of person that glued their phone to their face. Well guess I have to wait. I messaged him right after the gang…still hate that name…was asking for a plus one. Of course I haven’t said anything yet, but I will once he agrees, which I hope he does. We texted a lot over the last few days butI don’t know if asking him out like that would be a nice thing for a first date. I don’t mean the Ice skating. I think that’s awesome for the first date, but I’m worried that introducing him to my friends might be, I don’t know, too early. On the other hand, I don’t have to tell them that it’s a date. Oh my goddess I am a genius. For Ethan and me this will be a date but then it comes to Petal and Jesse it’s just a casual friend hangout. He could be from a different school, someone who helped me get everything started. Of course I kind of would be lying but who’s asking right? Nonetheless I think Ethan just replied to my message. At least I felt my phone buzzing all over my bedside table to let’s see. 

Discord conversation 

@Fallen_Jam Today at 3.03am

They there :D Random question but, how good are you on blades? I’m asking because Jesse, my best friend, has been asking if I wanted to join them and a friend at the freshly opened ice rink! I always loved ice skating and I always thought that it had some kind of a romantic aura around it. Nonetheless, if we’d get a fourth one we could all get away cheaper and the two of us would have something like our first date. UNLESS YOU DON’T WANT TO CALL IT A DATE haha I really don’t want to put pressure on you, so it’s more than okay if you disagree with the date idea, or come along with us in total. Let me know once you have an answer, cya and have a great work day!

@GreenOtter Today at 2.15pm

Heyho! Haha thanks for asking! I am actually pretty and a decent ice skating person. I used to go to the ice rink with Harper like all winter long. And yes I agree, to some extent it is really romantic. And yes of course it’ll be our first date! If I am honest I kind of wanted to ask you out already, but work occupied me so often that I either didn’t have the time nor the brain capacity to text you. But the happier I am that you made that move. Say yes to your little groups, I’ll come along! Do they know that this will also be our first date? I mean it is kind of odd to have people around you on your first date though. Anyways, maybe if my time will let me, you could come around mine after the date? We could watch some movies, have some snacks and chatter? Only if you want to, of course. And thanks for the wishes, sadly today was a shit day but well, we all have those times amirte? TTYL!!!

@Fallen_Jam Today at 2.29pm

I am so sorry to hear that your day was like that :/ I hope you had a good cake in the cafe you could munch on in the background! Sounds like hell to me to be honest. I don’t think I could ever work there haha, I tip my crown. BUT NICE !!! I was really hoping you’d like the idea! In terms of us, if it would be okay, I wouldn't like them to know it’s a date. Jesse is pretty fast with making assumptions and I don’t really want them to ruin this. I bet they will like you tho! They will bring one of their friends along that I don’t know as well. No matter what I think it will turn out great! And I can’t wait to see you on the ice then. I expect a rose btw haha Anyhow, I’ll text the others and send you the further details! Hope you can move around your shift then! Anyways cya!

Well, that went better than I thought! And If he’s been busy lately I get why he didn’t reply. Alright, off to the gang..ugh.

Discord Server “The Gang ✩*⋆ “ conversation 

@Fallen_Jam Today at 2.34pm

@Petals get the group ticket I got someone!

@Petals Today at 3.11pm

YES AWWWYEAHHH Alright Alright!!! Then I need six pounds for each of you! Btw who’s coming? The friend Jesse mentioned? Lucia?

@Fallen_Jam Today at 3.13am

Actually no, it’s someone I got to meet at a different school, who helped me with the setup! His name is Ethan, he’s really cool!

@J3ss3 Today at 3.13pm

Yo how come I never heard of him before?!?!?

@Fallen_Jam Today at 3.15pm

Hey call you titts! You haven’t mentioned Petal prior to that as well!

@Petals Today at 3.16pm

WAIT YOU WHAT?!?!

@Fallen_Jam Today at 3.16pm

YOU HAVEN’T TOLD HER?!?!

@Petals Today at 3.16pm

Yeah they never tell anyone anything, right Mx Fuckhead?!?!

@J3ss3 Today at 3.17am

Jesus what did I come back to! I didn’t you we were attending a “Roast Jesse till they bleed” OUTCH

@Fallen_Jam Today at 3.17pm

You’ll get over it haha So Petal, when’s the day?

@Petals Today at 3.20pm

Well, this friday! They have an opening party that I really don’t want to miss. They said something with music and light and it sounds sooo cool! Gates open around 5pm so enough time before for a bit of chatter. If you need blades, you have an additional fee, but you’ll get that back after the ride! 

 @Fallen_Jam Today at 3.21pm

Perfect! I will text Ethan asap. Cya :D 

Nice date, time and ticket! What else? I was actually thinking of buying the ticket for Ethan sort of as a gift. But I’ll think about that. Anyhow, I’ll message Ethan and then grab some food. 

Hopefully, this will all work. 

[elixirjade]

like placing relationship status on locked and only me privacy aint gonna make u paranoid in the first place. well oh well kahit gaano mo naman pagbawalan sila or sabihan mga bagay di ka komportable gagawat gagawa mga yan ng paraan. maybe im kinda hoping he would para pwede ko na ideadz sarili ko ng maaga. everyday is the same shit and i just feel overall hopeless and i cant save money for shit and i will never in my lifetime can afford to own a house or a car or pay an insurance. iced cofi na nga lng nagpapasaya saken tas addiction ko huhuhu. super lonely minsan kase mapapansin mo naman na napaka-offputting mo na tao, tried so hard to fit in, i am still fitting in and nakikisama din ako pero makikita mo din sino lumaki ng normal vs abnormal which is me. nakakapagod din pala mabuhay at isipin mo wala sasalo sayo. everytime bababa ako nakikita ko tatay ko na tumatanda at naiiyak ako kasi nawalan na ako ng isang magulang at ayaw ko isipin na mawawalan ako ng nagiisang suporta sa buhay ko. ni hindi ko nga mabilhan si papa ng nike shoes, maybe someday pag nakaluwag luwag. napapagastos din ako minsan pag nasa office kasi ano ba, bakit ba pinipilit ko makisabay sa kanila ehhh di naman ako talaga mayaman. well its cuz if i dont, i wont get any friends, i keep reading na people wont really be interested in you unless u offer them something... fuck ano pa ba patapon na ugali ko at mukha ako.... okay sige pera. i wanna believe there is an afterlife for me, where i was born in a normal household tho its kinda unfair cuz my parents did everything for us kahit na walang wala sila. naiisip ko ngayon kung gaano kabigat sa kanila maglabas ng 500 para lang makasama ako sa field trip kahit isang beses nung grade 6, shet buong araw na boundary na pala yun ni papa. i didnt know, all i know is that being a child and seeing your peers experience normal life and having new things, lalaki ka talagang inggetera. what the fuck do i know??? i have to spend my school years wearing my shoes until i literally cannot wear them anymore. in college, i have to beg my friend if she has extra shoes to lend me cuz kakamatay lang ni mama and i have to ask my ex bf if he can gift me discounted doll shoes sm department store, and i have to walk every from sta mesa to our house everyday tas partida butas pa yung sapatos ko. buti na lang di pa ganon kainit nun. maybe its my PMS time right now kaya nagtotrauma dump ako pero i just want to let it out and self-therapy myself and convince myself na SOBRANG LAYO NA NG NARATING MO at kahit yung mga nakagraduate sa mga mayyamang university sinasabi matalino ka at kayang kaya mo lahat at sobrang tapang mo. I dont wanna believe the mean voices in my head telling me otherwise. i have to push myself until i can die of old age. its sooooo fucking scary to be a fucking adult right now lalo ang mahal ng bilihin. im always soooo fucking scared. i guess what i always tell myself is ive been through worse and i can face whatever life will put me through. i dont believe in god but goddamn, will to live and perseverance is something. im a bacteria that is currently struggling but is hopeful that in the future i can atleast be sad inside a house.

[shenashygans]

THE SUNDAY SATURDAY CURRENTLY -39-

the jowa reminded me again to do TSC. lagi ko daw kasing nakakalimutan. wala siyang mabasa. i feel pressured. wow big würd hahaha alam naman niyang lazy ako sa mga ganito. buti nalang patient siya hihihi. so here's another TSC (Saturday version) from yours truly~

CURRENTLY

Reading

you guessed it. the mark of athena padin! I've been on a reading slump. kinda? nagbabasa lang ako omw to work kasi. haha

Writing

TSC 39 on a Saturday. while doing the laundry and folding clothes. kasi lalarga ako mamaya. lol

Listening

to the sound of the washing machine

Thinking

of what to do later? ooh. I'll pamper myself kasi dasurvvvv. excited na ako magpa-gel polish lol not excited with the weather though. it's cold, pero it means malapit na uminit. hays. thinking of where we could eat later. may unli biryani daw dun around sa salon na pupunta ko. excited me :3

Smelling

our laundry hahah

Wishing

that it'll be colder until ramadan. I'm not ready for the warm/hot weather yet. di ako excited mamawis lol wishing all good health for us kasi malapit na mag-change of weather huhu

Hoping

everything turns out the way we want to. now that we have new jobs, i hope we'd enjoy it every day. i hope we can learn new things and share our own knowledge too. i hope in time we can do what we've been planning (to get a new apartment) it's a big deal, but i hope it'll be sooner. hihi

Wearing

my pambahay hehe

Wanting

to stay home and cuddle with the jowa. pero asa work naman siya. it's cuddle weather outside kasi. lol. i want to go to Dubai mall din pala. namiss ko kasi ung kinokuniya bookstore hehe next time, maybe.

Needing

to eat breakfast na. araw-araw akong pinag pprepare ng food ng jowa ko. but on Saturdays, ako prep sakanya kasi wala akong pasok. kaso iced coffee lang na-prep ko.

i need her to have more patience with me. wag na strength, kasi baka masakal niya ako hahaha. i need to be more careful, lalo na pag clumsy ako. naiinis siya, not because clumsy ako.. baka kasi masaktan ako hehe. i need to bubble wrap this one huhu

Loving

the weather. super lamig! pero di ako nagrereklamo. okay na ung malamig po ahh hahaha.

loving the jowa every day. it's cheesy, pero you get to know a person everyday talaga. and every day, i fall in love with her. all the good, bad, & in between. i love how we cuddle every morning before getting up. i love how she prepares our baon and breakfast the night before. i love how we eat breakfast together kahit ma-late na siya. i love how she waits for me to get home and eat dinner together. i love how she makes kwento her day, and how she listens to my day. it's been a year of being together, but with the right person, it feels shorter and longer at the same time. it's the little things that make me love her more. kaya ikaw, alam mong mababasa mo 'to... mahal kita 💜

Feeling

energetic. nag-salang na kasi ako kagad ng labahin. aalis din kasi ako later. lol. feeling excited to pamper myself. been doing that monthly with roomie. but since i moved here in Dubai, at umalis na siya ng UAE, wala na masyado time. I'm feeling meh most of the time din pala. like, if something happens na i don't like, meh. lol

Manifesting

STABLE JOBS (FOR US). FINANCIAL ABUNDANCE. GOOD HEALTH (FOR FAMILY & FRIENDS). HAPPY LOVE & SEX LIFE ✨ (ulit-ulitin ko ‘to)

- manifesting is always the key. happy weekends!

[15fishes]

i hate like not knowing if someone hates me bc they think im cringe or if its bc I actually did something wrong bc like i knew this girl when i first came to the school in like 8th grade and i forget how but she knows i was involved in whatever cringe fandom and i remember her being like “eww cringe” which like whatever im a literal furry idc if she thinks im cringe but like now we dont talk which also fine but she also like?? stares at me??? like i sit behind her in a class and she kept turning around to side eye me?? and like im not getting a “ew there are rumors your a furry(i am) and you were involved in a fandom (i was) and you were reading manga in 4th period (yep!)” vibe im getting more of a “you killed my parents and stomped on their graves” vibe which?? is pretty random??? like even when she talks to me its kinda passive aggressive but shes not really involved with that passive aggressive “cringe!1!1!” circle but then again shes always a little passive aggressive with all of us?? and like she always seems to think shes like above us like its constant patronization and like i cant tell if she has a personality besides being condescending BUTRHATSBESIDESTHEPOINT like i actually dont know if its an “ew furry” side eye or an “theres a rumor that you hate homless people” side eye cuz like why would she be literally trying to look at me so hard in first period but like we talked once during a fire drill cuz shes in my hr (actually i thought she like bordered on being a cancels everyone on twitter person but now im thinkikng its the cringe thing bc like she did call our hr teacher fat 17x times) and she wasnt THAT patronizing like maybe shes less patronizing now but anyways i think what really gets me about her is i never let go of the sentiment that she might be kinda cool plus she hangs out with cool ppl so cool by association so it kinda makes me hate that she seems like she doesnt like me and makes me think i mightve done something wrong buti guess i should let that go bc as i think a bit harder abt it they might just thing im cringe which is significantly better than them thinking that im a complete asshole (still not totally convinced tho i do think i can come off as pretentious which i am but i dont want to be but i totally am and one of her friends is in my english (im in my pretentious prime there) so she might think im pretentious that way HHHHHHH) highschool is complicated except its not except it is except its not actually highschool is a completely fucked homogeneous mixture made in a styrofoam cup at a restaurant actually the exact mixture that one kidDUMPED over my HEAD at a restaurant . thats higjschool actually i take it back highschool analogies are cringe i definitely should NOT post it but lord knows im going to . hi everyone

[queenof-narnia-blog]

Jan 2, 2024

I'm still not okay with the fact that you cheated on me. The fact that you ignored me.. that you wanted to see her and you wanted to talk to her instead of me.. is very traumatic. There's not a time that I don't think about it.

Maybe we are not meant together.

Pinipilit ko lang talaga. Kaya siguro kayo nag away ng kapatid mo at nag-move ka sa hometown ko para ma meet siya. Di ko matanggap na kakilala mo lang sa kanya.. ganun na kaagad usapan niyo at willing kang balewalain yung nararamdaman ko para sa kanya.

Baka nga kayo talaga yung naka tadhana at hindi tayo. Kasi di mo naman gugustuhin mag explain at kausapin siya kung hindi siya importante sa iyo to the point na mas inuna mo siya kesa sa akin na matagal mo ng kakilala.

Sabi mo nga same shit everyday.. pero yung trauma hindi na mawala sa akin. Its fine kung ayaw mo na talaga. Kahit bantayan kita, wala na.. its too late niloko mo na ako.

Masyado mo siyang ginusto na halos lahat ng story niya, naka heart react ka or wow react. Halos lahat ng post niya nakikita mo at nag re-react minsan meron pa comments kahit sa IG di mo pinalagpas. You stalked her and took a screenshot telling her how cute she is. How you wanted a hug and a kiss from her.

You never did those to me. You never told me, I was pretty with so many post I shared. You never called my mom "mama". You never told me to send regards to the rest of my family when all we do is wish you the best in life. Even your bio in fb maybe its not for me.. maybe its even for her.

Ikaw nagloko, pero di mo kayang i-share mga pictures natin in public coz you're too scared na baka makita nila or worst is, makita niya. You've never been proud of having me. Lagi mong tinatago yung relasyon natin.

You even unfollowed me on fb. Twice. I guess, she replaced me. Sabi mo nakita mo na di na tayo friends sa fb. But I don't think so, you never checked on me. If you did, you would add me as a friend. You never did.. buti pa siya gumawa ka ng new account to send her a new friend request. For sure, baka nag msg ka pa sa kanila ni Ronna. Sure ako jan kahit di mo aminin. Wag mo din sabihin na lagi kong ginagawa na i-unfriend ka.. kasi, dalawang beses lang. Una nung nalaman kong nagloko ka. Second, netong bagong taon lang kasi gusto na kitang iwan.

I will never be enough for you. And I'm tired of begging to be your priority. I always tell you what's best for you pero never ka nagsabi sa akin kung ano ba makaka buti para sa future natin or kahit pra sa akin. I envy her, coz you always assure her na siya lang ka chat mo which is true din naman kasi di mo ko kina-kausap. I envy her because you always flatter her with flowery words. Ako, ni minsan wala kang sinabi na sana magkita tayo sa panaginip. You never told me to tell you when I reach home.. sabi mo lang prati, ingat sa pag uwi.

You never told me na wag masyadong magpaganda kasi I look pretty na already. With her, sinabi mo. Sobrang sakit na yung taong mahal mo magsasabi nun sa ibang babae. Even once, on your bdays you never told me that you were happy spending it with me. Pero sa kanya you were happy.

Maybe, I was toxic. But, before all that, I was a good happy go lucky girl and that changed when I learned about your past.

You changed me, you betrayed me, you ignored me, you have taken me for granted, you lied to me over and over again. And you kept choosing her first before me. Iniisip mo ano mararamdaman niya pero ako never sumagi sa isip mo. Ako yung taong sinaktan niyo pero mas natakot ka na mawala siya sa iyo. At sabi mo nga sayang pinagsamahan niyo. Kelan lang kayo nagkakilala.. netong July lang. Nahiya naman ako sa pinag samahan niyo.

I'll be very busy these few months. Mag focus nlg ako sa work para di na gaano mag isip. I will never forget what you did. Its been one month.. but the trauma and pain is still fresh both in my mind and my heart. At alam ko lagi ko yun iisipin. Kaya kung gusto mo talaga siya.. pwede mo na siya ligawan. Di na ako magagalit. You can have her back. It seems that's all you wanted too.

You never failed to call her "baby pillow". Every sentence mo may "pillow". You were like that too nung mga panahong wala pa siya. But all of that is gone now. Eventually, all our memories will fade.

I deleted everything in my phone. I just hope this will help me heal. I never imagine myself to get hurt like this. Ikaw may sabit sa atin pero ikaw pa yung nagloko. Siguro oo, lagi akong galit sa iyo but that is not an excuse to find someone new.

Nakaka miss yung dati. Nung bago ka nawala.. lahat ng msg mo sa akin merong iloveyou sa dulo. Pero di na siguro yun mababalik kasi nagmahal ka ng iba at alam ko mas nasaktan ka nung nawala siya sa iyo. You never even shed a tear for me. I never saw you did. But that's okay. Yung feelings di naman yun napipilit. Kaya okay lang. ramdam ko naman na ginusto mo talaga siya. I would understand if you want to pursue her. Di kita pipigilan basta tapusin mo lang yung sa atin. Mas okay yun kesa sabihan ako na mahal ako pero hindi naman na pala.

Good night, mahal pa din naman kita hanggang ngayon. You just wait, I'll move on and wala ng magsasabi sa iyo ng mga ganto araw-araw. Same shit everyday nga dba? Di mo kasi ramdam kaya parang wala lang sa iyo.

Tutulog na ako. Maaga pa ko bukas. Di ko na need magpuyat para antayin ka. You made your choice. And that choice is to talk to her and see her without me knowing. We both grew up in Canda.. what you both did is already dating. Dating while we are still together. Its painful, depressing and very traumatic. Kaya goodjob for making me feel this way. 🙃

[pearlsofthec]

CLARA SOS! My first date ever is with a man to go ice skating at an outdoors xmas market. Assuming followed by dinner out. Outfit ideas?

Okay so I'm going to give you two different answers. Technically speaking it's the same formula but two different vibes, one flowier one mor structured. Let's gooo

First and foremost: pants. I'm such a huge fan of skirts, everyone knows that, however, there's nothing worst than falling over while skating and feeling your whole body freeze because you had nothing but tights protecting your legs. So yeahh, jeans. Any will do, but I'm a fan of the Brandy Melville low rise boot cut ones... basic, ik. Idc though.

I think once you chose to wear jeans, you sort of have to construct your whole outfit around decentering the jean-ness of it all, and there's nothing better than a flowy blouse to do that, let's be honest. Over it, I'd put a huge leather jacket, with a matching bag, both in brown, bringing the outfit down to earth, but in an coordinated manner.

I'd mix the feminine and almost country themes in the shoe area. I love how the snakeskin texture and the slingback model just sort of bring it all together. The cherry on top, of course, would be this gorgeous Hermes snake scarf. Parallels and more parallels. Oh, and no outfit moodboard of mine would be complete without an Alexandre de Paris headband

This second option is literally what I was wearing when I went ice skating with my friends. It was more casual I guess, since afterward we only went to get hot chocolate + aperitivo... But still

I'm once again pushing my Wear Jeans while ice skating agenda, I'm sorry for being boring! ButI love these mid rise ones from Reformation, so cute.

Golden Gooses, which I've been wearing literally EVERYWHERE recently but whatever, i love em. They're casual, but not slobbish? And they're also so fun, which is always a plus.

I was wearing a random creme massimo dutti sweater I got years ago, and still holds up just fine. I know I'm a hypocrite for hating on Zara and then wearing Massimo Dutti, but whatever ahhaha.

Ralph Lauren double breasted blazer because. Ofc!

And then a chanel pochette on chain + black velvet headband as my super mega basic accessories. Cute, practical and simple.

[regulatedchaos]

Nothing gets easier. You just get better.

Tangina mo October natapos ka din. Sobrang bagal mo parang isang taon Yung isang buong bwan hayup ka. Dami nangyari.

Saw a photo of him today together with the package I sent (clothes, tumbler, jacket, journal, letters and our photos)

He looked... Lost, just blank. Nothing like the person I fell in love with. It's saddening. I, I am lost for words. I am just gonna hold on to the thought that he is trying. And that's what's important. I hope the meds are regulated and hope that he is strictly monitored with everything. I thought the package couldve atleast put a smile on his face, kahit slight smirk lang. But no, but idk maybe.. maybe it's too soon. It's just been two weeks anyway. Fuck time is so slow when you want to just disappear and fly already. I'm just so worried maybe that explains the itching on my entire body. Ang lala ng kati kati ko. 😞

I just ate lunch and I saw myself in the mirror. I look pregnant, Yung miserable pregnant, uhm maybe not miserable just someone who's trying to get by. Taking it one day at a time.

Now I feel blank but I'm feeling everything, I'm frustrated, I pity myself, I'm imagining I am sole responsible of how this baby is gonna grow, taking care of the baby, taking care of myself in all aspects, physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually. It seemed like this is a crying moment for me but I don't have any tear to shed. But my heart feels like it's melting and babalik na nmn Ako sa bakit ko ba to nararanasan. Like the suffering I experienced wasnt enough and I have to suffer more. Minsan Yung friends ko na single mom pag nkaikita ko medyo nabubuhayan ako ng loob eh. Na sila nkaakaya naman nila. Nakakagala gala, nakaka lamyerda. Just enjoying life and they have their kid with them throughout all those happy times. So yeah I think I can do it.

Parang gusto ko ilayo ng konti Yung emotions ko ng feelings ko toward Kay Cassie parA di ko sya mamiss. Para mag fade Yung nafifeel ko hoping na I won't get hurt as much. But I don't think that's right or that's fair. He's also a victim here di nmana nya pinili magkatrauma nung Bata eh. Hay idk what to think anymore. I need to be distracted. Yung sa work pa wala ko masyado ginagawa. Tulog lang Ako ng tulog. Tapos nagmeeting kami kanina ni Britt sabi nya nakakapagod daw ginagawa ko mag adjust daw Ako ano daw ba gusto ko gawin less dials more tasks kasi nakka burn out daw mg tawag ng magtwag eh 1-2 hrs ko lang naman ginagawa Yun.

Atleast swerte Ako sa work. Sa 2 kong work actually. Kelangan ko nlnag tong sustain. Sana normal delivery ni papicito para sumakto Yung na save Kong money. My God ayoko mangutang hay. Buti nag start Ako magsave kahit sabi ni Cassie sya magbabayad lahat.

Bakit Kaya feeling ko I'm doing so much in life pero parang di padin sapat? Pero sobra? Bakit ganun? Ah siguro kasi walang emotional or mental fulfillment kahit Anong gawin ko kahit gano kadami, parang ganun padin. Kasi, Alam ko na. Kasi di ko mababago Yung sitwasyon. Mababago ko lang talaga Yung perception ko towards everything.

Tanginang Yan di ko na kelangan ng therapist talaga eh. Thanks Tumblr.

I guess nothing gets easier talaga. You just get better.

11Nov23

[geagan]

062723

lagot ako sa 108 pero excited nako sa labas natin hehe red hot chili peppers shirt all i can think about is how i saw that before them hehe seryoso bagsak ata ako sa exam i finished so early first even dahil nawalan ako ng gana and you really shouldn't put me somewhere i could see trees because then i would just think school is meaningless so i finished early and birdwatched and there was this black butterfly loitering at nagtataka ako kasi ang taas taas ng lipad niya abot niya yung bubong ng court tapos sinaling pa yung basketball ring basketbolista yarn tawa ako nang tawa inwardly kasi bawal mag ingay eh kaya nga ako hindi nagpasa para hindi maistorbo mga kasama ko pero okay lang naman sanay naman akong tumitingin lang i think it's the easiest thing in the world to not have to do or be anything that is tinignan kita nagsusulat ka ang galing naman ng dadu tapos natapos na lahat pero di pa tapos mga kasama ko nakita kita naglakad papalayo alam ko hinihintay mo pa mga kasama mo pero di ko naman alam na hinihintay mo pala ako pesteng signal yan sa jeep magaan pakiramdam ko kahit di tayo magkatabi pakiramdam ko that's the very reason i have to say things just to get them out i guess nilalambing ako ni ice sama raw siyang bikol sige kako pero ikaw muna bumaba na tayo oh my god nakotongan ko si myls ni hindi pa naman kami super close kaso inasar niya ako bigla sayo huhu naglakad ka agad nalito tuloy ako saglit kung lalabas ba talaga tayo kasi anlayo mo na pero makapal mukha ko kaya naglakad lang rin ako tapos binagalan mo naman hanggang sa naabutan na kita excited ako kanina pa pero kahit siguro di tayo magusap ayos lang rin naman your friends are so nice I'm really so confused why they're not my circle dahil buong buhay ko laging sa mga ganong kaibigan ako napupunta hindi ko alam kung alam nila ang tungkol satin ah tungkol pala sakin sayo ewan san tayo punta sa quantum o ano ba tawag don videoke ang hirap pumili ng kanta wala akong maisip pero buti may nalagay bakit mo ako vinivideohan dahil ba nabasa mo yung sa dadu twitter ahahs eh bakit natutuwa naman ako ang ganda ganda ng boses mo yung akin hindi pa rin bumabalik mula nung inubo ako smh paano ako magpapasikat in dreams in dreams in dreams akala ko malungkot akong lalabas pero hindi usap tayo sige buti hindi ako naiyak ayos lang dadu wag kang matatakot sa galit ko hindi mo ako kailangang suklian masyado ka na ngang mabait at hindi ako sumagot kasi hindi ko alam ang sasabihin pero dadu paanong nakakapagod ka kung sayo nga ako nakapagpapahinga kaya sige sabihin mo na lang pag sumusobra na ako quantum quantum quantum kailan mo sasabihin hawak ko na ang kamay mo

[07170]

isnewyork city reallt like a graveyard they all ask me and i say wellit was last week but man rhat was in the past see i stoped going to the places where the people act so nasty and pretentious cuz im happy. sitting wirh my friends on side walks singing songs. and some people are srill standing in the way of where im going so i say please excuse me stepp aside or keep on moving and i guess they sense that my momentum meant rhat i was winning but im only just beginning and id rather go with friends than go alone..:: and some people grab mt hands and some people grab my shirt some people race ahead to see if they can get there first some people stay behind cause theyve gor something else in mind whatever you decide to do if youre true to you youre gona be alright like akitas hes a father now he is in love with amber their bqbys name is skylar hes a baby of rhe summer i wonder as i wonder if ill ever settle downor if every day ill take my roots uprooted onwards to another town.. i was ssitting on a couch somewhere watching vh1 when i found out rhat brucespringsteen is his mothers only son IM MY MOTHERS ONLY DAUGHTER. we were both born to run but even he says its amazing raising babies in the place where you come from… buti am a rock tumbler ive got rocks inside my head and just because they come our shining doesnt mean that they are diamonds but i guess that my worst nightmare is your very favorite bar when im worth my weight in shale and slate ill know that im a super duper star… ill be a great big ball of burning gas and ill be sitting on my big fat ass and sipping cristal lite beside a plastic wading pool.. and the next day ill be somewhere else part of me will hate myself ppart of me will know deep down that i am pretty cool.. part of me that knows i never cared for being cool .. part of me that knows i never cared for being cool… part of me that knows i never cared for being cool.. part of me that knows i never cared for being cool…^_^

[jeanette-luminia]

𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲

wc: 430

a/n: Translations under the cut. Reader has a sister.

"Tanga ka ba?!" You yelled as Bucky Jolted from the sudden screams. He was in the commons room, and you were in your room, even from that distance he could hear your yell loud and clear, he knew you were angry at someone, by the language you were speaking, he already guessed it’s one of your relatives.

"What if you get hurt, or worse?" your voice went from anger to worrisome, as Bucky rounded the corner, he saw you taking a seat on the edge of your bed.

You leaned in as your elbow rested on your thigh with your hand on your chin. When you felt a presence in the room, you quickly glanced at your door then glanced back again to see Bucky leaning against the door frame—with a worried look resting on his face.

“Ayos lang ako ate, buti nakita ako ng kaibigan ko.” 

You sighed, feeling grateful that your sister is okay, “Sige, ako’y bibisita parin sayo ngayon.”

Plopping down the bed on your back, Bucky walked up to you and took a seat beside you. “wag ka na mag lulusot kung saan saan hindi mo alam.” A smile suddenly forms on your face as you hear your sister’s affirmation. Bidding your goodbye, you looked over Bucky with a small grin.

“What?” You chuckled.

“Nothing, what was that about?” He asked, tilting his head a little.

You sighed and sat up and leaned on Bucky whilst he held you close, occasionally brushing the stands on hair in your face. “My sister almost got mugged, but then her friends suddenly saw her, and the man ran away.”

He didn’t say anything and kept patting and playing with your hair, planting a kiss on top of your head, “What are you gonna do about it?”

“I’m gonna visit my sister today, just to see how she’s doing.” You suddenly looked up, staring at Bucky’s blue eyes. “Wanna come with me?”

“You want me to?” He questioned, slowly pulling away as he stared with wide eyes. “Of course, besides, it’s time for you to meet her.” you paused, “That is if you want to.” You smiled before standing up to walk over your closet to pick a simple outfit.

As you were about to get your turtleneck and your wide trousers when you felt a pair of arms wrap around your waist. “I want to.”

“Alright, go get changed.” Grinning widely as he pecked your lips before pulling away, going to his room to get changed.

You have nothing to worry about, after all, your sister would love him.

Translation:

Tanga ka ba?! - Are you an idiot?!

Ayos lang ako ate, buti nakita ako ng kaibigan ko. - I'm fine, It's a good thing my freinds saw me.

Ate - Sister

Sige, ako’y bibisita parin sayo ngayon. - Alright, but I'm still gonna visit you today.

wag ka na mag lulusot kung saan saan hindi mo alam. - don't go anywhere you don't know.

© 𝐋𝐔𝐕-𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐃 - all rights reserved. please do not repost, plagiarize, or translate. please ask me first then credit me once you shared my work to other platforms.

[ugh-tsumu]

Conyo | Kuroo filo!smau

-> Being a freelance photographer is tough. So when Y/N's cousin, Kenma, gave her an offer to be the lead photographer for a friend's wedding, she did not turn it down. What she didn't know, though, is that she will be working with Kuroo Tetsuro - her jejemon ex-suitor. But Kuroo is anything but that! Why? Because he is so conyo na ngayon.

009. Meeting + written text

"Hey, kanina ka pa?" Y/N asked which made Kuroo jump from his seat.

But he was able to regain composure, "No, I just came in actually."

Y/N chuckled as she was about to lean in Kuroo's face, "Buti naman- ay joke."

Na-realize na ng gaga na pabeso na sana siya kay Kuroo HAHAHAHAHA

WHAT'S FUNNY IS, KUROO WAS SOMEHOW EXPECTING IT, TOO? Like, he slightly raised his face to help Y/N? Wala lang. Cute.

Y/N's cheeks are warm as she awkwardly coughed while sitting, "Sorry," she apologized.

Kuroo's grin dissolved before coughing as well, "G lang." Of course 'di siya hahalikan ni Y/N. He's not Fukunaga naman.

"So," Y/N smiled, "Have you ordered-"

"あなたもビデオ撮影を担当していますよね?"

Napanganga si Y/N. Ha?

"Uh, what?"

"¿Tiene una tripulación con la que pueda contactar? O podemos buscar fotógrafos independientes aquí para trabajar con usted."

Parang tanga si Y/N na nakatitig lang kay Kuroo habang minumura siya in different language.

"O mahimo ka nga magtrabaho sa video nga mag-inusara-"

"Ah, Kuroo!" Y/N cut Kuroo off, "Kuroo, sorry, pero 'di kita maintindihan. Pwede Tagalog?"

Kuroo blinked as if he's trying to study Y/N's face. Namula ang gaga. Harot.

"Oh, you don't g it pala?" Kuroo finally realized, "Sorry. I thought kasi aakalain mo na naman na I am jejemon."

Y/N's jaw dropped. Hindi makapaniwala sa sinabi ni Kuroo. Anong...anong nakain nito?

"But anyways!" Kuroo snapped, as if hindi niya nakikitang Y/N is in a state of shock, "I was just asking if you can work on the shoots alone or do you need a crew?"

Y/N blinked multiple times as she processed what the paking shet just happened, "Alone."

"That's terrific!" Kuroo beamed, "Now, for the setting and theme..."

"I guess that's it?" Kuroo sipped on his Cinnamon Dolce Latte (hinanap ko to sa Google, Ito ang pinakasosyal pakinggan), "Public library, museum, and coffee shop ang setting."

Y/N couldn't even speak, nawirduhan pa rin sa pa-instant Google translate ni Kuroo kanina.

"I guess, this meeting is finished?" Kuroo looked up at Y/N, "And we can make shooting na as soon as possible, right? Like, bukas?"

"Ah, oo" ._.

"Perfect!" Kuroo stood up from his seat as he scooped his blazer. But before he could even excuse himself or what, Y/N held him on his forearm.

"Ah, Kuroo!" Y/N accidentally exclaimed. Namula siya nang nilingon siya ni Kuroo.

"Yes, Y/N?" Kalmadong sabi ni Kuroo.

IT'S A PRANK. KINAKABAHAN NA SIYA DEEP INSIDE AT MEDYO NAGWA-WILD DIN KASI PUTRAGIS, BR0, Y/N IS HOLDING HIM-

"I was hoping we can meet again?" Tanong ni Y/N, "Anyday this week!"

"For...another meeting?"

"Ah, hindi," binitawan na ni Y/N si Kuroo sa braso. Gagu, wag mo ko bitiwaaaaan, "Usap-usap lang. Alam mo na, catching up. It's been years na rin since we last talked."

🥺🥺🥺 <- Kuroo

Ay shet, galit nga pala tayo kay Y/N.

Kuroo flashed an arrogant look, "I'm not sigurado with that, Y/N. Deins ako sureball for my sched this week, eh."

Napatango si Y/N, "Ah...wala bang kahit isang araw diyan?"

Kuroo clicked his tongue, "I think alaws, eh," galing magsinungaling.

Y/N nodded disappointedly. K. Sayang.

"Plus, we'll meet naman during shoots," sinusuot na ngayon ni Kuroo ang blazer niya, "Let's keep things between us professional nalang Y/N."

Masterlist

A/N: GOOGLE TRANSLATE LANG PO IYANG CEBUANO, JAPANESE, AND SPANISH. Malay ko kung tama yan.

Also, yes Mami buhay pa to

Taglist. @mirakeul @kirakirasaku @saturnkei @attheia @ntimacy @tsukkinginamo @hoeevern @aozorasannn @tanakasimpcorner @a-nonnie-mousse

Gen. Taglist. @gayerthanthee

[sakurology]

Help!!1!! I was KiDnapp3D!1!!

kidnapped collab: kamomedai hs x reader

Warnings: No edits, cursed writing, eating worms, greatlash mascara

WC: 888

A REAL A/n: Well- here it is: the worst thing I’ve ever written. I’m sorry and I love you. I will now forever have to live with the consequences of what I’ve done.  Find the rest of the lovely fever dream collab here. Ty @undermattsun for organizing this trash fire. Love u Miki and the rest of the whoreH💖me that is the server

Sachiro was an amazing boyfriend. He was my dream guy. Until he betrayed  on me!!1!11! (a/n >.<) I couldn't believe my life ended up like this, not in a million years… but maybe I should start from the beginning…. 

The day I was kidnapped started like any other tbh. It wasn;t special except for that  the day was October 27th. That seems normal but it isn't because it’s me and Sachiro’s anniversary. I woke up excited, i barely slept the night before. Running to the bathroom, I wiped the sleep out of my big brown eyes and got ready for the day, trying just enough, but not enough for him to notice. 

I threw on some mascara, and instead of my normal messy bun, I opted to actually straighten my curly hair for once. I never wear makeup, but thinking about how special today was, I put on three coats of mascara (a/n: I use greatlash its amazinqqq!) so that my brown eyes would pop! I wore my usual skinny jeans and band tee- but that day I wore an arctic monkeys one because tgats Sachiros favorite band. I also bought some super special chunky heels with my tips from the cafe I worked at, I really hoped he would love them. 

When he texted me where to meet for our anniversary date, waas over the moon, I got into my sh!tty volkswagen beetle (a/n sorry for swears >.<) and made sure I had my lucky green flannel inthe backseat just in case we finally got to go all the way… I was nervous because really we had only ever kissed before, but not with tongue because it creeps me out. But I was hopeful! But anyway,  on the way there I ran into my boyfriend's best friend! He’s always been a little weird butI just figured thats because all he thinks about is volleyball- which is also weird. His name is Korai anf he’s just really strange- he looks like a seagull, and even eats french fries off the ground like one sometimes. But I guess youcan’t really choose who your friends with. When I was driving I saw Korai on the side of the road. I stopped since I knew him, because I’m not a total b!tch or anything.

“Hey, do your\\ rty657 need help?” Ia asked. 

He told me he had a flat tire. 

“Yeah I have a flat,” He replied. “Could you help me change the tire?”

I looked at him like he was an alien with three heads. I mean really? Me?!1?11!? Changing a tire? I don’t know the first thing about cars. But I figured I could try and help somehow.

When I walked over to help him he was standing by the trunk.

“The spare tire is in here,” he began and took it out of the trunk and rolled it on the ground a little. He wiggled his finger for me to come over there. 

“Can you hold these tools for me?” he asked.

I held them. But I shouldn’t have. The last thing I remembered was leaning into the trunk to help him reach for something… and then… darkness…..

(a/n I hope you’re liking this so far <333 make sure to comment :3 o-0)

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I work up and I was in a gym that smelled like socks and it was really dark inside the gym. I could barely see people but there were shadows so I knew something was up. I saw their bodies slowly coming into the frame and then they all started talking 

“Your awake” it was Sachiro. I kniw the voice was his right away (a/n: biq twist for the plotw!)

“What is this?” I was straped to a chair and I couldn’t move my arms and legs because they were behind my back. I tried to move them but I couldn’t. 

“Ypu are our new servant for life,” he said to me, turning on blinding lights that gabe me a slittnf headache.

I was struggling in the chair as he came up to me with a plate of something snad shoved it in my face

“Eat up, you need yuor strength to clean the gym”

It was a plate of cold french fries and worms moving through them!1! (a/n: ew lol I thought that would be funny xD)

“Sachiro why” I screamed, turning my head away from the disgusting food. 

I said I loved him anyway, and I thought he loved me too. He pulled my hair back and said 

“I thought you loved me!!!” (a/n: </3333)

“Oh y/n if only someone loved you” (a/n haha I love frozen s0 much!)

I started to cry I couldn't believe this. 

Korai his friend, took a handful of my meal, eating it greedily. 

“You know I only love volleyball and Arctic Monkeys,” Sachiro yelled at me. He yelled very loud. 

I couldn’t believe I had been tricked. I had been kidnapped. When they both tried untyingme I ran away, but I couldnt make it out of the basement because I tripped in my chunky black heels!!1! I bought them for him, and now they were my downfall. I couldn’t believe I had been kidnapped and that this was my lifw now.